#like horribly burnt out

[shrewmingledotcom]

vent

[average-transdalorian]

Y’know I think all of Char’s divorces could be explained by him being aroallo and trying his best to be alloallo because he doesn’t realize he’s aroallo. But also I’m not sure the world is ready for rep like that

[renees-bruised-knuckles]

the way Jean feels about the Ravens is really mimicked in the way he feels about exy. it's all he has, he pours his soul into understanding it, he has no other support structure holding him up, he loved it once, he hates and resents it, its trapping him, he still loves it.

I expected his feelings towards both to be so simply hateful and bitter and yet they're so enmeshed with who he is as a person and he cares about them so much despite the harm they've done him.

like with exy, the game is inherently violent but exponentially more so on the Ravens. even standing still in front of Jeremy, Jean is always going for a trip or a painful takeaway, not even considering that exy doesnt have to break people down. but he still takes pride in the sport and being so good at it and knowing it inside and out. and part of that is necessity but part is just his enjoyment. he was a little kid once that was fascinated with the game. it didn't always just hurt.

and with the Ravens, all of them are violent but some of them are also kind to him and he learned all about them and what they care about and who they love and wants to protect them, even from the knowledge that he's being hurt. "they didn't know." they all betray him and turn a blind eye but theyre all he has and theyre the only constant in his life. he wants to protect them. even from their own grief and regret.

“I hate them,” Jean said, and left. It was the cold hard truth; it was a blatant lie.

He loved the Ravens, he hated them, he wished he’d never met them.

"I was under the impression you and the Ravens hated each other.” “We do,” Jean said. “We don’t. We are Ravens.”

[utterentropy]

I just remembered that the main conflict between HMS is Heart and Mind hating each other and violent rejecting harmonisation bc I'm just so used to Soul being the problem and Heart and Mind being loving brothers who just like to play fight a lot

Like… Heart and Mind are extremely cruel to each other in canon

Heart literally attempts to murder Mind and Mind mocks Heart as he tortures him

That's so horrible, and yet in the la la land of AXYER world they're driving home from a party and buying Taco Bell and Heart's not wearing a shirt and Mind hasn't slept in four days

[mellotronmkll]

I love how kids just come up to you and start talking to you like you're old friends who know eachother super well like its just nothing to them its always so funny like I was out birding this morning and encountered the cutest 5 year old who was like Hey guys what's up we're out exploring and I had a banana nut muffin that Rosie gave me. If you don't know what a banana nut muffin is its a muffin with bananas and nuts in it. And I was like wow that's awesome...we're just looking for birds and he was like that's pretty cool I guess...I saw a mosquito today...but by the way if you want to know what a blueberry muffin is don't ask me because I've never had one so I don't really know. And I was like Okay and he was like okay see you later.

[hxhhasmysoul]

wouldn't it be nice if the author of the fics finished them. the author is me.

[missazura]

wants to have fun with friends. too tired to even exist on the bare minimum. do you see my problem

[radiodust-heart]

Havent been feeling the best so i think im gonna continue doing small doodles when i can, putting a hold on my fanfictions. Some era study coming soon

[transmechanicus]

Not a good sign of my mental state that i’m strongly considering eating in bed at 5pm after waking up at 1pm like goddamn gravity is kicking my ass today

[sucktacular]

Went to Anime North this weekend! Kinda just loosely hung around but here's a vest-less bunch of selfies of my Matt cosplay!!

[pissfizz]

Some relatives are moving across the country and as a goodbye dinner we’re going to a seafood place and I am so not looking forward to it

[utilitycaster]

I think the whole "you should print out what you're saying and show it to a family member" argument is useless when it comes to fandom drama because I think it is the human condition or at least the nerdy human condition to want to be weirdly obsessive about pretend situations and characters in a semi-anonymous setting; even if you're not doing any kind of drama, I get not wanting to explain to your grandmother why a 45 year old man is so babygirl.

At the same time though, I think it would be a good exercise for anyone sending lecturing asks of "um, your post is not nice" to imagine explaining that to their therapist because I promise any decent therapist would be like "if what they said is genuinely triggering why didn't you just block them instead of potentially opening yourself up to more of the same, and if you merely didn't like it why does it matter."

[darkmagicmirror]

I could write an essay (literally) on why I think dark magic being inherently evil would be boring and uncreative and how I think that coming to a conclusion of "dark magic should never be done, ever, and should cease to happen" would be a huge waste of an opportunity to expand on the themes of healing from history by adjusting misunderstandings and moving forward with forgiveness and the openness to learn that things taught from a young age are not necessarily correct -- but do I really have the spoons for that?

[valoale]

I’ll soon open an OF because photography and graphic design is too expensive like fuck this

[thekidsarentalright]

college should invent a class that doesnt make u feel horribly burnt out and like screaming throwing up dying barely halfway thru it 😵‍💫

[hylianengineer]

Some days I pray that there will be a power outage at the lab so I don't have to go to work. This would cause many problems for many people, but I want to stay home and take a nap. I'm so fucking tired.