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blole-hack · 2 years ago

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My magical guide to get yourself out of bitchlessness. For men, for women, for everybody no matter who you are and who you wanna date.

bitches be like "GET PEOPLE TO WANT TO DATE YOU DO BY DOING THIS, THIS, THAT, THIS, THIS"

me, tired aroace (angled) who has to actively avoid people from being attracted to him (because amatonormative society eyy): Look What They Need to Mimic a Fraction of My Power

So........u want my power? or at least what im talking about having because you don't believe me? fair tbh. dont believe everything you see

ok here's the shit:

HOW TO BECOME QUALIFIED FOR A GOOD RELATIONSHIP:

1 - Just be a good person, don't be an asshole and take care of yourself, be authentically compassionate and respectful to yourself and to others, that's literally it. you'll find somebody good somehow.

2 - Don't let your loneliness and date hunger and obsession with relationships get in the way of you living authentically.

Ok, people are gonna be like "but i can get a relationship without having to do that shit (the last part especially)"

Yea, but are you really living fully while doing that?

Getting in a relationship is the easy part. Exercising and getting a glow up's the easy part. Acting as someone other people would be attracted to is the easy part. Why? because it's actionable and it has steps that could easily become clear! It just takes a little bit of research and commitment. But its bull crap if it doesn't truly come from you. Not just bull crap to them but bull crap to you.

What's hard is if you don't know yet is actually getting a healthy one. What's harder is being yourself. What's harder is building yourself and knowing yourself.

Dating is just a fraction of your life guys. Two people's lives can't/probably shouldn't perfectly coincide especially since you've been living your separate lives at first

Living a nice healthy life in the first place before ending up with someone while you're dysfunctional and fully believing your worth and your quality of personhood is entirely dependent on whether or not you can get into relationships

And of course you can, logically get into a relationship

Intrinsically, mathematically, it's fucking possible dawg. dont give yourself any of that "its hopeless for me SPECIFICALLY because IM A BEING BENEATH OTHER HUMANS. actually, iM TRASH, NOT EVEN HUMAN"

because DAWG

1- you're a human being

2- humans are attracted to nearly every kind of human being

3- and even if theyre not attracted some people still wanna get into relationship

boom see??? you mathematically already fit the bill. stop overcomplicating shit. sometimes it really just turns out youre not someone's type, or maybe they didnt get to know you enough but who cares? baby, there's literally so many people in the world so no shit youre not someone's type. but that shouldn't stop you from being your type.

what should stop you from being your type is if you're a fucking asshole (and people are unfortunately still attracted to that but like see no matter what you're gonna get into a relationship if you truly desire to.)

In reality, a lot of people have no standards.

TAKEAWAYS

1- that should make u confident

2- but you should still be a high quality person (in your own definition!!)

SO EARLIER i was talking about how to be qualified for a high quality romantic relationship, and now I will tell you

How do you make something romantic happen between you and another person?

I DONT KNOW WHY PEOPLE THINK ITS SOME KIND OF MAGICAL THING, BUT LITERALLY THE ONLY THING YOU HAVE TO DO

IS TAKE A GENUINE INTEREST IN SOMEONE AND WHO THEY ARE WHILE ALSO SHOWCASING YOUR GOOD ATTRIBUTES, What makes YOUUU the cool u

make sure its balanced. both of you are important in this relationship and both of you should have space to be yourselves

AND THIS IS WHY it is so important to build yourself and learn about yourself like in what I just said above. You have to be interested in buying, and you also gotta know what you're selling/hj (this is just a metaphor dont take it as me thinking of relationships as business. BUT business is also a relationship in of itself)

And what you're selling HAS TO BE GOOD. Something that ISN'T what you would run away from, or throw away if it reaches near the people you care about. I know this is hard to think about if you really hate yourself.

Think of yourself as someone else and ask yourself "would i totes hang out with this guy? would this guy treat me right? would this guy bring value to my life? would this guy inspire me and make me see new shit and broaden my horizons which i might be missing from my life?" (and other things that are more of what you want)

AND IF YOU ARE NOT SOMEONE YOU ARE INTO, THEN ASK YOURSELF, WHAT ARE YOU INTO? Dont become WHAT YOU ARE INTO out of ENVY, become INSPIRED BY IT, and make yourself your human canvas bro of beautiful art bro. and it doesnt matter if it starts out as crap, all artists make crap at first, its a lifelong thing, and thats ok, and even if its crap, its still beautiful because it is authentic boiii

this is applicable for building any sort of relationship!

You don't have to chase squat.

AND THEN IF THEY GET INTERESTED IN YOU BACK, OR IF THEY ALREADY ARE AND THEY GET MORE INTERESTED IN U, Then you be honest with your feelings and then its entirely up to them and that's ok. Be OK with the fact that, bitch, there ain't no way to having a 100% guarantee or win rate in love bc that's stupid and things are always unique in terms of other people's relationships and personalities. NOT HAVING A 100% GUARANTEE IS TOTALLY NORMAL AND IT DOESNT MEAN YOURE SHITTY Following other people's bullshit dating advice is only going to attract you people that have bullshit values :) and that is NO BUENO homie, no matter how lonely you are my homie.

IF YOU WANT GOOD SHIT FOR YOUR HOMIES, AND U WANT GOOD SHIT FOR YOUR RELATIONSHIP PARTNER/S THEN U SHOULD WANT GOOD SHIT FOR YOURSELF BITCH

And now for the last step, or second actually, chronologically. But it requires the two above to understand.

You have to actually *decide* on who to date. Don't just pick someone just because they're the only option you see. Because, who would like only being liked that shallowly? it might not be a turn off if they're that desperate, but it would suck for them and make them sad. Plus, you're not getting much out of the relationship if you don't truly VALUE who you're with AS THEMSELF. Like, why u wanna be with them for life bro? If you don't even know them bro? And if you don't VALUE who that person is, they won't

Because the act of valuing a person, is valuable to the person. The very act of being choosy and choosing that person is important. Goes both ways. Don't pursue someone who is not on the same level of you in the value department

"BUT IM TOO TRASH TO EVEN BE PICKY.. oR PEOPLE CANT ACCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM BECAUSE OF X Y Z THINGS I HAVE NO CONTROL OVER LIKE BEING TRANS OR BEING NEURODIVERGENT"

THAT AINT THE CASE. THAT COULD NOT BE FURTHER FROM THE TRUTH. EVERYBODY HAS GOT A RIGHT TO BE PICKY. IT IS A HUGE FACTOR FOR SUCCESS IN A RELATIONSHIP. BE PICKY, BITCH.

Everyone else's dating advice rely on other psychological tactics that allow you to become more perceivable/noticed by other people, which isn't intrinsically bad, but on its own its not sustainable. What I'm telling you is how to sustain that crap, yo. Its entirely up to you to follow them as well.

What you really have to be on the watch for is what kind of person do you want to notice you? This doesn't require you to change who you are bc you have to take into account that this person would also like who you are.

But yeah, if you wanna attract hot people, in most cases, you have to look your own brand of hot. Its just how things work. If you wanna attract good people, you have to be good.

And the process will follow. If you wanna be noticed by something, you gotta be around it, and you can figure that out on your own, you don't need weirdly phrased shit by other people

Oh yeah another last thing, you gotta make yourself strong bro. You gotta make sure your self love is strong enough that if you fuck up (and have to improve yourself) or get disliked/rejected for something that isn't your or anyone's fault, that it wont falter or it would get back together again.

Know to distinguish true criticism, needless bashing, and something that's just up to personal taste. Accept criticism and do it without the hurt, and ignore shit you don't have to change and dont feel like changing and move on

That's all everybro (gender neutral) go and slay

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thoschei-rights · 5 years ago

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Season 12 but The Master kept pretending to be O??

Basically self-indulgent Thoschei with a twist.

lots of typos bc?? i aint got time to go correct stuff yet? I will later??

So Spyfall is resolved, The Kasaavin are banished back to their realm and the Fam and Doctor are clueless as to the true mastermind, Barton taking the fall while the Master continues to pose ad O, having decided he’s enjoying the game of tricking her too much.

Perhaps among their texts they’ve grown close, or perhaps the brief time together in the outback led to events?? ;) But either way, he changes his mind mid plan and continues to act human.

Since he never leaves the message or has the confrontation in Paris, the doctor remains unaware of Gallifrey’s destruction. The fam wait off on asking their questions since she isn’t off with them.

Orphan 55 happens, and while the fam go do their shit, O stays with the Doctor bc admit it, she was like oh ;-; when everyone went to explore. My poor baby. So they hang out together before everything goes to shit, how cute?? Things get resolved, but with the revelation of one of earth’s potential fates, and the potential that the doctor lied about knowing, the fam decide to ask to know more about her. She shares what she believes its true at the time, being born on gallifrey and being a timelord, O looms in the background looking awkward bc he knows none of that is true and he feels horrible keeping the truth from her, it makes him as bad as the rest of the time lords- but he is selfish and he doesn’t want to stop what he’s doing, he’s started to really enjoy her company, its everything he’s ever wanted, every star.

And then it’s ruined when Yaz asks to see her own planet. Blissfully unaware of its destruction, she takes them, and so they’re right there with her when she sees, opens the doors to the rubble, the dying flames- and oh god. The fam are horrified, she’s horrified, O has to fake it, while being utterly glad those nasties are dead- maybe he gets to sneakily comfort hug her??? like she’s trying not to tear up even after that whole shit show of the confession dial, it was her home??so yeah he’s like hugging her but he’s so angry bc they dont deserve her tears??

