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i need ppl to understand it’s okay for fans to call Caitlyn a villain or dictator in this situation bc that’s quite Literally her character rn 😅 “but it’s because-!” U don’t have to make excuse on why u like her! Ppl can like characters that do bad things. admitting the bad things she’s done r great. I love sevika and silco and we’ve seen the shit they’ve done!
I’m tired of ppl trying to defend Caitlyn rn like she isn’t supposed to be the antagonist. And I’m tired of ppl immediately pushing Caitlyn into this hole of being a nazi cop. She’s a human being with human emotions. bad things happened to her so she’s retaliating by being bad and the show is obviously showing us that’s she’s being bad and it’s OBVIOUSLY gonna be resolved soon but just let her be bad! Let her react to trauma in ways a privileged individual with that much power can! It’s what makes her character complex !
No I dont like what She’s doing but thats quite literally trauma and rage responses from a human person. I don’t think it’s completely fair to downplay what she went thru but at the same time her reactions ARE deplorable and it just makes her current arc that much more interesting 🫣
#like idk if I’m wording this right#bc I don’t like Caitlyn defenders hopping online esp on tik tok and trying to defend her actions 😅 u don’t have to it’s ok!!#but I also don’t like them putting her in a box of an irredeemable nazi that’s gonna be the next Hitler#GIRL CMON#y’all let silco and jinx off with slaps on their wrists 🤣#Caitlyn’s in her villain era and it’s AMAZING story telling wise !#remember guys this is fictional#caitlyn kiramman#pers#arcane#I’ve had to edit this like 10 times bc I couldn’t express correctly how I’m feeling
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so. hear me out. Peter and Neal as a comparison to Orpheus and Eurydice.
“If Peter really loved Neal he would trust him. He wouldn’t turn around to constantly check on him” 🚨wrong. Peter loves Neal too much to not turn around, to not look over his shoulder, to not watch his location, to find hope every second Neal seems to be doing good because that means Neal will still with him, and to find dread every time there’s ambiguity because it could mean Neal’s taken away from him.
#white collar#neal caffrey#peter burke#I have a bad headache and I’m trying to sleep so comparison isn’t the right word but it’s all I can come up with rn#like they’re not an analogy or a metaphor. idk comparison is all I have
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I think everyone’s subscribing to the “Helena Infiltration Theory” WAYY too quickly. I kinda feel like a lot of the oddities in the way she was acting could be chalked up to something else, and defaulting to “that’s not Helly” feels a lot like… I don’t know, like brushing off character flaws by saying, “No, [X] is possessed! That’s not actually them!”
I’d probably buy into it a bit more if she didn’t have that moment in the halls with Mark where she fervently said, “We’re not the same, actually. Us and the outies, we’re not.”
There are reasons why Helly would want to lie about her identity, and chief among them is the fact that she hates her outie—desperately wants to place distance between them, desperately wants to convince herself that the person she saw wasn’t her.
But there are compelling reasons for both angles, and I can’t say that I won’t be scanning future episodes for hints to either prove or disprove this, so… cheers, 🥂.
#my post#i’m mostly just worried people will use this as some sort of ‘‘gotcha!!!’’ and go the whole season believing it#and then being like. ‘‘what she’s really Not helena?’’ if it doesn’t turn out they’re right#but maybe they are! idk i kinda mostly feel uncomfortable with the idea that it’s Not the helly we know and love;#that the other innies are separated from her#ugh i hate that i can’t find the right way to word my thoughts on this; i feel like the ‘‘analysis’’ i wrote in the post is lacking#but whatever. on a different note: i think i’m not gonna look at theories online/on tumblr while this is happening#because if there is genuinely a theory that predicts something from the show. i’d still rather have seen it in the episode itself#and be surprised that way#WHICH IS GONNA BE DIFFICULT. IT’S GONNA BE HARD AS HELL TO STAY AWAY.#but i digress#severance#severance spoilers#severance season 2 spoilers#honestly the most odd moment for me with helly was when she was like ‘‘wait what?’’ at the news about ricken hale#because i just don’t think she’d give a fuck 💀 she didn’t even see the book initially; i don’t think she’d Know the importance of#what it meant to mark or dylan. least of all remember the name#but that might just be nitpicking#anyways that’s all i can coherently put into words rn. fare thee well
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Started looking at a few of ur artworks and Im absolutely blown away with how unique it looks!
Starting as a beginner artist, was it hard to find ur niche and audience? Or was this something u never really thought about/ realised?
Funnily enough I had the opposite in terms of trying to find an audience when starting out. A lot of my earlier art was just a bunch of random furry ocs/nonsensical doodles/etc just trying to hop on whatever art bandwagon was going on to try and fit in and prove myself as an artist. It was only when I realized I wanted to create impactful art for myself, along with wanting my art to be something that can stand alone and not have to be influenced by context for the viewer to connect with it, that really let me start creating the work I make now. After shifting to more personal work I found people were a lot more receptive to my work, and I just managed to build my little niche over time. Peoples reactions to my current art definitely influences what I make now, but even then I always just created works for myself, and I’m very grateful people like it :)
I do consider the work below as one of my “cornerstone” drawings in terms of my development as an artist, it was my first work were I actually tried working a full scene, along with using it as a vent piece. Really set the tone and standard for all my other works
#I also just decided I wanted to make bigger pieces the day my childhood best friend killed herself#something abt it just made me realize I should channel my emotions into art rather than trying to make random drawings#the drawing I posted was started the day she was admitted in a coma#and finished it on the day she ended up passing#now that I think about it her anniversary is only a few days away#is that the right word??? the day she passed idk#I feel like I’m never good at explaining this stuff#but wanting my work to be something you see on the wall and you stop and sit with it a bit is something I’ve always wanted#make no mistake I am still a furry. I just am not in as many communities as before where my entire life was drawing cinnadogs and grem2#ask
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II2 18 SPOILERS!!!!!!!!
