#like no you calling me the r word as an insult is literally the exact same as a neurotypical person calling me it

[tired-fandom-ndn]

Hey! Reclaiming slurs does not involve using them to insult and mock other people! That isn't reclamation, it's just bigotry!

[sapphic-agent]

Last one I promise, but damn it's so good to get this off my chest. You mentioning Rachel slapping Santana brought this one again, but someone made a post there last week about Santana deserving to get slapped by Rachel after the understudy issue. How Rachel was incredibly graceful to let Santana live there but Santana showed "narcissistic behavior" by following her to get a reaction out of her. Post got over 100 upvotes.

Rachel supporters didn't condemn Rachel for slapping Santana at all but rather explained why she finally clapped back (how satisfying it was to see her do so) and some even saying she deserved it, agreeing with the person who posted. The people that said no it wasn't deserved got downvoted immediately. They didn't want to even consider other people's opinions. One person commented that saying someone deserved to be physically assaulted is a bit harsh also got downvoted. To that person they responded with instances where Santana physically assaulted people like Rory and Quinn, but that's not what the thread was about. Those people then got massively upvoted. They like to do that whenever someone tries to defend Santana. Use moments where Santana was bad when it has nothing to do with the thread just so that Rachel can look good for their point.

Again, like to reiterate, thanks for speaking about this here. I probably would have thought I was the problem if I didn't notice that other people notice the problems on that sub too.

It's funny that people will bring up Santana slapping Quinn and Finn when it comes to Rachel slapping her. But when it comes to bashing her for slapping Finn- for fucking outing her- not one word about Finn assaulting Puck and Brody and trying to pull Quinn out of her wheelchair. I brought the wheelchair thing up once and the response was, "he didn't actually do it, plus they were both at fault!!"

Again, a double standard. People never hold Finn- the cis straight white man- accountable for his behavior. It's always he didn't do anything wrong, if he did then it was justified, if it's not then it's understandable. He called a baby the r-slur and people defend him because of the actions of her mother.

Meanwhile, Santana and Quinn get crucified for lesser offenses. Fun fact, neither one of them have ever used a slur. Finn's used two, one of which being entirely unprompted. No one even mentioned Down Syndrome or anything else, he just said it to be cruel because he knew it would hurt. He does that shit constantly, like when he called Brittany stupid. What makes me mad about this is that she hadn't even done anything wrong. All she did was switch teams- which is entirely her right- and he decided it was okay to insult her.

And you know what Brittany did? She didn't resort to calling Finn names or belittling him like he tried to do with Santana. All she did was tell him he was wrong and walk away. She showed him grace even though he sure as hell didn't deserve it. That's usually how decent people handle their issues with others. Finn was not decent.

But circling back to Rachel, I've watched that scene a lot. And no one ever brings up the fact that Rachel was the one who started with the insults. She was the one who started talking down to Santana, she was the one who wouldn't shut the fuck up. And in her rant, Rachel didn't slap her when Santana called her names. Rachel slapped her when she said she was just as good as her.

It was never about the insults, it was always about Rachel's fragile ego. If Tina or Brittany had auditioned to be her understudy, she wouldn't have cared because neither of them are as good as her. If it had been Mercedes, she would have had the exact same reaction (maybe even worse) because she's threatened by Mercedes (that's canon, as shown in season 3 and season 5) just like she's threatened by Santana. It has nothing to do with her relationships with either of them, it has everything to do with Rachel lashing out whenever she feels threatened.

The proof is literally in season 2. Sunshine was a complete stranger who she knowingly could have killed due to her insecurity. Whenever Rachel perceives a threat, it's like a switch flips in her brain. It's happened so many times before.

And even if it was about the insults and Santana's past actions, that just makes Rachel look worse. She's the one who wanted Santana to live with them, she's the one who chose to keep Santana in her life. She made a conscious decision to be around Santana. If she was still harboring resentment, why would she do that?

Because the only way to cope with Santana's (and Quinn's) bullying was the belief that she would be on top once high school was over. That she could look down on her once popularity didn't mean anything. She openly admits this in season 2. This heavily implies that she kept Santana around to feel superior to her, and what better way to do that than to keep her close so she could flaunt that in person? So when Santana broke out of the box Rachel put her in, she flipped out. It's a pattern of behavior with Rachel.

Rachel is a good character in seasons 1 and 2. She gets called out, admits to her mistakes, and tries to be better. She's still annoying, but it's alleviated by the other characters balancing her out. The new writers really screwed up with her, especially in season 5, by giving her everything she wants no matter how terribly she acts.

[honeybunnybeez]

Duuuude. Sfw alphabet for Eret or Bad??? Or even Fundy. All very underrated and I need see much content for them -⚰️

SFW alphabet:

C!BadBoyHalo:

♡Reader is Gender Neutral!

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

Bad is pretty affectionate when it comes to you, almost never leaving your side if he can.

He's very affectionate physically and verbally, clinging to you and giving you kisses while calling you sickly sweet pet names and praising you. Despite what he's supposed to be, he's incredibly adorable and hard to resist.

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

The friendship starts after you're introduced to him thanks to Skeppy, who you met first around the server and clicked well with. After getting to know you better and seeing you get along great with Skeppy, he easily accepts you as one of his close friends.

As a best friend he's kinda clingy, often wanting to see you and knowing what you're up to. He also likes to make sure you're okay and comes to visit you often, making sure no one messes with you.

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

Cuddles are his jam and given the opportunity you two would probably never leave the bed for the whole day. He doesn't have a set cuddling style, though one thing stays the same and it's that he wraps his arms around you pretty tight.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

He does seem like the type to want to settle down. It sounds like a very nice thing to do once everything in the server calms down, well, if it ever does calm down.

Domestic life wise, he's pretty decent at it! His best chore is cooking, he makes a pretty good meal when he cooks.

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

Depending on the situation and what led up to it, I think it'd end on good terms but he would get very emotional while doing so. He would be crying while apologizing and explaining why he feels like a romantic relationship wouldn't work as to not hurt you too severely. He still wants you to be in his life as his best friend though so you two do keep in close contact if you're okay with that.

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

He is rather loyal and commited to the ones he loves so I think he would get married. Maybe after being together for 6 months or a year would be when he pops the question.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

He is very physically and emotionally gentle with you, not wanting to hurt you in any way.

Sure he does tackle hug you in his human form but in his demon form with his tall height he makes sure to treat you like glass if he ever handles or holds you.

Emotionally he doesn't ever want to say mean things to you. He always apologizes profusely (almost crying himself) if you ever get truly upset with something he teased you about.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

Loves hugs, the moment he sees you he's running up to give you a big old hug. Hug him back, please. Please, (y/n). Hug him back, he wants you to.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

He used to say it quite often back when you two were friends, so there's no exact way to tell when the I love you's started to be genuine.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

Lord above, we've seen this man be jealous. He's super jealous when you start to spend more time with others. Can and will blow up your communicator asking you where you are and who you're with. Sometimes Skeppy joins in too half jokingly. If you're with Quackity you bet your ass you're getting dragged somewhere far away from the man.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

Loves giving you surprise kisses and half expects you to return the gesture. ESKIMO KISSES! All the eskimo kisses, he loves them. He love giving and receiving eskimo kisses from you so much.

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

Oh he adores kids quite a bit. Innocent, active and still full of life, he thinks they're precious. Though he can't really handle the spoiled ones, the ones who scream and throw really bad tantrums when they don't get what they want in the supermarket.

I don't think he's capable of having his own kids with his partner (being a demon and all) but he'd like to adopt one or two if you're into that idea. He's had experience raising Sapnap (and he doesn't hate bad's guts as far as I remember) so he's sure he can handle it.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

Before you wake up he likes to stare at your peaceful face while you rest. At first you did get a bit surprised when you wake up to see a pair of dimly glowing eyes staring back at you so closely. Now, you just instinctively reach out to give him morning kisses when you wake up.

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

He holds you in his arms while you slowly drift off to sleep. Sometimes he hums a soft happy tune while playing with your hair as your eyes grow heavy.

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

Skeppy totally tells you a few of Bad's secrets before you two started dating, only very minor ones though. Other than that, he's a pretty open book and if there was a secret he has he spills pretty easily when you say his name in a dissapointed tone.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

Unless you insult him or swear like a sailor on purpose to annoy him, he has a good bit of patience with you and your shenanigans. If you're best friends with Skeppy then you're bound to get into a little bit of trouble.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

He remembers things about you quite well. Such as what you like to eat, what your favourite ore is, your schedule, etc.

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

He loves you and he loves his best friend Skeppy too. He enjoys every moment you guys are all together but his favourite moment was when you three all hung out with one another watching the sunset on the roof of your home. It was all so unsually calm during those few minutes. You 3 totally held hands, just saying.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

He knows you can hold your own but even so he does get pretty defensive when others try to threaten you. Will stab a person for you if they really hurt you, no hesitation.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

He puts in a lot of effort to make you and everyone happy! It doesn't always feel like a chore when he's trying to find something you like or helping you around here and there. Anniversaries with him are simple but they're very sweet and memorable.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

Oh boy, his clinginess and jealousy does tend to be a bit of a problem. You have to remind him that you need personal time too. He always pouts when you say that and often times you do give in because of it. Though, if you really do need to be somewhere without him, promise to spend your next free day with him and he'll happily agree.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

Not very concerned, he's aware that he looks a lot different than others but he doesn't think it matters when almost everyone in the server is a different kind of human or hybrid. Everyone's different and that's normal, he thinks.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

Sure we know that Skeppy is his whole heart both metaphorically and literally in a sense, but he would be devastated if anything were to happen to you. He would feel like a part of him is missing and it would frustrate and upset him to no end knowing that the missing piece could never be found again.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

In his 9'6 form he will carry you around in his arms like a doll just to tease you. He think you look adorable as you whine and tell him that you aren't a toy to haul around.

