#myrant

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I love ii but it WILL be the death of me. I keep thinking about how Baseball's storyline is just so damn tragic, and nobody notices. "Always strikes out", And he 𝘩𝘢𝘴 his whole life (his whole time on the show).

Not rejoining, even when he earned it (Paper most likely had the sympathy of fans due to Paper having been there the longest, but Baseball had also been there almost just as long, and- 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴. He 𝗱𝗶𝗱𝗻'𝘁 threaten to kill anyone upon his release! /sarc)

having a constant stream of ridicule from the other contestants regarding his weight lasting S1 AND the start of S2. Why do they even CARE about his weight brah. Ohhh, that's right! Meshart4 fated him to never get what he wants, like people 𝘯𝘰𝘵 seeing him for only his weight. Womp womp, I guess. Wow Mephone, projecting, much? (Also [in my opinion] weight seems VERY irrelevant for objects to care about, due to how most things that could change the appearance of a human [such as; diet, physical strength, hygiene.] Don't really change an object's appearance.) ((Also also being criticized for his armless-.. ness(?) Ouch.))

As much as being a team leader seems like it would be a 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥 thing, with the team he had, it was like being a single mom of 10. Having to mediate all of the drama in his team whilst leading it in the first place put so much pressure on him, not to mention having the weight of his friend's problems weighing on him making things harder to deal with. The reason he and Nickel had that lil tussle back in s2e10, was BECAUSE Baseball had so many bad things happening to him. He just wanted that little reassurance that even with all the crap happening, he was an at least half-decent leader, and all he got was his best friend making a joke about it, and downplaying Baseball's very real feelings. He tried to save it, but just that first comment I feel definitely affected Baseball in a negative way.

//(Lil detour time, I wanna talk about how Nickel affected Baseball in GENERAL [for the better AND the worse.], Baseball clearly views Nickel as his best friend, even after everything they've gone through in season 2, but I don't think that's necessarily a good thing. I think it shows that Baseball was too scared to try and make new friends in the game, as to not accidentally make an enemy. I feel this is because Baseball was slowly realizing that most things he tried to do wouldn't go his way, so he'd cling on to Nickel as his only friend, hoping not to lose him, feeling lucky to have him at all (and Nickel would know all about luck/jjjjjjj). This lead to Baseball disregarding some of Nickel's actions towards himself and Suitcase as to preserve his relationship with Nickel. Though, I do feel that the bond they had was real. It started in season 1, where there was less drama built up over time(ex; Tophy and Knife in s2e1 planting the seed for their inevitable rivalry, vs Taco randomly being that bitch and that hoe. /silly), so Baseball most likely wasn't thinking about "preserving his friendship" with Nickel, but rather being friends with him in general. This gave them that time to have genuine interactions that build up the trust between the two. This is why Baseball played along with whatever Nickel did, 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘩𝘪𝘮. That friendship was real, and Nickel was taking advantage of Baseball without even realizing it. I doubt his did this consciously due to his s3 arc, and how he was programmed that way. Nta. /silly. Nickel getting eliminated was a real roadblock for Baseball because (as aforementioned) Nickel was Baseball's only real friend in the game at this point, and Baseball still had that very real connection with him. This is why I feel he was so awkward in s2e14, as he was trying to have that confidence that Nickel had, and he never did. As much as that's really good for him- like, yay! You go girl!! It's inadvertently horrible for him specifically, because he is hardwired to have all of his efforts for naught. It took Baseball all of s2e15 talking to Suitcase to realize all of Nickel's wrongs, and how ignoring them put him in the wrong too. Once he finally realized that, it seemed like Baseball was really coming into his own! Working out his own issues bit by bit.