i’m still INCREDIBLY normal after episode 18!!
made all of these within two days there is something horrendously wrong with me
FIRST OFF:
shippy screenshot redraws (obviously with my gijinka designs… i’ll draw them as objects some day!!)
my favourite little ghost family!! (i’m so normal about bow calling dough her brother I’VE ALWAYS BELEIVED SHE WOULD WARM UP TO HIM I’M SO HAPPY)
also I LOVE GHOST KNIFE!!!!!!!
and, finally…
shit quality cheesebomb
(cute and very romantic couple activity: kneeslap in front of a dead body! <3)
#hate how i can only ever draw backgrounds when i’m doing screenshot redraws but like also. THESE LOOK??? SURPRISINGLY GOOD??????#also i love giving knife like. a huge amount of new siblings.#like in my highschool au he has a shit birth family so i LOVE giving him a bunch of found family!!!!#thanks to the finale he has two seperate sets of siblings :3 (soap and mic and then bow and dough)#idk if i’m wording this right.#anyways cheesebomb is real guys so real and true#ii lightbulb#ii paintbrush#ii oj#ii paper#ii salt#ii pepper#ii bow#ii dough#ii knife#ii cheesy#ii bomb#lightbrush#payjay#cheesebomb#guys PLEASEEE hear me out on cheesebomb i’m begging you#inanimate insanity#ii#ii2 18 spoilers#ii 18 spoilers#ii spoilers
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daphne was anthony’s “mentor,” kate & anthony were colin’s, and now penelope & colin are going to be benedict’s. i’m calling it now.
#don’t get me wrong tho i’m 100% hoping for some kanthony helping out benedict as well#i just feel like the show has set a precedent now that the prev season’s lead(s) helps out the current season’s lead sibling#also idk if mentor is fully the right word but it’s what i could come up with lmao#benedict bridgerton#sophie beckett#benophie#bridgerton s4#penelope bridgerton#colin bridgerton#polin#kate bridgerton#anthony bridgerton#kanthony#daphne bridgerton#bridgerton#eb says things
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Thinking about Akiren and his hometown…. I like to think/headcanon that he doesn’t hate it there. There is a strange sort of comfort being there at times, but it’s not really.. Home anymore. Same with his parents - my hc is that they’re pretty average (he goes through So Much shit all the time I think he deserves a Little bit of normalcy in his life lol). They’re nice and they care for him, but after living in Tokyo for a year and everything that happened that year, there’s this weird gap now.
Akiren went through so much in the span of that year and he changed a lot during that year. We obviously don’t know too much about pre-game Akiren, but it seems like he’s always had this strong conviction, but acted more reserved than he actually is, similar to how he keeps his head down when he’s put on probation. And then he does not only awaken to his persona and is able to rip of that mask both figuratively and literally, but he finds a place where he can truly start being himself. He finds people who also discover themselves and grow alongside him, and makes him stronger - and he finds people he truly belongs with. And despite all the shit they had to go through, it’s also some of the most fun he’s ever had and these people are so special to him and they understand him and he them and -
And then he has to go back home. And he knows they’re gonna miss each other, but also that he’ll see them again. And it is a little nice to be back, it���s peaceful for a change and at least he has Morgana with him. But it’s a bit too peaceful. There’s not the buzz of the city anymore, he’s not used to it being so quiet - he’s not used to having so few people around him anymore. The town is the same, his parents are the same, but he isn’t. And it feels weird cause nothing is necessarily wrong or bad there, he’s just so. Out of place. He’s a completely different person but no one in this town knows that. And so it’s really easy to slip back to how he’s always acted when he’s there. Because this isn’t where his real self is supposed to be.
Then summer rolls around, and he travels back to Tokyo and all his friends are there to welcome him and Morgana back and it finally feels like he can breathe again. Like he’s finally back where he belongs and he’s able to be his full honest self.
He’s home.
#oh man I hope this is coherent and made sense my thoughts abt this are very . they’re hard to put into words#I might have . self projected just a little bit. Idk I see a lot of myself in the whole Going to and living in a different town and being#changed and finding people there. and how weird it can feel coming home and being unable to act the same just cause. it doesn't feel right#and esp strikers reminds me so much of finally getting to meet friends in the summer and just getting to spend time with them for a while#I know I’m adding to a big pre-existing log of Akiren analyzises but . the phantom thieves and their relationship means a lot to me#and it’s been on my mind a lot lately so I HAD to get it out lol#persona 5#p5#persona 5 royal#persona 5 strikers#anyway . runs off#I like character analysis . i get so scareds abt posting it#talkies
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Alright let me try this again.
What if Reader vented to Birb Xiao, not knowing that it was actually him?
They talk about their fears and frustrations, letting out all the words they've wanted to tell a person, but they have to settle for their pretty bird because no one will listen.
So Xiao is just sitting there, resting in the True Creator's hands, listening as he gets a glimpse of how they truly feel.
They say the milileth is like a raging stampede with their spears and swords. They say how the Qixing all seem so cold and unfeeling. They talk about how Zhongli genuinely terrifies them, because he acted so kind to others but was borderline cruel when hunting them.
