#listen back then when I was younger I liked mlp

[smiledog15578]

Burn notice didn’t need this but it’s a fun exercise for myself

[giddlygoat]

my brother can make me laugh without moving at all. he can make me laugh on command, just by existing, and there is no physical tell or indication that it is about to happen. it’s like he can will me to laugh and i will. of course we’re not telepathic, but we do speak in unison sometimes. we improvise like no one’s business. we could fool anyone into believing we are psychically linked. when i try to explain it, i sound silly saying it out loud, but i really CAN tell what he’s thinking. we exchange so much information just with a look. he can make me cry laughing and he doesn’t even have to move

[bixels]

If it's not too much trouble would you mind sharing more on your thoughts about AJ? Esp the line she shouted at Rarity and her "struggle with sexual identity" I'm kind of new so I would like to hear more! Does Rarity also struggle with sexual identity and fearing AJ would leave? I love the family oriented person A and the business inclined and impressed by shiny new things person B trope

Ok, this is gonna get into head canons and personal opinions.

The writing in Rollercoaster of Friendship (and EQG as a whole) is much simpler and more stripped down in comparison to FiM (most likely to appeal to a younger audience; don't want to seem like I'm dissing the writers), but that one confrontation made me sit up in my seat because it carries the entire special.

More under the cut cuz I don't want MLP analyses clogging up my blog.

For one, we've seen AJ get frustrated and angry about the same exact conflict over a girl in FiM (Rara), establishing a pattern. And even though she's right (her friend really is being manipulated), I read both cases as her acting out in jealousy too. Here's this girl who she's felt a unique attachment to being "taken away" and changed by someone new. This is most apparent in RoF; the moment Vignette introduces herself, kisses Rarity on both cheeks, and establishes herself as Rarity's "new best friend," AJ immediately reacts with shock, betrayal, and boldfaced jealousy (made even worse when Rarity forgets her during introductions). Although AJ acts independent, she's actually very emotionally dependent on certain people in her life.

If we come into this with the assumption that AJ has romantic feelings for Rarity –– which is a normal assumption given the director/writer confirmed the special was written as a romantic drama between the two –– AJ's line is all the more heartbreaking. If I may slip into fictional speculation: your crush is no longer listening or paying attention to you, even though you know something is wrong and that she's getting hurt. Your frustration at her lack of awareness is really your anger at her lack of care –– she doesn't care about you anymore. So in a fit of rage, in your big, dramatic confrontation, just to make her look at you, react at you, feel how she's been making you feel all day –– unwanted and unspecial –– you hurt her back. AJ yells, "You're not special!" and Rarity cries.

And what really gets me is that AJ lies. In this moment, she lies that Rarity's not special when (again, assumption of romance) she's the most special person in the world to her. So special that she's placed all her feelings of self-assurance and security on their relationship. So special that the moment their relationship is shaken and she doesn't know to recover it –– recover herself –– she lashes out, acts against her character, and says something dishonest just to hurt the girl she loves.

(Honestly, rewatching this special, AJ is so insecure and attention-needy. The way she pouts and slouches and lags behind the group and says, "Never mind. It's nothing," when asked what's wrong is textbook "please pay attention to me and ask me what's wrong because i need a reason to be honest about feelings i know i should be ashamed of" behavior.)

I think AJ's insecurities (which could be tied to her lack of experience with romantic relationships) reveal how she has a tendency to misattribute and redirect anger onto the person she cares most about (see Simple Ways as well, where she's caught on the opposite end of a jealousy spat). This could easily become a very toxic trait, but AJ grows past it. Near the end of RoF, the two come together and apologize. AJ recognizes her entitlement and confesses her insecurities about their relationship. She felt hurt and attacked when her status as Rarity's best friend/girlfriend was threatened because it's a role she uses to self-identify –– if Rarity isn't hers, she loses part of her identity. And she admits that she thought her motivation was to protect Rarity, but really she was just being selfish and protecting herself. Rarity was busy and stressed and needed someone to lean on just as much AJ needed her. She isn't AJ's emotional support girlfriend, and it wasn't right to expect her to be one.

(Which is why Rarijack is peak because throughout both series, they repeatedly show just how important honesty, open communication, and trust is in maintaining, supporting, and growing a romantic relationship.)

[edupiii]

im distraught by the fact Murder Drones is ending, so to make me (and possibly you) feel better, here are:

Some Random MD Character Head Cannons!

Most of these are goofy silly and aren’t really that important, but I wanted to share them anyways :3

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Uzi 🦇

- uses she/they pronouns but is fine with being referred to with other pronoun sets. however, they don’t like to be referred to as it/it’s since this set was used in a derogatory way towards her when they were younger (still sometimes is)

- has autism + ADHD but is not accommodated for it in school

- her guilty pleasure anime is Ouran High School Hostclub (kiss kiss fall in love!)

- had a My Little Pony phase when they were younger and even made a pony sona. When she’s tired and can’t sleep, she puts on their favourite mlp episodes and listens to them while they fall asleep

- is a Warrior Cats kid

- listens to hyper-pop and scene music along with their usual rock, goth, scream-o and night core songs

- is a passionate artist but has kept her sketch books and digital drawings hidden from others ever since they were mocked for drawing “cringey stuff” in elementary school. They still draw when she has free time and she has become more comfortable sharing their art work again (though mostly only with N)

- has multiple fursonas

- also has a crap tone of ocs with super traumatic backstories

- loves to watch crappy horror movies because she laughs at the dumb choices the stupid human protagonists make. however if N is ever over for a sleepover, she’ll refrain from suggesting any scary movies since they know he doesn’t like horror

- they were picked on for having a unconventional name at a young age, but when she found out it was the name of a firearm, she began to believe she had the coolest name out of all of their peers

- knows all of the FNAF game and book lore and will talk about it if given the chance to

- wants tattoos and piercings but thinks they would look weird or bad on her since they’re a robot. to compensate, they occasionally will put super cool stickers she finds on her plating

- has extensive knowledge on Pokémon types weaknesses and strengths

- writes and reads fanfic

- after Nori passed, young Uzi would try to talk to Khan about mechanical engineering just so he would pay attention to them

- Uzi and Thad were decent friends in kindergarten and elementary school, however they grew apart due to their differing personalities and social groups as they got older. Uzi believes that Thad did this on purpose to preserve his popularity. Thad is not aware of this belief.

- already had intrusive thoughts before the Solver was activated, but they became more aggressive and disturbing after it awoke

- despite enjoying getting work done in silence or listening to music, they find that she works better when N is nearby talking about anything. it’s like a comforting white noise

- has a bad habit of challenging V to anything and everything. this is simply because they know V won’t back out, guaranteeing a fun yet quite spiteful competition for the two

N 🐶

- mainly uses he/him pronouns but is open to multiple pronoun sets

- has ADHD and social anxiety

- whenever he hears classical music, his anxiety spikes a bit as it reminds him of his time in the Elliot Manor

- knows how to slow dance but isn’t very good at it

- before Tessa repaired him, N was originally discarded due to his lack of boundaries with humans (aka, speaking casually to them/out of turn), and his clumsiness

- is the fastest of the DD trio

- he doesn’t really enjoy anime as much as Uzi does but he really likes western cartoons like Adventure Time, The Owl House, Craig of the Creek, etc.

