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The way that u really have to choose clarity that hurts over hope that confuses it sucks
He rlly just wanted to scrub his life clean of me and move on after 2wks like if that isn't a very clear indication he wasn't the one for me idk what is. Idk what is. He wanted to be soooo mad at me for Leaving but then turned around and deleted anything that involved me and found someone new to obsessed over in 2 weeks. Like I'm better now and I'm coping and I'm moving on too but once in a while I think abt it and I do cry. Because I really thought he was the one. I wanted it to be him so bad I gave up SO much I sacrificed SO much and he wouldn't move a foot outside his comfort zone for me. It just hurts. And then for him to move on so quickly because he's just so vindictive. And I know very well that could have all been a lie to aggravate me and make me feel like shit but I'd rather believe he really did move on. I'd rather believe that than believe he'd lie to upset me, that's so much worse.
#there was a lot. there was a loootttttttttttttttttt#so so much.#it hurts my head to think abt and i began to accept that like. it's not worth thinking abt.#i cant solve it. it's done and over and none of what i think abt matters.#there's no point in thinking it's time to feel and keep moving.#that's where the tears come from. another wave of grief another wave of 'god i really wanted it i did SO MUCH to try and make it be true'#grief of it all being in vain. grief of not recieving the same#grief of the person i wanted and thought he was#grief of seeing everything i tried to ignore and excuse#grief of losing good standing w him. that's what it really truly is at the end of the day.#he probably fucking hates my guts and wants me dead and i hate that. after all i did and tried to end it amicably but like#i always knew it would never ever be amicable unless i lied and sugarcoated and pretended#and if he does or doesnt hate me i dont even want to know.#im sure he does and it kills me. but if he doesnt i dont rlly care i dont wanna know#like i said it doesnt matter now
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Long distance besties. This definitely happened after the third movie (source: trust me bro)
Based on this
#anyways time to yap in the tags 😋☝️#but first ummmm lemme just tag some shit#how to train your dragon#httyd#httyd hiccup#hiccup haddock#hiccup horrendous haddock iii#toothless#httyd toothless#ok i think that its done#anyways this definitely happaned after the dragons left like just trust me bro 🙏🙏🙏🙏#omfg i wanted to make this with hijack as well cause lol. do you get it. they're long distance LOLOLOL#maybe i will make it who knows. is it weird to make the same art trend with different characters??#OH WAIT FORGOT ANOTHER TAG#hicctooth#is this the duo name for them#or is it called#hictooth#doesnt matter. what matters is that theyre literally the definition of platonic soulmates bro#like wtf i love them#sorry for making them look miserable i didnt meant for them to look lile that 😭😭😭😭#omg with that being said#BROOOOOO I AM NOT GONNA DRAW DRAGONS ANYMORE IM DONEEEEE HOW DO YOU DRAW DRAGONS 😭😭😭😭😭🙏🙏#anyways first attempt do you like it. SAY YES RIGHT NOW#if you read this much till the end you need to kiss me rn muah muah muah#also say i did a good job at making them look like cookies like#say it rn#okie bye byeeeeee#I FORGOT TO ADD HIS BRAID IM GONNA KMSSSSSS NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO#omg i failed
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Maybe i SHOULD draft out my ‘Clark is a SuperPlant’ propaganda post
#chattin#due to. recent tags that resonated w me#im already someone that loathes the ‘theyre completely alien AND they conveniently look AND function exactly the same as a human’ trope#esp when they have the nerve to make them PROCREATE w humans wo any defects whatsoever#ur lying ur unimaginative u suck !!!!#so my compromise is always like#fine. the point is that they have to blend in very well. i will concede on that front#but god as my witness i will make him so fucked up internally.#u should xray him and see a fucking mess of organs pumping in bizarre places#things that let him see things w a microscopic lens#things that let him exist in a vacuum bc he doesnt need to Breathe#u should get him in a red sun room and realize hes still able to exist unharmed in a vacumm and go hey man. what the fuck .