They talk about Xiao, too, but they don't seem to have many complaints. They haven't seen him in a while, and the last time they crossed paths with him, he just... let them run. The adeptus had looked angry, but also a bit startled (and perhaps, a bit guilty?) at the sight of them. They even once overheard him leading milileth soldiers astray ("by mistake" says the creator, but Xiao knows the truth) by saying the creator had left a while ago, when really, they were still very nearby. While they say they are still a bit scared of him, they don't fear him as much as they fear the others.
All the while, Xiao sits, still as a stone. He takes in every word, every shaky breath and darting glance. He nuzzles into their hand, hoping to offer even the slightest bit of comfort.
He hopes that they continue to be unafraid of him in the future.
-Sibling Anon
he who is without sin
a/n: decided to make this one a full fic for no reason in particular (i don’t have an actual post shhhh)
word count: 1.1k
-> warnings: imposter sagau things, minor blood mention, spoilers for xiao lore, some spoilers for liyue (like names and titles of people/places)
-> gn!reader (you/yours)
taglist: @samarill || @thenyxsky || @valeriele3 || @shizunxie || @boba-is-a-soup || @yuus3n || @esthelily || @turningfrogsgay
< masterlist > (has context for bird!xiao if you’re lost)
from the moment that xiao was saved, when his new name was bestowed upon him and he signed his contract with morax, xiao had made a promise. another contract, one without physical ink and paper, one bound to his soul.
one to you, his creator.
a pledge to stand by your side, a clause written in by the god that forged his original contract, releasing him from his duties to liyue to serve the one that had granted him life. a permanent extra sweep to his duties, always on the lookout for the highest god above all.
however, he was not the first to find… ‘you.’
‘you’ had landed in sumeru, nested in the large tree surrounding the akademiya. ‘you’ had climbed down, introduced ‘yourself’ to the sages with a smile. everybody was quick to give ‘you’ the glory rightly the creator’s, ushering ‘you’ atop a throne of silver and gold, offerings laid at ‘your’ feet with all the haste of those deprived of the divine.
xiao may have hung back at the beginning, unwilling to allow his karma to infect ‘your’ other worshippers, but he still did his duty. he still kept ‘your’ path clear of enemies, and was the first to pick up his blade when word broke of your imposter.
and yet, when he laid eyes upon the one he was supposed to hate, he was the first to repent.
xiao took a shaking breath, crossing his arms around himself. “morax?”
the elder god turned, amber eyes soft. “what is it, xiao?”
xiao marched through dihua marsh, polearm gripped tightly in his hand. a large hilichurl camp had been reported, which while not an issue normally, was the third in the last four days.
irritation was openly displayed on his face, the anemo around him simmering with his anger. why did the abyss have to act up now, when they were on a hunt? surely even they, as infected and riddled with darkness as they were, worshipped a god? or was that the source of their evil?
he kept marching north, only turning his head at the sound of a soft gasp.
“how will i know when the creator arrives?”
morax smiled, not upset like xiao had anticipated. “don’t worry about such things. when the time comes-“
you stood on the path branching west, eyes wide. you looked nearly exactly like the ’you’ on the throne, the same cool eyes that called for your death now wide and staring at him in fear.
“-you will know.”
you turned on your heel, your armful of sunsettias tumbling to the floor, but… xiao did not chase you.
instead he brought a hand to chest, under his necklace. he pressed, feeling the still-regular beat of his heart.
he pressed, searching for the place where his karma used to be.
from the moment that xiao realized the truth, when his new duty was bestowed upon him, he had made a promise. another contract, one without physical ink and paper, one bound to his soul.
one to you, his creator.
he flew down from the sky, landing in your outstretched hand. he chirped a greeting, body relaxing under your gentle touch.
“hello there, friend,” you cooed, sitting straighter under the tree. your tree, the one you kept coming back to, the one he always directed other adepti away from because it was for you, not them. not him.
you fed him as usual, but stayed strangely silent. no stories of the kindness mitachurls showed you, no update on how close or far the people searching for you had gotten, none of the usual things he looked forward to. you just… sat. watching him in your hand, an emotion he didn’t know the name of drawing your brows close.
maybe you just didn’t want to talk today? but if something was troubling you, he wanted you to share, to allow him some of the weight off your shoulders. then again, he was just a bird to you…
“do you know ganyu, pretty bird?”
xiao froze, thankful he was facing your palm so you couldn’t see his eyes widening.
“i thought i did.”
he looked up, carefully, daring to meet your eyes. this time, he could pin down what you were feeling: betrayal.
his finch heart burned.
your thumb pet over his wings, but he couldn’t bring himself to enjoy it. not now.
“i thought she was kind.”
she was, he knew firsthand. how she worried over the tianquan, fretted over her skills both with a bow and with a pen, how her and the yuheng kept each other afloat in the sea of endless work assigned to the jade chamber.
you smiled. it was bitter. “i guess i should have known better regarding the adepti.”
xiao’s heartbeat raced in his ears, something hot burning a hole in his chest. he was an adeptus, he wanted to say, he could be trusted.
but you didn’t know him as an adeptus. you knew him as your little songbird, your friend, the one you continued to risk your life for, even if you didn’t know it.
he chirped once, somber. he wanted to apologize, to take up his blade against his own king on your behalf, to walk up to the fraud’s throne and watch them bleed red.
but you didn’t need that. so he sat in your hand, leaning into your fingers, and let you speak.
as it turned out, today had been a busy day for you. you had wandered into the path of a millelith patrol, which had happened before, but not with keqing at the head of it. not when she had darted forward in a flash of lighting, electro arcing along her sword. not when she’d pulled out and blew a special whistle even as you ran, one that you couldn’t hear but could feel under your skin, taunting you as you tried to navigate the maze of bishui plain.
when you told him of ganyu’s frostflake arrows, he wanted to cry. when you described the anger in zhongli’s eyes, he started to weep.
you didn’t deserve this pain. you didn’t deserve having to outrun planet befall, you didn’t deserve to fear your life being stolen by those who should protect you at all costs- he should have been there. he was south, too far south to hear the whistle, but he should have been called.
he should have protected you.
under the shifting leaves of a sandbearer tree, your songbird cried. and you, none the wiser, continued to spell out the cause of his torment.
