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Idc abt being tmi but I think I just have irregular periods now
#naegi.txt#totally fine with me bc i get to ignore it#bc it makes my gender dysphoria and general self confidence shoot way down low#like oh right im Born Like This
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Unpleasant Revelations - DPxDC Ficlet Idea for the Stillborn Au
"Have you met my youngest, Damian, Mr. Masters?"
Its only from twenty years of long, hard experience and practice that Vlad doesn't increase the room temperature from 'borderline uncomfortably cool' to 'unbearably hot' the moment Bruce Wayne pulls his youngest and "only" biological son out in front of him.
He puts only in quotations because twelve year old Damian Wayne looks scarily, uncannily like one Daniel Brown. Jack and Maddie's foster son, second victim of their foolishness, and only other halfa in existence. Second only to him.
It's nauseating how similar they look. From the scowl and terrible glare on the young boy's face, to his brown skin -- which was only a few shades lighter than Daniel's, the shape of his nose, and even the strange winged edge of his eyebrow. Something that Vlad has long since come to find endearing on the child he considered a son of his own. The only difference was that Damian had dark, sharp green eyes.
Daniel's eyes were blue. The same glacier shade as his father's, who stood behind Damian with a proud, oafish smile on his visage.
It was infuriating how similar they look. Vlad might not have rapidly swung the room temperature from one extreme to the other, but he can't stop himself from letting the fury burning within his core from slipping out and raising the temperature up a few degrees.
Because it really only meant one thing.
Damian Wayne and Daniel Brown were related.
Damian Wayne and Daniel Brown were brothers.
Standing in front of him, it was clear as day. He can already picture a phantom image of Daniel standing beside Damian, the same scowl written on his face, the same glare carved into his eyes. The only difference being the dark, exhausted circles beneath them that seemed to be permanently painted onto his skin. The only thing missing being the permanent loneliness and vigilance permeating his being like a scar.
This, if revealed, would be enough to ruin Bruce Wayne's reputation. Or, at the very least, darken it quite a bit. The great philanthropist Bruce Wayne with another secret blood child? One related to his youngest? One that had been put into foster care? Seemingly thrown away?
It would be a firestorm.
One that Vlad is not keen on starting.
It would ruin Bruce Wayne's reputation, yes. But it would hurt Daniel in the process -- the harassment he would face alone might just be enough to break that fragile child completely. That was just not something he could allow. Or, even worse, bring him into his biological father's care and custody -- something Vlad was even less willing to allow.
It's not out of kindness to Wayne that Vlad will keep mum about this.
His grip on his champagne flute tightens, just a bit. He's still aware enough of the world around him to not let it shatter in his hands. His plastered, pleasant smile tightens around the corners, and he forces his focus to slide from Damian to Wayne.
"The resemblance is uncanny, Mister Wayne." He says, slanting his smile to the side slyly. Although he's not talking about the resemblance between Wayne and his son. Rage simmers beneath his skin, burning coal and embers in the core of his chest, nestled between his lungs, as he meets the man's eyes.
Wayne swaggles his head proudly, his ditzy smile widening as he squeezes his son's shoulder affectionately. Bastard, Vlad wants to spit.
He breathes in through his nose, and exhales out through his mouth. The champagne in his hand cools, and stops its unusual bubbling.
The Damian boy scoffs under his breath, his mouth still coiled upward into a scowl. With the revelation of his blood relation to Daniel evident, Vlad's not sure if he should find it endearing or not.
He is not Daniel, so he decides that it's just simply irritating. He decides to ignore it.
"And you said he was your only biological son?" He asks, voice lilting and head tilting. He knows its a suspicious question at worst, insulting at best. But considering Wayne's past proclivities, he can hardly call it an unexpected question.
Damian puffs in great offense, face twisting angrily. It reminds him of Daniel when Vlad insisted that he was wrong about something or other, and for a moment his heart swells, fond.
But this is not his child, and so the feeling quickly crashes and burns, simmering back into rage. This was not Daniel -- this was his replacement. A replacement that Wayne was free to keep.
