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pyramid-of-starrs · 1 year ago

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hongjoong getting at us mad because we hung out with a different kpop boy group nsfw ?😭idk it came to me because of how atinys make the joke of hongjoong hating how we stan other groups-

Only look at me

Jealous mean Dom Hongjoong x Afab reader

Summary: You get caught by Hongjoong coming back to your home from a late night concert and he has to remind you who's fan you're supposed to be.

Genre: Angst and Smut

Warnings: Acts of possessiveness, begging, kinda toxic but like not really lol

Smut warnings: Rough sex, use of sex toys, oral sex (M recieving), gagging, choking, friends with benefits, mentions of punishment, punishment sex, use of consentual force (Y/N have a preestablished agreement), Mean dom Hongjoong, slapping, cum eating, throat fucking, condom sex, Sir kink??, pain kink??, Humilitation??, Degrading??

A/N: Idk what it is about Hongjoong but like, every fic I write about him he's getting his dick sucked, idk he just deserves that.

Minors dni

You walked into your loft around 3 am, you dropped your clear tote bag, and took off your shoes, the living room was dark, you turned on the light and were startled to see your best friend Hongjoong sitting on your couch with his leg folded over the other and his arms crossed.

"Jesus fucking Christ Hongjoong you scared the hell out of me, why are you just sitting in my house in the damn dark?!" You yelled, still shaken up while holding your fast-beating chest.

"You're coming home late." was all he replied, you didn't ask why he was here again because Hongjoong often randomly appeared at your house every since he got the spare key in case of emergencies.

"Yeah, I was out with my friends."

"Doing what?" He tilted his head slightly. "I'm your friend, your best friend to be exact, why didn't I know about this friend outing?"

"Uh- well, ya know it was... um... preplanned." You scratched your head then tried to slyly slide your clear tote bag behind you.

"That's not your normal purse, why the sudden change?" He questioned.

"Oh um, the place we went to searches bags so I figured I'd save myself the hassle, haha." You awkwardly giggled as you felt yourself caving under pressure.

"You still haven't told me where this place is Y/N." The look in his eyes were like daggers.

"Fine... me and some friends went to the Stray Kids concert tonight." you cracked.

"Oh! How fun! but it's" He checks his Apple watch. "3:47 am Y/N, in all my years of doing concerts I've never known them to end that late." He said sarcastically.

"Well...um." You stuttered and he rolled his eyes.

"Spit it out Y/N"

"Chan saw us in the crowd and remembered me from when you introduced us and he invited us out for drinks and food-"

"Ooooh drinks AND food, well damn you have had a full night huh?" The sarcasm was very evident.

"Hongjoong don't be like that."

"Like what? I just thought you said that you didn't need to see any other group besides Ateez since we are the best. Yet here you are."

"My friend bought the tickets." you sigh.

"And what did you do while you were out for food and drinks until 3 am." His eyes narrowed.

You stood there in silence choosing not to answer and avoid all eye contact.

"Come here Y/N." he stood up.

You walked over to him slowly then stood in front of him.

"Get on your knees." You stood there now listening for a moment. "Now!" You chose not to prolong it since he was already clearly mad, you got down and kneeled on both your knees on the cold hardwood floor, luckily you had on knee highs so it wasn't too bad. Hongjoong got closer to you and stood above you as he looked down on you with his arms folded you looked at him with pleading eyes hoping he would take a little mercy on you. "Get to it Y/N." you knew you were royally fucked. Though you two were only "friends" you and Hongjoong had a few established understandings, one of them being that you couldn't enjoy any other group except Ateez or he could punish you in any way he saw fit. At first, it was things like pinches or forehead flicks but then the punishments started to become things like standing in front of him with your clothes off or letting him edge you for hours on end. You weren't complaining, sometimes you would purposely get caught with another group's albums or merch so that he could punish you.

You started to undo his pants and zipper while trying to maintain eye contact, you pulled his hands down then his briefs to reveal his half-hardened dick.

"I'm sorry Jongie." you said still trying to get out of the punishment, he grabbed the base of his dick and the back of your head and shoved his cock down your throat causing you to gasp audibly, he held his dick there as it pulsed in your mouth.

"I don't want to fucking hear it." He had no remorse for you as he started to fuck your throat, you could feel his dick getting harder and harder as it became harder to breathe from your mouth the deeper he would go. "You shouldn't have done it if you were going to be sorry, now you have to pay the price." He lectured you as you continued to gag on his length while his hips never stopped, his thighs hit your chin, that's just how deep he was going.

"I won't do it again." was muffled from your very occupied mouth and it just irritated him more, he sped up the pace he was going, your throat was already sore from the screaming but him fucking it made it worse, the sting from your punishment was exhilarating.

He kept his grip on your hair with one hand then moved his other hand to your nose as he clamped it closed, cutting off your only airway left to use. "You promise you won't do it again?" he asked. You gagged more as you started to choke from your lack of air, he didn't care, he kept moving his hips to fuck his dick in and out of your throbbing throat. You nodded to his question and he released your nose, you thought you were in the clear until he cocked his hand back a bit and delivered a smack on your cheek, you whimpered around his cock and he returned his fingers to your nose to pinch it closed again. "I can't hear you." he said in a mocking tone. You muffled out a yes that was barely understandable as mascara tears started to run down your face, he released your nose once again and you started to take large breaths through it, he once again smacked your sensitive cheek, the sting was amazing.

"I said do you fucking promise?" He said as he pulled his dick from your mouth and looked down at you with a slightly scary face while he angled your head up to make sure you two made eye contact.

"Yes, I promise." You cried out, and he smiled.

"Good job, stick your tongue out." You opened your mouth wide then stuck your tongue out, he placed the tip of his dick on your tongue and stroked himself a few times before the hot ropes of his cum started to cover your tongue. "Now swallow all of it." You closed your mouth and swallowed every drop of his cum, even licking your lip gloss-covered lips to get the remaining off, you showed him your tongue to get his stamp of approval. "Strip and go to the bedroom, but crawl since you like to bark for other men like a horny little bitch in heat."

"Yes sir." You nodded then reached for your shirt to pull it off while he watched you slowly get naked to tease him, you stood there naked before getting on your hands and knees and crawling down the hall to your bedroom, Hongjoong watched you as he followed behind you, his eyes watching you made you wetter. Your slick spread all over your core and thighs, watching was making Hongjoong eager to drill you, once you reached the bed you sat on your knees waiting on his next command.

"On the bed dog." he commanded, you got on top of the bed, sitting on your knees once again. "Lay on your back with your knees up." you laid back and bent your knees, Hongjoong removed the remainder of his clothes but walked over to the nightstand to get something out of the top drawer, before you could look over to see what he had he climbed on top on you and positioned himself between your legs, he ripped open a condom and you whined. "Shut up, cheater sluts like you don't get to get fucked raw." He didn't waste time and lined his tip up with your sex and put it in. You moaned as he pushed deeper into you, he held the back of your legs and you could feel him holding something hard as he kept a consistent pace inside of you.

"It feels so good Joongie." you moaned.

"Wanna feel even better baby?" He asked with a devious smirk on his face, though you didn't trust him you still nodded your head and closed your eyes to enjoy the feeling, you suddenly heard a loud buzzing sound and as soon as your eyes fluttered back open you saw Hongjoong was placing your vibrating egg right on your clit. By reflex your legs tried to snap closed and you yelped Hongjoong smiled watching you squirm about.

"Fuck, fuck, what, it's too much-" you yelled, he started to go faster while drawing circles on your clit with the egg and biting his bottom lip.

"Aw is that how you were screaming at your little concert?" Curse words and incoherent pleas fell from your lips as he pushed the egg further onto your clit, your head was all the way into the pillow. "What? You can't talk now huh? Spending all that time talking and laughing with them that you're too tired to talk?" He thrust harshly, the tip of his dick hitting your spot hard repeatedly, your fingers began to curl, and you could hear him laughing at you.

"Fuck Joong, Fuck." Was all you could say before your body started to shake, your eyes rolled back as you gripped the sheets hard, your pussy tightened around Hongjoong as liquid erupted out of you, Hongjoong smiled as he looked over the mess he made of you but he needed to push you more, punish you even further. Before you could catch your breath or get cleaned up Hongjoong turned the egg up to full speed and pushed it back onto your clit, you loudly moaned at the sudden fast pace vibrations on your already sensitive nub.

"Please- please, please, please, no more, no more." you pleaded you could hardly catch your breath, especially with his dick still inside you. He started to roll his hips into you until he was full-on fucking you again, you were fucked out and overstimulated as your clit began to ring, you placed one hand on his stomach and he shot daggers at you once again.

"Take your fucking hand away Y/N." He said in a stern and deep voice, you lowered your hand and sat there and took it, the sensation of his dick and the egg was overwhelming but felt amazing. "If you want me to stop, beg for my forgiveness."

"Pleeeease nghhh~ Please I'm so-rry, please, sorry fuck-" You fumbled out, he pressed harder and fucked you deeper by leaning closer, you gripped his back and pulled him closer while your nails dug into him.

"Louder." His thrusting began to get more aggressive as he pounded into you deeply while holding the egg sloppily.

"Please, please, I'm sorry, please forgive me Hongjoong, I'll only look at you forever, fuck everyone else!" You yelled into his ear, and you once again squirted on him and the bed, your tight abused pussy squeezing Hongjoongs dick and this time earning his cum that filled the condom, he cursed as he pulled out and turned the toy off. He rolled and took a seat on the side of the bed to return everything to your night stand then got up to walk to the bathroom to throw the condom away.

You were stuck in your position for a second, as your body came down from your high you slowly started to sit up in the bed. "It's not fair! You know I like it when you fill me up." You could hear the bath faucet turning on before he walked back in.

"Then stop being bad, that's the only time you will get rewards." he leaned over to give you a peck on the cheek before helping you out of bed so he could walk you to the bathroom so you two could take a bath together, he always acts so sweet after being a demon. You went in first to pee then swung the door open when you were done.

"I wasn't being bad, I was going to a free concert... then getting free food and drinks after." You mumbled the last part to not rub salt in his wound.

"Well it wasn't free since you had to pay the price with me." you rolled your eyes, he got in first then you got in after him, the hot water soothed your tense body and burned the new scratches on Hongjoong's back.

"Jeez talking like that like I belong to you Joong."

"You do, you belong to me and only me, so only cheer and look at me... and I guess all of Ateez... but I better be your bias!"

You chuckled at him. "Yes sir"

#ateez smut #ateez fanfic #atz smut #writenbypyramidofstars #hongjoong fanfic #kim hongjoong smut #hongjoong angst #hongjoong smut #hongjoong x reader #ateez imagines #ateez x reader #ateez hongjoong #kpop smut #kpop fanfic #ateez scenarios

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venusvity · 3 months ago

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what's the most unhinged thing each venus member did in public during their idol schedule (like concert, variety show, interview, ect)???

VENUS has had a lot, and I mean A LOT, of public unhinged moments. That's what makes them so lovable! Here are some unhinged moments from the girls!

"Can I sleep with you?" During the reality show "House of Angels: Angelico's Family Reunion." Yoonah would shock viewers by going into Finn's room and asking if she could sleep with him, cameras rolling without a damn. Listen, this show had a lot of moments like this. It was even dubbed as "Kpop's Jersey Shore." with fans still asking for a season two nearly three years after the first season's premiere.