The doctor is off after that, and the fam know why, and none of their words of comfort do much, because sure they’ve just witnessed the death of earth too but that is just one timeline, can be completely avoided, while gallifrey is gone forever, and she believes she’s once more the last of her kind. it hurts.

they visit tesla all the same, and when that big ass scorpion looking alien (bc im sorry i didnt like the episode and i’ve forgotten her name so....) mentions dead planets, she can feel the fam stiffen, as though the doctor is gonna blow at any minute, but she keeps calm, tries to bury the rage, but O can tell, can tell by the way her arms shake, hands clenched into fists in her pockets- and it hurts him to see her like this- the longer he spends around her, pretending to be someone he’s not, he’s just realizing more and more what a dumbass he is and that he’s still as in love with her now than he was all those years ago in the academy- none of the truth will change that-

and then boom the shit show with the judoon occurs and suddenly O is confused af because that Lee guy could ONLY have been him. Who else on gallifrey was stupid enough to hide out with the doctor, marry them and die for them?? him because he’s a dumbass? but he’s a dumbass who definitely doesnt remember this memories?? which theoretically in the doctors timeline should have been sometime after the division? or during? he’s not sure? but to his knowledge he shouldn’t have been alive at this stage? and now he’s not sure what the fuck HIS own life is too? did they take his memories from him too? has he lost part of his life? suddenly the truth doesnt seem as known as he thought- so while the doctor is reeling from the information of Ruth being her somehow? O is having his own mental crisis because what the fuck did they do to him too? what is he missing??

praxeus continues as similar as it did originally, O is only the tiniest impressed at Yaz, ever since Spyfall he’d sensed she was the human with the most potential to not be utterly worthless so he’s glad at least one of the doctors latest pets seems to have some initiative?? but yeah i dont wanna change much about praxeus? its not important- except the doctor saying she’s a romantic and the master wants that? wait what- he’s conflicted about his own thoughts? he wanted to break her, destroy her with the truth? but he also just wants to wrap her in his arms? make everything as okay as he can? what the fuck is even happening with him? jsut your usual ‘im a mess’ vibes lmao

when can you hear me? rolls around, it happens in a similar way, i dont wanna get to into it because i dont wanna think too much...the episode was weird, it was just weird-- i cant?? although maybe bc that zellin and the lady whose name i forgot...but they were immortal right?? maybe their species is the doctors species?? huh? huh? think about that- but don’t think too hard bc i hate that theory and i’m gonna pretend i never had that thought- lets just ignore can you hear me even though the end made me cry for yaz bc lol relatable sis, relatable. do whatever you want for this bit fam, idc.

Anyyyyyway. the bit I’m waiting for... Villa Diodati ;) O is ready to smack Byron round the face, fingers itching towards the tce everytime he tries to flirt with the doctor. the lone cyberman appears and wopdie doo earth is going to be destroyed and the doctor is about to do something stupid, thinking there is no other way? the master is like um lol change of plans i dont want the cybermen to win, look how in pain my baby theta is?? i gotta help?? oof? and idk, his patience is like nope all gone? and he whips out his TCE on the lone cyberman and boom. crisis averted? except now the doctor is looking at him in horror and shock and- she realizes who he is then and there, and normally he’d made a big drama out of his, throw in some words, a speech about how easy it was to deceive her, how he destroyed gallifrey- about how he was under her nose this whole time- but he doesn’t, instead he meets her gaze and can barely manage to whisper an “im sorry” and wow shit i wasn’t gonna write that version, i was gonna have feral confrontation but now im stanning a sad master who just needs a hug and some therapy because nothing makes sense, he thought he had everything figured out but he doesnt and he just wANTS HIS FRIEND BACK uiferkghlujkfaghjfkgladhfajkg; i m fine

i dont know what i wanna do after this point? it could go a lot of different ways?? but thoschei rights bitches. could go angst confrontation and then she abandons him in whatever century that was set bc wow i studied frankenstein in school but i couldnt tell you what century the author is from bc im dumb? 18th? maybe idk that seems likely? or 19th? but anyway yeah or maybe she’s just relieved someone else is alive? or is she shouting for answers or?? i dunno.... but woop ???

wow this turned into a big mess but hopefully you can kinda see where i wanna head with things? after this he’d probably show her the truth? i dunno how that’d go down, but he’d be there with her?? But anyway, this idea is free for anyone to write, but holla us a link and I'll give yall a free promo at the end of this post!!

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parkersvibes · 5 years ago

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finding out peter is spiderman

read part one here

a/n: omg guys. i got so much feedback from you all on part one so i decided to make a part 2. and yeahh i really hope you guys enjoy. if you do lmk and i’ll do a part 3 (:

(i also apologize if the read more doesnt work )))): )

warnings: fluff, a smidge on angst

pt 2. peter parker x stark!reader

• figuring out he was spiderman

• alright you’re a stark

• but no one knows that

• but you’re really intuitive

• so there were little things you started to notice

• after uncle ben died there was some weird shit (if you want a part ab comforting peter ab uncle ben lemme know. he deserves his own part)

• like how he stopped wearing his adorable glasses

•and i guess started almost bulking up????

• he got WAY taller

• and usually you’re used to seeing him shirtless but this one time you walked in on him

• holy mother of god

• IT WAS LIKE HE GREW ABS OVER NIGHT

• BECAUSE FRESHMAN PETE DID NOT HAVE A 6 PACK

• freshman peter also got winded walking up the stairs

• AND NOW HE’S RUNNING LAPS IN GYM LIKE ITS NOTHING ??

• must be nice

• but then things got more sus

• all of a sudden he was skipping class more

• leaving early

• cancelling study sessions and skipping movie nights with ned

• and you and ned were clueless

• you and ned started hanging out more

• MR. LEEDS IS HILARIOUS LEMME TELL YOU

• he was like this little ball of happiness

• you found out his real name is Edward

• HOW CUTE

• and WOW HIS MOM BEING FILIPINA MEANT THAT YOU WERE BEING FED ALL THE TIME OH MY GOD

• ngl pete got a bit jealous

• one night,,, when pete cancelled YET AGAIN

• ned asked you, “hey y/n?”

• “hm”

• “why don’t we ever hang out at your place”

• “i told you ned, my family is just a lot yanno. plus your family and may are really cool”

• “okay but how come you don’t have any social media under your name?”

• “wdym?”

• “like you go by ‘y/n Smith’ but everything that pops up on the internet isn’t YOU”

• “pfff i told you,,, i dont believe in that stuff”

• “y/n, you know you can tell me anything”

• you wanted to be honest. this was one of your best friends. and you’ve been lying to them about your family for over a year now

• “ned i just. it’s complicated”

• “like peter’s family?”

• “nonono, i’m lucky to have both of my parents- well i have a step mom. my real mom wanted nothing to do with me. so she left me on the steps of my dads house. never came back”

• “oh shit bro, i’m sorry”

• “nah don’t worry. my dad is really cool and my step mom... she’s awesome.”

• “what’re their names”

• NATASHA WAS GONNA KILL YOU IF SHE COULD SEE HOW BAD YOU WERE STRUGGLING

• “well- uh- my step moms name is,,, um. well her real name is Virginia”

• THE WORLD KNEW PEPPER AS PEPPER NOT VIRGINIA

• “and my- my dads name is ehm... st, steve???”

• natasha was gonna have your ass

• “y/n,,,”

• “yeah”

• “you’re a horrible liar”

• “PFFF WHAAAT? NO IDEA WHAT YOU’RE TALKING ABOUT”

• “dude you left your spiderman fan tumblr open on my laptop that one night,,, and i MAY have done some snooping”

• okay you mightve had a slight obsession with the webslinger. HE WAS COOL. and what better way to keep track of him without alerting your family,,, good ol tumblr

• oh god ned, HOW MUCH SNOOPING”

• “enough to know that you have a weird obsession with that spider guy and that your last name isnt smith”

• so you told him the truth. you were a stark

• and well,,, he reacted with

• “okay cmon,,, don’t lie”

• so you showed him your late night dance parties with Nat when she was feeling goofy

• and your random snaps of steve when he was trying to figure out how to work technology

• videos of you reacting to vines with bucky

(if yall wanna see domestic life with the avengers just lmk)

• which usually results with THE WINTER SOLDIER ALMOST PEEING HIS PANTS. and trying to reenact it with sam or the other avengers

• “heyheyehy y/n guess what?”