Wayne chuckles, idiotically, as if he'd said some funny joke. Vlad's other hand, the one gripping his cane -- something he's required ever since he was dispatched from the hospital all those lonely years ago -- tightens instead. He grinds his teeth -- him and Jack Fenton would get along like a house on fire, he hates it.
"I can understand why you'd ask that, Mister Masters," Wayne says, squeezing Damian's shoulder again, "but yes, Damian is my only biological son. Although that doesn't mean I don't love my other children any less."
Bastard.
For all his posturing and flouncing about caring for his city and his children, Vlad never would have thought the Prince of Gotham capable of abandoning one of them.
But, well.
They all have their dark secrets.
And what one man throws away, another man picks up. If Bruce Wayne didn't want the treasure child that was Daniel Brown, then Vlad Masters was more than happy to take him instead.
"I see."
#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dp x dc#dpxdc crossover#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc au#danyal al ghul au#dpxdc ficlet#dpxdc fanfic#i was hit with this idea two hours ago and was hit with the intrinsic need to write it down#parental vlad masters#protective vlad masters#vlad is currently going 'OH? OH YOU ABANDON AND REPLACE **MY** SON??? MURDER. DEATH. BEES UPON YOUR FAMILY'#but he's also still like. evil. much less of a creep! but evil. so he comes off a bit possessive. which was intentional.#vlad's reaction is kinda valid if it was accurate and bruce DID willingly and knowingly abandon danny. except he didn't. he has no idea#danny is even alive. vlad doesn't know that tho. we all love a good reasonable misunderstanding :]#hc that vlad needs a cane as a human because the ecto-acne that killed him fucked his nerves up a bit as a result and now he's got a bad le#and is also immunocompromised. which had a slight hand in his 20 year isolation thing.#stillborn? no still born au#stillborn danny au#stillborn danny#vlad masters#this may or may not be canon to the au im still thinking about it#vlad acknowledges that danny is formiddable but he's also not wrong that a media shitstorm like that would hurt him considerably.#diamonds are the toughest known material to man and yet it still shatters like glass when put under pressure. vlad's right he's fragile#ummm anyways yeah Vlad finds out first and promptly decides to go 'oh okay so fuck you personally actually. keep your replacement child'#he has No Plans on telling Danny what he learned mostly for the obvious selfish reasons and also bc yeah. this is gonna hurt danny#ITS NOT FUN IF IT ISNT A LITTLE TOXIIIIC#i absolutely know that vlad only swears in deserts which is why its important that i have him call bruce wayne a bastard directly.
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never go into the notes of a post that asks people to consider why they hate specific animals so much. anyways if you think a specific animal should go extinct I will explode you 😁👍👍👍👍👍
#pig originals#IM SO TIRED OF THE 'oh i totally agree with this BUT'#ENOUGH!!! ENOUGH!!! DONT YOU HAVE ENOUGH HATRED IN YOUR HEART...#'kill them' 'we don't Need them in the environment' 'they are unnecessary' You Annoy Me And I Do Not Like You.#stop... i dont get it what makes people think we have the right to kill so many animals#why are people so gleefully discussing the nonexistence of certain bugs. you can be afraid of them whatever idgaf but LORD#stop suggesting specific insects need to die i will actually GET you!!!!!! STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#you dont even gaf about the environment you dont do your research on trophic levels and you dont do your research on#how important every animal is. and how much of a loss each extinction is.#AND REGARDLESS OF THAT WHY SHOULD YOU GAF THOSE ARE LIVING BEINGS WHY DO THEY DESERVE LIFE LESS FOR BEING BORN THAT WAY#IM GOING TO KILL SOMEONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#youre just using your discomfort with animals to justify all of them dying? what the fuck man.