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

He wouldn't like someone who takes advantage of him or does things he doesn't like consistently on purpose. Like, teasing him is fine, he does that too, but don't do what he doesn't like on purpose everytime you see him. He just thinks that's disrespectful even if you were just teasing.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

When he sleep he's absolutely wrapped around you. Laying by your side, arms and legs wrapped around your torso and waist respectively. You are his pillow now and you're being held hostage until he's decided he's satisfied.

A/N: Hey ⚰! Thank you for the request! I have to admit it was a little hard not to make it reference poly!c!skephalo because of how often its referenced that Bad and Skeppy are close to one another. (Someone please give me an excuse to remake this with poly!c!skephalo-) Anyways, I hope you all enjoyed reading this!

(Requests are open and anon is on!)

[jewin-your-mom]

On Ableist Language, and Why Cutting Out Slurs is Not Enough.

Okay okay okay so. Call me absurd, but I think the sentiment of phasing out the word ‘r*tard’ and other ableist slurs (ps*cho, narcissist [used in an inappropriate context], invalid etc.) is COMPLETELY USELESS when we don’t combine that effort with the sentiment that neurodivergency/mental illness and its symptoms are something that should not be made fun of in the first place.

Let me explain.

I have witnessed a number of people, both offline and online, substitute words like r*tard with equally horrible phrases and descriptions.

(General ‘you’ used from this point sometimes. I am not speaking necessarily to the reader; I just find it the easiest way to express my thoughts.)

It is not ‘better’ to call someone incompetent, braindead, socially inept etc. rather than r*tard, you understand that right? In fact, when that tactic is used against me, I am actually way more offended than if you had just called me a slur! I would very, very much rather you call me r*tarded than call me a naive childish idiot who cannot comprehend what is said to me! (That is just my own personal preference, and it is valid to feel otherwise, though I do know others share my sentiments.)

At least when people use slurs in a negative context, I know EXACTLY what they think of disabled/mentally ill people right off the bat, and can disregard their ableist opinions right away! You people who play Scrabble with your insults in an effort to seem ‘haha funny joke about disabled people on the Internet...but still progressive!’ are fucking cowards, in my opinion! Can’t even own your own bigotry, can you?

I think people who don’t make an effort to actually eradicate ableist thought processes in their daily lives tend to show this a lot; they do the bare minimum of removing the worst slurs from their vocabulary, yet don’t consider WHY they’ve removed that language in the first place. This leaves them with leftover thought processes and ideas that don’t ever get challenged. They now believe they are no longer ableist just because they don’t say literal slurs. I’ve noticed it tends to lead to ableist attitudes that still show through when these people get annoyed enough to decide that, since you are disabled/mentally ill, they can take their feelings out on you.

Examples of these leftover thought processes I’ve noticed:

“People who are less intelligent than me are lesser than me as a person. Therefore, I am not obligated to listen to these people or take their thoughts into consideration solely based on their perceived intelligence.”

“People who experience delusions, paranoia, or hallucinations are not to be trusted. Therefore, I should treat them as an ‘other’ whenever I interact with them, and not trust anything they say.”

“People who speak, act, think, or exist in a different way as I do must be wrong. Therefore, I must find the core tenants of their being that contributes to them being this way, and I must insult these things they cannot control if we ever engage in literally any sort of conflict.”

It is NOT BETTER to insult someone for being apparently less intelligent or ‘sane’ than you JUST because you don’t use a slur. I consider most attacks on perceived intelligence/sanity without slurs THE EXACT SAME as the ones that use slurs. We should not have to fall on our hands and knees to BEG people to not treat us in an ableist manner.

Do not consider yourself better than the average ableist just because you don’t use slurs. I, and many other disabled/mentally ill people, are offended when you insult our disabilities, minds, or our illnesses REGARDLESS of what language you use.

Do better by disabled and mentally ill people. Don’t fucking insult what we can’t control. If you’re THAT bugged by us, just block us.

(P.S. THIS INCLUDES PEOPLE YOU DON’T AGREE WITH, SURPRISINGLY! It doesn’t make you less ableist if you only use that language against people you disagree with on the Internet; it just tells other disabled/mentally ill people around you that you’ll turn on them if you ever decide they’re not neurotypical enough.)

[clovermunson]

Fluff Alphabet: Barnaby and Rhia

oof, it took me months to get this done, and I should’ve had it done at least 2 months ago😂

everything is under the cut!

A = Attractive (What do they find attractive about the other?)

What Barnaby finds most attractive about Rhia is her sense of humor and how patient she is, how she’s always trying to lighten everyone’s mood and make someone laugh; how she’s always so calm and understanding towards him.

What Rhia finds most attractive about Barnaby is his eyes, not only for their deep green color, but how the light shines in them and how they’re so expressive, like they’re truly windows into his soul.

B = Baby (Do they want a family? Why/Why not?)

They both do, but they agree to wait until they’re completely comfortable with the idea of it. That doesn’t exactly go to plan though.

Barnaby would love to have children as soon as possible, if given the option though.

C = Cuddle (How do they cuddle?)

Barnaby is always the big spoon. Rhia has tried to be the big spoon before, but due to the huge size difference between them (Rhia’s 5’2”, Barnaby���s 6’3”), it doesn’t really work that well. Barnaby’s naturally a protector, so he loves Rhia being the little spoon, and Rhia loves being the little spoon.

D = Dates (What are dates with them like?)

Most of their dates are spent taking care of their creatures in the creature reserve. They don’t really mind it, just as long as they get to spend time with each other. They’ve had a couple of fancy dates at Madam Puddifoot’s, but nothing really too fancy.

E = Everything (You are my ____ (e.g. my life, my world…)

Barnaby to Rhia: my everything, the light in my life

Rhia to Barnaby: my life, my world

F = Feelings (When did they know they were in love?)

Rhia knew she was in love with Barnaby the moment she met him, quite literally. His goofy demeanor, he’s bright smile, his passion for creatures- it made it hard for her to believe he was a Slytherin and not a Hufflepuff.

Barnaby knew he loved Rhia as soon as they had their first date in 4th Year. The way she looked with her hair curled, her red and black dress, the way the moonlight illuminated the courtyard as they stargazed, she was perfect to him and nothing compared to her.

G = Gentle (Are they gentle? If so, how?)

Due to his size, Barnaby knows he has to be very gentle with Rhia. He still gives her bear hugs though, as her favorite thing next to handmade Weasley jumpers are Barnaby’s bear hugs.

Rhia is very gentle with Barnaby, and very patient with him. While some people would be very harsh and rude with him, calling him things such as “stupid” and “incompetent”, she’s not and she often sticks up for him, as it’s something that makes her temper flare when others belittle him.

H = Hands (How do they like to hold hands?)

Usually, their fingers are interlaced. Barnaby loves his hand feeling as if it’s completey covering Rhia’s, it makes him feel like he’s protecting her even more than usual. Rhia loves resting her head on Barnaby’s arm as she’s holding his hand.

I = Impression (What was their first impression?)

Barnaby’s first impression of Rhia stuck from the moment he met her. To him, she radiated a confident aura, but also a very kind, patient, and understanding aura.

At first, Rhia did think Barnaby was a little dense, but that quickly changed once she saw how much he understood creatures and emotions. When it came to feelings, Barnaby displayed a very high intelligence and it helped put Rhia at ease when she was finding out her feelings for him.

J = Jealousy (Do they get jealous?)

Barnaby is very easily jealous. He doesn’t like seeing another guy trying to flirt with Rhia at all, and even if he’s on the other side of the room, he’ll casually make his way over to her and wrap his arm around her waist, pulling her closer to him.

Rhia also gets jealous easily, but only when another girl flirts with Barnaby in front of her. If she’s sitting or standing next to him, they’re already holding hands, but if the girl can’t take a hint, Rhia will either kiss Barnaby’s cheek, or gently turn his head so he’s facing her, and she’ll kiss him on the lips.

K = Kiss (How do they kiss? Who initiated the first kiss?)

It’s always sweet little quick kisses with these two in public. It’s nauseatingly cute.

Alone though, it’s the exact opposite of sweet and quick. They snog each other like they need to other to live.

L = Love (Who says ‘I love you’ first?)

Rhia said it first. For the longest, she was beyond terrified to say it, but after a day of taking care of the creatures together, it just kind of slipped and she tried to play it off, but Barnaby heard it and was more than happy about it, saying that he loved her back.

M = Memory (What’s their favourite memory together?)

Oddly enough, the Vault of Fear.

Barnaby never forgot how quick Rhia was to recruit his help, or how quick she was to save him, and felt as if he was in debt to her. Rhia never forgot how she mustered up the courage to face the Voldemort boggarts and save her friends. Sometimes, they both look back on the encounter and laugh about how Barnaby thought the boggarts were creepier as clowns.