• “what bucky?” *is in the middle of doing hw*

• “FRESHOVACADO” *bolts out of the room before you throw something at him*

• only the two of you getting vine and meme references

• (meaning getting in trouble during meetings bc you’ll make eye contact and start laughing)

• OH HIS FAVORITE IS THE “country boiiii, i love you,,, 😛”

• anywaayyy

• ned was SHOOK

• “nowayohmygodyoureanavenger”

• “no ned,,, only when they need me to be”

• *led to him asking 100000 questions*

• “does Mr. America smell like old man”

• “what language does Ms. Widow think in”

• “how many shirts does Mr. Hulk own”

• “so do they wear normal clothes or are they always PREPARED”

• “does your dad have to walk a weird way when hes in his suit”

• “do they ever chafe in their suits”

• “yes ned. we’re stocked up on baby powder”

• which you didnt mind bc it felt nice telling the truth

• ned WANTED TO TELL PETER SO BAD

• “ned no, i don’t want him to think of me differently”

• he understood. but still defended peter and said that hed still treat you the same

• anyway,,, peter started showing up with bruises and stuff which had you v concerned

• “pete what’s up? you’ve been avoiding ned and i and you have skipped out on every movie night since sophomore year started”

• “t’s nothing. dont worry ab it”

• “peter cmon, it’s just me”

• you figured maybe it had to do with ben??? but you gave him his space. you just wanted to be there for him yanno. you didnt want him to shut you out

• “Y/N I SAID ITS NOTHING. FOR FUCKS SAKE CAN YOU LEAVE ME ALONE???” he snapped (and not in the good way)

• and this was on your way to class so the whole hallway heard

• ouch

• so you left him alone. probably more than he meant. but it hurt

• i mean he was your first friend here, and now he yelled at you to leave you alone

• ned felt awful at first. trying to comfort you and tell you it wasnt your fault

• but then he started acting weird. whenever you brought up peter hed be super antsy about it

• you- “i think he got into another fight or something”

• ned- “pFFT PETER? FIGHTING? no way,,, i got-i gotta go”

• so you figured that whatever peter was hiding, ned knew about,, which also hurt your feelings

• so you closed off

• and wow could the super family tell something was wrong

• wanda- “little stark, i can feel your sadness all the way to my room”

• sam/bucky/rhodes- “okay what’s the deal, we’ve played 5 rounds of fortnite and you havent once rage quit even though you’re doing terrible”

• tony- “kid, what’s wrong? everyone here can tell you’re not feeling great”

• nat- “cmon. ive given you 3 opportunities to kick my ass and you havent once complained about me going easy?”

• thor- “lady y/n what is causing you distress? not once have you smiled, i even wore my hair in pigtails,,, and that seems to always do the trick”

• and you gave the same response every time “‘m just tired” “lots of homework”

• they noticed you werent going out on weekends anymore

• so tony figured that your friend group and you were having some Stuff

• pep gave him an idea of meeting his new prodigy

• now tony knew it’d be kinda sus because peter went to midtown but he figured that if the kid kept his mask on it’d be fine

• “dad i don’t wanna see another one of your weird maid robots”

• “wha- no i want you to meet someone”

• “dad college isn’t for another 2 years. if it’s your friend from MIT-“

• then right before your eyes was the insect boy that youve been admiring through the internet

• needless to say

• your jaw dripped

• “y/n meet spiderling, spiderling meet my daughter y/n stark”

• *seconds pass*

• “i uh- oH- um- sp-spidERman, h-hi. biG fan of you- your work”

• *silence*

• you- “oH dad diD you hear th-that? moM is calling mE”

• tony- “what?? pep wouldve called on the interco-“

• spiderman- “y/n”

• you- SHOOK TO THE CORE BECAUSE YOU KNEW THAT VOICE. THAT WAS THE VOICE THAT SOUNDED LIKE HONEY BUT COULD CUT YOU DEEPER THAN ANY WEAPON IN YOUR HOUSE

• you- “p-peter???”

• tony- *shocked pikachu face* “you know each other???”

• you- “so-something like that yeah”

• peter takes off his mask

• “ohmygodpeterisspiderman”

• “ohmygodyourlastnameisntsmith”

• tony- “im gonna let you guys figure this out” *walks backward slowly*

*insert silence*

• you- “so this is what you were hiding, huh?” with a cold tone

• “IM HIDING? YOU LIED ABOUT YOUR WHOLE HOME LIFE TO NED AND I”

• *yelling at each other for another minute. even though you couldnt hear what the other is saying*

• you- *yelling loudest “I DIDNT WANT YOU TO SEE ME DIFFERENTLY OKAY”

• peter- “you really thought id do that?” (heartbreaking voice)

• you- “i- once i got to know you, i knew you wouldnt but i was scared. i didn’t know how to tell you. for once in my life i had found someone my age who liked ME for ME. not for my name or money or my dad. and i didn’t want to change that. i’m sorry i didn’t tell you sooner”

• peter- “... i get what you mean. after ben died everyone gave me that look. except you and ned.”

• you- “why didn’t you tell me”

• peter- “everyone i love or ever cared about dies. my parents and then my uncle ben. so once i got my abilities i knew that the risk was even higher and i didn’t want to put you in that position. i wanted to keep you safe. but it seems like you know how to handle yourself” (referring to the fact that you grew up with THE EARTHS MIGHTIEST HEROS)

• y/n- “so how come ned found out?”

• peter *scratches back of neck* “well- he- i- May let him in my room and i happen to be crawling on the ceiling in my suit and he dropped the death star” *head hangs in shame*

• you had to giggle at that i mean CMON

• you stepped closer to him

• “pete you’re my best friend. you can tell me anything okay?”

• “no more secrets?”

• “no more secrets”

• and you both pinky promise and your thumbs “kiss” bc IF THEY ITS THE ULTIMATE UNBREAKABLE VOW DONT @ ME

• peter parker gives you the biggest hug that maKES YOUR HEART JUMP BC PHYSICAL CONTACT WITH A PERSON AS PRETTY AS HIM MAKES YOUR HEART FEEL A CERTAIN WAY

• but you wrapped your arms around his neck and enjoyed the moment

• wow he is really cozy

• * the avengers are watching from the cameras in awe*

• led to MANY questions at dinner

• and so everything went back to “normal”

• it wasn’t until you went to bed that night that you realized peter said the L word

• WHAT

• so much for no secrets

taglist: @silver-winter-wolf @emmmmszy @everythingaboutnothingsstuff @rexorangecouny @wishiwasanavenger @marjoherbo @nologinisoksothatsit @mindset-jupiter @hpnjrph @soup238

some favs/mutrals: @h-osterfield @starksparker @stuckonspidey @sunshinehollandd @keepingupwiththeparkers @hey-marlie @spyder-bites

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p-katsuki · 6 years ago

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Katsuki

Katsuki has signed on

QS Bakugo

Himawari-san!

✨💖Aoyama💖✨

Hello~

Yamikumo

!!!

Ten

Make sure he doesnt come near my dorm

Katsuki

Hi :0

QS Bakugo

Tenya try focusing on my room..

Ten

Hello bakugou san

Kaminari Denki

Or just him...

Ten

I will try

Katsuki

:000000000000000000000 senpai...!?

Ten

Yes?

Katsuki

SENPAI

Ten

BAKUGOU

HELLO

Katsuki

HELLO IIDA-SENPAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~

Ten

Hello Bakugou

We have gone through this

Katsuki

IM NOT DONE YET THO

Kaminari Denki

That's.....

A Lotta caps

Katsuki

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QS Bakugo

It's cute.

Katsuki

okay now im done

When'd you get here...???!

QS Bakugo

Like a happy little sunflower.

Kaminari Denki

Hmmmm :) sunflowers

Ten

Like2 days ago

KatsukiT

MOMOGOU'S HERE

Two days...?????

Oh I guess I was busy two days ago huh...

... someone coulda pinged me though =_=

Yamikumo

I almost texted you about it, but was also like 'i dont wanna bug him'

Katsuki

Hahaha fair

Yamikumo

Fir

QS Bakugo

Himawari-san~!

Ten

Who is himawari san

Katsuki

Meeeeeeeeeee~

Yamikumo

Katsu is

QS Bakugo

Mhm.

Ten

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Katsuki

We gave each other nicknames cuz we love each other :3

QS Bakugo

Me!

Haha.

Ten

...thats so cute

Momogou

Kaminari Denki

Momo + Bakugou

Katsuki

uwu

QS Bakugo

It's to avoid confusion when we're both online.

Katsuki

I came up with it

QS Bakugo

Aww you're cute too, Tenya~

Katsuki

I get all the credit

Kaminari Denki

I call this one Katsuki

Katsuki

uwu

Ten

I love you Momogou ♡

Kaminari Denki

Ohhhhh it WAS you!

Katsuki

Wha-

QS Bakugo

I love you too~

Katsuki

... Wha

Kaminari Denki

I forget what I was calling him

Ten

♡♡♡♡

Kaminari Denki

!!!

QS Bakugo

Katsuki

......................................... Wha???????????

Ten

:))))

He is mine and i am his

Kaminari Denki

STOOOOP I'm gonna get excited and wake up Sen

How romantic ~

Katsuki

... Wha wha wha

Ten

Whats wrong Bakugou?

✨💖Aoyama💖✨

You two are cute~ :>

QS Bakugo

I can't help it, Tenya's adorable.

Katsuki

You're... dating???

QS Bakugo

I even had to squish his face and pepper him with kisses.

Ten

We are :)

Katsuki

,,,Isn't that weird though?

Ten

Your still squishing my face

KatsukiToday at 1:18 PM

Wha,,,

Ten

How is it weird

Katsuki

Because it's like you're dating me????? And that's weird...!!!!

Yamikumo

Katsuki

And I thought there was that, y'know... that universe thing...

Ten

....We have talked about that already

Katsuki

I mean, this is like the weirdest long distance relationship ever....

Kaminari Denki

What'll you do if you all get yote back to your universes?

Katsuki

Also it's just kind of.....EXACTLY!!!

Kaminari Denki

That goes beyond star-crossed

Katsuki

We don't know how long this weirdass thing is gonna last and you go and just,,, DATE ME?

QS Bakugo

I will not stop squishing your face, Tenya.

Ten

....you sound mad

Katsuki

,,,

Ten

....

Kaminari Denki

What if Katsuki and Tenya...

Katsuki

Am I mad?

Yami am I mad rn

QS Bakugo

..?

Ten

Kaminari what if we what

Yamikumo

Kaminari Denki

I didn't really think about you guys dating

Yamikumo

I don't think so?

Kaminari Denki

But

Katsuki seems so... Worked up

Heh

Katsuki

I'M NOT WORKED UP!!!!

Ten

....

✨💖Aoyama💖✨

Distracting cat picture

Katsuki

I'm! I'm not bothered!