- very much dislikes horror in any form (have it be in a movie, video game, book, etc)

- likes to watch nature documentaries, however he skips the bits when an animal dies or is hurt because he feels bad for them

- doesn’t enjoy loud noises or shouting, however he makes an exception for Uzi and V when they yell out in excitement

- knows an ungodly amount of information regarding dogs, wolves or just canines in general. he will start talking about them if ever given the chance

- he doesn’t always understand some things Uzi talks about but he listens anyways since he enjoys her voice and company

- brings V out to social gatherings in the bunker in an effort to get her more aquatinted with the colony and make the workers feel more comfortable around her. However his efforts are in vein since by the end of the party, V is standing against a wall gabbing with Lizzy and every other drone is avoiding her

- N has tried to learn about football so he could play with Thad and his team, but he didn’t understand the rules in the slightest and worried about tackling Worker Drones and potentially hurting them

- when him and Uzi first had a sleepover, he wandered around her room and asked about all the trinkets, plushies, books and posters they had

- draws whenever he gets the chance and gifts his doodles to his friends

- isn’t very good at fighting games, but loves playing games like Stardew Valley, Animal Crossing and Spiritfarer

- whenever at sleepovers, N tries to get everyone (usually Uzi, V, Lizzy, and Thad) to play Just Dance or do karaoke of Disney songs

- vocal stims words he thinks sound interesting

- he often feels as though he speaks too much, so he usually apologizes when talking about something he likes or just knows a lot about. Uzi and him have actually developed a thing where if he feels like he’s been talking for too long, he will give her a thumbs up to which she will respond with two thumbs up, letting him know that he’s good to keep talking and doesn’t need to apologize

- really wants to find out where all the immortal dogs had been put so he can go visit them

V 🦊

- uses she/her pronouns but she is okay with they/them pronouns too

- has generalized anxiety disorder

- when she was a worker in the Elliot Manor, she kept quiet to avoid upsetting or disturbing any of the humans around her. even when spoken to, she would speak as little as possible

- before Tessa repaired her, V was originally discarded due to her poor vision and skittishness around humans

- always found her maid uniform to be stuffy, irritating, and incredibly hard to move in, hence why now she doesn’t wear pants or anything constricting

- remembers the entirety of her Solver transformation but isn’t able to remember much of her time being possessed by the Solver

- she is physically the strongest of the DD trio

- whenever she is introduced to someone new (have that be through N or Lizzy), her first response is to try and intimidate them by saying unsettling things or bringing out some of her weapons. this is her way of judging the individuals character and helps her decide if she actually wants to be around them or not. due to this way of introduction, her friend circle is very small and many workers avoid her as much as possible

- tries to avoid affection or comfort from others as much as possible since she doesn’t know how to physically or emotionally react to it

- also try’s to avoid comforting others since she doesn’t believe she’s very good at it (she’s not good at it but she’s learning lol)

- thanks to Uzi, V now likes to listen to J-Pop and vocaloid

- whenever she is genuinely complimented she sputters a bit but will quickly respond with something along the lines of “i already knew that” or “and it took you this long to notice?”

- V is still unsettled by Uzis wings and tail as it is a continuous reminder of her own transformation. she’s become a lot more used to them being present but they still cause her to twitch uncomfortably

- doesn’t enjoy parties or sleepovers but if N, Lizzy or Uzi invite her to one, she has a bit of difficulty saying an honest no. she’ll suffer through the social interaction to make the few people she cares about tolerates happy

- unlike N and Uzi, she enjoys hunting for her oil and feels embarrassed when it is given to her in a canister. in private, she will go out and hunt for a bot or two from a different colony, however she doesn’t torture her prey like she used to

- V will occasionally put on her prom dress and strut around in it because it makes her feel good

- she isn’t very good at video games, but if challenged to a fighting game, she can’t say no

J 🐯

- uses she/her pronouns (trans women btw)

- experiences imposter syndrome quite frequently and when this happens, she will become more strict with her peers in hopes that the overcompensation will cause others to not question her authority or ability. This applies to both her time in the Elliot Manor and her time being the DD trio leader

- acted as Tessa’s main assistant at the manor, helping her keep on schedule and debriefing her on the days tasks. despite her attempts to keep Tessa on track, J found both herself and her human companion getting sucked into whatever nonsense Tessa wanted to do

- before Tessa repaired her, J had been originally discarded due to her unwelcoming attitude and overly strict demeanour

- J likes to draw but she doesn’t/didn’t often have the free time to sit down and doodle

- has the most difficulty remembering what happened at Elliot Manor since she is the most in line with her original programming

- is the main strategist of the DD trio

- would practice her monologues when she flew alone and would try them out on unsuspecting prey

- pitched the idea of keeping count of kills to V, which created a not so friendly competition between the two. N attempted to join but would forget to track how many kills he got during each hunt

- once on Copper-9, she found herself getting homesick fairly often. despite her workaholic tendencies, she misses the days of goofing off with Tessa

- J has a large skill set when it comes to her arsenal. V prefers her claws and blades while N prefers his blades and guns, but she doesn’t prefer one weapon over the other(s) because she is well versed in using all of them

That’s all for now!

　　　　　　　･:*+.\(( °ω° ))/.:+

[rosypenguins]

🍃🌸Green Gang Headcanons!🌸🍃

🩷Elliot🩷

🩷Surprisingly a lot stronger than he seems. (Carries 40lb bags of gardening soil like it’s nothing.)

🩷Always really warm for some reason.

🩷Probably has terrible posture. Man is always hunched over.

🩷His hands are probably really shaky too. Even when he’s relaxed.

🩷Would 100% listen to Cavetown.

🩷Plays FPS games with Milly suprisingly. (Thank you @ratkingnezu for this one. 🙏)

🩷He probably secretly loves MLP. (And when Milly found out they definitely binged the series together.) (His favorite character’s Fluttershy.)

🩷Gives names to all his plants.

🩷Aurizzm King. 👑 (He’s literally so charming without even trying.)

🩷 Probably doesn’t know what a twink is. (But if he had it explained to him he’d probably unashamedly agree that he is a twink.)

🩷Would probably be more than comfortable wearing a skirt.

🩷“I need a kind of woman that’ll actually just kill me.”

🩷Needs reassurance 24/7. (Milly leaves him alone for two minutes. “She probably hates me…”)

🩷Terrified of rejection. (Literally avoids doing things just so he can’t be rejected.)

🩷Literally the whiniest person with the people he’s comfortable around.

🩷Finds ways to win arguments in the shower. (But clams up in any real confrontation.)

🖤Bradley🖤

🖤Probably gets mistaken as an adult a lot. (Everyone assumes he’s around 21-25.)

🖤95% of his wardrobe is just tracksuits. Man wears nothing else. (He’d totally wear one on a date or something and think nothing of it. 😭)

🖤Lifts 200lbs. “I’m gonna be so good at hugging.”

🖤Listens to a lot of heavy metal, but specifically the songs that have like the really soft vocals and absolutely insane drums.

🖤Oh but you know he also listens to Sabrina Carpenter whenever he goes jogging.

🖤Good at pretty much any sport he tries. (Even without any practice.)

🖤Probably likes his food really bland. Like he seasons nothing.

🖤Refuses to kill bugs if they get inside. Traps them in cups and takes them outside.

🖤Momma’s boy 100%.

🖤He’d be the type of boyfriend to overhear his partner off-handedly mention they’ve been craving strawberries, then go out to a strawberry field to pick only the finest of strawberries to bring home, wash, cut, and serve to his partner. (And then he says nothing about it afterwards.) (Man would be DEDICATED.)

🖤Physically incapable of talking to girls. (Or anyone he deems attractive really.)

🖤He’s one of those people that’ll just linger in the corners of social gathering for like two hours, surveying the vibes and conversations without realizing how creepy he’s coming off as, and only once he’s figured out the topic of discussing and how everyone’s feeling, he’ll try to blend into the conversation and not understand why everyone seems a little off-put by him.

🖤Has a really bad habit of just staring at people. (Probably likes people-watching in general.)

🖤The gardening club has a group-chat and Bradley refuses to talk in it. Like, the most he’ll do is send some Instagram reel of a cat, then go back to lurking for the next several months.

🖤Probably has that damn pineapple in his room still, which he talks to sometimes. 🍍

🖤Sometimes just leaves conversations without really saying anything. Like someone will be in the middle of talking and he’s just “-aight, I’m out.”

💚Faye💚

💚She’s really bad about staying asleep. She tends to wake up at like 3:00am every other night, and since I like to imagine her and Dom share a room, she probably wakes him up sometimes.

💚Midnight snacker 100%.

💚She’s really quiet when she moves, so sometimes it seems like she just spawns in when she’s actually been standing there for several minutes. (She’s fully aware of this and likes using it to startle people.)

💚Along with spiders I think she’d like sharks too.

💚Loves being in the dark.

💚Sensitive to loud noises.

💚Her and Dom were always bringing bugs inside the house when they were younger.

💚Was obsessed with fairies when she was younger. But not the pretty Disney fairies. She liked the fairies from mythology that would curse people and steal names. (She’d pretend to steal Dom’s name all the time.)

