#sorry for the trauma dump

[auguste-marmonts-only-fan]

Pls always keep on Marmont-posting

You are one of the best things that happened to me in Tumblr <3

Really?!?!?

I'm glad that you like my content, and this one of the nicest things anyone has said to me lol (kinda sad to be honest)

I have always been criticised by my peers for liking things and over sharing but after I started posting on tumblr I feel more free to express my intrest and I'm not as embarrassed anymore (very cliché and corny , I know)

So seeing nice comments and stuff like that really makes my day 💕💕💕💕

Xoxo

[lily-s-world]

I don't often post personal stuff here, but I really need to scream into the void about this one.

Our beloved pet passed away a few days ago, and since then, my sister, who is older than me, has been under the weather. I hear her at night talking and laughing with friends and her boyfriend, so I know she is sad but she is moving forward.

I was diagnosed with anxiety disorder a couple of years ago, and even though I am super sad about our pet, I am also trying to move forward.

However, my mom and grandma had been cuddling my sister nonstop about this. And when I mention that "hey, I also lost her and I was the one that financially provided for the dog and drover her to all her appointments"; they just said "yeah, but you are you, you will be fine".

I really don't want to invalidate my sister feelings, but I feel like they are invalidating mine because I had always been the "responsible one," the "one that resolves"... Is like "yeah you are sad, but you will get over it. Your sister, on the other hand, needs all our support."

Can't it be on equal parts?? Like, we both may need that support??

But honestly, it is on me for expecting from my family something they will never give me. The curse of the older sister skipped my sister and landed on me. No wonder I play "Surface Pressure" from Encanto all the time.

[yesiamquitequeer]

When I was younger and still lived with my parents ( they are EXTREMELY christen and conservatives) my mom told me that is I ever came out as LGBT she would kick me out and disown me. By that time I had already figured out that I was nonbinary and acesexual, and after that I was terrified that they would find out.

[fishoutoflovebeach]

i feel as though im undergoing metamorphosis. my mind and body don’t feel the same anymore and i feel as tho im being drawn towards what im meant to be.

but also i feel stuck, trapped in what the other people think of feel about me. as its perfectly normal to outgrow friends and neighbors, is it normal to outgrow close family??

[thrashedparticle]

hi. a lot of of you know that i have a cat that has been in heart failure for almost a year now. unfortunately, he passed away this morning because of it. he lived a very loving 6 years. i'd spend every bit of my pitiful savings and loans just to see him again. he was a sweet boy and i’m going to miss him so much.

i’ll be taking a hiatus from here for now. sorry if i don’t reply to you or post anything. be safe and good luck

[turbulenceseverywhere]

So, I just lost my best friend to cancer and I'm already severely depressed rn and now I'm stuck in grief so guess it's time for my annual twilight marathon

[we-were-meant-to-be-one]

On the verge of crying because I’ve been out of school almost all week (mental health is in the drain rn) and my teacher messaged me checking to see if I was okay

It just means so much to me, she’s one of my favorite teachers because she’s so caring

[uredrunk]

hi how are u inez? are you alright 🧸

hi, thank you for asking! i hope you have a beautiful day 🩵 i’ll vent everything i feel here if you don’t mind. talking about it always helps.

this month has been rough on me. i feel lonely at college because i have no meaningful friendships. i even cried in front of my mother two times because of it. i feel like i am not having the “college experience”, the time everyone says it’s the best one. it’s very hard for me to wake up and go to classes… in general, i feel unmotivated.

my ex yesterday also liked a picture of my meme page that i know he searched for it because it has my old username. but i don’t let that bother me. i blocked and went on with my day.

he ghosted me while i was having a panic attack about the stress of my college. i was like a trophy for him, not a real human being. also, i compared myself a lot with the girls he used to like all the time on twitter. i wanted to be the perfect girlfriend. i changed everything about me. it wasn’t enough back then. so i’d rather be alone.

but TRULY what’s hurting me the most is the loneliness at college. i seek escapism everywhere. it’s painful…

[prctty-birdie]

Natasha Romanoff's complete name is Natalia Alianovna Romanova (also matching with the surname I most dislike in my real name and wish I could replace👌)

Deities is the terminology of the Latin word for "god" and also the divine nature of deities is believed to be immortal goodness (who I wish I could be or even become to someone)

Basically:replace of a surname I have plenty of bad memories with the one I was named after, with a cooler sounding one and also similar & the something I wish I could be capable of or even represent to somebody.

alideities → prctty-birdie

what made u guys pick ur url's !

[bellarichie]

having personality/behaviour issues that need to be adressed with a therapist because your parents raised you in an overprotective way feels rude. like, what, you're sad because your parents LOVED you too hard? UNGRATEFUL.

