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My man L-L-L-LOADED
My Roman Empire? The fact that Sergio Perez has literally never said no to a brand opportunity ever:
#it's an opportunity to sell âď¸#he took that advice to heart#checo perez#f1#sergio perez#i could have added so many more to this i might even make a part 2#like this keeps me up at night#bro is absolutely smashing capitalism#formula 1#formula one
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Learning that fans hated Applejack and called her "boring" is crazyyy to me because I genuinely, unironically believe AJ's the most complex character in the main six.
Backstory-wise, she was born into a family of famers/blue collar workers who helped found the town she lives in. She grew up a habitual liar until she had the bad habit traumatized outta her. She lost both her parents and was orphaned at a young age, having to step up as her baby sister's mother figure. She's the only person in the main gang who's experienced this level of loss and grief (A Royal Problem reveals that AJ dreams about memories of being held by her parents as a baby). She moved to Manhattan to live with her wealthy family members, only to realize she'll never fit in or be accepted, even amongst her own family. The earlier seasons imply she and her family had money problems too (In The Ticket Master, AJ wants to go to the gala to earn money to buy new farm equipment and afford hip surgery for her grandma).
Personality-wise, she's a total people-pleaser/steamroller (with an occasional savior complex) who places her self worth on her independence and usefulness for other people, causing her to become a complete workaholic. In Applebuck Season, AJ stops taking care of herself because of her obsessive responsibilities for others and becomes completely dysfunctional. In Apple Family Reunion, AJ has a tearful breakdown because in she thinks she dishonored her family and tarnished her reputation as a potential leader ââ an expectation and anxiety that's directly tied to her deceased parents, as shown in the episode's ending scene. In The Last Roundup, AJ abandons her family and friends out of shame because believes she failed them by not earning 1st place in a rodeo competition. She completely spirals emotionally when she isn't able to fulfill her duties toward others. Her need to be the best manifests in intense pride and competitiveness when others challenge her. And when her pride's broken, she cowers and physically hides herself.
Moreover, it's strongly implied that AJ has a deep-seated anger. The comics explore her ranting outbursts more. EQG also obviously has AJ yelling at and insulting Rarity in a jealous fit just to hurt her feelings (with a line that I could write a whole dissection on). And I'm certain I read in a post somewhere that in a Gameloft event, AJ's negative traits are listed as anger.
Subtextually, a lot of these flaws and anxieties can be (retroactively) linked to her parents' death, forcing her to grow up too quickly to become the adult/caregiver of the family (especially after her big brother becomes semiverbal). Notice how throughout the series, she's constantly acting as the "mom friend" of the group (despite everything, she manages to be the most emotionally mature of the bunch). Notice how AJ'll switch to a quieter, calmer tone when her friends are panicking and use soothing prompts and questions to talk them through their emotions/problems; something she'd definitely pick up while raising a child. Same with her stoicism and reluctance at crying or releasing emotions (something Pinkie explicitly points out). She also had a childhood relationship with Rara (which, if you were to give a queer reading, could easy be interpreted as her first 'aha' crush), who eventually left her life. (Interestingly enough, AJ also has an angry outburst with Rara for the same exact reasons as with EQG Rarity; jealous, upset that someone else is using and changing her). It's not hard to imagine an AJ with separation anxiety stemming from her mother and childhood friend/crush leaving. I'm also not above reading into AJ's relationship with her little sister (Y'all ever think about how AB never got to know her parents, even though she shares her father's colors and her mother's curly hair?).
AJ's stubbornness is a symptom of growing up too quickly as well. Who else to play with your baby sister when your brother goes nonverbal (not to discount Big Mac's role in raising AB)? Who else to wake up in the middle of the night to care for your crying baby sister when your grandma needs her rest? When you need to be 100% all the time for your family, you tend to become hard-stuck with a sense of moral superiority. You know what's best because you have to be your best because if you're aren't your best, then everything'll inevitably fall apart and it'll be your fault. And if you don't know what's best ââ if you've been wrong the whole time ââ that means you haven't been your best, which means you've failed the people who rely on you, which means you can't fulfill your role in the family/society, which makes you worthless . We've seen time and time again how this compulsive need to be right for the sake of others becomes self-destructive (Apple Family Reunion, Sound of Silence, all competitions against RD). We've seen in The Last Roundup how, when no longer at her best, AJ would rather remove herself from her community than confront them because she no longer feels of use to them.