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#sibling anon#sagau#self aware genshin#genshin impact#genshin self aware au#genshin#sagau impostor au#genshin sagau#sagau xiao#xiao#xiao x reader#sagau x reader#genshin x reader#gender neutral reader#i should have made all of these full posts in truth#but like. yk. :/#whatever whatever hindsight and all that right?#i should make a bird xiao tag shouldnt i. hm.#i have full posts w like 300 words i should have just done that for all my bird xiao asks- but those aren’t really plot?? it’s kinda just#worldbuilding?? unless that counts as headcanons??? idk i’m not really involved in fandom what’s the appropriate term#[says i’m not involved in fandom even as i’ve written over 250k words for one (1) video game] i’m so funny#bird!xiao shenanigans
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every time someone calls caleb their ‘childhood friend’ i die a little inside
#HES UR BROTHER#BROTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!#niisan!!! gege!!!! oppa!!!!!! BROTHER#i like that infold left it up to interpretation in the english localization bcoz it gives those uncomfy with the pseudocest an out#but i agree that a LOT of the cards end up sounding a little awkward due to the refusal to call him her brother#like intertwined gold????? dude that ENTIRE card was fucking forbidden romance#why would caleb call himself a MONSTER if he wasn’t ur adoptive brother be so for real with me right now#also day four of the event?????#‘sometimes i wish we were strangers so we wouldn’t have to make up excuses to hold hands’#UMMMMMMMMMMM#HELLO#HELLOOOOOOOOO-OO-OOO#i’m paraphrasing obv but wow#wow!!!!!!!!!!!#caleb’s whole fucking shtick is that this is forbidden#wrong#something they shouldn’t really be doing#i have heard that in cn/jp it’s framed as ‘i don’t JUST want to be a brother figure to you’#which makes sense#not ‘oh boo hoo we’re ??? childhood??? friends???’#anyway#idk how that’s supposed to be ‘wrong’ in any sense of the word idk idk#shrugging so hard#clari chatters
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Depressed? I’m not depressed. I have artistic melancholy, I have poetic sorrow, I have divine misery, I’m ravishingly morose, I’m elegantly sullen, I’m charmingly somber, I’m angelically lonesome, and I am enticingly downcast. But I am NOT depressed.
#I heart romanticizing everything#like it’s not that my life is getting worse I’m just developing a more interesting backstory right now#dps fandom#dead poets society#dead poets society fandom#dps aesthetic#dps#the picture of dorian gray#meme#words words words#poetry#words#dorian gray#tumblr stuff#romance academia#dark academia#vibes#thoughts#Tumblr shit#dead poets fandom#mr keating#todd anderson#idk how to tag this#smithsblr#the smiths#romanticism
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Makima, devils and self-fulfillment
Dumping some Makima and CSM thoughts after a part 1 binge bc I think about her forever and ever. I’m sure I’m forgetting some devil lore, feel free to correct what i get wrong/what’s been confirmed. On the table of contents there’s why & how Makima got fixated on Chainsaw, her revealing liking for the country mouse and discussion of her nature & emotions & desires. Was the scorpion doomed to be a scorpion?
The most of this post was thought of during a conversation with @saccharineomens and I don’t think it makes sense to jump into the spiral it sent me on without first laying down the interesting groundwork theorizing she did:
"Thinking about how makima herself wants to be deified. I wonder whether she recognizes the difference between Love As Worship and the love that Aki, Power, and Denji had. She says she wants to help humanity by having Chainsawman eat the “bad” devils, but why does she want to help humans? Because she was ordered to by the Prime Minister? No, her drive seems much more personal than that, it seems like she teamed up with the PM for contractual reasons. (In the most recent chapters we see governmental members wanting certain devils to be eaten, too. What was Makima’s relationship with them? She’s too independent to just follow THEIR orders, she’s Control.)
So is she wanting to better humanity for the accolades, or out of the goodness of her heart? She sees the big picture. She sees any small sacrifice as worth it for the end result, and she’s ruthless. Perhaps she thinks that a more sedate human race would be easier to control? But Makima doesn’t loathe humanity. She never acts like she sees all humans as lesser. She loves humanity’s creations, like good food and movies. She just wants Good Things all the time
She says she prefers the country mouse BUT adds a story where she helps exterminate country mice like vermin. She likes the simplicity yet rejects the idea of being simple. Makima the complex individual you are"
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The story itself seems to prefr the country mouse. Well- it strikes a balance, shows that a risk to live good & fully can be very worth it, but still that stability over ambition is preferable, proning having a simple happy life over fame, a simple job instead of a dangerous one, etc etc. And I do find Makima’s answer on this so so interesting, she prefers the country mouse, but this preference isn’t out of affection or sympathy but because of how relaxing it feels to exterminate them when they cause problems.