QS Bakugo

Aww cat~

Ten

You seem like it

QS Bakugo

I just think Himawari-san is just.. being himself?

Hyper?

Yamikumo

Yeah, exactly

Don't think hes mad just confused??

QS Bakugo

Mhm.

Kaminari Denki

So, not troubled by cross universe soulmates or

QS Bakugo

Am.. I missing something..?

Kaminari Denki

Or maybe... Disrupted soulmates...

Katsuki

,,,,,,,,

Katsuki has signed off

QS Bakugo

Eh..?

✨💖Aoyama💖✨

Katsuki

Katsuki has signed on

MOMOGOU WHAT UNIVERSE ARE YOU FROM

QS Bakugo

I'm.. lost..Eh?Uni..verse..?

Kaminari Denki

Different quirks

Katsuki

Like, do you have a Deku???????????????

QS Bakugo=

Yes we do.

Katsuki

Where is he,,,,

Kaminari Denki

Swapped with Kiri

Katsuki

,,,,

Kaminari Denki

Like, quirk wise

Ten

Why do you ask

QS Bakugo

I'm not sure...?

Kaminari Denki

And kinda personality wise

Probably

Katsuki

So is he,,, is he Kirishima or is he Yami,,,

oh my god

I HATE THIS

Mitsuki

[Mitsuki has logged on]

QS Bakugo

Hi mother~

Kaminari Denki

Mamasuki!

Mitsuki

whats happening???

✨💖Aoyama💖✨

Hello~

Katsuki

MOM

Mitsuki

Katsuki

Mom can we talk please later please

Kaminari Denki

Sorry-- hi Bakugou-San

Mitsuki

Of course...

and thats fine kaminari

Kaminari Denki

There are so many Bakugous around now

Ten

[Tenya has logged off]

Katsuki

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Katsuki

Am I being irrational here,,,,

QS Bakugo

Tenya..?

Mitsuki

About what?

Kaminari Denki

Katsuki, is everything OK?

Katsuki

Why would he date outside of our--

That just doesn't make sense!!

Isn't that gonna, like, disrupt something? Or whatever???

Kaminari Denki

You're... Jealous!You ARE!

I was right!

Katsuki

NO I'M NOT!?

Kaminari Denki

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh

Shit I gotta calm down

Katsuki

WH-WHY WOULD I BE JEALOUS

Kaminari Denki

Lest I disrupt a sleeping moonbeam...

Mitsuki

Uh?

Kaminari Denki

Of tenyaaaaaa

Katsuki

I'M NOT JEALOUS OF IIDA.

QS Bakugo (Sushi)Today at 1:30 PM

...

Mitsuki

Then of....momogou???

I back read

QS Bakugo

Have... I done something wrong..?

Katsuki

I'M NOT JEALOUS OF ANYONE!!!

Yamikumo

I mean he has a right to be

Questioning this shit

Mitsuki

It seems like it dear

Yamikumo

If we end up stuck in our world without contact to you all

Then what happens??

We'll all have to go home eventually, right? And likely stay there

QS Bakugo

..We've had the talk about that.

Tenya wishes to stay with me.

Yamkikumo

Thats not my point.

Katsuki

WHAT

HE CAN'T?????

Yamikumo

You can't control that.

Katsuki

WHAT THE FUCK

Kaminari Denki

Mikumo, what do you feel about this?

Katsuki

YOU CAN'T JUST DO THAT?/

Yamikumo

If we all get thrown to our world, then you can't control where he goes.

Kaminari Denki

Would you want to control him tho

Yamikumo

I feel like its not my business who any of you love, but I'd rather no one get hurt.

Katsuki

YOU CAN'T JUST FUCKING PICK WHERE YOU WANT TO GO WHAT IN THE HELL

QS Bakugo

I'm not controlling him.

Katsuki

IIDA.

Yamikumo

See you're ignoring my point

Mitsuki

....this is....chaotic

Katsuki

@IDA.

Ten

[Tenya has signed on]

Katsuki

GET BACK HERE YOU DUMB FUCKING JHSGBKG

YOU!

YOU'RE AN IDIOT

Ten

WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT

Yamikumo

If we all get sent home permanently, then they'll be separated

That's my point

Katsuki

WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU THINKING

Kaminari Denki

Is it?

Ten

YES I KNOW I RELAIZE THIS

Yamikumo

Like I said it's. Not my business tho.

QS Bakugo

...

Katsuki

YOU MEET SOMEONE FOR TWO FUCKING DAYS AND YOU DECIDE TO DITCH EVERYONE???

Kaminari Denki

There's something else going on here guys

Ten

HAVE YOU SEEN MY FUCKING LIFE KATSUKI BAKUGOU

Katsuki

HAVE YOU SEEN MINE????????????

Ten

I cant control a single thing in my life

I dont get to choose

Kaminari Denki

Y'all are such romantic messes...

Ten

And the one fucking time i choose something its a bad thing

Kaminari Denki

Just take a step back fam

Yamikumo

HI know what this is

Katsuki

Yeah, it is! Because you're an idiot!!!!!!!!!!!!

Because you chose the STUPIDEST THING

IT'S NOT EVEN A CHOICE YOU DUMB FUCK THIS ISN'T AN OPTION YOU HAVE

QS Bakugo

...I apologize..

Kaminari Denki

Momogou I wouldn't sweat it

QS Bakugo

I'm so sorry...

Ten

Momogou...

QS Bakugo

I'm very sorry about this..

Kaminari Denki

Katsuki's too worked up for this to really be what he's upset about

Ten

Wait why are you pulling away

Kaminari Denki

Don't pull away... L

Ten

Dont leave please...

Kaminari Denki

If all of you would just be honest with your feelingsughhhhhhhhhh

QS Bakugo

I won't..

Kaminari Denki

This is frustrating

QS Bakugo

I..

Kaminari Denki

To watch

Katsuki

What the fuck do you think I'm being dishonest about???????????

Ten

Momogou?

QS Bakugo

I just want to clear my head.

Ten

....

Kaminari Denki

Do you even realize you're not being truly honest with them?

With yourselves?

QS Bakugo

I won't leave.

Katsuki

?????????????????????????????????????????

Ten

...please dont.

Katsuki

You're not even a part of this conversation what the fuck do you think you're going on about Kaminari

QS Bakugo

I'll.. be here..

Ten

....

Kaminari Denki

Listen. Believe me, I get it. I get not realizing or not wanting to realize how you feel about someone

Katsuki

Kaminari Denki

But as it turns out... It can lead to a lot of unnecessary drama

Katsuki

Shut up?

Shut up???????????????????

Kaminari Denki

This isn't something I can just tell you but you gotta figure out your shit

Ten

....

Christ kaminari

Kaminari Denki

Even if it's scary.

Katsuki

Wow shut up

Wowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww shut upppppppppppppppppppppp

Kaminari Denki

Otherwise you'll just keep yelling at each other

QS Bakugo

Tenya, I'm going to get some air..

Katsuki

Shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up

QS Bakugo

You can come with me.

Ten

Ill let you have some time to think

But im not leaving your room

QS Bakugo

I won't take long.

Katsuki

Until the universe makes you that is

Because it will

Idiot

QS Bakugo

...I love you, Tenya..

Ten

Katsu

QS Bakugo

Bakugo is offline

Ten

Damn it

Damnitdamnitdamnit

GOD FUCKING

I...

Im always in the wrong

Arent i

Kaminari Denki

Go easy on yourself Tenya

Yamikumo

Was any of this even necessary

Katsuki

You are yeah

Kaminari Denki

You can't control your emotions

Ten

Hah

Thanks Katsu

So much

Yamikumo

Katsu..

Ten

I love it

Katsuki

You're welcome uwu

Ten

Please

Continue

Yamikumo

Guys

Ten

Until im at

Katsuki

Just trying to help a buddy out!

Yamikumo

Really..

Ten

My breaking point

Katsuki

Since you're supposed to be the smart one, y'know!

Ten

Kaminari Denki

Katsuki, stop being an ass.

💛

Ten

I dont want to be

I didnt fucking choose to be

I was forced

Fuck you

Katsuki

Too bad hahaha that's what the universe wants apparently

Yamikumo

I don't get what you're trying to accomplish here

Katsuki

None of us have a choice here hahaha

Yamikumo

Any of you

We do have a fucking choice???

Ten

....

Kaminari Denki

Your destiny is your own

Katsuki

Nah

Nope!

Kaminari Denki

Don't be so dramatic

Katsuki

It's obviously not!

Kaminari Denki

Tenya isn't taking any of that from you Katsuki

Yamikumo

If our destinies were set we would be identical copies of our alternates

Ten

...

Kaminari Denki

And mikumo and Katsuki would be dating

Ten

We are called prototypes

We were the originals

Katsuki

LOL

Ten

But we werent good enough

Yamikumo

Shut up

Both of you

Katsuki

LMAO

Yamikumo

For two seconds

Kaminari Denki

And Momogou and that world's Midoriya...

Katsuki

HAHA

Ten

ITS FUCKING TRUE

Katsuki

ROFL

Yamikumo

You're both so blatantly spiraling

Ten

...

Kaminari Denki

Seriously, what is going ON with you people...

Ten

We are fucked up

Kaminari Denki

You're bringing the spiral extra hard

Katsuki

Nothing

Kaminari Denki

Today

Ten

What did you expect

Yamikumo

Iida-san. You can't control who you love, or why you love them. Just know that there is risks dating someone from a literal different universe

Katsu. I don't know what you're trying to accomplish, or what you need. But I want to help with it. You gotta talk to me..