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I know we're ignoring canon right now, but can. Can we just talk about Dabi's ending for a second? Because like. What the fuck? This guy's been suffering his entire life. From being abused by his father, to being kidnapped and experimented on while he's in a coma, just to escape and go home to find out his worst fears have come true, his family abandoned him, they never really cared. Then, he spends the next 8 years homeless, where he damages his body so much to the point he's being held together by staples? How painful was his daily life?? No wonder he wanted to die. His life was hell. And now, he spends his last days alive trapped in a fucking fish tank, in excruciating agony (you cannot tell me he isn't in any pain. He has no fucking skin left, along with his other injuries. Not to mention the emotional and psychological trauma once again inflicted on him). He doesn't get to choose whether or not he wants to keep living through this nightmare. He doesn't get to choose whether or not he wants Endeavor to visit him every day. No one asks him his opinion on any of this. They decide for him, and he doesn't have the strength left to protest. He can't move, can't talk, can't do anything. All he can do is sit there, watching on helplessly, with the knowledge that after his death, his family will once again leave him behind and forget all about him. He'll never see the League again, the only people in the world who actually loved him unconditionally and never saw him as a problem or a mistake. He has to die with the knowledge that he failed. His family won't ever truly see him as a person, and he never, not once in his life, got to be happy.
#is this stupid and incoherent? probably. im just so pissed.#the brutality of dabi's narrative is horrifying and uncomfortable#he never had a chance and the narrative blames him for it#even at the end he gets no relief. Only a horrific painful death.#oh well. maybe if he was born with a better quirk his life wouldn't have been an absolute nightmare from the moment he opened his eyes :(#sucks to be him right? anyway lets go look at the heroes smiling again :D#so disgusting that the disabled and mentally ill character ends up like this#while his abuser continues to be celebrated and supported by literally everyone#as a fellow disabled and mentally ill person: bbygrl you deserved so much better#bnha#mha#my hero academia#bnha spoilers#bnha manga spoilers#league of villains#todoroki touya#bnha dabi#bnha critical#bnha rant#anti endeavor
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im being so real when i say that i dont care if it's ooc for damian and bernard to be close in my mind tim takes bear to meet the family and damian doesn't give a shit about bear but bear loves children and is immediately enamoured by damian. to the point where he doesn't care if bruce doesn't like him but he does care if damian so much as frowns in his presence. do you see my vision? i will be the change i want to see in the world
#bear who will defend damian from anything#damian could push sm1 off a building and bear would be like 'thats his right! he's just a little guy tim'#damian from behind bear 'yeah im just a little guy timothy'#bear somehow gets talia's number to ask her for her recipes. he's scared shitless the whole time but dami's smile as he eats dinner makes it#worth it#oh my goddd#bear calling dami 'little prince' cause tim told him that bruce had hooked up with royalty and that's how dami was born#dami when he first hears it: finally a nickname befitting of my status#dc#bernard dowd#tim drake#damian wayne
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I was talking to an idiot and I need validation.
#superman#clark kent#kal el#comics#dc comics#smallville#martha kent#jon kent#ma kent#pa kent#im gonna rant now. this isnt at you its at the dumb fuck who was commenting on my comment on tiktok.#YES! why the fuck wouldn't he be! he was ADOPTED to be adopted you gotta have the right paperwork in order. the person im mad at LITERALLY#SAID Clark was in an orphanage... lets put our thinking caps! if he was in an orphanage Ma and Pa gave him to the state and yk what! i bet#they thought he was an abandoned baby! no one knew he was an alien. if they didnt he would have been in a govt lab! and in a comic i read ma#and pa thought he was a nasa experiment! yk how they put dogs and moneys in orbit? they thought they did that with a baby! so they took him#ok ok ok then the person i was debating said ma and pa were CRIMINALS!!!!! THEY JUST SAID CLARK WAS IN AN ORPHANAGE!#SO MA AND PA FOUND A BABY. TURNED HIM OVER TO THE AUTHORITIES AND AFTER IT WAS PROVEN THAT HE HAD NO FAMILY THEY ADOPTED HIM!#all of that is legal! they made it sound like ma snuck into a house a stole a child! put some respect on the Kents!