N = Nickel (Do they spoil? Do they buy the person they love everything?)

Barnaby spoils Rhia like his life depends on it. Rhia never expects it, though she does like the thought he puts into everything that he gets for her, but she loves his homemade gifts more than anything else.

Rhia spoils Barnaby, but mostly with homemade gifts and baked goods. Barnaby loves sweets, so Rhia’s always baking cookies, cakes, and cupcakes for him.

O = Orange (What colour reminds them of their other half?)

For Barnaby, yellow and red remind him most of Rhia. Yellow because of how she’s always smiling and happy, seeming as if nothing can bring her mood down. Red because of her passion and courage.

For Rhia, emerald green reminds her most of Barnaby. Partially because of his eyes, but also because of the mystery and elegance that the color holds, as well as the gentleness and calmness of the color.

P = Pet names (What pet names do they use?)

Barnaby: darling, sweetheart, love, honey, babe, baby, princess, Emerald (due to Rhia’s Irish heritage)

Rhia: love, honey, sweetheart, babe, baby, goof, B, Barny (it started as kind of a joke, but Barnaby grew to love it)

Q = Quaint (What is their favourite non-modern thing?)

Vinyl records

The vintage porcelain teacup collection that Rhia inherited from her grandmother

Small woodland cottages

Old villages

R = Rainy Day (What do they like to do on a rainy day?)

Mostly they just stay in bed all day enjoying each other’s company. Rhia would try and get some housework done, but she knows that trying to wriggle her way out of Barnaby’s grip is pointless, and she doesn’t really want to leave the bed either.

S = Sad (How do they cheer themselves/others up?)

There have only been two times that Barnaby has seen Rhia genuinely upset; once when she had accidentally insulted him due to being stressed over her N.E.W.T.s, and when Snape had died in the Battle of Hogwarts. Both times Rhia had been reduced to tears, and Barnaby was the only one who could console her by doing the only thing he knew would help; holding her and reassuring her.

The only time Rhia’s ever seen Barnaby genuinely upset was when she had accidentally insulted him, and whenever he was having family troubles. Usually, just her presence was enough to make him happy, but Rhia always went above and beyond, using words of affirmation and telling him corny jokes to lighten the mood.

T = Talking (What do they like to talk about?)

They’ll talk about nearly anything, even if it doesn’t make complete sense to them or anyone else who overhears it.

U = Unencumbered (What helps them relax?)

For Barnaby, he relaxes the most when he can take a day off for himself and just snuggle with Rhia. The sense of her being his and that he’s the only one who gets to hold her and call her his is all the relaxation he needs, though he does loves a good shoulder massage from Rhia every now and then.

Rhia’s prime method of relaxation is whenever Barnaby plays with her hair. Something about it just puts her at ease and melts away her stress, and she often ends up falling asleep in his lap rather quickly.

V = Vaunt (What do they like to show off? What are they proud of?)

If Barnaby could do it without everyone calling him annoying, he’d never shut up about Rhia. He loves showing her off, and loves bragging about her accomplishments to anyone who could stand listening to it for an hour or so.

Rhia is proud of how intelligent Barnaby is with emotions and creatures, and how he’ll shamelessly admit it. It took a while for him to finally warm up to the idea of that possibility, but once he did, he knew that Rhia was right.

W = Wedding (When, how, where do they propose?)

Barnaby proposed on Christmas Eve in 1991, at the Burrow. He’d planned to wait until Christmas Day when they would be alone at home, but he couldn’t hold in his excitement about it, so he took his chance. The setting was perfect with a good bit of snow outside, and the two of them were in the middle of a full-on snowball war with the Weasley boys. What Rhia hadn’t known was that Barnaby had told Bill and Charlie, and they somehow kept the secret. Even though Rhia cried like a baby about it, and the cold air made her entire face even more red, she said yes and the two were engaged.

They married on October 7th of 1992 at the Burrow. Rhia originally wanted their wedding to be held in the large field next to her parents’ house, but Molly insisted that they marry at the Burrow and not in a place riddled with hate and guilt amongst family members.

X = Xylophone (What’s their song?)

My Girl by The Temptations

Ain’t no Mountain High Enough by Marvin Gaye and Tammi Terrell (thanks to @catohphm for suggesting this one!)

You Can’t Hurry Love by the Supremes

How Deep is Your Love by The Bee Gees

We Belong by Pat Benatar

I’m a Believer by The Monkees

Heaven by Bryan Adams

Y = Yes (Do they ever think of getting married/proposing?)

It doesn’t take long after they start dating for them to think about marriage. Within maybe four months, the topic is already on their minds. With the attention that Rhia has drawn to the McCarthy name, Barnaby wonders if her having his last name would help to protect her from his parents and other death eaters.

Z = Zebra (If they wanted a pet, what would they get?)

They both want pets and end up with all sorts of pets. Everything from kneazles to even muggle pets like dogs, they have at least one of. They consider the creatures on the reserve as their pets to, but in all honesty, their creatures and pets are like family to them.

[peachyfuck18]

Ok @full-timel-lurker since you claim you don’t know why let me tell you my experiences as an autistic person and maybe you’ll find why I hate this series

Never had my needs accommodated by my shitty ex sperm donor cause in his words “I could handle it”

Was literally emotionally abused by my church(Satanist now) as I showed my autistic traits all the time and the Sunday school teachers hated it

I have to go to bed hungry cause I ran out of my safe food

Literally baby talked due to propaganda about autistic people being childlike

So ask me again how I’m so “up in my arms about” it you fucking bitch.

Also we’re talking about R*ordan write? The same Riordan who Americanized Greek Gods and wrote them as villains despite Hellestic paganism still being around and called those same pagans who he wrote their gods about weirdos? The same R*ordan who wrote Islam characters in the most intentionally Islamophobic way possible to make that makes the religion look bad? The same R*ordan who wrote girls and women in the Madonna/Whore complex and masculinize GOC? The same R*ordan who write POC as stereotypes that if I was told to spot the difference between his writing of POC and the way POC were portrayed in early 20th century cartoons I couldn’t tell what difference there were? The same R*ordan who wrote Hitler, goddamn ADOLF HITLER as Hades SON and WWll as a “family matter between the Greek gods so everything that did happen was all fake” promoting Holocaust denial and the denial of the Nakbas terrorism? The same R*ordan who’s first gay character coming out is that he’s forcefully outed and that genderfluidity is genetic? The same R*ordan who supports ITSNOTREAL’s GENOCIDE OF PALESTINIANS? That fucking R*ordan?

And If he was trying to make a hero for his son than why didn’t he not publish the story at all hmm? Answer me that

Also you find other peoples mental disorders being written as superpowers where neurotypicals will read and will not understand when they come across a person with the exact same disorders and actually show the symptoms, which you can fucking Google btw, that actually make their life harder as good? The so called “powers” where the actual symptoms are mentioned for a short amount of time and never mentioned again as good? If that’s the case you’re a fucking joke then and should really take a long hard look at what the fuck you think is good media then

And you believe fiction can’t affect reality? Ok answer me this then:

What about proshipping and how the normalization of it for the time being influenced the normalization of pedophilia?

What about Nazi Germany when so much shit was being said about Jewish, Romani, disabled and Queer people that many people started to believe it and the holocaust happened?

What about after 9/11 the US spread Islamophobic lies and weaponized Arabs against the American people that literal people overseas FUCKING DIED due to anti-Arab US propaganda?

What about the AIDS crisis back in the 80s when Ronald Reagan was purposefully making false claims against people affected by AIDS cause he wanted queer people dead?

Wanna answer that?

Also you say this:

“I just don’t understand why you’re so determined to hate on it. It feels like you’re demonised people with adhd and dyslexia saying they couldn’t be heroes? Which feels really insulting.”

Ok first of all let me fix that terrible ass sentence for you sweetie:

“It feels like you’re DEMONIZING people with ADHD and Dyslexia saying they CANT be heroes.(period not question mark period ok?)

First of all I gave you literal evidence and my friend @scionofthehellpriest literally gave you examples on R*ordans ableist writing and why it’s dangerous so maybe you should know who you’re talking too before even saying a fucking word

So as an autistic person I say,

I would like to thank the Percy Jackson fandom for the reason that neurodivergent people are infantilized on a daily basis as well as R*ck R*ordans shitty rewrite on ADHD and Dyslexia and making it like superpowers not actual disorders people suffer from on a daily basis while most of the characters act like neurotypicals.

[taylorscottbarnett]

This DC MAGA LARP is the WORST.

No really, what in the ever-loving FUCK is going on. This fucking nut-jobs ACTUALLY think they are “patriots”. Trump cultist took down the US Flag at the Capital and replaced it with a Trump2020 flag. This actually happened. A mob of Trump supporters ACTUALLY took control of the steps of the Capitol building. A fucking Trump supporter put a giant TRUMP 2020 flag in the hands of the statue of General Ford in the building. A woman was shot inside the US capital building. "I know you're in pain, I know you're hurt. We had an election that was  stolen from us, but you have to go home now." was ACTUALLY Trump’s in response to his deplorables storming the Capitol. Wow. Holy. Fucking. Shit. Q-ANON nut-jobs had access to government computers the same IDIOTS who believe there is a secret pedophilia cabal of child-molestors by the “Elites” (never mind the fact that they don’t consider Trump to be an “elite” too, but look at the fucker and go “Yeah that’s a guy just like me” ) Trump posted on his facebook, literally one right after another that the Republican party:

I mean.... And all of this after a MONTH of Trump threatening: - To support primary challengers against Republicans who concede that he lost the election. "We have to primary the hell out of the ones that don't fight. We're gonna let you know who they are - I can already tell you, frankly."

