#like ive been doing it basically since i got on the internet

[proshippers-against-censorship]

Long ask incoming so i really apologise for that lol.

in my honest opinion yaelokre is going about this incredibly wrong. but the way people have been talking about not only their characters (to be clear im not saying this because of "blah blah they're children" fake morality stuff or whatever lmao im a proshipper myself—but one of the main characters is quite literally meant to represent/be keath themself) but about them themself (sending them rape threats, threatening to draw them having sex with their characters?? I've seen a lot on the internet these past couple days, especially in proship spaces, which is so upsetting to me because I had so much more faith in our community 😭)... All this is incredibly disgusting to watch. and disheartening.

Are they going about this incredibly irresponsibly? Yes! Is it naive for them to expect that no rule 34 is created whatsoever? Yeah, probably! But they did explicitly say they dont want the characters directly representing their own childhood (including one who's basically their own persona) sexualised, much less have it sent directly to them (which it was—that's how we even got to this point, anyway) and going ahead and mocking this boundary directly, and then encouraging people to do it out of spite feels... off to me. dunno. (To be clear i think, once again, their actions are incredibly dumb and irresponsible. They're not justified in doing any of that and im not trying to say they are lol.)

(And, while we're here, there's a difference between gigantic heavily funded capitalist projects like disney, and Some Guy working on one deeply personal thing all by themself for free. Do whatever you want with like. Thousand dollar franchises with no specific human faces behind them, but it feels so weird to tear into someone's passion project theyre making out of love for free. Idk where else in my message this point fits so I'm leaving it here.)

I can't help but be reminded of antis tearing into my own work to "fix" it simply because i was a proshipper. On paper people can do whatever they want with fiction, can't they? Of course—but taking a story i made to cope with my trauma and spitefully twisting it to their own wants for no reason other than because I was a proshipper is still harrassment, still done with malice, and—proship/anti stuff removed—an objectively fucked up and mean fucking thing to do. Artists making shit for free do not owe you anything and that includes not owing you their comfortability with people interacting with their personal projects they are sharing with others (for free!! When they don't have to!!!) in certain ways. The same way they also don't owe you being comfortable with unprompted criticism and whatever else.

The "fiction is fiction" argument doesn't hold up when it starts to hurt real people. They aren't a bad person simply for not wanting their personal project sexualised (which—you could argue "that's not the problem, the problem is how theyre going about handling it it," which i agree with; but there are several posts on this very blog and countless others mocking them entirely for simply wanting their work not sexualised, and several posts encouraging others to make sexual content of their characters out of spite. Im not saying it's sexual harrassment but god it does start to feel like it's somewhere in that realm.) This isn't the first time anything like this has happened in their community, ive been here since the beginning, and in the beginning they were so unbelievably calm and polite about their boundaries and then people started directly dming them nsfw and things spiraled and here we are.

I've used the pottery analogy to explain this before—imagine someone puts a ceramic sculpture down on a table. It belongs to them, and they're very clearly proud of it. You could push it off the table and break it if it makes you happy, you won't even face any real consequences if you do. They'll just be really upset, rightfully so—it's their thing that they physically made. Maybe they even made it as a coping mechanism, only they know for sure. And they ask you to handle it gently if you decide pick it up. There's a billion things you theoretically could do, having now been made aware of this clear boundary, but only two are right—either handling it gently, or simply not picking it up in the first place.

You're a shitty person if you push it off the table. Using excuses like "there are lots of people in this room, someone was going to decide to break it eventually" doesn't suddenly absolve you morally because you are a sentient being, not a mindless robot slaving to statistics. Maybe statistically it was going to get broken eventually, it still doesn't make it right because you chose to break it yourself, directly going against what they asked you to do when handling their property, simply because it made you happy. I know full well you would not purposely damage or otherwise ignore clear boundaries or guidelines when it comes to someone's physical shit in real life. The concept of having boundaries about your own things that you made and own is not new and having to follow others' boundaries is not you being oppressed it's just being a decent human being.

Fictional characters' feelings don't matter more than real peoples'. But your own real person feelings of Mild Disappointment at not being to make porn for something you (evidently) don't even like that much ALSO don't matter more than the creator's massive upset and discomfort at direct representations of them (real person!!!) being sexualised.

TL;DR: yeah it's stupid of them to try to Anne Rice this whole situation. And yes they deserve to be called out for it and face the consequences for their actions. But let's... not treat them like it's so bafflingly unreasonable and evil of them for simply not wanting people to sexualise characters who are meant to be a direct representation of them (real person!!!!) as a child and let's EXTRA not break their boundaries even further. Their actions are stupid, yes. But their desires are like. A perfectly normal thing to want, if a little naive. harrassment is still harrassment. Being spiteful and vicious isn't suddenly okay when you're on the "right side" with the Right Opinions doing it. Being anti-harrassment doesn't only apply to people you like.

This ask isn't meant to come off as hostile or mean or anything so I sincerely apologise if it does. Wishing you the best. I also apologise if anything in this ask reads wrong it's late at night and im recovering from a concussion lol.

Fair enough.

I'm team 'break rules, not boundaries'.

By all means, show their Anne Rice approach is stupid by creating nsfw and properly tagging it and posting it to proper spaces. Fill R34 with that. Create nsfw fanworks on AO3 with proper tags. Go ham. But they clearly don't want to see it, so don't send it to them.

You wouldn't send porn of characters to any other creator without them asking. And you shouldn't be sending rape threats either. That's fucked up.

There's a difference between acting out of spite and acting out of malice, and I won't dispute the fact that some people are taking things quite far and doing the latter.

You can say a rule is dumb without taking steps to directly harm.

[24hrsoda]

hey hi hello 24hrsoda!!!!!! i sent an adk a while ago basically saying that ur like The Ra's Blog™ to me and i am back again but to thank you this time!!!! to thank you for basically kick-starting my appreciation and general love for ra's!!!!!!

i found your blog through those drawings u made of the bats as. well. as bats and ive rlly just tuned in since!!! and then i got recommended your drawings with ra's and the bat bats (haha) and kid talia and just generally being a good guy and it was intriguing to me at the beginning!!!! since back then i was still following the general (unfortunately) popular fanon interpretation of ra's as an evil scummy irredeemable bad guy and from those drawings i just kept checking out your ra's content and slowly getting invested in him outside of the bad guy fanon ra's view i knew

and like. idk i phrased this differently in my head BUT!!!!! those drawings of you really did shift my interpretation of him and has gotten me interested in like saving up to read his comics and because of those drawings i enjoy taking a scroll (haha. get it.) thru his tag on here (so much filtered out tim posts. not fun.) and i just like thinking about him in general!!!! i like to doodle him and see posts about him!!!!!!! and it was all because of those drawings you made!!!!!!

to you it may just be rather insignificant or unimportant when you post those drawings of a ra's that is good and loves his family and is more than the fanon interpretation that he's stuck with!!!!!! to you it may just be regular fun sharing your interpretations of ra's!!!!!!! but idk i just find it really important for you to know that i do deeply appreciate all the posts you make about him and it's important to me that you know that it was genuinely impactful for me!!!!!! i am not kidding at all!!!!!!!! i gained a genuine appreciation for ra's in general and that appreciation of him has led me to being just generally happy because having characters i like thinking about a lot makes me happy!!!!!!!!! you have impacted me very positively with just that!!!!!!!!