#going to reach max tags bc i never seem to behave myself no matter what im yelling about#i need bruce to sit down and finally read whatever kryptonian text is floating around#and realize clark- despite his mammalian appearance- is far more linked to plants than anything else#a plant w TEETH and EYES and somehow became a predator instead of staying as a plant#HOWWW did u evolve into what u are now? what did ur ancestors look like??? a daisy???#if u look at any kryptonian species youd see that all of them behave like clark- like they all evolved in a similar way#saw a post (i GOTTA find it again) that said that clark is brownskinned which seems a little silly when u compare it to human melanin#but that sunlight makes for a healthy kryptonian and their skin will show it#and paleskinned kryptonians are seeking out more sun and starving for it. like. ouuuu.#i wont add that to my own hcs but its that kinda shit i love sooo much#get so caught up on trying to make him human in ur eyes that u end up misunderstanding him entirely#love him#xenobio#for tagging
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"Tell your baby that I'm your baby" but it's Severus watching as Sirius laughs and jokes with Minerva and Albus and he's calling her "Minnie" and she swats at him with a laugh and says it seems Azkaban didn't kill that cheeky streak of his now did it "ye wee sugar-tongued menace" but when Severus says anything even slightly disrespectful like that she scolds him and tells him to remember who his elders are, and Sirius is there and he's making her laugh, Sirius is there calling her "Aunt Minerva" after that and she's calling him her "lad" but that's what Severus gets to call her, Severus is supposed to be Minerva's "lad", but it only took a few moments for him to have what Severus has taken 13 years to catch even a tiny little piece of, Minerva's taken it away to give to Sirius at once, and there's Albus just smiling and his eyes are twinkling like stars like they've never twinkled at Severus, he can't remember if Albus ever looked at him like that, and it only took a short while for Sirius to once again have the favour, the love, that Severus has spent over a decade trying to earn even a fraction of, he's their golden boy again, he gets to sit with them and laugh with them and call them his mates, he's their boy, even though Severus has done everything he can, yet no, it's Sirius who they love effortless, it's Sirius who didn't need to do a thing to earn it, it's Sirius who has now taken his place, Sirius is their "snarky lad" now, he's come in and taken it all.
And neither of the two seem to care that Severus is the one who's supposed to be theirs.
#severus snape#pro snape#albus dumbledore#minerva mcgonagall#sirius black#i just have a lot of thoughts of the whole order dynamic#how severus and sirius are essentially like two sons- one loved and one not#and how there would be that element of favouritism carrying on from childhood#sirius was one of Minerva's favourites after all. and one of albus's#and severus was just unimportant to either at the time#and over the last 13 years he's become one of them#but he's never gonna be like sirius is he? they're never gonna love him the way love him#and he acts like it doesnt matter#even though it really really does#“don't kill me!” he'd said to albus that night he came for help. now he wished albus had done just that
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Im doing doodle requests again for the next few hours!! :3
RB with your favorite character and ill do a little doodle of them being happy/silly ✨ Id love to hear a bit about them too if you would like to share! (Again nothing inappropriate please 🥺)
If you cant think of anything but want something I can draw you a little cat just lemme know!
Also if you'd rather stay anon you're welcome to send a request as an ask!
To start off here's a little twilight sparkle because I just think shes neat :3
Update: I'm finishing up for the night!! Thank you for another fun night :3
#Again ill be checking this post periodically and ill update this post when im about to wrap up 💖#We will draw softly but swiftly 😎✨#my mutual friends I encourage you to make a lil request! LET ME DRAW FOR YOU RAAAAAAAA#(cinna this is mostly directed at you ily 💖)#that being said everyone is welcome to this! doesnt matter if you follow me or not hehe 💖#my new keychain designs came in today so im extra excited#i will yap about them if given the opportunity i really like how they turned out awkdsm#ok im going to hit post now lol
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my god my god why have you forsaken me
wasn't I good to you?
