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piratefishmama · 1 year ago

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So i know the poll isnt over but i'm going to assume yes, to the background information on Finders Givers lmao.

So this is basically notes, they're notes I have on these characters, things that might not explicitly make it into the fic, and some things that might be included or referenced, but they're just... things i have noted down as character motivations or bits of information for specific characters that i wanna keep note of.

so keep some of these things in mind when characters are introduced! it'll explain a lot in terms of characterizations or vague references.

Please be advised there are CW's in here! CW: Mentions of ED CW: Mentions of human trafficking CW: mentions of illegal behaviour CW: mentions of past parental abuse CW: mentions of police bullshittery

The Harrington Family

Adults

Head of the family - Steve Harrington - 28 - Bisexual

Steve runs several underground businesses around the city, including drugs, fire arms, smuggling, and he owns a few clubs that deal in… illicit behaviours (strip clubs, gambling, etc.)

Steve also deals in legitimate business practices to cover up his naughty ones. He has military contracts for legal firearm development and distribution. He also owns a few local restaurants and a bakery that he bought to give Jane something soothing to do when her nerves are fried.

Steve was under his parents guidance until he was 18 years of age, they passed away in a car wreck leaving him with the 'family business' which he has since expanded and grown into a pretty sizable empire.

He lives in a high rise apartment in the city, the floor to cieling windows are bullet and blast proof and his security system is state of the art developed by his own company, he also has a security team and weapons hidden in several places around his apartment just in case anyone managed to get through the gauntlet of shit he's got lined up for them should anyone tresspass.

He owns the building, Robin lives in it, and so does Nancy and Jonathan although they're planning on getting a house somewhere just outside the city.

Steve wants the Hideout for drug and weapon smuggling purposes as one of the tunnels under it connects to a sewer line that runs to the city docks, getting the Hideout would mean he'd have access to pretty much the entire city from that one spot, as it's an access point to the tunnels not on any official city map.

Robin Buckley - 27 - Lesbian

Met Steve at a restaurant owned by his parents when they were both teenagers, Steve was still under his parents wing at that stage of his life and was held up by a rival family who caught him having dinner with friends, Robin, while working as a server, took a bullet for him, and wound up tied to a chair back to back with him in a warehouse while the bad guys tried to ransom them, took them both together thinking they knew each other because Robin took that bullet. They've been inseparable ever since.

She's the most important person in his life, he'd give up everything for her in a heartbeat. Wouldnt even think about it, he owes her his life.

Robin comes from a middle-class family and worked most of her teenage years in retail and customer service jobs, until she was taken hostage with Steve. She knows multiple languages, can play a few instruments. she's a little clumsy but she has spirit. she and Steve play basketball every now and then with the kids to unwind. She likes baking with Jane.

Nancy Wheeler - 27 - Bisexual

Steve brought her in when she was fired from her first reporter gig for some bogus political bullshit that wound up with her name being blacklisted in the industry when she went after the wrong person without any back up.

He paid for her student loans and brought her and her family into his family, she now works closely with Robin to make sure Steve doesnt do anything stupid, and if he does something stupid without telling them, she aids in damage control.

She's also a solid researcher, can find that needle in a haystack without needing a magnet. And she's really good with a gun.

Jonathan Byers - 27 - Heterosexual

Came with Nancy, is now her fiance. He's good at publicity shots, manages the galleries on the company's website. He takes most of Steve's public appearance photos. Doesn't really have the stomach for crime but he's pretty good at staying quiet.

Argyle - 27 - Pansexual

Came with Jonathan, a pretty spectacular get away driver, a good cook, and solid weed dealer, doesnt deal in anything stronger, has a quality hook up back in California that Steve was happy to connect with. He also ferries the kids around whenever they wanna do something stupid. Sometimes he appears with pizza, nobody knows where he gets the pizza, (he makes it himself).

He's currently staying with the Wheelers as there's no room for him elsewhere. He eventually moves into the block.

Billy Hargrove - 28 - one foot out of the closet Gay (still defensive about it)

Originally forced to work under Henry Creel, the head of a rival gang as an enforcer after his father racked up gambling debts with him. Billy is volatile, violent, and very defensive. He will snap to violence if he's backed into a corner.

Billy has a hair trigger temper similar to Jane, however his trauma is more related to his abusive father and being forced to work for Creel as a hitman/enforcer. He was the muscle, the guy who'd turn up to break things or kill someone. He's not a nice person by any means, he still acts a bit like a shark that's sensed blood in the water, but he's trying to be better now he's free of Creel.

He was raised by a racist, so his views on things are backwards and a lot twisted, but he's getting better. He's no longer antagonistic towards Lucas, he was for the first few months, but Max stepped in and shut that down.

He's doing a lot better now he's in a healthier environment, no longer fearing for his and Max's life, and no longer under Neil's abusive thumb, but he has unhealthy coping mechanisms for his stress and anger.

Joyce Byers - 46

Came with Jonathan. She doesnt really have a role besides keeping Hopper from arresting everyone. Everyone loves her though, she's like a mother to them all. Very protective of them. She'll do odd jobs here and there.

Jim Hopper - 46

Chief of Police in the city, Steve's parents basically blackmailed him years ago and Steve still has the material if Hopper ever stepped out of line.

Hopper has since reunited with, and fallen for Joyce, they went to school together, small world! So he can't do shit without Joyce being mad at him.

Begrudgingly he does actually like Steve though, the kid doesnt cause half as much shit as he could do given how much power he has.

The other parents

Play little to no roles. Not mentioned other than in passing.

Claudia mans the main secretaries desk at the main office which acts as a front for Steve's other shit. Steve hired her after he overheard Dustin talking to the other kids about how his mother had been made redundant at her previous job.

The Kids.

Jane Ives/Harrington - 16

Steve's most dangerous enforcer.

He recovered her from a human trafficking ring, the other victims found their way back to their homes but while they could find her mother, Terry was mentally gone after a blow to the head which happened when Jane was originally kidnapped.

Steve took her in, she uses Harrington as her last name in school. Their relationship is closer to brother/sister rather than parent/child.

Nobody expects Jane to be dangerous, and that's one of the reasons why she's the most dangerous. She's small, she's a wisp of a thing, but she will snap.

People do not take her seriously and then they die.

Jane has PTSD and intermittant explosive disorder (IED). She has trauma triggers that include claustrophobia and a fear of dark places, she doesnt trust easily and her speech is stilted from growing up in harsh conditions with no schooling or socialization.

Befriended Max at school when Steve insisted that she go to school with kids her own age to learn how to socialise (she was chaperoned and the school was well aware of her difficulties). There have been hiccups due to every school having bullies, but Steve has always paid any medical bills caused by those hiccups.

She killed Henry Creel to free both Max and her brother from his clutches using Steve's old nail bat, after convincing Max to bring her to Henry under the guise of her joining his "family".

It took a few weeks to gain his trust, but she killed him in his home by finding out his home security codes, sneaking in at night and taking him by surprise. Nail bat to the face.

Dustin, Lucas, Mike, and Will - 15-16 & Erica - 13

They're the kids, they met Jane in school. They do random odd jobs here and there, mainly they act as spies around the city, they usually communicate through walkies, changing the channel once a week to avoid being listened to.

If there's anything happening around the city that's worth knowing, one of the kids will know it.

Will and Mike already knew Steve through their relatives, which made it easier for the other kids to trust him.

Steve will not allow them to do anything other than act as weird little spies but thats fine, they think it's really cool.

Max - 16

She's a solid get away driver and Billy's stepsister, will absolutely take a baseball bat to someone if necessary, she and Jane are best friends.

She acted as a drug runner for Henry for a year before Jane intervened.

She has a huge crush on Lucas, it's mutual, it's very cute.

The Block

The block is 4 storeys high, there are sixteen apartments in the block in a range of 1 to 2 bedroom. Odd numbers on the left side of the building, even numbered apartments on the right side of the building. Four apartments to a floor. Rent is usually $595pm not including any utility bills.

Eddie Munson - 29 - Gay

Lead vocalist and guitarist of Corroded Coffin which plays at the Hideout, the bar Steve is buying, every Tuesday evening.

Jobless as of start of fic due to a 'disagreement' with his line manager which ended with the manager unconscious and bleeding.

Eddie struggles to find work as he has an assault felony on his record that had him spending two years inside. He used to deal drugs back in highschool but doesnt any more. He still partakes from time to time when he can afford to buy from the shitty dealers in the block. He knows the weed is trash and not at all worth the money they're asking for, but they're easy to get to and it provides a decent enough high to pass the time, he doesnt let Chrissy partake until she's healthy again.

Argyle quickly becomes one of his friends when he moves into the block.

The assault felony was against a local police officer who attempted to coerce him into sexual acts in favour of letting him off with a warning for being caught dealing drugs, hinting that he should be grateful to get any at all given Eddie's sexuality in such a small town.

Eddie punched him and managed to launch the drugs he had into a field lost to the darkness while the officer was disorientated.

The only charge they could pull him on was assault.

When he got out, he was more a freak than ever before, now known as the local queer after the officer he'd 'assaulted' had rushed to claim Eddie came onto him to get out of a harsher charge then panicked when the officer didnt reciprocate when asked to explain Eddie lashing out, as he'd never shown any agression towards officers before and the sherrif couldn't understand why he'd start now, the Sherrif still didn't understand how that could make sense as the story was so hastily told by the officer, so Eddie got out early after a quiet internal investigation led to him being revealed as a victim.

Unfortunately as he did assault an officer, the charge was never wiped from his record.

Eddie spent a year in Hawkins with his uncle after getting out of jail, before jumping ship. Not before making friends with Chrissy Cunningham, who he'd caught at the quarry one night a little too close to the edge of the cliff.

He talked her down, made her laugh, and gave her half his sandwich which she picked at quietly.

He found out about her ED from Jason her childhood friend and 'boyfriend' (performative, acted as a shield against her mother when he could), who at first couldn't believe that Eddie was getting her to eat things, he was defensive at first, angry that she'd go to the local felon instead of him, but… eventually he conceeded that maybe she would be happier, maybe she could survive life if she stayed with Eddie.

Jason sought to convince Eddie to get her to move away from Hawkins with him when Eddie decided to jump ship. He didn't have to try hard. Eddie was planning on whisking her away anyway.

They moved to the city together and have been inseparable ever since as he strives to help her recover.

Lives in Apartment 8 on the second floor with Chrissy.

Chrissy Cunningham - 27 - Bisexual

Lived with abusive parents until she was 16 and then managed to split her living situation between staying with her childhood friend (Jason) under the guise of him being her boyfriend, and hiding out with friends.

Chrissy has suffered with an eating disorder since she was very young mostly due to her mother's insistent comments about her weight and pointed shaming remarks regarding her clothes needing to be let out when they didn't.

She now lives with Eddie in the city, healthier and happier than she's been in years.

Keeps in touch with Jason by semi-weekly calls, he visits every now and then to check in on her.

She's estranged from her parents and little brother, although she wishes she could see her little brother and protect him from her parents. Her parents cut all contact when Chrissy ran away with the town 'freak/felon'. Claiming they didn't want her to negatively influence their son.

Jason was absolutely in love with her, nobody doubts that, but he was aware that she wasnt there, wasnt in that headspace, and probably never would be while in Hawkins, so while he did love her, while he did 'date her' publicly, and while he was happy to pour that love onto her, it was never with any intention to have her do anything with him. It never came with pressures or expectations. He just kept her safe whenever he could.

It's been a month since she last forced herself to throw up and she's put on a small amount of weight that she's happy with. She's on the mend.

Lives in Apartment 8 on the second floor with Eddie.

Dottie and Mick - 19/21 - lesbians.

Dottie and Mick live across the hall from Eddie and Chrissy, they're a couple of runaways estranged from their families who found each other and stuck together, they're not a couple although sometimes they act like it.

They argue sometimes due to Dottie's dependance on drugs and Mick's overprotective tendencies and they're kinda punky, little grungy, but they're nice neighbours usually, and mostly keep to themselves.

Lives in apartment 7 on the second floor

Mrs Luiza Jablonski - 71 - widowed.

She's polish, jewish, and old. She lives alone and usually stays inside.

She loves her neighbours and they love her. She's everyone's grandma.

She crocheted Chrissy a sweater when she and Eddie first moved in, it's Chrissy's favourite thing to wear as it's made of thick cream coloured wool and so cosy, the arms are too long but Chrissy likes how they cover her fingers, makes her feel safe.

She also crocheted Eddie a little plush bat after she saw his tattoo. He loves it.

She has two cats, Mika and Pusia. She owns and can play a grand piano. She occasionally makes enough food to feed the whole floor with leftovers.

She's a little deaf so she doesnt mind Eddie practicing his guitar in his room, which shares the wall with her apartment. Sometimes she will play the piano along with him if she has her hearing aids in, they have little duets sometimes.

Lives in apartment 6 on the second floor.

#Pirate's fic lore #other ficlets have lore like this in a fun little document #but this one has the most lore written up i think #Finders Givers Lore

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mysteryflavorsoda · 9 months ago

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Rurik Liderc and the stereotype of the broken (but sexy) anti-hero

(and how it makes him worse as a character)

Heyy, I'm back, kind of! This is my first actual rant, so I'm sorry if it's a bit boring or confusing. Feel free to ask me anything! This is just something that I've always had looming in the back of my mind, and I really want to talk about it.

In October 2005, Pop Punk band Green Day released their seventh studio album, American Idiot. It follows the life of the central character, Jesus Of Suburbia, a middle-lower-class all-American teen who hates his town and pretty much everything. He's pretentious, a rebel, angsty; a faithless, working-class man who hates the system he's placed in, screaming for the rebels living in post-2000s America. It comes as no surprise, then, that @angeutblogo's Lasser would inspire her iconic character, Rurik Lidérc, off the song that describes this main character.

As the years went by, Rurik gained more and more traits, hobbies, a story, friends, and of course, multiple lovers. As it is today, you could call him a multifaceted character- I'm here to say that this perhaps might've been his downfall, too. As it stands, Rurik is a badly constructed character, where new information contradicts old information and traits that are not in line with the logic set upon him initially are imposed. It seems that the creators try and stuff him to the brim with different exciting ideas, but ultimately end up getting a messy clump of characteristics that results in many users having to redefine him with headcannons and rereadings, myself included, because he ends up being so confusing.

First, Rurik being a US Army veteran is one of the biggest pillars in his personality. Although not a lot of information is revealed about that part of his life specifically and the effects it had on him, we can deduce that it greatly affected him in more than one way, changing him fundamentally; PTSD. A prime example is that Lasser has stated that he has an aversion to loud noises, such as fireworks and thunder, but then proceeds to state that it only makes him have a minimal response of being "more alert". How can he be fundamentally changed as a person due to trauma and still only suffer minor damage? Are the creators afraid of making a character that's fully and realistically traumatized by war because it would compromise his appealing "sexy bad boy" nature? But then, that very nature is driven forward by the very fact that he's traumatized, that he's "angsty". It just confuses me how posts speaking of his trauma are immediately followed by posts describing his kinks and hypersexuality, and descriptions of his mental state are switched out for retellings of future events where "everything is all right finally", not bothering to make him go through the process of recovery, and research of trauma responses or toxic relationships is traded for discussions of what motorbike he has. It almost seems like the creators want him to be many different things that cancel each other out.