Order satisfies her. Her order satisfies her. She likes the action of rooting out disorder. Maybe this is the devil part, like how Power especially wants blood and drinking it, I feel there’s an itch to every devil, and for Makima it’s a very rigid world view/morality/standards & making things follow her rules and submit to her order.
And maybe this is why she’s attached to humans too, why she felt it was worth it to stick with the government- because devils are chaotic by nature (it’s a whole plot point that hell is essentially a free-for-all battleground for example), meanwhile humans are the species that universally rule Earth with systems they invented and instilled. They made then enforced rules, complex and intricate webs of them. She feels alienated amongst devils but she understands the humans’ need for an orderly organised society, and now she wants to be part of it. Control and conquest require social dynamics after all, requires civilizations or groups. War is chaotic while peace is, well, peaceful— Makima resents her sisters for being death, famine and war, things that throw the world in such chaos. She wants a world of perfect order, no matter how much collateral damage there will be if the end result is control.
This is even more interesting if you consider that yes, Makima is untouchable of her own design, she deifies herself with her omnipresent amount of control and the sway over others that she seeks and encourages— There is this urge to dehumanize her for it, that yes, she is the devil of control and that means she was never going to be any different, have any more feeling be any less uncanny. And I love part 2 so much for this, because it shows us the war devil and the famine devil and we see how frankly uncharismatic with poor self-discipline they are, Nayuta too, and it helps us realize just how much Makima’s success was self-made.
She admires Chainsaw Devil, the Hero of Hell, because he had his own code and his own rules and he made Hell, the chaos pit, submit to them unfailingly. Wherever he goes he decides what he does and what happens to the people he encounters but does so consistently, he has his mechanism and his rules that he always obeys, and he fulfills them every time. It’s still a mystery the why of Chainsaw Devil’s behavior back then and how it works exactly, maybe Pochita left hell because he was tired of these rules he lived by like chains, but still, he was a servant to his code. Makima would have been glad being killed and eaten by Chainsaw Devil because it’d have been becoming part of his design, his conquest, his domination, she’d have been part of that —his— order. Through her death she would be shaping his world and be part of a conqueror’s making history. Like how she appreciates the country mice that die for the sake of order. Like how sacrifices must be made to herself, like listing the name of every person whose life was lost to the Gun Devil— All for the ~greater good~, for her vision for the world. Conquest always thinks its reasons are justified.
And she does mention with the country mice thing that she goes out to a friend’s farm every year! She has a human friend?? That she visits yearly and she genuinely likes it?? Ultimately she lives a busy city life because of her goal and drive and her urge & satisfaction with overseeing shaping the world herself, but part of her, like so many characters including Angel and Aki and Reze, wishes she could live a slow peaceful country life. Moviegoing and dogs and mice in a farm- Wouldn’t it be so much simpler if Makima could find fulfillment and happiness in being a farmer, in keeping control of her own farm, getting satisfaction from exterminating vermin and expertly getting everything right, the right crops grown at the right time on the right soil? Here, too, in a way it’s trying to have full control of an ecosystem, but her goals would be easier to achieve and better, without ceaseless sacrifice or much pressure. But Makima wants grandiosity and her goal does matter to her on a fundamental and moral level, she does think she knows what’s best for the world, and with the power to change it why wouldn’t she strive to? Visiting the farm is just a break, just something she does in fall to help out and just in time to see the vermin extermination. It calms her, then it’s back to actual work.
In capitalism, even the one at the very top of the ladder is ultimately alienated from others and often unsatisfied by their lifestyle, always wanting more and more power because surely that’s the extra edge they must be missing to be content— like how Makima thinks she wants to dominate Chainsaw Devil instead of being his equal. And she says it herself too, she likes humans the way humans like dogs…….. And she keeps so many dogs :( Makima prefers the country mice because they’re calming to root out, maybe because she usually mainly deals with city mice. It’s very easy to equate humans to the mice in this allegory because it’s pretty direct and she’s already likened humans to lesser animals compared to her. She’s self-isolating by design for her design but she still craves relationships and contentment, and the dogs are the embodiment or her want for bonds and occasional simplicity because there is no possible ulterior motive, no way they tie back into her wider plan. They’re her personal life— something that feels so alien when speaking about Makima. Personality and individuality and likes and preferences and friends they visit every year. She likes how easily she can train a dog and how they become putty in her hands, at her beck and call, how much they love her and how much she enjoys their love. How simple and straightforward and easy it is. She keeps them because she likes being loved by them and loving them, and she’s gotten and raised so many. A conqueror always wants more and more and more, is never satisfied.
Devils and agency
Like Power the blood devil wanting blood and having a fixation on drinking it like with Denji’s, or how it was shocking that the violence devil was pretty tame and nice and how he himself theorized it was because he was a fiend and possessing a human body… There’s something to be said about nature vs nurture with the devils. The way they reincarnate and always embody their fear makes it seem categorically like nature, that they always always end up fulfilling the role they were named after and born to fill… Outside influence they’re helpless but to conform with. Like the humans accepting their spot in the social ladder and the shittiness of their living conditions and job under capitalism. Makima craved being equals with someone despite being the control/conquest devil, Angel Devil despite claiming to be a devil who likes to see humans dying was haunted by their deaths and wanted to avoid ones like Aki’s. The Ghost Devil being ironically haunted by Himeno, seemingly helping Aki in her memory out of… Lasting affection? Or maybe it was less about being haunted itself and more about it recognizing how Himeno haunted Aki, and acknowledging that, with the memento, paying her respect to the ghost of her. It’s Angel Devil’s devil nature that makes him like human suffering, so then is it his angel nature too to still care about their deaths? Is there truth to this or is that just personality, just our confirmation bias haunting every part of their identity like it might in their own view of themselves too? We do know different reincarnations of devils do have different personalities after all.