💚Also had a Warrior Cats phase. (She had a whole medicine cat OC and can still name all the herbs used in the books.)

💚Aro-ace.

💚Doesn’t really get mad often, but when she does she’s terrifying. (Even Dom get’s a little on-edge.)

💚Really bad at reading facial expressions and social cues. Unless something is directly stated she’s going to be very confused.

💚Neither her nor Dom have a single pair of normal white socks. They always have to be brightly colored, or have fun patterns on them.

🧡Dominic🧡

🧡When he first saw Ratatouille, it became his whole personality for like a month. (He still refers to every rat as Remy.)

🧡Probably watches Dragon Ball.

🧡Really likes Squishmallows.

🧡One of those people who wants like literally every animal as a pet. (Despite being fully aware that many of the animals he wants very well might kill him.)

🧡Probably still afraid of the dark. (And keeps a night-light in his bedroom.)

🧡Very accident-prone. (And has probably broken several bones before.)

🧡Pan. (And absolutely terrible at flirting.)

🧡He’s surprisingly good at reading people, but only because he knows what patterns and smaller details to look for. (He’s a little better with social cues than Faye, but not by much.)

🧡Cuts his own hair. Thinks hairstylists are a scam.

🧡Probably draws on his shoes.

🧡I like to think the sweater he wears is actually too small for him. (Considering the sleeves cut off a little short.) He outgrew it last year but he’s emotionally attached to it so he refuses to wear anything else.

🧡Had a Wings of Fire phase. (Is probably still in said phase.)

🧡Looks at obviously hot object. “Hm, I wonder if this is hot.” Places hand on hot object to check. Shocked when it burns him.

🧡Him and Faye always had to pull out the measuring tape whenever they were told to split something.

🧡He’s probably a lot more protective of Faye than he lets on. (He’s probably older by like, 5 minutes and refuses to let Faye forget that.)

🧡Left-handed. (Not really a headcanon I just wanted to point this out. If you go back to the first episode of the spin-off you can see Dom’s pencil’s on his left side. He later uses his left hand to spin the pencil around, too.)

🧡He likes stealing Elliot’s glasses to see how bad Elliot’s vision is.

🧡Him and Faye have oddly good senses of smell.

🧡The biggest baby when he’s sick. (Yet he actively refuses to take medicine.)

🧡Probably a secret anarchist.

[clqveris]

stock dancing but it's all the fandoms i've ever been in

despite tumblr's accounts being called blogs, this is probably going to be the only "blog post" that I'll ever post. at least in the near future.

it's going to be a long one. disclaimer, it will contain some talk of things like fandom discourse, as well of mentions of Dead Dove topics, so scroll away if you need.

it will also be pretty personal, so I'm not adding all the tags for the fandoms and characters. this is mostly to those who know me.

I'll start at the beginning, in the best chronological order that I can remember. Not by order of appearance in the video, because I kept forgetting what came first when drawing the frames.

My Little Pony (Rarity) and Warrior Cats (Firestar)

These were my very first "fandoms." Before I even went to school, I discovered MLP on the television. I then proceeded to draw those stupid little ponies on the desk and some plastic containers. Thankfully it was with pencil, and not on any important containers and whatnot. Very glad I'm not a brony now, and very glad there was a human version so I didn't have to make a pony awkwardly dance.

Warrior cats was a series I read for a long time. I don't remember when I dropped it, but I just ended up losing interest. It has been stretched out by a lot by now, I believe. Warrior cats was also the first fandom that I "participated" in, by using Amino. Somehow, miraculously, I got out unscathed. By that, I mean no "safe adults" or suspicious people approached me. Not that I would've fallen for it after listening to internet safety week. Firestar is at the end of the animation because, well, it's difficult to make a non-anthro cat dance the same way as people do.

It's funny, because these two are most associated with people becoming furries later on in life, and somehow I am the only one who doesn't take much of an interest in furries within my friend group.

LittleBigPlanet (Sackboy) and Vocaloid (Miku)

LBP wasn't something that I was really "in a fandom" for, but I definitely really enjoyed playing it with my best friend and even made my own username based on it. I remember playing LBP, LBP2, and LBP3, and the disaster that was LBP3 because after finishing the story, none of it would load properly. Tons of surfaces and props would just be missing. Still, it's a nice game to look back on.

I will be honest, this is probably the first Miku I've drawn. Vocaloid has just been a thing in my life since discovering it back... I don't remember when, but the first music that went in playlists of music I liked to listen to was generally made with vocaloid or other voice synthesizers. Miku has always been there, somehow.

*not to be mistaken with AI voice generators, as people actually agree to provide their voice for the voice synthesizers

Marvel (Winter Soldier), Pokemon (Misty), Yandere Simulator (stand in- Vera)

I never drew anything for Marvel, except for the above frame. My family watched it when I was younger, everyone watched it before it started falling off after the infinity stones thing got resolved. The only reason I put it here was because I definitely read fanfiction for it, and definitely thought there was something fruity about america and his best friend. I mean, you find yourself in the future and everyone you've ever known is dead except wait, your best friend isn't, but he's brainwashed and now you have to kill him, so you betray the government and all your new friends instead to try and reach him. Shame that kind of story was stuck in the mcu.

Pokemon was an interesting phase. I drew Pokemon in ms paint, but never any of the humans. I had (still have some) Pokemon plushes and watched the first Pokemon anime on Netflix when it was still on there. I also watched the one with Serena. This was also the fandom that I first discovered porn. And tentacles. So if you ask me why, it's because of Pokemon. It's rather funny, because once again, I seem to be the only one in the friend group who doesn't take an interest in Pokemon anymore.

Yandere Simulator was discovered in elementary school. Because it's been shown that the dev was found to be interacting inappropriately with minors, I have not drawn the protagonist of the game and instead used an OC of mine as a stand in. All you need to know about Vera is that he is not a good person. I used to draw for this fandom back in my Amino days, just a bit, but ended up dropping it because of more and more people pointing out his incompetency. Plus, the complaint that to do anything in game you would have to watch the videos on YouTube, thus making a blind playthrough impossible. As well as his "sex license" comment, which was more than enough to turn me away from that game.

That aside, YanSim was my first exposure to the "yandere" trope- the obsessive, possessive type characters. In the game, it was done in a very bland way, but I like the general idea of the trope. Its influence still drives me towards certain preferences of mine in other fandoms, but I'd rather attribute that to Araki, who apparently popularized the trope with Yukako. I guess this is probably where my interest in "bad things happening in fiction" started.

Don't Hug Me I'm Scared (Sketchbook), Don't Starve (Willow), Cookie Run (Roguefort Cookie)

Initially, DHMIS was going to be my second or third fandom on the list, but I realized that I got into it when I was old enough to have an email address, and not before. Hence, now it's down here. I ended up using that popular design of the human sketchbook to be recognizable. It was an interesting fandom, and also another from my Amino days. I don't know who came up with the idea of the sketchbook and the clock having a love-hate relationship, but looking back on it, they might've been cooking. I remember joining a discord server for it, having my phone get taken away, and then coming back and the server was about the grinch. I also remember that this was the first time I actually interacted with the community and talking to the others within the fandom, since the Amino community was pretty small. I look back at it and cringe, because there are so many things I did for attention. Instead of linking back to a person, I would put emojis around the link with sunglasses and pointing hands saying "This idea came from 😎 👉 this person." All that aside, this is probably where my interest in horror started.

The only reason I remembered that I was technically in the Don't Starve fandom was because I went looking in my folder of drawings and found some there. Then I remembered that yes, I had also read fanfiction for it. Mostly, though, it was a videogame that I played with my family. I ended up using the charcoal pencil brush here for Willow, instead of the pen, to mimic the artstyle just a bit.