Thus, this contradiction leads us to the next point: Dante and Rurik have an open relationship, despite Rurik being shown to be possessive and emotionally immature. Rurik is, in simple terms, a manchild at times, stalking Dante when he feels like it, being insecure, and being sad by small things Dante says, in addition to threatening his exes. Those are toxic, insecure behaviours, of course, but it gets brushed off as "oh, but it ends in them sexually punishing each other" (going into how their relationship is sexualized, but that's a topic for another day), which in itself is contradicting because it's written to be a healthy relationship that's good for the both of them. And yet, we get bombarded with recounts of Dante being toxic to Rurik and vice-versa. He's also said to get extremely uncomfortable when Dante flirts with other women because he "can't compare", so how on earth could they have an open relationship without constant interventions and fights?

I believe that, if Rurik is insecure, it would naturally cause him to believe that Dante is replacing him if he flirted with another person. This is because he has a fragile ego, and people like him tend to fall into that insecurity (speaking out of experience and my interest in human psychology), and it would lead to constant fights, doubts, manipulation, and overall a bona fide toxic couple. Perhaps even worse than Lurik, as Dante is constantly described as psychopathic and manipulative, even to Rurik himself. They're shown to kind of fix everything with sex and "punishments", downplaying the other's insecurities and genuine feelings and promoting unhealthy dynamics. Rurik is not written to be someone who could have an open relationship that would be fair to himself and Dante, and yet, they push on, because of course they do; they are entirely centred around having sex, after all.

So, where am I going with all this? In all the glamourized media that we see, there's a strong tendency to try and make perfect characters. Rurik Lidérc is broken, angsty, insecure, and repressed, but that doesn't get in his way at all! All he wants is sex, drugs, and rock and roll. He reminds me of James Hurley from Twin Peaks: his conflict can be so well-explored, his trauma could be so fleshed out and the effects of trauma on the human mind could have given us a beautiful story of redemption, of growth, of understanding. But God, he just keeps making out with Donna all the damn time, and the camera always focuses on him like he's in a Playboy magazine. The realism, the beauty, the relatability- it's all sacrificed for middle schoolers to ogle at him and go "Wow, he's so misunderstood! I could fix him!". But that comes at the cost of a character that has the full potential to be truly amazing, as I've seen with my friends in the fandom.

When you look at Rurik Lidérc, he comes across as well-researched because he's traumatized, but it doesn't take long before you realize that that's quite a far-fetched idea. It seems like he's just a list of ideas and randomness that no one bothers to organize, and that deeply saddens me because I've seen the interesting directions he could be taken in, and I just wish the love and care put into this character also shined through through the creators.

#fellpalette #fell palette #rurikliderc #myrant #durik #rurik #mysteryflavorrants

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treason-and-plot · 10 months ago

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REPLIES TO SAFFY LAMBASTING LIAM

@windermeresimblr

Wow! There's Saffy's backbone.

Yeah she's not known for holding back!

@drudragonrose

She's with a boy her own age that she actually likes. Be gone worm!

@ivorycrayon

Man, you write shades of grey so well. It’s hard to root for anybody, but it’s also hard to condemn anybody completely because all your characters’ actions are way too complex. “He’s wrong but..” “She shouldn’t have to deal with this but..” I could use your characters if I ever taught ethics class 😂 (except for Anita, that is, I always struggle to find any redeeming qualities in that lady :P)

Thank you so much Ash! I love writing morally grey characters who have questionable (but hopefully relatable) motives so it's extremely heartening to read your comment. And I love how steadfast you've always been in your opinion of Anita, lol!

@keoni-chan

I don't like this one bit. I hope Liam's brand new backbone doesn't evolve into an "if I can't have you..."-situation 😱

who knows what might have happened if fate hadn't intervened....

@dresdendarlin

Oooh it’s his snapping moment. He’s gonna do something drastic and crazier next.

@batsheba

Ok, now let's see if he, the creep Liam, can process this information?! Whatever happens I hope Saffy will be ok... I'm worried Liam will do something utterly stupid and potentially dangerous.

@oasislandingresident

Ooooh shit's about to go down!!! 🍿

@kimmiessimmies

I'm with @batsheba, this is not going to go down well with Liam...

@wannabecatwriter

Be careful, Saffron. He's in a weird mindstate now.

@bool-prop

Oh no. He's going to snap.

@muses-circle

🤦

@muses-circle

Liam will either have a meltdown right there, in the parking lot, or he'll wait until he's in the middle of class and doing something worse. I'm worried about what his breaking point will look like.

@muses-circle

And Saffron, men DO leave their wives. It's call divorce, honey. Life isn't as black and white as you think.

I didn't write Saffy's speech very well...what she was trying to say was that it's a well-known fact that married men never leave their wives for their side-pieces! She was actually quite enraged that Liam turned out to be the statistical anomaly, lol. That was the last thing she wanted to happen!

@echoweaver

Woo. Saffron's right, but wow she's still got so much growing up to do. OTOH, Liam seemed to be with her in large part because she verbally abused him. It's such a messed up puppy.

Yeah, he seems to derive a perverse satisfaction from being the victim and indulging in self-defeating behaviour. It's also not an accident that the two women in his life routinely humiliate and criticise him.😬

@sweetnovember77

Saffy's words can devastate ANYONE with strong emotions toward another person. It's like a knife to the heart.

Yeah, Saffy can be very acid-tongued. He probably deserved the wake up call but Saffy can count herself very lucky he didn't snap or do something as drastic as Stephanie.

@anamoon63

😮 This is not going to end well. I wish Saffy had been a little more diplomatic. 😔

It definitely did not end well, but fortunately for Saffy she was not the one who was impacted the most! I hope at the very least she learns some important life lessons from this whole sorry experience.

@simsaralove

I really hope this will make Mr. Yucky realize he better go live in the Twinbrook swamps and not make him do something stupid and ruin Saffy’s happiness 😭

@justanothersimsblog

I'd tell her to slap him but I think he likes that so... maybe knee him in the balls then lol

lol he is such a pathetic masochist that he would probably enjoy that too!😆

@greywardenconsort

He's a monster thru & thru

A sad, spineless, loser monster.

@streetlites

That's gotta sting. Bwahahah. Also, what did he think she was going to do? Leap into his arms? She was never like that toward him to begin with.

@mysimsloveaffair

They are both better off without each other. Saffy is doing him a favor and he doesn't even know it. SMH

Liam was always doomed by his poor life decisions and victim mentality. I'm also thinking that it was possible he had affairs as a passive-aggressive form of revenge, but didn't count on falling so heavily for Saffy. In any case, I think he got what he deserved.

#reply post #replies #gif warning #lots of gifs

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t3kandson · 2 years ago

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The Secret Protector

Word count; 10,084

Fandom; The Boyz and a little LOONA

Pairing; Reader X Moon Kevin & a little bit of Reader X Lee Juyeon & Reader X Bae Jacob.

Characters; Moon Kevin, Lee Juyeon, Bae Jacob, Lee Sangyeon, Lee Hyunjae, Kim Younghoon, Choi Chanhee, Ji Changmin, Ju Haknyeon, Kim Sunwoo , Son Youngjae, Jeon Heejin & Kim Hyunjin.

Warning; Angst, Anxiety, Panic attacks, Porn, Jealousy, Stalking behaviour, Mild Violence during M/M fighting scene, slight Injury, Degrading comments, Oral sex (Giving & Receiving), fingering, slight public sexual acts & Unprotected Sex.

Notes; Happy Birthday Kevin ❤️🎂

Taglist; @ilovechanhee

You didn’t want your past to catch up with you, so you melted into the scenery at the uni that you joined miles away from home. You was determined to be someone who never got in to any dramatic’s. You had even used your mothers Surname to hide your true identity. If any one at the University was to find out your past, you didn’t think you would be able to finish your theatre studies degree. A few of the groups around you had tried to encourage you to join them, but you declined. Every Group but one person, Lee Juyeon. He was also like you, quiet, collective and desperate to just stay hidden. For a couple of months you both helped each other, joining duel projects when you was forced, but most the time happy to sit apart in quietness. Sometimes you enjoyed a friendship of giggles, but never once did the other delve into each other’s private life.

That wasn’t till he asked you to join him on a campus gig night. Making sure to inform you that it was not a date and just a couple of friends enjoying an evening of entertainment. It was his friend Jacob’s gig night, from what Juyeon had told you, he was a childhood friend who had his first night performing. Juyeon being a good friend to him wanted to rally him some support. Being similar to you, quiet in class you was all he mustered the courage to bring to cheer his friend on.

Meeting Jacob was very pleasant. He was easy to talk to and despite being just as shy as you and Juyeon, his voice spoke with warmth and confidence as if his wise mind covered the anxious butterfly of his inner self. Watching the way he looked out at the crowd that was getting larger with ease, every Chord of his beautiful voice, was just pure delight to experience. “He’s good right,” Juyeon nudged you with his shoulder. “Yeah he really is, I’m surprised no big company out there hasn’t snapped him up yet,” you say as goosebumps fill your skin. “He has,” Juyeon said beneath the music. “Really, wow, but why is he here and not there?” you question taking your eyes off Jacob to look Juyeon’s way. “Love,” Juyeon smiled looking down at you. “He has someone?” You question as a smile rises on Juyeon’s face. “You sound jealous Y/N,” Juyeon teases as you stiffen slightly. “No, no just I was being nosey,” you question as your eyes brush back to Jacob as Juyeon heavily focused on you. “Y/N your not the gossiping school type to be nosey, I see right through you you know,” Juyeon whispers in your ear.

A mixture of confusion attacks you. You felt a little disappointed that Jacob wasn’t single, even though you wasn’t sure if you was attracted to him. Since your last relationship you had never looked at another man romantically or sexually in any way, that this emotion right now was confusing. Did this mean that you was ready to date again? As quick as that thought came in, your memories attacked as they protected your heart.

The look on his face, one of disgust as you fell to the floor, embarrassment and fear biting as he looked down on you with pure hatred for what he figured out. “Why would any one want to be with a scummy human like you,” he growled as he crouched down to your tearful anguished face. The look of Anger and venom of his disgusted expression haunted you. You swore in that second you would never risk your heart being hurt again. Believing you was unloveable and even if you could find someone rare to love you, your past would tarnish it.

“You ok?” Juyeon said startling you as he placed his hand on your shoulder. You plastered a fake smile on your face which made him raise an eyebrow not convinced. “Yeah I’m fine, just his voice is raw emotion, isn’t it?” you smiled which seems to satisfy him. “Yeah I can get that, he really sings from his heart doesn’t he,” he said pulling you closer to him as his eyes refocus with pride on his friend. You leaned your head on Juyeon’s shoulder as your eyes refocused on the Angel on stage.

“You was Brilliant Hyung,” Juyeon said bumping his shoulder with him as there hands grasped each other. “Thanks,” he replied bashfully as you smiled at there interaction. You didn’t realise how close they was, but then you and Juyeon rarely did anything but study together. He was your closest friend, but nothing you would consider very close, despite the fact you was comfortable to rest your wearily head on him earlier.

“Can I say your so talented, I think the heavens want their Angel back,” you complimented as Jacob heavily blushed. “Thanks Y/N I appreciate those kind words,” he said Bowing humbly to your fanboying. “You both eaten?” Jacob asked as Juyeon shook his head to his hyung’s slight scolding look. “Please tell me you have?�� he said as you looked at your hands. “You both came to support me with empty bellies, come on guys,” he scoffed. “Suppose i Should deal with this instantly, let’s go grab some food, on me,” he said throwing his arm around Juyeon as he looked your way with a smile on his face.

You was chewing on your food listening to them both as they chatted. You was surprised to hear that they was childhood friends when Jacob travelled from Canada. You had a sudden impulse to want to get to know especially Juyeon more. Maybe you should break from your shadows a little and get to know your closest friend. It wasn’t like you wasn’t a social butterfly before. You smiled as you remembered the confidence that once ran through your blood.

You was on your first school trip freshly 11, shy and not sure how to communicate to find close friendship like others in your class. Fresh in the group was an older girl called Stella, who was two years older, her accent was slightly different that told you she wasn’t from Korea. Yet you could tell she was wise in korean traditions. Despite being very private she brought intimidation at first. But as you got to know her over the week away from home for the first time, that she was very protective, supporting and went out her way to make you laugh. When she told you she was just as shy as you, but she never let anyone know it, it surprised you. She taught you to find the joy in the world and how to enjoy the comfort of it when the world got dark.

When you returned back to school, it was like she put a spell over you. Other kids didn’t looked down there noses and before long you was like any girl at that school. You had gone from shy, the odd acquaintance to one of the most popular girls.

“Y/N,” Jacob says clicking his fingers in your face to bring your mind back. But what startled you more was the face staring back at you. A guy with a sassy grin amused that your clearly showing signs of being lost in his view. The thought of informing him with that cat that caught the cream smirk came through your mind, but the words got stuck. “It’s ok I get lost everytime I look at this face in the mirror too,” he said as he sat by your side as Juyeon looked at you with concern. “As I was saying I got caught,” , “Save it Kevin, just next time you need me to support your assignments, don’t expect me to be there to support you,” Jacob said sulking.

Your eyes brushed between the pair wondering how long was your mind switched off with him standing there. “No this one’s really tough,” he moaned stealing the fry in Jacob’s hands as he raised an eyebrow. “I need romance, heat, sexually mature content like you can ever imagine, no one on campus wants to feature,” he scoffs chomping on the stolen fry in his hand. “Well try using someone from the drama department,” Jacob said looking at you and Juyeon. “Wait why you looking at me?” Juyeon scoffed his way. “Well you two are in the drama department are you not? You both have a close friendship that you know won’t cross any boundaries,” Jacob explained as you look at him confused at what he was suggesting. “Well Yeah Y/N knows I would never do any thing that would make her uncomfortable, but still,” Juyeon said looking not too sure of the direction of this conversation.

It was then the Penny dropped for what was being asked. “Wait you want him to feature in a pornographic movie with me?” You choked as your body numbed. Kevin threw his head back laughing with his eyes closed, before his eyes found yours once more. “Y/N he’s studying to be a director, he’s in the filmmaking department. He’s only directing a romance but a little raunchy story, not a pornographic movie,” Jacob said reassuringly.

“It’s ok I don’t think your fit the kind of image I wanted,” Kevin smiled at you as his eyes looked Juyeon’s way. “However, you’ll do,” he smirked looking at Juyeon as if he was in love. You wasn’t alien to those looks, all the girls on campus had looked at Lee Juyeon once like that. But his shy nature had soon taught them he wasn’t going to interact. It was one of the reasons he was happy to sit with you, to give an illusion that you both was somewhat romantically involved. “I don’t know,” Juyeon said swirling his straw around his milkshake. “A guy with a dream of being an actor scared of an acting role,” Kevin scoffed amused. “But I don’t know if I’m comfortable doing romance scenes,” he said wincing. “Which is why Y/N would be perfect, but hey,” Jacob said looking at you.