Yoru, war devil, is the most interesting one when talking about the nature vs nurture debate with devils. There is how through her we see the perhaps the most the consequences of a devil stopping being feared— we see a horseman for a concept as universal and horrifying as war be reduced to some bird who needs a contract with a human to have any power even just on the situation when meeting Asa. And through the story we get to know her better, and it becomes clear that her goal is fueled in good part by simply wanting to be remembered and respected through fear. Liked, validated, seen a powerful. But what is more isolating than war? Or control? We also see Nayuta accepting others’ house rules. If part 1 shows perhaps the futility of running away from the truth, with Denji’s memory, with escapist coping mechanisms, with passivity and denial under a corrupt system and with abusive relationships- running away from your own feelings and from the reality of things and from all that you are, more complex than simply human or devil or both or neither— part 2 builds upon the theme of cult of personalities, the chainsaw church, etc. The apocalypse is coming, but this celebrity superhero might save us all, or doom us all uh, dunno. The hero of hell reliving the cycle of pressure from responsibilities and expectations, maybe the part will end with Denji running away like Pochita did~
But yes, on the reverse, I think Famine is a very interesting example of how a devil’s namesake may be more innate than coerced by circumstances. One would think that a famine devil would only like inflicting famine upon others, not being famished itself, but Famine has a bottomless stomach that can never, ever be satisfied, sated. I struggle to find a psychological explanation for this, except that maybe instead of her being hungry it’s her feeling empty when she’s not eating, tasting and having that high sensory experience that releases serotonin in humans, sort of like drugs? But I do take this as a step towards the compulsion theory overall, feels like a reach in the consistency otherwise. And compulsion does not mean it’s something that they like nor that it’s something that they fight against, pretty neutral, just a nature that nudges you towards one path. Maybe it’s even just their go-to for entertainment. Maybe it’s the only thing that makes them feel right and whole. But still the debate remains, what is it, a compulsion or an urge or an itch or an active desire or a conscious chosen want? Does it change anything in practice?
And because of all of this earlier, devils being self-fulfilling prophecies with their role is not in unsignificant part nurture, because doing their atrocities is how they stay remembered— feared, powerful, known— hell and devils are a very isolating place and breed after all, and we do see devils can want companionship. Existentially, it’s their purpose and how they justify their place in the world, in the terrifyingly vast and unknowable cosmos.
We still know so little of what makes Chainsaw Devil so special, why his carnage is so self-controlled. Despite a chainsaw maybe being possibly one of the most "nature" thing you can be— a tool to cut things, a human tool that can be helpful for many things, something to be wielding by another at their judgement on what they decide, but mainly something to cut, a tool suited for carnage, to hurt and to destroy. A blade with a toothed chain, spinning around and around and around endlessly on the same road at the same pace. Such a…. Innately circular concept. And yet the Chainsaw Devil is his own, not driven by an urge or by chaos but his very own brand of order, his own unique assigned purpose, a "if you call i’ll come running to help" policy equalizing everyone. He chooses to withhold his destruction and interference otherwise, and then he chooses to be used. If it’s a choice, of course.
Maybe this is what inspired Makima so much, that Chainsaw Devil could decide what to make of himself despite expectations or innate role. Because even Hell he decided & managed to subjugate under his will and whim, with a precise vision and process. When Chainsaw Devil acts like Denji or is defeated, Makima clicks her tongue and loses her admiration and respect. Makima admired and liked Chainsaw Devil, but only as long as he matched her great image of him in her mind, as long as he followed he rules for what she thinks he should be like. She admired him for his unrivaled self-made success, but once he stepped out of that to truly embody self-fulfillment and agency, disappearing from hell to live on his own road at the beat of his own drum… Well. Surely that was a mistake she has to correct. However their second battle ends, the better conqueror will have prevailed and she’s happy about that, all in the spirit of domination and subjugation.
Imo Makima’s biggest tool, similarly capitalism’s most helpful effect for its own purposes, is complacency. Resignation and passivity helps uphold the system and go along the flow of the will of the people in power. Aki and Reze go along with orders even when knowing their job is trash, etc. In Angel Devil especially we see him go along with the flow uncaring about anyhing, and we discover it was in part due to Makima taking away memories that motivated him. If every devil decides this is just how things are and how things should be that’s what they’ll continue to be and do mindlessly, not pursuing a better life like Chainsaw Devil and Denj and not seeking to change the world like Makima. I think even Makima veils herself to a lot of things, she doesn’t like to think deeply about some things, like her desire for connection, or how making bad movies disappear is strenuous and unsustainable and requiring sacrifices at best— how her judgement is as subjective as anyone else. How liking the country mouse and her friend back at the farm and her dogs could be not devoid of sentimality. Wanting bad movies erased is her one biggest show of selfishness, of pettiness and individuality, it’s about her tastes, simple as. About how she can have tastes, and cry seeing a scene of people hug, and want things that aren’t logical, her ideology and mind twisted into a pretzel to avoid acknowledging that she doesn’t live and breathe purely for the mission she’s made a single-minded robot out of herself to accomplish. Nayuta is assertive and selfish and loud, Makima is manipulative and strategically both for her goals and for coping hollow.
Everything in her plans and goals she says is for the greater good, necessary evil, manufactured happiness the way she’ll have decided for people— and that’s the thing isn’t it, like with War, it’s the crack that shows it was all truly about herself after all. Her self-made deification still had the flaw that a self made it. Makima is not omniscient, and it’s not Chainsaw Devil the not-so-fellow-kindred-soul conqueror who gets the best of her, but a city mouse, a dog, someone she would have never thought to respect, Denji.