Cookie Run is a fandom that I was in, and only get back in briefly whenever Roguefort is in an event. I also first discovered it due to an artist on tumblr who I followed for DHMIS. No idea where they are now because I can't remember the correct spelling of the username. Other than that, I just play the game, which I have been playing since before high school. Now I am out of high school. It was also the fandom that I believe was probably responsible for a good amount of my early art improvement, due to some art challenge where you drew every cookie. Overall, fond memories, but I'd rather not return to the fandom. Too much drama, too many people making big fusses over dumb shit. The Valentine's Day video being an especially dumb one, especially when you consider that maybe, putting in offensive stereotypes contributes to bad perceptions of real life people vs some ship between biscuits. I even remember asking, when I was younger, "Should I ship Pink Choco cookie with White Choco cookie or Hero cookie? I can't decide." Poor little me didn't know about multishipping, and the answer I got was that "Some people headcanon the Choco cookies as siblings, so it's safer to ship her with Hero." Well, now that I'm older, I have decided that I don't have the energy to act like fictional ships anywhere near the same level as real relationships and problems, and would probably ship both were I still interested in the fandom.

Team Fortress 2 (Sniper), Doki Doki Literature Club (Monika), Jojo's Bizzare Adventure (Kakyoin)

Yes, I was in the TF2 fandom. I barely played the game but I usually played as Medic when I did. I also realize that as I type this out, this might have been the original old men thing. Or at least, some of the oldest. I drew them a lot, and I wrote a fic that I orphaned some years later out of shame. It had a werewolf in it for some reason, and was multiple chapters. Although each chapter was only about 1000 words, compared to my current long-term multichapter fic which easily have 2000+ a chapter. Well, aside from that, I don't know why I liked Sniper the most. He throws piss in bottle and I will say, piss is something I avoid if I can. It's in my muted words somewhere.

I never personally played DDLC. I did watch playthrough of it, and seeing people's reactions to some of the stuff was always enjoyable. Yes, Monika was my favorite, and still is. I can't say with certainty why she is, but maybe I just found her the most interesting out of all the characters. This fandom I remember drawing for because this is where one of my OCs originated from, although that character I am only really remembering as I type this out, despite repurposing her.

JJBA. I cannot say that I look back at my time here happily. This is probably where I first started learning about the current state of fandom (ie, Not Good) and getting a bit of personal experience with it. At the time, I did enjoy it. I enjoyed talking in a ship server (A) about it, and another general server (B) about it. It was great and all, until A started blowing up. Which wouldn't be a problem if it didn't have a blacklist of topics that anyone could add to. They're useful in smaller circles, yes, but in large public servers, most things are going to end up being blacklisted. I remember dresses and "positive talk about mothers" being blacklisted, and eventually I got too anxious that I would say something on the blacklist to speak at all. B was okay, and I even tried to get over my fear of talking to strangers in voice chat by joining one during a whiteboard or something similar where everyone draws on the same canvas. I later ended up deleting all 200+ of my messages there and leaving. Why? Because the members of the server did not know the concept of "block and move on." "Scroll away." "Ignore things that you don't like online." A popular artist in the fandom was brought up and the people started trashing on them because of their wedding, which was apparently themed with the favorite JoJo ship. (But honestly, if someone wanted to theme their wedding to a ship I would respect the hell out of them.) The reason I ended up leaving that server was because they started saying stuff like, "It's creepy and weird, because the characters are minors so there's probably something wrong with that person," and implying such things over a JoJo ship of all things. (And, it gets into the territory of the "violent videogames are the cause of vioence" argument. Do you think that because I particularly enjoy using shotguns in videogames because I find them satisfying means that I want to go out and shoot real people with a shotgun? The state of gun control in the US is awful, and if anything, I want less guns.) And, generally, judging things by how "weird" they are rather than whether it harms or helps people is too arbitrary of a measure. Unfortunately, this was far from the last time that I would see serious accusations made on the basis of dumb shit, and now I am doubtful of most callout posts.

Other than that, at least I know all the Jojo references people complain about seeing all the time. Although, now that I'm not into JoJo, I don't actually see that many jokes about it.

Helltaker (Malina) and Weak Hero (Alex)

Malina gets two frames because she unluckily got the one that did not show her face. I can't say I remember much about the Helltaker community, but this was the community that I posted on Reddit to. Since then I have not used Reddit, but it was a good game and people seemed nice, at least from what I remember. Azazel was the one I drew the most, but Malina is a gamer girl, so I chose her for this.

I only remember Weak Hero because I saw that I drew a total of two images for this fandom. I discovered it on Webtoon, and joined a server which I have long since left, and that's all I can remember. Other than that, it was a webtoon with fighting and that's all I can say.

Omori (Omori) and Genshin Impact (Xinyan)

Omori was the first rpgmaker game I actually drew things for, although most of these drawings consisted of Sweetheart. Although I do like Ib and The Witch's House and Corpse Party, I never really went into the fandom. There wasn't much else to it, but the plot of Omori was good and it led me to discover one of my favorite artists, who, unfortunately, has left the internet. I wish them well.

Xinyan is here because she was and still is one of my favorites from the game. I wish she got better treatment from the game, especially gameplay-wise. I haven't drawn much for this game, due to the level of detail on outfits, but I did still play it for two years and read fanfiction for it. Lately I've just been watching videos for the story quest, though. Uninstalling it gave me 50+ GB back of space on my computer. About the Genshin fandom... JoJo may have been my first real bad experience with how online communities are, but this was my first time seeing how widespread it was. Lots of baseless accusations, fighting over headcanons, telling people awful things because they dislike a character... Well, the post that says the best way to enjoy fandom is to enjoy it with a small circle becomes more and more correct.

OC era (Left to Right- Aster @/sepialkali, Lucy @/hattiestgal, Alason @/moonlightguardianmoon, Zion @/sweet-pattycakes, Bisu/Sparrow @/monarch-orien, and Danaus)

For this one I realized that I had leftover blank frames at the end of the animation, and asked my friends for their ocs to fill in. This era lasted a very long time, and started because I discovered Tupperbox. Since then, my characters have become a lot less watered down as I drifted away from roleplay, and most of the things I do with them is just art now. Two of them are getting a sort of visual novel story thing made of them though, if that counts for anything.

Nu:Carnival (Kuya), Stardew Valley (Elliott), Wildfrost (Tusk)

Despite playing this game for a sizeable amount of time, the most I've done for this fandom was read fics and draw an event character once. Somehow, despite the bland gameplay, I have made a habit of continuing to play the game. I used Kuya because he's the only character I consistently roll for.

I first played Stardew Valley a long time ago without mods, and then forgot about it for a few years. When I came back to it earlier this year, I thought it would be funny to install mods that makes characters into crazy yanderes. It was definitely entertaining, although most of them were pretty standard. I will give massive props to whoever made the Elliott one, because they added events and schedule changes and a lot more than just dialogue changes. Anyways, the reason this is here is because I decided, on a whim one day, to start writing a very long fic for Stardew. This was at the beginning of the year, and it is not even halfway through right now. Then I lost interest in the game while retaining an interest in writing the fic, somehow.

Wildfrost I picked up near the beginning of the year. It doesn't have much of a story, and there's little fanart because of that, but the character designs are pretty good. I still play it daily, and Tusk is still a good unit, because it's basically free damage.

Honkai Star Rail (Peepaw Welt), The Greatest Estate Developer (Lloyd), The Coffin of Andy and Leyley (Ashley)

Honkai Star Rail remains on my computer, but I cannot find the energy to open and play it. Each new character becomes its own meta, and the gameplay loop isn't that enjoyable anymore. During the time that I did, however, I had my 50/50s ruined twice by Welt, which is why he is here. Otherwise I would've chosen Tingyun or Yanqing instead. Gameplay aside, I am lucky to have found a good community for this fandom through a ship server, as an almost complete mirror of the previous servers I was in for JoJo. They are what keeps me in the fandom.

TGED was a very short era that lasted for less than a month. During that time, however, I was afflicted by the demons, and drew and even wrote a decent amount (at least for my standards.) Funnily enough, what drove me away from it was the server I was in for it. This fandom is a very small one, and so the server had probably the majority of active fandom members that could speak English. What made me leave was the poor moderation and some immaturity from some members. Links to NSFW fanart was allowed in the same channel as SFW fanart, NSFW conversations wouldn't always be in the NSFW channel... Which, if it was an adults only server, would've been fine, but it is not, and I feel that this server is a genuine safety concern with the NSFW problem.