i know we may just be strangers on the internet and me growing to like a character just because of your fanart may be insignificant on the grand scheme but i dnt care!!!!!!!!! thank you genuinely from the bottom of my heart!!!!!!!!!! peace and love on planet tumblr forever fr!!!!!!!!

awww thank you! i really appreciate it! it’s fun that someone out there thinks of the as the ra’s al ghul guy. he totally just captivated me, i got sooo fixated on him, and it’s honestly been kind of fun to read about him.

i don’t think it’s insignificant either! i stumbled upon ghost-maker by accident while looking at someone else’s blog, (they’re now a mutual of mine <3) and was interested in him and then i fell so in love with him now that i have tattoos and made merch and cosplayed him because i came to adore him so much. sometimes a small little spike of interest can lead to something so much more.

also, i read so many of Ra’s al Ghul’s comics online using free sites! comics can get so expensive and trying to collect physical copies can be hard! don’t ever feel bad for reading stuff online for free :)

usually i read stuff online and if i really like it i’ll go buy the physical copy in a store or order it online

[animalinvestigator]

any manga recommendations?

yessss oh my gosh always, gladly. so honored you would ask little ol me about such a thing... i haven't been reading much lately so here's just a little list of things ive picked up in the past few months or things i've liked for a long time..... all of them are on mangadex so just look em up... Im editing this to put them under the cut sorry i didn't do it before ive been on the clock for like 4 hours and im tired Lights cigarette

fool night yasuda kasumi !!! it's currently ongoing and i recently got caught up... if i had to describe it in two words.. "post-chainsawman." it's very similar in a lot of ways, but has very different priorities.. what i really like about it is that it has kind of a tighter focus on the "poverty and capitalism" angle that chainsawman definitely covers but doesn't really devote its full attention to. in a world where the sun no longer shines, plants can't grow, so humans are constantly at a deficit of oxygen... to combat this, government facilities offer a payout to desperate people who can't afford to live if they allow themselves to be "transflorated" -- basically fed on by a magical spiritual plant that will eventually kill them and release oxygen in their stead. one such desperate person undergoes the procedure only to find he has the special ability to communicate with transflorated bodies after theyve passed... and then he becomes a Plants Detective and shenanigans ensue. Super good it made me cry... art is beautiful..... definitely worth a read if youre looking to pick up something ongoing

babel no toshokan by tsubana - stumbled upon this after reading the artist's other work "wakusei closet" on a whim... this shorter story is much preferred and has engraved itself deeply on my heart. a girl with a strange set of beliefs about reality enters a strange relationship with a boy who can read everything that's ever been written just by touching an identical sheath of paper..... seriously so good. give it a go if you want something short and sweet

planet laika & scorched earth of love by mayuri yoshida, this is a short manga and one shot bundled with it that has been one of my favorites for like FOUR YEARS NOW!!! mayuri yoshida's sickly cute animal people + loving intricate lineart combine to create a really unique visual aesthetic. its about the titular laika , as in, the dog launched into space, who has since become the ruler of a planet of dogs, and her plot to take revenge on humanity. also she has a lesbian wife. the one shot is so good too SO DONT MISS IT!!!

anyone who has heard me talk about comics for the past year or so probably knows i've been trying to get Just yknow everybody on earth to read dead dead demon's dedededestruction by inio asano. nothing i could ever possibly say about it could do it justice it's seriously my favorite manga of all time. it's about being in love with your best friend and the end of the world and aliens and politics and the internet and stuff. asano's art is truly breathtaking and unlike anything else on earth, the characters are all infectiously lovable, and it's just like... endlessly life affirming and heals my heart in a way i have a hard time articulating.

and last one... not strictly manga but i have really enjoyed keeping up with wanan's webcomic no home recently... its a long one, but i read about 275 chapters of it in like 3 days, because it's that hard to put down, LOL... extremely inspiring character writing and also just insanely fun, eunyung became an all time favorite character of mine on impact and it has one of those casts where you can't help but have fun watching them be together in literally any situation. it's about a bunch of kids with shitty family situations trying to figure out to learn to live with eachother. its an extremely good example of mundane character drama being written so compellingly that it will make you start slamming your head on walls at work. Speaking from experience.

miscellany... everyone tells you to read witch hat atelier, do it its good... everyone tells you to read dungeon meshi do that its good... Chainsaw man part 2 is getting crazy right now ...... uhhh... i have a billion more so if none of those interest you let me know and i'll share more. thank yew so much for your interest in my opinions and i hope there's something here you can appreciate!!!~~

[gisellecnz]

Hello everyone, I just want to confess something... I just felt like I did the most worst crime ever. (I'm sorry if how I'm writing this whole thing looks immature? and also on how I've been using wrong words to use. 😭) And it is something I want to start avoiding from now on.

As you can see, I am a minor. Yes a minor, probably way younger than you think... 😭 (but not too young though. I just don't want to tell my actual age.) (And also please continue reading before you do anything)

Ever since pandemic, its where people have been quarantined inside their homes for like, 2-3 years, right? And because of that most people do then was just be on their phones all the time.

I also did that���and now I've been exposed and influenced to a lot of things especially on social media. (I had unrestricted internet access ever since I was a kid)

I currently think about it a lot of times now, and it's actually so bad about how I got exposed by a bunch of things...even though I was so young. (like dirty jokes, etc.) And I think I have grown up way too fast... You can see it in how I typed in my other posts, and it's now how I naturally type. 😭

(Okay, I don't know how to explain this part well... Generally, I'm very bad at explaining. But I hope you guys somehow understand 😭. ) (Please ask me questions if there are things you don't quite understand, I don't really elaborate well when it comes to these stuff)

That was also the time i grew an obsession over anime. And I also had crushes on anime characters to the point I figured out people wrote fics about them. Like, "[character name] x reader" and then boom I figured about smut.. Pls 😭 I really didn't care about the "mdni" warning back then. (I don't know if I'm using this term right, but it's something like I got hypersexual? I'm sorry, but I think it's just something similar to that.)

And now I've become a writer as my hobby, I downloaded tumblr almost a year ago so that I could post my works and also read others fics.

And ever since yesterday i had realized something 😭. And I am so sorry about my behavior on this. Even though I'm not in the right age yet, I still readed smut. And smut is like.. Considered porn right? And most of the authors I follow, or people ive talked to in tumblr are like around 19+. Others are even in college and have their own jobs too. And one of my favorite authors is like 12 years older than me. And some authors I follow also write smut. I also ignored mdni parts in their works. 😭

So this is basically what happened (because I am very bad at explaining so I just put it like in a story way):

I am a minor who reads smut, which are only intended for adults. I knew it wasn't appropriate for me but I just brushed it off.

And then one day when I realized I was talking to older people, something clicked in my mind 😭. They are ADULTS. They are in the appropriate age to read smut. (I mean, of course, but I just brushed it off back then.) Then they had "mdni" in their bio. So, that realization made me uncomfy 😭. It's like I made a really huge crime. And I've also become an author on this app, I can't just go on without telling the truth. From now on I'll try to avoid reading smut. Guys it's basically like you're an toddler who suddenly gained consciousness

Again, I am very very sorry for just brushing off the mdni back then 😭. But I'll still continue to read the sfw ones only.