#Fumi rambles#Chainsaw man#makima#analysis#meta#The goal is moreso me dropping thoughts than being flawless on every aspect of the lore so if and when i get things wrong b merciful….#Maybe her liking of control is why she remembers the ww2 authoritarian fascists. I don’t want to say the word jic for tumblr search#Pity is never a factor When mercy is a sign of a talentless actor#And as you grow its hold on your throat starts to falter And once you go beyond pure humanity's border#You will come back like a dooooog 😭#This’d be a different topic but. I don’t think makima likes denji as much as one of her dogs. If so i’d say it was in the moments where#she brought him to movies but even then….. i think she has more fondness for her dogs bc w denji it was indifference and derision#I love you please humiliate me / strip my dignity and laugh my honey#God. God i’m fine. I’m so okay about csm#Makima has a cryptic but strong sense of morals?? That doesn’t align with ours obvi but#���Someone like you has no right to wish for a normal life do they?’ What do you meannn what do you meannnnn#What is this contempt for denji. Does she see herself as moral or part of those that are city mice bc they’re undeserving of a calm life???#Maybe famine only feels fed on humans and their blood 🤔 or their fear. man idk idk idk idk but i wanna see more of her quirks#And before someone says ‘but every demon likes to drink blood’ power is especially fixated on it tho cmannnn#Did Angel lie when he said he liked seeing humans die?? Did his haunting thing become worse after meeting Aki?? Did he suppress it#because he feels like he doesn’t belong as a devil??? bc he’s suppressing his memories of the villagers he cared about??#Has he just been trying so hard not to care for so long. Passive bc he thought that’s all he could or should be#AGHHHHH#Spoilers#There’s a lot more i’d have liked to touch on like the popular theory that Makima was *raised* by the government#and i’ve seen a take that the ‘my friend at a farm’ thing is all euphemism from makima about her troublesome human killing job ykyk#but i think the phrasing is too literal and natural for that. The snow and soil talk everything. It’s a perfect allegory but it can be both
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Oh no, I’m realizing I’m starting to get a bit tired of seeing TF One megop/dpax stuff
It’s not that it’s bad or anything, but I’m coming to the realization that they tend to be the same few genres of images and comics. I’m trying to figure out how specifically to word what I mean, but it’s not coming to mind at the moment. But they sort of evoke the same ideas and feelings I think
Technically you could say this is true of other varieties of megop as well, but usually when we see those, they’ve already been fighting for a long period of time, so you’ve got their current dynamic and long time of being apart to work with, as well as their origins. With TF One, the breakup just started, so the timeline and dynamic that comes with it is significantly more condensed and limited. If that makes sense
I’m also not criticizing people who make their dpax/megop stuff like this, honestly I probably would too if I drew them more. It’s kind of just a product of the movie being an origin story and the dynamics only now shifting between the two. There’s a very clear way to do content about them in this movie
It’s just that I’ve noticed this, and now it makes me a bit more disinterested in this version of megop, at least for now. Makes me want to seek out other variations a bit more
#okay I think I’m being hampered by the fact I’m a bit too vague on what the sameness is#but like you know what I mean right?#if it’s dpax it’s usually about Orion doing something stupid but also sweet that D secretly likes#or them being happy together (like looking at stars or something idk)#and if megop is included there’s usually a final recreation with one of them alone or their current fighting#showing how they don’t have that anymore#or how they still miss each other and how they were always together but now aren’t#if it’s Megatron it’s usually him trying to forget or the Decepticons dealing with it (negatively)#and how Megatron now hates Optimus when he used to love Orion#there’s probably one phrase that explains this genre of stuff with them#because they’re similar in some way#but the words aren’t forming#but yeah I’ve noticed this now and I don’t know how I feel about it#again it’s not anyone’s fault or a criticism#it’s just that the movie leaves things in a very specific situation and the fandom’s really big for it#meaning there’s a lot of it#and when I see too much of the same thing I start to get bored and tired of it#transformers#transformers one#megop#dpax#personal opinion
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i am thinking how every vr46 academy kid who has his ear pierced has his left one like valentino because the right one is widely known as the gay earring. well i have news for them !