From the point of view of a fly on the wall, the camera overseeing the living room, Yoonah sits by herself on the large beige leather couch, pouting with a dazed look in her eyes. She's had one too many bottles of peach soju, and it's clear when she stands up that she sways as if she's on a ship. This makes her cover her mouth as she giggles, rushing down the hallway where the bedrooms are.

"I have so many options," Yoonah whispers to the camera, now clearly that of a camera crew. She taps her nail against a closed door, narrowing her eyes. "This is Aiden's room...I'm not his type," Yoonah tells the camera with a snort before scurrying like a mouse in the night to the next door. She does a dramatic hand movement in front of the nameplate that reads "ELLIOT!!" clearly written by Elliot himself by how scribbly the handwriting is.

"Now, Elliot is nice—Does this sound like ASMR?" Yoonah asks, starting in a whisper then speaking in full volume with a small chuckle as she looks off camera at the crew behind the camera with an adorable raise of her brows, making an excited sound when the mic operator confirms she does sound like she's running an ASMR channel.

"Elliot is nice, but," Yoonah begins explaining in a whisper again, leaning herself against the door. I have been told he kicks a lot, and why would I want that when I'm sleeping? Ladies, never settle for a man who kicks you in your sleep. Kick him back." Yoonah looks very seriously at the camera when she says this, her hands forming fists as she does so, even playfully punching at the camera before motioning it to follow her through the hallway.

When she finds Finn's room, she barges in quietly but walks into the room like it's hers. When she steps into Finn's room, the camera changes to a night vision camera in the ceiling corner, like a fly on the wall. Finn groggily pushes himself up when the door opens, Yoonah's small stature being a shadow due to the hallway light behind her. Finn rubs his eyes with a soft grunt.

"Can I sleep with you?" Yoonah asks in a whisper. Finn rubs his eyes again, taking a deep breath through his nose.

"We're on camera," Finn reminds her, his voice still waking up and sounding deep and groggy. Yoonah shrugs, walking towards his bed anyway, sitting on the edge of his bed.

"Who cares?" Yoonah muses. She and Finn stare at each other for a minute, both of them blinking at one another for the entire staredown before Finn finally shrugs. He reaches over, wrapping his arms around her waist and pulling her down to the bed. Yoonah giggled as he did so, wrapping her arms around his head to hold him against her chest.

"Oh my god, who fucking cares? Like, seriously. No one." Chloe often isn't allowed to have solo lives for a reason. This is one of the reasons. After the notorious music show win against their senior group, Priority, Chloe would make her feelings on the matter known.

Chloe takes a bite of her salad, watching the chat with a disinterested look before looking back at her salad, stabbing the kale dramatically. She's in her studio, surrounded by pink fur walls and a comfortable pink desk chair, spinning side to side nonchalantly.

"All the comments are talking about Priority," Chloe deadpans, shaking her head slowly with a grunt. "It's just like...Who cares, you know? It's a music show." Chloe wants to drop the topic, it's clear by how uninterested her tone is. Still, the comments keep going, making her sigh loudly, brows raised in annoyance.

Chloe doesn't check the comments for a minute, only silently eating her salad and staring in the camera before finally glancing at the comments again. The second her eyes catch the word "Priority" she groans dramatically, slapping her hand down on the table, making the camera shake.

"Oh my god, who fucking cares? Like, seriously. No one fucking cares," Chloe tells the camera in English, her New York accent shining through because of her annoyance. "It's not even your trophy to win, like, maybe if they had a good song, they would've won but-" She shrugs aggressively before taking another bite of her salad, chewing harshly.

Chloe waves her hand in front of the camera, grabbing the phone, chuckling as she chews. "How do I block words? Constellations, help," Chloe laughs, only the top of her head and eyes visible as she tries not to laugh anymore but fails. She giggles, leaving her lips as the phone shakes.

"Enough of this. I can't do this anymore. Hold on." Her giggles are abruptly cut off by a dimmed screen reading: The Live Has Ended.

She didn't really say anything but more so wore something. In 2021, Sena would be spotted walking side by side with Son Jinhwa, wearing a "I HATE MY BOSS" T-shirt with a big smile on her face as she greeted the cameras, smiling and waving while Jinhwa held her coffee.

Shot from a shaky iPhone, Sena rushes over to the small crowd of people outside of the Angelico building, greeting them with an excited smile on her face as the group of people tell Sena how grateful they are to see her.

"It's always great to see you guys," Sena coos, smiling at her fans as she instantly begins signing autographs and taking photos.

"Unnie! I love your shirt!" One fan tells her, causing Sena's face to light up, lifting her head with a beaming smile and putting her hand over her heart.

"Do you really? I made it myself!" Sena gushes, stepping back to do a small twirl before holding out the fabric so they can see the shirt better. The camera catches Jinhwa watching Sena with an amused smile before he looks away.

"Were you raised in a barn?!"

Jiah, clearly jet-lagged, is wearing sunglasses and a casual pair of sweatpants as their bodyguard tries to get the crowd to dispurse to no avail. The youngest sighs, running a hand through her black hair in annoyance. The other girls look annoyed too but are too tired to say anything, just standing in the crowd with their arms crossed and heads down.

A fansite trying to get a better shot of Chloe, knocks her camera into Jiah's head accidentally but Jiah doesn't care if it's an accident. Jiah swings her purse at the fansite, causing the big camera to slam into the fansite's face before clattering to the ground.

"Were you raised in a barn?!" Jiah shouts as she's pulled back abruptly by the bodyguard, who is separating her from the fansite. Chloe covers her mouth in shock but is clearly laughing while Sena and Yoonah watch in jaw-dropped shock as the crowd erupts in shouts and loud chatter.

The girls are quickly ushered out of the airport. After that, Jiah is lifted up by the bodyguard and carried out, resulting in one of many viral videos from that day.

#╰ * venus : development ⧽ burn it to the ground .#kpop addition #fictional idol community #idol oc #kpop oc #kpop au #oc kpop group #idol au #fake kpop oc #bts addition

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itzsana-kiddingmenow · 1 year ago

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Hello, can you do lee!hyunjin and ler!skz

maybe like hyunjin is upset about something 👀

Knuckle:

𝒍𝒆𝒆: Hyunjin

𝒍𝒆𝒓: SKZ

𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘪𝘤 𝘪𝘴 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘪𝘤𝘬𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘰 𝘪𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘴𝘯'𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘤𝘶𝘱 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘦𝘢 𝘪 𝘴𝘶𝘨𝘨𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨! 💗🧋

𝕥𝕨: lot of knuckling {geddit}, WAY TOO SHORT IM SORRY

𝕥𝕒𝕘𝕝𝕚𝕤𝕥: @someone-who-loves-kpop-saranghae @jeonginsdiary @leeknowstan33@v--143@wereallgonnadieonedaybutnottoday@inkytornpages@lajanaa @mxchxdxmxn

"Stop!" Hyunjin yelled again.

The kids halted in their positions as Hyune raised his hand to his temple, massaging slowly.

"We've been at this for an hour now. Felix! You have to move to the other side!" Hyunjin raised his voice slightly out of frustration, regretting it immensely when the Sunshine Boy flinched from the sheer volume of his voice.

"sorry hyung." Felix barely squeaked out, eyes filling with tears and a lump getting stuck in his throat.

"That's okay. Everyone, from the beginning!" Hyunjin responded in a soothing tone.

He regretted shouting at Lixie, but he wanted to perfect the dance now, especially since they had a deadline.

They had a ton of performances to do since the release of their album, and their fans were expecting them to do dances for their b-sides as well.

But they had TONS of b-sides, so that meant TONS of dances to learn.

And that meant a heavy workload for Hyunjin. Not to mention 3RACHA needing breaks out of nowhere after their heavy producing schedule.

And they had to wish ITZY good luck on their album comeback.

The whole group had way too much on their plate, and Hyune couldn't afford to lose mind of everything they had to do.

The dance session continued, Hyunjin often stopping the group and yelling at someone else.

He felt bad, of course. He knew the entire group was trying their hardest, including himself.

But panic was starting to bubble up in his chest. What if they couldn't learn it in time?

Being the perfectionist he was, Hyunjin would rather die.

But the more upset and worried feelings started rising, the more frustrated he got.

The more yelling he did. The more members he hurt.

He went so far as to yell at Seungmin. So much that the puppy started to cry, punching Hyunjin's chest once and running out of the room.

The rest of the group stared in shock as Hyunjin crumbled completely, bolting to his room and ignoring Chan when he tried to grab his arm.

Seungmin came out of his room soon enough, having calmed down slightly, and feeling upset and worried for the dancer who was still locked in his room.

Throughout the day, the members tried to knock at his door and persuade him to come out, sometimes mentioning how they had to perform the dance tomorrow and it wasn't completely learned, but there was no response.

It was like he had just...given up.

Until Chan got worried. Hyunjin had been locked in there for about 6 hours without getting food, and they hadn't eaten in the morning, knowing they were going to dance later.

The eldest had gotten the master key from the manager, and was now forcing it into the lock as the others crowded around the door.

"Hyune...?" Changbin whispered, entering the room first as the others watched from the door.

However, Hyunjin wasn't in the room. Or so they thought.

Everyone checked the room and bathroom, and no one was able to find the dancer until Jeongin checked under the bed, and found him fast asleep in a roll under the bed frame.

"Yah! He's here!" Innie whisper-shouted, and the others ducked below the bed, gaping in awe at the boy fast asleep peacefully.

Chan slowly pulled Hyunjin out of the bed, and the dancer stirred lightly, but didn't wake up.

They contemplated waking him up, until Jisung caught the tear tracks streaking down the boy's face.

Clearly, Hyunjin had been having a good cry, and managed to cry himself to sleep.

Guilt immediately pooled in the stomachs of all 7 members. They hadn't even thought to check up on why Hyunjin was feeling so cranky.

"Come to think of it, he looks really thin..." Minho commented, pulling Hyune to his chest and picking him up.

The members carried him to the couch, and he woke up about half an hour later, after Minho and Felix cooked enough food to wake up the dead.

"Hyung...?" Hyunjin asked groggily, reaching out for Minho and wincing at the muscle he pulled in doing so.

"Hyune." Lino wrapped the dancer in his arms, holding him close.

"Eat, now." Felix shoveled food into Hyunjin's mouth before the boy could speak, effectively cutting him off.

"Felix-" Hyunjin choked out, swallowing all of the food before speaking.

"I'm sorry I couldn't be a better dance teacher to you all, I don't deserve to be part of the dance line..." Hyune commented miserably, swallowing another bite of food hungrily.

"Hyung...the dance is difficult. But it's not your fault. Also, you definitely deserve to be part of the dance line, don't say that." Jeongin replied, laying his head on Hyunjin's lap.

"Tsk. Have you been dieting? You're as thin as a broomstick-" Minho fussed, shoving more food into the dancer's mouth.

The entire room erupted into laughter at the mom of the group, who rolled his eyes and giggled quietly to himself.

Jeongin decided that it was the perfect time to strike, balling his hand into a fist and knuckling Hyunjin's ribs hard.