TCOAAL was a game I watched a playthrough of when it first came out, and then I saw the chaos that happened when it blew up with the release of the second chapter. I personally found it very entertaining, with the way people didn't have a problem with cannibalism and murder and cults until they found out there was an ending with incest, and suddenly the game was a bad game you shouldn't play. Although if you look at the Steam reviews most people don't care because, well, it's only a game. This game also served as a bit of a precursor. I find codependency in ships interesting, but I am only slightly interested in the game. I don't think about it that much, for some reason. Maybe that'll change when more chapters are released.

The S-Classes That I Raised (Han Yoojin)

If you take a quick scroll through my account, you can probably tell that this is my current fandom. Funnily enough, the server that brought me into this was one I joined while trying to get out of TGED. I suppose it only worked because I read it on Webtoon awhile ago. This server is a lot better kept, although maybe it's because it's strictly an 18+ server. As well as that, it's a smaller community within the fandom, because the server's subject is inherently tied to one of the Big Dead Dove topics, so there's a lot less worrying about drama starting over that sort of stuff. To my mutuals, I will not talk about weird dead dove stuff that I'm into unless asked to, so don't worry about it. Some sort of codependency just makes me go crazy. Unfortunately, I was not able to fit him next to another image to make Tumblr make him smaller, and had to remove one of Malina's frames to fit the 30 image limit.

If any of my friends are reading all the way down to here, thanks! I'm very lucky to have you guys as friends, and I hope we can stay friends for a long time.

[erection4schoolshooters]

trashy hcs I made at 3 am on a Monday

these are so lazy made my bad :p caldre at bottom, please give me more ideas this was also like my first one - this sucks but good yk?

andre kreigman.

•andre went to speech therapy because he couldn’t pronounce some words with the letter R , he got bullied for it and didn’t get proper help until he was 8

•is really smart in English and math but hates science

•he loves cats and hates people who say black cats are evil

•used to draw but quit at 13 since he thought it was “gay” and he hated his drawings

•loves blue ranch Doritos

•hates his hands getting dirty

•loves horror movies especially gore ones

•hates the smell of girly smells on him but loves it on other people and he wears cologne but good smelling ones yk

•loves Halloween and dresses up usually as horror movie killers

•watches mlp with his little cousin whenever he visits Germany but never admits he watches it (his favorite is apple jack)

Cal Gabriel

•broken his arm 3 times when he was little

•Not the smartest and always asks Andre’s to do his work whenever it’s too hard (he has adhd aswell)

•loves both dogs and cats equally

•wanted to be a vet since he loved animals when he was younger before zero day was planned

•annoys andre whenever andre is trying to focus on his work and usually gets kicked out of the room when their at Andre’s house

•scared of movies about ghosts but likes ones about killers (it’s a weird complicated thing)

•loves flower smells and wears flower smells and gets called girly for it (he also likes gasoline smell)

•was super creative but had no artistic skill

•yaps and andre listens but whenever Andre speaks he spaces out

•he lets his sister play hair salon on his hair

•unhealthy addiction to breadsticks

Caldre (a lil freaky)

•andre accidentally always bites cals lips when he’s nervous and they are kissing

•cal loves Andre’s “lady like” waist

•andre is little spoon. Hear me out about this.

•andre pulls cals greasy ahh hair a lot or runs his fingers through it

•cal pulls andre by his chain and sometimes andre gets yanked aggressively a little too much

•cal teases andre in public by physical touch but andre just whispers into cals ears

•andre gets way too red when cal whispers stuff into his ear and cal teases him on it

•cal is teased for him always biting his lips in public around andre

•cal likes leaving marks on andre even though andre hates it and andre has only ever left scratches on his back or on his stomach

•they used to leave movies on in the background but one time cals parents came home early and they didn’t notice until they heard cals little sister scream at a bug

•cal uses pet names like bunny/doggy/kitty on andre and Andre’s uses hun/darling on cal but they always feel corny when they say them

•cal has pain kink.

These suck 😟

[opheliajupiter99]

Creepypasta Question

@scary-spaghetti-enjoyer

Very random question, but the combo of remembering my old love of creepypastas via being friends with you, and falling back in love with MLP, I remembered one of my favorite creepypastas.

No, it's not the one you're thinking - though I do love Cupcakes as well - but one I absolutely adored when I was younger was Silent Ponyville.

It's exactly what it sounds like, Silent Hill but MLP. It uses the lore of the world and such, but still keeps it very dark, not to mention it references other creepypastas which I always thought was a neat touch. It doesn't reference them in an in-your-face way either, the story can easily be consumed without getting the references.

I was curious if you'd ever read/listened to it, and if you haven't, I highly recommend it! I might rewatch it myself later.

[concerned-wet-floor-sign-bot]

multi fandom talent club/bar/hangout place explained 

So when I was younger and still obsessed with mlp I would listen to songs and imagine which mlp character would be singing based off the lyrics. Well I literally would imagine whole shows with the songs. It was fun. Well I’ve decided to bring it back into existence! It is open for business and any fandom characters can be there. I’m going to give you some info on it such as the name: fandom talent club!

Have a bunch of stuff about it: so the entire building is magic and is literally just a door on a wooden shed the size of a porta potty and it has the ability to change size to accommodate any over sized guests such as giants and dragons but not only limited to them.

they have literally EVERY SINGLE LIQUID IN THE UNIVERSES AND FANDOMS, (note that not all the drinks are alcoholic and over 3/4 of them are non alcoholic.) all in a infinite supply in a infinite room behind the bar run by a Minecraft villager. (more on him later)

The building consists of 10 rooms. A theater with infinite space and seating where guests can perform and watch performances. A bar room with infinite space and seating. A space behind the bar with infinite room for the food and drinks. A lobby like room where guests can sit and talk. A room that has infinite doors that lead to rooms in another dimension so guests can stay the night if they please and it’s free. A room with a infinite pool for swimming. A shower room with infinite showers and infinite sinks for cleaning. And a room for pets that is also infinite and has the best and comfiest pet beds and the best pet food served by the villagers dog, (more on him later) 

The villager and his dog are npc’s and don’t have conciseness. 

[onemaebee]

parenting kids is hard. doing your best to set them up for success and prepare them for the world and not letting it stomp them down and being forced to slowly but surely just LET THEM GO is the fucking hardest part so far. and my oldest is only 10.

Kid2 has been insistent on growing out his hair, despite his great-grandmother’s grumbling (”gma,” we tell her, “it’s not your head.”). Ponytails, shaggy and loose, and he keeps bringing up that he wants to do pigtails once it’s just a wee bit longer. He loves wearing leggings (i got a bunch of d/sney mommy-and-me sets in a lot and practically live in leggings myself, and it’s a Good Day when we coordinate to be Matchy Matchy). he’s been begging me for black tights but we are pretty firm on waiting until it gets cooler because bro you’re gonna MELT. he’s said exactly once so far that he wants to get a skirt to swish around-- in blue, his favorite color.

i’m so fucking scared for him.

we’ve always encouraged to like what you like, hell yeah mommy’s huge mlp collection is fun toys, Kid3 adores pink and unicorns and cute and fluffy things. all of us have some kind of toy collection (husband has wow legos and dbz stars figures mostly, and i have... so many otl). yolo.

respect pronouns, i’ve tried to teach-- my younger sibling is coming back from a few years in japan at the start of next month, and this is the first time they’ll be back since coming out as nb. i’ve had multiple casual talks explaining this to the kids and to use their proper pronouns and ask if they want to be called aunt or uncle. heavens knows our parents+grandparents+most of my siblings won’t do the proper thing.

“love who you wanna love, be who you wanna be, we’ll love you anyway,” i’ve stressed again and again and again.

i was homeschooled and thrown into college and it took me until i was years-married to realize i was bi, and if i hadn’t met husband would have almost definitely gotten with a lady. but i got my gorgeous wonderful husband and don’t regret a single moment. point is, i was never subjected to The Horrors and bullying that i KNOW (and everyone confirms) happens if you are Different.

kid2 is autistic (as is possibly kid4 but he’s still a toddler so it’s still questionable), and already we have had talks when other kids try to get him in trouble because he trusts so easily but these other kids do NOT have your best interests at heart, my love! i know he’s already starting to experience what happens if you’re visibly Different and it makes my heart hurt.

i try to listen when my kids tell me things that are important to them, because it’s ALL Big Important Things and i want them to feel comfortable telling me things i agree are big important things even years later. i hope to god my kids are okay, that we are preparing them and loving them and that they’ll get through life and be happy.

if he’s experimenting, gnc, trans, or something (someone) else, we’ll love him no matter what. i’ll make sure he KNOWS that.

i wish the world wasn’t so hard on kids. i wish i could protect them forever.