“She’s not what we’re looking for,” Kevin shot out making your blood boil slightly. “What do you mean I’m not what your looking for?” you growl standing up making the attention of the diner look your way. Juyeon’s eye widened as Kevin sat back slightly amused looking at you. “I was going to say because you seem timid and I need my lead to be very strong, fierce, determined,” he said with each last word more clearly and stronger. “Plus we really get our actors preferably from the drama department, not one of the guys girlfriend,” Kevin scoffed turning his attention to Juyeon. “Girlfriend, I’m not Juyeon’s girlfriend,” you scoffed sitting down making sure your body was directed at him showing venom in your expression. “Plus I am from the drama department,” you say through gritted teeth.

“Fine it’s yours,” he said smirking as he leaned back resting his arms on the booth. “What,” you scoffed not realising what you had just walked into. “Wait, you telling me that you didn’t just have that little hissy fit just to prove to me that I’m right, that it isn’t suited after all,” he said with a click of his tongue. You smalled your eyes feeling a burning rage. “No,” you said ruffling your nose as annoyance burned through you. “Thanks Cobie you saved the day,” Kevin said standing up to press a kiss on Jacob’s cheek as he brushed him off. “I’ll pass you the scripts tomorrow,” Kevin said to Juyeon as he walked off.

“That guys such an asshole,” you growled watching that ass, which you hated to admit looked good, as he left the building. “You know you let him play you right?” Jacob said smirking your way. “He played no one,” you shot back. “Sure, because he was so desperate he was willing to turn you down the first time, he said what was needed to make you beg for it,” Jacob said as your face dropped realising he had played you. “Plus that’s Kevin Moon, he knows everyone, like everyone,” Jacob said slurping on his drink.

“We have to do what?” you scoffed throwing the script down as your eyes meet the blushing ones of Juyeon after he brought the script over. “He did say he was doing a sexual romantic drama,” Juyeon said closing his eyes waiting to hear your cry. “What the fuck,” you said thumping the table that startled him. “When I thought romance, i thought the odd kiss, this is almost a full on sex scene,” you said thumping the table once more as your throat felt like it was seizing up. “Y/N I won’t let it be a sex scene, well not to us anyway,” Juyeon said pressing his hand on yours that made your eyes narrow on him. “That’s not what I meant, I mean sex scenes on TV sets aren’t actually like what, you know,” he said blushing.

You closed your eyes, you knew full well what sex set ups was like as your heart thundered uncontrollably, filling your throat with pain as you threatened to lose your breakfast. This was too much, you wasn’t sure you could do it, not sure you could trust Kevin and his production.

“It’s ok, you know you can trust me right?” He said placing his hand over yours. “I know, it’s not trust issues with you that’s my problem,” you scoff. “Kevin’s not as bad as you think,” he said smiling which cut short when you deadpanned his way. “Yes savage, sometimes manipulative but he’s not as bad as your thinking,” Juyeon said. “Your very calm for someone that has to be naked,” you said with furrowed eyebrows. “Haha what,” he laughs nervously before checking the script once more and pales slightly. “It’s ok Kevin’s the good guy here,” you smiled sarcastically his way while he had a silent meltdown.

You walked into the abandoned warehouse with bundling nerves, calmed by the burning of the hot drink in your palms and Juyeon’s equal uncomfortable emotions. “Oh you must be Y/N & Juyeon,” an older man that seemed more like a senior said as he walked up to you. “Yes we are,” Juyeon said bowing as you followed. “I’m Lee Sangyeon, I’m Kevin’s Senior, Kevin’s on his way, come take a seat I’ll introduce you to every one,” he said pointing to two crates that had been positioned up as seats. “This is Youngjae & Sunwoo, they’re the camera men,” Sangyeon said as Youngjae’s eyes lit up intrigued.

“So you two are our porno stars,” Youngjae scoffs that has your throat close off as you feel your chest tighten. You should run, you want to but you can’t, your stuck there listening to the banter that to you is a painful attack of memory hitting you.

“Knock it off Youngjae,” Kevin Growls behind you as his hand rest on your shoulder. It’s oddly comforting you despite being in this emotional fireball because of him. “It’s erotica get it right,” Kevin says sarcastically as Youngjae rolls his eyes, failing to hold the chuckle leaving his lips.

“It’s neither, those scenes need cutting down,” You growl showing some assertiveness as Kevin and the taller man by him looks your way in shock. “Honey, guess what everyone’s rules are here, actor, Director,” he says smiling pointing his fingers in yours and his direction. “Fine I’m sure there’s someone else for this role,” you said shrugging as you turned on your heel. Juyeon’s panicky face falls in to your view. You feel guilty but Jacob gave you a small insight, the least you could do was work this to your advantage. As your feet from leaving the building you hear Kevin groan before he calls out your name. “Fine go sort out the script with Younghoon,” he grumbles that you barely catch him. You walk back towards them arms folded as Sunwoo looks your way in awe. “We got two hours till the cast is here, but don’t let her change it too much, compromise but don’t fall victim,” Kevin scoff glaring you down.

After watering down the sexualised scenes that made you feel less suffocating, you made your way towards the guys as Younghoon walked beside you. “Can I ask where your from?” He asked a little intrigued. “Why?” You said as you tilted your head his way. “Just I swear I know you from somewhere, but I can’t put my finger on it,” he said biting his lip like he struggled in thought. You looked at him with fear in your eyes as you felt a little faint. Could he know your past? But he doesn’t seem the type to be in that end of the world. Though it was probably his confused mind, you was still wary of being recognised. “Just a small outskirt village, you wouldn’t have known me,” you replied forcing it to sound assertive. “I’ve been to loads of places so throw it at me,” he smiled refusing to let it go. “Trust me it’s so small, I know every person who ever visited let alone lives, you wouldn’t even know it,” you smile inwardly praying he’d give up his quizzing.

“You finished ruining my beautiful script,” Kevin interrupted as you rolled your eyes secretly being grateful for his interference. “Yes, it’s More appropriate now,” you fake smile his way as his eyes look to Younghoon. “No naked sex scene,” Younghoon says as Kevin closes his eyes. “Oh well could be worse I suppose,” he says turning around. “No humping scenes neither,” you throw out as he hissed into the air. “But I’ve added more romantic lines,” you said feeling proud of yourself as he snatches the written alterations. His eyes scanning them as you watch his brows go from annoyed to slightly relaxed. “Whatever, we need to print these out for the guys,” he shoots out at Younghoon as you make your way towards Juyeon, who’s in deep conversation with two other men by his side.

“Oh hi my names Chanhee, I’m playing your older brother,” he said smiling as he welcomed you openly. “I’m Haknyeon, I’m playing Juyeon’s best friend Jiho,” Haknyeon said dashing to your other side. Normally you would feel suffocated by so much attention, but you oddly felt rather safe and secure around them.

The weeks that followed had you all working on the production with dedication. It was like you had found an older part of yourself as you enjoyed the company of not just the cast, but the crew as well. You had made a close connection with Jeon Heejin & Kim Hyunjin, the three of you talking about everything, though the subject of boys leading you to quietness. They had presumed it was because you had a romantic interest in Juyeon, but he was simply a friend. Ok one that you was soon due to have many romantic clinches to film with soon. You had slowly got use to Kevin as a director, though he irked you often, he always seemed to be there when your anxiety attacked. His savage tongue attacking every time you felt pressured by the guys roaming eyes. Jacob would often visit, his red blushes when you found him coming out the bathroom told you that love holding him was someone here. You tried to figure out who he interacted with the most, but that seemed to be Kevin. But he seemed to want to push people to do well. The many times that he helped to direct you to give a more believable performance. You imagined Kevin being someone that would drag his lover to the company begging for their talent to be received.

You was just leaving the set after feeling the chemistry that doubted your Kevin & Jacob lover belief. Stepping outside to the fresh air, you heard your name echo towards you. As you peaked round the corner of the building you saw Youngjae Sunwoo & Younghoon in deep conversation. “I don’t know, I can’t even remember where but it was on a tv show I’m sure of it,” Younghoon scoffed. “Well I checked with Hyunjae at the student admissions and her Birth name and Given name don’t match,” Sunwoo scoffed as your heart raced. “What did he say it was?” Youngjae questioned. “He refused to say, told us he wasn’t there spy and that he said too much as it was.” Sunwoo replied. “See if you can get more on her,” Youngjae ordered as you felt your blood boil from his need to delve in to you. “Why does it bother you so much who she is?” Younghoon questions the younger. “Are you not intrigued? Kevin knows everyone on this campus but her, she’s like some shiny toy that’s mellowing him out,” Youngjae said as you stepped closer to hear him further. “That’s a good thing, it don’t warrant you to spy into her past,” Younghoon questioned. “When you said you recognised her, I realised I did too, it’s irritating me. Now I know she’s hiding her identity I need to know more,” Youngjae said as your fear calmed your anger a little. “So it’s because you want to know,” Sunwoo added with a slight irritation that brought you a little hope. “Don’t you? The more you find out about her and her secrets, the more you want to dig,” Youngjae scoffed as tears slowly began to fall from your eyes. “But it’s not our business?” Younghoon added equally sounding annoyed. “Well if she’s some sort of murderer, then we’ve let her in the lion’s den,” Youngjae said to Sunwoo’s laugh. “Y/N’s no murderer, don’t be stupid,” Sunwoo chuckled as you rolled your eyes at the accusations flowing. “I think I would have remembered if she was someone like that,” Younghoon scoffed. “Well what is the harm in asking, if it’s nothing we’re just let it go and know our friends are all safe and not being sucked up by that vixen,” Younghoon grumbled. “Vixen?” Younghoon questioned as your nails dug into your skin with fiery rage trying to attack. “The way she rolls her eyes at everyone like she’s somewhat special.” Youngjae replied. “She’s just Y/N, if she was some sort of vixen she would have done Kevin’s scenes,” Younghoon said as you was touched by him defending you. “That’s what she wanted us all to think, that’s she’s someone special and attack, like have you seen the way she melts over Jacob,” Youngjae said with bitterness in his tone. “Oh for Fuck sake, Jacob really!” Younghoon snapped that startled you. “I’m done with this conversation,” Younghoon growled as you heard his feet moving towards you. Heart in your mouth and startled by Younghoon’s reaction, you dashed inside running towards a small area that was made in the corner for those to escape hidden beneath the storage.

Initially you was Seethingly mad. Who the hell did Son Youngjae think he was to research you. But beneath you was terrified, you had made somewhat friends with these guys, opening yourself up to there disappointment when they eventually unearth the truth. From the sound of Youngjae’s desire to find your past, it was only a matter of time before it was revealed. Though Younghoon sounded very defensive you knew he was also intrigued to remember. Your life was going to crumble and you would have to run once more. You know at the very least Youngjae, Younghoon and Sunwoo would look down there noses at you. But Juyeon he was your rock, the thought of never seeing him again terrified you. Tears of fear started to pool as you sobbed quietly as the guys left the building.

Once you heard silence for a larger piece of time you let the tears flood, you didn’t care of the sound leaving from the pure break down of every fear you had.

“Y/N, is that you?” You hear a soft whisper call out to you in the dark. Your head snapped up to find Kevin coming through the storage of the set hiding you. “So this is where you got to, you got the guys worried,” Kevin said sitting by your side. “Worried when there the ones trying to bring me down,” you sobbed not meaning to let the words fall out. “Y/N what makes you think like that?” He questions as you sniffle to attempt to bring the tears to an end. “Look it don’t matter, your right I’m being silly,” you said going to stand up till he dragged you back down. “I’m not disputing your being silly but to you I can accept something really got to you, so spill,” Kevin said with a warmth smile on his usual sassy tone. “I just got emotional over something or nothing I’m sorry,” you said plastering a fake smile on your face to avoid the conversation. “So this isn’t to do with the fact you overheard Youngjae’s conversation?” Kevin asks with a raised eyebrow as your heart felt like it was going to falter. “Younghoon pulled me aside to tell me Youngjae’s been playing NIS. Then I remembered I saw you coming this way looking emotional, seconds before they walked in,” Kevin said as your throat closed up in fear for the direction of this conversation.

“It’s none of my business Y/N but what ever your hiding from, you know I won’t judge you right?” Kevin said warmly as some tears fell from your eyes. “Even if I’m a murderer,” you commented as he chuckled pulling you in. “Well I could do with someone to help me on a killing spree,” Kevin teased as he elbowed you playfully. “But i can’t imagine you would stoop that low, you haven’t killed Youngjae yet so that proves your not,” He smiles pulling you into his warm hold. “What If I’m even more worse then a murderer?” You questioned as you rested your cheek on his warm chest. “Impossible,” he chuckled. “Look you don’t have to tell me what your hiding from, just know I’m on your side,” he said as his hands played with your hair. “I did a couple of Sex films,” you whispered like he unpicked the words like a spell. Your heart thundered under the confession, not understanding how you felt safe around him to spill something that brought you hatred in the past. “Well we know that’s a lie, Mrs I need to cut your script down,” he chuckled kissing your crown. “I’m being serious,” you sat up to look at him not sure why you was feeling the need to convince him. He looked at you silence filling the air as you felt your chest tighten in fear of your disclosure.

“Wow, really?” He asked tilting your head as you nodded playing with your fingers fearing his words. “But I don’t want anyone to know,” you cried holding his arm in fear. “Your secret comes to my grave with me,” he said looking at you warmly. “But can I ask something, well more then one thing?” He asked as you nervously nodded. “How did you allow yourself to do that?” he asked as your eyes widened fearing the disappointment in his tone. “I mean, tell me i’m wrong but you don’t seem the type of character to throw yourself into that. It feels like you was goaded into it?” He asked lacing his fingers with yours for reassurance. “I had an older boyfriend who liked doing that kind of thing, he would film me, us and invite others,” you said letting tears fill your eyes with the disgust. “He would make scenerio’s, film it and,” you paused choking as you held the tears back. “It’s ok Y/N,” Kevin said smiling warmly. “Sell them, I think it’s where Younghoon and Youngjae recognise me,” you whisper. “Probably or maybe they don’t,” he smiled in an attempt to reassure you.

“I presume your ashamed of your past?” He asked surprising you. “Well obviously why wouldn’t I be?” You scoffed confused with his need to ask. “Just you know some people can be open, you lived, you experienced, you moved on,” he smiled as you looked at him with your mouth agape. “No not me, that’s not my style,” he says holding his hands out in defence. “Oh because of Jacob,” you said letting the words slip out. He raised his eyebrow your way as you wished you could take those words back.

“What do you mean?” He asked as you felt your cheeks heat. “Jacob has a lover here,” you whisper barely audible. Kevin started laughing hard as he wiped his eyes. “Yes he does but it’s not me,” Kevin says struggling for breath among the laughter. “I’m open and I love Jacob don’t get me wrong, but I don’t want to get down and dirty with him,” he adds almost calming down. “I’m so sorry,” you gasp feeling your cheeks that feel red hot. “Good I’m glad your feeling sorry,” he said playfully as you smiled his way. “Seriously though I think your right me and Jacob would make a perfect couple,” he said air puckering his lips, that made you laugh. “There you go she learnt how to smile,” he added as he smiled so widely in your view.