But I guess it is kinda weird that AJ has "masculine" traits and isn't interested in men at all. It's totally justified that an aggressively straight, misogynistic male fandom would characterize her as a "boring background character." /s
At the time of writing this, it's 4:46AM.
#mlp#yeah i wrote this last night during insomnia.#yeah i know an embarrassing amount of crap about this kids show#but whatever it's my hyperfixation i'll store as much useless information as i want!!!#i'm gay and neurodivergent i have an excuse#in case you needed more proof that aj's my favorite character#personal#delete later#unless you like this analysis stuff#i get why they didn't reveal aj's parent's death until way later and why they didn't do much with it but i wish they did#cuz narratively there could've been so much material with aj's grief. like. i feel like we gloss over the fact that she lost her#mother and father as a teenager#i tried keeping my personal hcs out of this to keep it unbiased#but i'll put some in the tags#involving rarijack ââ i think aj can be (but not always) very self-conscious about her relationship with rarity#anxieties that she's not the right fit or that rarity will move away and leave her some day or that another woman will take her attention#(like in rollercoaster of friendship?? nudge nudge??). basic seperation anxiety stuff#long post#regarding applebloom whenever i think about her and her parents i think about that scene in steven universe where steven looks up at#a portrait of his mother and openly wonders what kind of sack lunches she would've made for him. that episode still fucks me up
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triptych
#interview with the vampire#iwtv amc#iwtv fanart#the vampire armand#daniel molloy#louis de pointe du lac#sometimes i wonder how exactly armand went about erasing louis' memory too#like did he just thanos snap that shit or did he also gaslight whisper him like he did daniel when he told him he woke up in a drug den#this shit keeps me up at night#loumandaniel
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#I have white envy for people who adore something specific. They can stay up all night#research and create for this with blazing eyes. And this state can last for a very long time#Last year I felt it in full#and here I am again sitting at a broken trough and taking out and keeping in safe pieces of what still can shake me ha-ha#It's not very funny when you felt what it was like. I suppose there was also pressure on top of that#but damn#I'm not a weak person so I really hope it's not the reason#Wanna run away somewhere quiet where I can do what I want to do without responsibilities that never were my responsibilities from the start#*sigh* I feel like the most boring person in the world again wheeeeze#tapadoodles
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Checking up on his commission
#hate this guy. spoilers under tag cutoff#i fear i may have cooked with the tags. slash jay.#I've always imagined him with Particulars but I keep forgetting to draw them til like now#he speaks in lowercase to me. for reasons#I wanna know more about this untrustworthy bisexual but I also kinda wanna attack him every time he shows up#cant wait for the inevitable boss fight#fun fact: according to the dictionary 'nebulae' can refer to a clouded spot on the cornea that can cause defective vision#a limbus is 'the junction of the cornea and sclera in the eye'#so I think I speak for us all when I say WHAT THE FUCK MAN#what the hell was he on abt with Dante falling from the sky. and by sheep does he mean June 985 or?#if anyone wants to theorise on my post I'm all for it#limbus company#dante lcb#demian lcb#â°đ#unfortunately proud of that caption btw he really is just wanting his comm#HM WAIT BACK AGAIN#is the way the San was on about with leading the fallen nebulae home what causes J985?#as in - it is not people dying but them returning to their rightful place outside the City#with Purgatorio being the war đ[i think] mentioned#is the doomsday Dante's head leading to the war? it typically refers to humanity's self destruction#or any globlal catastrophe#oh ok with PM is being sneaky again the Wiki page says it was inaugurated in June and guess when the MDE is#but generally things like nuclear war - AI and climate change are the main factors contributing to it#and we've already faced AI in the prev games via Angie so presumably one of the others will be the main force behind Dante's midnight#i personally like the nuclear angle given how Dante's head is already a clock#*BOMB. THEIR HEAD IS A BOMB THAT CAN BLOW UP#please do not write tags at night this was a bad idea
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you open my Super Important Documents and its just pictures of charles xavier