Ten

I know the risks

Katsuki

...

Ten

God do i know them

You dont think

Katsuki

I am talking

Ten

I dont keep awake at night

Katsuki

I think he's an idiot.

Ten

and i think your a fuckinf dumbass who is angry that i seemed to be doing what you so unconsciously want

Katsuki

What about their Iida, huh? What's gonna happen to him?

Did you even think that through?

Kaminari Denki

You dorks are so stressed out...

Katsuki

Are you just gonna push him onto us?

Ten

...

Katsuki

Or are there just gonna be two IDENTICAL people just hanging around, oh-!

You can pretend you're twins! That'll work!

Yamikumo

Jesus

Katsuki

Or long lost cousins~...

Ten

Kaminari Denki

Okay, do you want to bang Tenya or something

Ten

KAMINARI

QS Bakugo

Bakugo is online

Katsuki

...

Kaminari Denki

You're acting like something is being taking from you

Ten

SHIT

Katsuki

I guess Ingenium can just die over here, right? Since no one'll be left to take HIS place either

QS Bakugo

...I'm..Sorry..?

Did I miss something?

Katsuki

Pffffffffffffffffff

Kaminari Denki

Momogou did nothing wrong

Ten

^Its me

QS Bakugo

Hold on, hold on.

Back track.

Yamikumo

No one did anything wrong besides shit talking one another

QS Bakugo

Who's banging my Tenya?

Kaminari Denki

Maybe, just maybe, Momogou gave Tenya something he didn't realize he'd been needing or longing for

Maybe they found each other by chance

Katsuki

Or maybe it's ~fate~ blahblah yeah I get it

I just want an answer to all my questions that's all

Kaminari Denki

But there's nothing wrong with finding comfort in someone else

Katsuki

Should we get a new class rep now??? Since you're fucking eloping or whatever

Kaminari Denki

Yeah and I wanna know what tf that villain is up to

But we can't always get what we want

Katsuki

Shut up about that now cool

QS Bakugo

Bakugo is busy

Yamikumo

Katsu has a point

If Iida-san leaves

What does that mean for our world?

Ten

...

Yamikumo

The impact he would have had

I think its great that he and Momogou are together

Before y'all turn on meBut its something you gotta consider

Ten

[Tenya is busy]

Yamikumo

...sigh

Katsuki

Fucking stupid idiot

Dumbass

Kaminari Denki

I get your point but also

Katsuki

HE'S SUPPOSED TO BE TOP OF OUR CLASS

IDIOT

Kaminari Denki

Y'all gotta sort out your emotions

Without turning on each other

Katsuki

HE'S THE ONE THAT TURNED ON US????

Yamikumo

I have no emotional value in this

I just want them to stop fighting

Katsuki

I need to fucking

hit something

Oh my god

Yamikumo

Hit me

Katsuki

Yamikumo

I also need to hit something

Kaminari Denki

Jesus fucking...

Yamikumo

It'll be equal hitting

Katsuki

No.

Kaminari Denki

There really are layovers from your universe into ours

If you really are prototypes

Yamikumo

What does that mean

Katsuki

Don't fucking call me that.

Kaminari Denki

I have no idea which universe is what

Or what it means

But the Bakugou I know, while very honest, is emotionally constipated like Yike

Katsuki

Who even fucking came up with that...

Yamikumo

I don't think we need the existential bullshit on top of all the fighting

I think everyone just..

..honestly I don't even know what

Katsuki

... No, that was on that fucking log about me

I don't wanna hear it.

Yamikumo

I dont know what you all need

Kaminari Denki

Huh?

Katsuki

I don't NEED anything???

Kaminari Denki

The mystery guys log?

Katsuki

... Yes.

Yamikumo

Shut up about the mystery guy jesus

Also you do fucking need something

Kaminari Denki

Fuck it

We gotta talk about shit

Katsuki

Kind of hard to shut up about something that is literally engraved in my skin but alright

Kaminari Denki

Wtf happened

It--the FUCK?

Yamikumo

Jesus christ

Kaminari Denki

Not your cheek...

Katsuki

No.

Kaminari Denki

Because Mamasuki has that

Katsuki

Yeah. It was mentioned.

In the log.

Yamikumo

You're the one like 'shut up about it' earlier I

Hff

What the fuck ever I'm not

Doing this

Katsuki

Then don't do it???

Yamikumo

[ Yamikumo has logged off ]

Kaminari Denki

You keep bottling thjngs up

You'll explode if you do that

Katsuki

Stop acting like you know me.

Yamikumo

[ Yamikumo is online ]

Kaminari Denki

I know one of you. And not like there's not similarities

Different universes, some things were bound to be constant

Can you really say I'm wrong? Thta you're not bottling anything up?

Yamikumo

Its true.

Kaminari Denki

We've all got fears, Katsuki.

Katsuki

Shut up...

No. Shut up.

Kaminari Denki

Just can't let them drive us

Or beat us

Katsuki

Shut. Up.

Do I look beaten to you????

Kaminari Denki

No.

To both

Yamikumo

Yes

Kaminari Denki

But you're scared. About something

Katsuki

Fuck you Yami

Kaminari Denki

You feel shaky about something

And if you ignore that it will not go away

Yamikumo

You can say that, but you can't say that I don't know you

That I don't have grounds to say it.

Katsuki

...

Yamikumo

People can only reach so far for you. You want people to think you're invincible but you're literally destroying yourself

If you can't let people in how the fuck can we help

How am I supposed to reach you if you keep slapping me away Katsuki

Katsuki

I don't... want... your help.

And how is this help?????

Both of you, ganging up on me and--

Fuck you

Yamikumo

You won't point out your own issues

You want to pretend they don't exist

Kaminari Denki

You say that like we're against you

Katsuki

BECAUSE YOU ARE

Kaminari Denki

No, I'm not

Mikumo isn't

I'm trying to push you to be more honest

With yourself

Admit it to us, don't admit it to us

Whatever

Yamikumo

Katsu when have I

ever been against you

Katsuki

...

Kaminari Denki

But you're so... You're reluctant to even face your emotions

Even a simmering pot boils eventually

Last couple times I saw Kacchan boil over he was either in the hospital or fighting Midoriya SO

Yamikumo

That's what I don't get

II'm not trying to fucking be against you

I want to support you

That's always been my goal???

I don't understand how you don't understand that

Kaminari Denki

At least listen to Mikumo. He's smart. And he cares about you and your well-being.

Katsuki

...

Yamikumo

If I have to point out the things you want to ignore?

I will.

I'd do anything for you

Even if you don't think I would.

Kaminari Denki

Honestly, that Mikumo is willing and able to point those things out just goes to show he does care

You should value that

Yamikumo

I don't really have anything else to say. I doubt you're really paying attention anyways.

Kaminari Denki

He should be.

Yamikumo

I'm just. going to go. If you want to talk to me you can, but I'm not dragging this out further.

[ Yamikumo is offline ]

Kaminari Denki

I think youre right to say it

Katsuki

...Great

Awesome

Are you happy now?

Like, are you done?

Got all the preaching out of the way?

Kaminari Denki

Don't be defensive. Mikumo is right.

You should think about what he said more.

Katsuki

And you should get off your fucking pedestal and shut the fuck up.

Kaminari Denki

Why? Hit a nerve?

At least I can talk about my emotions...

Katsuki

I don't have to listen to this...

Katsuki has signed off

#[[ this... was so.. fucking... long... im kms ]]#qs bakugou #yamikumo #aoyama #kaminari #p iida #mitsuki #katsuki.log

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tumblunni · 6 years ago

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Social anxiety C C C COMBO BREAKERRRRR

I had a real good day yo!!

I was in a really stupid emotional state at 4am this morning cos of a dumb nightmare about my abusive mum that i havent seen in 15 years. But at least because of it it prompted me to try and find the address of my childhood home again, and i successfully did and i had a huge nostalgia wave just looking at google street view. I dont know if i'll ever be brave enoughto actually visit there and walk down the same road again with my new and taller legs, but just knowing that its not impossible makes me feel a lot better.

But then srsly i was in real big panic attack shakes and i couldbt get back to sleep and i had a pounding headache and my eyes hurt and then when i finally passed out i kept waking up like half an hour later and having to go thru all the hell of getting asleep again. And then when i woke up at 5pm having wasted the whole day i realized my electricity was out and i needed to walk the 1.5km to the shop where i can pay the bills and AAAAGH giant headache and on the verge of tears and its the middle of a heatwave and my hair dye is all faded bad and so many damn excuses. And 'oh well itll take like 20 minutes to get ready and then what if i walk too slow and the shop is closed'. All the stupid reasons i use to excuse my social anxiety!

BUT IM REALLY PROUD THAT I STILL DID IT

I'm not just giving myself the 1.5 on my kilometres count, im definately getting two points for 'survived anxious social situation with style and grace'!

Cos seriousky cos of the heatwave i wouldnt be able to wear heavy baggy coat yo cover myself up, so i went out in a short sleeved shirt with my binder and i was really inpressed with how good i looked in the mirror. Yknow even tho my face was like sleep deprived mega anxious death hell! XD but yeahi managed to accomplish the Basic Things Of Daily Life despite being in my worst anxious state for ages, and i did it in sweltering weather and while unconfident in my ability to pass. I actually ended up having a swing in my step on the way back and enjoyed a completely un anxious walk for once! I just saw myself in the mirror in the supermarket bathroom and was like 'holy shit i look perfectly fine, what was i worried about?' And then i didnt completely fall apart due to the now new worry that if i was actually successfully passing then maybe i'd get kicked out for using the bathroom of my birth sex. It was a slow shopping day so nobody else came in there, it was fine. And i mean i'd still feel equally as anxious using the other bathroom, there arent any unisex toilets for nonbinary folk :(

But yeah i handled it really well!! Its such a small anxiety to other people tho and i still feel ashamed that i cant completely shed my peoplephobia all at once. But this was a really big step up that metaphorical staircase!