“Don’t go getting ideas but you look really pretty when you smile you know,” he said as he’s eyes brightened slightly. “Your not too bad yourself Kev,” you said as he posed your way. “Your so flirty right now,” he teased. “No I’m just grateful, you stolen my secrets and yet made me smile despite my life falling apart,” you said smiling. “Well I’ll send the bill in the post, I can tell you it won’t come cheep,” he said with his usual sass. “But seriously Y/N, I’ll help you keep your secrets,” he said seriously as he pulled you back into his warm comfort. “Thank you, but it’s only a matter of time before the admission guy gives them my real name,” you said feeling sorrowful. “Hey I’m just as popular as Youngjae trust me, I’ll speak with Hyunjae. I’ll remind him that he could potentially get into trouble, he’ll listen to me I promise,” He said reassuringly.

“But what If they remember where they saw me?” You asked being comforted by his beating heart under your hearing. “They can’t remember what they ate for breakfast your be fine. I’m positive you have nothing to worry about,” Kevin chuckled as his hands stroked your hair. “You sound so sure,” you said feeling a little sleepy. “Trust me what ever reaction your fearing, I won’t let it happen,” he said as his hands rested on your back. “How do you know what I’m fearing,” you asked sleepily. “That the campus will look there noses down on you, well they will, but every time they do, I’ll show you how to turn that nose up,” he said warmly. “Why are you being so nice?” You asked closing your eyes as tiredness attacked. “Because your the key to my assignment being passed,” he chuckled as you hummed not being able to find the words to reply as sleep fell upon you from the emotion evening.

You woke to Kevin’s deep breathing as you removed yourself from his sleeping frame. Grabbing your watch your eyes widened when you realised it was 6am. How had you both slept in this cold building. Eyes falling to the material that had fallen when you moved, your eyes flashed to Kevin once more. He had removed his coat to attempt to keep you warm. Thinking he must be very cold, you placed your hands on his face. His eyes shooting open the second you touched his cold skin. “Do I look like I want to be poked,” he said closing his eyes once more as you moved your hands away. “I was checking you wasn’t too cold,” you said holding your own hands. “You saying I ain’t hot?” He teased with a wink. “Now who’s flirting?” You scoffed teasingly as you passed his coat back to him. “Talking about body temperature is flirting? wow and your suppose to be a porno star,” he teased as you closed your eyes to his comment. “Y/N let it go, learn to laugh about the path you had to travel through, don’t let it consume you anymore,” he said sitting up to look at you seriously. “However, changing the subject we need to get out of these slept in clothes,” Kevin said before getting off the floor to offer you his hand. “Let’s get some breakfast and I’ll drop you off at your dorms to get washed up, busy love scenes today and everything,” he smiled as you took his hand.

You and Kevin woffed down the pajeon that he had brought for you both. “So If your not dating Jacob who are you then?” You asked feeling your cheeks heat when he snapped his head up. “Wow are you going to pursue me Y/N, I’m so flattered,” he teased as he dipped his Pajeon into the Cho-gochujang. “Hey I’ve told you the darkest part of my life what about yours?” You asked popping the food in to your mouth. “Just because I said I was open didn’t mean I had a open book myself,” he sniggered as he chewed on his meal. “However, as you asked, there’s not much of a past, no crazy girl story, well not yet anyway,” he said as his eyes beamed on you.

You felt your heart skip a beat under his gaze, never really looking at him before closely, he had such pretty strong features. “If people see you drool there get the wrong end of the stick,” he sniggers as he attacked the piece of pancake in your chopsticks, throwing it in to his mouth with a wink. “Stealing my food now are we?” You said playfully scowling. “It’s payment from all those dreamy eyes your making my way,” he said pinching the next piece you had picked up. “I don’t make dreamy eyes.” You scoffed with an eye roll. “Well then your mind and body are conflicted,” he sniggered as you continued your breakfast.

Kevin returned you home, surprised to find you lived alone in a flat in the city rather then onsite. You struggled to focus on your classes, your mind going over the last twenty four hours. Without Kevin by your side the panic and fear bit. You was terrified of Youngjae finding your past and exposing you. Though you knew Kevin would be by your side, your other friends possibly wouldn’t be the same. Looking at Juyeon deep in thought with his notes, you was scared what his reaction would be. You knew you would be heartbroken not to have him in your life. “You ok?” Juyeon whispered noticing your appearance. “Yeah,” you fake smiled as he raised an eyebrow, he looked like he wanted to comment, but thought further from it, continuing to focus on his work.

“I’m nervous too you know that right?” Juyeon said as you walked from class to the set. You looked at him puzzled as he smiled your way. “The kissing scenes,” he whispered with a thick blush. You smiled to yourself, how was this man going to make a sex scene believable when he blushed so easily. “Yeah but I’m sure it’ll be fine,” you reassured him. You couldn’t explain it but knowing Kevin would be on set was rather soothing.

Kevin seemed stressed as he was setting up the set when you arrived, that you felt a little anxious yourself. You quietly walked to the corner ignoring the guys warm conversation. “It’ll be fine remember your words,” Juyeon said walking over to you hoping to help sooth your sudden anxiety piercing through you. “Yes I’m sure it will,” you plastered a smile on your face in attempt to reassure him.

You and Juyeon hadn’t even practiced kissing and when the moment was just seconds away, you suddenly wished you did. His hands reached around the back of your neck with dominance bringing you closer to him that you almost clashed heads. His warm lips pressing against yours, was welcoming, it had been a while since you had last locked lips with someone, yet it was like a fire was built up in you. Your hands dragging his T’shirt pulling him in against the script. Biting down on his lips your hands fondled his ass as he pushed you in to the stage wall. Even though you could feel the camera in your face, it was like it was invisible. Juyeon’s lips left yours as you both looked at each other, lost in the moment of the plot before Sunwoo shouted out, “cut.”

“Oh my god that was Brilliant,” Sangyeon complimented as your eyes took to Kevin’s. He looked a little lost as he nodded. “Yes, yes both of you did very well,” Kevin said with not as much enthusiasm as you had hoped.

“Though it went against the script I think it suited it better,” Younghoon added with a smile. Your eyes found Jacob who you had realised walked in. Younghoon noticed, taking one look at Youngjae and rolled his eyes. Why did you have an inkling that Younghoon was Jacob’s man?

You took Kevin’s eyes afterwards and he looked a little absent minded. Anxiety attacked you, him knowing the truth really had him looking at you differently. Maybe he thought he could avoid those thoughts and worked out in the end he couldn’t.

You was about to get ready for the next scenes when some man walked in. He looked around till he found your eye contact as he made a beeline towards you. Your heart thundered as you tried to pierce who he could be when he walked up to you arms folded. “So this is where you decided to leave me to join,” he said with a hurt look on his face. You furrowed your eyebrows in confusion as you tilted at him. “Erm I think you got the wrong person,” you said smiling as your anxiety ripped through you.

You turned to walk away from him but he caught your wrist. “That hurts you leave me and pretend I don’t exist, do you know how long and hard it’s been to find you,” he cried with pain etched on his expression. Sunwoo & Younghoon stormed in from you to protect you from this volatile stranger. “What’s your problem mate, she said she don’t know you, so fuck off,” Youngjae said moving to hiss in his direction.

“So which one of these did you leave me for then?” He growls as Youngjae gets into his face. “Why? are you going to take it out on them are you? Go on try it,” he dares the stranger. You feel your body start to shake from the fear as Kevin wraps his arms around you comforting. As he does it’s like he’s banished any fear as you relax into his hold, the words shared between the man and the others going numb.

“Y/N is this him, is this Changmin?” Kevin said reassuring yet trying to tell you something in his words. You freeze as your eyes get lost with his, it’s as if he’s placed a spell over you. You nod as he smiles your way briefly before he places you into Juyeon and storms his way towards him. Pushing Youngjae out the way he punches Changmin that he falls to the floor. “Unless you want to dance with my fist again stay away from her,” Kevin spat out at the blood splattered Changmin on the ground. Sangyeon pulled him up and brushed the dust off his clothes. “Y/N,” he cried looking in pain as your mind went foggy. “I think nows the time to leave her be,” Sangyeon whispered. He took one last look at you as tears begins to fall. The chaos and drama just felt far too much and you couldn’t quite understand anything but that Kevin was responsible.

“You ok Y/N?” Sunwoo asks turning to you concerned the second that Sangyeon and Changmin disappeared. Your eyes took to Kevin looking at his knuckle and anger flew through you.

Instead of replying to Sunwoo you stormed towards Kevin. “What the fuck was that?” You screamed at him startling him as he looked at you with widened eyes. “I did that for you,” he said with a pleasing tone. “He only did what we wanted to do.” Sunwoo said placing his hand on your shoulder. “Is this why you have a hidden past to get away from him?” Younghoon asked as Kevin looked your way.

“I can’t do this,” you cried with tears falling down your eyes as you stormed out, confused, angry but slight sorrow for the sad look in Kevin’s eyes. “Y/N please wait up, let me at least drive you home,” Kevin pleaded. “What for you to beat someone else up,” you scream. “Are you for real, I don’t pretend to know why your hiding from that man, but it was clear your terrified of him. Kevin did what I would have done,” Youngjae snarled. “Really you my shiny man in armour now,” you fakely smiled sweetly at him. “Because just 24 hours ago you was trying to get every information on my past, what did you say, I could be a murderer,” you growl before spinning on your feet as you left him stunned.

As you made it to the cold air your body felt like it went in to shock. Tears started to fall as you leaned into the rough wall. Who was that man? Why did Kevin know his name and make out he was some ex you was running from? As you turned placing your back against the cold wall, you saw Changmin still sitting in his car as he was trying to apply some lotion to what looked like was a cut lip. Needing answers you dashed to him as he looked startled as you appeared.

“What are,”, “Pass that here.” You cut him off after getting into the passenger seat of the car. “That looks really nasty,” you said as he passed you the antiseptic bottle. “Why did you do this?” You asked as you soaked a cotton wool bud with the liquid. “I’m owed some favours,” he winced as you brushed it on his lip. “But why the ex storyline?” You questioned further as you passed him the bottle. “Kevin felt it was better suited to your situation,” Changmin explained softly. “My situation?” You asked as your heart was in your mouth. “He said that I needed to convince them I was a crazy ex who couldn’t let you go, to stop them finding out,” he said as you closed your eyes tightly.

He knew, Kevin told him, you gave him your secrets and he ran them to someone. “I’m really sorry you got caught in between this all,” you said as it started to rain. “I’ll get paid for this, plus you looked traumatised, Kevin’s right your quite a talented actress,” he said smiling. “That’s because I didn’t even know you was coming,” you said as he looked surprised and pitty at the same time. “Oh wow, sorry,” he whispered into the silence. “I’m the one that should be sorry I should have kept my secrets to myself,” you said feeling anger towards Kevin rage through you.

“He really cares about you so please don’t be too angry with him,” Changmin said smiling as the guys emerged from the building. “And what ever the secret is, I’m sure he’ll do what ever it takes to protect you,” Changmin said shocking you. “Wait he didn’t tell you?” You ask tilting your head as he smiled. “No,” he said as you looked towards Kevin, he looked like he was talking to someone you didn’t recognise. “How much is he paying you?” You ask him. “Credit favours,” he smiles as you chuckled amused. “When he makes it big he’ll remember me for his projects,” Changmin sniggers as the rain started hammering down. You suddenly see Youngjae appear as Kevin and him argue. “Oh shit, better go and see what they’re arguing about now,” you roll your eyes as he smiles. “Nice to meet you Y/N,” he says as you nod his way. “You too Changmin,” you reply before bracing the weather emerging from the car.

You could hear raised voices as their friend got between them. Dashing as fast as you could to them before your feet froze to the ground with Youngjae’s words. “Get your head out the cloud she’s nothing but some slutty sex film actress,” Youngjae screamed out as Kevin’s face froze seeing your hurt reaction. “Y/N,” he dashed to you, the rain soaking you just as much as him. “You told him?” You cried feeling the pain return from his betrayal. “No, no I didn’t I swear,” he cried as you look at him with the rain dripping down his face. “He didn’t Y/N, I worked it out and Youngjae over heard,” the guy said as you blinked at him. “Who are you?” You cried. “That’s Hyunjae,” Kevin said muffled by the rain as you look at him. “He was trying to tell me to keep my mouth shut when Youngjae here heard,” Hyunjae added.

“Maybe if your so ashamed of your past you shouldn’t have done it,” Youngjae sneered returning your attention to him. “I swear to fucking god,” Kevin said before you cut him off standing between them. “What the hell have I done to make you hate me so much?” You cry out as he wipes his wet fringe out his eyes to stick against his forehead. “Hate, I don’t hate you, I get fed up of the guys melting over you like your special. Where If they knew what you was, they wouldn’t look twice your way as a friend let alone melt,” he screamed as your heart felt like it was being shattered. The words falling as if you hadn’t already heard similar from your ex.

He was the one man you loved more then anything and left you when he realised your past. The very reason why you never allowed yourself to even think about relationships, let alone jump into one. Though your relationship with Youngjae was barely a friendship, the look on his face stung. “See you can’t even speak about the person you are.” Youngjae seethed as your body started shaking at what you was sure wasn’t the rain. “Youngjae,” Kevin growled as his hand rested on your shoulder. Though you felt his comfort through just his touch, this time it wasn’t enough. “Why are you not bothered? This could ruin the production. Anyone who’s linked to her will be tainted she’s not worth the risk,” Youngjae pleaded with Kevin. As their words numbed you, your knees collapsed making you fall to the wet pavement. Your body not being able to take the words that Youngjae was spilling. He was right, how did you think for a second you could be an actress with the dark past you had.

You heard your name being echoed as Kevin’s voice pulled you from your silent meltdown. Your eyes found him as he cupped your face. “Y/N it’s ok, I promise I’ll fix this,” he soothed. “Is this because of the Jacob thing?” Hyunjae said to Youngjae as your head snapped up to him. “Shut up man,” he said looking a little annoyed. “What so it’s ok to have your secrets but not hers?” Hyunjae added. “Jacob?” You muttered as The rain began to sting from your eyes looking up at him. “Wait there? He’s his lover?” You said looking to Kevin. “Yeah he’s mine, and you can’t have him!” Youngjae growls as you realise he’s bitten with jealousy.

“You think I want Jacob?” You questioned him as he laughed to himself. “You melt every single time your eyes clash, it makes you look pathetic,” Youngjae said looking down at you with his face scrunched up. “Yes he’s beautiful but i don’t want to be with him,” you said looking bewildered with his hatred towards you. “Come off it you would go off with him if he had opened his arms to you,” Youngjae accused you as you stumbled up off the wet floor shaking as cold & adrenaline attacked. “I’m a lot of things, but I’m not a man stealer. Yes, when I first met him his beauty stunned me, but the second I knew he was taken I stopped looking at him like that, I swear,” you said closing the gap between you both as the rain slowed down.