"Jeong-IN! WHAT AHARE YOU DOING!?" Hyune shrieked at the ticklish sensation, bouncing off of the couch and making a run for it.

Just to get caught by 7 pairs of hands.

"no-OOO! BWAAHA STAAHAP!" The poor dancer let out loud screams of laughter as the hands yanked his lower body to the floor and knuckled into any spot they could reach.

"Nah. This is too much fun." Minho commented, sticking his tongue out and really pushing into the boy's v-line.

"HYUNG-AGH! HAAHAHAHAAHA!" Hyune let out more squawky laughter as the boys aimed for his thighs.

"Oh my god! It's so bad for him!" Jisung grunted as he wrestled Hyunjin's upper body down and stuck his hands into the boy's ribs.

"YOU TOO! DOHOHON'T SAHAHAY AHAHAHANYTHING, HAHAN!" Hyunjin shrieked, squealing loudly when Jisung tsked and massaged circles into the area.

Wild witch-like cackles filled the room as the members tickled the dancer to pieces.

"I didn't think it would tickle, but he's so weak to it!" Jeongin referred to the knuckling, giggling when a blush bloomed on the lee's face.

"OKAY! OKAHAHAY! IHIHIM WEAK I GEDDIT! STAHAHAP I CAHANT TAKE ANYMOOORE!" Hyunjin let out with the last of his strength, collapsing to the floor when they let up, panting wildly.

"That was...too much." He giggled afterwards, dramatically collapsing to the floor.

"Yah! Get up! Let's finish this dance."

#kpop tickle #midzywannabeitzy #stray kids #skz tickle #skz

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vlance · 1 year ago

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♪Heart to Heart♪

(Prologue)

-summary- Y/N is the 5th member of Aespa and is going to be collaborating with Le Sserafim’s Yunjin and Chaewon for a special stage. She is excited to be able to perform with two people she's been looking forward to meeting but also has the worst case of gay panic ever so when she's around two pretty women she can't help but develop a little crush on both of them.

-warnings- swearing, kms and kys jokes, inappropriate jokes, mentions of sex

Hearing the rushed footsteps of someone approaching mine and Ningning’s room wasn’t the first thing I was expecting when I woke up on my day off today. The door to the room burst open and there is our leader herself standing there. “Karina” I lifted my head up and look at the said girl standing in the doorway. “Have you read the group chat” she looks at me with the biggest grin on her face.

“With the way you are smiling at me I don’t know if I wanna look” I gave her a look of skepticism. “It’s not that bad you’re gonna like it I think” she just keeps giving me the biggest grin I have ever seen in my life. “Okay I’ll look but stop giving me that face you look like that one meme of Dreamcatcher Sua sunbaenim as pennywise” her smiles drops and she gives me an offended look as I can hear Giselle laughing from the other room.

She rolled her eyes and left the room as I picked up my phone from the nightstand. I opened it to see thirty unread messages and a missed call from our manager. I called my manager back because I was too lazy and tired to read it the messages in the chat.

“Hello Y/N”

“Yeah hi what is Jimin unnie telling me I should call you back on” I sat up and rubbed my eyes.

“Oh yeah right…we were just talking about a special stage you’re gonna be having at music bank”

“Not again I literally embarrassed myself so fucking hard last time” I groan and sit on the edge of my bed.

“You looked so cute though with your puppy eyes staring at Taeyeon” She gave a small laugh.

“Can you blame me…I had the biggest case of gay face ever I forgot to sing my line and mumbled pretty into my mic for the whole studio to hear” She proceeds to laugh and me while I sit there listening to her.

“Who is it with anyway”

“Le Sserafim’s Chaewon and Yunjin” I hear the names of the two girls I’ll be doing a special stage with and pause.

“Y/N…..Y/N” She calls out my name but I’m too much in shock to even respond. I looked over to the signed album I practically got on my knees and begged for when Jimin unnie and Ningning went on Euncahe’s Star Diary. I remembered watching produce 48 and being the biggest fan of Chaewon and Yunjin.

I got so sad when Yunjin was eliminated. I have a bunch of old IZ*ONE albums and photocards that Giselle always jokes that the only reason I became a kpop idol was to one day meet them.

“Y/N” she practically yells in my ear.

“H-huh…yeah?” I blink out of the daze I was in.

“God you’re so gay…as I was saying you’re gonna be going to hybe next week to meet and figure out what songs to preform and other things like that okay”

“Yup…hear you loud and clear” I’m practically already sweating from nerves.

“Okay” She hangs up the phone and I slowly bring the phone down to my lap. I sat there for a second then grabbed my pillow and proceeded to scream into it. I stopped screaming after a bit and had the biggest shit eating grin of my and face started jumping around.

“Ha Minjeong owes me 10 bucks” Giselle said while scrolling on her phone. “Why” Ningning looks up from her phone to look at Giselle and Jimin on the opposite couch. “Because I bet that Y/N would scream into her pillow and start jumping around and Minjeong said that Y/N would start crying” I looked over at Ningning and she start laughing cause she can hear Y/N yelling.

“It’s not my fault I thought she would cry because remember that one time she started crying when she met Irene Sunbae and thought she was so pretty and called her mommy straight to her face without thinking” Minjeong stated and Ningning started dying on the floor from laughter and I could hear Jimin unnie next to me laughing.

“Y/N is such a homosexual I swear” I laughed to myself and went back on my phone.

-Note- well the first thing that will officially post I’m excited and nervous cause this fic seems like it’s gonna be boring by just the prologue idk if I’m satisfied but yeah let’s see how this goes.

#chaewon x reader #yunjin x reader #le sserafim #kpop gg #kpop imagines #Vlance-Imagines #le sserafim imagines #le sserafim x reader #kpop gg x fem reader #huh yunjin #kim chaewon #gg x reader #fem reader #Heart to Heart #Vlance

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meiinumaki · 2 years ago

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Tokyo Revengers

reactions to a famous kpop idol crushing on their girlfriend

mikey, chifuyu, rindou, sanzu x gnkpopidol! reader

Manjiro “Mikey” Sano

“MIKEY!! I have a new interview out! we should watch it together” Mikey looked up smiling, “i already have it pulled up on the tv” You settled down next to him excited to see his reaction to your interview. “Hey Y/N?” he questioned, “who’s that guy staring at you?” confused you looked at the screen noticing your friend was staring at you with a loving look in his eyes. “oh, that’s my friend Niki, he’s in enhypen.” Mikey glared at the screen, “friend or not, I don’t like how he’s looking at you.” He pouted. You rolled your eyes smiling, “Mikey don’t worry about him he’s way younger than me and I only love you.” Mikey hugged you close to him smiling triumphantly. He definitely enjoyed the interview a lot more once Niki left the screen.

Chifuyu Matsuno

“Fuyu!” He looked up alarmed at your scream. You came bounding into the room obviously excited about something. “I have a special stage that was just posted! It’s a duo performance with my friend! I really want you to watch it!” Chifuyu smiled tugging you close to him while finding the video you were talking about. The music started and the cameras pointed to you and your partner dancing to the song Sugar Rush Ride by TXT. Chifuyu was mesmerized by your movements and the fluidity of your dance but there was something irking him in the back of his head. Why is your partner looking at you like that? Chifuyu was quiet for a moment which concerned you, “Fuyu? Is everything okay? Do you not like it..?” He looked up quickly shaking his head and pulling you close, “You are so perfect and talented I love you so much ok?” You smiled at him and pulled him closer, “I love you too Fuyu!” Hearing that come out of your mouth left Chifuyu ultimately relieved and calm, he realized that you only loved him and that other guy isn’t worth thinking about, for now at least.

Rindou Haitani

Rindou looked up to see you running towards him, he quickly dropped everything he was holding when he felt you collide into his chest. “Tch, what do you want brat?” You looked up at him smiling causing him to look away with a slight pink tint on his cheeks. “My manager said I can bring you to work today! Do you want to come? I know you’ve been dying to meet everyone!” Rindou turned back to you and growled, “I am NOT dying to meet anyone. Can’t you just stay home today? We can watch movies and stuff” You gave him puppy dog eyes and whined out, “Pleaseee Rin I want to introduce you to my coworkers plus I can’t just not go to work today.” He sighed and agreed only for you to pull him out the door immediately without a second thought. Once you both arrived to the HYBE building you saw another group of people walking in as well. “Y/N!” You turned to see the face of your best friend Kai, you ran up to him to give him a hug. “Oh my gosh Kai how was the world tour? Were the fans really energetic? I bet that would’ve been fun to go!” He laughed and replied, “We had so much fun and Yeonjun and Soobin definitely had a good time you probably saw the tiktok videos” You smiled and nodded. Rindou watched as you conversed with this tall and good looking man, well not in Rindou’s eyes, he glared at the both of you and walked up snatching you away from your friend’s grip. “Well we better head out now so goodbye Kai” You frowned and waved bye. “Rin? Are you okay?” He nodded and shoved his hand that was pulling you away back into his pocket. He quietly walked a couple of steps forward before realizing you were not behind him. He turned around to see you stare at him in confusion, “Just don’t worry about it” He had his pride and will not be admitting that he was jealous, you nodded slowly and walked next to him again only for him to grab your hand and pull you closer to him while watching other idols pass by the both of you.

Haruchiyo Akashi ( Sanzu )

“Hey pretty” You turned to see your pink haired boyfriend and smiled, “Hey Haru!” He opened his phone to show you something trending on Twitter. “Want to explain this?” You look closer to see a picture of you and NCT’s Renjun walking together looking oddly like a couple, “Haru.. You do know that Renjun and I have a performance together so we have been practicing and have similar schedules, right?” You frowned looking up at your boyfriend who was seething at the photo. “Well guess what this little fucker said on V-live” You raised your eyebrow, “He said he was interested in working with you again and he enjoyed your company” You quietly laughed and took Sanzu’s phone away from him, “Haru, I don’t give a fuck about what Renjun said about me because at the end of the day I am here with you and I’d much rather stay here with you” You hugged Sanzu and pulled him close to you, he rested his head on the top of yours and laughed, “Obviously, I am much better looking anyway, look at this shit” He pointed at his face, “Beautiful” You laughed and kissed his scars, “Beautiful” You repeated quietly and stared at him only for him to turn away suddenly with a shy look.

A/N: Please send in requests I would love to start writing more again!

#tokrev x reader #sanzu x reader #akashi x reader #haitani x reader #ran x reader #rindo x reader #rindou x reader #niki x reader #mikey x reader #chifuyu x reader #tokyo revengers x reader

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bteezxyewriter12 · 2 months ago

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Abused

Pairing- Jungkook x Named Reader

Word count- 3.1k

Includes- Heavy themes, physical abuse, harrowing phone call, murder, character death, violence, blood

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Jungkook POV

"Do you have to go?", Joanne whines, wrapping her arms and legs around me, keeping me in bed and against her

I laugh turning to face her, "I don't want to baby but I have practice"

"Kooookkkiiieeee", she calls, shaking her head

She's so cute

I put my arms around her, holding her close, kissing her forehead

"Don't leave. Stay with me Kookie."

"Aww is my girl clingy today?", I chuckle

She nods her head, "I want my Kookie"

"You got me baby. Since the day I saw you."