WRONG!!🤑👅💜 s2e16. We got only one Baseball and Nickel interaction, but it was enough to change Baseball for the rest of the life he had left. Watching Nickel die/get X'd was like s2e13's elimination put to an extreme. It's clear that - even thought he was working out his issues - Baseball still had that strong attachment to Nickel. People respond to grief in many ways, but when things get too much for one person, they can simply go numb. Baseball was in a very sensitive mental state, and this really hit him where it hurts most. His best friend. He went numb, not telling anyone what he saw. Even in Baseball's last moments, he tried to take that leader-like stance, and help everyone but himself, just as Nickel told him he could.) // lil detour over (I say lil as if this wasn't long as HELL💜)

Though I did connect back to the main claim occasionally, Nickel was a very important part of Baseball's character development that matters to this conversation imo.

Getting out in s2e15 was also (possibly) a place where Baseball's programming played a part (alternatively, he got out because Suitcase had too many negative experiences with Baseball, and thought that her deep emotional views of him would impair her gameplay in the finale.) "Always strikes out", even with the people he thought were friends. Even with the person he thought was his friend. Even with Suitcase. I feel the reason Baseball had the response he did, was him coming to terms with things just not going his way, which sets him up in that sensitive mental state in s2e16. He seemed to have come to terms with Suitcase choosing Knife, and didn't want to procrastinate on the obvious, that he was just never enough. Not enough for Suitcase, not enough for his team, not enough to win the game.

He just wasn't the guy who could do it. And he knew he never would be.

He always strikes out.

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Rurik Liderc and the stereotype of the broken (but sexy) anti-hero

(and how it makes him worse as a character)

Heyy, I'm back, kind of! This is my first actual rant, so I'm sorry if it's a bit boring or confusing. Feel free to ask me anything! This is just something that I've always had looming in the back of my mind, and I really want to talk about it. 

In October 2005, Pop Punk band Green Day released their seventh studio album, American Idiot. It follows the life of the central character, Jesus Of Suburbia, a middle-lower-class all-American teen who hates his town and pretty much everything. He's pretentious, a rebel, angsty; a faithless, working-class man who hates the system he's placed in, screaming for the rebels living in post-2000s America. It comes as no surprise, then, that @angeutblogo's Lasser would inspire her iconic character, Rurik Lidérc, off the song that describes this main character.

As the years went by, Rurik gained more and more traits, hobbies, a story, friends, and of course, multiple lovers. As it is today, you could call him a multifaceted character- I'm here to say that this perhaps might've been his downfall, too. As it stands, Rurik is a badly constructed character, where new information contradicts old information and traits that are not in line with the logic set upon him initially are imposed. It seems that the creators try and stuff him to the brim with different exciting ideas, but ultimately end up getting a messy clump of characteristics that results in many users having to redefine him with headcannons and rereadings, myself included, because he ends up being so confusing.

First, Rurik being a US Army veteran is one of the biggest pillars in his personality. Although not a lot of information is revealed about that part of his life specifically and the effects it had on him, we can deduce that it greatly affected him in more than one way, changing him fundamentally; PTSD. A prime example is that Lasser has stated that he has an aversion to loud noises, such as fireworks and thunder, but then proceeds to state that it only makes him have a minimal response of being "more alert". How can he be fundamentally changed as a person due to trauma and still only suffer minor damage? Are the creators afraid of making a character that's fully and realistically traumatized by war because it would compromise his appealing "sexy bad boy" nature? But then, that very nature is driven forward by the very fact that he's traumatized, that he's "angsty". It just confuses me how posts speaking of his trauma are immediately followed by posts describing his kinks and hypersexuality, and descriptions of his mental state are switched out for retellings of future events where "everything is all right finally", not bothering to make him go through the process of recovery, and research of trauma responses or toxic relationships is traded for discussions of what motorbike he has. It almost seems like the creators want him to be many different things that cancel each other out.