To the other authors there who write sfw and nsfw, please I promise you that I will only read the safe ones now and not the nsfw anymore. 😔 

But it is definitely okay if you want to block me. Thank you for reading this whole explanation! I've learn my lesson now 😭

I just readed this whole thing again and I realized how messy it looked... But either way I can't change it because its the most best way I explained this 😔

[manie-sans-delire-x]

Are you a terf? I'm genuinely asking because I'd like to know. And why not or why are you?

I didn't even know what "terf" or "tra" or any of this nonsense was 3 yrs ago. I miss that.

But yeah sure why not. Or not, if you don't think I am. I think a lot of "tra/gendies" type people would say I was, but a lot of "terf/radfem" types would say I'm a very problematic and undedicated one at best, which is true. I think the ideology and worldview is correct and accurate of reality, but I'm not subscribed to their promoted practices, although I do support them.

Keep yapping

As in like, I still choose to shave my legs, wear makeup, date/have sex with men. I want a nose job. I sometimes enjoy being catcalled. I sometimes sell nudes and I'm an ex(?) prostitute. I like kinky BDSM sex. But I can separate my individual personhood and choices from the overall, objective reality of the world and what I think is healthy for women in general.

If taking the term terf literally- I am a feminist for sure, I don't think I'm radical at all, I actually think it's all basic old school feminism and just common sense and blatant reality. I don't exclude trans people, I hope everyone supports feminism and womens rights, regardless if theyre trans or not. Thats irrelevant. Thats just one trait of who someone is, and the recent internet trend is to treat them and themselves like thats their entire identity and personhood. Team Trans against everyone else. Obviously its an important part, but its not supposed to determine the rest of someones views and beliefs. Being trans isnt a political party.

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I've always been a leftist, voted democrat (identify independent/no party), never has a single problem with the left party til about 3 yrs ago. I've supported gay rights since I first learned what gay even was at like 10 yrs old, I once got in trouble for supporting gay/trans in elementary school in a fairly rural town, I voted for and celebrated when gay marriage was legalized- (I had just turned 18 in time to vote in my first election, I was so excited to be part of history and help achieve something genuinely good!)

I don't give a shit what clothes people wear, or what name they go by. Even what pronouns they would like me to use for them, if it truly matters so much to them. I just dont care that much. I'll be polite and respect them as a person enough to refer to them as they wish. I will always vote for trans people and gay, lesbian, bi, whatever, to have equal access to health care, education, voting rights, safety in prison, etc and have equal rights to everyone else.

Ive had/have friends who are trans, intersex, gay, lesbian, bi. I'm a straight woman but Ive had sex with women a few times. I would be open to dating a transman, if they "felt like" a male to me. And I know I know "but I have black friends" but you know what, it does point to someone not being a bigot. It does way more than it doesnt. Because be fr most real bigoted, hateful people wouldnt have "xyz" friends or even talk to them. So if terf automatically means bigot, I dont think thats fair or accurate of myself at all, and quite laughable when youve seen genuine, hateful people who want to deny equal legal rights or literally lynch people just for a trait they have. Very sheltered and dramatic use of the word. Insulting really.

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I started having a problem with the trans/gender/pronouns movement when they started the science denial. And then next came the forced invasion of private spaces (all womens spaces only of course), the silencing and policing and harassment if you dont fall in line, and the erasure of womens history and identity. Even the word woman?? Are you kidding me? That is insane. How can they preach about the importance of identity yet rip away the very word for a female human?? Half the human population? Its evil is what it is. Its wrong. Incredible misogyny and anti-feminism.

And god, the constant hate and policing and self righteousness in general. Slurs, insults, sexual threats are also commonly thrown left and right. Most have a very condescending holier than thou attitude, always so aggressive. Very unlikeable as a group.

Never trust an idealogy or group that bans you from learning about the opposition. That discourages conversation, doesnt allow disagreement or any differing opinions. That has some mantra that must never be questioned. Its the same bullshit as any church or cult. Its all the same in the end- its group-think, its social control.

This entire gender belief system comes down to nothing but magical thinking, circular logic based off feelings, hypocrisy and contradictions, ever-changing idealogy, and forced use of their terminology, even in other cultures and languages.

The most extreme TRAs I've seen were all white, and they do this although they claim to oppose white colonialism. And they try to discredit radfems by saying theyre all white feminists? Which I think is highly untrue because well, the huge 4B movement in Korea is also accused of being "radfem/terf". And from my experience, the most radfem women are brown or black or asian because they get it. White western women still have it the best in the world. Colored women are still suffering from extreme misogyny and they see it first hand everyday. Korean women say never to marry Korean men, my Japanese mother told me never to marry a Japanese man, my Japanese grandmother hides money from her husband "just in case", I know my Indian friends mom told her the same thing. They know. They get it.

You cannot use the word in its own definition. You cant say a woman is someone who feels like a woman. That is an empty definition and circular logic. And if you say its someone who feels "feminine", aka nurturing and submissive and likes pink, well thats just regressive, sexist, and conservative af.

15 years ago, the progressive take that "the youths" were pushing was that a guy could wear a pink dress (and still be a guy), that your sex didnt limit or define you, that gender roles were to be abolished. Its sad but interesting to see it come back around to repackaged gender roles.

I also grew up in the time where white Christian republican moms hated Harry Potter and banned their kids from reading them because it was "witchcraft", demonic, and un-Christian. I used to sneak my books to a boy in class with a mom like that. Now the white liberals want to burn these kids books lmfao! Thats just truly funny.

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Reddit story

I realized how bad it was getting when my long term Reddit account (lots of karma, tons of positive interactions and highly upvoted posts) got permanently deleted, and I was banned off all of Reddit forever. What could I have possible have done?? Said the forbidden words: "Woman means female human." I got tons of upvotes and many similar comments expressed similar sentiments, also with lots of upvotes, before many of them got perma banned as well. None of these were hateful or negative btw, most didnt even mention trans until some tra types started getting mad. They were just talking about word and science erasure. Its actually so funny- one commenter said "What? That doesn't happen" in response to someone joking that the post is gunna be taken down soon since anything to do with sexual science is "transphobic" now. I went back later and saw- his account got perma banned too, just for interacting with that comment. Guess he learned that day. The post, which was very popular, also got taken down. The post was a video of a science museum, showcasing pelvic human bones. It had two pelvises, showing the differences between female and male, and how female pelvic bones could shift to make room for birthing infants. Deleting that video, silencing all those comments? Thats as science denial as it gets. Thats anti-education and anti-science. Are they gunna shut down the museum next? Burn the textbooks? Claim witchcraft? This is ABSURD.

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Bottom line/What I actually care about

-"Woman" is the word for an adult female human in the English language.

-"Female" is defined by the sex that produces large gametes ("eggs"), has an internal reproductive system (consisting of ovaries, Fallopian tubes, the womb, and the vagina), and in mammals- the only sex with the ability to menstruate, conceive a pregnancy, give birth to live young, and produce milk from breast glands.

-Evolution is real. Humans are an animal species with a sex binary and sexual dimorphism with innate developmental and physical differences between the sexes.

-Women are denied equal legal rights and systematically oppressed in patriarchal cultures and religions because of the sex they're born as, not their gender identity. Fucking duh.

-Female only spaces are important and needed. (Trans ppl should be allowed to have trans only spaces as well). (Im never going to support the invasion or erasure of female only spaces, especially for populations already at heightened risk. Female safety is more important than male feelings- and its never a female trying to get into the males prison or spa or sports is it? Its morally wrong to prioritize the desires of a few over the needs of the many. Its wrong to prioritize emotions over physical safety.)