#xmen#mcu#xmen movies#xmen first class#charles xavier#professor x#snap sketches#todays schedule has been ruined by my ever occurring need to practice drawing movie charles its horrendous#i started this sheet last night but then i kept adding to it and i keep wanting to add to it but i MUST stop myself#in an ideal world i get paid to draw charles xavier and erik lehnsherr but no i live in this baka society#sleepless charles WAS inspired by me starting this at 1AM and forcing myself to sleep at 4AM#and then here i am picking i up still later .... i need professional help i fear but i aint got time for that#NEVERTHELESS I THINK IT GOT IT NOW. I THINK IM OK. i think i know how i wanna go bout drawing him now ...#chat can i confess that like. .5% of the reason i barely draw FC charles i because of his hair#for some reason some demonic entity prevents me from drawing it easily i am in STRUGGLE CITY#the only thing that gets me is that whenever i draw him i can only think of the likes of a disney prince but man thems the strokes ig#i also drew a quick dark phoenix charles but i figured id just keep this first class oriented#anything else i want to say ? uh. hm. its funny i never do any of these sheets for erik#genuinely On My Life made One (1) sheet and was like 'no yeah i got it. i got it down'#literally not my fault his head is So Shaped and defined but anyways. this aint about him.#i mean it could be. i still wanna do a doodle page concentrated on drawing how his powers show#more specifically how do i wanna draw the glow cause i cant decide on it ... also i wanna draw the 'levels' ...#but thats for another time. for right now i should probably eat i havent eaten all day#bye bye !!!!!! here's to hoping i draw something thats not a doodle sheet one of these days
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i want us both to eat well
#more g4g art !#he tries So fucking hard for jl . so hard#i dont know if there are many moments of reprieve during jlâs childhood but i think#he thinks of what his sister did for him and his brother and he copies that . slowly slowly like hes worried heâll mess up#and i think he hums jl to sleep and then bawls his eyes out every night#i thought a lot about how young he was post war pre canon#when i was drawing this#and i think . hes such a good parent#i think jl looks back at his childhood and thinks that he was happy . that jc made sure he was happy#and he only realises later that when jc was so silent and stared into space before baby jl ran up to him and jc smiled#small but a smile#that he was struggling so bad . but he tried so hard to keep jl happy#and i think jl goes up and sits with him quietly now because at least if his brother doesnt want to come home to hug him jl can#hug him just as tight#so what if theyre a family of two theyve got each other#ough . they make me all weepy and miserable#UMMM DETAILS the ribbons on the tree jcs eyebags and black nail polish#ok the endđĽ#allcheng gotcha for gaza#art tag#mdzs#jiang cheng#jin ling#jin ling and his jiujiu#mxtx#mo dao zu shi#ééçĽĺ¸#cql#the untamed#the grandmaster of demonic cultivation
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my dear friend @marlenacantswim asked me to draw the TOS yaoi polycule and i want you to know this is what the whole show is like to me
#in many ways jim kirk as a character is like. what if laios touden was in starfleet#i would really like to see that actually i think laios would have a great time in star trek#just a very autistic very asexual dude stuck in the horniest television show known to man#walking up to random aliens like hello sir do you have a cloaca :)#imagine him finding out about the concept of pon farr#âchilchuck!! this lady said its pon farr night at the vulcan nightclub!!!â#chilchuck: đđşđŹ#anyway#mcspirk#i need to watch more tos i keep thinking about the episode where they steal spocks brain#good episode. great tv#star trek fanart#star trek tos#star trek the original series#jim kirk#sâchn tâgai spock#bones mccoy#spirk#love the fact that the only other ship name for kirk/spock is kock. this amuses me#noah.jpg#star trek
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â¨Morning Routineâ¨
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The boys had a sleepover and woke up â¨beautiful⨠â¨flawless⨠and â¨gorgeousâ¨
#I really have no idea what my inspiration was for this drawingâŚit just came to me#also if the ch character designers wanted Topher to be ugly why did they give him beautiful long flowing hair HUH#it wasnât intentional but jfk looks like heâs channeling his inner ponce here lmao#also buff Confucius still scares me and keeps me up at night why is he like that#clone high#my art#fanart#clone high fanart#clone high jfk#clone high confucius#clone high abe#clone high topher#topher bus#roxiâs art
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Yesterday for the first time I saw a post in a public forum that actually points out Marika has every reason to be so cold & distant towards Maliketh... thanks God.