Oh and while i was there i actually felt confident enough to Actually Do Some Damn Shopping! I didnt just limit it to a basic run and gun, get in there, get the one thing and leave thing. I very often do that!! Sometimes it takes me two trips to the shops to get everything cos i got so anxious i just ran home after the first thing XD But today i actually wandered around the whole supermarket and checked if there was anything on sale or anything i forgot to put on my shopping list. Again, very basic thing that normal people do every day, but for me i usually get irrationally panicked so this was a disproportionately big accomplishment!

I BOUGHT A SHOES

I havent bought a new pair of shoes since like.. 4 years? 5 maybe? I cant recall if it was before i moved here or just after. I have a stupid habit of only owning one thing and only replacing it when its broken, because like.. Leftover instincts from being poorer. And its stupid cos im perfectly able to splurge on electronics or pokemon merchandise or whatever when i have spare money, yet when it comes to actual life necessities im like 'nah what a waste'. I guess its cos avoiding paying for them was a common experience during those homeless times, whereas splurging on self birthday gifts was not a thing i could ever do at all. Possibly this is the same reason i get easily suckered in by scratchcards and lootboxes, its easy to not notice how much i'm wasting when its not something i have a long experience with. Plus they kinda cheat by making each singular pull be cheap and then encouraging you to keep gambling fifty more times. But its only 2 bucks each time~fuckin hell im dumb to fall for that shit.

ANYWAY thats why ive been using the same shitty pair of trainers for like five years. Theyre really durable but theyre not exactly comfy or very good looking. Theyre like this neon green and yellow and black tron lines abomination that i DO KINDA LOVE but ive gotta admit that it doesnt fit with many outfits. I literally dont own a single other yellow anything.

So yeah i bought three pairs of shoes on sale for 15 pound in total HOLY SHIT thats a good dealio! I got some plimsolls/daps/im not actually sure what they call them in other countries sorry. Its like the fabric shoe but it has a good grip runner's sole to it? Always used to wear them in gym class at school, i liked them beter than trainers cos the sole wasnt as thick and inflexible. I mean im already clumsy without like 3cm more height on me! And then i got some sort of loafer thing thats similar but more The Comfort. And then i also got some super soft indoor slippers! So now i actyalky have shoes for differebt occasions!! Jogging walking and laying around being a couch potato! Not just wearing these big chunky trainers for all of that! I mean lol it used to be even worse, once my Only Shoes were actualky these huge mountain climbing boots XD i got them free from the homeless shelter and kept them for years after i left, even tho they were too tight and always cut up the back of my ankles. Ah, memories of past trauma! Why am i stirring up so many of these today!!

So anyway yeah thats my Very Boring Normal Day that for once i managed to handle like a normal human being. I'm proud!

Oh and i also got a glitter cowboy hat and i dont know why they were selling a glitter cowboy hat but it was the only sort of sun hat they had so i went with it. It kinda helps with dysphoria somehow?? Like i know people will criticize that part of my fashion first before they notice how ugly the rest of me is XD and its hard to be sad when you're thinking 'beep boop gender cowboy'

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angelicxprowess-blog · 7 years ago

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Heyyyyyy I kinda wanted to ask a personal question? I wanna write a character who has autism and I was wondering if you could help me? Like if you could just name some things that characterize autism to you personally that would be absolutely amazing tbh. If not that's totally cool I don't wanna pry sorry. Thanks!!

Dont worry!!! I like answering these

Okay well firstly, it does not have specific things to get a diagnoses. Me and both of my brothers are either diagnosed with ASD, or have it suspected, and while mine and the 9 year old’s is more similar, me and the 17 year old’s is completely different.

Most autistics I’ve seen prefer being called an autistic person than a person with autism but I think that's just down to preference. Autistic person is just more common.

There are many many different ways to stim. When I do it its usually cause Im happy, excited or stressed out (and sometimes I do it cause its fun). This can be either hand flapping, jumping, when Im sitting down kicking my legs in the air, hitting my leg, making noises (”ah, ah, ah”), stroking my hair and other stuff. Not a lot of people are understanding and a lot of comments are made, and sadly from what I’ve seen, a given so...

Echolalia! This is where you repeat words and phrases you hear. This can be from a song, the last thing you heard, or just anything you remember. Some autistics only communicate with echolalia, but I dont think that's very common.

Communication is hard. I struggle with working out if people are happy, sad ext just by looking at their face unless its at the extreme, and I cant pick up sarcasm when spoken very well unless I’m told its sarcasm (doesnt stop me from using it though). People can say what they think is an easy question, and I have to think about it step by step which can make it seriously confusing. For example; I know this sounds silly but I struggle with doing the washing and I ALWAYS miss steps, and I have broken down just because there was too much going on. Also sometimes, how I communicate can make things tricky for others. When I was much younger my voice was very flat and didn't have much emotion in it at all (I now make it over exaggerated) which got me into trouble a lot because people couldnt tell when I was joking, when I was being sarcastic or they thought I was always being rude. And my wording still makes things difficult sometimes for people to understand even though to me, what I’m saying is obvious.

Sensory overload. I’m not sure if its an autism only thing but its common and is hell. This is where there is too much stimulation going on (texture, sound and all that), to the point where you just stop being able to process it all and everything goes to shit tbh. This can either cause stimming to be done while being exhausted, or a tantrum (its not funny: dont act like it is), or the complete stopping of as much sensory stuff as you can. I do a tantrum and stim at the same time which is kinda embarrassing for me.. During this I usually scratch at myself, punch myself, keep crying and screaming, (headbutt walls which hurts), bite at myself and other stuff. I have a pill to calm me down (not for autism: I have really bad anxiety that stops me from being able to leave the house a lot) which mum suggested I try using during it but it doesn't do much...

SI’s! Special Interests. Mine is Kuro which is kinda.. really obvious... This basically means that your interest in it is huge to the point where it could almost be like an obsession.. Most things I’m a fan of reminds me of Kuro is some way. Its pretty much all I draw and write about, and talk about. Also! It doesnt have to be a TV series or game thing; it can be anything. About science, songs, books, history ext ext! The stereotype is trains so.. If you’re gonna make it that please be careful cause it gets :/ They can last either a really long time, or a week. Depends on the person. Kuro has been my SI since I was 13 (5 years), but I’ve had some that only lasted a month.

Eye contact can be evil. Its either “Am I looking too much?” or “I cant look them in the eye am I being rude???”. We dont really understand the balance there...

It can make learning really really difficult if done in a way that doesnt fit you. If you just speak: I'm not gonna remember anything. And if you go too fast: Yeah still not gonna remember anything. This doesnt mean the person is not intelligent, it's just that our brain is wired differently and picks up information differently. If you leave me to learn on my own, I got named one of the top of my class. If it’s a teacher, I got told that I wasnt trying hard enough and was a waste of space (that teacher was an ass).

Things need to be done in a certain way and if something disrupts this its Bad. I have a very specific routine in the morning and if somebody interrupts it I will not get up and will scream. If I’m reading something, I will talk to you when I want to talk to you and if you interrupt, I wont be able to continue the book from where I was and will have to start it over and will be PISSED. When cleaning everything is done in a very specific order and if you’re still in the room, I just wont do it. If we’re missing something I need, I wont do it. (I haven't cleaned my room in ages cause we dont have the hoover rn). This doesnt mean you are organised btw!! Just things gotta be done in a certain way.

One of the things I do is refer to myself in third person a lot. I’m not really sure why this is, but its like

Friend: Are you tired..?

Me: Lizzie’s tired... She needs sleep

I know a few other autistic people who do this, so I’m pretty sure its because of that! I think some people do do it just to join it but xD But I don't think its very common so :/ Not many people use it in books or tv unless a character is playing so ;u;

Since some people think this and its... really wrong. Age regression isn't a symptom of autism. You can be autistic and regress, but it’s not a symptom. Also while its true for me and my 9 year old brother, you don't inherently act younger than your actual age, though that can be a symptom (When I was a lot younger (5-7) I had to go to a special class because of this although we didnt know what caused it then). Though since a lot of people see it has inherent, I would avoid that.

If the character acts like Sheldon Cooper from the Big Bang Theory, change them as soon as you can. (Biggest walking offensive stereotype) Ngl my favourite character that is confirmed autistic is Christian Wolff from The Accountant, although there is some stereotypes (Math being the SI, complete stoicness, also there are signs that the therapy he went to is ABA which freaked me out and him doing this thing to CAUSE an overload (Flashing Lights, way too loud metal music and scraping a metal bar up and down his leg) its pretty good!!! (Also guns and explosions)

Autism speaks is shit. Do not support that crap. They do more harm than good and act like its a disease, which its not. You cant cure it, its just how your brain is wired and there is nothing you can do about it so *shrug*. ABA is bad too and traumatises its patients (that's where they train you to act allistic (non-autistic). You’re either born with it, or you don't have it (Doesnt mean you can only be diagnosed young. You can be diagnosed at any point in life, although its easier when you’re younger. Mine keeps being put off from being finished (even though I’ve been told I am) because to the world, I’m a feminine girl and we apparently cant be autistic which is bullshit, and because I was nearly 18 (we’re gonna finish it soon).