#shizaya au#shizaya#heiwajima shizuo#orihara izaya#drrr#durarara#fallen angel izaya#priest shizuo#shizuo is having moral dilemma#hes having a hard time with his faith too#if god so good why evil exist hm?#MIREN LES JURO Q TENGO LA TRAMA Y CARACTERIZACION MASOMENOS HECHA PERK NO SE INGLES#also sorry if u see me posting so much i dropped out#btw the wings are definitely wrong like the anatomy#but it doesnt matter izayas gonna lose them anyway#bc hes a fallen angel so he doesnt need them anymore#god really said ha fuck u *rips out your flying ability from you even tho it's all you've known and now you are stuck with these legs*#imagine izaya like those newborns animals that dont know how to walk yet so they keep falling#shizaya fallen angel au#in memory of god
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i wanted to see what a piece would look like if i finished it in my three main mediums, pencil, ink, and watercolor (+colored pencils) >:*)
#my art#naruto#yamato#yamato tenzo#tenzō#kakashi#kakayama#image desc in alt text#okay now to talk shop. SO. i did these in the order theyre presented#which means that the pencil was done first#and by the time i got to the watercolor id drawn this same picture quite a few times#so if the quality seems to improve thats more than likely a matter of repetition and the benefit of past foresight or whatever#like yamatos shin is too small in the first picture.#and i noticeably lengthened it in following pictures. i also shortened kakashis thigh a little bit#yamatos torso looks really long but thats partially because he's slid back a little bit—his flack jacket is up high and you can see#it gapping at his shoulder#but ultimately that doesnt make the anatomical weirdness completely forgiveable so if i drew this again id do it differently probably#THAT SAID IM STILL SOOOO HAPPY WITH HOW THESE TURNED OUT#drawing the same picture over and over and over again? kind of great actually. i recommend it.#if you want to try doing this and you dont have a lightbox (u dont rlly need one) just like. take one drawing you like#and a blank sheet of paper#and tape it to a window thats getting a LOT of light#and then trace ur old drawing's bare bones (the forms. u know)#and then once you have that down. draw on top of it. or use new materials#it allows you to preserve ur previous drawing also which is great#once i was doing a commission and i realized i got the room i was drawing the characters in backwards#so i just. turned the paper around. put it against the morning window. and traced the now-mirrored image onto a new sheet of paper.#saved SO MUCH TIME LMFAO#the paper on the last picture is different and more yellow in tone so thats why the color is weird there ajxjskhfjahx#anyway happy testostone tuesday to all who celebrate 💚 love you
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i adopted this guy from a cardboard box on the side of the road
^^^^ he says this then instantly eats shit
#sunglasses guy -> sunny#nate was said by madi hjakfhkfs#ppl call him sunny night 2 annoy him bc he SUCKS#my failboy my cringefail boy#sunglasses guy#parkour civilization#sunny nate#evbo#im not drawing iron boots rn noooooooooooooooo#get leather instead#puppee art#NOBODY SAID THAT THOSE WERE PANTS#THEY COULD B A SKIRT WHICH IS Y HE SUCKS ASS @ PARKOUR#IM JUST SAYING HEY LISTEN 2 ME LKISTEN#y did i get attached 2 like the 1 guy who does not matter#i gave him long hair bc fuck u minecraft doesnt decide hair length I DO#parkciv#i rlly do just yap in my tags huh#im so srry 4 this cause tbh i think im the only person in the world who sees him like this#bc @ 1st i was liek damn im going 2 make him emo hehehehe#then i got bored bc he just wears a stupid hoodie so i drew more shit & then it progressed#then i gave him long hair bc cOUGH reasons#now im here & he looks nothing like his minecraft skin & thats fine i find it funny LMAO#my neck hurts#kinda#its more my shoudler cause im drawing @ a weird ablge
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not to mention the entire antaam fleet like 😭 that was the PERFECT moment to show off what the lords could do!!! The antaam fucked over rivain, theyve been a thorn in the whole nations side for a long time now, they would not pass up a chance for payback via full scale naval warfare so that the veilguard can do what they need to!! Sure dreadnoughts are dangerous but at this point they probably have tricks up their sleeve, thats one of the few things they have!
also wouldn't it be personal because does solas not try to blow up kont-aar because he's trying to 5d chess tevinter and the qunari into destroying each other. like. i know technically this would not be incredible widespread news because the attack was stopped, but i don't think the wonderful citizens of kont-aar would have missed the tsunami that nearly hit them and the shockwave that actually hit them. rumors go around. and i assume irian/vadis tell varric. who i think would tell isabela. who would tell the group she leads. who would care because ofc, they LIVE IN RIVAIN, and now know that solas and his followers thinks they can trade rivaini lives* to further his plans.