- called Republicans who vote against baseless objections to Biden's electors "weak Republicans."

- called his OWN sitting Supreme Court Justices "puppet" judges because they have ruled against Congressional Republican lawsuits to overturn the election Trump lost.

- attacked and encouraged challenges to Senate Majority Whip John Thune (R-S.D.) and Senator Lisa Murkowski (R-Alaska). Never-mind that while the US continues to break daily records for COVID cases - a threat Trump has downplayed and even outright ignored often Trump is FUCKING SILENT. Just bitching about getting banned from Facebook and Twitter, and about “fraud”. Trump has completely abdicated his duties and responsibilities as President, WHILE WE CONTINUE TO SUFFER UNDER A PANDEMIC. (yes this isn’t a surprise at this point I’m still listing it however). - That members of this fucking cult got unfettered access to the computers of congress and NEVER once thought to find evidence of this so-called cabal of child molesters their god trump is protecting them from. No they took fucking selfies. - An actual Republican lawmaker from West Virginia LIVE-STREAMED himself joining this mob storming the US Capital. Like do they think this IS A FUCKING GAME? Is this just some giant LARP wet-dream? Our allies are watching this in horror and shocked to the point they legit believe Trump attempted a fucking coup. Well his supporters sure as fuck thought they did. Trump’s cabinet officials are resigning like rats from a sinking ship. And what might bother me most of all about this entire thing is these delusional nut-jobs actually think they are "patriots". Fucking MAGA rioters TOOK DOWN THE AMERICAN FLAG AND RAN UP A TRUMP 2020 FLAG.

Remember when Hillary Clinton off-hand called Trump supporters "deplorables" and everyone got so angry that she'd "insult" them like that? Well... I kinda hope she's like "I told you so" right now. Has the national GOP condemned any of this? Nope, it’s run by Trump kool-aid drinkers who've spent the past four years taking control of positions of power in the GOP. And were just re-elected to lead the GOP.

I have, It’s hard to describe the seething outrage and hatred I have for Donald Trump. To put it in the exact words. To paraphrase a qoute from Winston Churchhill: “If Trump invaded hell I would make at least a favourable reference to the devil.” But remember guys America is the GREATEST COUNTRY ON EARTH. AND WE ARE GONNA MAKE AMERICA GREAT AGAIN, and let’s not forget we are in the middle of a pandemic Trump has just abdicated all responsibility for. Not that he took much to start with. Speaking of, remember guys, a new variant of Covid-19 has now been detected in two states that seems to be EASIER to spread, we just broke our daily death total from COVID AGAIN, we reported 3,744 new coronavirus deaths on Wednesday December 27th,  and hospitalizations are surging, with a record-high of 125,220 people are hospitalized nationwide due to the virus. OH WAIT WE BROKE RECORDS AGAIN JUST TWO WEEKS LATER with the “fake” virus because on Jan. 7, more than 4,100 deaths and more than 280,000 new cases — both records — were announced nationwide.

ALSO let’s not forget that as Trump enters the last two weeks of his presidency more than 22,221,500 people in the United States have been infected with COVID under his watch, and 372,398 have died in America. Well Donald? MAGAs? Are we great again yet? What part of this exactly is American exceptionalism? Because after a year living under siege from COVID, and having half the fucking country think it’s a MYTH and a HOAX, the only fucking thing I’ve seen America be exceptional at is dying.

[collxpsedhexrt]

Matchup tingsss 🥺👉👈

just a warning i type this in a shit post format bc im too scared to talk about myself in a grammatically correct manner because i hate myself

huge note: my type is BIG w big ol shoulders and big and tall and did i mention big so yeah cuddles ok thanks bye i also updated a photo of me- bc i suck at describing my appearance

👀

👄

ok so anyways lets a gO

NOTE: i dont label my sexuality sorry idc who to swing for ion like swinging i like hugging thanks ok bye also im EXTREMELY mentally and emotionally unstable haha ok thanx 🥺😳💅

꧁𝙰𝚙𝚙𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚌𝚎꧂

I am 163cm and 190lb (I am also very peculiar about knowing my exact measurements, height, and weight all the time?? Confusion???)

I am one pasty ass bitch despite being (excuse the lele pons moment) LaTiNa👁👄👁,,, I have very long warm black hair that is either wavy or borderline kinky curls no in between,,,, I have amber eyes and have FrEcKlEs everywhere but not like super intense,,, i could probably put a photo (and i will at the end-) bc idk how to describe my ugly ass morbidly obese bleached walrus headass face tbh??

Not to be an annoying basic bitch but i supposedly have an hourglass figure but im more plump so ig i have a more motherly appearance- idk tbh my body dysmorphia says i look like patrick star on my 600lb life so lets get poggers in the chat, tea?? tea sis?? who’d knock me tf up im ugly doe ahaha 👁👄👁

꧁𝙿𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚘𝚗𝚊𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚢꧂

hngh i never stop apologizing- even if u knock me down multiple times ill keep going back to you and forgiving you, and thats on daddy issues

im an empath and like a lot of spiritual stuff like tarot and stuff,,, wont get too into it bc im inexperienced

GIFTED.CHILD.BURNOUT.

also bc i like gaming i can be “one of the bros” and tbh i LOVE being a semi-stereotypical jock-like gamer boy like “oHH YEASAH *crushes soda can on my head* GAMING TIME BOOOYYYYSSS” and i kinda forget im a girl sometimes bc i (gross warning) can like,,, burp wit da bois 😳👉👈,,,,

I am an INFJ-T (the T means im a shitshow!) and ion wanna get too much into my uh,,, issues w/ eating,,,, but basically lets say it causes a lot of dizziness on my end but like im still obese so its ok lol

also im like,,,,, the runt of the group like literally nobody likes me (at least thats what i tell myself aHEM-)

and also i have eXTREEEEEEEME trust issues like holy fuck nobody can catch a break

Oh shit wait i should say idk what i am in terms of sexuality literally nothing fits me ahaha but i am an afab female lady girl as far as i know bc im not currently in a safe place to explore these things, Jimbo!

also im so sorry for being messy im spacing things out so it can be an organized mess im so so sorry i love you anf thank you for taking your time to read this i love you and appreciate you!!

I am a libra sun, and a pisces moon and rising so that means im a crybaby bitch but to the third power (^3)

oh shit yeah im also a hufflepuff

basically i like to make everyone laugh and im not good with serious shit but when it comes down to it sometimes i can take on a maternal role when comforting friends but u will never get me to admit it..... wait-

꧁𝙷𝚘𝚋𝚋𝚒𝚎𝚜꧂

ART ART AND MORE ART OH MY GOD FUCK OH GOD OH FUCK SO MUCH ART- im specifically into the character design and i actually plan on going into game development in coolegg

👁👄👁👉👈

i havent sang seriously in like,,,, years tho bc my choir teacher kicked me out the choir bc my brother was having a life saving surgery the day of a performance anD I NEVER FORGOT IT KAREN. meaning ion let shit go like that bc im an insecure and emotionally broken biTCH

ok i love games- from little big planet, outlast 1/2, detroit become human, beyond two souls, TO OVERWATCH YES I LOVE YOU OVERWATCH, and aminal crossigng uwu

ok so anyways i mean yeah uh,,, i also like writing poetry sometimes and writing but im like yuri (ddlc) and cant help but be borderline pretentious with using over complicated words despite my shit grammar here lol

but yeah

i also live on a farm and i love taking care of my chickens duckies turkies andn pheasants mvmvmbm,,,, i lvoe themn,,,,fhfjdjd,,, OMG I USED TO HAVE GOATS AND GUINEA HENS BUT FUCKINGNG CORONA VIRUS MADE IT HARD TO CARE FOR THEM SO WE HAD TO SELL THEM AND HMMMMMMM ANGERY

but on another note i hav doggies and uwu!!! they v cute best dogeis ever 100/10 recommend these dogies,,,,

꧁𝙽𝚘𝚝𝚎𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚝𝚑𝚢 𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜꧂

im a hermit and quarantine is just fun to me

I have a high pitched voice so my friends deemed me the god of anime voice thank u

But honestly i find my voice creepy, it’s as if my voice is ghostly and haunting. That’s in real life, but say we called on discord.... I’m loud and obnoxious but i always make people laugh, only when im on a call like that does my personality change so much.

im an amazing host tbh,,, “Hey- I have tea, coffee, coffee with foam, water, milk, juice, soda, and i could make you some food!” “Do you want some popcorn? Are you sure? Do you need a blanket? Would you like for me to turn on the humidifier?” I WILL SPOIL PPL ROTTEN WITH LOVE AFFECTION FOOD AND DRINKS GALORE

“hhnngh,,, maybe if im good enough of a host it will fill the void,,,”

oh also i have a weird accent bc im puerto rican

👁👄👁✨

UPDATE: ADDED LIKES/DISLIKES!!! and love tings

꧁𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚎꧂

my love language is physical touch mainly but i can channel it through making food n stuffs uwu

I rarely if ever fall in love. but when i do, i crash hard. I become putty in the person’s hands, willing to take (metaphorical) beating after beating and insults and cruelty just for their love to be reciprocated. I become totally helpless and obsessive, memorizing their schedule and things they like. Treasuring every memory of when we can be physically close to one another, platonically or not... I become my “best self” and my performance rate drastically increases, but my mental state drastically decreases. I become horribly depressed and anxious, always making meticulously calculated movements and always showing that im willing to support them with everything.