-The importance of sex division in sports, places of nudity (bathrooms, locker rooms, spas), domestic violence shelters, rape and trauma support groups, and assigned rooms in inpatient care or cells in prison.

-Children cannot consent and should not be allowed to make any decision that would permanently alter their natural body or derail their natural development. The vast majority of trans children are not "true trans", but just gay/lesbian/bi, often with homophobic or attention seeking family vlogger type parents. Many are also autistic, or have been sexually abused. They need therapy and acceptance, not surgery or medical intervention- only as a very last resort after years of thought and therapy. Obviously there may be a rare exception and each case is different. Adults should be free to make their own choices.

-Prostitution is highly tied to and inseparable from sex trafficking. Sex work should not be glorified or encouraged and is highly dangerous and harmful. Pimps and johns are sexual predators who should be severely criminally punished.

-The porn industry promotes unhealthy sexuality, is harmful to society, and is an industry over-run with horrific abuse, violence, and trauma.

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My personal "radicalization" story/last straw story is this:

So like I said I wasnt even aware of this brewing cesspool of an issue until about 3 yrs ago. When I first started hearing the terms "terf/radfem" I figured they were just transphobes and casually agreed they sucked. But after so much constant hatred towards them, I got curious and decided to see how bad they were and started reading a few well written posts about their beliefs and such, and I was so incredibly confused because they were right? Almost everything they said was just true and it was shocking how much abuse was hurled at them. I thought I misunderstood, I didnt get it. I thought I must be missing something.

I had a long term internet friend and tumblr mutual. We used to be in a discord groupchat and little "personality disorder tumblr community" together. I think we had slight crushes on each other, occasionally playfully flirted, and I even (maybe kinda delusionally) thought we might even date one day. I knew he was getting more into the gender stuff than I was, but I was ok with that, I didnt mind that we had different opinions. I just ignored his posts that I disagreed with, but apparently he didnt feel the same and would sometimes argue about my reblogged posts, eventually told me he couldnt stay friends with me. The last straw was when he said women were oppressed because of gender, not sex. I had never even heard such a fucking stupid and blatantly untrue, so easily disproven concept before. I laughed. My mind was BLOWN I couldnt believe someone could possibly be serious and say that. Let alone someone I thought was intelligent. And was an ally to women. But he was serious and I was so done. How he could say such a thing as a black man, I will never know. I will never forgive him for that.

About a year before that, I learned that this mutual had been accused of rape by his ex gf. I'd heard stories about how crazy and abusive she was before, and naturally I believed my friend, so that was the impression I had of her. She was also "jealous" of me and would occasionally harass and insult me on anon I think? Memories a bit blurred. So I just believed that she was an unstable, obsessive ex. Which may or may not be true. Either way, one time she reached out to me and told me that he had raped her in the past- I think she said she was 14 and he was 19 when they had sex, the consent was dubious, he groomed her, something along those lines.

I told her that I couldnt just believe her- a complete stranger who had acted psycho to me in the past- over my long term friend with no evidence. I think she had filed a police report against him and showed me pics of that or something? But it could easily be edited or from somewhere else, and he also had pics of her allegedly breaking stuff, and I thought they were both just being toxic and messy. Like I said, it was a group for people with personality disorders. I also told her that I also didnt believe her because she had gone back to him/kept dating him after the alleged rape. I regret it now. I wish I could apologize to her. At the time I didnt understand, I couldnt fathom that. Why would someone ever go back to someone who raped them? Three yrs later, I understand now, as someone who has now done that themselves.

In this last fight, this mutual also made some nonsensical comparison between me and my rapist. I trusted him. I thought he understood. He was the first one I told after I was raped for the first time. He helped me talk it out and understand it. He was the one who got me to see that it was rape when I was severely confused, in denial and blaming myself. So I thought he couldnt have done it. He was a "man who got it".

I believed and trusted him when he was faced with a rape allegation. But he couldnt stay friends with me because I said women are oppressed because of their sex.

So yeah. I'll never forgive him. Fuck you to the moon and back.

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So many words- terfs, swerfs, radfem- all to shut down the voices of one population- feminist women. No such words for anyone else. The woke version of frat bros calling you a feminazi bitch.

I'm never going to support the silencing of feminists, or the denial of science. I would be executed in the 1300s and some would like to execute me now. Modern era witch hunt.

Thank you for reading this long ass post if anyone takes the time!! And thank you for the ask!

(Since I ended up writing a whole rant, let me leave this video because I think it demonstrates how unhinged this has all become. This is SO wrong. Wtf are yall doing.

Mom protecting daughter attacked by TRA mob. A literal mob.

Video: https://youtu.be/5DFv8OaYXQI?si=TmzA7-r6QvfDNUH_ )

[rulerzreachf4n7]

BUCKLE UP BITCHES CAUSE TS IS GONNA BE LONG AS HELL!!thankfully I have this whole ordeal memorized so it won't be hard putting the pieces together

Full story underneath~ >∆<

ALR BRO STRAP IN CUZ U GONNA GET A WHOLE LOTTA CONFUSION ON YOUR DAMN WAY,so it started when I posted abt me like not going to post for a while cause the whisper app wasn't working and that's where I basically make everything,then this HOE HAS THE FUCKING AUDACITY TO TYPE ALL SARCASTIC N SHIT LIKE SHE THINKS SHE'S BETTER,some weird shit like"ur bf likes me instead of you"or random shit yknow,and so I thought it was a joke n all so I went with it until I went onto her profileand so I saw that my profile thingy was screenshotted(like when u wanna see someone's account and their bio and pfp shows up)it was a pin and said in the caption something abt me being rude and to block me...LIKE BITCH I AIN'T RUDE I JUST TELL THE TRUTH ONE WAY OR ANOTHER SORRY UR SENSITIVE ASS CAN'T TAKE THAT,and like she ain't scary with her and her two followers so like a regular person I message her but she's slow asf and she's never actually engaged with my content, Ive never seen her follow me or save my pin,comment on one,or personally message me so it's all confusing,so at first I messaged her A LOT OF SHIT but yknow she took a long ass time then to say she doesn't care,like bitch bfr,then I posted another thing abt her say I like"dont listen to this jealous bitch"AND SHE MADE ANOTHER POST ABT MY POST SAYING SHE WASN'T JEALOUS,like people are on my side and you've only got two followers bitchIve tried reporting her for like harassment n spam n other shit but Pinterest ain't doing anything abt it for some reason,I did obviously confront her saying it's not fucking cool to be harassing and cyberbullying a random ass teenager on the internet out of pure bordem or if you're trying to be edge n cool...

AND THEN BOOM

near mid July she comes BACK, we go back and forth but then I get the BRIGHTEST FUCKING IDEA, like what we might do with shoo since she's been harassing me I could report harassment to the police, so told her that,

THEN BOOM AGAIN!!!