*while i also think there's probably a divide between kont-aar and the rest of the nation, it's one that the rivaini love to jump across and back over. an interesting comparison to be made here with most of rivain having similar sentiments towards dairsmuid and the chantry. like this is the country specifically mentioned to have a lot of citizens who follow the qun/are non-andrastian + it being MUCH more multicultural and accepting than other nations. any attack on rivain, even if it's a qunari settlement, would fan a lot of flames that solas cannot put out so the idea of trying to him taking multiple steps back because he didn't realise how intensely the qun/rivaini/lords would react is very fun for me. it would have been soo interesting for rivain to be a hub for efforts against solas because of how it's not influenced by andrastianism, how he (or his agents) specifically fucked them over, and (maddeningly for solas) also part of this resistance has spirits who willingly guide them against him. this could have even been a plot device where the door goes both ways and solas finds out rook's plans because he manages to eavesdrop through a seer or something.
and on the spirits. all the stuff where the mourn watch regularly communicates with spirits could have been done with rivain as well, and with different takes on being 'friendly' with spirits. iirc there's a spirit in the hall of valor which is so interesting but it's literally just there for flavour text. THERE'S A SPIRIT IN THE HALL OF VALOR THAT DOES NOTHING BESIDES LIKE. SAY HI. ??? bioware i would have liked to see more spirits and seers and the matriarchal pantheists you have talked about please. and also the idea of the peaceful qunari settlement being pushed to protect the country they are part of and what that means for them as qunari vs. rivaini. taash's storyline could have contributed to this . so A LOT less about choosing a side, more about how kont-aar has developed, changed, how rivain has influenced it and what it means to be qunari. not the qunari agents and fighters that we have seen, but their 'civillian' way of life in kont-aar.
complete waste not seeing any of established lore reflected in the lords of fortune or rivain because i stupidly actually thought we were going to see some kind of settlement and be introduced to a very different cultural norms.. in my beautiful mind i like to think taash is a little taken aback by how badly mages/elves/etc are treated. like they understood it was different outside of rivain (they would have been young when the dairsmuid circle annulment happened right? so they don't 'remember' it themself, they likely heard others talking about it when they're old enough to understand) but until they actually saw what was happening first hand, they had a weird dissonance about it. but what we got was a deserted beach, ties to another faction (wardens are fine!! they are great !!!! the fourth blight is interesting!!!! yet they are not the faction with a lack of info about them!!!!!) and also the hall of valor that exists as flavor text with nothing meaningful behind it besides a pub used in a few cutscenes and a minigame.
