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mirensiart · 7 days ago

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it's 2025 here!!! So happy new year !!!

To everyone who tagged me in their tag game, I'm so happy and grateful 🥹💖 it means so much to me when people tag me in those, seriously thank you!

I'm not gonna lie, when I joined the loz/lu fandom here, i was going through some pretty rough irl things and all the love from all of you guys was so important and valuable to me during those times 💖🥹

I'll forever be grateful to everyone! Here's to a new year with more art and creative projects ✨️💖

#thank you everyone i swear #like these last 6 months was hell for me #but thanks to all the love and support from y'all i was able to go on 🥹💖✨️#i'll keep flooding ur dashboards with my art in 2025 so be prepared hehe #miry's yapping

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ghosting-fox · 1 year ago

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you all know that audio from bladerunner? "you look lonely i can fix that"?? my brain wouldn't let me rest until i haven't drawn that with Sun n Moon

but jokes aside, really self-indulgent comic bc both Security Breach and Ruin came out when i was at a low point mentally and helped me greatly just be able to move forward and get through each day (and i won't even be getting into how much these 2 fictional robot jesters have helped me refind my passion for drawing)

i really hope that more people can relate to this :))

#anyways i mean it when i say my brain wouldn't rest until i whipped my pencil out n started drawing #tbh i stumbled upon the audio waaay back like 5-6 months ago??#but just now like literally just now i though #damn that REALLY fits Sun n Moon #i think it might be bc this semester was really stressful for me #and this last month has been hell #i was honestly drained physically and mentally #but i managed to go through each day and move forward #n just when my whole energy was running out n just when i had a couple of days left where i had to work more than my body could carry #right then Ruin came out and it was like;; really a breath of fresh air #my brain was suddenly thinking about the lore and theories and not anymore stressing abt projects and exams #while i still had to work Ruin gave me a push to be able to finish what i had to do #now i'm taking a small 2 week break where i'm gonna go easier with uni work and letting my body heal itself :))#but anyways enough rambling n everything #i really hope more of y'all can relate to this comic :))#now onto the tags #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf superstar daycare #sundrop #moondrop #fnaf sun #fnaf moon #moondrop x y/n #sundrop x y/n #tw eye contact #doodles #traditional doodle #comic #Ghost doodles

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britneyshakespeare · 2 months ago

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you know i don't bring this up as a light anecdote because it involves me being talked about in really perverted ways behind my back. but when i was like 20 i was part of this large group of friends that was mostly a bunch of guys, and a couple of girlfriends. and the energy if you were a girl starting to hang around them was like. "ok, so who are you gonna hook up with/date?" and it didn't last long bc of course when the answer ended up being "well none of you," the patience they had for me evaporated. lol. so i was being talked about among literally every single one of them behind my back in a gigantic group chat, of like literally everyone in the original group chat (including the ppl who never fucking used it, and it was over twelve people) minus a few other ppl they didn't like, decidedly. and eventually one of my GOOD friends (that i am still friends w to this day) told me about it and then there was the whole drama of people not being able to accept consequences for their actions, not owning up to being cowardly bullies, etc... yawn yawn yawn. truly that was some stupid middle school shit from a bunch of immature ppl that i didn't really take to heart. not the guys, anyway. i was honestly very hurt by a couple of girls who partook in it though, that i thought genuinely liked me and who i genuinely liked in return, so that was shocking to me.

but anyway. after this all happened my sister went OFF on this one guy in particular. bc he had been a nuisance before. he was a slimy creep honestly. i used to feel a lot of pity for him bc i thought he was just sad and wanted attention but that was just my 20-year-old nonsense brain way of interpreting it. he was incredibly annoying and would wear girls down, would hop from one girl to another week after week, each one not reciprocating his constant desperate flirting and lovebombing. and there was a joke he participated in about me and my (also queer, female) friend that was particularly crossing a line. so kaily just ripped this guy a new one when he went to try and offer an explanation. like imagine trying to even talk to someone after you just humiliated and bullied their sister... couldn't be me. like i was literally the one being bullied in this instant but i can't imagine the kind of white hot rage i'd be in if someone did that to my sister. you know? so yeah.

