#like as a person with GI issues

[vshamru]

Saying Asher Yatzar at the appropriate times absolutely gives a bonus to constitution until your next short rest.

If you say the Shema you get resistance to poison damage and you get to roll twice on an INT or WIS check

[talkethtothehandeth]

I started asking my ex pcp (derogatory) “Are you unable to do [insert testing/referrals that would maybe help get me closer to a stronger treatment/recovery plan], or is it your personal preference to not initiate these options?” And applying it to other doctors/medical workers and

It gets them to shut the fuck up and do their job real quick, because they don’t want the problems of me going to the Daddy Admin, and bitching about their blatant refusal to help me.

Anyway I’m getting more labs to check my levels 😛

[mejomonster]

What if the muscle spasm stopper actually cured me because it was all due, truly, to super stressed body freaking out?

[thethingything]

ended up clearing a bunch of stuff off the bed to make it easier to sort stuff out later and I think I feel worse now because our room looks different in a way that for some reason is triggering flashbacks to stuff from years ago and I don't know why

[martianbugsbunny]

Health was garbage over the weekend, felt sick starting after eating lunch and getting worse over the course of the day, and I have an Important Thing to do this afternoon so trying to minimize the chances of feeling sick during it I bought one of those protein-fortified milks and drank my lunch

easily one of the most depressing moments of my month

[semiotomatics]

> got 4 hours of sleep

> stayed up 24 hours

> slept 4 more hours

in what world does that make sense?

[sopranoentravesti]

Well fuck me sideways turns out I have rectal prolapse

[slippery-minghus]

you know, it really IS something that after moving out of my old mold-infested apartment... my mental health VASTLY improved.

what was essentially a low level psychosis is just... 90% gone. resolved! no longer an issue!

amazing how that works!

[chibistarlyte]

i applied for a job and on the application there was a section about disability and how the company strives to hire people with disabilities bc diversity or whatever, so i was looking through the list of what they considered to be disabilities and...by golly do i have quite a few

[oathofkaslana]

if I ever make a blog nav for this blog I need you guys to know it will be entirely for me bc I keep making new tags and forgetting them <3

[tiredoflyme]

Medical Updates:

1. Orthopedic Doctor: Things are going well, stay the course, give it about 3 months, keep progressing with physical therapy, bone density check in 4 months.

2. Endocrine Doctor: Everything is awful. All of my various conditions are combining to cause me to gain more and more weight, but also I can't take any weight loss medication because every one is contraindicated with my various conditions.

Diet can't be more restricted than it already is. I can't exercise outside of physical therapy. And we tried messing with my HRT dose and it failed. We're both so frustrated. The "goal" is to not gain any more weight and to stay stable but the only reason I've been "stable" is because my gastro issues were so bad that I vomited every day all through fall and early winter, so I basically missed at least a meal a day.

She has no real advice or suggestions because I'm in limbo with all my doctors right now, hoping anything improves. And my weight won't improve until something else gives. She was my last hope for figuring out my weight problems and she couldn't do anything. Just really depressed now.

[talkethtothehandeth]

It keeps me up at night wondering what kind of medical treatment I would’ve already received had I been been born amab. like would they have listened to me on the second ER visit, or would it have been the third? it couldn’t have been on the fifth time, right? would they have not told me my malnutrition was minor and nothing to be worried about? would they have not suggested it was because of my anxiety? would I have got the feeding tube I needed before my body broke down the way it did, or would they have let me continue to starve? would I already have a diagnosis by now and be able to have access to proper treatment??

last year I went to the er doubled over in pain from (what turned out to be) unbearable cramps. the doctor could barely even press on my abdomen to assess me for appendicitis, yet ordered me toradol for the pain. but a couple of weeks later my dad walked into same the er and received morphine because they thought it was his appendix, which turned out to be just constipation 

i don’t want to know if I would not be this bad, but I know I wouldn’t be this bad if I wasn’t born afab

[be-good-to-bugs]

how can i be expected to go to a job while in the midst of a mental health crisis :/

[mejomonster]