She looks up at me smiling, "I know baby. You tell me all the time."

Smiling at her, I move closer, kissing her

She snuggles closer to me, her head on my chest

Her arms and legs are still around me

It's so cute

I run my fingers in her hair

"Baby"

"Nope", she answers

"Jo"

"Kookie"

"C'mon baby"

"Kookie can't you just stay? Just this once?"

I feel bad

She never asks me to stay

She deals with my schedule and everything that comes with being an idol

I want to stay with her so much

She needs a lot of love and affection after everything she's been through.

And I love that I'm the one to give it to her

That's why anytime she asks me to stay I do, especially because she almost never asks

But we're going on tour in two weeks and we're practicing non stop

It always gets so much more busy when we have a tour coming

"I want to baby. You know I love being with you. But we have the tour coming and I can't skip out on these practices. I'm sorry."

She pouts and it's the fucking cutest thing in the world

"Fine", she sighs, letting me go, rolling on her back

"I'm sorry baby. But I'll cuddle you and hold you and kiss you as soon as I get home. All night."

She glances over at me, "Promise?"

"Promise"

She gives me a small smile, "Ok"

Kissing her again, I get up and get ready

Joanne stays in bed

She had off today

I don't want to go, I just want to lay down with her, be with her

I always want to be with her

We've been together for two years and after all that time all I ever want is to be near her.

"I'll see you later baby. I love you"

She sits up, "I love you Kookie. So much"

She hugs me tightly, then kisses me again

Fuck she's really making it hard to leave

"Bye Kookie"

"Bye Jo"

I kiss her on the cheek, then I turn and leave our apartment

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The elevator opens at the lobby of our building and I step out

As I leave the building, I get the feeling that someone is watching me

I look around, scanning everywhere for any threats

Before Joanne, I shrugged of these kinds of feeling but not anymore

I'm very aware of my surroundings

I have to keep her safe

I met Joanne at a fan meet

She was one of the workers at the venue

She was the only girl I ever approached

We went out a few times but she was really quiet and always looking around anywhere we went

I still liked her a lot, and I asked her to be with me

She said that she had to tell me something before she says yes

That's when I found out about her horrible past

She moved here, to Busan, with her aunt from the U.S. after her parents died at the age of 15.

She kind of rebelled and was a wild kid

She met a guy, Jacob Zhou, who she went out with

He abused her

He separated her from her aunt, made her believe he was the only one who cared about her

Then he beat the crap out of her

All the time

I was horrified at what she told me

All the broken bones, cuts, punches, the things he used to hit her, the dozens of times she ended up in the hospital, all the scars she has that she thinks makes her body look gross

I told her she was crazy if she thinks that matters to me, that there was no way I'd believe she was gross

I saw them the first time we were together

She was worried but I told her she was beautiful

And she is, I love everything about her

Her scars don't make her gross

Not at all

She told me that she finally left him

She ran away one day, came to Seoul and she's been hiding from him ever since

He told her that if she ever left him, he'd find her and kill her

I told her I'd never hurt her, I still wanted to be with her and that I'd protect her

And I have done everything to keep her safe

ARMYS know I have a girlfriend but I've never posted pictures of her

We don't go out much, in case an ARMYS take pictures and post it

If we do go out, I do everything possible to shield her and keep her hidden.

No one knows where we live, only the necessary people like the guys and the managers at BigHit

I never leave her alone overnight

I never leave her here when there's a tour- she comes with me

She works at BigHit

I made my schedule so that I can take her to work and pick her up everyday

She's only ever alone for awhile when she has a day off

But she just stays in the apartment when she's off so I don't have to worry

I had to change a lot of stuff in my life for her but I love her more than anything and she is absolutely worth it.

After scanning the area three times and not seeing anything, I finally walk to my car to go to practice.

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On the first break from practice, I look at my phone

One missed call from two hours ago

From Joanne

She left me a voicemail

She never does that

I dial my voicemail and hold the phone to my ear

"Jungkook!", she screams, fear in her voice

I immediately start panicking

"Kookie he found us. He's here."

She shrieks as I hear a banging

He found her

How?

How the fuck did he find her?

"Jungkook, I love you. I love you more than anything. You make me so happy. You're the best thing that has ever happened to me. You're my world Kookie. I love you, forever baby. I swear", she sobs

My body is shaking as I start running to the door of the practice room

"Jungkook where are you going?", Hobi calls

"Kookie, I'm scared"

She lets out an ear splitting scream as I hear a crash

"You bitch", I hear him yell

"No, stop, please st-"

Then the voicemail ends

I need to get home now

He's dead

I'm going to kill him

I've never ran so fast in my life, getting to my car in record time

Getting in, I start the car, and peel away to my apartment

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It has to be less than five minutes before I pull up to my building

I sped all the way

Pounding up the stairs to our floor, I slow to a stop when I see the front door open

I'm so scared

But I'm ready to kill him

I walk slowly to our door, opening it more

I wait to listen for any sounds but I don't hear anything, so I quietly make my way into the apartment

I walk quickly to the kitchen and grab a knife

I do a sweep around the apartment but nothing

No one here

Not even Joanne

My muscles are still tense, waiting for anyone to try and attack me

The door to our bedroom is closed

I don't want to open it

But Joanne could need help

I make myself walk to the door and open it

I hear a scream and it takes me a few seconds to realize it's me screaming

I run to the bed, to where she is

There's so much blood

She's on her back, her eyes closed

Her face is bruised everywhere

Her eye is swelled shut, her lips are split in a few places, bruises along her temple, cheeks, forehead, jaw

But the worst is her chest

Her shirt is soaked with blood

Crying, I move her shirt and shriek when I see the dozens of stab wounds

Her arms have wounds on them too

The bed underneath her is drenched in red

"No baby. No", I sob

I pick her up and hold her to me

Her skin is so cold

She's not breathing

I put my hand to her chest, choking back a sob when I don't feel her heartbeat

"Jo, no. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry I wasn't here. I'm sorry he found us. I should of tried harder baby. I'm sorry", I cry

I thought she was safe

I made sure to get an apartment in a high security building

How the fuck did he get in?

How did he find us?

Her name isn't on anything- no credit cards, no leases for cars or the apartment.

Her mail is always addressed to resident

Her paychecks are made to my name, her account in my name

Everything is in my name

I made sure

So how?

Holding her tighter, I will her to hug me, to kiss me, to tell me she's ok

But her body is limp in my arms

I never told her I loved her one last time

I didn't get a chance to say goodbye

I'm never seeing her again

She'll be taken away and then she's going to be buried

I'll never hear her voice, her laugh, her anything again

That realization breaks me

I start sobbing hysterically

"I love you Joanne. I love you so much. I'm sorry. I miss you so much already"

I don't know what I'm going to do

I can't live without her

I feel so lost

But before I give up completely there's one more thing I have to do

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I stay with her for a few hours

I can't let her go

I just want to die and be with her

But I can't

Not yet

"I'll be back baby", I whisper to her, kissing her forehead

Laying her back in the bed I grab the knife and leave the apartment

I follow the gps on my phone

I know where he is and I'm driving to him

I called a close friend of mine, a cop, and asked him to find him for me

My friend asked questions but I didn't answer

He doesn't need to get in trouble

He found out where he's is staying

Some dump hotel for the scum lowlife he is

I get to the hotel and out of the car, just as he's leaving

Perfect luck right?

I follow him

Idiot doesn't even look behind him

Walking faster I get closer to him

He turns the corner

When I get around it, he's standing in the middle of the sidewalk, his back to me

"Do you fucking need something?", he snaps

"You killed her", I say trying not to cry

He turns to me, "You have to be more specific. I killed lots of hers"

Bastard

I step closer to him

"Who are you?", he asks

"You know who I am", I snarl

He looks closer at me and recognition filles his eyes

"You're that idol. The bastard that kept Joanne from me. You took her from me."

"She left you after you almost killed her. She was already far from you when she met me. She loved me and I love her. I protected her from you", I shout

"Yeah well you didn't do a good job did you? Because I found her. And she had to pay for leaving. She knew that if she ever left I would find her and kill her. And I see you have her blood on you.", he smirks

Rage is boiling in my blood

"And now you have to die for killing the love of my life"

He laughs

He actually laughs

"What are you going to do? You're just an idol. You have too much to lose"

He couldn't be more wrong

"No I don't. She was everything and now she's gone. I have nothing to lose", I shout

Then I move closer and punch him right in the middle of his face

His head snaps back and he stumbles backward

I don't give him a chance to recover punching him in the side of his face, his body, then kicking his legs out from under him

He crumples to the ground

I hover over him, punching him in the face over and over, my rage out of control

But I don't care

He killed her

He killed Joanne

My baby

My everything

My world

And I don't care about any thing anymore

He's yelling and trying to fight back

He punches my jaw hard, knocking me off him

He gets up immediately and starts running

I shoot up, chasing him

He had a few seconds head start but I'm faster

I get to him, grab the back of his jacket and swing him into the wall of a building face first

Taking out the knife, I turn him over and stab him in the chest

He screams as blood runs down his shirt

I pull the knife out

Then drive it in again

He falls to the floor, on his hands and knees

I don't give a fuck

Kicking him in the face causes him to fly on his back

Walking over to him, I hear him begging me

"Don't kill me. Please don't kill me"

"You killed her! Did you listen to her when she begged you not to kill her!", I scream

"I'm sorry! Ok I'm sorry"

He's sorry?

Is he fucking kidding?

He took the only girl I ever loved

He took my future away, my reason for everything

I'm nothing without her

"Not good enough", I spit, then plunge the knife in his stomach

Lifting the knife out, I stab his side

"How do you like it? How do you like being stabbed like you did to her!", I scream

There's blood everywhere but I don't care

He gurgles while breathing

I keep stabbing over and over and over

Rage just takes over

And I let it

I keep seeing her laying in the bed and it's killing me

By the time I stop, he's already dead and I'm sobbing

Not for him though

For her

Joanne

I strangely don't care that I killed him

Maybe I will later but I doubt it

He murdered Joanne

Her murdered the love of my life

I could never care about him

I know I'll be arrested

I'll be sent to prison

I don't care

I'm already in prison

I have to be here without her

Nothing worse can be done to me

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I unlock the door to the dorm

"Jungkook? Is that you?", Jimin asks walking to the hall

"Where did you go-", He questions as he turns on the light

He looks at me and screams

"Jungkook what happened? Oh my god are you hurt? NAMJOON, come here!"

"What Jimin?", Namjoon sighs coming into the hall

His eyes widen in shock when he sees me

"Jungkook what the fuck happened?", he screams, "Whose blood is that? Is it yours?"

I shake my head

"Why is everyone scre-", Yoongi complains but stops mid- sentence "Jungkook are you hurt?", he yells

I shake my head

"Why are you holding a knife? Why is there blood on the knife?", Jimin shrieks

"What knife? What happened?", Jin asks walking in with Hobi and Tae

They take one look at me and start yelling with everyone else

There's too much yelling

I can't deal with it

"Shut up. Everyone shut up", Namjoon orders

He looks at me, "Jungkook what happened?"