#and for why we were debating. he had to have been assigned an ID/ss number/citizen ship because he was to the govt an abandoned BABY#they made it sound like Clark was a 20 year old! he was at best a toddler. he didnt need to take a citizenship test or anything cus HE WAS A#BABY! he was just issued citizenship cus to the govt he was an abandoned baby in the usa WHERE EISE WOULD HE HAVE BEEN FROM!#cus i cant stress this enough NO ONE KNEW HE WAS AN ALIEN! (except maybe ma and pa)#the govt gave an abandoned baby in Kansas an us id cus THEY HAD NO REASON TO NOT BELIEVE THAT THE BABY FOUND IN A FEILD IN KANSAS WASN'T#BORN IN THE USA! and with all the paperwork they did on him they gave him us citizen rights like THE RIGHT TO VOTE#there are a million possibilities for why a baby would be abandoned in a feild in Kansas and it would take awhile to aliens#this is what i think the govt thought 'ok baby abandoned in a feild of a local couple. no family to be found. a young mother probably got#pregnant and didn't want to baby so she left it where a couple who couldn't have children could find them. oh look the couple wants to adopt#let them take the baby.' babys being abandoned was so common that safe haven laws were made to give mothers who didnt want their infants a#safe place to drop their kid off (usually a special box at a fire department or hospital)
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Erin, to her crush: You're a dick
Mason, the crush: I won't argue! But to clarify -
#my characters#its so sad that all of erins character development and kindness is on paper and nothing digital to show her growth#she picks on mason for many reasons and she kinda narrows her eyes at him but its more to squint than to glare#because she watches him from a distance when hes off laughing with others#though they are united on peter being worse than mason at least they can agree no matter what peter is worse#but also masons right arm is metal and she thinks its fascinating bc theres so many high tech prosthetics#why is he using the equivalent of a trash can ? is it some weird flex to not needing advanced stuff?#and its just he was from a poor family and was born with one full arm and then a stump#and he lived a lot of his youth with just one arm so once he got a second arm (installed basically) he went cheap#since he only wanted the other arm to get better jobs cause not many people would hire him with one arm#and he never really cared much about her comments because her lil verbal pokes of#so rogers whod you piss off? the mafia? is actually nicer than stuff he heard as a kid without the fake arm#so he tells her the only reason he has a metal limb is because god knew hed be two strong if born with two arms#and shes like uh huh sure thing rogers#and yeeeeah eventually something happens where mason is injured and erin is panicking#and hes acting like its okay to die because hes a dick remember TRYING to make light of it and she gets so sad#and after hes recovering and better he feels guilty making her so sad and hes talking to her#and she says that she doesnt have a lot of friends and she didnt want to lose one of the few people she liked#and hes just oh.......................... ididntthinkthatwouldbeme#so he starts to be super friendly to her and enforcing the crush that she doesnt wanna own up to#and then she does eventually confess and mason is baffled as to since when and shes like day one? and he just#erin you have got to be kidding me you were glaring at me for months#and shes just i have bad eye sight and im shy what did you expect#he isnt super smart or super stupid hes just exceedingly average
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Monster High March Day 3: Toralei Dancing
Idk why, but as I drew this I imagined her dancing to I Am A Poseur by X-Ray Spex. Has that kind of aggressive “I dont give a fuck” and abrasive-on-purpose energy that I think Toralei revels in.
#monster high march#monster high#monster high toralei#toralei stripe#mh toralei#kinda tried balancing her g1 and g3 designs but i think g3 ended up coming across more#debated on giving her the skirt or just having her in pants#but for a piece like this i think the skirt adds some nice movement#makes it more fun#also i think toralei should get stompy combat boots. you cant tell me she wouldnt love them#i honestly had so much fun drawing this tho and i really hope it comes across#oh also one last controversial opinion right at the bottom here#I really don't mind g3 toralei's british accent#I think it suits her! she's got punk-ish influences and that scene was arguably born in britain#along WITH giving her a snobbish 'im better than you' vibe#like i think it's a solid choice that makes both those sides of her character more cohesive#solstrix draws
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Ik Heart literal wise is the actual heart but like what would Mind be? Cos im thinkin it about it an since Heart & Mind are stated to be the halves of the brain, he cant be the brain then?