Thus, this contradiction leads us to the next point: Dante and Rurik have an open relationship, despite Rurik being shown to be possessive and emotionally immature. Rurik is, in simple terms, a manchild at times, stalking Dante when he feels like it, being insecure, and being sad by small things Dante says, in addition to threatening his exes. Those are toxic, insecure behaviours, of course, but it gets brushed off as "oh, but it ends in them sexually punishing each other" (going into how their relationship is sexualized, but that's a topic for another day), which in itself is contradicting because it's written to be a healthy relationship that's good for the both of them. And yet, we get bombarded with recounts of Dante being toxic to Rurik and vice-versa. He's also said to get extremely uncomfortable when Dante flirts with other women because he "can't compare", so how on earth could they have an open relationship without constant interventions and fights?

I believe that, if Rurik is insecure, it would naturally cause him to believe that Dante is replacing him if he flirted with another person. This is because he has a fragile ego, and people like him tend to fall into that insecurity (speaking out of experience and my interest in human psychology), and it would lead to constant fights, doubts, manipulation, and overall a bona fide toxic couple. Perhaps even worse than Lurik, as Dante is constantly described as psychopathic and manipulative, even to Rurik himself. They're shown to kind of fix everything with sex and "punishments", downplaying the other's insecurities and genuine feelings and promoting unhealthy dynamics. Rurik is not written to be someone who could have an open relationship that would be fair to himself and Dante, and yet, they push on, because of course they do; they are entirely centred around having sex, after all.

So, where am I going with all this? In all the glamourized media that we see, there's a strong tendency to try and make perfect characters. Rurik Lidérc is broken, angsty, insecure, and repressed, but that doesn't get in his way at all! All he wants is sex, drugs, and rock and roll. He reminds me of James Hurley from Twin Peaks: his conflict can be so well-explored, his trauma could be so fleshed out and the effects of trauma on the human mind could have given us a beautiful story of redemption, of growth, of understanding. But God, he just keeps making out with Donna all the damn time, and the camera always focuses on him like he's in a Playboy magazine. The realism, the beauty, the relatability- it's all sacrificed for middle schoolers to ogle at him and go "Wow, he's so misunderstood! I could fix him!". But that comes at the cost of a character that has the full potential to be truly amazing, as I've seen with my friends in the fandom.

When you look at Rurik Lidérc, he comes across as well-researched because he's traumatized, but it doesn't take long before you realize that that's quite a far-fetched idea. It seems like he's just a list of ideas and randomness that no one bothers to organize, and that deeply saddens me because I've seen the interesting directions he could be taken in, and I just wish the love and care put into this character also shined through through the creators.

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Hi hello i'm joining the rant box🧇

Lurik is everything it shouldn't be (and I can't get over it)

If you see this post you most likely know who Lotus and Rurik are. Those two guys that were so messed up that noone's surprised they're from ut au fandom? Yeaaah. They ARE messed up but not in the way some people think they are.

Rurik got treated so badly that most of the fandom still thinks he's a soulless psychopath who ties Lotus to a tree and throws knives at him (I guess it's too late to get rid of this trope now oh well) or a cheater that never cared about Lotus or even got with Dante (who's also a victim of misscharacterisation by the way) just out of spite, which isn't true. On the side note, people don't even know Rurik's surname is Liderc not Roller now 🤕

And then there's Lotus who got turned into a character so bland that when I see fanarts it's just him being angry or mistreated by Rurik, as if being a vicitim was his whole personality.

But lately I've been thinking how that relationship which Rurik and Lotus have, could serve as something more than just a pile of nonsense that accumulated since 2016/17

•Why was Lotus even in a relationship with Rurik when they didn't fit with eachother at all?

How about we start seeing it as a trope that doesn't get used much. They met when they were kids, right? If you know enough about Rurik you'll know he had a tough life where his father mistreated him, mom left him, he got into gangs, there was no way for him to develop a healthy way of balancing his feelings, especially those centered around love and affection, and he has attachment issues.

And Lotus had only Reaper (which I imagine doesn't know much about raising a child since he wasn't one and barely had contact with kids) while Geno made sure he let him know he was a mistake and didn't show him he cared at all, so he didn't get taught what it's like to get even basic form of love.