I particularly have a thing for tall guys with big shoulders.

꧁𝙻𝚒𝚔𝚎𝚜/𝙳𝚒𝚜𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎𝚜꧂

OK THIS IS UNDERRATED BUT I LOOOVE PEWDIEPIE PLEASE DONT HATE ME I JUST LOVE HIS HUMOR ANDN,,,,, 🥺👉👈

god i just- idk i have mixed feelings abt amberlynn reid bc obviously shes super hurt n stuff but shes done so much crap i just HNNGNHH,,,, ANGERY,,, but i show support sometimes but i aint ever giving her my money by subscribing

I also like (cue the angry mob) fnaf-

homestuck and harry potter r also LIFE

i dont like when ppl are egotistical unless theyre charming,,,, bc if theyre charming i 100% feed their ego.

i HATE when people do self destructive things (IM A FUCKING HYPOCRITE) like “NO- nO dont fRICKIN do that- BAD. here, let me make you some food...”

anyways heres that promised picture if this ugly mug

[alchemist-shizun]

So uhh I had a train of thought and I just really needed to let it out please note that this is very long so beware before you decide to click “read more” and yeah as for contents this is just really me venting about the fact that I’ve prevented myself from drawing since forever and I can’t really stand it any longer (there might be many mistakes but I don’t expect anyone to read this) really just ignore it

Fuck it fuck it fuck them i dont C a r e ™ I’ve had enough i can’t fucking believe they made me feel like this still to this day I haven’t even talked to them in years and because of them I’m still not over it so honestly fuck you elementary teachers and your stupid fucking way of twisting a child’s perception of thing on their way of shaping themselves cause you ruined a perfectly creative child is what you did

Okay so this dates back to, yes you read, elementary school but oh actually let’s get to kindergarten first

I was coloring a lion picture, I was like 4 but I still freaking remember it to this day, the teacher there told me I did it wrong and I didn’t understand why, I got scolded for fucking c o l o r i n g COLORS, I WAS F O U R it wasn’t like a colored a lion BLUE I used typical lion colors what do you want from me?

So I tried again, unsure of what to do, unsure of everything, I color it again, and as if nothing changed I get scolded again and you want to know what they had the courage to do? The fucking hypocrisy? They sent me to the part of preschool you can go when you’re like 2 or 3 TO SIGNIFY THAT I WAS STUPID and to make me feel ashamed of myself for something that I had no clue about cause nobody cared to explain what I did wrong

I still remember how fucking bad I felt, I might have cried too, I don’t know anymore

Fun fact? I recently heard someone else had the same experience

Now what the fuck? What the fuck? Do you know how impactful something like that is on a 4 year old child? Did you not learn how to treat kids in university? Fucking hell you should’ve studied this kind of things, how am I supposed to react to that kind of shaming?

And now let’s go to elementary school. Everything fucking SUCKED in the attitude of the two main teachers I had.

Basically in here you had to write your name, date, class, daily stuff basically on top of the page every time, and right under these things before you start writing or anything you have to do what in Italian we say “cornicetta” that I can literally translate with “little frame”

Basically it was a very tiny drawing you did and you repeated it horizontally so that you had some kind of frame on a single side of the page

And I was terrible at them. I don’t know, I didn’t have the hand of the artist™ what could I do about it? I was just 6. And my teachers? Batshit crazy. My Italian and history teacher in particular, she absolutely hated my drawings

Everything I did didn’t please her at all, the frames I made were always criticized and thank god I don’t remember all of her comments cause if I did I’d probably still be upset over them

There’s one in particular I remember: I think we were making a drawing for history, cause I remember drawing a cave and some people, so I might have been in second or third year. I had started to color it and my teacher came up, inspected it and said “ah it was actually a good drawing, too bad you had to ruin it with colors”

How am I fucking supposed to feel about that? Do I have to yell in joy and say woah you’re absolutely right I must bow to your genius. N O fuck you that’s what I was supposed to say! I wasn’t encouraged in the slightest.

She made me feel like shit and fucking laughed like she was pleased to fuck around with my sanity. Thank you very much you idiot now I’m terrified of drawing anything at all, this is what you created, you happy??

Not only she never gave me constructive criticism on my drawings, but she also insulted my handwriting over and over along with the one of some others, threatening us to go back to writing with the pencil instead of the pen like everyone else

Again, you can imagine how I fucking felt.

You don’t know how many afternoons I spent with my mother writing words in the exact manner my teacher wanted over and over because those were the sick punishments they gave us

Writing some words like 50 times

Sure, it can be practice, but God fucking damn it

I can understand when they said “hey you did a spelling error, how about you write this word like 20 times so that you get used to it” alright

But you don’t make a child sit for hours trying to fill entire pages of stupid senseless words making them feel even more ashamed and stupid than they already felt

It was dreadful for me and even my mother was pissed at that. Not that she didn’t criticize my handwriting either but she gave up after some time

Also, as if elementary wasn’t enough, we had a young teacher at catechism that dared to give us fucking homework LIKE THAT’S NOT EVEN A NORMAL THING none else in the world did that okay n o o n e

And she gave fucking marks, ofc my marks fucking sucked and I hated going there (my parents only made me go so that I could have done all the required things if I ever wanted to get married in church once adult)

Moral of the story, don’t trust catechism teachers if they’re like mine (also my parents hated her)

I don’t know when I stopped drawing, probably after elementary school, since I didn’t have to do those page frames anymore.

But with middle school came art lessons

Art lessons with the teacher I had meant no history of art at all for all the three years and only making art

I hated it, I sucked at everything, my drawing repulsion (if that’s a term I can use) grew stronger with all the years and the teacher I had also wasn’t professional at all so she gave marks based on how much she liked you

Despite all of this, there was a moment in first year of middle school where this teacher fell down the stairs and broke her leg, so we had a substitute: young, sweet lady that I instantly fell in love with

She made us do a project for a group of people we call “alpini” which is a particular group that helped in the war and fought in the north of Italy, in particular in the Alps.

I had a very artistic classmate, her mother was literally and artist and obviously I stood no chance against her, so I was like well I’m not gonna end up in noe place so, let’s just do this for fun I guess

I made this stupid little concept I had in my head, nothing special really, especially since I also drew people and I have no clue of how bodies work in art, but okay

Wanna know something?

I fucking won

I don’t know how, but I fucking won and I still have the prize

But then, the other teacher came back and everything was back to being shitty.

When it was time to choose highschool I was a bit scared cause my course would have had lessons of history of art since the first year and I had never had one while everybody else would have

I was afraid I wouldn’t have liked the subject

Let me tell you, it’s probably my favorite subject by now, and I’m at the last year. I was afraid I wouldn’t have been able to do anything with it, that if I liked history of art the only available universities where the academies that required you to have drawing skills

Then I came to know of the existence of the Cultural Heritage faculty and I couldn’t have been happier

But lately I’m still here thinking what if I actually tried to not listen to the people around me and practice my drawing skills ever since I was little?

I am so fucking sorry for myself because I lost a potential I know I could’ve grown to something probably very beautiful and I will never be able to see it bloom

And you know what? I don’t fucking care I’m so done with this feeling and I want to get rid of it so I don’t care if I’m 18 you can start whenever you want to do things

So I’m gonna start to teach myself how to draw after 18 years of my life and I’m going to see how it turns out and I will fucking stop being absolutely scared of picking up pencils

I’ll stop hearing my past teachers voices in my head saying it’s no use and that I should give up because they’re absolutely horrible and I hate them in particular

I don’t care that’s it this time I’m doing it, I don’t want to be conditioned by stupid people or be submissive anymore

And to those teachers, an honest and wholehearted fuck you, in your face.

[askfem-sanders-sides]

Afterward

Charlie version first cuz I love my moth boi-

Warnings: None

E x t r e m e familial fluff

“Hey Selena!” Charlie chirped into his phone

“Hey lil bug! How was your date?” Her voice was tired but happy

“Fine.“ it was so much more then fine but he didn’t wanna bog her down with that-

“Don’t you dare ‘fine’ me! This is your first date ever and I know literally nothing about this girl-you have massively hot tea and it needs to spill.”

He could hear Selena’s pout through the phone.

“Um okay... Her name is Rin and oh my god-“

“Good omg or bad omg?”

“Good oh my god-great oh my god-so we met about two weeks ago in the middle of the night-“

“You go out at night?”

“I do have to let my wings breath ya know. Anyway she came up to the roof at what two am? And saw me. Guess what she said?”

“I swear if she insulted you I’ll-“

“She called me beautiful.”

“.....she said what?!” He could actually hear the double take Selena did

“She called me beautiful.”

“She is. Officially great-“

“I know, we’ve heard from creepy to crazy to freak and she calls me beautiful!” Charlie shoved his face into his hands, dropping the phone in the process.

“I’m-“ The word she was looking for is shook.