Under there fucking hours she deleted her entire account, her cousin said she might come back but thankfully that day hasn't came yet

MOOTS ROLL CALL 😜

@shadowwolfmemes @your-fav-stalker-200k @hexaround

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for basically being my cousins' 2nd/3rd parent and actually doing my aunts/uncles job for them

I (19 ???), have six young cousins on my mom's side who i see pretty often given everyone's schedules. Im really close with 4 of them, having grown up almost like siblings mainly with the two oldest. The two youngest dont care for me especially since one is only like 4 months old

Ive always been the reliable older brother/sisterish figure to them even when i was younger, it just came naturally. But in recent years ive had to pick up the slack in alot of things related to raising my cousins in a way. A goodish example is with the oldest, she's 16 and a few years ago I had to give her the sex and period talk cuz her school barely did anything about it (long story short they literally just gave out a basic (outdated) packet that basically just said "dont have sex, girl bleed once a month" in a horrible shameful way), and her parents just said "we'll explain when you're 18".

Ive done everything from teaching them internet safety to cooking to explain topics such as the sex talk because my aunts and uncles just dont do those things.

But enough context heres the main things,

One of my cousins called me dad in front of our relatives while we were all on vacation which caused a scene to say the least. It ended with me absolutely tearing into my aunts and uncles, which i admit wasnt the best choice but still, i basically tore into them about intentionally or not have almost completely abandoned their roles as parents. (Also one got tore into for basically forgetting their oldest in favor for their youngest so much so the oldest didnt get new clothes for two years)

The fight ended with me and my cousins storming back to the room we claimed and locking the door. We basically camped out there for the last two days if the trip, only leaving for food a night (had a bathroom connected to the room thankfully) we only really spoke to my mom and our grand uncle and aunt during that time

Its been about a month since it happened and things have atleast superficially calmed, still receiving the stray vague call out on social media and getting called an selfish asshole in a polite socially acceptable way. The only people on my side are my grand aunt and uncle, my mother, my cousins, and my friends

Im torn, because on one hand i care for my cousins and dont regret finally standing up for them all including myself.

But on the other its not completely my business on how my relatives raise their kids. I didnt have to do all that i do/did. I choose to do all those things and im still choosing to do them

I would speak to a professional or something but my last therapist dropped me cuz of stories bout my family (no joke she literally said "you're family is fucked up i have no hope in helping you, you're a lost cause") so tumblr what's your thoughts this probably out if yalls pay grade but still

What are these acronyms?

[gayinternetsideways]

Sideways with 17 (technology headcanon) and also maybe 1 (sad headcanon) if you'd like? :3

17- tech headcanon

Since sideways is mostly a highly advanced nanomachine swarm who seems to have the ability to convert himself into digital information and then back again, he can basically effortlessly hack any computer he could find a possible connection to. But even if he wanted to he couldnt tell you how he did it, or even exactly what he did at all.

(I've got basis for this one: armada episode 24 where he doesnt know what the internet is despite sending himself through it. Which ive probably mentioned several times in other posts but whatever)

1- a sad headcanon huh...

Well i was gonna say i dont really have anything about that except for the fact i dont believe hes ever had a moment of genuine non spiteful happiness but actually yeah i do

I think that when all the minicons were freed from unicrons programming thing sideways/mirror/rook/crosswise werent. And i think that that is why he seems to hate the other minicons so much, because they were just given free will and freedom and he wasnt. And that just is something that kind of sucks to know, that you could have been a completely different and probably happier person if you had just been a little bit luckier

[aliusfrater]

do you have any plans or goals for 2025

yes :3 i'm really hoping to get officially diagnosed with at least depression and anxiety + be properly medicated so that i can go back to school in august AND!! i want to watch and make more films than i did this year

this year i made uummm five (?) films. one was a cinetract so i'm barely counting that one but all four of the others were experimental and i want to make more narrative films so that i can make better experimental films. i also want to branch off into other forms of media art. i briefly got into nam june paik's stuff in like februrary and he's super cool he has a sculpture from the 1995 called electronic superhighway that basically predicted the massiveness of the internet. he's so inspiring to me especially since he was a musician first and kind of just made more and more weird stuff until that weirdness just became innovation (unrelated but something that sticks in my back of my mind is this performance he did when he was still doing music where he set his tie on fire, left his audience sitting there, then called and said his performance was over. King) i wanna make stuff like that so i'm hoping to at least begin branching off into that stuff with the way i think about my own art next year

i also have two run of the mill new years resolutions that i try to do every year—discover entirely new music (as in. stuff ive never listened to before) + go to a new place even if it's something as simple as a store ive never been to before

[therianterritory]

Hello 👋

Recently I've been looking into the whole therian/fictkin (I can't spell)/alterhuman ECT communities because at first it was just for fun and to see what the internet has been doing lately but it's started to feel less like a polite exploratory thing and more a thing I've been considering in myself.

I don't really know why it's all of a sudden become a thing I'm personally interested in but it has and I'm very confused.

I don't think I'm a therian because I got basically none of the "criteria" ( I know it's not like a list you check off but I'm nothing like any of the therians Ive seen online) and it's mildly distressing when I think too hard about it.

Ive been asking around but no one has been responding and I'm hoping maybe you can help as you've stated that you are an educator.

I have a list of things I felt like may fit along the lines of the aforementioned identities (sorry if that's the wrong word to use. I'm really nervous and trying to be as respectful as possible)

- When I was a kid I used to wish I could build a den/nest and used to get really sad when I had to take down my pillow "nests"

- I had a fascination with things that could fly and always wished that I had wings. Not necessarily that I was a type of bird but more like a hybrid human with wings.

- sometimes now I wish I had wings and it's almost like I can feel them stretch when I flex my back

- I had a fun idea to create horns once and I couldn't sleep thinking about how much I couldn't wait to make them. And when I made them it just felt so right to have them on. They felt natural.

- Sometimes I'll just run around my backyard whilst no one is home and it gives me an amazing sense of being free.

- Ive always been fascinated with the forest and ever since I was a little kid I used to imagine living in the forest all on my own and making a treehouse to live in away from society.

I honestly don't know if any of that means anything and I'm really really sorry for such a long message but I just really need some answers or guidance right now. Literally anything could be helpful if you have the time to read this.

Hope you have a good day

Hi! I am of course never able to tell people whether they are alterhuman of any kind or not. This is simply something that you can only tell for yourself. All I can do is give advice on how to look into your identity more accurately. So I will just review the things you've mentioned and give advice if I see fit. You can do with this what you want. My advice is also not the answer to everything.

While it's good to take your childhood into account, it's also very important to realize that as kids, we have a way bigger imagination. Unless you really feel like your urges and behaviors from the past weren't completely human, wanting to do things as a kid usually does not say much. I often recommend for people to mostly look at what they experience now, unless the past holds any significance despite childhood imagination (I'm therewith not stating however, that what you experienced is imagination and not alterhumanity. That's something I cannot know). I'm just saying that in my opinion, what you experienced as a kid isn't always one-hundred percent reliable. But do surely take it into consideration alongside your current experiences!

Feeling phantom wings is definitely a potential alterhuman experience. What's mostly important is to think for yourself whether you focus on the phantom wings on purpose when you believe you feel them, or if they are simply there naturally. While even natural shifts may sometimes occur when you consciously focus on it, any sign of consciously inducing a shift might mean that the experience was not an involuntary experience (and therianthropy is of course mostly determined by that). So the question is rather if you ever experienced such phantom sensations or other types of shifts, behaviors, instincts, and/or urges without thinking about it at all. Or if something somewhat unrelated triggered you into such a state.