at the end of this rant kaily told him "go to hell." you know. like fuck off. go fuck yourself. go to hell. good old indecent words to throw out at someone you loathe, right? i'm literally ONLY bringing this up because i cannot stop thinking, all these years later, about how one of the girls who participated in it, and was the least apologetic about it (in fact weirdly a year later she came back just to taunt me again and tell me how much better her life is without me and how stupid i was for breaking up a 'wonderful' friend group?? yeah that sounds like the behavior of someone who is over it)... i don't remember where but someone told me she talked particularly about that message to that guy and said "kaily told (name) to burn in hell" like. like that whole time she interpreted my sister as like a conservative christian who was calling him a dirty sinner. bc presumably she had never heard the phrase "go to hell" in a non-literal context before, or just never understood it?? like that girl didn't necessarily strike me as incredibly bright or something, in the short time i knew her, but i never would've guessed she could be so dumb...

but for the record that pervert guy yeah he is gonna burn in hell.

#tales from diana #im sorry how much dramatic backstory that anecdote required #that one girl and her friend are still some of the most baffling pieces of that story to me #like i hate to say it but i was not shocked that all but like two of those guys really liked or respected me at all #none of them seemed to like any of the other girls in the friend group #they just barely seemed to tolerate their friends' girlfriends. bc they had to #and some of those guys didn't even seem to like or respect their girlfriends #both of those girls who bullied me were some of 'the girlfriends' and i have to be honest. i wouldnt wanna be 'the girlfriend' there #neither of them are still w their then-boyfriends and im pretty sure for both of them it ended awfully #idk what happened to the really particularly aggressive one who thought kaily said 'burn in hell'#but for some reason like 6 months later when she and her bf broke up she unfriended me on fb #i had never unfriended her in case she wanted to apologize at any point (i had hope... 20 year old nonsense again i was really naive)#but then yeah another 6 months later she and the other girlfriend (still in a relationship at that time) just blew up at me and some others #for like no reason. just bc we all stayed friends... w each other #like i promise u i never went out of my way to bother these girls in any way. directly or indirectly. they just had to say #'its been a year and i still hate you guys' like why. we were literally all adults. we didnt go to school together we never saw each other #we were all just frankly moving on but i guess they were not over it #the other girl whose relationship lasted longer had maybe the worse boyfriend? definitely the worse breakup #he abandoned her for another woman and kicked her out of their living space #she was literally begging on social media for help #and again that guy was a monster who did not seem to really love her. he's married to the other woman now #they have a kid together #idk where either of those girls are now bc basically all their friends abandoned them #feels like if they had chosen their allies better way back when we were 20-21 itd have been different #which is not to blame them. but like. i would not have let that happen to my friends #but the fact that anyone stood up for me when i was being bullied was 'starting drama'#and the fact that they all let their problems pile up until their lives are destroyed? well i guess thats just being civilized and mature #sorry if this is just sounding incredibly judgmental bc i dont think they deserve their situations at all #but i dont think their choices didnt play some role in their being eventually discarded by rotten fuckin men #they were pretty rotten to me too. poor things...

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my-thirteenth-reason · 7 months ago

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bro wtf is with this guy i swear when will he get the hint that i no longer am and do not want to be friends with his transphobic-in-the-weirdest-way ahh