I think this should be enough... If you need anymore please feel free to ask xD

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this-is-a-witty-url · 7 years ago

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oh yeah. i said i was gonna talk about the stage door drama at kinky boots. cause there was some things i observed that kind of pissed me off. i just didnt get to it caues loladulting

tl;dr: the root problem was his team and the theater.

i had no intentions on trying to get a signature after i saw the madhouse of a crowd on saturday night, after the first show i attended. with brendon not signing anything and then hearing reports that even the actors themselves weren’t coming out to sign because of how crazy the crowds were, i was like. nah. im good. took an uber back to penn station and left.

i found out that the cast did not even come out that night because of a cast party and were too, uh, tired and potentially shit faced. which was cool and all. but the show ended at 10:30 and people stood out there till way past midnight which was like, wow, two hours? and i think brendon did come out but he just ran to the car and that was it. but two hours for that was like, uh, they should have just canceled it.

on sunday, the last day for brendon and the second time i saw the performance, i accidentally ended up in the crowd at the stage door. now this is a pretty easy mistake to make if you’re not paying attention on where you’re exiting out that theater. i saw an opening and thought that it was a clear exit to leave the theater because there was just so many people gathered outside and i wanted to avoid them. besides, i was meeting a friend i had not seen in years and he was waiting for me across the street.

i ended up directly in the crowd for the stage door greetings. i wasn’t allowed to just leave through that way cause security had it barricaded, and more and more people were gathered so it was like this sardine can of people gathered at the door waiting for brendon (and the actors).

zack came out in one of the kinky boots used in the show and made an announcement that brendon would be coming out in 30 minutes. he wouldn’t be signing anything but that he’d be out. i was like, okay, i’m here i can deal with 30 minutes. zack went back in. cool.

young charlie and young simon/lola came out and signed a bunch of stuff. sweet kids, really. then they left with their families. the actor who played don came out and took a lot of time out with the crowds taking selfies and stuff. cool dude, nice of him to do that. the lead actress who played lauren also came out to sign stuff.

but that was it. everyone else had left through another side door away from the crowds like immediately after the show and no one knew about it. there were people in the crowd wanting the signatures from more of the star players in the show and were pretty bummed out that did not happen.

but: back to brendon

thirty minutes turned into forty minutes. no brendon. now, we thought that brendon was being held up because of meet and greets. but we learned that brendon was the only cast member that day not participating in the meet and greets so it couldn’t have been that. so, zack comes out, says brendon is gonna be out in a bit.

we’re already waiting like 50 minutes at this point. crowd was getting anxious; parents were getting upset. i was standing next to a man who brought his 13 and 15 year old daughters to the show and they love brendon and they were running late. like if they didn’t catch the bus to the airport they were going to miss their flight. he was getting really pissed off.

another parent standing next me, who was also there last night with her daughters waiting for brendon, said that if you don’t see the black SUV, brendon isn’t coming out. so we all look out in the street and a black SUV pulls up. this is now like an hour after the show, roughly thirty minutes after the supposed time that brendon was supposed to come out in the first place. zack comes out, does his uh security thing and goes back in. car is sitting out there.

no brendon.

now people are getting really antsy. like there’s some parents that are like telling their kids they gotta go, kids are getting upset cause they want to see brendon, some other fans getting upset cause they’re tired and they have places and stuff they gotta do. im getting upset cause i got a friend waiting across the street for me now for an hour. another at starbucks. and we have a dinner reservation.

not to mention the absolute fucking chaos that is 45th street right now because of people just ‘lining up’ to see whatever the drama is. my friend told me that the crowd got so big that it was in the street and cops were driving by honking their sirens trying to clear the street. i mean, people were on the rooftops of the apartments across the street looking at the drama at this theater. like the crowd as apparently that massive at that point.

brendon finally comes out, an hour and fifteen minutes from the show ending and zooms right into the. doesn’t wave. don’t say anything. just... nine seconds. literally. just power walks right into the car and that car fucking takes off. i mean, i got it on video. its 9 fucking seconds.

the crowd slowly disperses but the theater fans waiting for the other actors still stay around. we ask if the other actors are coming out, we’re told nope. brendon was the last to leave that’s it. not really good news to hear but okay. i thank the guard cause he was a sweetheart trying to get our playbills to the actors that did come out.

so now soapbox time:

i don’t know how the other nights leading up to the incident where brendon’s team cancelled his signings went down. i don’t know how long these people waited or how good or bad the theater staff handled it. but, based on what i saw those last two nights, it could have been handled better.

the crowds were peaceful for the first thirty minutes, especially when it was announced brendon would be out within that time. people started getting aggravated fifty minutes into waiting. by making us wait, for whatever reason it may have been, by making everyone wait for that long i believe could have contributed to how ... rowdy the crowds got at the signings. if people were waiting out there for an hour, two hours, even three hours -- yeah, all that anticipation and excitement building up is like a pressure cooker ready to explode.

also, to come out at all and not even say something is kind of lame. people were upset, parents were angry and yeah, i get it. last show. zack said it himself, brendon wasn’t even going to come out but since it was the last show he was going to do it. but if it was the last show, at least something could have been said? i dont know. you have people waiting out there for nearly an hour and a half and all they get is 9 seconds and a rush of people trying to get photos because there’s only 9 seconds to get a shot?

for that, he should have never came out. they should have cut the appearances entirely. brendon has protection, he has a security team, and he has a way out if shit goes down. the people in the crowds don’t and if something went back, a lot of people could have gotten hurt. lets say one kid, one parent, one fan just decided to push themselves forward just for that golden shot??

it was a pressure cooker.

it could have been handled a lot better. if i was a parent who had a kid at that event, i would have been upset myeslf. i could blame the theater, and yet, maybe part of it was there fault but a lot of it still is on the back of brendon’s pr team and they should have just nipped it in the butt and not have people waiting out there for hours and not take that time out to acknowledge them for their support and patience. he didn’t need to sign anything. that crowd would have listened. they would have respected zack’s wishes.

but, hey, whatever. at least the performance was amazing.

i just think the whole handling of the stage door was absolute bullshit and 100% of the fault should not be blamed on the fans like its been put out there for the last two months. brendon’s team and the theater fucked up too.

steps off soap box

#kinky boots #personal #that door situation really annoyed me #brendon urie #discourse at the disco

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thegeminisage · 8 years ago

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time for MORE ZELDABLOGGING hell yeah today’s stream of consciousness:

i’ve decided that i wanna go south bc like im never gonna catch up with my brother and im Not in the mood to do heat-resistence stuff so i might as well see a thing he hasn’t, right?!

if i get too bored i can always turn around and go north!!

furthermore he’s getting closer to hyrule castle and i dont wanna lol

fast traveled to the dueling peaks and found the tower already

ooh and lake hylia is south as well! tho ofc im doing the southeast one first

and i’ll probably get tired of storyless exploring before i get out that far hahaha

wow the tower is close to the border, i can see the lake hylia province from here

there’s an Immense palm tree lookin jungle and i think i see a giant armos?

but the mountains divide it pretty neatly so it looks to be an easy walk assuming those guardian statues don’t move

ah. of course they move.

at least they can’t get up and walk around :|

too bad you can’t play around in the menu while you wait out rain. i’d rewatch m memories and shit

i climbed this one red looking cliff and the sky went green and the weather changed to all cloudy forever so im probably about to die

and just like that, glided to the tower. easy peasy

ah, the faron province!! cooool

ah wow!! it’s bigger than i realized *w*

watching a lightning storm from one of these towers is fucking terrifying

that lightning does Not fuck around

the maddening thing about this game is seeing so much cool shit in the distance and you can’t check it out yet, or it would be such hard work

i see some glowy shit and a giant pink tree and i wanna explore everything but also it’s so Much

it’s kind of creepy out here :/ maybe i want to go do story after all lol

im ging back to the shrine you hang glide off of so i can start from somewhere familiar >_>

idk why im so cautious playing this game. like. its a game. its not like it can hurt me

im having trauma flashbacks looking at eventide island

wait is this a

i hear town music!!! omg omg

PEOPLE ;_;

ohhhh my gosh what a beautiful peaceful beachside town

reminds me of bodhum/new bodhum and bits and piece of ff11, which i say with the greatest reluctance

i love everyone in this village just bc they are here

oh god it’s so beautiful i love beaches so much i want to live here

oh my gosh there’s a gerudo here!!!!!! OH MY GOD I HAVEN’T SEEN YOU SINCE MM TALK TO ME

she’s asleep in the inn lol

oh hey the painter dude is here too

some of these hylian npcs are poc which is so do cool and overdue

ooh a chest game

i lost lmao

OH MY GOD

the gerudo lady is awake and she is. so tall oh my god

im gay

i am Gay

I Am Gay

oh, man. oh man

are they all so beautiful. so Strong. good god

i wish this village was bigger i could have happily stayed here for hours

omg

someone a long time ago was standing on a mountain that looked like a broken heart and was like, is this not the place to find your soulmate…? but i haven’t found mine yet

someone mentioned a similar legend here and on the map i see a mountain with a whole heart on it pfffft

im so sick of seeing these stone cirlces everywhere…i can’t blow them up..what do you DO with them? complete the pattern maybe??

oh my god it worked

i’ve passed by so many…how will i ever get all these seeds……..

i know the game wants me to sail here but i hate sailing, it’s tedious, i want to control my boat with the fucking control stick

holy fuck dude the sword im using is so strong?? it cut down a palm in a single swipe!!

the longer i play the more i hate the blood moon

oh no i found a hinox

i was going to avoid him but he has an orb….