Having an affection for nature and deliberating actions are debatable things. Because humans are instinctively also drawn to nature, and running around would probably be a freeing experience to anyone. It's always important to nuance your experiences with human instincts to at least some extend (while sometimes, of course, it may overlap) The question is rather how it made you feel on the inside. Do you feel like you aren't your human self when you do these things? Or do you feel like your human self mixes with something else? Etc.

In the end, it's really about how you define yourself and the nonhuman experiences you have naturally. And be mindful of the other alterhuman terms as well. You say you might be a humanoid creature in some way, so do not be afraid to look into Otherkin and the like as well! Therianthropy is really about that natural animalistic experience. If you do not have that, that doesn't mean you cannot identify as alterhuman/nonhuman!

[bookofmirth]

i know this sounds silly, but i recently received my first anonymous hate message - i really don’t have much of a presence in the acotar fandom, i have a blog where i basically just reblog, have made a couple of posts but they’ve only got a few hundred likes - nothing major. and i got a really nasty message in regard to my username ( it’s related to elain and lucien ) and the things i post and it’s just so deflating. i’m just here minding my own business, have never even received an ask before now - and upon opening it, i just felt like the air was sucked out my lungs. it’s so deflating and kind of makes me want to just delete the app for a while. i just wanted to ask how you deal with this sort of thing ? ive been on tumblr for years and been involved with all different fandoms - percy jackson and hannibal and harry potter and have never had anything like this :/

Hi friend, I am so sorry that someone did that to you. It's so freaking unnecessary and rude, and until it happens to people, I really don't think they understand how horrible it feels. I have gotten super upset at messages I've received in the past, and it's easy for other people to say "oh just ignore it" but experiencing it firsthand is completely different. I totally get how different it is to see it targeted to oneself, rather than at someone else. It can definitely knock the wind out of your sails, but you can get back up! All this is to say that it absolutely does not sound silly, because I know exactly what you mean.

If I ever get messages that seem rude, I do a few things:

I don't read the whole thing. It's pretty easy to tell if someone is being a jackass, so I just delete the message right away. This is why I said messages that "seem" rude, I rarely read the whole thing haha, I roll my eyes and delete

Block the anon, since that's an option now.

I go about my day like nothing happened. I love to delete those and then answer other messages and/or reblog and imagine them refreshing my blog constantly, waiting to see they've upset me. Never gonna happen! mwaahahaha choke, bitch.

I think the most important thing to remember is that the things they have said are a reflection of them, not of you. If someone feels comfortable leaving vitriol in your inbox, then that's not someone you either want to know, or whose good opinion you want. Personally, I only care about what my friends and family think of me - and even then it's on a sliding scale. If some random on the internet who doesn't actually know me has an opinion of me, that's their problem.

If you want to dm me, feel free! Don't let them take away your enjoyment of the things you like. They aren't worth your time or attention.

[ayahtiicoree]

literally me venting ab my parents bc tumblr is my emotional support animal feel free to ignore

oh and TW, abuse su1cide, SH

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ok no but genuinely I acc don’t get why my parents, mostly my dad, hate me sm. they genuinely just don’t fucking like me and I lowk just don’t gaf anymore?? And why is my dad so bipolar bro bc one sec he’s literally beat me with his charger WIRE💜 (I’m being deadass btw) and the next second he’s bringing me chocolates and asking for my forgiveness?? Ho stfu

lowk feel like my mum doesn’t give a shit ab me either bc why is it that when she first found out I SH she literally shrugged it off and the second time when she found out I relapsed she told me to not do that shit again and threatened to have me wheeled off to a psych ward?? Hi hello good evening to you too?? What happened to familial love wtf?

and idk but I literally always get in trouble for stuff and my brothers never do. Like for example, the other day my brother chewed up a fruit bar and spat it out into my drink when I wasn’t looking and when I told my mum she said she didn’t care and she was too tired to deal with it, so I went and poured out my drink obviously?? But my sink has a filter so it collected all the chewed up shit in my drink so I took the filter out of my sink and poured the chewed up shit into my brothers literal tap water, and he went and told me off and then I got the Sri Lankan beaten out of me 😟😟

and the other day my brother literally poured water all over me for no fucking reason, and I was washing the dishes so I splashed water at him, and obv he snitched on me and I literally got in sm trouble?? My mum could quite literally see water dripping from my hair and clothes but he never gets into trouble.

whenever I retaliate against my brothers, why to do they always get away with it, but I don’t?? And my parents say it’s bc I’m more mature than him as if he isn’t only a year younger than me. Like when my parents were out so my brother decided to make some oven pizza and he asked me how to do it. And I didn’t open it for him bc, and ISTG, I’ve showed him how to do it a multitude of times, so I told him to figure it out. (All he had to do was look at the back of the box to see how long the cook for and what temperature, turn on the oven and then set the temperature and timer, and my oven is REALLY simple). But instead he called my mum and told her I was being rude bc I wouldn’t help him, and when my dad got home he called me a nasty bitch bc ‘just because I know doesn’t mean he should know’. Like what 😭😭 stfu bc he literally knows how to do it, IVE been showing him since he was 10 years old, and your son is big big 18years old??

ISTG whenever I go to my mum bc my brothers being a nasty piece of shit, she literally gets angry at ME and says that I’m disturbing her peace, to just ignore it because she doesn’t wanna deal with it because she’s tired, but if I splash a little water at him I literally get beat 😭 excuse me??

and then they ask me why I’m like this and why I SH?? Like when my mum found out I relapsed back in November last year she said it was bc of the internet and bc I was doing it for attention. Like pls what 😭😭 byee bc you and my dad are literally the reason I’ve tried to kms several times, istg my ONLINE friends and my platonic wife @/tsurihana are lowk the only reasons I’m still on this planet bye like are you fucking dumb or smth??

And this morning I couldn’t find my headphones and I was lowk freaking out bc my headphones are basically like my life support and my mum got so pressed about it like HOE💜💜 I would much rather listen to The Neighbourhood and Artic Monkeys than have to listen to you and my dad scream at each other 😍😍 hoes js be dumb there’s no fixing her

Anyways that’s basically it, if you acc read this then thank uu for listening to me rant!! Ily!!

Oh and for some context, I live with my younger brothers, the older one is 18 and the youngest one is 14. And I have 2 half sisters (on my dads side) who don’t live with us

[apollos-olives]

hii if you dont mind and it's not too personal i would love to hear more about your experiences being queer in palestine! do you feel there is a big difference in attitude and education about queerness between diaspora palestinians and those living in palestine, or is it pretty similar? and did you feel like you could be somewhat safely open about it (not that it's ever 100% safe in any place in the world, but yk) sorry if this is invasive, dont feel obligated to answer. it's just that ive only ever seen a rly negative narrative about queer people being heavily persecuted and id love to get viewpoints from people who have actual first hand experience. your blog has been really educational and i love your enthusiasm for palestinian culture <3

i'm so sorry but i'm not very comfortable sharing my own personal experiences. they relate a lot to my personal life and my family and our relationships, and i'm not really comfortable sharing that part of my life online. it's a very good question though, and i appreciate your curiosity. i'm sorry that i can't tell you anything specific, i just want to keep myself more protected and not share a lot about my relationship with my family, especially since my relationship with my queerness relates a lot to my family and their views of it.