#it's just hard to discuss the qunari in general when it is so obviously written to be quote unquote bad#and theyre like. in veilguard. really just reduced to being an invading force. which they were before. but there's literally nothing else#not a single character that explains more about the qun or how it operates + the game presenting choices about taash#that obviously lean towards favoring rivain. god knows why. its not like we know enough about it to choose it#even a quick peek into a rivaini lifestyle would have been helpful. all we know are from lorebooks !!!!#its actually like. 'qun would have made taash into a weapon/they are actively invading treviso/theyre working w ghil+el/shathaan' etc#and then on rivain's side the points are just 'umm. well the lords are super nice. and love freedom... and its also NOT qunari!'#there ARE reasons to pick rivain just none of them are in the fuck ass game. no one who doesnt read the books would know this shit#does anyone know why the antaam are acting outside of their orders. i dont rmb if this was explained or if its supposed to be like#a very severe response to solas and defying orders to 'deal' with a threat?#but god. kont-aar as it exists is so interesting. maybe elements of like .#'the main qun ignore the changes in kont-aar/rivain because it's such an important part of their trade' situation. idk#i just cant see a lot of the extremely rigid qun followings actually meshing with this extremely 'accepting' culture that is in rivain#eg. rivaini seers allowing possessions vs. sareebas#but its said that the rivaini pantheists actually have lots in common with the teachings of the qun (?)#and again. its peaceful. most of the issues that are mentioned in games/etc are to do with the ORLESIAN chantry causing issues in rivain#so it just. makes me think. maybe things have changed and there's a blind eye to whatever happens in kont-aar#or if there are more hostilities or issues caused by their differing beliefs then it would be good to fucking like. hear about it#plus the qun in general is just. worldbuilding standpoint is like. what. im not a guy who knows too much about this part of da lore so#i had to fact check a few things while writing this response and some of the answers were like#just so unbelievable that im choosing to do whatever i want#anyways. sorry. got out of hand. let me know if anything i said isnt true#its entirely possible. my knowledge of rivain is patchwork but this is probably to do with the fact there's not a lot. yeah#god. i have to stop talking now. thank u anon for agreeing w me. sorry u asked me about the lords and i took it as an excuse#to air out my issues w rivain. because tyche was partially built up around that and then none of it even mattered#veilguard spoilers#answered#rivain
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darkraiiiiii
#art#i was brewing up a complicated picture in my head too many factors intermingling and i put a requirement on myself that i would need to#feel a certain mood to create said picture cuz only then would it feel good and true but it was an impossible to achieve mood#and it made me miserable for a week i went to bed as soon as possible everyday to skip to the next one but today i woke up at 2am#and thought well maybe i should just draw something simple that i like it doesnt have to be high concept#so its just darkrai!!!! cuz its such a cooly! and its made out of shapes ive enjoyed drawing recently#smoking fire plumelike stuff u kno...#and i got to try out the spraypaint thing again cuz there was stuff i realized i coulda done better after the red 3 head hybrid pic#so i wanted to do it again. do u like these- with the spraypaint rendering? i will make more of them no matter what u say#but im about to go to bed now. i started the pic at 11am and finished at 8pm so 9hrs spent?! well the stenciling takes a long while in pain#i did the spraying in ms paint again and then composited it in paint net like usually.#also im typing much because the combination of coffee (which i try to make special and rare for me so it hits more cutely)#+ the euphoria that drawing gives me makes me talkative. but now.- ! im tired !! goodnight#pokemon#darkrai
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hey guys remember like a few days ago when a good chunk of this fandom thought ed and stede weren't going to reunite until like the very end of the season, or at least that they were going to spend a big chunk of the season separated? and then the full trailer dropped and suddenly we got all this footage of them in the same frame interacting and everyone realized how unlikely those predictions are??? and how literally just a tiny bit more detail changed everyone's perspective on things?????
anyway yeah maybe we need to all think abt that for a minute and like. rethink the way we're treating certain theoretical s2 plot points as if they're a given.