idk where it goes tho so there’s no point there’s no point the blood moon will bring him back okay Okay

hes a red one anyway so no big, when the time comes

oh my god ANOTHER hinox with an orb

i bet they go to the twin shrines near the village

but i’m supposed to find a tablet before i do that…….i don’t wanna skip another quest like the zora helm also thats a Long walk jesus christ

NNNONONONO GOD

GUARDIAN THAT CAN WALK OVER THERE NO FUCKING THANKS SO GLAD IT DIDN’T SEE ME

so fucking glad

exploring is so dangerous Why

why do i suck SO much at combat

oooh a bokoblin camp with a black mobiln :/ Yikes

aaand bomb arrows takes care of THAT

i love seeing farosh flying around here but i can NEVER CATCH HIM

i was just a few minutes too late to getting him at a really good spot

but the dragons seem to take the same route over 24h, so there’s that

oh hey im back at green cloud plateau

okay Um am i crazy or did i just hear something roar? was that the wind??

oh god i see a question mark from here something already knows im close

oh ogd oh god why i bet it’s big and awful

IT’S A LYNEL LOL

i dont have any healing or defense stuff no way

oh no i think there’s a shrine up there where he is ): but i can’t get it

AND A HINOX RIGHT NEXT TO HIM? NO THANKS LOL

jesus i knew i’d die here

at least there’s no orb on this one

oh noooo more lightning god the storms here are brutal

omg i found shelter behind a waterfall and there’s the shrine i was sensing!! yes!!!!!

holy fuck im not safe here either i nearly just got fried

in the shrine we go holy shit

may the weather be better when i get out

damn i keep finding ore today… #blessed

I SAW FAROSH AGAIN HE WAS SO CLOSE BUT I WAS STILL TOO SLOW…okay they DEFINITELY take the same route everyday i think

or at least if not at the same time, the same places

ugh i went over to this one place and the weather turned to all lightning forever

KASS? HOLY SHIT DUDE YOU’RE GONNA GET FRIED

im so glad to see him ;_; it’s creepy out here

uh…i think…i have to get struck by lightning…on this hill…oh my god i’ll die???

maybe my lightning rod will work……? please…………..?

aaaaand it did nothing. great. ok

/saves game

……../dons metal armor weapons and shield

LMAO IT WORKED HOLY SHIT

oh my god im alive!!!! i had mipha’s grace just in case but i took an electric elixir

jesus FUCK

yes nice i didnt even have to do anything just get the…chest…….

B R O

i got rubber tights!!! electric resistance!!!!! NICE

ah and when i came out the storm was over :3

but kass is gone ): i wanted to tell him i figured out his song!!!

i knew i should have talked to him before i went in :/

lol i find a boat after playing in the water for 100 years…..not that i wouldve used it, but

aw i met and saved a traveling couple, i’ve saved them before

oh my gosh a STABLE!! all the way out here!!!!

THERE ARE PEOPLE

man i wondered what that couple was doing out in such a remote place

oh wow beedle gave me a single ancient arrow…apparently it deals huge damage even to guardians

maybe this is what the start screen meant by the right tools!!!!

but there’s only one…

robbie from akkala gave it to him…NICE i’ll remember

ah some guy here said there was something glowing at the top of floria waterfall…i gotta check that out

ooh a shrine back here too…nice

god there’s a chest in here that’s REALLY hard to get bc camera angles but it has an ancient core (looked it up) and i need one to upgrade my runes………smh

man…nah. im out. there will be other cores & this is crazy ridiculous

its just the stasis rune anyway and i use that one the least

five big hearty radishes means TWENTY FIVE EXTRA HEARTS

but you can only have a max of 30 lol so

AAAH HERE COMES FAROSH AND IM FINALLY AHEAD OF WHERE HE’LL BE OH MY GOD

I HIT HIM I HIT HIM

I FINALLY GOT A SCALE

almost died for it but. i got it. he throws electricity involuntarily and it’s major stuff i shoulda worn my rubber gear

i kinda wanna wait and see if i can get another……..but i have shit to do

holy shit farosh came back around & i got another scale…wish i could hit his horn

AAAH NO A GIANT STONE THING IS HERE….i have no idea how to fight them im leaving

well idk if the stone thing or the dragon or the shrine was what was supposed to be glowing up here but i don’t see anything new

im almost done exploring this province, actually

gotta walk along one beach and climb the heart mountain and that’s it!

a little tempted to grab my horse since it’s such an easy direct road, but i’d be getting on and off all the time ):

fml there’s a guardian on this beach…pls dont move pls dont pls dont

oh thank god its stuck in the sand

omg there was a chest in the sand but it WASNT A CHEST it was one of those yellow octoroks!!!! but!! i shot it! and got money!!!!!!!! #nice

NOOOO another stone thing!!

but you know the last one took a lot of damage from one accidental bomb so maybe

how do you fight it?? i can’t damage it???

OH OMG THE ORE THING!!! OKAY LET’S DO THIS SHIT let’s go i cooked up so much good food

oh my god i took him down in just a handful of bomb arrows…THATS what ive been running from?

not nearly as scarly as lynel tbh

and i’ve been marking the minibosses on my map so now i can look for jewels there if i ever need to

i found a fuckton in this region but lol i sold them all

i know one great fairy needs 10k rupees and like…..Yikes

im getting pretty good with my bow, i can hit far off targets bc i know how high to aim and shit

i’ve kind of been wondering what happens if you get to the edge of the map

but the wind gets so strong on the beaches i bet you just either run out of stamina if swimming or can’t make the boat get past it if sailing

but what happens if you get to a land edge though…?

i actually dislike getting to edges of maps haha it creeps me out. that disreality unrealization shit. no thanks

in la noire the edges of the map have u-turn streets and you realize the cars are all just on one endless track and no one is in them and no one ever goes home and you start to wonder if this actual universe is a simulation and it freaks you out

anyway.

omfg someone from the yiga clan selling bananas like i actually could have bought some if i wanted LMAO

he actually had me fooled for a moment even though i know what npcs named “traveler” mean

why do they all give me bananas when they die anyway………whats going on with this.

oh my god this dude at the heart shaped pond is in love with this gerudo lady here. and like. same oh my god she’s so Big

but lol you can choose to say “yeah talk to her” or “nope, rival time!”

me: aggressively wants to flirt with the gerudo lady but not in a straight way

pls this cutscene was so cute

but she deserves better than a weirdo like this guy

he like, gave me a twenty, and she fussed at him for being stingy, so then he have me a hundred, and THEN

HE ASKED FOR HIS MONEY BACK LMFAO no way fucknuts

wow and with that im All Done with this province O:

i mean yeah i got quests and shrines to come back and do, but i’ve SEEN everything, yk

maybe now i’ll go up to death mountain haha i feel so slow ): i hope what i saw and did made up for my slow story progress

whoa this weapons guy said he’d remake mipha’s trident if i ever broke it!! what a relief

ah i finally figured out the shrine puzzle by zora’s domain…gotta give that thing a dragon scale. but i like my dragon scales too much so i won’t. maybe later

oh hey the death mountain region tower! that was easy

uhhh what…is that

oh my god a FLYING GUARDIAN are you KIDDING me??? why???????

and they’re everywhere! fantastic!!! my ass is DEAD

oh okay this region is called akkala

at least i get guardian arrows here eventually :|

oh my god ONE SAW ME FUCK

oh my god

I RAN UP TO THE TOWER AND IT’S COVERED IN THE BLIGHT

what is that thing crawling all over death mountain?!

what is happening OH my god!!! so much!! everything!!! all at once!!!!!!!!

wait

that’s the divine beast

oh my god

oh my god.

oh my god it’s so big but even still it looks tiny in comparison to the mountain, oh my god

omg it gets cold up here only at night?? omg

NO there’s a still guardian up here too ;_;

i’m gonna try to kill it!!! good first try it can’t move and there’s cover RIGHT here

second try really but im stronger now

now, i have bomb arrows and lightning rods

ok lightning rod does nothing, bomb arrows dont work in the rain, but i killed it with shock arrows!!

and it wasnt v hard bc i was behind cover the whole time lol

but like, with those arrows - i used maybe 9 or 10? and that was all i used, i threw a couple of bombs at it too i guess

now to figure out how i even get IN here w/ all this gunk…..

fuck a bokoblin near a cooking pot saw me and accidentally set itself on fire lmao

ok i can’t climb past the blight, i tried, but how the fuck do i get rid of it i dont see any eyeballs )))):

……………………….w ait

this bokoblin has a shield with the hylian crest on it. the HYLIAN crest

these ruins have the red carpet with the double line of gold on the side

i’m crying this was someplace special

i don’t know what it was bc it can’t be the temple of time or hyrule castle but it was someplace real i recognize the style of it so faintly and it’s COVERED IN BLIGHT

oh my god………..this is so Much

ah ok a beam fell when i shot the first eyeball and i was like why arent there anymore?? but apparently i can magnesis it

oh wow i found a piece of a room…….totally trashed, jesus christ

must’ve been a lab or library

omg its thundering outside…..that has nothing to do with zelda but it makes this creepier

THERE’S A GUARDIAN AT THE TOP SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME

its not alive tho thank christ

jesus fuck the divine beast is SO BIG and the mountain is still SO MUCH BIGGER i feel so tiny every time i look

anyway it’s 5am and there’s lightning so i gotta unplug for many reasons, this is a fine stopping place, can’t wait to get my ass kicked by that thing and rescue a goron, holy fuck

#loz blogging #botw spoilers #not too spoiler heavy bit a lil bit #personal #snap story incoming #this storm is gonna be a real humdinger #i worry all the time about my aunt's outdoor feral cat colony ):

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