[whosbex]

Imma be honest,this hit a little too close to home but it makes SO MUCH more sense on why I feel so connected to Cassandra as a person. At first it didn't add up because at first glance I felt so much different from her,but now that I'm really looking deep into this it makes so much sense. I've been told my entire life that compared to my siblings I always got the spot light,but one way or another my [parental figure] always had someone to compare me to,themselves,thier cousins,my cousins,my friends,etc. Yet they still told me I had majority of the spot light,even when I never asked for it.

Now I'm the only one of any of my cousins who had their dad leave at such a young age,and I honestly believe if it wasn't for that I don't think I'd be in the spot light as much as I'm told I am,(even tho my "spot light" is just elders judging me and acting like their my parents and telling me stuff I already know). But I don't think any of them could prove me wrong because my [parental figure] has said so themselves that they felt guilty that I didn't have a dad.

So I didn't have a dad,that gives me abandonment issues,great. Then we entire the long ten years of BS that my [parental figure]'s spouse put us through. He would constantly talk down to me and make me question my faith at a very young age where all I wanted to do was listen to MLP music. Then comes my little sister where,who becomes the spouse's favorite,so now the person who was suppose to be my step in parent doesn't even acknowledges me and I'm put in the shadow of my sister,and then {parental figure] constantly compares me to themselves.

Cut to now I'm a freshmen in high school who at the slightest inconvenience,gets scared that they're not gonna have a friend anymore because they're mad at them for something stupid and my first reaction is to cut them out before they can do it to me and give me more damage that I already can't handle.

And then on top of that my own family talks behind my back so I no longer trust any of the people I thought I could. I now take martial arts to release anger that would probably get me in serious trouble if I exploded and let out. And I get so anxious in romantic relationships because they feel so good but i can't trust that happiness and look for a way out,only because I can't believe this is an actual healthy relationship that I'm in.

Then I get shamed for being selfish for finally thinking about my self and when all I've done and kept quiet about was so my younger siblings could have a somewhat normal life. At this point the moment I can get out from this cycle I'm taking it.

An Analysis of Cassandra

TLDR: Cassandra’s an extremely traumatised and depressed woman with maladaptive coping mechanisms who just wants to feel like she’s worth something

I’m sick and tired of people saying that Cassandra’s character arc was unrealistic. The fact that that opinion is as popular as it is angers me.

Cassandra was verbally abused, emotionally abused, emotionally neglected, treated like a servant, and then abandoned as an extremely young child by her own mother, not to mention the fact that she didn’t have a father figure at that age. The woman who was supposed to nurture her did the opposite and no one was there to protect her.

Do you know what that does to a child? It instills a deep-seated sense of worthlessness into a child and that sense of worthlessness drives children to develop maladaptive coping mechanisms. Cassandra dealt with her sense of worthlessness by building walls around her heart so that no one would ever be able to hurt her like that again.

She keeps to herself and keeps people at a distance by making snarky and sarcastic remarks because she doesn’t trust that people won’t hurt her if they get too close to her, because her mother did. She keeps her feelings close to her chest because she doesn’t trust that people won’t use her emotional vulnerability against her, because her mother did. She only relies on herself because she doesn’t trust people to be reliable, because her mother wasn’t.

Those are maladaptive coping mechanisms because building walls around your heart does more than just protect it. It walls it off from the most beautiful aspects of life - joy, love, and peace. All that you’re left with then is that gnawing sense of worthlessness and a fiery anger deriving from it. In addition to that, when you have walls around your heart, you’re willing to cross moral lines like the ones that Cassandra crossed because you don’t know what true love feels like, so you can’t give it to other people. There’s also the fact that hurt people oftentimes hurt people.

Another coping mechanism of Cassandra’s is her attachment to the concept of destiny. She attached herself to the concept of destiny because if someone has a destiny, then that means that they’re worth something, right? This was actually originally an adaptive coping mechanism of hers, but it turned maladaptive when it overtook her moral compass.

At first, she believed that it was her destiny to join the guard because A) she developed herself into a warrior because she wanted to always be able to protect herself, B) fighting gave her a way to channel her anger, and C) she was inspired by her father. However, she was barred from achieving that goal of hers time and time again, which added to her sense of worthlessness as well as her ever-growing anger.

Now, a lot of people think that Cassandra blindly trusted ZT, but since when does Cassandra blindly trust anyone? Cassandra’s hardly the kind of person who would listen to a strange girl without any critical thought whatsoever. It’s evidenced in the show that the scene in which ZT and Cassandra were talking to each other went on longer than was shown on-screen. They never showed what happened after Cassandra said, “Unless?”

It’s likely that ZT said something along the lines of, “Unless you grab the Moonstone. It’s your destiny to grab the Moonstone because just as Rapunzel shines with the light of the sun, you’re meant to shine with the light of the moon.” Now, I don’t think that Cassandra immediately decided to grab the Moonstone after ZT told her that it was her destiny to do so. I think that she thought about it right up until the very moment that she did it.

She didn’t grab the Moonstone because some mysterious girl told her that she should. She grabbed the Moonstone because the idea that she was destined to shine with the light of the moon made sense to her. Think about it - symbolism’s extremely important in Coronan culture. The sun represents energy, healing, and positivity, which are all traits that Rapunzel’s proven to have in abundance. On the other hand, the moon represents wisdom, emotion, and mystery - traits that very much describe Cassandra. Not to mention the fact that if she took the Moonstone, she’d be able to shine with her own light rather than feel constantly overshadowed by Rapunzel.

So to summarise what Cassandra stood to gain by grabbing the Moonstone…

A destiny of her own that made sense to her

A clear path without obstacles in her way

An opportunity to shine with her own light

A chance to end her toxic friendship with Rapunzel

Cassandra felt like she was standing up for herself and freeing herself from a toxic situation by grabbing the Moonstone.

Now, I do believe that ZT built a friendship with Cassandra over time and that Cassandra trusted her more and more over time, as is evidenced by the show. However, I still think that people give ZT more credit than she’s due for Cassandra’s actions. By the time that ZT proposed the idea of destroying Rapunzel to Cassandra, Cassandra was already so overcome with rage that I think that she would’ve wound up plotting to commit such a crime on her own anyway.

To make another point, there’s a lot of debate when it comes to whether or not Cassandra knew that she was a villain. Personally, I think that she did know that she was a villain, but denied that fact because she felt very ashamed about it and didn’t want other people to see her that way.

Anyway, her actions got worse and worse over time because that’s how downward spirals work, until ZT took both the Moonstone and the Sundrop and Rapunzel was able to convince her that there’s more in her, which was exactly what Cassandra needed - someone who refused to abandon her like her mother did, no matter what.

There’s only one more point that I’d like to make, and then I’ll finish this up. To those who say that Cassandra got off scot-free… I don’t think that she did. She’s not a psychopath without feelings, so she likely felt overwhelming shame to the point of feeling suicidal after everything. Punishing her would’ve only reinforced her negative self-image and possibly would’ve turned her back into a villain. And it’s not like she could’ve stayed in Corona to clean up her mess if she wanted to (which she likely did) because the people were likely so angry at her that it was straight-up dangerous for her to stay in Corona.

That’s why leaving Corona to give everyone who needed it space and probably become a vigilante like Batman was the best possible course of action for her to take.

To sum this up, read between the lines and you’ll likely find that Cassandra’s an extremely human character with an extremely realistic character arc.

[kakusu-shipping]

Uuuu also Big Mac

Ah... Pony tim.

What made me like him

Big Mac called me back to my og self shipping days of actually having a "type" and thinking that to like someone outside of your "type" was incorrect or bad somehow. My "type" was the strong silent type, Big Mac is pretty much that.