#or maybe im overthinking that#like im trying to go for literal stuff in some drawings#an like Heart is obvious cos he's the heart like yea#but in the songs Soul mentions many times that they're both the brain [the left brain & right brain]#SO LIKE WHAT IS MIND THEN THE SKULL?? WHAT DO I USE FOR YOU BUDDY???#shaking Mind like im that little girl from finding nemo with the fish bag#WHAT ARE YOU#heart = the heart. soul = the body. mind = ???#maybe like hands??? i would say the voice/throat or smth but be born makes it seem like the two of them are voice/voices?#idk man im too dumb for this#maybe eyes??#i have no idea#“what are you guys?” (oh im the heart) {im the body/self} [idfk man the nose?? an eyeball??? im asking the same question myself]#ig he's just the logic half of the brain#am i stupid? am i missing a lyric or misinterpreting a line?#okay its IS 4am so ya know maybe that's why im like this#idk im dumb#I might delete later cos I feel stupid but I am curious to other ideas/interpretations#chonny jash#chonnys charming chaos compendium#moss post
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Anyways I think if someone with a more ambitious, ambiguous wish somehow turned Asha in I don't think Magnifico would have granted that. I also don't think he would have a wish ceremony ever again since he no longer views them as the people's wishes but his own. He would still require everyone give their wish to him under false promises or face banishment because he would form a dependency on the power of the wishes ultimately becoming a tyrant, absorbing Star and locking up Asha & co for treason before they get a chance to inspire the people of Rosas.
Or maybe their able to go in to hiding for a long time as they hatch a plan to overthorw Magnifico. Maybe Asha would spend this time becoming very skillful in magic to be able to face the king.
Furthermore, I think he would ultimately end up locking away Amaya. I don't think he would be able to bare the thought of her leaving, rejecting his corruption & tyranny, so he would take that chance away from her. Which really upsets me but I think he would. I dont think he'd want to take away the person that loves him the most and despite his narcissism he still loves her. I'd imagine Amaya's hate for him would grow she would still continue to love him deep down perhaps in hopes the person she knew before this would still be inside him. I don't think she would kill him if given the chance.
Also he definitely seeked out Simon knowing he was most likely to cave under the pressure as the only Teen to have given his wish, learning that he was becoming insecure not knowing if he'd ever achieve his goals. It definitely helped that Simon's was to be a knight it was too perfect for him (Magnifico). Like the night Asha that questions his authority, unauthorized magic happens. I would wanna question her friends too lol.
#yeah so these are my 'What if Magnifico won' thoughts. I've been thinking about this for a week.#to expand a bit I think it would be cool for Asha to go into hiding for at least a year to become powerful with magic#i think it would go easier for her because I think she was born with magic in her and I think Magnifico mearly learned magic#oh and also for the record if Asha were to defeat Magnifico eventually and unleashed the wishes Star would still emerge#like im not perm killing Star in this version I love them too much for that. But I think taking away Star at first would be more likely for#Rosas to turn on Asha and not be inspired to question Magnifico. and when he becomes a full blown tyrant they'll realize Asha was right but#its too late. They would feel trapped bc they no longer know their wish and would feel like they wouldnt be good enough to leave the kingdo#mmm a toxic relationship you say. an abuse in power dynamic you say.#anyways I dont have the capacity or the talant or the want really to make this into an actual story but I really like this concept so here#disney#wish 2023#wish movie#wish disney#the teens wish#asha#King Magnifico#Queen Amaya#Star#Kingdom of Rosas#Simon#Bazeema#Safi#Gabo#Dario#Dahlia#disney wish spoilers#wish#oh another idea she teaches her friends magic DARIO DOING MAGIC WOULD GO CRAZY CMON#ok anyways back to the cellar with me#also please no Magnifico Defenders engage. You do your thing and I'll do mine yeah?
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moving far away with no neighbors will fix me. everyone leave me alone and let me control my own living space by force.