"He...he killed her. So I killed him"

"WHAT?", Tae screeches

"Jacob. He found Joanne. That's why I ran from practice. But when I got home...she was already dead"

"Oh my god", Hobi cries

"There's so much blood. He...he beat her. Then he stabbed her over and over in her chest and stomach. He left her on the bed", I whisper, tears rolling down my face

"The blood is hers?", Yoongi asks looking as pale as a ghost

I nod, "Most of it. On my shirt and pants. I...I held her for a long time. I couldn't let go"

"I'm so sorry Jungkook", Tae says gently, "But what do you mean most of the blood is hers?"

"Some of it is his"

"Jungkook", Namjoon says slowly, "What did you do?"

"I found him. I followed him. And I killed him. I stabbed him like he stabbed her"

"Oh my god", Hobi gasps

"Is that the knife you used?", Jin asks

I nod

"What are we going to do?", Jimin asks desperately

"I don't know. Let me think.", Namjoon replies shakily

"There's nothing to do. I killed him. I'm going to prison"

"You can't", Yoongi yells

"I don't care. My life was over the second she died. I'm living in hell. Prison doesn't scare me"

"Jungkook", Hobi says

"I just came to tell you what happened. I don't need help. I don't want you involved. If the cops question you tell them what I'm telling you. Tell them I was here. Don't lie, don't deny it, don't hide it", I say

"But-"

"I'm going now. I'm going back to her, to stay with her a little more before I call the cops. Just leave me alone. I know what I did and I don't care that I killed him. I just want to be with her a little more before they take her from me"

"Jungkook-", Jimin starts

"Goodbye", I answer then turn and walk out of the dorm

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Walking back into the bedroom makes me feel like I'm dying

She's still there where I left her

I lay next to her and put my arm around her, holding her to me

"I killed him baby. I found him and I stabbed him. He's dead. He'll never hurt anyone again. He'll never hurt you again."

I know I have to call the police

I will soon

I want to stay with her just a little more

Before her funeral

Before I'm arrested

Before I'm sent to prison

I just want to be Jungkook and Joanne for a little longer

"I love you", I whisper to her

I close my eyes as the tears take over

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straykidzwifey · 11 months ago

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Unexpected Encounters

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Pairing: Bang Chan X OC

Warnings: none

Summary: An unexpected encounter happens when Zena Allen runs into Felix a member of Stray Kids, her all time favorite Kpop group. He invites her to their concert later that night where she meet Bang Chan. Will there encounter spark a relationship or will she forever be just a fan.

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Chapter 5: Table Talk

Zena's POV ------------------------------

A loud huff escaped my lips as I skimmed through the virtual paperwork, my blue light glasses perched on my nose to ease the strain of staring at a screen. As if sensing my annoyance, Zara let out a long, exaggerated sigh from her swivel chair next to me. I turned my head to see her spinning aimlessly, clearly bored out of her mind. Her long blonde hair cascaded down her back in perfect ringlets, a stark contrast to my messy space buns.

For what felt like the hundredth time in the past half hour, Zara's impatience bubbled over and she asked again, "When are we leaving?"

Suppressing a sigh, I hit the "submit" button on my computer and turned to face her. She was sitting upright in her chair, her body taut with anticipation.

"I already told you," I said through gritted teeth, frustration lacing my voice, "I needed to come into the office before the guys pick us up."

The only sounds in the empty office were the soft clicks of my keyboard as I finished up some last-minute tasks and Zara's incessant tapping on her phone screen. My own urgency to leave grew with each passing minute. I had promised my father that I would take care of the usual paperwork and then spend the day showing the boys around town.

Zara peeked at me from the corner of her eye before finally lifting her head to look at me fully. "I know. I just didn't think time would pass so slowly," she whined, her impatience evident in every word. Despite myself, I smiled at her dramatics and turned back to my computer.

"I'm honestly surprised you wanted to come with me," I remarked casually, trying not to let my amusement show too much.

With a grimace and an eye roll, she retorted, "I may not be a fan of K-pop, but I'll take any excuse to escape chores at home and have some fun in town. Plus, who knows? Maybe I'll make some new friends."

I glanced at the time on my computer screen, "Well, you're in luck. They should be arriving any moment now. And I just finished sending off my last report," I said with a sense of relief.

Last night, after returning home late from the restaurant, my sister- who was barely awake- asked me how it went. Not wanting to keep her up for too long, as she looked like she could pass out at any moment, I gave her a brief summary of the evening's events. When I mentioned that I would be showing the guys around town for the week, she perked up and became suddenly interested. In amusement, I asked if she wanted to join us, knowing she had the next day off. To my surprise and not-so-surprise, she eagerly agreed, stating that exploring with us sounded much more appealing than doing chores.

My mind was suddenly pulled back to reality by the familiar buzz of my phone. I glanced down at the screen to see a text from Chan, saying they had arrived outside. "Looks like our ride is here, Zara," I announced, rising from my seat and removing my glasses. She sprang up eagerly, snatching her purse and whispering a relieved "finally." The excitement in her voice was evident as we made our way towards the door, eager to start our day of fun.

Stepping out into the crisp morning air, we were greeted by two sleek black SUV's stationed in front of the building. A rush of excitement filled me as I turned back to lock the office for the time being. Zara and I made our way towards the vehicles, eager to begin our journey. One of the drivers emerged from their door, revealing a familiar face - Veronica.

"Good morning, Zena," she greeted with a warm smile.

"Morning, Veronica! Did you manage to get the tickets?" I asked eagerly.

She nodded, her smile growing wider as she reassured me that everything was ready just as we had discussed over the phone last night. With a smile, she opened the door for us and we climbed into the spacious interior. I settled into the passenger seat while Zara took her place in the bucket seat behind mine. As I strapped on my seatbelt, I turned around to greet our companions for the day.

"Morning, guys! Did you all sleep well?" My words were met with a chorus of responses ranging from "yes" to "kind of". I couldn't help but notice that Chan, Felix, Changbin, and Hyunjin were the only ones present in this particular SUV. Glancing towards the other vehicle, I realized that the rest of our group must be riding in it.

With a small nod of recognition, I turned to Felix. "I know you already know her, but for those who may be wondering who this mysterious girl is that just hopped in the car with us, allow me to introduce my sister, Zara," I announced with a slight flourish of my hand. Zara greeted everyone with a friendly wave and a bright smile, saying a quick 'hey' to each person. Felix responded with a warm "nice to see you again" while the others offered variations of "hello", "hi", or "nice to meet you". The atmosphere in the car was filled with warmth and acceptance, as if Zara had been with me last night.

Hyunjin's voice broke the silence of the car as he leaned forward from the backseat. "So, what's on the agenda for today?" I couldn't help but grin mischievously, my plans already set in motion. Veronica revved the engine and we were off.

"Well," I drawled out, relishing in their anticipation, "first stop is lunch at Whiskey Cake. And as for our afternoon activity...that's for me to know and you to find out." The groans that followed only made me smile wider. Zara and Veronica joined in with giggles of their own.

"I'm just glad I get to spend this drive with all of you instead of Jisung," I chuckled, wiping away invisible sweat from my brow. We all knew how persistent Jisung could be when it came to prying information out of people. As if on cue, Changbin mumbled from the back seat, "Where's Jisung when you actually need him?"

I shook my head with a laugh and turned to Veronica. "Is the aux Bluetooth or do I need to plug it in?" With a smile, she explained that it was Bluetooth, and I promptly connected my sister's phone. She always took control of the music in my car, so it had become a habit to let her.

She scrolled through her playlist, contemplating what to play. The car was filled with an excited buzz, and the anticipation for the day's adventures was thick. As the first few notes of a catchy pop tune filled the air, Zara couldn't help but join in on the infectious energy radiating from the others.

The highway stretched out endlessly ahead, bordered by towering buildings that mirrored the modernity of the music blaring from our car's speakers. The wind whipped through our hair, providing relief from the scorching Texas heat.

As we cruised down the well-known road, my eyes couldn't help but steal glances at Chan. His gaze was fixed on the passing scenery, a serene smile playing at his lips. I then turned to Zara and caught her giving me a knowing look. With a subtle thumbs up, she mouthed "he's cute" which had me blushing furiously.

My mind was a flurry of thoughts and reflections on everything that had transpired thus far, as we finally arrived at the restaurant. The car doors slid open with a satisfying click, and we all emerged from the vehicle, stretching after the long ride. I couldn't help but smile as the other guys climbed out of their own SUV and joined us. Each one received a warm welcome from me, just as I had greeted the others before, and I introduced them to Zara with genuine enthusiasm. After exchanging greetings, we began our walk towards the impressive building in front of us.

As soon as we stepped inside the charming Whisky Cake Restaurant, the delicious scent of freshly baked bread enveloped us. The sound of glasses clinking, and lively chatter filled the air, creating a warm and inviting atmosphere. The hostess greeted us with a genuine smile, leading us to a spacious table near the window. Sunlight spilled in, casting a gentle glow on our faces and illuminating the rustic wooden beams that adorned the ceiling.

I took my seat at the table as Zara sat across from me, laughing at one of Minho's jokes. They had been getting along well so far much to my surprise. On either side of Zara, Felix and Minho chatted animatedly. Jisung sat next to me, his dimpled smile lighting up his face as he caught my eye.

Just as I was settling in, I felt a hand on my shoulder and turned to see Chan taking the seat next to me. My heart skipped a beat as I smiled back at his cheesy grin, the one that always made his eyes crinkle into crescent moons. The small touch of his hand sent butterflies fluttering in my stomach, but it was nothing compared to the pounding of my heart at his presence. I couldn't help but wonder if everyone in the restaurant could hear it too.

Time seemed to slow down as Chan settled into the chair beside me. The familiar warmth of his presence enveloped me, and I couldn't help but steal a glance at him from the corner of my eye. His tousled hair, the way his eyes crinkled when he smiled, everything about him made my heart race.

As we looked over the menu, our conversation flowed effortlessly. Laughter mingled with the clinking of silverware and the hum of conversation around us. It felt like the most natural thing in the world, being here with the boys.

"Hey, Zena," Chan's voice broke through my thoughts, capturing my attention. "What are you going to order?"

I scanned the menu in front of me, trying to focus on the options laid out before me. But with Chan's arm casually draped behind my chair and his knee repeatedly brushing against mine under the table, it was difficult to concentrate. Frustrated, I quickly blurted out the first thing that caught my eye, hoping to break the tension and alleviate my nerves.

"I think I'll go with the rustic burger," I announced, lifting my head to meet Chan's gaze. A slight mistake, as he had been leaning in close behind me to look at the menu as well, and now his face was mere inches from mine, his deep golden-brown eyes locking on to mine.

Caught off guard, I couldn't help but get lost in the intensity of his gaze. It was like an electric shock that coursed through my veins, freezing me in time and space. Everything around us faded away into a blur, leaving only Chan's piercing eyes locked with mine. My heart began to race, pounding in my chest like a tribal drum, as a rush of emotions overwhelmed me.

His lips curled up into a knowing smile, and he leaned in even closer, his warm breath tickling my skin. "Rustic burger sounds great," he spoke softly, sending shivers down my spine.

I could feel the heat rising to my cheeks, turning them a deep shade of crimson. I looked away for a moment, trying to regain some semblance of composure. The sound of laughter and conversation from our friends at the table brought me back to reality. Taking a deep breath, I turned back to him with a playful smile.