i will say though, to answer your other questions, if you asked me if there was a big difference of queer education between the diaspora and the people in palestine a couple years ago, i would've said yes. but now that i think of it? there's not a huge difference actually. i feel like since there is a lot more access to the internet and more education available in palestine and in a lot of places around the world, being educated about queerness is becoming more and more common. i've met a LOT of queer palestinians, from both inside palestine and also out in the diaspora. education is one of our biggest tools for liberation, so i feel like it's very natural that you can find more palestinians that are queer, not just in the disapora but in palestine as well.

if i were to choose which group is more visibly queer, people in palestine or the diaspora, i would choose the diaspora, but only because the diaspora have a bigger chance to be exposed to queerness in the world outside of the middle east and whatnot, and have bigger chances to explore their sexuality more openly than people in palestine. that doesn't mean that the queers in palestine are SUPER repressed or anything, but yes homophobia exists in palestine just like how it exists everywhere else in the world, so queers in palestine have a harder time coming out or expressing themselves authentically. but like. palestinian queers exist 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️ everywhere. and like, if i go out in palestine wearing a whole ass rainbow flag with a full face of makeup and a gay ass haircut, will i be hatecrimed?? yeah. but also if i did that in america, i'd be hatecrimed too lol. so palestine isn't special with it's homophobia.

and to bring up the discussion of homonationalism that israel uses to gain consent for genocide, you gotta put things in perspective. like if my entire family got bombed, my people displaced, my limbs amputated, all my people being starved, and the bitches who were bombing me were proudly wearing a gay flag and said that they were using the bombs that killed my entire family "in the name of love" - honestly i would be homophobic too. and that's genuinely why homophobia mostly exists in palestine. that's why my parents are homophobic even- they say that israel is full of queers who are bombing us. and like... are they wrong though?? israel is using the gay community as an excuse to commit crimes against my people. if any sort of group of people, no matter if they were a minority, committed genocide against you, wouldn't you hate them too? that's basically the situation in palestine. and yes it's not justified to be homophobic, but again, queer education isn't as available in palestine as it is in other places. often times people don't realize that queerness is being used as a weapon. you gotta put everything in perspective, yk??

i hope this was interesting to you at least a little bit. sorry i couldn't answer every question fully.

[syrupspinner]

i just beat Half Minute Hero: Super Mega Neo Climax Ultimate Boy

at least i think so? i beat princess and evil lord 30, and ive been told thats supposed to unlock knight 30, but it just kinda didnt. i wanted to do more of the side modes but i guess since i completed the main campaign i can say its beat? whatever i cant play any more

so yknow how xbox won the 7th gen console war right? the wii focused on a casual market, so its only competition was with the ps3. fortunately, the ps3 cost 599 us dollars (my internet is fucked right now but i promise thats over $1000 today) and was built in such a roundabout bullshit way that yeah you could technically get higher specs, but 3rd parties had no idea what they were doing, so all commercial comparisons made it look bad. i bring this up for irony's sake, because considering that the ps3's fatal flaw as inaccessibility, the psp was a hotbed for indie games. it was popular enough to attract creative devs, but not popular enough to attract shovelware, and digital distribution taking off right about then means that its off to the fuckin races

enter half minute hero, which would later be released as half minute hero super mega neo climax ultimate boy (which ill be calling HMHSMNCUB for short) on steam. congrats on landing the lucrative supermega sponsership!

the main mode is called hero 30, and it works like this. each level is basically an ultra-condensed jrpg. random encounters last like one second, you can usually cross the entire levels map in like 15 seconds, and itll usually that about half a minute to level up enough to beat the levels boss. which is great because every level has a time limit of 30 seconds. theres like a statue you can pray to for more time, but it costs more money each time, and you usually only need to use it like twice max

yeah, the first thing that tipped me off to this being a handheld game is the level structure. you ever notice how few handheld/mobile games there are with long levels or open worlds? the exception is genshin-style gachas, which only really took off to keep up with how phones are powerful enough to emulate a ps4 now. if you ever wondered why luigis mansion dark moon was the only one in the series with a short mission structure, its because its the only game in the series native to 3ds. its to match the ethos of "play a little then move on" that most in-your-pocket games find success with. itd be awkward if you were in the middle of a triple-a cinematic moment when your bus got to your stop

anyway! the game is fun enough. it fulfills the niche its trying to fulfill pretty well, i think. i can imagine busting this out on a steam deck (i dont have a steam deck) on a road trip or something, busting through a few levels. a lot of the levels near the end (im talking level 30 out of 31) took way too long in my opinion, the punishment for failure being that you lose like 20 minutes of gameplay is like a jumpscare in a game that was so fast-paced until then. but other than that, target hit, congrats game

it does a lot for replayability too, which was super important when it came out and still underappreciated now. i was a pretty poor kid, so i ended up just replaying levels in mario 3d land over and over again. games with seemingly endless content like final fantasy tactics a2 were like a godsend, you can just keep playing and playing forever! nowadays i feel like people value shorter games more then ever, but that might just be that im an adult with spending power, so ive got a life with errands and shit AND ive got like a million other games on my backlog.

but i digress. there are titles that you can earn based on your performance in a level, some of which are mutually exclusive. they mostly exist to point you towards scenarios they accounted for and dont want the player to miss out on. like, theres a title for if you reach a village before lava is meant to destroy it, which gives unique dialog. theres also a bunch of equipment in each level that you usually have to go out of your way to grind for, and you dont have a lot of time to waste in this game so it asks for juuuuust enough strategy.

oh yeah, the dialog. this game has a pretty irreverent tone. it likes to parody jrpg conventions, with the villains pointing out that their apocalypse spell will kill them too, and npcs in distress snork mimimimimi snork mimimimi. sorry i dozed off for a sec, im just kinda sick of irony. i feel like i dont have to tell you that it kidna sucks when something is afraid to take itself seriously. that said, i feel like the game does a good job at keeping the tone consistent and keeping it from being annoying. believe it or not, this game doesnt wanna waste your time, so it keeps the quips brief. also the skip button is lightning fast. all in all, not to my taste, but it does what it sets out to do well, so its hard to really insult it for that

theres also, allegedly, a ton of additional modes to unlock when you beat the main game. they shake up the gameplay WAY more than i was expecting, they have totally different fundamental mechanics. evil lord 30 is about summoning different minions suited for different tasks to defeat enemies, like a real-time strategy instead of a jrpg. i love the magic circle mechanic, its so simple but it does a great job of building risk/reward when the time limit is still a major factor. then theres princess 30, which is a fucking shoot em up? theyre all complete with 30 levels and stories that are just as fleshed out as the main campaign (for what thats worth), although there arent the same depths of branching paths and optional equipment. i was VERY presently surprised

but uh... thats where it ended for me. theres supposed to be knight 30 but it just kinda didnt unlock, even though it says online its supposed to show up after you beat the first three modes, which i did. its a shame i couldnt play around with it, but im not unsatisfied with the experience i had. it used to go on sale for like 3 bucks but it hasnt budged from the full $11 since last year, so... i guess i lucked out? personally, i think thats a prefectly acceptable asking price if youve got some space change on you, especially if youre more of a completionist type and you know youre gonna squeeze the extra value out of getting all the titles and shit. for everyone else, its worth a shot if you dont mind more repetitive gameplay loops. if you dont die and skip all the cutscenes and everything you could probably beat this game before the refund window is up, so there ya go

half-minute verdict. i had fun, but i dunno if i would buy it for 10 bucks. humour was meh but i liked the gameplay gimmick and i really like the replay value. wish it didnt screw me outta knight 30

[tohellandback99]

People on the internet with DID can address themselves as however the fuck they want, and say what they need to say, HOWEVER THEY NEED TO, when they NEED, on the fucking internet.