#The peoblem is ivee moved 64739385 times in my life and im FUCKING SICK OF IT but IHAVE TO NOW FOR MY SANITY.#Just imagine if i was born 20 years earlier . i would have the right to a house and it would be extremely fucking easy and expected.#instead im rotting away always surroinded by people who disrspect me and constntly disgusted by my surroundings so mcuh that i don't even#want to eat.#im tired kf that feeling. i want my own fridge . i would do anything.#evryone inmylkfe always like oh she doesnt cook. oh she doesnt even realy want to do Anything#I would do and try so many things in my own space and be free from ridicule or judgement#god i just want to be able to start living. with NO ONE elses input.
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totk really is one of those games that make me go "ok thanks for the characters, setting, and general plot, but ill take it from here <3" because the entire historical timeline had so much potential for interesting and nuanced story telling but they just went with the old zelda story formula and YES thats how theyve always done it but botw was such a reset in terms of gameplay that they couldve overhauled how they handle story in totk. but they didnt
#ramblings#all the races swearing fealty to rauru made me so uncomfortable#like yeahhh ganondorf evil or whatever but also. hey. why is the one leader fighting for the independence of his people. the evil villain#am i just not getting something here am i insane#my first thought when i heard about ganondorf returning was 'wow they could turn him into an actual character' AND THEN THEY DIDNT#its been half a year i feel like the honeymoon period is over. totk was kinda mid. im sorry#it was alright but it just. didnt grab me. at all#botw was interesting because it was new but totk made me yearn for the older zelda formula#though tbh. im always yearning for the older zelda formula. i grew up on oot & twilight princess#you hype up ganondorf so much you make him look like THAT (no im still not over this) and then you just. do what weve always done#this happened in twilight princess. it happened in oot. it happened in ww. hell if you count demise it happened in skyward sword#IT HAPPENE.D IN THE FUCKING HYRULD WARRIORS SPINOFF#'oooh noooo the great evil has returned' WEVE BEEN HERE EVERY TIME. DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH POTENTIAL#heres the gerudo having a man born and making him king as is their custom but they spend years in fear that he will be monstrous#here they are after all these iterations of ganondorf afraid to even have kids out of fear that SOMEONE will bring the new great evil#heres a child recently given the throne despite being barely more than a baby always treated with fear by everyone around him#ARE YOU SEEING MY VISION????#the curse is right there. do something with it. oh my god#i KNOW zelda games are just simple heros journeys but pleaseeee i need food#you dont have to make ganondorf nice just. do something with him im so tired of the evil guy caricature#i like guys who are plain evil but i like them more when they have some fucked up motivation beyond taking over the world
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when i was a kid the main thing my parents put on the radio (besides country stations/pop) were like 90s alt/grunge stations (mostly lithium on sirius or a couple of FM stations i cant remember the names of) so now thats one of my favorite types of music but also i feel kind of insane when talking about music stuff bc i kind of just assume that like everyone my age was listening to the same stuff so i get so confused like what do you MEAN you dont know the butthole surfers?? they played them like ALL THE TIME!!
#buzzy#tbf they only played the One butthole surfers song bc the rest of their stuff is#well dare i say Experimental mostly#but nobody remembers the presidents of the united states of america#COME ON DUDE LUMP AND PEACHES WERE ON FUCKIN REPEAT HOW DO YOU NOT KNOW THEM#not gonna say that this is necessarily the most Obscure Music Ever either bc. well they were hits.#but i am just constantly surprised to learn that no people my age did not in fact mostly listen to that stuff#this isnt even a 'oh i was born in the wrong generation T-T' thing i just genuinely assume that even if ppl dont listen to this stuff#they at least like. know the songs. the same way everyone my age knows britney spears and nasasha beddingfeild#like at least if u dont actively listen to them if u were my age u kno at least a couple of the songs that were played All The Time#so im genuinely surprised like. oh theyre the band who had that song lump! you know lump right? here let me play a bit for you#what do you mean you dont know this. what do you mean you didnt hear it a million times in elementary school???#to be clear i also enjoyed the music that was being released as a#i was growingg up like i listened to pop too but. i just assumed 90s alt/grunge was Also Ubiquitous#'yeah it sounds kind of bad but thats what makes it good. duh.'