The Two Fingers/ EIden Beast stood aside & let her entire family die, then when it successfully entrapped her in a literal divine prison it said âhere we gave you a brother lolâ like istg WHAT are you even saying. Her entire real family is already in a ditch !!! No prayers to the Gods help them! And now these Godlike beings are like take this random guy as your bro???
Itâs confirmed in the base game Shadowbeast is like sleeper agent that the Two Fingers put there to monitor their Empyrean & off them if they try to rebel, no matter how earnest the Shadowbeast sounds. Ranni and Blaid literally grew up together & we still have to get rid of him at the end of her questline đ Marika was a young woman who had lost everything then forced to recognize some stranger as family. To her that must be some fucked up joke.
And get this, I do believe Maliketh and Blaidd care for Marika & Ranni genuinely, itâs a tragedy that they were born to bring ânothing but baleâ to the person they love. Just like how Messmer, the beloved son in the Shadow, also became a curse to the person he loves the most in the end. Thatâs the doomed narrative they are trying to portray.
#er brainrot#the tragedy is THE LOVE WAS THERE !! it's just set up to be doomed by the narrative#not oh one party is unloved / mistreated by the other :(((((( gawddd#like gahhhh ok yeah sure think whatever u want but i'll sit on this reading of the lore#i were going to draw a comic about that which was why i been keeping my mouth shut about MaIiketh but the post i saw yesterday knocked me#tf out (a post in a wild analyzing Marika's actions with NUANCE and it's from someone i don't even know???? made my night fr)#so the feelings got out and i had to type this out
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tell me i'm not the only one who regularly has this thought
#like yes ik aftg is in 2006 yes ik andrew is 20 years old no i dont understand how that means he was born in 1986#that makes him 38 years old present day#hes only 11 years younger than my mother#this actually keeps me up at night#im older than book andrew tho and somehow that adds to my late night thoughts#wait i think hes actually 37 present day since hes a november baby#aftg#all for the game#the foxhole court#andrew minyard
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Wally and Bart have the most insanely funny relationship, because normally Wally is so unnecessarily mean to Bart but when Inertia kills Bart he comes up with the most horrible verging on evil punishment he can, and I think itâs INSANE
#Wallyâs treatment of Bart kills me#like why you gotta be so mean?#theyâre lowkey just like real siblings though#inertia#Inertiaâs punishment keeps me up at night#like thatâs so much worse then just killing him#Wally is the number 1 person I would not want to mess with in DC#but I prob would do the same thing if Bart was my cousin#I love Bart#bart allen#wally west#thad thawne
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It's a pretty cool name.
Loki + the progression of saying Mobius' name for @percheduphere
#mobius#loki#lokius#mcuedit#lokiedit#marveledit#owen wilson#tom hiddleston#tysm for the amazing request because GOD did making this hit harder than i'd even expected??#like it's kind of a given mobius fell first#but i've been so swamped all month i basically only had time to finish maybe a gif per night#and let me tell you watching loki progressively fall harder with each and every scene was uh. an experience all right đđł#in S1 loki's so obviously trying to keep their guard up until mobius gets pruned protecting them and it's like a switch flips#the walls come down and you see the power of being believed in the pure RELIEF mobius' presence brings#how much he's valued and needed and LOVED as loki tries to hold him close only to lose him again and again#leading to desperation building until the only option left is to sacrifice everything not realizing now they're both left wanting#y'all i'll never recover đ#marvel#owenwilsonedit#dianagifs
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haunting the narrative -> haunted by the narrative -> haunting the narrative -> haunted by
#adventure time#fionna and cake#simon petrikov#betty grof#petrigrof#fan art#fanart#art#digital art#my art#just a lil something something i did for fun#adventure time has always been the show that makes me want to draw (i have SO many AT drawings from 2015 it's ridiculous)#but now I'm coming back to that ye olde passion with new digital art skills and many more evil tragic thoughts (thank you fionna and cakeđ)#i couldn't get the thought about them haunting and be haunted by the narrative out of my head so I had to make some art for it#the caption for this was almost: so who wears the haunted by the narrative in the relationship?