(Since I’ve been misconstrued once with this post; to be completely transparent, this was in the DID subreddit where people are usually very supportive since it’s run by people with DID, for people with DID. Not Fake Disorder Cringe, or any other subreddit that is designed to target and make fun of people. And if you think this isn’t worthy of saying something. I didn’t say this to change THEIR minds, I made this so that other people with DID who see shit like that can see that I see it. Can see that not everyone thinks that. No matter how many people don’t find this it is still worth it and so maybe somebody who might’ve felt discouraged about speaking because of a post like that would be more comfortable in our community if I said, “hey, I don’t think this is okay.” No, if I can defend anyone in the DID community no matter how many people, all who have not done anything to warrant the bullshit, I’m not going to shut my mouth and wait for someone to get seriously hurt by ANY of these miserable ass fucks to then only once have something to say for clout when shit really hits the fan and someone dies.)

Some asshole on Reddit (are we surprised) said that they have an issue with people who make videos on their OWN experience with DID because apparently. According to their “genius” idea of what people who have DID’s needs are, THINKS that just because it’s a fundamentally invisible disorder that (for me personally really just,) relies on the fact that no one will see multiple people in one person as a child and beyond, and because it’s initially that way to protect the brain and body, somehow means that we (you and me and anyone ever who has and has talked about DID,) should all just not speak apparently. And they specified people making videos as if that makes their idea any better. Trauma disorders are not taken seriously enough that we have people IN or COMING IN to the community to say shit that basically means, “shut up about your DID,” and they will die on the hill. Hoping, dying to know! that it was “something wrong with the person,” and not the perpetrator(s) who caused it.

and people with DID on there fucking AGREED with this! Ive seen people discussing their Autism who got this SAME thing happen, and there was pushback for GOOD reason because why on earth do you think you have any credibility to control the narrative of people who live with autism? Likewise DID? You don’t care about what people with DID ACTUALLY need you just want to control people and everyone somehow fell for it somehow. Wow. Just because you took a psych class doesn’t mean you are suddenly an expert on what people with DID need and “should be doing.” This idea that people are supposed to just “be quiet” about anything that makes people uncomfortable, perpetuates controversy and doesn’t actually fix misinformation that’s really out there. It is just a censorship towards those who DO have DID, not doctors who perform malpractice or spread lies about people with DID, and it doesn’t help anyone who IS malingering. If no one with properly looked at and/or diagnosed DID can speak then how the fuck can we have access to resources that can help us? Trauma and dissociative disorders have been linked to people who use it to spread disgusting propaganda and so has been ignored and dismissed, for decades now. This person and lots of people, don’t say anything about THESE people, who have actually spread misinformation. This person specifically didn’t say anything about the people who clearly and/or evidently malinger online, literally nothing but about people who actually have and have to live with DID which is insane and regressive. They pointed out that it’s weird to them for you to share about your DID experience because it’s meant to protect you. Then how is anyone supposed to get help for it then if they can’t talk about it? I had a therapist say this shit to me as if that’s not what I was there for, and THIS person, who was in the DID subreddit was saying the exact same thing. Simply sharing about a DISABILITY has nothing to do with giving up protection. Yes it’s a vulnerable thing to do, but why does that mean that it’s somehow wrong or bad? Is a person with DID just not allowed to be on the internet then? cause that’s what you’re saying. DID is unpredictable and you cannot turn it off. As long as the person IS a system that IS actively protecting itselves and takes the precautions that great people who fucking talk about their experiences with DID online use, having DID and talking about it has little to no bearing in how the internal system operates any more than anyone else who’s sharing anything personal on the fucking internet. I think strongly, that this is just an excuse to not give a shit about people who have DID and it is a disingenuous statement.

About the addressing alters thing… ehh. Someone was mad that people called their own alters, “alters.” The technical term, which has no bearing on what they themselves choose to call people in their system. And they wanted people to say from now onnn…. People? I think. Which I use interchangeably with the term “alter” depending on how I need to speak about these things. I welcome and love different perspectives of the self and I don’t have a problem with what they want for themselves. The problem that I have with this is that Nobody with DID signed up to use whatever terms on themselves that other people want for themselves when they walk into a room at any given moment. I’m not a therapist

(They still haven’t restored my two posts on there that were removed for some reason by the mods, not because I broke any guidelines or mentioned anyone specifically or anything that would imply that I was but apparently that doesn’t matter over there… *sigh* I did not want to have to talk about it on here, I do not want my posts to just be full of rants and things about DID. It’s just this is SO important

Update; they just completely ignored and refused to put my posts back up and did not respond for another week now after I gave my clear and simple response to their questions of why I posted it. What do they want me to beg like I’m some lost little puppy dog? I didn’t even do anything and they even told me that. lol I’m not going to fucking chase them 😂)

[eldritchmochi]

Hi its the anon that keeps poking you about cs again! All of those ideas are great and just so the pain of fanfic often sort of being what would be a novel first draft by being episodic, but I feel like you could so weave in a tonne of this stuff past now anyway. Especially the cane leaning, im a cane user too and I totally get it, how my partner handles my cane is just.... it feels different to anyone else. Like they get to touch my body differently to anyone else and that applies to my cane too since that really sort of a part of my body??

the inherent eroticism of ur partner touching u(r cane) i should make a zine about this lmao

rn i am considering how much if any retouching i wanna do of the existing 260k of coping skills cos yeah, the struggle of fanfic essentially being the first draft of a novel. usually it doesnt get me too bad since a) i generally fully complete a fic before posting so i do have a chance to go back and adjust things here and there & 2) i really havent ever cared to redraft something in the more traditional sense and iii) i basically never write things over 100k let alone anything substantially over 100k

one of the options im considering would involve a fairly big overhaul where i pull out the individual arcs and flesh em out with additional scenes for better pacing, and then repost as a series with shorter individual fics (with the og in tact as is, just with a note). ive had several people tell me theyve balked at the length of this damned fic, especially since its barely half done plot wise for JUST this specific already plotted chunk of the whole shebang. it has quite possibly gotten a smiiiidge out of control lmao but its been a great learning experience and i am Determined to finish it

however, i am ALSO considering filing the serial numbers off this fic once its done. i absolutely plan on redrafting the whole thing with a bunch of developmental editing work so the end result would almost certainly be a very different form of the story from the fic as it is now. im still unsure of how much of the rework i have in my head i want to put on the internet as Coping Skills: The Fic tho. its really important to me that, whatever i end up doing, i keep this monster available on the internet as a fanfic cos i am well aware of how much it means to a lot of folks

at the same time though theres a lot of backend stuff i could build into the cs2.0 idea that would make writing the rest of the story a LOT easier, which would make dev edits and redrafting easier bc ill be starting with something that has more structure, etc

theres balance somewhere i just haven't found it yet, HOWEVER im absolutely gonna be stuck til i figure it out. im a plantser when it comes to plot, im more than happy to figure out the path to a fairly nebulous endgoal, but i struggle to write stuff if i dont have a good idea of the overall structure of how i tell the story, like pattern of pov shifts and theming, which definitely got a bit away from me the last like 80k lmao