I think that when Lotus showed Rurik even tiny bit of affection (giving him food when they first met) which Rurik didn't normally get much, it might have sparkled some feelings in him. Lotus on the other hand had nothing better to do, so he started following him out of curiosity and boredom, but since Rurik also showed him affection Lotus never had (remember Nekophy's ask where she says Rurik told Lotus his first ever compliment?) Lotus got attached, too.

You get what I mean? Two hurt kids found people who are broken as well and found comfort in eachother. And it gets addicting.

So they weren't a good pair, but were together because they tried to find comfort, at least in my interpretation. It wasn't some psychological horror where Lotus got stockholm syndrome after Rurik kidnapped him, come on. And they didn't break up because of jealousy or whatever, Dante had nothing to do with it-Rurik just happened to finally find a person who gets him and matches his needs (which Lotus couldn't do no matter how hard he would try), Rurik just decided to move on from yearning and Lotus allowed him, because he cared for him and wanted him to be happy, with or without him. Besides, Lotus himself didn't see himself as a "partner" for Rurik, just as a "sidekick" as it was mentioned in some post from creator.

•And why Lotus couldn't match his needs, exactly?

Rurik has a disorder and issues which he shouldn't be blamed for by the way, but it didn't work well with Lotus' unability to express his emotions and own needs, it might have overwhelmed both of them. It might have been another cause for why they broke up, and why they argued all the time. So, while at the start Lurik might have been a sweet puppy love, with a sprinkle of getting into trouble, it turned into a mess really quick (I made a fanfic tackling this topic a bit by the way but it was quite a while ago)

I'm a bit tired of seeing people who don't know what they're even doing with them and don't know what they're using in their media. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE seeing people make au's and expressing their own ideas, but it's a bummer when someone refuses to aknowledge basic info about the characters especially while talking about them with others who do care about the canon, as if using the information from creator was a sin

I will expand on the topic if necessary, but here you have a taste of it 😇

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Spn is funny because they had heroes who claimed higher ground solely because they were human

most "bad guys" turned into good becuse the obejctive was saving Winchesters and as long as someone was useful to them or contributed to their benifit that character was "good"

I am not denying that sam and dean were heroes or that they didn't do anything good. but the Winchesters were not exceptionally Good and noble.

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Literacy challenge! Are these depicted characters fat?

The answer is Yes! and if you have a problem with people drawing that Congratulations! You're an asshole!

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ACFTL was disappointing

Okay so it is currently 1:41 AM and I have finished reading A Curse for True Love and I have been let down and just wanted to get my thoughts out

Jacks characterization was the biggest down fall; The book is basically about Evangeline pinning for Jack but I wished it was the other way around; Jacks finds out Evangeline lost her memories and avoids him because she believes he is dangerous and he gets pissed off and desperately tries to get her back. I think this change in story telling would have allowed so much character growth for Jacks considering the fact he is so cold and calculating and having him grow desperate to have Evangeline by his side shows how much she had affected him and also showcase his humanity/vulnerability in his desperation to have her by his side as opposed to being cold and indifferent which leads me to the next point

JACKS BEING AN ASSHOLE-Literally every Evakjacks scene starts like this Jacks says a sassy/asshole dialogue>save Evangeline>Evangeline swoons>Jacks goes back to being an asshole again. Now I get Jacks often puts out a cold front because he doesn't want to be too close to Evangeline and hurt her. But we are three books in and it is established that Jacks loves her. So I don't understand the unnecessary rudeness like ie coming in the middle of the night tossing clothes at her face as she is waking up and almost knocking her off the bridge (yes I am well aware he was never going to let Evangeline fall) but dang does he have to be rude all the time???? I wanted Evangeline to tell him off, all she needed to say was something like "Jacks stop being such a jerk and wasting my time " and he would have stopped. But no. Evangeline is constantly talking about how angelic his face is and how blonde his hair is. Jacks treat your girl better pls????