#ofmd#our flag means death#ofmd s2#ofmd season 2#ofmd s2 spoilers#if u squint idk#txt#mine#og#this applies to a lot of things i've seen ppl in the fandom saying#but right now specifically it's abt the stupid canyon kool-aid comment#like for one thing. have some fucking faith that the writers will do a good job with izzy no matter what his arc is#(this is me saying i have no problem with an izzy redemption arc in case that isnt clear)#and secondly: y'all. we literally do not know the context of anything in the trailer.#we are all just spitballing our predictions right now#like i've seen a LOT of izzy fans taking victory laps abt izzy getting redeemed in s2#and like i said idc if he gets redeemed i'll eat up literally anything the writers want to give me#but for the sake of izzy fans i almost hope theyre right#bc there is a nonzero chance his “belonging” line is taken out of context and doesnt mean what we think it means#like. we don't know. we literally just don't know.#i'm gonna enjoy whatever happens but like i seriously hope nobody's gonna be heartbroken if izzy just gets worse
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Everyone arguing about Stannis, JonCon, Jaime, god forbid Jorah being the 1000th commander of the NW….when it will be Jon again 🌚
#btw this is not stannerism like i do have legitimate reasons why i think it will be jon at the end#i think an interesting part of jon’s politiking as LC is him realizing how deep the rot is in the watch#he spends an entire book - agot - realizing that he institution he spent his childhood idolizing is not so glorious#he spends the next book directly confronting the issues that come with being a good man ( helping gilly#and being a true man to the watch and starting to notice the cracks in the system#and then asos is like the turning point you know?#adwd is him trying to fix the watch from within but failing imo because as i said the rot is far deeper#it doesnt matter how many people you replace the watch needs an overhaul - a complete uprooting to the core#which is why i dont like theories of him being a passive bystander as the watch crumbles#its just too narratively juicy if he takes a part in the destruction of the watch coz yknow some things need to be cleansed w/ fire n blood#a nice lil parallel to dany and what shell be doing in the east throughout winds#i like him as the 1000th lc because its a nice round number and thats a bit silly but its also signifying a renewal#Its a blank slate which is essential to jon because he does have a vision for the watch and the wildings!#and he can start from the ground up - and like one of the most underrated themes in jon’s arc is nation building#ive said before that i think the show kinda got it right….like we’ll see a weird mesh of lc of the nw and kbtw as jon’s endgame#I wont get into that now….but i know a lot of jon stans dont want him back at the wall because it seems needlessly cyclical and i get it#and i get that the watch isnt the most glorious place to be…but i really do think its meant to be a vehicle to explore themes of rebirth#and renewal which appear in jon’s arc -think of jon’s messianic framing and the watch being his “new earth” after all is said and done#not so much a place of punishment but a place to find new meaning and exist beyond many societal frameworks#for the cripples bastards and broken things….anywayyyyy lmaoo#asoiaf#jon snow
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(clasps my hands) Hi everyone, i'm doing a quick interest check !
Please only respond if you would consider becoming a patron of mine! I want to see what site people would prefer the most and where my audience is. :-]
As for rewards, I have many ideas! From regular WIPS of all my work (school, commissions, boothing, etc), to Livestreams (If my internet allows it), to timelapses, etc! Also commission discounts :-)
#I'm kind of having a lot of financial anxiety right now but also have many goals in my life#So I'm deciding to really buckle my seatbe;t and ask the questions now#ourgh maybe i should have timed this for the americans. please pass this around if you know someone who likes our art I guess u_u#also!! If you have anything you want to see from us please leave a suggestion! I have ideas but maybe you have better ones#After this poll I might host a different poll on who would possibly become a patron ..#or possibly use the answers from this as my interest check on who would subscribe t all ^^"?#also i did the math. patreon and ko-fi would genuinely pay me the same thing. ko-fi doesnt take a cut but paypal's fees are GIGANTIC on kof#to the point where it doesnt matter ?? did you guys know that geez#patreon does take a cut but paypal's fees with patreon are less so >_>#thats why this interest check matters! I want to know who of you prefers what platform to see creators on :-)#mod stuff#EDIT ON THE MATH: everything i said is not TRUE.. Patreon would be a total of 10.9% and Ko-fi is a total of 7.9%! around those no's!#I did the math after talking to a friend who uses kofi for tiers and i did not know some information beforehand lol#polls
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I really can't examine mapicc without examining myself but I Do want to think about him and his Feelings so I'm in a bit of a rough spot