#he makes me so uncomfortable???#like i ghosted him for 2 months and then when i had my competition he messages me telling me that he went on the site to look at my results?#???? and proceeded to give me unsolicited consolation #um firstly wtf are you even looking at my results for thats weird af and secondly i wasn't even upset + i don't want your pity + wtf???#and i replied really dryly but then he started talking about some project he was working on as if i didn't literally greytick him for 2 mths #and now he just sent me a message again omg stop please. i get the ick thinking about him #okay and there was that time i was in a really depressive episode last year and i wasn't talking to him and on his discord bio it said like #you know ur the worst when a suicidal person wont talk to u or sum shit like that #like what the hell? am i just overreacting or is that the weirdest shit you could say #like are you trying to get me to feel even worse cuz that doesn't exactly make me want to reach out #like omfg how do you even make something like this about you. literally how #also he kept fetishising trans people in his fanart???? like what the hell it was so disturbing #anyway now that I think about it i was friends with him for about 6 months and it's also been 6 months since then and i am completely fine #ugh anyway #we were kinda close so i got him to make a tumblr #to my moot who might follow him his name starts with r lol #and i swear he was vagueposting about me last month #and like. it's kinda creepy.#dude i am literally the plainest person around please why are you so obsessed with me i bet you can't name anything about me you liked that #doesn't include how i gave you the attention you wanted #anyway i don't know how he hasn't gotten the hint when bro he knows i literally avoid all eye contact and pairwork and messages from him #like do you need me to tell it to your face or what #rant #sorry i feel so mean writing this help

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youredreamingofroo · 11 months ago

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so I'm bored and am still waiting for bald your gays 3 to download (2-ish hours left), and I decided why not share two of my favorite pieces of art that I've made 😮‍💨😋

The first one is where I did the "draw your oc in the cartoon network color pallete" challenge, and also challenged myself with a pose reference

The second one is Roo if he was a Welcome Home character! I used to be obsessed with WH, and I'm still SUPER proud of this piece :P

#i have a bunch of other pieces but these are the ones im most confident to release 😭#id love to pick up art again the last time i drew something was in August '23 #i usually do that where i just drop art randomly and then pick it up 6 or 7 months later lmao #“what program” me my finger and ibispaint #i have other stuff that i havent shown off that i wanna release so hell ill just make a new tag for moments like these #unrooleased #Roo #Roo*#yapping

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hopeinthebox · 2 years ago

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late to the party as per but finally giving this one a go - AND pestering some music favs with a tag <33 @cordiallyfuturedwight @banghwa @thvinyl @aprylynn @pauls-mccharmly @monismochi @thatredwine @huhfeatjhope 💜 and anyone else who fancies a go

#i know some of you have already done this but i LOVE being nosey so thought i'd offer the opportunity to snoop <33 #i cannot offer any explanation as to this playlist #the vibe is simply incomprehensible #great tunes.. beautiful tunes #that jeff buckley track has been on repeat for the last 6 months so that's a given #tiny habits and cmat are both fantastic in wildly different ways but you should give them a listen #where tiny things are more of a lizzy mcalpine give me a minute vibe #and cmat is more of a kirsty maccoll there's a guy works down the chip shop swears he's elvis vibe #anyways. just like jesse james top five cher of all time #ziggy stardust got so high? spiders from mars? baffling stuff. love it #harmony hall fixed me #boygenius because what the hell else would i be listening to #ace of base. phenomenal #prince. also #well then. there's that explanation that i said i couldn't offer #i'm going to snoop on yours and listen to your top tracks now <3 #MWAH