#they take turns of course because damn these guys really do be having that tragic romance huh. hot potato cursed existence#never quite on the same wavelength. always out of reach. their love the very thing that dooms them to be apart. a love defined by absences#like two ships in the night passing each other by. except they keep trying to seek the other out. and so end up going in circles#the tragic dance of madness and sadness. lead on and i shall follow. ....so anyway...these two amiright?#/might/ have to write something at some point...maybe...#because like... ghosts are my thing. and these two...well. even when they aren't haunting the narrative they are still ghosts#never let themselves live in the present and okay I'm going to stop now. enjoy the art byeeeee#...AND they'll never be at peace because they'll always be reaching for a version of each other that no longer exists andâ#(i am dragged kicking and screaming from the room before i can devolve into a full blown meta)
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Something something the volumes it speaks that the Darkling felt the need to put Zoya and Alina in competition with each other and put them against each other from the moment they met so that they wouldnât be able to immediately acknowledge what was being done to them and unite against him something something
#the pitting of women against each other not only for a misogynistâs gain but also because the misogynist fears those women#and what they would be able to do together#says so freaking much#and the force we could have seen between the pair of them from the very beginning#if their dislike of each other hadnât been effectively manufactured#ugh#like I just#keeps me up at night#you know?#grishaverse#shadow and bone#save shadow and bone#save the grishaverse#sab netflix#shadow and bone netflix#alina starkov#zoya nazyalensky#anti darkling#anti darklina#malina#Zoya and Alina#queens#leigh bardugo#grisha trilogy#siege and storm#ruin and rising#I hate the Darkling#i hate him i hate him i hate him#shadow and bone analysis#assorted analysis - grishaverse
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if you're wondering why bob is here it's bc in the original villareal story there was a very minor background detail that diego lobo and bob pancakes dated in college and broke up tragically and that's where the story peaked. so i included him it's still canon
thank you for these it was so fun!!!!!!!!!!!!
i did these in my this is the fall sim style so i'm thinking. if they exist in this universe what's all their opinions on the 'did jacques do it' situation. let's take a look
don: saw a photo of jacques's wife on the news during the investigation. said "whoa mama that's a hot babe!" like johnny bravo and did not read the headline. does not know anything about it still.
vlad: well he's psychic he could figure out the truth if he actually cared. and he has!
olive: obviously respects it. except for the getting investigated part, would never happen to her.
diego: does not think jacques did it but enjoys the tabloids. knows other rich people personally who he thinks have killed their spouses
morgyn: will post things like "friendly reminder that j*cques v*llareal literally killed his wife and is a billionaire so maybe don't go to one of their hotels" on tumblr and will then do a call out post about like a fanfic writer who wrote an unhealthy relationship with more severity
pascal: knows conspiracy theories and this one is bullshit. or maybe it just doesn't interest him as much as aliens and that's why he thinks that
jeb: has a very "well of course he did. them rich folk can do whatever they want. there ain't no hope for the rest of us" while kicking a can down the road approach
bob: thinks he did it. is very alarmed that it was brushed off. eliza's like bob book the hotel and he's like am i going crazy. does anyone hear me.
#olive and pascal do NOT exist in this is the fall strangetown has their own universe but it's still fun#i really need to finish remaking all of strangetown#for the record human vlad works for the company high up he knows jacques. he keeps his feelings on the matter private.#but anyway yes bob and diego. both from small towns met in college. diego was in drag and bob thought he was a woman#then was still attracted to him out of drag and had a months long spiral about his sexuality it was a thing#they just wanted different things. it wouldn't have worked. bob likes small towns. he wanted to stay and have a house and a family#diego wanted the exact opposite. they had to part ways. bob still thinks about him laying awake at night. kind of a lot#bob is like he probably doesn't think about me at all anymore he's definitely moved on. no diego thinks about him a lot too#the ones that got away#ts4#ts4 cas#ts4 edit#the sims 4#townie makeover#townie makeovers#don lothario#vladislaus straud#olive specter#diego lobo#morgyn ember#pascal curious#jeb harris#bob pancakes#this is the fall: extras
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