“What the hell is going on?” Jacob said from behind you as Youngjae looked at him sheepishly. “Your Boyfriend’s pretty much being a Jealous asshole,” Hyunjae said as the rain came to a stop. “It’s not all Youngjae’s fault, I’ve clearly given him the wrong impression and I’m sorry for that, but I promise you I’m not going to steal your man,” you said pressing your hand to his chest. “Wait you think me and Y/N?” Jacob questioned not impressed. “No I trust you, you know I do,” Youngjae snaps like a lost boy desperate to reach his lover’s forgiveness. “It’s my fault, i did make some rather sexualised comments towards you,” you said bowing your head lying as Youngjae snaps his head your way. You caught Hyunjae and Kevin’s eyes glance at each other as Jacob looked puzzled with the situation he walked into. “I need my coat, I think it’s time I left you all be,” you said bowing & dashing from them all.

The clothes was wet soaked to your skin by the time you rescued your items from the corner of the building. “Your a very confusing woman,” you hear Kevin from behind you. “One that you should all run from,” you said smiling as tears threatened once more. “I’m the pull to your push, so give it up,” Kevin said resting his hands on your arms. “The reason we go in opposite directions is because we’re not meant to be stood together,” you say pushing the wet hair that was stuck to your face away. “Well we’re standing together now, so your logic sucks,” Kevin smirks as you smile slightly his way. “There she is, you should smile more often,” he says pulling your face to look at him with his finger under your chin. “You choosing to flirt now of all times?” You question to his amusement. “Why should I book a slot then?” he teased pulling you in as your wet body’s clash making you shiver. “Wow a hug gets that reaction?” Kevin teases as his chin rests on your collar bone. “I’m cold,” you say not too convinced yourself.

You felt warm and safe in his arms that he felt like your comfort blanket. The thought of losing him broke your heart. Your arms tightens around him holding him as tight as you can as if he preserves some energy that you could keep. “Maybe Youngjae’s right your a murderer with that tight grip you got,” Kevin laughed as you crushed him with your hug for extra effect. “Ok ok I’m sorry,” Kevin gasped as it was your turned to laugh as you looked up at him.

“Your not leaving right, you know I won’t let you,” he says with seriousness behind his eyes. “I appreciate it but I need more then one friend on my side,” you said biting your lips. “What about one boyfriend?” He questions as your eyes widen confused.

Before you have a chance to think of his words his lips crash with yours. The second they touch you melt like his lips are your everything. The kiss is heavy and passionate, yet very longing as you sink into him. Despite it being a while, even with Juyeon earlier, your body moves with his as his hands find your ass. Scrunching the cheeks he pulls you towards what you feel is his hardening member. Moans from his lips being suckled down has another shiver that you know isn’t from the cold as your nipple erects. It’s like he can sense their condition as his fingers brush along them letting some of your own moans escape. His lips leave to hear the sweet sounds your gifting as he smirks devilishly your way. “Oh Y/N your so beautiful, I’m sorry but I need you, need this,” He Pants as his hands cups your breasts. “And this,” he whispers as his hands fall to your core as he brushed his hand above your clothing. Your breathing hitches as you feel weak like your under his spell. “But more importantly this,” he says changing his tone as his hand rests over your heart, like he’s capturing your soul.

“Say something,” he whispers that makes you bite your lips to hold your thighs that’s tightening. “Has my lips stolen your voice,” he teases as you nod. “I won’t hurt you, I won’t let anyone hurt you neither,” he says almost pleadingly. His lips fall to your neck as they brush kisses up towards your ear. “Tell me you want me, tell me you want this, or just tell me your mine,” he whispers before moving his face back to look your way. As if he has control over your mind and heart you nod. “Words Baby.” He coo’s with a darkened smile that should scare you. “I’m yours,” you respond not sure how those words fall from your mouth, when your mind still hasn’t taken what’s happening in.

It’s like he’s snapped in that second and turns from angelic to fiery devil. He growls as he pulls you into his lips, much more harsher and inpatient as his tongue swirls with your own. His hands fall under the wet soaking T-shirt as it falls on your clammy skin. Fingers falling onto your spine, you feel it burn into you like he’s capturing your soul. Your lungs feel like there burning as he’s kiss suckles at your oxygen, his lips not releasing yours for even a second. When you feel as if your soul is being sucked away, he pulls on your wet T-shirt pulling it from your skin, letting your lungs burn from the oxygen your allowed to consume.

His lip attacks your collar bone, sweet gentle kisses he peppers along your skin as his hands attack the clasps of your bra. Letting it fall to the Floor he looks in your eyes. Lust fallen upon his own he looks as if he’s drunk on you which burns through your core. Lips falling to your breast he suckles on them as his fingers attack your jean buttons. Falling to his knees he lets your jeans and panties fall, while he kisses every inch of skin that’s exposed. Your hands fall to his wet hair as you hum against the feeling of his exploring lips.

However, nothing is held back when his lips fall to your folds as he kisses them gently. As his fingers part them to expose your clit, he presses his warm mouth to bring a suction against the sensitive bud. “Fuck,” you cry into the air as he enjoys torturing you with his tongue. Fingers dipping to join his torture, your cry’s become almost pleads as you feel your juices flowing. You continue to feel as if your burning under his touch as you melt into his tongue and fingers. Just as you feel your about to lose your mind he slips from your sensitive throbbing core.

But this time it’s your turn to crash and burn into him as your mouth attacks him with your own need. Hands undressing him in a desperate need as your hands explore his own perfect marbled sculptured body. Fingers wrapped around him you attacked his impressive length as you kiss down his moans. He doesn’t like his own torture as he walks back into the chair that you know is his director one.

Straddling him in a desperate need to be penetrated by the throbbing member you just had in your palm, you hover over him. Sliding down, your walls clench around him picking the most beautiful sounds to escape. His member fits in perfectly and despite your dry spell, your core attacks him with equal rushed desire. You start a slow tempo at first, but it does little to help your burning need as your greediness needs more. As you increase your pace, his hands find your hip to help you along. Your face falling against his as your eyes focus on each other. “Fuck your so beautiful,” he cry’s as he looks like he’s struggling under your body. “You can talk,” you growl nipping his neck that has his nails rake your back.

As if your lips pressed a button, his pressure on your hips increases as he manoeuvres you with strength knocking your own rhythm out of balance. The tip of his member hits your cervix as you begin chasing your own high. It’s like he senses it as nails dig into the flesh of your skin once more. Like your body racing to your climax you feel as if your about to crash and burn any second. Your walls sense it too as they clench around him hard, that has him growl at a different pitch as he goes feral underneath you. The sudden view of him struggling is enough to push you over the edge as you clench around him hard. Milking him he soon fills you up as his body tenses as he cums. His white hot seed feels as if it attacks you as you continue to convulse, all while your orgasm continues to hold you hostage. Collapsing into his chest your left fighting for air from the exhausting yet amazing session.

Kevin’s fingers rake up and down your spine causing you to moan as you become over sensitive, still convulsing on his member. “I hope your not tired, we got some more practising to do before tomorrow,” he wiggles his eyebrows earning a chuckle.

The hands laced with yours are heavy and no way of disputing that it’s Juyeon’s. But in your mind it’s Kevin that is rolling against your core, mimicking a steamy session of its own. Juyeon’s warm and muscular chest rubbing against the strapless bra that the covers are hiding, looks mouthwatering even taken you can admit. Though Juyeon’s eyes are on you for visual effect it’s your own features the camera that Sunwoo has in your face is capturing.

Youngjae apologised to you that morning, he had accepted that he was in the wrong for his perception of you. Like Hyunjae & Jacob, he promised to keep your secret. Not a single one looked at you differently having your past exposed, which filled you with hope that somewhat your life could move forward.

As soon as you place the dressing gown over yourself and emerged from the bed sheet of the set bed, your eyes found Kevin. They was slightly lost and you knew jealousy was biting him. Making your way towards him, you grabbed his hand as he called your name confused till he saw the direction you was rushing him too.

Behind the make shift storage where he first comforted you, you pushed him against the wall letting your lips tell him you was his. “Y/N what are you doing?” He whispers as you fall to your knee’s, your hand lifting his fluffy jumper as you found his jogging bottoms. “Aren’t you good helping me with easy access,” you winked up towards him. “Like I said best boyfriend material,” he smirks briefly before your lips steal it away. Hollowing your cheeks you attack his hardening shaft as you Bob up and down his throbbing cock. Your tongue sliding underneath as his hands rest behind his head as he struggles to contain his moans. “Fuck,” he growls as your hands fondles his balls. “Wow, just wow, one day already and you two are unbearable,” Younghoon shouts through the storage. Despite his rare pinked cheeks he’s throbbing cock stiffens so hard that you know being caught by his friends is driving him wild. You was both going to have fun driving each other crazy.

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honourablejester · 2 years ago

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PF2e Character Concept: Starwatcher

I like the small empathic rhino people. Kashrishi is such an excellent idea for an ancestry. So I was browsing classes looking for something that fit with the dwarfy, unicorn-ish vibes I get from the kashrishi, particularly the trogloshi subterranean heritage, and I wasn’t feeling a lot of things. And then I looked at the Oracle, and specifically the Cosmos oracle mystery. And, well. People who’ve been around a while may recognise some thematic echoes from Zaraz, my 5e goblin twilight cleric. Light and dark. The earth and the sky. Stars and abysses. Kashrishi have so many feats around their glowing horns, around empathy, around psychic connection, and that gels so well with mysteries of light and dark, the lure of the stars. And on a trogloshi. A subterranean kashrishi, adapted to sunless regions, making their own light. Finding and seeing the stars. The mystery of these tiny lights in this vast void, this cosmic tapestry of light and darkness interwoven. That’s a thing. That’s definitely a thing. So.

Character Concept: Starwatcher, Oracle of the Cosmos

Ancestry, Heritage

Kashrishi, Trogloshi

Just to pick out a couple of things:

Kashrishi: “Kashrishi have an atypical level of control over their physical forms, thanks to their psychic powers, and can evolve new features over the course of a single generation. Typically, these features are intentionally cultivated to help deal with a particular environmental obstacle, such as a change in weather patterns, or if an invasive species affects available food supplies near their settlements.”

Trogloshi: “You're adapted to the sunless regions of dense jungle forests and deep caves, with soft flesh lacking pigment and unusually clear crystalline horns. You gain the Crystal Luminescence ancestry feat.”

Right. I feel like I should say that my first ttrpg that I played around and made characters in was VTM, and I really loved the idea of the Nosferatu, as these subterranean city-builders who made communities for each other in the sewers because they wouldn’t be accepted anywhere else. I love the idea of subterranean cultures, of making places to live and be happy in the darkness. So, yeah. Dwarves, goblins, drow to some extent, I’m pretty drawn to subterranean options, to functional subterranean cultures, peoples of the underground.

I’m also drawn to unicorns, and the more delicate, sensory end of magic, of psychic powers. Empathy, ESP, foresight, psychometry. I like powers that are built around sensing things, interacting with an extra layer of information about the world around you. PF2e’s Occultism skill is doing wonders for me as an option, just saying.

And kashrishi … they have so many elements of both. They build their culture around the fact that they’re aware of the moods of everyone around them, that actions have tangible ripples through their communities, because they can all feel when something happens. So they have to structure their rules and behaviours around the knowledge that not just what they do but also what they feel will ripple out. That’s … a lot. I love exploring psychic/empathic/telepathic cultures, Star Trek is responsible for a lot. Heh.

And kashrishi also have a strong element of light. This didn’t strike me as much until after I’d read Oracle and the cosmos mystery, but with that sort of a theme in mind … Kashrishi can tailor their physical evolution in real time, and one of the things I find interesting is that the heritage that went underground, the trogloshi, the kashrishi heritage that adapted themselves for low-light environments, did not choose to give themselves low-light vision/darkvision, they chose to give themselves light instead. They made their horns glow. They had the choice, they can control their evolution to an extent, and that’s what they chose. To make light, rather than adapt to the dark.

So. Light and darkness. Walk into the darkness with only empathy to guide you, and should you decide you need light, you just make some.

And while you’re picturing that, that sort of person, that sort of people … what would they see, the first time they looked up and saw the stars?

So. Let’s make a trogloshi. I was going to make one anyway, but now that I’ve read the Oracle entry, let’s make a study on light and dark. A pale, subterranean albino, who went to visit their surface cousins as a kid, who emerged for the first time out of the caves and the trees and looked up, and saw the raw wonder of the night sky for the first time in their life. That saw … gods, maybe, or some force, doing what their people had done. Going out into the darkness, and making light. Just enough. Not to wipe the dark away, not to destroy it, but to enable themselves, enable everyone, to walk among it. Horns in the caves. Stars in the void.

A kashrishi, a dwarven unicorn, a stocky, sturdy, awed little gal, who in that moment saw, felt, some fraction of the answers that lie behind the world.

Starwatcher, the Oracle of the Cosmos.

Languages: Common, Kashrishi, possibly Celestial if she has the INT

Ancestry Feats:

Empathic Sense: Kashrishi are able to get a vague sense of the current emotional state of others within 15 feet of them. This manifests as a general feeling of happiness, anger, or fear, without any specific details. For those with whom kashrishi have an emotional connection, physical touch can heighten this sense to greater degrees of detail and understanding, increasing with the strength of their bond. This also functions as an imprecise sense alerting you to the presence, but not the precise location, of non-mindless creatures within the area. You gain a +2 circumstance bonus on Perception checks to Sense Motive against non-mindless creatures within the area of your empathic sense.

Glowing Horn: Your horn reacts to psychic energy by softly glowing. The horn emanates dim light in a 10-foot emanation until the start of your next turn whenever you use an occult action you gained from an ancestry feat, cast an innate occult spell, or Cast a Spell that has the mental trait.

Crystal Luminescence (action): Your horn glows with bioluminescent color, casting bright light in a 20-foot emanation (and dim light for the next 20 feet). This light can be any color. The most common colors are blue and purple, except for trogloshi, who normally shed white light. The light shuts off when you take this action again or fall unconscious. If a spell or ability would activate your glowing horn while Crystal Luminescence is active, it instead increases the radius of the bright light and dim light by 10 feet each until the start of your next turn. This isn't cumulative, so using another such ability doesn't increase the radius again. Special: If you have the trogloshi heritage, you can select this feat a second time (in addition to gaining it automatically from your heritage). If you do, you increase the area to a 40-foot emanation (and dim light for the next 40 feet). In addition, you can use Crystal Luminescence as a free action the first time you use it on each of your turns.

Mental Sustenance: You can sustain yourself with the power of your mind. You need only a single serving of food and water each week to avoid starvation or dehydration. You can hold your breath for an additional 5 rounds before running out of air.

Planned Future Ancestry Feats:

I was planning to follow the Open Mind – Unlock Secrets – Transcendent Realisation chain of feats, because psychic and innate spells, but musing on Zon-Kuthon below and the dream of walking among the stars, I decided to change it up. We’re going to start at Level 1 with Mental Sustenance, build up some things for surviving the void here. Finishing up on Cleansing Light, because that’s our whole vibe, right there.

Empathic Calm: Once per day, you can cast either calm emotions or sanctuary as an innate occult spell, heightened to half your level rounded up.

Fortified Mind: Your mind is unusually resilient and resistant to influence. When you would gain the fascinated or stupefied condition, you can attempt a DC 17 flat check. On a success, you don't gain the fascinated or stupefied condition.