"You know," I began teasingly, trying to regain my confidence, "you seem awfully interested in my choice of food."

He chuckled, his laughter filling the space between us like music notes dancing in the air. "Well, I can't help it," he replied, his voice laced with amusement. "I've always been curious about your taste."

I raised an eyebrow, a mischievous glint in my eyes. "Oh really? And what do you think my taste in food says about me then?"

He leaned back in his chair, his expression thoughtful yet still full of playfulness. "Hmm, let's see," he mused, tapping his chin playfully. "I'd say you're someone who appreciates simplicity yet craves a burst of flavor. You're not afraid to try new things, but you also have a deep appreciation for classics."

I couldn't help but smile at his words, feeling a warmth spread through me. He had effortlessly summed up my relationship with food, but it also felt like he had captured something deeper about me as a person.

"You know me too well," I admitted, my tone filled with both surprise and admiration. "But I wasn't always like this."

With surprise, he raised his eyebrows in curiosity, "Oh, really?".

I hummed in a yes manner, "I used to be that kid who was super picky on what I ate, only sticking to safe and familiar foods. But as time went on, I grew tired of missing out on new and delicious experiences."

"My fear of trying new things even extended to fun activities. For the longest time, I adamantly refused to ride roller coasters, too afraid to let go and enjoy the thrill. However, during a vacation with my cousins to Disney World, something inside me shifted. Maybe it was the infectious joy and excitement around me, or maybe I was just tired of constantly holding back from new experiences." In that moment of vulnerability, I shared this realization with him.

Chan listened intently, his eyes locked on mine, and a gentle smile played on his lips. It was as if he understood the significance of my words, the underlying message that went beyond my fear of roller coasters.

"I think there comes a point in everyone's life when they realize that holding back from new experiences only limits their growth," he replied softly, his voice filled with empathy. "And it takes courage to embrace the unknown, to let go of our fears and allow ourselves to be vulnerable."

His words resonated deep within me. It was as if he saw through the layers, I had carefully constructed around myself, exposing my insecurities and doubts. But instead of feeling exposed, I felt an overwhelming sense of comfort and acceptance in his presence.

"You're right," I replied, my voice barely above a whisper. "It took me a while to learn that lesson, but I'm glad I did. Life is too short to hold back."

His warm, calloused hand reached out to cover mine underneath the wooden table, his touch sending a surge of electricity through my body. I smiled at him, feeling grateful for his kind words.

Just as I was about to open my mouth to speak, my sister kicked me forcefully under the table. I winced and glanced at her, catching her 'what the heck is going on' expression. Her interruption jolted me back to reality.

Clearing my throat, I gently removed my hand from his and replied, "Enough about me. What about you? Have you decided what you're going to get?" My voice was soft, almost hesitant, giving away the internal turmoil that his touch had stirred within me.

Chan smiled, understanding the unspoken message behind my sudden shift in tone. He released a small sigh, as if reluctantly letting go of the connection we had just established..

"I think I'll go with the steak," he replied, his voice carrying a hint of disappointment.

I nodded, silently acknowledging the shared disappointment. We both knew that our conversation had taken an unexpected turn, one that couldn't be explored further in that moment. But there was a flicker of determination in Chan's eyes, as if he was silently promising to revisit the unfinished conversation at a later time.

As we placed our orders with the waiter, the atmosphere at the table shifted slightly. Felix and Minho exchanged knowing glances, while Jisung grinned mischievously at me. It seemed like they too had sensed the underlying tension between Chan and me.

I tried my best to focus on the banter and laughter around the table, desperately attempting to distract myself from the unresolved connection between Chan and me. But with every passing moment, the magnetic pull between us seemed to grow stronger, impossible to ignore.

As we waited for our food to arrive, a sense of restlessness settled over me. I found myself stealing glances at Chan when I thought no one was looking, trying to decipher the emotions swirling in his eyes. There was an unspoken understanding between us, a connection that felt so tantalizingly close yet frustratingly out of reach.

Just as I was about to give in to the temptation of engaging in a private conversation with Chan, Jisung's mischievous grin widened, and he leaned in closer, his voice barely above a whisper. "I have an idea," he said slyly, arching an eyebrow.

Felix and Minho perked up immediately, their curiosity piqued. Even Chan couldn't hide his intrigue as he turned his attention towards Jisung. I couldn't help but feel a mixture of anticipation and uncertainty stirring within me.

Jisung leaned back in his chair, a mischievous glint in his eyes. "How about we play a little game?" he suggested, his voice laced with excitement.

My heart skipped a beat, and I exchanged nervous glances with Chan. The others at the table seemed equally intrigued, their eyes fixed on Jisung as he continued.

"It's simple," Jisung explained, his voice barely containing his excitement. "We each take turns asking a question, and everyone at the table has to answer truthfully."

A chorus of agreement echoed around the table, and I felt the weight of anticipation settle over us. It was as if time stood still, the air thick with curiosity and unspoken desires. Instinctively, I found my gaze drifting back to Chan, wondering what questions he might ask.

I replied confidently, "Ok, I'm down." My curiosity was piqued; I couldn't wait to hear what they had to say. After all, I had nothing to hide and was eager to see where the conversation would lead.

Jisung grinned mischievously, obviously relishing in the newfound intrigue of the game. "Alright, let's start with an easy one," he said, his eyes scanning the faces around the table. "Chan, what's something you've always wanted to do but haven't had the chance to yet?"

Chan leaned back in his chair; his eyes thoughtful as he pondered Jisung's question. A small smile played at the corners of his lips, revealing a glimpse of his adventurous spirit. "Well," he began, his voice laced with a touch of excitement, "I've always wanted to go skydiving."

Gasps and cheers erupted from the others at the table, their eyes shining with a mix of surprise and anticipation. It was clear that Chan's answer had sparked something within them, igniting their own desires for thrilling experiences.

Jisung turned to me next, a mischievous glimmer in his eyes. "And what about you?" he inquired.

I paused, considering my answer carefully before responding, "If I had to choose one thing, it would probably be traveling to a foreign country. The thought of immersing myself in a new culture and experiencing unfamiliar sights and sounds is thrilling to me. And if I could also use that opportunity to help others in need through mission work, that would be even more amazing."

The table fell into a brief silence, absorbing my words. My revelation had taken them by surprise, evident from the wide-eyed expressions and curious glances exchanged among my friends. Felix let out a low whistle, his eyebrows raised in admiration.

"Wow, that's an amazing goal," he said, a note of awe in his voice. "You've really got a big heart, huh?"

I blushed at Felix's compliment, gratitude washing over me. It was comforting to know that my friends saw the same passion and compassion within me that I often felt but struggled to vocalize. Their support meant more to me than they could ever know.

Chan leaned forward slightly, his eyes sparkling with newfound curiosity. "Where would you want to go first?" he asked softly, his voice laced with genuine interest.

A surge of excitement coursed through my veins as I considered his question. The possibilities were endless—a bustling city filled with winding streets and hidden gems in Europe, a mystical temple steeped in history and tradition in Asia, or a verdant rainforest teeming with life and adventure in South America.

My mind races with the possibilities, but ultimately I know where my heart longs to go – Uganda. My missionary friends speak of it with such passion and dedication, their eyes shining as they recount their experiences. The thought of being there, surrounded by vibrant culture and kind-hearted people, makes my heart swell with excitement. And then there's little William, the boy I sponsor in Uganda. I dream of meeting him and seeing the impact of my support in person. It is a country that calls to me, beckoning me to come and experience its beauty and rich history firsthand. "Umm, I'd think I would want to go to Uganda," I state with certainty, a hint of longing in my voice. "I have some missionary friends that go there a few times a year. Also, I sponsor a little boy in Uganda that I would love to visit someday."

Chan's eyes widen with surprise, his gaze shifting from me to the others at the table. The air becomes heavy with a mixture of admiration and curiosity. Seungmin breaks the silence, his voice filled with awe.

"Uganda, huh?" he says, his tone laced with wonder. "That's incredible. I've heard amazing things about that place. It must be a powerful experience to witness the impact of your support firsthand."

I nod, a smile tugging at the corners of my lips. "It would be truly life-changing," I reply, my voice full of conviction. "To see the difference we can make in someone's life, to connect with people from a different culture—it's something I've always dreamed of."

A heavy silence falls over the table as my words hang in the air, causing everyone to pause and contemplate. The weight of my statement is thick, like a cloud of tension hanging over us. "Gah! I'm sorry!" I exclaim, breaking the silence with my sudden outburst. "I made that so deep and awkward." My cheeks flush with embarrassment as I nervously scratch the back of my head. This was supposed to be a light-hearted lunch, but instead, it feels like I've just opened up a can of deep emotions.

Chan reaches across the table, placing his hand gently on top of mine. His touch is warm and reassuring, sparking a sense of calm within me. "Don't apologize," he says softly, his voice filled with sincerity. "There's nothing awkward about opening up and sharing your passions with us. In fact, it's inspiring."

I meet his gaze, my eyes searching for any sign of judgment or discomfort. Instead, I find nothing but understanding and support reflected in his deep brown eyes. It's as if he sees straight into my soul, embracing the vulnerabilities I've just laid bare.

Jisung breaks the silence, his voice filled with enthusiasm. "You know what? Let's make a pact right here, right now," he declares, a mischievous grin spreading across his face. "Let's make it our mission to turn these dreams into reality."

A chorus of agreement ripples through the table as my friends eagerly join in. The weight of tension and uncertainty is replaced by laughter, as we all excitedly plan and discuss how we can make our dreams come true. Ideas and suggestions bounce around the table, each one more daring and adventurous than the last.

Chan's eyes shine with determination as he contributes his own thoughts to the conversation. "We could look into skydiving experiences in Uganda," he suggests, a playful grin on his face. "It would be the perfect way for you to check off both of our dreams!"

The sound of joyful laughter erupts from Chan's suggestion, filling the air with a contagious sense of excitement and possibility. In that moment, I can't help but smirk as I chime in, "Why wait until I go to Uganda, Chris? We have a skydiving center right here in town. You could mark it off your list this week."

His cocky grin quickly vanished as he heard my idea, causing everyone at the table, including myself, to burst into laughter.

A warm, contented smile lingered on my lips as I returned from a fit of laughter. My cheeks still ached from the joyful strain as I turned to Jisung, my playful demeanor shining through. "Shall we continue our game?" I asked with a mischievous glint in my eye, hoping to keep the jovial energy going. He nodded eagerly, a matching smile spreading across his face as he turned to the table and posed the question, "Who would like to ask the next question?" The air was filled with lightness and camaraderie, as if we were all old friends gathered around a fire telling stories.

Chan leaned back in his chair, his eyes scanning the table as he considered his question. "Alright," he began, a sly smile forming. "If you could have any superpower, what would it be and why?"

The question hung in the air, each of us taking a moment to let our imaginations run wild. From the corner of my eye, I caught a glimmer of mischief in Jisung's expression, hinting at the mischievous answer that was about to escape his lips.

"I'd want the power of teleportation," Jisung declared, a mischievous sparkle in his eyes. "Imagine being able to go anywhere in an instant. No more long flights or tedious road trips. Plus, think of all the pranks we could pull!"