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agayconcept · 6 months ago

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#when im extra depressed i watch old yt compilations #this week is critical role moments #and ugh. Ugh #i always forget how mf touch-starved and affection-starved i am until i watch those 8 interact w each other #like. always touching. so much touching #i havent had a cuddly / touchy friend in like 6+ years and i am Suffering for it #like as much as w any other people im v touch-averse and dont want that at all #when it comes to friends i am extremely pro touch and genuinely love being affectionate #and i Can't #and sometimes that sucks ngl #no shade to my friends who aren't comf w that obviously #that's 100% gr8 and i would never push or wanna make them uncomf lots of ppl dont like that #i just. used to always have at least 1 friend who /was/ okay with it that i could be as cuddly as i wanted with #and now i dont and it ??? is getting to a point where it is almost painful #like str8 up i've had to talk to my therapist abt this the last 6 months bc its becoming a bit dire #hugs r wonderful dont get me wrong but thats the max amount of touch for my ok-with-touch friends #and the rest r no-touch #whereas im sitting here like 😭😭😭 PLS I JUST WANNA HOLD SOMEONE'S HAND #OR LEAN MY HEAD ON SOMEONE'S SHOULDER OR HAVE AN ARM AROUND A WAIST OR A HEAD IN A LAP #OR STR8 UP SNUGGLIN ON A COUCH #I DESPERATELY NEED IT #ANY OF IT IT DOESNT NEED TO BE ALL OF THAT #I FEEL LIKE I AM SHRIVELLING UP LIKE A SENTIENT RAISIN INSIDE #JUST HAVIN ALL THE LIFE SUCKED OUT OF ME THRU LACK OF TOUCH #I WANT SOMEONE TO RUFFLE MY HAIR OR PAT MY ARM OR KISS MY CHEEK #HELL I'LL TAKE A HAND ON MY BACK PURELY FOR THE PURPOSE OF STOPPING ME FROM WALKING INTO TRAFFIC #WHICH AT THIS POINT I AM TEMPTED TO DO DUE TO EMOTIONAL DISTRESS LMAO (DEVASTATED LAUGHTER)#aiyaiyai and i cant even just go and Make New Friends bc most spaces to do that arent accessible or safe for me #the only friends i've made in the last few years r thru Mutual Autism Vibes~ and they're all anti-touch #WHERE R THE OTHER TOUCH-STARVED CUDDLY AUTISTICS AT ??? WHERE R U ??? COME FIND ME PLS I BEG !!! i feel like im gonna die fr

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youremyonlyhope · 8 months ago

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why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up

#i'm overthinking something that i did and was told off for doing by my director #and on my way home i was thinking when was the last time i was even talked to like that during a production #and then i remembered the costume experience from hell of only a couple months ago that i've already began blocking out #but the thing is that that person was someone i knew i'd never have to work with again #i mean at first i thought i would have to work with them more. then they announced they were moving away immediately #so i only had to deal with them face to face for another weekish after that point and anytime they yelled at me #i was like 'cool. i'll do exactly what you say to do. and nothing more.' but then of course me being me #i did some extra stuff and they initially were like 'oh that's pretty' and then days later told me to cut everything i added #and like sure i get that the show was frozen but girl. that costume was unfinished. i was trying to finish it. it was frozen but looked bad #anyway. whenever they yelled at me and had actual malice in their heart i was like whatever. i was hurt. but i didn't care as much.#but this time it's someone i've worked with many many times before and it was about a habit i have that i know isn't great #but at the same time the thing that prompted it wasn't even me doing this habit it was something else #but she interpreted it as that habit and said that i can't do that on a production she's directing #and that if i couldn't stop then i could pull out from the production and there'd be no hard feelings between us #and honestly i think her reassuring that she knows i'm valuable and that she wants me there while also telling me not to do this thing #and the fact that she's someone i like working with and will continue to work with just made it all hurt so much more #especially since she referenced another past production we've done where i didn't even realize she had noticed that i do this.#and i found myself in near tears. and still am kind of in near tears. i can't decide if i need to cry or not.#and i had NO sleep last night so i was looking forward to sleeping tonight but now i'm just overthinking EVERYTHING #and like. i know everything will be fine. if i just stop inserting myself and stick to just my specific tasks. it'll be fine.#but this is one of the ways my ocd manifests. i feel like i have to personally fix something i notice going wrong. or it'll be bad.#because every single time i choose to sit back and not be nosy when i notice something it ends up bad in a way i could have prevented #if i just inserted myself in a situation i technically wasn't part of but knew i could help or fix. so i just need to not do that.#but then i feel guilt if it does go wrong in the ways i immediately assumed it would and in a way i could prevent.#and i've been trying to work on this for like 6 months and aaaahhhh it's hard and being called out on it from her just really really hurt #i still may or may not cry. i don't know. the irony of me telling my therapist THIS MORNING that it's been a while since i last cried.#and the universe being like 'i took that as a challenge' and handing me this situation for me to spiral over.#i need to leave things alone. i need to stare straight ahead. and ignore whatever isn't specifically for me to do. but ahhh i want to help #and then of course my mom has this same habit and it annoys me when she does it yet i do it to other people and ahhhhhhhh #brain please just shut up. i need to sleep. i have to work tomorrow.