“I know, my god I love Rin.”

The actual scream that came through the phone could be heard even though the phone was like a foot away and the phone wasn’t that loud.

“You love her! You’ve been on one date and you’re in love with her-“

“I- I do I love her. I love her so much Selena.” He has switched the phone to speaker so he could move around as needed becuase when he gets embarrassed he gets R E A L EMBARRASSED.

God I’m hopeless, I’m flustered and she’s not even here!

“Does she know that?”

“Course not! I don’t wanna be as creepy as I look.”

“Ah Ah Ah beautiful~”

“Selena!”

“Okay okay. But what’d you do on the date?”

“I brought her too the garden on our building after a short walk and some honey cake-“

“Yeah. You love her- you gave her honey cake”

“She reallly likes it too.. anyway-”

Honey cake is something Selena has made nine and a half thousand times for Charlie. Since he was tiny she’d give it too him-he’d never been known to share it either.

“I flew her home-”

“YOU FLEW HER HOME. YOU TOOK THE JACKET OFF IM-“

“Selena!”

“Fine fine keep talking!”

“Um...while we were flying, I looked at her and-just Oh my god I can’t even describe her- cute, beautiful, mesmerizing-mezmorizing that’s it.”

“And....?”

“I um, I asked if I could kiss her-“

A little pained noise came from the phone- Selena nonverbally sayinf ‘that’s not how you do that-‘

“She said yes-“

Screams. Just s c r e a m I n g and then footsteps and then- “So you kissed her- right?”

“Yes-“

“AND?!”

It took everything in Charlie’s power for him not to laugh into the phone-

“It felt, like fireworks and sparks and like warm marshmello fondant after you just made it and-and she makes me feel the exact same way your honey cake does. And if that’s what love feels like then....I want everyone to know how much I love Rin. Like I don’t think I can’t even describe what she makes me feel. I-“ By the end he was giggling-smiling so hard his cheeks were starting to hurt

“I’m getting a sister in law. That’s it! I’m getting a sister in law! When can I meet her?”

“Ummm....I’m not really sure...also-we’re 15 sis w h y”

“Charles. Charlie. Do you hear yourself right now? You just compared your first kiss to my Honey Cake-which you made for her- IM GETTING A SISTER IN LAW.”

“Okay maybe but-“

Screaming. Again.

“I want to meet her now! Right now!”

“Oh god Selena stoppppp” Charlie whined one embarrassment-

“Okay okay- but 1.Marry her or I will 2.You better ask her out again and 3. Goodnight.”

“G’night love you sis”

“Love you too lil’bug”

And dial tone.

// @the-lavender-creator Get this fluff child-

[validplsubjectoftheday]

Dimitri Allen

WE ARE CELEBRATING DIMITRI TODAY BECAUSE REASONS.

Name: “Dr Ah-len Stahnguuun!”

His real name, Dimitri, according to a random baby site:  ‘From the Greek Dēmētrios (of Demeter), which is from Demeter, the Greek mythological goddess of agriculture and fertility.’ His name sounds like ‘Dementor’, which is a soul-sucking monster from Harry Potter that Dimitri shouldn’t be compared to. Even if he is grey, gaunt and looks like he hasn’t slept for a decade. Dimitri is a million times better than that.   

He’s proud to be a scientist - see his lab coat - and he’s stylish to boot. He has a goatee, a grey scarf, a belt and a fedora hat. (Luke had to get his inspiration from somewhere.) And he wears a red rose because he’s hopelessly in love with Claire. Some good symbolism there.

Dimtri loved Claire. He loved Claire so much, but he admits that love became conflated with his pride to complete the time machine. Still, he dedicated 10 years of his life to working on the time machine mostly to save Claire. 

Remember THIS scene where Dimitri finds Claire’s dead body and starts sobbing? A++ voice acting from Liam O'Brien.

Bill wanted to use Claire as the first test subject for the time machine. Dimitri claimed to vehemently oppose the idea. He didn’t want to risk Claire getting hurt, even though she didn’t return his feelings.

Those are his exact words Claire ‘didn’t return his feelings’. Not ‘I never told Claire my feelings’. So... sounds like Claire turned him down, probably because she was already in love with Hershel. Reminder that Claire makes her own choices and takes responsibility for them like an adult.

Despite this, Dimitri kept working on the time machine and trying to save Claire. Claire begged him to stop, but Dimitri wouldn’t listen, so Claire knew they had to get Hershel involved. In a way, Dimitri brought Claire and Hershel back together.

Dimitri has 3 disguises in Unwound Future. (Beat that, Descole.) For the first one, ‘Dr Stangun’ he literally just stuck on a moustache- it was so obvious even Bill Hawks looked suspicious. Then he didn’t even try to alter his voice with the Future Layton disguise. I’ll admit, his bar tender getup had me fooled. It’s hilarious when he puts on this higher-pitched accent and talks to “‘Ershel”... This is the first and only time the bartender has a voiced line after his identity has been revealed. Why did they even bother? It’s like Liam Obrien just wanted to do this accent lmao     

He owns a bar

Probably hates Doctor Who for all its time travel errors 

He has 4 - FOUR - profiles that you can unlock at the end of the game

He’s one of the only villains to call Professor Layton ‘Hershel’ consistently. Not even Descole, his own brother, did that. Randall, Layton’s high school best friend, did. Makes you wonder if Dimitri wanted to be Hershel’s friend- or at least an ally. He’s constantly trying to win Hershel over to his way of thinking with the time machine.  

He’s well-spoken and polite. He actually talks to Luke a couple of times... Dimitri is like an awkward uncle trying to connect with the kids

On the other hand, Dimitri Allen is savage af. Did you see how he insulted Chelmey and how he gaslit Bill at the time machine presentation? No pun intended

The face he pulls here makes me laugh:

(”So done with your crap, Clive.”)

In his Trivia section of the Layton Fandom Wiki, it says, ‘It is unknown if Dimitri went to prison with Clive after the events of the game.’ But we see Barton has him in chains during the credit pictures, so it’s implied he was arrested? And he did agree to ‘close the book’ on the time machine in the end. That’s not to fault the Layton Wiki creators, they work hard

Dimitri is one of the only characters who doesn’t give our heroes any specific puzzles, aside from the Puzzle Battles, which are awesome. I consider ‘Puzzle Battle’ Dimitri’s theme song. (Yes, I know Clive used it first but Dimitri deserves it more.)

He can teleport, apparently 

He disappeared from the time travel presentation with Bill and that’s never explained? Therefore, he can teleport.

‘In the blink of an eye, I lost my life’s work and the love of my life. To say I was a broken man would be an understatement.” Ouch.

[zeltqz]

firstly, I never said YOU called mahito annoying and if I made it come across that way then sorry, but my original post was how his followers are hypocritical towards other characters. Im not talking about you, I’m gesturing towards his annoying fans

secondly, why are you making my experience out to be nothing like? just because you get told to kys and get called racial slurs(which is something i experience too) doesn't make it any less bad because its a fandom thing. im talking about MY UNIQUE experience interacting with nanami stans, that was the whole original point bruh its the reason WHY i dislike HIS STANS because of the way they act towards ME

thirdly, me seeing nanami is bland is SUBJECTIVE OPINION, every thing i say about that man is subjective and its MY opinion because thats how I SEE him. I don't like characters that are stoic , dont have a sense of humour and are too serious,

People mahito annoying all the time, i personally dont give two shits what you call him. ive heard people call mahito way bigger shit and even called him a r@pist which makes no sense but ok. im not gonna go send them paragrahphs, explaining his character and why he isn't 'annoying'.

People allowed to have their subjective opinion on mahito being annoying but its a crime when i have mine about nanami being bland?

fourthly, I AM NOT ATTRACTED TO THAT MAN. I have no intentions of calling him hot daddy in fact im cringing right now just thinking about it. me calling his personality bland isnt a slap in the face to gege, that man would not care at all pls

Personality DOES NOT equal writing. thats something you cannot seem to seperate

I never once said nanami was a badly written character. show me when the fuck i said that? you can be a stoic character and still be well written. i dont know if you missed the fucking part where i said i think nanami is one of the top five written characters in the show but i put it in bold for you this time so you dont miss it

im aware of his role in the story, his mentor relationship towards itadori, how he made sure to say his words carefully when he died so he wouldn't accidentally curse yuuji; he's a WELL WRITTEN CHARACTER.

but im not talking about his writing, im talking about his PERSONALITY. It's not for me, i dont like characters that barely show emotion or feelings or are too work obsesssed. blah blah. i think that type of character personality is BLAND. im allowed to have that fucking opinion and i dont need you sending me paragraphs on why im not allowed to think that

FIFTHLY (i dont even know if thats a word anymore but idc) im aware WHY people dont like mahito. i dont CARE if people like him, thats not my damn buisness or not. im not here to like the most popular character , im here to like those that interest me.

Jjk manga spoilers ⚠️⚠️ below

Mahito interests me, he did from the get go. i dont care that he killed nanami, nobara etc. It was sad yeah but am i gonna stop liking him? no. because i actually take the time to understand his character

youre claiming because i think nanami is bland that im insulting geges writing? the fandom are doing the EXACT SAME thing to mahito.

they dont care why mahito is the way he is, and the way he is is literally BECAUSE OF US HUMANS. he is a curse made from the HATRED OF HUMANS. WE CAUSED IT. not us necessarily but the people in jjk but you get my point.