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my review of house md season one is i love it and i would like to see more medical malpractice thankfully based on what i know i don’t think i will be disappointed
#and unfortunately wilson is my fave…..#somehow with everything homo as hell I’ve seen i was like oh I’m sure s1 won’t have a lot#but omggggg they were really going for it from day one!!!#AND ITS STILL NOTHING COMPARED TO WHAT HAPPENS LATER!#does anyone else who was born right at the start of the 2000s#and don’t have a lot of memories of the early 2000s but it’s still when you gained consciousness#does anyone else like that find that early 2000s shows are weirdly nostalgic in a way. i have little memories of 2004 but im comforted by#the 2004-2005 gloss all over the episodes
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sending laser beams to my professor with my mind. kenneth you said midterm grades would b up by this afternoon. it is officially TONIGHT and guess what? kenneth i would love to not be clenching my teeth in my sleep tonight. kenneth i will be sending you a bill in the mail. yes i know its probably a TAs responsibility but i blame you personally. i hate school
#i dont im having a lot of fun (genuinely) but it is often pretty stressful#did find out there are a few folks adjacent to my program doing zoonoses & climate change research so im very excited to chat w them next w#possibly directing my thesis towards one health. social epi gradually becoming less interesting#plus i think my strengths do lie in applying epi to biological concepts so. one health works there#my brain continually trying to get back to lyme disease :( sometimes i really do miss the east coast tbh!#not lying actually i think the number one thing i miss is the amt of vector borne disease research LMFAO#i do unfortunately kind of have a crush on a classmate so that's fine but whatever. grad school. men are nice to me and i lose my mind ig#need to go make out w a hot trans person i think that would solve my problems rn#but also it's nice to be so excited about someone deciding to sit next to me in every class :)#like wow how isolated have i been the last 3 years to be so delighted by like. active signs i have Officially Made Friends.#even if he does live like a block away from my dad and jokes every goddamn day like 'so i saw your dad yesterday' no you DIDNT shut UP#idk yesterday he sat right next to me in a class he usually sits w other people in and it sort of sent my brain off the edge and now im jus#yeah. sitting with this one. it's fine like it's normal. but wowie i do think it's my first time having a Big Ol Crush since (redacted)#a little scary for my animal brain i think but it's okay!#im 25 in like 3 ish weeks and i still get embarrassed about this stuff somehow? stupid.#he's just really nice and always really fun to talk to! i think i had to officially Sit With Myself today bc epi is doing a holiday party#and there's a baking contest and we were talking abt it in class and i was indecisive abt whether i want to participate#and he like fully cut me off and was like oh you should bake something so i can have some :)#and. well fuck now i have to lmao. IM SO EASY IT'S SO EMBARRASSING#good evening everyone. guess this is my journal now. anyway ken rice you owe me twenty dollars and i aim to COLLECT
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being punk and seeing fictional punks get mistreated and thrown around as if their fundamental beliefs aren't *that* important has been a new pet peeve of mine. Like I don't even ship with them (yet.) but ultimately I end up being defense squad bcus fictional punks can't have shit without people eventually removing their beliefs from them 🗿🗿🗿
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#starshine rambles#yes this is abt hobie#i get unbelievably pressed abt how fandom treats him#not only cus he's a poc but a punk poc at that. ppl don't know how to respect that.#the taylor swift hcs? oh those make me want to commit violence bro#bro isn't listening to boot-lickers and capitalist billionaires#like bro PLEASE get it right in that respect at the very least.#hobie was born in the 1960's#that means lace code was a thing in the 1980's when we see him at around 20 years old#and what does he have? BLUE LACES#and what did that mean back then?#BRO. KILLED. A .COP.#or maybe he just liked his blue laces. but im more likely to believe the cop thing due to the timing of it all.#he's not listening to music made by cishet white billionaire women that support pigs/the institution of the police.
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