Kashrishi Revivification (free action): Frequency: once per day. Trigger: You have the dying condition and are about to attempt a recovery check. You can use Kashrishi Revivification even if you're otherwise unable to act. The well of psychic energy held within your mind can exceed the limitations of your physical body. You're restored to 1 Hit Point, lose the dying and unconscious conditions, and can act normally on this turn. You gain or increase the wounded condition as normal for losing the dying condition.

Cleansing Light (2 actions): Frequency: once per day. A burst of light from your horn cleanses your allies of ailments and sends your foes reeling. You and all allies in a 20-foot emanation benefit from a 4th-level restoration spell. All enemies within the emanation are dazzled until the end of your next turn.

Planned Future General Feats:

Ancestral Paragon at level 3 to get the trogloshi’s extra Crystal Luminescence. I just really enjoy the image of a subterranean lighthouse of a dwarf psychic rhino. If I’m reading that right it’s 80 total feet of combined bright and dim light, 100ft if she casts an innate/mental spell or uses Cleansing Light.

Might also pick up some combination of Diehard/Toughness/Fast Healing. Oracles feel a bit on the fragile side. Although the Cosmos mystery benefit should take some of the sting out of a lot of it, so we’ll see.

Background:

Fortune Teller: “The strands of fate are clear to you, as you have learned many traditional forms by which laypeople can divine the future. You might have used these skills to guide your community, or simply to make money. But even the slightest peek into these practices connects you to the occult mysteries of the universe. Choose two ability boosts. One must be to Intelligence or Charisma, and one is a free ability boost. You're trained in the Occultism skill and the Fortune-Telling Lore skill. You gain the Oddity Identification skill feat.”

Not going to lie, I would have preferred the Astrologer background, because that moment where Starwatcher found the stars defined her whole destiny, and I feel like she would have made a study of that first and foremost, and opened to her oracle mystery by that route. But. I did want a Dexterity boost from somewhere, and Astrologer would have locked me into Intelligence/Wisdom instead, and Fortune Teller also posits a route towards the mysteries of the universe, just by a slightly broader field of study.

Although … You know what? I can probably survive on 12 Dex to start out, right?

Astrologer: “Astrologers look to the stars for signs and portents, using their positions to chart courses for those living beneath them. As the celestial spheres move, so does fate itself. You studied the stars and learned to divine your path based on their guidance. Whether the stars directly called you to a life of adventure or you use the stars to guide your wanderlust, you’re living out the stars’ guidance in a life of adventure. Choose two ability boosts. One must be to Intelligence or Wisdom, and one is a free ability boost. You’re trained in Occultism and Astrology Lore. You gain the Oddity Identification skill feat.”

Either way I’m going to get Occultism and the Oddity Identification feat, it’ll just be a slightly different Lore skill and the stat boosts in the difference. Whichever one I can best get away with, but I do prefer Astrologer. The stars called to Starwatcher, to the point of defining her name and her mystery. It fits.

Background Feats:

Oddity Identification: Prerequisites: trained in Occultism. You have a sense for spells that twist minds or reveal secrets. You gain a +2 circumstance bonus to Occultism checks to Identify Magic with the mental, possession, prediction, or scrying traits.

Class, Subclass

Oracle, Mystery of the Cosmos

Oracle: “Your conduit to divine power eschews the traditional channels of prayer and servitude—you instead glean divine truths that extend beyond any single deity. You understand the great mysteries of the universe embodied in overarching concepts that transcend good and evil or chaos and law, whether because you perceive the common ground across multiple deities or circumvent their power entirely. You explore one of these mysteries and draw upon its power to cast miraculous spells, but that power comes with a terrible price: a curse that grows stronger the more you draw upon it. Your abilities are a double-edged sword, which you might uphold as an instrument of the divine or view as a curse from the gods.”

Cosmos Mystery: “Celestial bodies great and small exert influence on you, giving you sublime cosmic power. Perhaps you see the glittering stars as a divine blessing, or perhaps you feel drawn to the infinitely dark spaces between. You might uphold deities like Desna, Sarenrae, or the deific lovers Shizuru and Tsukiyo who represent the sun and the moon—or you might draw power from dark entities from beyond the stars, like certain Outer Gods, or destructive gods of the night like Zon-Kuthon or the rat goddess Lao Shu Po.”

The purpose of light is not to banish but to explore the dark. That’s what I think this little kashrishi believes. That’s the mystery she wants to embrace. Those gods who ventured out and made lights in that absolute incredible vastness, those are the ones she wants to echo and emulate (and possibly surpass?). Desna. The Cosmic Caravan. Perhaps even Zon-Kuthon in some ways, because he walked all the way into darkness and survived, even if not unscathed. Possibly she secretly, blasphemously, thinks she could do better? Walk in darkness. Embrace the darkness. But carry your light with you always, and when you need to, let it shine out.

(Sidenote: It is possibly slightly unfortunate or possibly slightly fortunate that I’m coming to PF2e’s Oracle after watching Exandria Unlimited: Calamity. But, hey! Fun with hubris, here we come!)

The curse for the cosmos mystery, the Curse of the Sky’s Call, I think she looks at that just as the necessary cost of that exploration. Very much like Zon-Kuthon in many ways. She’s not morally aligned with him, and most of what she’s looking to do are actually literal anathema to him, but I think she does still hold him a bit as a flawed exemplar. Pay the cost, but explore regardless. The stretched feeling her mystery and her power gives her, the way it hollows her out and renders her insubstantial, that’s just her price. She’ll take being physically weaker. She’ll take being insubstantial, light enough to blow away. If it means she gets one step closer to the stars, to the void, to that vast stretch of darkness to be explored, then it’s worth it.

(Sidenote: the basic curse manifestation, before you exacerbate it by casting revelation spells, is as follows: “You have your head in the clouds—and not just figuratively. Your body is drawn toward the heavens, making you lighter and less substantial than you should be. Your eyes glow with starry light, and your hair and clothing float and drift around you.” That’s … more cool than curse, let’s be honest. Heh)

I kind of want her to take darkness rather than moon, then, as her initial domain. The spells are kind of interesting balanced around her theme of embracing the darkness but having a light ready. Shrouding someone in shadow to enable them to hide … Interesting, given a subterranean outlook, and from someone who can always just make light. The initial mystery focus spell is themed around stars, so maybe letting her take an element of darkness too balances better. She wants to walk the void, after all, as much as her people made their choice to go below the earth. Yes. I think we’ll take the darkness domain.

Starting Stats (Astrologer): Strength 10, Dexterity 12, Constitution 14, Intelligence 12, Wisdom 12, Charisma 18

Starting Stats (Fortune Teller): Strength 10, Dexterity 14, Constitution 14, Intelligence 10, Wisdom 12, Charisma 18

Starting Skills: Arcana, Diplomacy, Intimidation, Astrology Lore, Nature, Occultism, Religion, Stealth

(If Fortune Teller, swap in Fortune Teller Lore for Astrology Lore, and lose Arcana)

Planned Class Feats:

A lot of the Oracle feats are about building your spell list/repertoire, and yeah, I’ll follow that path. Let’s reach out and take power from sparks of divine mystery.

Divine Access: Your ability to tap into divine magic surpasses the spells traditionally available to you (the divine spell list). Choose one deity who grants one of your mystery's granted domains. Add up to three cleric spells of your choice granted by that deity to your spell list. You can select from these spells when you add or swap spells in your spell repertoire. Special: You can select this feat more than once. You can't choose the same spells more than once, but you can choose a different domain or a different deity with the same domain you've previously selected with this feat.

(Not Zon-Kuthon, I think. She’s still kashrishi, empathetic, she’s not going to follow him into torture and pain. Walk the darkness with empathy. So, yeah. Not Zon-Kuthon. I’m liking the Cosmic Caravan’s pantheon spells, actually)

Advanced Revelation: Prerequisites: initial revelation spell. You learn an advanced revelation spell associated with your mystery. Increase the number of Focus Points in your focus pool by 1.

(Interstellar Void is a very cool-looking spell)

Greater Revelation (vs Domain Fluency): Prerequisites: initial revelation spell. You learn a greater revelation spell associated with your mystery. Increase the number of Focus Points in your focus pool by 1.

(At Level 12, this is basically a choice between Moonlight Span from Greater Revelation or Darkened Eyes from Domain Fluency, and I just like Moonlight Span more)

Mysterious Repertoire: Your mystery holds unknowable depths of magic not always associated with the divine. You can have one spell in your spell repertoire not on the divine spell list, in addition to spells you've added to your spell list from feats like Divine Access. You cast that spell as a divine spell. You can swap which spell you add and from which tradition as you could any other oracle spell, but you can't use this feat to have more than one spell from another tradition in your spell repertoire at the same time.

(I suspect the Divine spell list already gives me most of the light-and-dark spells I could want, but I’d definitely have a browse around for something cool from other lists)

And … that’ll do, I think. A kashrishi oracle of the stars. A slighty hubristic but very well-meaning subterranean Starwatcher who believes that light exists to explore the darkness, and wants to wander out among the stars some day.

#character concepts #pathfinder #pf2e #oracles #kashrishi #i need to blame exu: calamity for some things #also star trek #and vtm

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ravenloftgm · 1 year ago

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Faith Meade

Backstory of the best worst Ventrue.

As promised I'm gonna do big posts about all of my OCs and hyperlink them in my big OC post, and the one I've got brainrot about right now is Faith, so here we fucking go:

In life, Faith was the only child of an incredibly, incredibly mentally ill single mother. Her mum was a devout Catholic, but some sort of schizoaffective disorder or straight up schizophrenia led her to frequent episodes of believing her daughter was possessed by the devil, a sinner, an angel, etc. She was often punished severely, being deprived of things or even, on rare occasions, beaten.

Faith has an eidetic memory. She's a character in a text-based chronicle, so it's nice and simple to roleplay this, as opposed to in a tabletop game. She was the "weird kid" at her school - not being allowed to see 'satanic' movies or play video games, or generally experience anything normal, as well as remembering everything perfectly and often explaining things in too much detail, she wound up often taking lessons aside from the rest of her class, which did not help her to make friends.

While I don't have an eidetic memory, this is borrowed from my real life. I was hyperlexic and very good at math as a kid, and distinctly remember reading Anne Frank's diary in P5 while the rest of the class read with the teacher, and studying maths with the special education teacher in a private room rather than staying in the classroom. Unlike Faith, though, I had some solid friends despite this.

She did a little better in high school, but not much. She wasn't allowed to hang out with her friends outside of school, so she missed out on partying and sleepovers and such, and her relationships with the girls in her friend group just weren't as deep as the ones the other girls shared with each other. She continued to study at an advanced level, and was able to apply for, and get into, university at just 16 years old.

Faith did her best at university. She lived in student accommodation, rather than with her mother, so she had a lot more freedom. She made a few friends and mastered her social skills, and while she still couldn't go drinking with them all at clubs, she managed to secure her first boyfriend, get into video games, and catch up on some media she missed. She prioritised her studies, though, determined to wind up in a high-paying job so she could get her mother into some sort of mental health facility, and enjoy an independent life away from her forever.

Faith maintained her Catholicism throughout her life. While her mother wasn't well, she had grown reliant on religion to get her through her experiences, and she just wasn't willing to give it up. She tried not to think too much about whether or not she actually believed in it all - her faith was a choice she was making. She ended up finding a church that she liked, rather than the one her mother attended - one with an evening mass, so she could juggle studying and part time work with her religion. The priest, a rather attractive man, considering your average priest, was someone she felt quite drawn to. She regularly went for confession, as someone who is quite self-pitying and self-deprecating, but she also ended up helping out with fundraisers and community projects, really finding something to live for between this community and purpose, her new friendships, and her career prospects.

She graduated and started working as a Sales Trader, the youngest in her company, and proved to have an incredible knack for it. Nobody can predict patterns quite like everyone who has seen and remembered every pattern, after all.

It is worth noting now, that Faith is a naturally very curious person - she often managed to find out things she shouldn't know. Occasionally, she would share this information with clients - and this bad behaviour came up in confession from time to time.

How was she to know that her beloved local priest was a kindred? And a Ventrue at that? Watching her develop over her teenage years from a strange, yet intelligent teenager, into a perfectly amiable young woman with a highly profitable set of skills?

The worst part, really, is that isn't even the real reason he killed her. Perhaps she could have understood, if it had been.

#Faith Meade #My OCs #cw: child abuse #cw: religious themes #cw: religion #cw: death #Vampire the Masquerade

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alaska386 · 2 years ago

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F!Bsd anime watcher in the bsd world…

Brief information for the F!bsd anime watcher(I’ll name her Victoria cuz I say so):

-Name: Victoria [last name I’ll just type ‘XXX’ in the introduction time(s)]

-Gender: Female, Pronouns: She/Her

-Age: 14 years old (idk how to write thoughts, behaviour, moods, goals that are ‘mature’ like adults’ ones cuz idk what they think so I set her as a teenager for myself to write this thing easier)

-Ability: Yall are gonna vote on if she’s gonna have an ability from nowhere

-Sexuality: Bisexual

-Nationality: Chinese(I don’t wanna accidentally write some racist stuff if I say American or British or whatsoever)

-Languages she knows/understands/speaks: Chinese/Mandarin/Putonghua(Don’t worry I won’t make her speak Chinese in the story-), fluent English

-Likes: Music(Classical, Relaxing ones are her preferences), Anime and Mangas(not patient enough to read a full series without skipping some chapters, just like me fr), desserts and snacks, nature sceneries, rainy days(the louder the rain the better), knives, comfy clothes

-Dislikes: Dogs, pain, school, homework, studying, bitter pills, loud people and noises

-Hobbies: drawing on a paper and in a drawing app, singing, family stuff, *being read like an open book*

-Appearance: dark brown hair and eyes, around Kenji’s height

-Main bsd kins: Dazai, Ryunosuke, Kyouka, Sigma(always in the middle of some arguments and shits)

-Personality: Has social anxiety, rather quiet, sometimes can’t express herself fluently but tries to and tries to hide the things she thinks she should. Thinks quite negatively, does not fully show it as well, gets nervous easily but doesn’t show it often as well(which Ranpo, Dazai and some other smart/manipulative characters can definitely realise/see through)

Extra: she trusts fate

Btw her character settings some are actually based off mine cuz I figure that it’ll be easier to write this if I imagine her as myself and I’ve imagined myself in the bsd word many times.

Fanfic starts now.

Victoria, who’s a student in a religious school, was sitting on her seat in her classroom during a break before another class started. She was just staring, playing and snapping her fingers while ignoring how loud the classroom was due to how loud her classmates were shouting, yelling and talking to each other. Then, Victoria found herself sitting on a bench instead of the chair in her classroom, she looked up and saw that she was in an unknown but familiar place, she blinked and looked at her surroundings. It looked like the world of an anime she’s currently loving, Bungou stray dogs.

Victoria pov

This… If I’m correct it’s one of the scenes in bsd. Am I in a dream? No. People in their dreams cannot understand the term of dreams.(personal experience has never experienced understanding what a dream is in a dream)

I swear to god if someone(like Fyodor, Nikolai, some stalker) was watching me since I got teleported here— Oh shit. I need to fucking act normally, like how a normal person would act like… When… uh- they suddenly appeared in a place they didn’t know? I’m gonna make that as my case right now because I’m thinking for too long… Okay but if someone’s been watching me(Gurl, your anxiety is so-) it’s not like it’s gonna do anything anymore but, I still need to understand the situation… but to in exchange of their observations to my acts…

I’m thinking too slow! Too slow… ..Am I just fucking excited to be here? In the anime? Ok quit it, I need to understand my situation right now as quick as possible.