I didn't just like him because he was my childhood's "type", but seeing it again kind of hit me funny, and he is cute, so I started liking him.

My Favorite thing about him

I feel like this is gonna sound pretty basic, but he's very caring. Sweet and kind and all that. Listens well, very patient and chill.

I also really like hat younger Mac was a big talker, would ramble on and on. I don't have anything particular about that, I just think it's cute. Get you a man who can do both.

Nicknames we have for eachother

You know that Hearts and Hooves episode where he's pretending to be under a love spell to get back at Apple Bloom and calls Miss Cheerliee every apple related term of endearment and pet name he can think of?

That but he's serious and does it just to annoy me at times.

A headcanon of our relationship

I forgot to move him on the list, but we're actually exes. It was something I'd decided to rewrite after Rockhoof came into the show. He got a canon love interest who was very sweet, I started liking Rockhoof, things happen I guess. We're still friends.

However I did make this writing choice after going through a real world break up, along with some other stuff, so it's real dramatic. Eventually I might re-watch MLP and re-rewrite the whole thing.

My Favorite image of him

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Anything Else

Big Mac was the first F/O I was scared to talk about when I first made this blog because I was sure someone was gonna call me cringe for it.

My how time have changed.

[fruit-teeth]

Confessions

So this was a thing I did in the early days of this blog, where I would just list ‘confessions’ or random, sometimes very strange and embarrassing facts about myself for the whole internet to read, but they always got like two notes at most so I never felt weird about it. Anyway, it’s late and I’m feeling melancholy but before I go to bed I’ll try and turn things around by dishing out some tea about myself

1. I constantly feel like I need to over-explain things to people, because I’m worried they won’t understand me at all

2. When I was in fifth grade, I was working on a mural with my class and the sixth grade class as well. This one sixth grader named Emily didn’t do any work whatsoever and just complained the entire time, but at one point she drew a pretty cute turtle. Lots of people liked it and tried to get her to color it, but she refused and kept saying it was ugly, so the turtle sat uncolored for a week or so. Finally, when Emily was absent one day, I got out some markers and colored the turtle for her, giving it a rainbow shell. When Emily came back, I proudly showed her that I colored her turtle for her, but she freaked out at me and colored over the rainbow shell with black marker. I got so upset that I poured brown paint on the turtle and then made it seem like an accident.

3. I sleep with baby dolls in my bed and sometimes when I’m falling asleep, I’ll hug them but then I stop because I start wondering what would happen if they hugged me back

4. I know nothing about Resident Evil but I am DEEPLY into that sexy vampire lady (you know the one) yet part of me wants to ship her with the Administrator...and I’m kind of scared

5. My cats probably don’t like it when I cuddle them or pick them up but I do it anyway because reasons

6. I love having friends but I’m too scared to talk to them on a regular basis because I feel like I’m annnoying and if I start talking more, they’ll get weirded out

7. The first social media platform I ever joined was Facebook. The second was DeviantArt. DeviantArt taught me many things but it also burned images into my brain that I cannot unsee so I hate it more than Facebook. Sorry DeviantArt...its not you, its the 30-something year old men who made it unsafe to type “MLP” into the search bar

8. When I was in second grade, I used to straight-up drink bubble gum flavored mouthwash every day before school until my brother told me to stop

9. In eighth grade, there was this girl who would make a point of talking to me during our English class, but she would always talk to me like I was much younger than her and I always thought it was weird though I never complained about it since I thought she was just being nice. Fast forward to high school, I found out from talking to some other people who knew her that apparently she knew I was autistic and spoke to all of the neurodivergent kids at our school like they were toddlers. Thinking about this makes me cringe

10. If you’ve ever bullied me online or in person, there’s a chance I’ve written you into a story as a character who gets killed off. Sorry, thats how I roll

ALL RIGHT, I spilled tea. Thank you all for listening, goodnight

[autistic-fuckwad]

gonna follow the same rule! 5. Jeff the Killer: Alright, judge me. As a kid I loved creepypastas and i was obsessed with jeff the killer. He was one of my favorite things in the whole 'fandom' back then. he still holds a place in my heart, because of that. i even have a plushie of him.

4. Pinkie Pie from My Little Pony: FIM: Pinkie! I loved her as a kid. Legit tied with rainbow dash as my favorite pony. She was my favorite because she could always cheer me up, and helped me learn to cope with humor instead of feeling horrible all the time. she's probably the reason i'm so hilarious.

3. Rainbow Dash from My Little Pony: FIM: Alright, listen. Rainbow Dash ties heavily with Pinkie Pie from MLP as well, but I loved her so much more as a kid because of her being so cool. She helped me explore being more "masculine" and helped me understand, in a way, that i was trans. I love you butch pony <3

2. Rin Okumura from Blue Exorcist: This one was more when I was in highschool, but honestly i loved this anime since i was younger than that lol. i related to him being odd and awkward around everyone and i just love blue. give me a break

Trahearne from Guild Wars 2. My friends already know about this. I have a violent parasocial relationship with this beautiful, beautiful plant npc in the game to the point i made a copy character just to put him in my house. he is my love. he is my life. he is plant husband. hes my malewife. tags! join if you want!: @terrencetheshark13 @your-werewolf-boyfriend @your-pal-nebula @night-minstrel @igotstuckinthevoidhelp @vampussyboy @one-of-you-frs-took-timevortex and anyone else who would like to join! feel free to let me know if you dont like being pinged :3

Thank u for the tag @lynxfrost13 !! :)

5 Comfort Characters

1) Blondie and Mickey (they count as one lmao)

saints row boss duo me and my bestie made together way back in high school and we still talk about them a lot <3

2) Krieg (borderlands 2)

he's my favorite little guy :) (i say even tho he's the biggest player character asdfgh)

3) Mack (the keeper of midnight saga by @the-keeper-of-midnight / @when-life-gives-you-lemons-if )

*slaps his back* you can fit so much trauma and thirst in this guy (memes aside if u like halloween stuff then u should maybe give this game a try 👀)

4) Black Lumaban (reanimated heart by @doubledeadstudio )

I love characters who are intimidating to everyone but one specific person who they are devoted to. Perhaps a lil TOO devoted. Maybe.

5) Rose (fable 2)

Comfort character who causes me anguish. Listen. I know you only interact with her in the prologue, but the memory of her influences the story every step of the way. she haunts the narrative. Everything sparrow does is to avenge her (or, depending on the ending you choose, to make sure she gets a chance at the life she deserved, even if they never see each other again). Can u tell fable 2 changed my brain chemistry lol

Tagging: @vanskyfox @gloomiegalaxie @troglobite @foxholemonster @azeterna

@foxtophat @savagemagician3 @crazy-lazy-elder-sims @strangegrapefruit @hymless

@sansabirdanne @sadraccoon061 @shibotaibo @iberissims @occultradio

No pressure to do this if i tagged you, and feel free to do this even if i didn't!

[thehiraethsiblings]

Hi, I have a question, what do you suggest a little do when she doesn't have a cg and doesn't regress well without a cg? (my main blog isn't my little blog, hence the anon, I'm @babylionprincess)

@babylionprincess I can definitely relate when it comes to this. I’ve never had a CG and sometimes have trouble regressing as well. These are some things that I’ve found help me:

♡ Kids Shows/Movies - Letting yourself giggle during funny parts, smiling at happy parts, and singing/humming along to songs really helps me feel little! MLP, Sofia the First, and Disney movies are my favorites!!

♡ Kids Books - I have some picture books I read to myself sometimes with my stuffies. One of my favorite things to do is draw my own pictures based on the stories I've read! I also like to read these in bed when I'm winding down for the night.

♡ Read Alouds - If your headspace is too little to read, there are also read aloud books on YouTube you can listen to. I love listening to the Dr. Seuss ones!

♡ Coloring/Drawing - Coloring books are always super fun, especially when you use crayons! Just relaxing and doodling simple pictures is also a good way to get into that younger mindset.

♡ Stuffies - Talking to and playing with stuffies is one of my favorite ways to feel small. You can tell them about your day, hug them when you're sad, tell them stories, watch something with them, etc.