NOBODY CARES how well written of a villan mahito actually is and just go straight to slandering him which in my opinion is more of a slap in the face to geges writing

SIXTHLY i dont need a nuacned point of view for anybody. im allowed my opinion of a character and unless its spreading misinformation then i dont have any right to change that opinion. if you dont think nanamis stoic personality is bland good for you, but I do and im sure other people do too.

Same way people think gojos outgoing personality is annoying. Am i gonna call them out and try to tell them its not? No, because people like DIFFERENT things.

People prefer more introverted stoic characters and find extrovertged outgoing talkative characters more annoying. SURE good for them. its their personal preference.

now leave me alone pls this is EXACTLY why i hate talking about nanami because it always turns to this, nobody can handle opinons anymore. the man aint done nothing wrong yet stans like you make me hate talking abt the man because you cannot handle a different opinion

not once did i ever mischaractise that man, the shit i said about being a virgin was a joke idc if he is one or not. i was referring to FANON nanami and how they percieve him as something thats not him and then get mad at me when i don't want to percive him in that same way

canon nanami is a stoic character and hell maybe i dont understand his character as well as you do but im still allowed to think his personality is bland unless ive seen something that will change my mind

i mean the mans favourite food is bread for gods sake that man is so bland. once again its a personal opinon so stop getting butthurt i dont view him in the same way you do

is it just me or is Mahito better looking than Nanami…Like idk im not a big fan of men who look like they’re pushing 60 but actually younger than Gojo, thats just me though 😭

Why is this literally my thought process I LOVE YOU

people slander mahuto like yeah okay he killed ur fave characters, boohoo he’s a villan that’s what he does. Im not telling you to be mahitos biggest fan but people act like he’s the ugliest character in the show when nanamid is RIGHT THERE LIKE

That man is so bland and boring I cannot be attracted to him. It would be different if nanami was attractive, at least i could get behind that and be like okay ur boring but hot. Cool. But he’s UGLY and BORING? pick a fucking struggle dawg

I’m boutta get cancelled for saying this but idgaf

Mahito is so much prettier than nanami, his design is awesome and I fucking love his voice actor so much.

Anyway here’s my fave photos of mahito 👌🏾🤌🏾

He’s so beautiful I’m gonna cry

If he didn’t scare me as much as he did I would have definitely written smut about him by now

I don’t even hate nanami, I have no opinion on him aside from he’s ugly and boring. The reason I dislike nanami is because his stans get so upset when someone says they don’t like him, and act like other people are weird for not liking him. If I say mahito>nanami they’ll start calling me crazy blah blah,

Like okay he’s a gentleman whatever but idc I need someone with a mouth yk? If I call u a dumb bitch u better call me one back. That’s my love language🫶🏾

People created this narrative of nanami that he’s some alpha male dominated sex god when that’s not true like are we looking at the same man?? Canon nanami is a fucking virgin, pulls 0 bitches and would crumble within 3 seconds being inside a woman.

They get so mad I don’t like this fanon version of nanami they created inside their mind like okay sorry I don’t look at him the same way u do💀 it’s all about criticising characters until it’s a character they love

[rjalker]

OKAY RULE1 for writing autistic characters:  The labels of “High-functioning” and “low-functioning” are. Well to put it plainly, they are actively and absolutely harmful. They are used to silence autistic people. If you are deemed low-functioning, you are therefore unable to make any decisions for yourself, thus, you are put in the control of others. If you are deemed high-functioning, it is also used to silence you, because you aren’t “really” autistic. Do not use these labels unless it is specifically the bad guys using them, or if the characters are very obviously uninformed and ignorant of what they are contributing to by using these labels.

Rule 2:  Aspergers is the same thing as autism. Aspergers is usually just applied to “”High-functioning”” autistics because it sounds nicer than autism. They are the exact same thing.

Rule 3:  This should be obvious. But autistic people do not “suffer” from autism. And we are not people with autism. We are autistic people. Believe it or not there is a difference, and it is important. If I hadn’t been born autistic, I would not be me. You can’t separate the brain from the mind. You can’t separate autism from the soul.

Rule 4: Being diagnosed with autism doesn’t suddenly make you an entirely new person. Someone you know being diagnosed doesn’t mean that they are an entirely new person. Autism is like gravity---even before we gave it a name, even before we acknowledged it and realizing that “hey, this is a thing!” It was still there. Still making apples fall out of trees. Just because you find out that someone is autistic doesn’t mean your entire perception of them needs to change. They’re still the same person you’ve always known. Just like you know that gravity exists before you’re taught about it in school. Just because you don’t have a word for something doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist.

Rule 5: We are not sick. Autism is not an illness. I don’t care if you have a kid that’s autistic and you’re sad that they’ll never say to you “I love you” or hold your hand. There are more ways to express affection than hand-holding and verbal declarations. We are not sick. We do not need to be cured. I don’t care if you think we’re sad miserable things that will never meet arbitrary life goals. We are people. We just happen to be different.

Rule 6: Do not write an autistic character just because you want a gold star. Do not write an autistic character because you want to be able to say your story is diverse. Do not write an autistic character so that you can get some imaginary trophy. If you’re going to write an autistic character, it should be because you really care about the subject. It should be because you want to learn as much as you want to teach. Do not write autistic characters so that you can pat yourself on the back and give yourself brownie points. Write an autistic character because you really, genuinely, care.

Rule 7: Don’t tag something as involving autism if it’s literally just a background character that shows up for 0.2 seconds and doesn’t even have a major impact on the story or any real role at all. Not only is that obnoxious for people trying to find fics about autistic characters, it’s insulting. We are not objects you take off a shelf to show off, and then stick back when you don’t want us anymore. Either go all the way or don’t do anything at all.

Rule 8: We are not children. We do not “have the mind of an X year old”. If an autistic person is twelve, they do not “have the mind of a three year old.” They have the mind of an autistic twelve year old. Do not infantize us. Do not treat us like children.

Rule 9: DO. NOT. USE. THE. R-WORD. AS. A. DESCRIPTOR. DO NOT DO IT. IT IS A SLUR. DO NOT USE IT IN CASUAL CONTEXT UNLESS SOMEONE IS GOING TO REACT TO IT LIKE THE SLUR IT IS. 

Rule 10: Do not make “high-functioning” autistics look down on “low-functioning” autistics unless this behavior is explicitly shown to be in the wrong and completely misguided.

Rule 11: I don’t know what it’s called but that thing? Where people “teach” autistic people to be more normal? Where they force autistic people to make eye contact and not stim or walk on their toes and stuff? Yeah. That’s not a good thing. At all. Do not make it out to be a good thing unless this is later proven absolutely and disastrously damaging and wrong.

If you are autistic and have something to add, PLEASE FEEL FREE.

Allistics, please feel free to reblog. No, having an autistic family member does not give you free reign to add your own rules. This is meant to be a list of rules written BY AUTISTIC PEOPLE for the benefit of allistic writers so that we can read things without wanting to die of brain implosion.

[henryheartss]

i saw a video titled "the commentary community it dying" and tbh i dont see why thats a bad thing

a lot of commentators ive seen are just flat out pieces of shit. making videos on some really harmless stuff because they simply dont like it, and it attracts other people who just hate on most things because it doesnt align perfectly with how they see things.

like mental illness and the fact not everyone acts the same exact way is something a lot of them fail to grasp. "how can you be so happy all the time, you must be on drugs" dude what are you on about?? plus its funny to go from a well made video on bad reaction channels to go to one where the girl literally is actually reacting and talking and this guy sees it as a bad thing.

not to mention most of the community are white cishet guys who think saying the f-slur and r-word and autistic are fine because they cant see how it actually affects us who are in those communities. (of which im in all three categories, i say for the r-word because ive been called it before many times because people see it and autistic as the same thing) (not to mention why would you want to normalize words you are using as insults anyways?? what good does it do besides make you not look bad when you say them and get crickets) its funny that we apparently cant speak for ourselves and the people with literally the most power are just allowed to dictate what can and cannot be said. (reminds me of y33nshuman (spelt with e's not 3's) that i used to be in his discord and he told my transgf that she is just a cloutchaser and that everyone should have a say in things when my TRANSGF didnt want a dude talking over her about trans rights just because hes gay. yall got the fucking power and you dont want to give it up)

[narrowtriangle33-blog]

Please share this article, please do.

"You cannot call Black people monkeys, apes, or any other form of primate. It is racist. That is why Black people across the globe raged about that H&M hoodie and why Netflix really should make some changes with it’s Sanrio show Aggretsuko.

No, it is not racist if someone calls you a monkey or an ape. It’s mean, yes, but it is not the same. Here is why:

This view of Black people as animals, essentially, is more than just a mean name to call someone. It has had violent, history altering, culture destroying effects upon people of the Africa diaspora, effects still viewed today as per the latest Rosanne tweet (that has, effectively, ended her show, and hopefully her career).