The moment I hesitated to move and started to think for minutes already caused some issues and effects, definitely, who knows where did Dostoevsky the rat king put his cameras and spies in? So… I can just act like myself, right? Who knows what’ll happen just because of my thoughts…

Whatever, the best place to go to right now is the ada, the agency. I can’t get distracted by my thoughts now, it’s not like Ranpo’s not gonna read my thoughts and expressions immediately later on. So it’s practically useless thinking further, I need to know how I got here, is this world some sort of au and what I should do, was it an ability(is bsd true) and what timeline is it right now.

I just hope I won’t walk into someone like Elise and Mori, Q, Nikolai disguises as a police(low possibility), Ryunosuke which is because it’ll definitely go wrong due to how I suck I’m at communicating, so on…

No one’s pov

Victoria checks if there’s anything in her pocket which there isn’t and stands up from the bench and starts walking around while looking around. As she continues walking with a blank face(she puts that on as much as she can while calming herself down), she keeps thinking about her situation and what she should do to be the safest for herself.

Victoria pov

Since I do not have a phone so I don’t have a translation, going to the ada cafe and find Lucy to help with my communication will be my best option right now I think.. If she’s working in there right now. But Ranpo’ll definitely understand most of the things like my actions and thoughts, guess I’ll go find him no matter how much I don’t want to.(She doesn’t like being read but she knows Ranpo’s not that kind of person that tells everyone what he found out, so, it’s still fine? She’ll be in danger if she doesn’t do anything after-all.)

Ah…! The agency building… what luck and fate is this…

No one’s pov(extra information if you don’t understand why she’s not acting as if she’s scared or shocked, she sucks at acting and she knows that police can’t help her anything, lack of communication is also one of her problems right now, as much as she doesn’t like getting herself into chaos and troubles, the only option for her was, the ada. She still hopes that Ranpo’s not gonna find out everything about her though.)

Victoria looks up at the agency building then walks in it, (sry just pretend her somehow got to the agency door), she knocks on the agency’s door.

Hope you guys like it! I enjoyed writing this :))

Once again I’ve not had much writing fanfics experience so it might not be in your expectations. Also I need a name for this fanfic!!! Thank you for reading all the way till here!(Victoria’s not quite a normal person but who’s normal if they watch bsd lol)

#bsd #bsd anime #bungou stray dogs #bsd wan #armed detective agency #ada bsd #bsd manga #bsd season 1 #anime watchers

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ladytruffaut · 3 years ago

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50 questions to create a fantasy world

1) What ethnicities exist in the world?

2) What social behaviour do the different ethnic groups exhibit towards each other, and to what extent does racism exist?

3) If there are fantastic races, what are they? How are they related to each other? What cultural characteristics does each race possess?

4) What is the technological level of the different civilisations?

5) What kind of lighting do the inhabitants use, has the light bulb been invented, is there such a thing as street lighting?

6) What territories exist and how are they divided?

7) What are the politics of each kingdom?

8) Who are the top leaders in each region and what system of government do they use?

9) What wars have there been, are there or will there be?

10) What types of transport are there and which is the most commonly used?

11) What religion or religions do the inhabitants profess?

12) Is there religious fanaticism and do sects exist?

13) On what is the economy of each territory based?

14) What type of currency do the different regions use?

15) Is money important to the point of ruling the world?

16) What kind of trade exists in each territory?

17) What kind of trade relations exist between the different territories?

18) What is socially considered a respectable trade and what is a despicable trade?

19) Does magic exist, what kind of magic, what or who makes its existence possible?

20) What language (or languages) do the inhabitants speak?

21) What is the power structure in the society? What are the social classes?

22) What festivals are there?

23) How do the lower classes enjoy themselves and what about the nobility?

24) What traditions does each culture have?

25) What behaviour is acceptable and unacceptable in each culture?

26) What philosophy do the people of each region share?

27) What level have they reached in science?

28) How advanced is medicine, is there penicillin, and what about vaccines?

29) What fauna is there in the world?

30) What flora is there in the world?

31) How have humans interfered with ecosystems?

32) What calendar do they use?

33) What is the world beyond the planet like? What has astronomy discovered? Is there a sun and a moon?

34) At what point in history is the story set?

35) What happened before?

36) What can happen next?

37) Are there vices such as alcohol, drugs and prostitution? If so, are people in the habit of resorting to them?

38) What kind of ethics govern society?

39) Does the printing press exist?

40) What means of communication is used?

41) How does education work, are there schools and universities?

42) How easy or difficult is it to get a good education?

43) What kind of cultural wealth does each country have?

44) What is the general culture of ordinary people?

45) What great archaeological discoveries have been made, and were there any unknown ancient civilisations?

46) What is the mentality of ordinary people? Are they tolerant or closed-minded?

47) Which great historical figures are revered or hated in each region?

48) Which countries have the greatest military power and the greatest economic power?

49) How do the main characters in the story relate to all of the above? What do they do? Do they have a god? What social class are they in? What social behaviour do they share?

50) Do you like the world you have created?

You can find more information on the Spanish blog of "inteligencia narrativa"

#writing prompts #writing #prompt #prompts #fantasy world #fantasy #tips #writing prompt #writeblr #writing tips #prompt list

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yn-dere · 3 years ago

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[6:44 PM]

TW: Extremely dark topics.

The slow ticking of our grandfather clock alongside my son's sprightly voice is what an weekday's evening sounds like to me. Colourful publications scattered all across the coffee table as he tries to figure out the words in his chosen nursery book. Though he reads enthusiastically, I was informed by his teacher that he seldom pays attention in class unlike how he used to be. Maybe it's because of his mum's lack of involvement in his studies nowadays so I try to make up for it as much as I can. Listening to a child rhyme baa baa black sheep for the umpteenth time might not seem like the best way to spend your leisure time but I wouldn't trade this for anything else.

"That was great, love! Can you rhyme the next one once for your old man?"

Peter Peter pumpkin eater~

As his voice began to fill the atmosphere again, I subconsciously rested my eyelids as my chest heaved deep breaths. My mind soon found itself pondering over the pleasant former years, a reminder of what it used to be like. From the day that we met, it was clear to everyone that we were meant for each other. She was the fresh wind that pulled me from the banal structured life that I lead. I was the security she craved when her lifestyle got a bit too crazy. I somehow convinced this fickle woman to settle down with me, never bothered by the effort I had put in to do so. With the addition of my friends complaining about me being too docile with her. Labled Henpecked, whipped, submissive, dominated etc. I couldn't care less even if I tried, as long as I had her... I was fine.

Had a wife but couldn't keep her!~

But even after the birth of our son, I would still notice that one brief look whenever life got a bit too stale. Her eyes, that were always seeking.. seeking for more pleasure to devour. I tried to ignore and act oblivious for the sake of my happy family, wishing it would fleet away as the years go by. But soon, her once tempting eyes started to look more guilty. I clenched my fist as my mind illustrated the messages I saw between her and her old neighbour. My once calm breathing turned into a series of shallow inhales and exhales. When confronted about it, she threatened to leave. Leave the family, the sole reason for me to keep on living. Leave the life, which I carefully crafted for her comfort. Looks like it wasn't enough.

He put her in a pumpkin shell~

She might not need me, but I need her. We both need her. And she is too oblivious to notice how her flighty heart, restless and reckless behaviour is ruining her own life. So after some careful consideration, I decided not to just give the neighbour a visit. He isn't spared from the consequences but a fickle mind might even be distracted by lowlives and there are plenty of them running around. A birdy can only fly if she has wings, right? And I desperately need her to be here with me, with us. The chains gives both of us enough time to forgive each other, one for betrayal and the other for captivity. I hate to keep her away from our son but this is the only way.

And there he kept her very well~

I hope we can go back to being happy. I hope I get my fairy tale ending

"Good job! Doesn't sweet peter and your father have a lot in common? The next one is 'Mary, Mary, quite the contrary.. do you know how to read this one, love?

(Yan!Sunghoon finds himself relating to a nursery rhyme character. Does anyone want a tutorial on how to build a pumpkin house to cage keep your wife in when she threatens to leave?)

Gif by @chenleyah

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parvulous-writings · 3 years ago

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Home // Mother!Dimitrescu x Child!F!Reader

Request: Hi! may i request this scenario: what if lady dimitrescu had a fourth daughter? like child reader stumbles into the castle and lady dimitrescu decides to raise her as her own. thanks love!

Requested by: Anon

Summary: Lady Dimitrescu adopts a new daughter.

Warnings: mentions of death

Words: 1.7K

Notes: My requests are currently open! My pinned post (found here) contains both a list of characters I write for, and a masterlist!

Not my gif

Cold. That was the only thing you could feel. The only thing you had felt for the past several hours, at least. Well, feel in a loose sense of the term. Your limbs were numb, stiff and unable to move. You had been shuffling forward with no real sense of direction for who knows how long now, with no end in sight, no shelter from the elements you were forced to endure. Your home had been attacked by massive monsters- not quite man, not quite human. You parents had ushered you and your siblings out of your home, but now you were the last of your family line. One by one, your family had been picked off by your attackers, but each time you had managed to wriggle your way out of the situation. At one point you had even ducked into the woods to escape the beasts, but now that you had returned to the village you didn’t know what landmarks were what; almost everything you could recognise had been destroyed. You did, however, manage to find the Maiden of War, a statue that was in the centre of a roundabout like pathway that tractors and wagons often used. In normal life at least. Nearby to that, up some stone steps, was a stone door with a carving that frightened most of the children of the village, even with the two reliefs missing. However, this time, the reliefs were there, and the gateway had opened ever so slightly. Void of hope, and with every other option exhausted, you shuffle towards it, slipping through the crack, and starting up the snow-covered pathway to who knows where. Though, by looking up, you assumed that it lead to the massive castle which loomed over the village and it’s surroundings.

The trek up there was probably much shorter than it seemed to be. There was a drawbridge that lay over a small, shallow body of water, and your footsteps echo off of it as you cross into a dark and rocky tunnel. It’s very dimly lit- nothing more than wall mounted torches and the fading remaining light to guide your way. You felt your way along to stone wall, the surface cold to the touch, not that you could tell all that much. Eventually, you came to a door. It was tall, much taller than you, although it was only about average height in reality. You pressed all your weight against it, and slowly- oh so slowly- did it creak open. You scurried inside, pushing the door shut once more behind you. After catching your breath you take a moment to observe your surroundings- you were in a rather lavish room, just large enough to be classed as a hall, with hard, marble floors and a tiny staircase onto a more raised floor. You clamber up them, and notice a rather detailed portrait in front of you, of three beautiful young women, with tied up brown hair, sitting together in what appeared to be a forest or woodland clearing; it was a little bit hard to tell since the women took up most of the picture. You tilted your head slightly as you got lost in the colours and brushstrokes, wondering who these women were and what they did to warrant such a wonderful portrait. Of course, there was a plaque beneath it- most likely holding some of the information you wanted- you couldn’t read it, and it was a little too high for you anyway.

The sound of an opening door somewhere down the hall to your left catches your attention. Without knowing what else to do, you start to walk towards it, staying close to the walls and running your hand slowly along it. You push through a few more doors, before coming to a large hall- occupied with a chair, small table, assorted plants and even a chest of drawers in a corner. Your eyes roam upwards, and this room alone could house the entirety of the village, perhaps two or three times over. You knew the castle was big- it often occupied conversation among the children of the village- but this took your breath away. Not only was it huge, but it was ornate, more ornate than anything you had seen before in your life. One mere trinket from this room alone could have fed your family for at least two months, had they been alive still to see this. You hear another door close behind you, and you spin round to see if who is there. You can only hope that the residents of this castle take pity on you. But, you see nothing. No one. You’re incredibly confused by this, and you have to glance this way and that to make sure that there’s no one around you. All you can find is a few flies. Wait. There’s more than a few. There’s three whole clouds. You give a small shriek and duck to the floor, covering your head and face to try and hide away from the bugs, making sure they didn’t get near your face. If they didn’t get near your face, you could pretend they weren’t there at all.

The only problem was, you could still hear the buzzing of their wings. You felt a few beat against your back, as the sounds began to warp and change. From buzzing and droning to... Laughter? Yes, it was laughter, three different laughs to be exact. Fearfully, you look up from your arms, to see three, rather fearsome looking young women in front of you. In surprise you bury your face into your arms again- if you couldn’t see them, they couldn’t see you, right? The three girls look between one another, slightly confused. Not at your behaviour, but more at how you- a mere child- had managed to get yourself up into the castle. The one standing in the middle, one with red, oddly shaved hair, crouched down in front of you, tilting her head curiously. She glanced over her shoulder at the other two fly women, who shrugged at her; they didn’t know who you were or how you got into the castle either. “Child?” The one in front of you spoke, her voice like silk to your ears, especially after their piercing laughs and the roars of the Lycans. You shakily lift your head up again, looking up at her with tears of fear starting to prick at the corners of your eyes. She holds her hand out to you, trying to give you a smile of reassurance. It works to some extent, though you don’t have too much of a choice other than to take the woman’s hand, so you carefully do so. She helps you to your feet, and you see the other two women staring at you. The blonde women looks to the last one, a brunette wearing a yellow variation of the pendant worn by all three. “Go tell mother.” The blonde said to her, to which the brunette burst into a cloud of flies in reply, swooping off down a hall. You give a yelp of surprise, hiding behind the legs of the woman who’s hand you still clutch to. She looks at you, confused for a second.

She sighs, and starts to tug you along. “Come on.” She urges, rather impatiently, dragging you off down a side hall, where you can hear a couple of voices as you approach another door. The blonde woman pushes the door open, “Mother.” She greets, speaking to someone sitting in a plush, velvety chair. Whoever is sitting down places a crimson glass on a small table in front of her, before getting to her feet. “Well, let’s take a look at the child.” She speaks, and your jaw practically drops at her height. You hardly even reach her knees. You’re not sure whether to remain in awe, or to let the fright and fear set in. She looks down at you, regarding you briefly before starting to smile. “Why... I don’t see why you were so panicked, Cassandra...” She spoke to the brunette stood beside her chair, sent ahead of the other two with you. “Look at her- she poses no threat. It was chance she happened upon us, was it not?” She looked to the woman, who has lowered her head respectfully. “Yes, mother.” She replied, before moving her gaze over to you again. “What are we to do with her? She is human, what if-” “Ah-ah.” The tall woman interrupts. “No what-ifs.” She says sternly, before turning her attention fully to you. “What happened to your family, little one?” She asks, not bothering to get down on your level. You take a moment to answer, which the Lady of the castle allows, considering you are merely a child, and in a strange new environment. She could understand any fear you may have, she has been there herself in the past. “The.. The monsters.” You squeak, and the woman hums softly, looking at her three daughters briefly.