#zams right that some big act wont fix it#this kind of insecurity is constant. it makes you forget all the positive things and convince yourself of the worst#theres repetition to it too. mapicc said that maybe he only feels like zam only uses him for fighting is because others do#but no matter how much he tries to see other times zam has helped him. other times zam has cared. its so hard to not focus on the moments#that hurt#zam has abandoned him. zam has replaced him. hes already feeling like the empire. his team. is gone. and now the only other person he had#has someone more important than him#so hes angry and upset and doing something knowing it goes against zam. because there comes a point where you just need him to feel your#pain too. even though its cruel and you dont want to#if this didnt get brought up from only the wardens. i wouldnt be suprised if it had escalated.#mapicc going after derap specifically#because he doesnt Want to hurt zam he wants zam back he wants zams attention and maybe the best way is just through derap.#if theyre not teamed. he has no reason to not kill him. zam doesnt have a right to hold him back.#and maybe if he tried. zam would notice#but thankfully we dont have to see that world. however interesting and painful it would be.#devotions codependency is breaking but its so hard to get out of. when someone is meant to be with you forever and now they vanish#i have. a lot of thoughts on this. i feel really strongly for it lolz#rambles#devotion posting#lifesteal spoilers
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you: nicholas alexander chavez, the actor from ryan murphy's recent work
me, a mama's girl and daytime tv viewer:
#text post#general hospital#nicholas alexander chavez#spencer cassadine#sorry i'm still not over my shock at this lol#i remember asking my mom MONTHS ago (she follows general hospital news online) 'hey wheres spencer i havent seen him in awhile?'#'oh his character died off. the actor is doing some netflix show where he plays a murderer'#and you have to understand. i dont consume anything to do w true crime. but to my 63-year-old mother. ryan murphy doesnt exist#so bc of just how self-contained the archaic institution of network soap operas are. i just. idk i didnt assume it was a big role#it didnt register to me that it was the sequel to the dahmer show. is what i am saying. and i never thought about it again#mommy made it sound like he might be coming back bc soap opera characters fake-die all the time#and so i put the thought out of my head until completely independently i was watching a video about monsters: menendez being flawed#and i was like. going absolutely insane w how familiar he looked i was like 'ok i know that man cant be too famous but i KNOW him'#'i know him from something and i know him WELL from something. like whatever hes from is iconic to me'#and then the video creator said his name and i was like THATS INSANE WHERE DO I KNOW THAT NAME??!?!??#it's a name i read in the credits but probably never thought in my head at all bc sorry he's just spencer to me#so i googled it and i was gobsmacked. i was like MOM DIDNT SAY he was gonna be in THIS SHIT!?!?!?#i also do lay my life down on the defense that the cinematography of a prestige netflix drama makes him less recognizable to me#who knew him best under cheap soap opera lighting in basic back and forth dialogue shots. like#i have to be honest i never cared for his looks on gh bc he just kinda looked like too perfect. like he looked like a mannequin#i see it now though i get it#i get why he's very fan editable to the true crime girlies i get it#not that it matters. im just in mourning bc it never occurred to me the spencer era was over. i actually liked his character#i cant tell u why bc he wasnt all that distinguishable from all the other basic dramatic character archetypes. idk it was a good performanc#i cant explain to u what makes a soap opera character distinct while still being completely generic (they all are)#i also liked his relationship w his girlfriend in the show it was cute. he was evil but they were sweet#nicky please come back. im begging u. as your only general hospital era fan who is your age#i dont wanna watch monsters menendez i reeeeeally dont
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i think the most important thing to realize as a trans man when it comes to misogyny is that instead of thinking/saying/acting like "misogyny directed towards me sucks because im not even a woman!" you should instead be looking at it like "misogyny directed at me sucks, nobody should have to endure that. the fact that im not a woman doesnt matter to these people. people of all genders can be impacted by misogyny, and its not right for any of them"
its a subtle change and although it is just a matter of words, i think its an important distinction so that your defense of your gender doesnt get in the way of recognizing the root of the problem. obviously transphobia is another issue in its own right but both things do exist and need to be confronted
#transmasc#trans man#ftm#transgender#transphobia#i feel like i have to clarify im not trying to say that transphobia is less rampant because boy is it rampant#theres just times where ive had stuff said to me when i was not passing at all ie “shave your legs” or calling me stupid bc im a girl#and my thoughts were “well im not a girl so ha”#but looking back im like “well this issue isnt that i wasnt a girl its that they are misogynistic and that doesnt matter to them”#and its shocking to realize how rampant misogyny still is in this day and age bc in the media in some ways it feels like society has aged#out of it. but it hasnt. and now more than ever there needs to be intersectionality between trans rights and womens rights#anyways#yeah
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