#why is my body like this

[maximumkillshot]

Closer To an Answer

So that's the good news... the BAD news... my seizures are increasing in frequency and duration. They also seem to be the worst at night HOWEVER... now I am having the lovely experience of having short absence seizures like I just did before I left for work... Two of them. One maybe a minute or two. The second doubled that time.

Oh, also, my tongue locked up for the first time too sooooo... 🙃

Oh and my neurologist is fairly certain I have epilepsy and I've been suffering from it since I was a child. However, I was told I had ADHD which explained the spells.

[skiingcows]

HOW did I just throw my back out by putting a tiny container back in the fridge???

[thecatspasta]

My skill is getting up for 2 secs to put smth in a microwave, sitting down and suddenly my heart is running a marathon

[pootimedes]

it's 2am and i just woke up with the worst period cramps

i don't get period cramps often but when i do its like im getting 4 months worth of cramps packed into one ffs

[pots-sibly]

on my knees begging for people who do grocery delivery to put the groceries in a bag or box or something instead of just on the floor outside my apartment because i just had to try to figure out whether it would be worth it to almost pass out to get my gatorade and pepto bismol closer to my room and that's not something i want to deal with after an ER day yesterday

[michameinmicha]

7:48am still not slept at all but like who needs sleep anyway am i right? Its not like i have a stressful appointment later or anything! No big deal!!

[lunarlegend]

good morning

so, guanfacine (the anxiety med i started) is supposed to make you sleepy. it gave me insomnia 🙃

meanwhile Adderall makes me want to nap every time i take it

...what is this. what is my life

[battlevann]

if they put me back on academic probation I'll cry

[kirsctein]

i have a pinched nerve on my shoulder/neck i think and it's making my arm go a bit numb?? fun

[idknikkip]

A nice lil hack I figured out if you’re an autistic adult, formerly neglected child, or just undiagnosed for a little too much a little too long - a great phrase to add to those google searches for “why is my body like that? how do I fix it?” is “adult stroke recovery”.

Like rn I’ve been having acid reflux & some ARFID shit where swallowing seems exhausting, so I’ve been looking up how stroke victims learn to eat solid foods again. It’s a lot of very simple, low impact, muscle isolating exercises that are low risk (biggest risk here is a buff neck??? Let’s goooo summer of the himbo). The 1-3 page PDFs with well labeled clear diagrams & highly detailed steps or YouTube videos from the biggest nerd you’ve ever seen are gold - save/bookmark them, you will forget how you found it.

TIP: Results from Mayo Clinic, Cleveland clinic, nhs, & hospitals are generally my best sources. NLM/NCBI/NIH is great raw data, but you gotta be in a headspace to google A LOT of technical terms, read very slowly, and honestly, they don’t give a ton of solutions just great background info. & lastly, Any webpage thats reaaaally pushing you to do a free assessment or sign up is not gonna be a load bearing source, but it can be nice to fluff-out or dumb-down stuff enough to make what you’ve read other places finally click/stick so can be worth a skim.

All that to say: Can’t believe I’m watching a video called “STROKE TRAINING: SWALLOWING” and it’s not gay porn…..

[eggymf-archived]

Welp. Pushing back my plans until I get physically better. I hope I can sort of post more fics next month instead.

[oldsargasso]

had caffeine this morning and I'm handling it really well I'm definitely not about to vibrate out of my skin at all. typing with my hands not shaking all over the place, very easy actually

[a1ienb1ues]

They don't understand....

The feeling you get when it's dinner time.

The fear u have when clothes seem to fit different.

How mentally draining it is to have a constant voice in your head, putting you down.

The thoughts of not being good enough.

Being trapped by the fear of food and calories.

[shyrule]

it would NOT be cool if i had a panic attack on the way to the shop

[fakin-friendos]

not addicted to painkillers but definitely addicted to not having debilitating menstrual cramps

[thatbitch151]

I’m having the most uncontrollable and uncomfortable heart palpitations again and I just want them to stop