In her mind, you were a child without a family, a child with need of a home and a family. She gave a curt nod to herself, folding her arms over her chest. “Well, then we shall be your new family.” She tells you, and the shock is clear on your face. “What..?” You whisper, your voice hardly audible to any of the other women in the room. “We shall be your new family.” She declares proudly again, “These are your new sisters. Bela.” She gestures to the woman still holding loosely onto your hand, with the shaved red hair. “Daniela.” She gestured to the blonde woman on the other side of you, “And Cassandra.” She placed a hand on the shoulder of the girl closest to her. “And you can call me mother.” She smiled brightly at you, stepping forward slightly, and bending down, opening her arms to you. “Come here, child.” She coos to you, as Bela drops your hand. You shuffle towards her, and as soon as you’re close enough, she scoops you up into her arms, resting you against her shoulder, cradling you with a warm smile. “Come now, let us find you a room...” She whispers, and as she starts walking through the seemingly endless maze of hallways you feel yourself drifting off to sleep in the arms of.. Well, your mother. Despite only just meeting her, you feel safe with her and her daughters, your sisters. You knew you’d be happy here, happier than you would be anywhere else, especially in the ruins of the village you once called home.

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Part two

#tall vampire lady #lady d #lady dimitrescu #lady dimitrescu x reader #lady dimitrescu x female reader #alcina x reader #lady alcina #alcina dimitrescu

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ballorawan740 · 3 years ago

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SCP Scenarios: When they accidentally kill you

Requested by: okokok121 + @RitaRoseFromBBB

(Ok, I know you did ask for the doctors + Mikell and Strelnikov, but I've decided to add the SCPs in here if that's alright with you. And also, sorry if I didn't capture Strelnikov's attitude well as I'm not as familiar with him compared to Mikell, yet again I'm not familiar with Jack Bright's family other than TJ and 321)

Sorry if it wasn't up to your standards. I just felt that some of these characters weren't the type to kill the reader, even if it wasn't intentional.

WARNING: Slight Angst

Dr Simon Glass

Simon wouldn't be the one to accidentally kill you himself, but it's more of the situation he put you in without realising the full extent of the consequences. He was just busy writing his patients' reports, and you just strolled in his office to check upon him. Simon stopped what he was doing and smiled with you as you both ate your food in his ever so clean office. As you were about to leave, Glass requested you to deliver something to Jack Bright in which you did. You and Jack were close friends (not so surprising since you're both equally as mad as each other) so if Simon wanted to know where he is or if he needed to give him something, he would go to you first. You managed to deliver the parcel to Bright in 682's containment cell and you both laughed before you returned. Unfortunately, 682 was having a rough day due to being a subject to Bright's test (I would be too tbh) which caused him to become more aggressive than usual and attacked 3 researchers. One of them being you as 682 dragged you down to the acid bath with him and Jack rushed to save you. Bright wasn't able to and he had to fulfil;l his duty to tell Simon Glass that you passed as 682 had killed you during a test. Needless to say, Glass was forced to take time off with Bright due to this event and he became more distant for months to come. Bright had to keep it together just so Simon wouldn't have to lose the shred of sanity he had in him.

Dr Jack Bright

You and Bright were doing some tests on one of the more dangerous SCPs (no, it's not that giant mf lizard of that warrior killing machine) in which your job was to handle these creatures while Jack was doing all the lab stuff. The SCP you both were conducting your research on was ●●|●●●●●|●●|● (SCP 2521 - We're getting ripped tonight, RIP my friends) and you were doing all sorts of things which resulted in you summoning this creature out of the blue by accident. Bright had to drag you out away from the creature and you just stood there observing its behaviour until it noticed you. Jack Bright had to take you on the run yet again (cuz you do be stoopid and stubborn so all yall wanna do is stare at something that's gonna kill ya. JUST RUN BIATCH!!!) but the SCP managed to catch up with you both and snatched you before Bright could even get help. Jack was astonished and deeply depressed since the incident and was left increasingly agitated after every walking day and even Glass couldn't get him out of his shell. He would pretend that everything's fine, but deep down, everyone knows that he's not (that's a whole ass mood right there buddy). Bright was extremely guilty for making you research 2521 and tried to summon it again, but all other scientists stopped it.

Dr Alto Clef

Clef was just doing his job, managing all the Keter class SCPs with ease and without hesitation. You know this from first-hand experience on your very first day on the job 3 years ago and Clef took an interest in you so he took you under his wing. So on this mission, he's on, he wanted to take you with him so you went along (not like you'd say no to this madman anyways right?). It was a breach on one of the sites with a sh- ton of Keter class SCPs and your jobs were to exterminate/neutralise them and save all the other researchers in which your team did do well and were still alive. You on the other hand were killed in action by SCP 939 (NOW WHICH ONE OF YOU IDIOTS RELEASED MY PETS WITHOUT MY PERMISSION?!). Clef wasn't able to save you on time, but he managed to kill 2 of those SCPs. When he got back, he hid in his office and was depressed for 23.3 weeks and when he managed to drag himself out, he was bawling his eyes out. He deeply regretted taking you on a mission with him and swore an oath that if he were to ever take another person under his wing (probs in like 50 years), he would do anything in his power to not take them on a life-threatening mission.

Dr Benjamin Kondraki

You were out with Kondraki, just laying on the grass like you normally do as you just watched Kondraki take photographs of various and random stuff. Not long later, you asked him if he could teach you how to become such an avid photographer like him, so he did. However, little did you and Kondraki know that his butterfly friends felt danger lurking around the area you were in and quickly transformed into a threatening SCP to defend you both. Lurking around the woods were uncontained 939s running loose on the ground in which the booterflies attacked it. One of the red lizards was ready to pounce onto Kondraki to which you ran and pushed him out of the way (BAD DOGGO ))),:<). Luckily he was unharmed, but you, on the other hand, was heavily injured so Kondraki rushed you back to the foundation's medic. You died there shortly after and Kondraki blamed himself for getting you hurt on a harmless visit to the woods for some photographs. Bright and Clef begged Glass to do some psychological evaluation on Kondraki despite him telling them that he needs some time alone before he could do such things.

O5 Council Mikell Bright

When you're with Mikell, he would be his true self, being honest and relaxed since you're his most trusted partner. Moreover, he would tell you everything about what the O5 Council has been doing and their top secrets and you would always keep your lips sealed. The other members are wary of this at first but soon warm up to you since you're one of the most trusted individuals. Being with the cowboy is quite entertaining and you'll be quite protected being with him, so most of the time, you get free reign over the foundation, however, you still had to obey the rules as you weren't exactly a member of the O5 council and that would also help you from making people think you're sus for being treated so differently. That day was one of the days where your freedom got the better of you as you were on a mission with Mikell and he was about to aim at the target until you pushed him out of the way from danger. He quickly gained his composure and tried to shoot the anomaly behind you which he missed and shot you instead. Mikell was in shock and tried to get the medics, but by the time they arrived, you've already passed. Jack had to check up on his brother regularly to see how he's doing and to make sure he doesn't fall off the edge, reminding him that you wouldn't want to see him this way.

Agent Dmitri Arkadeyevich Strelnikov

As an agent, Strelnikov's life and his closest friends and relatives would be on the line. He wouldn't know when, where or how he would die and is in constant fear of losing everyone around him, especially you. One time, he took you on a mission with him since you were trained under him and he felt that you were ready to go onto your first-ever mission (well too bad, it's your last mission since y'all just suck at your jobs and this poor man has to drag you up from hell and y'all just fall back in) and so you guys went and attempted to gain information and track down some SCPs. Dmitri had to save you a few times since you didn't heed his advice and looked behind your back and that one time he left you on your own, you were murdered by a ruthless group from one of the GOIs. This, of course, deeply saddened agent Strelnikov as he was washed away by the guilt he had from leaving you to stand by your own 2 feet. You were a bright and gentle person who always looked up to him, always eager to learn and never want to fail him. These traits are what drew you to him and he was hoping to have you on his team permanently, however, that dream was long gone (just like your non-existent brain cells trying to keep your life together so y'all don't do stupid things) as you were snatched away from him in an instant. He wrote the report once he went back to the foundation and locked himself up for so long the doctors had to get him out (like your guardians whenever you don't wake up in the mornings).

Extras:

SCP 073 (Cain)

You and Cain were strolling around site 17 until a containment breach happened. Cain had to drag you by your arm since you froze (like a deer in headlights XD) and didn't react to anything since you were afraid. Luckily you did manage to get your senses back together and ran with him. Not long later, a Keter class SCP came charging at you and in a panic, Cain pushed you aside without a glance which caused another SCP to kill you since you were blocking the way. He looked over to you to see that you were wounded, lifted you up, and found a medic. Cain blamed himself for not looking carefully and had he done that, you wouldn't be dying. By the time the medic and you both arrived, you were already at the brink of death and when 343 finally arrived, you were long gone. 343 had to calm 073 down from trying to seek revenge once again but he can't due to the overwhelming guilt he had on him. 343 managed to ease his mind a bit which caused him to blackout. The researchers had to put him under their watchlist to make sure he doesn't do anything stupid (like you when you're studying for your important exams).

SCP 076 (Abel)

It was a normal day for you and Abel to hang around until this one mf guard angered Abel to which caused a containment breach. He went on a rampage (you do be here like Hercules! Hercules! XD) in which you had to try and calm him down. By the time you went to the main part of the facility, you saw many of the D-classes and researchers beheaded (like the previous queens in- never mind). When you had found Abel attempting to slaughter a guy, you jumped in front of the victim and by the time Abel realised that you were there, his sword cut you open in half (KO! 10 points to Gryffindor). He was overwhelmed with guilt and anxiety about him killing you by accident and returned to his box as demanded by the MTF members. The scientists noticed a change in Abel's behaviour and never questioned it. Those who knew what had happened never mentioned it in fear of another breach and left him be.

SCP 999 (Tickle Monster)

It was an ideal Saturday night at the foundation. You and our adorable 999 was wandering around the facility minding your own business until some madman came charging into the foundation. The alarm for the breach went on and everyone was confused since there weren't any dangerous SCPs on the loose. As it turns out, it was an intruder from one of the other GOIs trying to kidnap some of the SCPs. You and 999 just so happened to be in the exact same spot as the intruder and was holding a weapon of some sort. Realising what's happening, 999 pushed you out of the way just as the intruder fired her weapon which missed you both. One of the agents caught up with both of you and tried to shoot the intruder but ended up shooting you just as you got up which killed you. 999 never greeted any visitors in his cell ever again for quite some time and the researchers attempted to bribe him but failed.

SCP 682 (Hard to Destroy Reptile)

You were requested to take part in a test with 682 and another Keter class SCP in a test room and your job was to make sure 682 weren't allowed to lash out at the researchers because of this test. However, this certain Keter class SCP has decided that it wants to attack you in which 682 shoved you aside to protect you. The researchers ran in to save you but the other SCP managed to pounce on you and suffocated you to the brink of death. 682 was about to take a chonki bite out of that SCP but instead, he bit you instead, killing you instantly. He regretted every decision he has ever made and never attacked the foundation staff for months.

SCP 049 (Plague Doctor)

This doctor was just minding his own business until some dumbass researchers rushed into his room like some fanboys trying to get their noona's signatures. 049 was entertained by this remark but was soon agitated as they disturbed his work and wouldn't leave him alone. So, 049 used his lethal touch on some of the researchers as the rest ran. Luckily, they ran into you, so you managed to calm down the angri bird doctor. Unfortunately, that didn't go as planned as he had mistaken you as one of the other fanboys and stabbed you right into your heart. As soon as he had realised what he's done, he rushed you into his cell and performed surgery on you. Mid-surgery, he soon realised that you were losing too much blood and died right then and there. He mourned for quite some time as the other researchers were severely punished as it had led to your death which could've been avoided.

SCP 035 (Possessive Mask)

Like the other SCPs mentioned in the list, there was a test that resulted in your death. 035 was instructed to change to another human as the black goo was secreted from the mask and so he obeyed as you were slouching by the corner of the test room. Except for this time, it is being worn by a taller and more muscular man who was a wanted man due to his former job as a mercenary. As the researchers watched intently, the mask soon felt slightly overpowered but was resolved quickly due to his evergrowing abilities and experience in possessing those who come near it or is wearing the mask. The mask spoke of the discomfort of being overpowered to which the researchers took note of this statement and watched. You were somewhat concerned to you went closer to your beloved partner to check up on him. However, upon coming closer to 035, he switched his usual persona to the man wearing it, becoming more aggressive and unable to control this body, killing the first person he sees, which was you. This stunned the researchers as the guards tried to pry him off you. When they managed to get him off, you were no longer breathing. In the next interview with 035, he displayed extreme guilt and sadness of his inability to possess the man well enough to control him fully and made a request for him to be left alone for a while.

SCP 096 (Shy Guy)

You both met up during the breach a few steps away from 096's cell. He was wandering around to find you while covering his elongated face. All the other researchers were outside trying their best to stay calm and deal with this massive breach until they just saw 096 walking about looking for someone. It instantly clicked in their mind and offered to look for you as long as he goes back to his cell afterwards to which he agreed. Upon finding you, another SCP was attempting to attack you but was soon neutralised by the other MTFs. 096 managed to push you away beforehand but his throw was so strong that you died on the impact when you fell to the ground (you really did get yeeted lmao). As 096 and the others ran towards you to make sure you were ok, you had stopped breathing and 096 screamed in sadness which flooded the whole field. As he was contained back to his cell, they noticed a small detail about 096 which was him wailing every now and again about your death.

SCP 105 (Iris)

You and Iris were just strolling down site 17 to meet with Cain and Dr James Dantensen. Once you've arrived at the agreed location within site 17, you guys were just catching up with old times and sharing your memories and stories about your everyday lives. However, this jolly moment only lasted for so long as someone had breached the containment to target you as you were close to a lot of the SCPs, especially the humanoid ones. As you, along with the others, ran to safety, the enemy caught up with you and threatened you for your knowledge of the SCPs. Iris finally caught up with you just in time to see the commotion and shoved you out of the way. Cain managed to shield you from another guy who attempted to shoot you in which Iris retaliates by throwing a knife back, but instead, injured you instead. She ran over and screamed as you slowly blacked out. Cain had to carry you over as Dantensen was calling the medics and you barely managed to survive. During your days in the hospital, the suspect managed to suffocate you which alarmed everyone. During the days that followed, Iris had been seeking out revenge as Cain tried to make her stay calm and think more rationally.

SCP 106 (Old Man)

It was another day spending some time in 106's pocket dimension as you relaxed with him. You both talked about your past experiences and the obstacles you both had overcome. Once you both were done relaxing (aka never you lazy catto so get up and do something useful for once cuz I don't wanna see yall get screamed at by your family and non-existent friends (jk jk i hope they're treating you well)), 106 took you back to his containment cell and just sat there as the researchers looked at you both blankly. 096 caused a containment breach which, of course, freed you both from 106's cell and you made a run for it (RUN FOREST RUN!). As you and 096 came into contact, 106 tried to put himself between the both of you, knowing what 096 was capable of. Unfortunately, this resulted in 106 being attacked and you died from looking at his face (wear a damn mask 096, you're in the middle of a pandemic). Saddened by the news, 106 seek revenge but was briefly neutralised and shipped to another facility so it wouldn't cause another breach due to his rage.

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