#motogp#vr46 academy#valentino rossi#anyway this feels like a wonderful prompt to engage in their exploration of sexuality#i’m thinking of sixteen bez joining the academy and having his ear pierced as a ‘ritual’ yk#and idk he goes to the poercer and says he wants the left one pierced not only bc of vale#but also because the right one is ‘da fr*cio’#(his words not mine)#and idk mig or franco or idk fucking pecco that drove him there say ‘don’t say that’#sexuality crisis and starting to question your masculinity ensues !#marco bezzecchi
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okk but what do u think about poly bakudeku i feel like this has to be f2l all three of u childhood friends but idk im handing the mic to u yuwuta
i’ve tried to be sane looking at this ask but the same three scenarios keep rotating in my head so allow me to explain them all but you’re so right on the childhood friends pipeline. it truly is the strongest trope of them all <3
version one: those idiots get together first and they’re kind of mad that you’re so happy for and supportive of them. shouldn’t you feel some kind of resentment that they left you out? shouldn’t you be pinching izuku’s cheek and punching katsuki’s arm for them getting together without you? you’ve beat them up for much less so why are you so complacent about this? it makes them angry, it makes them confused; they didn’t start seeing each other just to spite you but they expected something stronger than this. you’re supposed to want them as much as they want each other, it’s supposed to be the three of you. what’s it going to take for you to grab them and demand that they carve out space for you too, when are you going to make them yours again
alternatively: the two of them being your guard dogs in a sense. they fight amongst themselves just as much as they’re willing to fight off others for your attention. contrary to popular belief, izuku is worse than katsuki. he’s the one that leaves dead rodents in the lockers of boys who send you valentines, leaves cryptic anonymous messages in their game chats and inboxes of coworkers who stare at you a little too long, sends bouquets of knives with just the right smear of blood to the bartender who can’t seem to get a hint. katsuki is much more in the shadows, an intimidating presence that fends off hopeful suitors—but really he’s more concerned with keeping you in, than keeping others out. katsuki’s role is to remind you how good you have it with him and izuku, to show you how nice it is to have two people who care about you this much, to get you to see that they’ve already ruined you for anybody else bc he can guarantee not a single other person could do for you what they’re willing to. or whatever 😚
more alternatives: it takes you going abroad for both katsuki and izuku to realize that the reason their last three dates have been awkward is because they’re missing you. that the reason kissing and confessing felt wrong despite having such strong feelings is because you’re not there and falling into each other is great but they wish they could catch you too. knowing those idiots they’d show up to wherever it is you are, izuku huffing and knocking on your door incessantly and when you ask him what the fuck he’s doing there his breaths are still labored when he smiles and says, “i raced kacchan here… told him i would win… ha—we, we have something to tell you—” and then loud, angry footsteps can be heard from the stairway and a very red in the face katsuki emerging to say that izuku better not be confessing without him. and the whole time you’re just blinking and figure you guys should probably not do this in the hallway
#anonymous#the last one is probably the most….. normal LOLLLLLLL#sorry…………#i have. Thought about this dynamic and i try to be objective but i am very clearly biased so. you’re just gonna have to hear me out#that no matter how it starts or how you get together it ends up with izuku having this weird pull on you both#whether it’s bc of his obsession or him being more confident in u both loving him idk he gets cheeky he gets sort of cocky he gets needy#and he needs u and katsuki to love each other so bad for his sake. but needs just as much reassurance himself idk#i’m not wording it right but just#know that little freak is pulling strings left and right despite being ALLERGIC to an actual romantic confession#mha x reader#sick sick images of you crying in izuku’s lap about never having had a boyfriend#and how guys just seem to not like u or avoid u and he’s stroking ur hair and telling u that’s not true#saying ur so pretty snd kacchan thinks so too and hearing katsuki him from the kitchen where he’s making ur favorite dish#and just. deku seems so innocuous and he’s not and katsuki knows he’s not#and somewhere deep down you know that too izuku’s just waiting for u to figure it out#bkdk.ask
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Ah nothing stings quite like a doomed friendship. Especially when you’ve got no one to blame except yourself for all those careless, selfish actions that pushed them away. Going as far to hurt them for your own gain. You’ve become the catalyst of your own loneliness. A path you forged willingly. A path you thought would bring you recognition…but it’s only lead to you being forgotten. Irreversibly.
#TEEEHEE WAS FEELING ANGSTY AND SAD THINKING ABOUT HIM <\3#he’s so broken oml#can we get reminders every now and then about how they were so happy together#how he was warming up to having a companion#and then BAM it was all an illusion that he unknowingly projected onto her#Meggy never really did like him and he was just lying to himself all along with Leggy :3#I’m not okay about this I’m still not over it and neither should you be /j#LIKE GUYS. HE GOT DISCARDED 😭#‘friend request denied’ erm actally Puzzles it’s you that got cut off. Coping fr#okay actally I was playing around with the colors in this art for a while#I didn’t know if I wanted to purposefully make Puzzles darker then the vibrant colors#like there’s a disconnect between his outside persona & what he’s grappling with emotionally? maybe!#but another idea was that I’d highlight Puzzles in orange#so he would glow alongside the T.V lined background with the orange symbolizing Meggy’s color#……and what I ended up with is neither of those lol???#so sorry if it kinda looks odd it’s because I had too much going on in my brain and was indecisive#I like thinking the scattered around puzzle pieces represent how ‘nothing fits’ together…him & Megs weren’t ever meant to be bffs#so just uh. think about that for a while :))#*sobbing* I WANTED THEM TO BE HAPPY SO BAD AUUUUU#hplonesome art#mr. puzzles smg4 fanart#mr puzzles fanart#smg4 mr. puzzles#cw chromatic aberration#cw vibrant colors#cw patterns#<-help I don’t think I’m putting the right things but idk how else to word this?#I’m bad handling vibrant colors so it looks muted anyways :P#BUT I STILL WORRY ;-;
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*con traje y corbata, llorando* estimados hijos de su reputa madre
#I may have uploaded the science class doodle narancia before… idr… and idc…#To me fugo is the most cat mf ever BUT cats don’t really emote w their ears (yeah they’re totally supposed to start hittin Fortnite emotes)#I feel like I’m regressing in English oh my god 😭#Actually I’m starting to love my art style#Maybe the real problem was me all along and I just needed a freeing art style#Is freeing the right word? Idk man fuck that junk more liberating or whatever#I just need to pin down the anatomy bc 😭#Also I lowkey feel rlly bad for pre gw narancia bc man lil bro is all by himself :(#They make me sob and cry#jjba#jojo no kimyou na bouken#jojo's bizarre adventure#narancia ghirga#pannacotta fugo#< the same characters as always wtf did you expect#traditional art#Doodles#class doodles
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