Evangeline and damsel in distress x 1000000 -damn my girl cannot catch a break literally everyone is trying to kill her. Now I am a firm believer that strong female characters don't have to be physical fighters and I am ok with Eva not being a fighter. However, I wish she would have gotten herself out of danger at times maybe just by using her wits or having a strategy? I got tired of seeing Jacks saving her. Yes he did teach her self defense but not much came out of that?

SO MANY MISSING PLOT POINTS- The bite of on Evangeline's wrist-does she owe Jacks a debt anymore? Luc? What about Evangeline's parents, what about her family's shop-does she not want to go back to Valenda?? Probably more I cannot think of right now.

Evangeline is not the first fox? Major disappointment in that. The first two books heavily implied that Evangeline was the first fox and there were so many hints regarding that ie Chaos telling Evangeline she looked like the first fox in TBONA and Jacks having volumes of the archer and the fox in his office (clearly he is not over the fox girl either) Also the fact he is over Donatella just like that?? Didn't she cause him so much heartbreak? Atleast having them talk it out would have helped to bring closure. Also are we never going to figure out who the first fox girl was? If not Evangeline? IDK it takes away the true love/soul mates aspect that drawn me to Evajacks in the first place imo

TOO MUCH APOLLO. I don't know why we got so many chapters of him, I rather had more chapters of Jacks and EvaJacks moments. Especially when it was established that he is the antagonist so I do not know why he was a main character when it really showed have been more about Evangeline and Jacks

No evajacks wedding-I am super bitter that we don't get to see Jacks and Evangeline having their wedding like in her dream

Overall, I think TBONA was 100/10, definitely the best book in the series. I still love this series to death and I am grateful for Stephanie for sharing her story with us. I just feel so underwhelmed from the ending, it sooo could have been better. I think the biggest problem is that the story was too complicated. Stephanie should have kept it straightforward>Evangeline is the reincarnation of Jack's true love and the first fox, Apollo is the bad guy, Jacks fights to be with Evangeline, they win and get married. Not everything has to be sophisticated. It’s okay if stories are predicatable, they just need to be good.

3.5/5

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Rant topic: student council inauguration

AITA for getting mad that I wasn't given the position of treasurer at the student council?

A little back story, I was a candidate for student council president a few weeks ago, and I didn't win. The teacher (the teacher that helps manage the student council) PROMISED US that "even if you don't win, you will still be given a position in the student council and you will be prioritized to getting the position you want."

A few weeks passed and the interview for the positions in the students council is happening. I really wanted the position of treasurer which is considered one of the "main positions" in the student council.

The interviewers asked "if you don't get the treasurer position what other position would you like?" And I replied with "a position in the leadership division" as my second option.

I already had experience as the treasurer a year before this. So honestly saying I was very confident that I was going to get that position cause like the teacher said.. I was going to be prioritized to get the part.

A few days passed, the inauguration for the student council happened. I was shocked to hear that I didn't get the position for treasurer but instead a girl who has NO experience as treasurer whatsoever did.

It was even more shocking when I was given a position that I never said I wanted. I was given a position in the interest and talent division. That division does a lot of MC/master of ceremonies for events and Imo I'm not really fit for that role cause I'm not that good at talking.

It was even more disappointing to see that all the main positions in the student council were given to people who didn't candidate themselves even though the teacher said that they will be prioritized.

I soon found out that I was originally given the position of treasurer by the student council president and vice president, but the teacher has the final say on the positions. The teacher starts picking people to be in the student council who doesn't even want to be in the student council. The people that the teacher picked to be in the student council didn't even go to the interview yet they still got in.

After the inauguration, the students who didn't want to be in the student council but got picked started complaining on how unfair it was. Because there's a lot of people who wants to be in the student council but the teacher picked the ones that didn't even attend the interview.

Not only that, the division that they got doesn't even fit the students at all. Like for example division for discipline the student that got picked to be in that division are not disciplined at all. They come late they forget to do their school work and they break the rules.. Even the students themselves who got picked to be in that division agree that they are not disciplined.

SOOO AITA??