Ridiculously depressed but I am running ragged (which is surely worsening the depression ToT) so like the idea of weekly therapy to further exhaust me and trigger the anxiety more doesn't sound super compatible

[bunnyboy-juice]

do i have sudden onset brain fog that was not as heavy strong this morning? yes. am i laughing at it anyway bc i sound a little drunk when not using auto correct? also yes

[dollerines]

How I entered the void so easily after 1 year of trying

So after 1 year and half of trying to enter I finally did it and I am so mad because it REALLY IS SOOOOO EASY and tbh if in this post you are looking for any sort of validation or info you smart ass already know then please REMEMBER THIS : entering the void is extremely easy. You just have to do it in a way that resonates with you.

Personally for me since I had adhd I couldn’t just stay still and affirm for 1 or even a few for 10 mins. Not just because I was lazy but because just repeating “I am in the void” for so long gets me tired and makes me think of the void more and you actually don’t want to think too deeep about it. I couldn’t wake 3 hours prior and then affirm or even have the patience to do the psych k, yes I was extremely lazy back then and unpresistent but one thing that helped me even backed then was THE ALPHA STATE MEDITATION !

You just have to find what works for you, find a method technique whatever you want to do that doesn’t seem like a chore. So In a post back then I found on @gorgeouslypink acc talking about doing the alpha sate meditation and I tried it back then and I felt really relaxed and it was a good feeling but like I said back then I was realllly lazy so after a few mins I stopped. Then many months later passed and I was still looking for anything and everything on the void. Then just like two days ago I came across another post which was pretty simple and the technique I used was called the DISTRACTED TECHNIQUE.

All there was to do was the usual you get into a comfortable position and then she said to use the alpha state meditation and used the one gorgeouslypink recommended. So I used it and then what she tell you to do is to just think of anything else just get distracted basically and this WAS SO GOOD 4 ME because back then I had adhd so it made it harder to concentrate on just affirming and so yeah I just thought of random things and then at some point where I was completely distracted I felt my body like lift up 😭 if that makes sense I just can’t clearly describe it. It felt really like a shift and I was like ‘panicking’ in a way but I wasn’t actually panicking I just kinda became aware what was going and then I got scared a little but I just relaxed shortly after. Also my fan that was making like a loud noises was coming in an out and then I only hear it in one ear and then I didn’t hear anything and I just stayed there wondering if I reached the void and i actually was!!! I didn’t feel my body it felt like I had no body at all and it was pitch black just like how I imagined the void to be. For a few minutes I just stayed there feeling the most surreal peace I have ever felt. I needed that peace fr 💀.

So then I affirmed for my desires all I said was “I have all my desired results from my subliminal playlist.” Then just to be extra sure I just said “I have everything I want.”

At that point I got really excited and then I wiggled my toes to get out because I was too dam happy I needed to see all my shit the moment I wake up and then I slowly started getting out and when I tell you I cried for like a good dam minute when I woke up and saw how DIFFERENT. My room looked. I literally screamed onto my pillow. I was so dam scare and yet excited to see how I looked.

WHAT I MANIFESTED :

Desired body and face

Having silky straight tailbone length hair cuz mines was originally curly

And everything in my sub playlist

My desired boyfriend and guys I made him be like Gojo Satoru ( because we are all delusional over him 🤪) and let me tell you he is so tall, handsome, sexy and a literal god. He is so silly too ��

Moving countries I now live in ny

Never actually meeting my ex and all the people in my old school forget me and have actually never even met me. Like if u asked them about me they have never heard or known me before

Extremely rich rich like hella bands

Got rid of my anxiety and mental health issue

Plus +++

NEVER EVER GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS.

Even if the circumstances seem to be eating you alive don’t mind that too much. Even if all seems hopeless don’t give up because you already know nothing can decide or be unless you give it power to be. So stop being goofy and take responsibility and DONT STRESS!! You don’t see God stressing do you. All he has to do is blink and whatever he wants to happen, happens. Plus a lot of confidence came from non dualism that I owe a huge thanks to @trynafindbarbiee she really said it like it is !!

YOU GOT THIS ML 🩷🩷🩷🩷