Where does all of this come from? While it is difficult to pinpoint the exact moment when Africans and those descended from them were labeled as subhuman, ie apes and monkeys, there are many comparisons so well embedded within history, culture and even in areas of science, they can be blamed on some of the most casual observations (that we would now not even consider to be good, quality, or effective science) such as:

the wide variety of great apes in Africa (because if there are so many apes on a continent, then the people living there must be close to them, right? Cue eye roll);

the “aesthetic distance” between White and Black people. Black people just look different from White people, and these differences where harped upon as a form, from the White perspective, of physical “otherness”. This otherness was viewed not just as diversity as one would see in many other species of the same race in different climates, but as a deviant in the worst way;

the higher esteem generally given to European civilizations as opposed to against African civilizations (off the top of your head: how many countries can you name in Europe as opposed to African ones?)

and above all the global trauma of hundreds of years of slavery in modernity, which embedded into the global consciousness those of Black skin as perpetual subhumans."

"Hundreds of years slavery required reducing people to objects. This required systematic dehumanization. After all, if I view you and your family as I would a chair set I find at a thrift store, but I only need one chair, it is easy for me to break up the set by only taking one of you and not feel guilty that I am destroying a family.

Science of the time, really didn’t help matters. Josiah C. Nott and George R. Gliddon, both leading scientists of the day, in their 1854 Types of Mankind, documented what they saw as “objective racial hierarchies”. These observations featured illustrations and diagrams comparing Black people to chimpanzees, gorillas, and orangutans. This document was not a strange fringe work but a well known and well respects piece of scientific literature for the day.

And then comes Darwinism. Charles Darwin’s 1859 work, “On the Origin of Species”, while revolutionary, did not discredit previous scientific racism. Instead, Darwinism would become the new racial orthodoxy, thus furthering and justifying White colonialism and domination as proof of the evolutionary superiority of the White ethnicity.

The rationale goes like this: if we all came from apes and there are more apes on the continent of Africa than anywhere else, and the people living there sort of resemble apes, than surely they are the first forms of evolution from apes and White people, who looked so different and lived in places where there were no apes but only other humans, must be evolutionarily superior than those on the continent of Africa. And because they are so evolutionarily close to apes, they must be less human than those of European decent and thus more animal like.

Thus justifying previous atrocities such as colonialism of the continent, Black genocide, chattel slavery, and the whole 3/5ths of a human thing…

Popular culture didn’t help either, with Birth of a Nation, the first film to be streamed in the White House, portraying Black people as violent and virulent animals. That led to Jim Crow legislation.

"The film King Kong, where a large, fierce ape breaks free from his bondage and wreaks havoc on New York and kidnaps a white woman, was released around the same time as the Scottsboro Boys trial, where 9 Black young men between the ages of 13 up to 20 were falsely accused of raping 2 White women, an ordeal of trials that would last over 50 years."

"And these dehumanizations aren’t just stuck in the Civil Rights era. Michelle Obama was frequently referred to as an ape or monkey aren’t just for as recently as THIS week, we see MAGA monger, Rosanne Barr calling forever former President Obama’s top aide, Valerie Jarrett an ape, a since deleted and weakly apologized for tweet that cost her her ABC show (and unfortunately hundreds of people their jobs.)"

"As you can see, with examples of Rosanne, H&M, and many others, there is definite hell to pay for attempting to subhuman people of the diaspora. White people are literally losing their jobs and livelihoods on using this racial slur, even and especially in Trump’s America."

I cannot believe that I, in the year of our Lord, 2018, must explain why it is racist and bigoted to call people of African decent monkeys, apes, simian, or anything of that nature. Because it isn’t just a mean thing to say. It’s not just an insult on someone’s appearance, but letting these words fall from your mouth harken to a history, even still observed today."

"It is the same history that refuses sports stars their born right to protest police brutality. It’s the same history that tells Lebron James that he should shut up and dribble. It is the same history that tells us and a culture we are to be afraid of the black guy in the hoodie, even if he is a kid walking home from school in the rain. It’s the same history that, when Black people proclaim Black Lives Matter and Don’t Shoot, White people answer, not in affirmation yes!, but instead “well, wait” and “let’s see when all of the facts come out”. It is the same history that violently arrests Chikesia Clemons and brutality murders Tamir Rice, but gently arrests Santa Fe and Parkland school shooters."

It is a history of colonialism despite the locals, enslavement for free labor, rape for pleasure, lynching for sport. It is seeing Black people as not human, and therefore, not worth affirming as such."

[templeofulchtar]

My Starscream Initiation, Part 2

This is the second in a series of posts about how I came to this path. Part 1 covered some early encounters with Eagle presences, foreshadowing my "meeting" Starscream in my late teens, and my intense reaction to his death in Transformers: The Movie.

Above: “Say goodnight to your Megatron!” And yet it somehow never occurred to me that he might be... gay. (Pic from “Enter the Nightbird.”

Holy Words, Redux

"We don't even learn who the point-of-view character is until page two," the zine editor pointed out in her comments. It was true. It had taken me a good few hundred words to get to the point where I was able to type S-t-a-r-s-c-r-e-a-m on my mother's cast-iron manual typewriter. I had this wierd shyness around using his name. It was like those first "holy words" I'd whispered into the night. Sacred, yet also strangely embarrassing.

In retrospect, I think using his name made me feel vulnerable. Names are powerful. I knew that, because I had just changed mine, and writing Starscream's name on the page was like putting my love for him in a concrete form where others would be able to see it and, if they chose, attack it. I'd already heard plenty of unkind comments about how Starscream "deserved" his fate in the Movie, and there was a part of me that wanted to keep that love to myself.

At the same time, I also desperately wanted to share it, and so eventually was launched...

The Good Ship Mary Sue

I suppose most people's early fanfiction is pretty embarrassing, and mine was no exception. My single motivation was for someone to be there to catch Starscream after he tumbles off-screen at the end of Ghost in the Machine*, so naturally, I gave him a girlfriend. Optimus Prime had one, after all, so why shouldn't Starscream?

Yeah, not the most thoughtful reasoning. Then again, it was a decade before the internet was to become a thing. My contact with fannish culture was limited to what I could glean from the handful of zines I'd bought through mail-order, and a dozen or so Transformers fans I'd managed to contact through the letters section of Marvel's Transformers comic. I had never heard the term "Mary Sue," and had o idea that what I'd just created was one of the biggest cliches in fandom. I actually thought I was being pretty original!

Anyway, the editors of the zine that I submitted it to were kind enough to point out to me that my creation, well… wasn't that good, though they did publish part of the story. I was upset at the time, though in retrospect I'm grateful they didn't print the whole thing. I'm also grateful that they put me in touch with another Transformers fanfic writer who had also written for their zine. In our brief but eventful correspondence, this writer casually mentioned that she thought Starscream was... gay.

Seriously! It never even crossed my mind.

Gay?

I remember staring at that word as if it was in a foreign language. It literally did not compute. I'd heard of gay people, of course, but almost always in a negative context. Calling someone "gay" was an insult, and I was more than used to people making insulting comments about Starscream, but this… was different. I didn't sense that this person was being negative, just stating what she thought to be a fact.

Gay, I thought, and after a moment something released inside me. like a long-held breath. Oh, of course he is. And… maybe I am, too.

Please understand that I'm not making any absolute claims about Starscream's sexual orientation. It's just what felt true for me in the moment, and still does. To me, he is more or less what humans would consider gay. (As for whether that's a thing on Cybertron, I would argue that it probably isn't, but that's a topic for a whole other essay.)

But I did suddenly understand why my Mary Sue character had never quite seemed convincing, even to me, and it also cast my long, secret struggle with my own sexuality in a different light. If Starscream could be gay, then I could be too. It was as if he had, once again, let me know that it was okay to be my true self.

Above: Out of focus pic of me in 1987 or so, wearing a shirt on which my friend Starshadow had painted a picture of Starscream. I wish I still had that shirt! (Photo taken by mom.)

Starscream the Awakener

It's telling that he repeatedly acts as an awakener in the Transformers TV series. He does it first by inadvertently awakening Optimus Prime from his long stasis hibernation, thus bringing the Cybertronian war to Earth. A few episodes later, he awakens Skyfire. Later still, he awakens a group of condemned criminals and gives them a new collective identity as the Combaticons, and last but not least, he awakens Unicron so that he can bargain with him for a new body.

It seems fitting that Starscream played that exact role for me as well. In a few short months, he had liberated my emotions by making it safe to express my long-buried anger. He'd spurred me to write, thus liberating my creativity, and now he had pushed me to begin the long process of exploring my sexuality. He'd helped me find my voice, change my name, and take my first, hesitant steps toward independence.

The Gift

By the summer of 1987, though, I'd started to run out of that precious anger. The well was running dry, and a kind of transcendent bliss was seeping in to replace it. It scared the hell out of me. Rage was my thing, intimately associated it with my connection to Starscream. He was all about anger and rebellion, not this floaty feeling that kept washing over me. I tried to push it away and cling to the rage, but I couldn't; in losing the rage, I felt as if I was losing him.

I was also getting to the point where I was going to have to move out into that big, scary world I was so afraid of. I suspected that I wouldn't have time for writing fanfic, and the fandom was already showing signs of dissolution. In just a few years, I suspected that no one would even remember who Starscream was. I didn't know what to do. I was simultaneously blissed-out and petrified. It was at that point that I received a gift from Starscream in the form of a dream.

This was one of those dreams you wake from knowing that you'll never be quite the same. I wrote a journal entry describing it in detail, so I won't attempt to summarize it here except to say that it remains the single most profound spiritual experience of my life, and I can still feel its effects even now, decades later. Details to come in the next post...