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I am so mad at Harold and George in the captain underpants movie

like I’m sorry but I am so p!ssed at these little bastards

[kourota]

one thing i wish people understood more is the fact that drawing, or any process of creating art for the matter, isn't a test. there are no standards. there is no right or wrong, good or bad. art is just a form of expression. a visual language, if you must. to say that you should only draw/sculpt/etc if you're skilled at it would be the same as telling people they should only talk if they're skilled at it.

sure, there are 'good' speakers. people who have a way of saying things that draws you in, that attracts you, that makes you feel things. but that doesn't mean that they're the only ones who are allowed to speak, right? everybody talks. everybody expresses themselves, one way or another, no matter how fluent they are or how well they do it.

art is the same thing. people create in order to communicate—either with the world or themselves. so to say that only the art that is 'good' (read: appealing to a significant chunk of society) deserves to be called art, and that everything else is worthless, is, in my honest opinion, real fucking dumb. stop being so harsh with beginner artists, or literally anyone less skilled than others.

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Okay so does tumblr just straight up not remember previously used tags anymore at all or is that a problem on my end?

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Fans: Oh no idol life is so lonely, I wish my fave idols had people they could rely on

Also Fans: He's in a happy relationship? Gotta cancel him, how dare he

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DUDE PLEASE TELL ME OTHERS THINK THIS IS CONECTEDDDD (This is my discord messages lawl 😭)

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Goth suffers from canon info deficiency (and it might be worse than you think)

Remember Goth's origin story? 

Reaper met Geno, they... Did stuff, Goth appeared with them in the bed. Goth went on to live with Reaper in the Reapertale au and Goth only met Geno when he was a bit older due to Geno leaving so Goth wouldn't have to live in the depressing save screen, as Nekophy said.

Except it was all a lie, and Geno just left for ketchup🍅.

Wait what? Goth's only scraps of lore are not real? I really need someone to clear this up, because if it won't be cleared up...

Well. In the original Aftertale, before Geno met Sans, he was pretty unstable, plus he got manipulated by Gaster. He didn't know he could leave just by restoring his HP with a pie, how would he know if he hadn't figured things out with the help of Sans and Papyrus yet? So unless Reaper found Geno BEFORE he escaped, there was no way for Goth's story to make sense. Because that was the only way for Geno to still be stuck, without a possibility to care for Goth and with a need to stay in the Save Screen.

But the problem is. Even if it were the case, it would make Reaper's relationship with Geno impossible since he was more focused on erasing his universe ... Better yet, it would mean either the timeline went on and Geno could escape with help from Papyrus or Sans eventually, so Goth could get his father back, OR Geno got stuck in the save screen forever. It gets complicated, doesn't it?

To avoid this, Reaper would have to meet Geno AFTER he escaped. It would have to involve a bit of good old "got into the universe by accident" or some "alternative universe" shenanigans for them to meet instead of them being brough together by Reaper wanting to take his soul, but at least Goth could have his father back (although they would have to be careful not to turn Geno into dust in other ways, so Reaper and Geno would have to go into a time-stopping place to even TOUCH each other).

So. Did Geno just CHOOSE to stay in the save screen? Dumping all of the child-raising responsibilities on guys from Reapertale? Did he leave for ketchup? I'm sorry that you have such a bad father Goth 😔

Anyway. It means that if this is true, we don't really have much canon lore for Goth, except the fact that he likes butterflies, reading, and is a sarcastic goofball. Which makes me sad, because besides the Goth origin there wasn't much to learn about him

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Ive had such an appetite and I finally realized it’s because I’m horny

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These two posts having an "I hate fat headcanons" competition

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Crazy how I was just thinking about this…all the worst pain you will ever know will happen while you’re alive. To draw breath is to risk pain. We’re afraid of not death, but the pain we foresee at the very end of our lives.

Essentially, you’re not afraid of death but just the last few seconds of your life. It’s the last place you’ll feel pain.

John Keats, On death, Composed 1814.