The table erupted with laughter and nods of agreement, everyone envisioning the possibilities that came with having such an ability.

As the food arrived, our table became alive with chatter and laughter, filling the air with joy and camaraderie. We shared secrets, reminisced about childhood memories, and told funny jokes, enjoying each other's company as if there was no tomorrow. The aroma of our meals wafted through the air, making our stomachs grumble in anticipation.

Before we knew it, our plates were empty and our stomachs were satisfied. Realizing everyone had finished their food and we had already paid the bill, I glanced over at Veronica and we both exchanged a knowing look.

I clapped my hands to get everyone's attention at the table. "Are you all ready to find out what thrilling activity awaits us today?" A chorus of cheers and excitement erupted from the table. "Then let's head back out to the cars so we can hit the road and start our journey."

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enneamage · 8 months ago

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hey what’s your thoughts on the ‘we must protect and infantilize ___’ agenda?

I’m on the kpop side of twitter (the outskirts and checking idols update pages only tbh, but I’m a but in the MC sphere!), and the psych side of it all is facinating.

I feel like it’s a coping mechanism for control in one’s life, but also loving and feeding into the parasocial side/idea of someone and not the … reality of a person I guess?

Thought I’d ask because of the streamer/idol parasocial overlap!

Not all streamers obvi do this, or intentionally (or double sided-ly), ofc ofc (felt the need to throw that in ;-;)

👏 LETS GO,

Like with a lot of topics under the Parasocial umbrella, it’s hard to be sure that the seed of the issue is a problem itself and not a reasonable instinct gone haywire. Pity / empathy / the urge to be gentle or considerate to the people we like is pretty healthy in small doses, and it would be weirder if we didn’t have it, so I try to start from there.

Part of this is the fact that you can get high on love and investing in a celeb is a fabulously easy way to do so. Having idealized love for someone or something feels great, and celebrities have been outlets for this forever. It’s much more difficult and high stakes to put this kind of faith in someone you actually know, and I think some part of people knows that, which is why we try to get our ‘unrealistic’ faith out in the celebrity world just to have something to hold onto. I haven’t felt it in god-knows-how-long, but in a world where there’s not much else to hold onto I get the appeal. The blend of romantic and parental protectiveness that some fans bring to the table is a hormonal cocktail for maximum payoff as well. Then there’s the more Symbolic angle where people will see something in someone not just for the experience of the feelings, but because they see something they value in a person, whether they were looking for that trait before they found them or they were inspired by seeing a bit of it in them when they appeared. Celebs tend to have some kind of star power element that makes them worth thinking about, so again, it’s free real estate. Through defending the celeb, you get to defend someone or something that is important to you.

Protecting and infantilizing don’t always have to go hand in hand, is the thing. I think that people can be protective of someone who fits any kind of descriptor as long as seeing Certain Content either bothers the audience member, or the audience member imagines it would bother the Celeb. A lot of Standom™️ on the more toxic end can be defined by their defensiveness of a given celeb, but that isn’t all infantilizing– sometimes it’s done to try and make someone come off as more grand or tough by acting as an army on their behalf.

The infantilizing part is interesting. Interpretation is inevitable (Roxy paraphrase) so you can’t really have a celeb without people having some kind of read on them. You can’t be famous without people thinking about you, it’s just a question of how. Small bean / cinnamon roll / babygirlification is an ingredient that goes into this, how much the concept of vulnerability or innocence or moral purity is part of their perceived persona. You can even chunk it down further into how ‘likely’ it is that they are a certain way from their persona, versus gratifying it is to imagine them a certain way anyway.

I’m not an expert on the kpop angle at all compared to how complex it is over there, but from my very shallow observation it looks like some people kind of get assigned Baby by management because they know it’s a persona that works well with people. The Kpop industry seems to be good at being brutally honest about what people ‘parasocially’ want from idols and isn’t afraid to give it to them. I think your last line is drawing on that a bit, the idea that some of these personas are deliberately baited / played into in a sinister way instead of just being upheld by the fans.

The real breaking point for the babying tends to come when the person who was being made baby does something very un-baby and people move to dismiss or defend or protect them (or the idea of them) from the situation. It pushes people on the outside to the limit when they see people acting to defend someone who seems to be clearly out of sync with the image people have of them in their heads, since the evidence for them not being that way is right there. Some people snap out of it and have to deal with the heartbreak of losing what they thought they had in that person, which is as real a pain as anything, but I know that people can get self-righteous and annoyed from the outside looking in.

I think people react very badly to ‘misplaced’ pity online. Even in fictional contexts people tend to get uneasy seeing people get too Soft with any one given person, let alone people who have canonically done Evil. This has different and way more grounded stakes IRL where everyone involved is real, but just as a baseline I think online spaces can be particularly against anything that goes against the hard factkeeping of who did what. Explaining away or forgiving things can feel like a lapse in justice, the opposite of holding people accountable, because it takes entire events and voids their importance, or fails to give them importance to begin with. It’s hard enough to get any kind of accountability to take place online where laws barely apply, exploitation of audiences is the norm and the mental refresh rate of the average viewer (who brings in the ad revenue) is on the level of a goldfish. Nobody can take justice for granted online, and the immune system that’s grown to try and counteract that tends to be strict to make up for it.

The topic of humanizing is hard. It’s more of a literary concept than something you can objectively point to. Is trying to extend empathy humanizing? Is playing down someone’s seemingly larger-than-life traits to bring them back down to earth humanizing? Honestly I don't think people agree what being human / ‘regular’ off a pedestal looks like, and that sometimes people are just telling other people to have less intense and specific emotions about someone. Does falling in or out of love with someone humanize them more? What is essentially human is a massive question that we do not all agree on, so not everyone can be tweaked back to a baseline that doesn’t exist.

(Tangent while I’m here, getting random lectures to not put CCs on pedestals when the standard that was failed is “do not commit crimes or exploit minors” has been getting to me. It kind of backhandedly implies that you need to be aware / okay with that being a possibility when getting into CCs because That’s How It Be Sometimes, and can come off as weirdly callous.)

I feel like we’re talking about Boundary Culture in a sense, in the unfortunate way that it actually manifests versus the hard-to-disagree-with concept of boundaries as found in therapy speak. People with deeper investment do ironically have a certain civilizing effect that the people who aren’t as deep in the pocket tend to lack– boundary culture does not fly if you don’t think that the Celeb’s sense of what they want to allow is more important than what you may want to do. People who are less invested may not always be outright violating because they may just not care, but it doesn’t come from a deeply held moral place so much.

I tend to take the stance that I don’t like what internalizing an absolute sense of duty to famous strangers does in the long run, both to individuals and the internet. It brings in a weird feudalism angle that feels too image-controlled for someone as paranoid as me. Plus, too much optimism freaks me out because I lost most of it like six online fallouts ago.

Having written all this out, underneath it all it’s kinda sad. People get desperate for something Pure because of how bad it gets in the world, and then they can get preyed on for wanting to invest that hope somewhere, even if that place exists outside of normal life. When The Shit goes down, the value of the ‘betrayer’ drops through the floor, but the emotional desperation only gets tighter as another person fails to be decent, and the spiral continues. Touching grass doesn’t always fix despair like that if the grass is also fucked up.

In general I Am Skeptical when it comes to hanging hopes and affections on personas that seem too good to be true, but I also like to de-escalate things a bit because we’re in a massive moral panic right now with parasocial relationships, and we’re much better learning to deal with them than pretending it’s possible to stop having them.

#been busy so this took a full week #parasocial activity tag #People get protective of the things they love it comes free with animal brain #and policing love is not really possible even if we try #trying to make justice work despite this is sometimes a challenge #mageessay

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sinkingaboutyou · 5 months ago

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Dear Halsey ✮⋆˙

I've been part of many fandoms ── started out with the Spice Girls. Couldn't go anywhere without my big ass shoes and space buns. Couldn't shut up about them ever. I wanted to be Ginger Spice so fucking bad I told everyone they should call me Geri "from now on" and turns out, "from now on" went on for years.

I then moved on to the Backstreet Boys, then Leonardo Dicaprio, Charmed, Britney Spears, anything Moulin Rouge. I wanted to be Rose and save Jack from the icy cold water ── wanted to be Satine and escape Paris with my poet lover ── wanted to hunt demons with the Winchester brothers ── wanted to be a Slytherin ── wanted to help Frodo destroy the ring -and make out with Legolas, I admit ── truth be told, I can't even think of a period in my life where I wasn't a fan or viscerally obsessing over something.

And somewhere along the way, right between my 1D and KPOP era, there you were ── and I never felt the same connection with an artist prior to this. I never looked at you as an idol or some mystic, unattainable creature. You came into my life precisely when I needed it and showed me it was okay to be myself and to own it. Badlands became the soundtrack of my life, I cut my hair short, dyed it a crazy color and felt more alive than ever. Still, I wasn't obsessing over you. I loved to watch videos and listen to your music but my relationship with you was never one you typically expect from a fan to their idol.

You make me happy. You make me feel like I can be anything, anyone and just roll with it without a care in the world. Your words heal me. Your voice soothes me and I have nothing but a genuine love and admiration for the human behind these words, the person behind the glitters and fantastic shows.

I was ✮⋆˙ so lucky ✮⋆˙ to see you in Paris on Februrary 2020. My first and only Halsey show, right before the world turned to shit and locked us all down. Camped all day just to see you front row, not only because I'm pocked sized and can't expect to see shit if I'm not literally standing front row, but because I felt like I needed to see you from up close. To see the human. The person I admire, not only a silhouette from afar.

That night was the most memorable, fantastic night of my entire life. I couldn't help but feel the intimacy, the closeness, the efforts you put to make every person in the crowd matter even for a second. It literally blew my mind. I don't think I ever properly recovered.

Today, I'm sad. I'm sad to see how poorly you're being treated by so-called fans. I was already upset months ago while witnessing people's behavior ── how they gave you shit for being silent, for the lack of music release, for promoting your make up brand instead of being on stage ── I was never one to interact or take part in any sort of hatred debate because I know I can vomit words to the speed of light and waste too much energy on people who aren't worth it. But still ── it was hard to digest, hard to read, hard to step back and take a deep breath so I wouldn't snap at people treating you like nothing but the King's Fool whose purpose is to entertain the crowd only.

Of course, knowing what you were going through during all of this only adds bitterness to this situation ── I wish people would see the human first. I wish people would realize you were always there for us, how you handwrote actual letters to some fans (god knows I would die for that) ── how you literally bled out on stage just so you wouldn't cancel a show when any mundane person would take days off work to deal with such a traumatic experience. I wish they would realize you never treated this, treated US as a job. You're one of the only artists out there who remains genuine and always speaks their truth ── even the ones that hurt so fucking bad ── and still, it never seems to be enough to these people.

I'm sad you regret coming back, because I was genuinely the happiest to see you active and excited to release some music again. But mostly, I was happy to have my favorite person back.

I want nothing more but for you to be happy and I hope you know, for every 10 disrespectful, ungrateful meanies, there's at least one person who loves you a hundred times more than they ever will.

If this letter ever finds you, just know this one thing ──

Je t'aime et je suis en vie grâce à toi ♡

#halsey #ashley ♥

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itsseohannbin · 9 months ago

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thank you for the tag Pookie!! @feelbokkie

Get To Know Me!