♡ Toys - Going into the toy aisle of a store and buying some toys you're interested in is great! I have 2 play-doh sets I love to use!! They're both food-themed ones so I love to pretend I'm on a cooking show and give it to my stuffies to eat! You can also always try making your own game!!

♡ Pacifier & Soft Music - I always find myself sleeping much better when I put a paci in my mouth before bed! It also helps me sleep when I put on soft instrumental Disney or Ghibli music. You can find these on YouTube!

♡ Kids Apps/Computer Games - There are lots of apps for kids out there, so try scrolling through the app store and look for something that sounds fun! My favorite app is a cute dress-up game called Pastel Girl! There are also a ton of websites like CoolMathGames.com and GirlsGoGames.com that are really fun and addictive! These make me feel super nostalgic too.

♡ Clothes - Getting together outfits that make you feel little & cute is really good! One of my favorite styles is wearing jean shorts over leggings!! Wearing cute pajamas is always fun too, and big hoodies can help you feel extra small!

♡ Food & Water - I find that eating snacks I used to when I was younger makes me feel nostalgic and happy! I think stuff that's easy to make is the best way to go, especially when you have low energy a lot of the time like I do. PB&J, goldfish, mac & cheese, and baby carrots are my favorites. Water is super important for you, and the best way to feel small while drinking it is using a bottle or sippy cup!

♡ Extra Tips

1) If you have plans and know you don't have a ton of time, it's probably best to stick with a short activity that you can come back to later, like coloring.

2) If you're like me and hate silence, try listening to music or putting a show/movie on for background noise.

It's important to remember that you don't have to have a CG to be an age regressor! Regression is all about the headspace you're in, not how many little things you have. I hope these helped!! If anyone has any other tips please let me know!

[meteor752]

The insecurity of Tilda of Mirkwood

When I write about Tilda, I mostly write a pretty unstable but still happy person who just generally craves more in life, sort of like a Disney character.

(Honestly, short side note, every time I hear either How far I’ll go or Go the Distance I can’t help but imagine her just standing on the worst place possible singing the song, like a cliff or the top of a tree, before just jumping down and nearly breaking her neck)

But Tilda has a bit more to her than that, that I didn’t really get to touch in her deep dive, mostly because I couldn’t figure out how to put it in there.

When it comes to the insecurities of Matilda Lucia Dragondaughter, it’s mostly centered around the comparison to others around her, and how she sees herself.

There wasn’t much of it when she was a child, just like any other kid she was pretty carefree and didn’t really mind that sometimes people would talk weirdly about her and her antics.

It begun around the time her da married the elven king and she moved from Dale to Mirkwood, and when Legolas officially became her brother.

Now Legolas is messy and wild, sure, but he’s still a scholar, soldier, athlete, and generally very good looking for an elf, who’s also a prince and next in line for the throne.

Sigrid is a musician, a writer, a scholar, an axe wielder, a future queen, a black smith, and the perfect daughter.

Bain is a sweetheart, an excellent peace keeper, a good soldier despite his disability, the captain of the royal guard and the dream son in law.

Tilda is an emotionally unstable screwup that can’t sit still for one second, is petty as hell, had no sense of self care, has no goal in life, and is just a general nightmare to be around.

That’s at least how she sees herself.

Now while reading this you may think ‘Meteor this sounds more like self loathing than Insecurity, what are you talking about’.

Well, we’re only getting started, because Tilda lives a long life with a lot of shit in it.

When Tilda joined the elven army, she noticed how the trainer was harsher on her than on literally anyone else.

At first she thought it was because she was human and not an elf, until she figured out that they were trying to make her quit, which confused her of why.

That was until her training was done, but unlike basically every other recruit she was only called onto small scouting missions that were generally safe and lame, and she was like oh my family set this up okay.

So she quit immediately, and then the dark times begun.

Tilda was straight up miserable after leaving the army, and would mostly sit in her room and sulk for two reasons.

One, to join the army was her one chance of living up to the standards her siblings had put, by becoming a great soldier and maybe even captain one day, but she had never been given the chance.

Two, her family had tried to make her quit, and then made sure she was only put on the safest and meekest missions there was, which only proved that they didn’t trust or believe in her.

Tilda had always wanted her time in the spotlight, her big chance, her moment to truly shine so to speak. She’d always been in the shadow of her siblings, and the only way to get out of it was to create a scene which made her family angry at her.

See it as sort of a Luna from mlp mixed with Cassandra from Tangled.

And despite the self loathing, she did know that it was only in her head and that her family and friends probably didn’t think that way of her.

But when they refused to let her be a proper soldier, she then they refused to let her go anywhere without a consort, when they refused to let her show what she was capable of, it just proved that what she thought of herself was how they thought of her too.

A screwup.

A mistake.

A spare.

So yeah, she became really depressed, and refused to talk to anyone except Aloe.

She spent a lot of time in Rivendell just to be away from her family, moping in the room she was given and barely ever coming out.

She started to put burn marks on her arms and hands, she started to jump from a bit too high heights, she started to “accidentally” cut herself sometimes.

She just wanted to feel something that wasn’t misery.

Her family tried to cheer her up, but they genuinely didn’t know what was happening since she wasn’t exactly the person to be open about her insecurities and issues, so all their efforts were in vain.

It was Aragorn, out of all people, who got her out of her hole of despair.

Legolas had sent a message to him after a few years of Tilda’s bad habits of barely eating, barely sleeping, and barely talking to anyone else.

Aragorn basically nearly kicked the door in, which nearly scared Tilda to death, before hugging her firmly and demanding that she will follow him on a hunt.

And because of the fact that Tilda respects Aragorn quite a bit, she just nods shortly.

To her surprise, Aragorn doesn’t try to make her talk of what’s going on like literally anyone else, but simply talks about other stuff that is going on in both of their lives.

Tilda ends up having a bit of a wake up call, realizing that she’d been moping for the last eight years, and just decided to get off her ass and do something with her life.

Legolas was quite surprised when Tilda just turned up one day in Mirkwood like if nothing had happened demanding that he’d go kill some spiders with her.

Despite the fact that she’d stopped sulking, she still didn’t make an attempt to better her well being and kept her negative thoughts to herself.

She simply didn’t want to be seen as weak and fragile, like so many thought of her because of her human biology and her constant inability to stay still for one second.

If her family would find out that she also thought of herself as weird and useless, then they would just pity her.

And Tilda honestly thought she was strong enough to handle it.

She was certainly not.

Every time Legolas had to leave for something, every time there was some diplomatic journey ahead, every time the elves were called into battle, she was left behind. She’d always wanted her moment of glory as I’ve previously mentioned, but how could that be given if she never even got the chance?

She just felt like she was in the way for everyone.

After she left her family behind, (Or more exactly literally escaped out the window), she felt free and happy for basically the first time in her life. It was just her and Aloe against the world, with no expectations, no one to feel like she let down, no judgment, just her and her best friend.

And it remained like that for a while, as she didn’t meet many people she didn’t need to compare herself to others.

It was first when she received the invitation to the wedding of Aragorn and Legolas that she was put back on earth again and reality hit her.

Especially when both Sigrid and Bain tried to convince her to come back to society, just so she wouldn’t hurt herself, because which angered her greatly.

She left the wedding early, angry tears in her eyes without turning back.

Which was the reason she took on a dragon and became a dragonslayer. To prove that she wasn’t a doll that would topple over any minute. To prove that she was just as capable and great as her siblings. To prove that she wasn’t just the younger sibling.

And if you’ve read the deep dive, you know how that turned out.

***

I love Tilda, she’s literallyy favorite Lotr character, which is why I write so much about her. But sometimes I just like to make characters suffer through trauma and insecurities.

This is heavily inspired by me listening to Waiting In The Wings and The Moon Rises for like 24/7 for the last few days, which are both awesome songs go listen to it.

Tilda’s way of coping with how she felt is really bad, (like seriously kids talk to someone take your meds) but from what I’ve written about her I knew she wouldn’t be the one to confront her more weak looking emotions. She was raised by elves, she’s prideful by nature.

The way Tilda feels is not that she’s not worthy of what she has, but more that she deserves more than what she has, which has to do again with the youngest sibling thing.

But honestly with the right power and proper snap, she probably could be like an mlp villain.

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