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jils-things · 1 year ago

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OMFG I ONLY SAW THIS NOW OMGGG

okay so pelo has a thing for teasing his next spooky month episode with funny stock images (he has done this for last ep) and this ... is VERY interesting..........

#FIRST OF ALL THE ROBBER GUYS ARE COMING BACKKKKK #apparently the priest is gonna be relevant here? (there were previews with him too)#he was there last time #is this gonna be like the movies about a girl being possessed SDHUAHUSAFHASFUASF #THE DRINKING GIRLS MAKE ME THINK OF JAUNE AND LILA theyre drinking buddies!!!!#this takes place at a church mayhaps.#THE PUPPET THING GOT ME INTERSTED THO (ha carmine)#this was posted awhile back tho waaa....#im eager sorry yall HAHHHEADHAD #i have NO idea what am i looking at in the bottom right #~ rambling #when spooky month 6 drops its all over for me /j #ok i was told it was the 9 circles of hell buthmmmmm

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timiddot · 10 months ago

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i need a new job but im disabled and autistic and i cant drive and ive only ever worked one job before the one i currently work and i don't have any college and the job market is so bad right now i don't know what to do at all i just need to make more money but i'm completely fucking drained mentally and physically from my current shitty job that isn't even that hard i'm just weak to the point where i don't have the energy to look for other jobs and my fucking computer is kinda broken and i really want to work a remote job but i can't with my computer like that and i don't know what to do but i can't keep earning fucking $9 an hour with like 20 hours a week but i can't work another retail job or i think i will genuinely lose my mind more than i already have and that therapist hasn't gotten back to me and i don't know what to fucking do at all i am so lost i just want it all to be fucking over!!!! AND IM SICK HAHAHA FUCK ME !

#max sprouts #sorry im not doing good.#the last like 6 months of my life have made me so fucking hopeless #with everything that happened w logan and shit and money and life is just hell #i dont even have anybody to talk to abt shit with logan because i didn't fucking tell anyone when it was happening #and now its been over for months and what point is there to bring it up #i dont have frienfs that i can talk to #im sorry i dont really expect anyone to read this #if you Know who i mean when i say logan please dont like..contact them about my fucking dumb posting.#i doubt anyone would but im paranoid i just want it all to be over

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maedaeme · 2 years ago

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Oversharing Moment TM but my focus + memory issues have gotten w o r s e but i just found out my insurance ISN'T dropping my doctor so. drumroll. time to suffer thru like the 4th med change i guess

#last adhd med made me WORSE but also fuckin TIRED AS HELL #but if we change again im going to have to have a dr appointment like every 2 weeks for 6 months. who has that money #aaaa. aaaaughghgh #pointless post

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chappellrroan · 2 years ago

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i will sob omg

#so there's this friend of mine and like i totally stopped talking to everyone remember she was one of my best friends online to the point #i even gave her number and she's seen me barely since last year #so today i was texting on her on pin from another account and i told her to text me because idc how anything goes i don't want to avoid her #anymore it's exhausting and like she's always been there for me waiting for MONTHS #like idc how great your friends are ik they won't fucking wait for 6-7 months with no text at all and still he so warm #so loving #and i send her the pics i clicked yesterday ofc they weren't the best but #her mom was beside her and she said bacchi bari ho gayi <3 #like i feel loved okay they always worry about me sm even when i am not present it feels so good #idk what will become of me in next few months but all ik is whatever happens no more ghosting my friends #things can go to hell for all i care because they're hell anyways <3

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achingroses · 2 months ago

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vent post lol