[dontcallmebabyagainxoxox]

Every year I say this is gonna be my year im gonna be the best version of me. this year we haven't got off to a great start, if anything I've lost myself. I've had the flu twice, two severe allergic reactions and as of most recently i'm under skin cancer investigation with any luck its been removed now and I can just move on because I still have six months of this year left to be me again, hair is being done next Monday (thank fuck the roots on me are horrific) currently sat here deciding on my next tattoo, and maybe even some new piercings, because apparently when I want to cheer myself up and feel like me I need to spend horrific amounts of money and read absolute filth on Tumblr. Treat yourself and all that I guess

[spacetrashfallingdown]

Isaac (love him) got me thinking about old dogs and about my old childhood dog. He was a born by an airport so he never feared loud sounds. He was a big, clever mutt and he always played with me, even when his old legs could no longer move fast enough to match my speed. And I realised that he knew me since my birth and he considered me a part of the family and that he loved me, and we both went through some abuse because my parents didn't know any better, and I cried about him dying for the first time ever. Very long due tears, 16 years, I think. At the time I just shut the thoughts down to avoid dealing with the loss. He was the first death I experienced.

[wilcze-kudly]

So um. I genuinely don't have many thoughts on the live action atla. It looks fine.. i guess

Except. Zuko's scar.

It's so... underwhelming. Like yeah it's there. It's red and it has a little bit of texture. But I guess i was hoping the live action would make it a little more prominent.

Like I'm a burn victim myself, who very much went through a similar struggle Zuko did. Where i felt like my scars define me. This. This feels not like what i hoped for. They even let him keep his eyebrow 😤

And I'm hoping that it's just because it wasn't practical to go all out with it. Like it was too expensive to put full prosthetics and special effects on such a young actor for every shoot.

But i have this sinking feeling in my gut that its because he's 'meant to be attractive'. Or even more heartbreakingly, that making it bigger would be considered too 'gory' or 'body horror'.

And im just tired of seeing scars and other 'deformities' as being seen as something to only be shown in full capacity in horror movies. That it would be too visceral or too 'gross' to fully show. It reinforces the idea that people like Zuko, people like me have something inherently disgusting and ugly about us. That our features have to be toned down in order to be palatable to a wider audience.

I remember seeing Zuko for the first time as a kid and seeing a part of myself that was rarely represented. I was bullied for my skin grafts as a child. Of course i was, kids are cruel. But seeing Zuko go through the struggles i went through and to have him find people who didn't treat him differently was so important to me. Like to me, that part of his story was arguably more important than his redemption arc.

And seeing Zuko seen as attractive by people in the fandom was also a profound experience. Because it felt like i could too exist in my full burnt chicken nugget glory and still be treated as a full person. Not looked at with pity or disgust.

So that's why live action Zuko's scar is such a disappointment to me.

I have other thoughts on the atla remake but really, they don't matter that much, since i don't think ill be watching it

[notthatbighouse]

in this moment, all i need is a real friend, but not like a "friend", A REAL friend. When most of your relationships, either platonic or romantic, end up in manipulation or pure falsehood, its kinda difficult to have new realtionships, because even tho you love that person,there is a gut feeling that they will betray you at one time,and i wish i wasnt like that

[ahahahahahahahahahahah]

This type of issue is the reason my blog is so -at this point- worringly full of gilfs.

This and the fact that every dilf in media does in fact, look like my father. And growing up irl with a beautiful mother was already traumatic.

"DILF", a word which here means "the only male character with a speaking role in this piece of media who's actually old enough for me to be horny for him".

[wistfullywaiting2]

The biggest misconception in the bsd fandom ever to me is people constantly portraying Atsushi as someone who trauma dumps excessively when he canonically barely talks about it at all.

The entire point is that Atsushi does not talk about his trauma he’s just constantly thinking about/reliving it. He can’t escape the memories of his past so he tries not to acknowledge them.

He only mentions it when asked, either directly or when someone asks him to explain himself.

Atsushi doesn’t even give a cohesive explanation for what he saw while under Dogra Magra, he just apologizes to Haruno and Naomi.

If Lucy hadn’t had her whole “you’ve never suffered the way I have” spiel then I doubt even the audience would’ve gotten to find out about his scars

If Akutagawa never asked him how it felt for the orphanage headmaster to die Atsushi would have never told him that he’s been hallucinating.

In the omake where Kyoka asks him why his hair is like that it’s clear he wouldn’t have told her that unless she had asked.

In 55 minutes Atsushi very briefly mentions sleeping on a dirty floor somewhere to Kunikida because he was trying to explain and justify his behavior.

And the thing is that there are scenes that implies that the other characters see Atsushi behaving strangely and are visibly confused because they do not understand what’s wrong with him.

Remember, we as an audience get to see things about characters that the main cast doesn’t. Just because we see into Atsushi’s mind doesn’t mean the other characters know what’s going on in there.

Also little footnote here that I think this is a reference to the moon over the mountain but I digress