❣ Who is your favorite Kpop group?

Stray Kids is my main group, but I'm also dabbling in some others, like Ateez, Big Bang, iKon, Enhypen, Astro, The Boyz, NewJeans, BlackPink, BTS/Jungkook. (One OK Rock & The Rose are also heavily loved but idk if they qualify as Kpop or not?)

❣ Which member sparked your interest first?

I think my answer is the same as nearly every other Stay out there.... Lee Felix Yongbok.

he's just such a sweet lil cinnamon roll with the voice of a devil. his smile got me first, cause hello? look at it and tell me you aren't melting!!?? (being considered the embodiment of sunshine by all my close friends/family of course only heightened the adoration I had for him). I truly and utterly adore him sm 😊

❣ Who was your first bias?

Han Jisung, obviously 🙄🙄 smooth lil bitch that he is..

I mean, look at this smol bean :(

He is absolutely adorable, and he held my heart for such a long period of time before Binnie came along out of nowhere and shut that shit down LOL

it's almost like I convinced myself Han was my bias and Changbin was my number 1 bias wrecker, when in reality, it was the complete opposite. Bin has always been #1 with Han fighting for his chance in #2.

❣ Who is your current bias?

I think I've made it abundantly clear over the last few days 6 months lmao help who my heart truly belongs to, and it's this fucking dude right here omg.

juST LOOK AT HIM!! Boba eyes, curly hair, plushy lips 🥺🥺

I just wanna hold him😭😭

I denied it for so so SO LONGGGGG and I'm so ashamed that I did because the moment I was like "fuck, yeah, this is the one," I felt like I could breathe properly for the first time since becoming a STAY LOL.

I had a little dramatic moment with a Chan Bias Friend of mine about the whole ordeal (thank you again for Syd for holding me through that crisis bc lord it was a big one!), and told her that I feel like I've been wearing beer goggles for my entire journey as a STAY and I just now took them off, and the world seems so much clearer now.. everything makes so much more sense LOL. We always talk about how your bias is most like you and your wrecker is what you look for most in a partner, but it's the complete opposite for me. Changbin truly has my entire heart and I could not be happier knowing it's him that's protecting it

❣ What makes them your bias?

This is a loaded question, but I'll try to explain it as clear and concise as possible.

I fucking adore this man.

So so fucking much.

It's so true that you don't find Stray Kids in your time of need, they find you. Changbin found me. 6 months or so ago, I had an "oh shit" moment where I kind of realized that it's been Binnie all along, but I wanted to deny it and stay loyal to Han because he was my first and I was determined to keep him as my #1.. but after my Binnie moment, I started going HARD. I watched everything. interviews, skz-codes, live performances, tiktoks, vlogs, skz-talkers, the entirety of Kingdom LW then all the way back to music videos and the bts for the mv's. I became obsessed, not just with all of the members, but with Binnie. His personality is so so sweet and so genuine and so raw that I couldn't help but gravitate towards him. His duality, his personality, his stage presence. It was overwhelming in the best way possible. He's become such a safe space for me over the course of the last year and a half that I've been apart of the STAY community and been a fan of the group. His encouraging words, his gentle and loving presence, his loud and confident personality. All of it.

He's unknowingly helped me come to terms with my eating disorder and helped me stay on a healthy and positive path in my journey to self-love. He taught me the importance of our bodies and how to properly take care of the body you were born with. He taught me how to stick to my principles and never stray from my own beliefs, no matter what people around me have to say/do about it. He taught me how to appreciate the family I was blessed with, and that yes, sometimes it is nice to just dance with them in snow. He taught me confidence and self-acceptance in ways no trainer or therapist ever could. He's helped me accept myself, helped me realize that life is not about the journey, but who you spend the journey with. He's taught me to Never let the fear of being myself, stop me from being myself (this one is so fucking huge and so fucking important to me, you'll never understand). He is such a huge inspiration for me. I can't get over how much I love him and how much I owe to him and his existence. I see posts and tiktoks all the time about how Changbin is like everyones own personal happy pill, and he truly is.

I could go into very specific details with video timestamps, specific lyrics, tiktoks and moments where my love for him was solidified more and more, but I feel like we would be here all day and I want to keep this post short and sweet.

So yes, I adore Changbin and his presence in my life. He is truly an inspiration in so many aspects and I just cannot imagine a life without him, or the rest of SKZ, in it.

❣ Who is your bias wrecker?

For the longest time possible, it was a Seungmin. The little menace he is. It was him, and then I had a moment where I slowly starting veering off towards Minho, cause he's like, the king of menaces and Seungmin is just his little menace-in-training. Then it went back to Seungmin after watching most of Kingdom: Legendary War and seeing his performance in I'll Be Your Man and Love Poem.

THEN as of the most recent two comebacks, Hyunjin shows up and is like "hello I'm here too. I also require your attention". But truthfully, I think I've come to accept the fact that I'm a Changbin bias, but OT7 wrecked on the daily, because each and every member wrecks me in different ways.

Bangchan with his astounding hardwork and adoring personality. Lee Know as the king of menaces/ultimate butt hunter. Hyunjinnie with his passion and love for all the art and beauty in the world. Han with his dedication and lyrics that always hit so close to home. Felix for his rays of sunshine, demonic voice and heart of gold. Seungmin for his shy and guarded personality but the prince following in the King's foot steps. and INNIE?? BABY BREAD??? No baby bread ain't a baby bread anymore, he's a freakin' Daddy Toast and I'm uNWELL

Hannie definitely holds the top spot for bias wrecker (hello he was demoted from #1 so it only makes sense for him to fall to #2), but the remaining 6 are fighting for the title on a daily basis. It's very concerning LOL

❣ Which member(s) are you currently obsessing over that aren't your bias/bias wrecker?

As of right now, I cannot for the life of me get Channie out of my fucking head. Idk what it is lately, but there's just something about Chan that takes up all my attention. Maybe it's the excessive amounts of fics I've been reading and writing for him, but he's just someone who captivates your attention and absolutely requires you to keep it on him. It's frustrating but I'm also not complaining.

❣ When did you first discover this group?

I first heard of SKZ by the boyfies little sister who is a die hard kpop fan. When I first met her when she was 11 or 12, she was a big fan of BTS, and I tried to bond with her over Kpop, although it was something I never thought I'd ever get into, and she was like "well, BTS isn't for everyone. Have you listened to SKZ?" and she showed me Gods Menu and like one of their early SKZ Codes, and I was like "alright, they're pretty cool. Demonic voice sunshine boi, fast rapper #1, fast rapper #2, maniacal little puppy, ethearal fairie who likes to touch butts, best leader, tiny baby with large hands and pretty artist." but after that I didn't really give them a second thought.

Then, in January of 2023, I started a new job with my lifelong best friend who I hadn't caught up with in a long time, and she was obsessed.. she had already been apart of Stayville since maxident, and she got our other friend into them as well, so when we spent every break and lunch hour together scrolling through tiktoks and listening to her gush about how amazing these men were, I was like, alright. I'll give them a shot. If my best friend adored something so much, who am I to not give them a shot and see what all the fuss was about.

She showed me the MAMA 2022 performance and from there, I was hooked.

Thank you Kennie for bringing these losers into my life.

❣ Have you ever been to one of their concerts?

I have not. I've seen so many concert videos and tiktoks of others living out the ultimate dream and I am so so jealous. I really hope they come to Canada on their next tour. I will be absolutely devastated if they don't, but I am fully willing to road trip down to any state at any time to see them live. I will not miss another concert. I will not.

❣ What are some of your favorite songs by the group?

oh fuck.

okay uhm, lets see...

DLMLU

Case 143

Scars

Doodle

Alien

Chill

Give Me Your TMI

3Racha

Taste

Circus

Thunderous (definitely getting a Thunderous tattoo)

Volcano

Sorry, I love you

Venom/Maniac (First performance I watched)

Charmer

Waiting For Us

Gods Menu (first song I heard)

EASY ??!!!!??

TOP (holy fuck incredible song 10/10)

Back Door (first choreo I learned)

Miroh

SuperBowl

Get Lit

Butterflies

Hello STRANGER

Comflex

LOL it's really hard to pick favorites when their entire discography is played on repeat 24/7. There is not one song I skip while listening to my SKZ playlist. Not one!

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sanstropfremir · 2 years ago

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more of a rant than a specific question but i saw a video i agree with on how 4th gen keep getting more specialised idols (who already have backgrounds in ballet, modelling, child acting, even former groups like izone and ioi) and less yknow,, actual well rounded idols who arent good in just one highly specific area and i know idols have almost always been middle class/rich kids (parents need so much money to send their kids for training like omfg) and now i feel like by the time 5gen officially rolls in, all idols will just be rich kids who dont even care about music (you can see it starting with 4gen, 1/2/3gen had a few but not on these scales) and i just feel like kpop is going to... break down tremendously, like there will still be loyal fans thanks to parasocial relationships but all the good work 3rd gens are doing by spreading kpop internationally is going to break when ppl see theres not a single bit of passion left and its going to be ridiculed the way it was back in 1/2gen...... theres literally no hope left now for 6gen groups to do well outside of korea and parasocial relationships

i mean, the system is already breaking down if this boys planet debacle is any indication, but i don't think its going to be that extreme. i know this is going to sound like a defense of rich people and it's not bc fuck them but there ARE people who are wealthy that care about and make art. that's literally how the art industry has worked via patronage for the last i dunno. several hundred years. possibly thousands depending on how you want to categorize patronage. yes we will see, especially in the larger companies, some people who make bad art and don't actually care, but that does not mean that the whole industry is going to the dogs. i wrote up that entire post about fifth gen specifically to say that you SHOULD be paying attention to the smaller groups!! that's where the people are that care about making interesting work are!!! my nugu recommendations post is my most popular one for a reason!!! also, maybe this is a hot take but. who cares if kpop gets big globally. literally who cares. they're korean artists, they should care about their domestic market. you absolutely would not say that a pop group from canada should be trying to break into the japanese market?????? so why are you expecting kpop groups to go the extra mile for people who don't speak their language?? is the work that groups do for their international fans appreciated? yes absolutely, i love how much more accessible everything is now, but by NO means are they obliged to do it. obviously i also like to see my faves successful, but it it's at the cost of their artistic integrity like it's been with some groups, or if it just doesn't work, then that's perfectly fine! if i could listen to shinee ripped shinee cds and illegally watch kdramas in 244p in 2008 then i can do it again. and honestly? kpop is not for everyone. the people who are interested in music and performance and who are down to be genuine or even just casual fans will find it, just like they have been for the last 15 years. the industry doesn't need to blow up and go global, it just needs to be successful and supported enough that everyone can get by. companies don't agree with that assessment bc capitalism, but you know that the upper level corporatism of the popular groups doesn't always filter down right? no matter how big the gap between the groups with money and the groups that don't gets, there will ALWAYS be people putting blood and sweat into making work because they want to, not for money. it just won't be 'popular culture' and that's fine.

#i know you just dumped this as a rant but why are people so fucking fatalistic about art all the time #like yea shit sucks but there are literally always people fighting and creating and making #you just have to go looking!! stop expecting things to be dropped in your lap based on algorithms and popular culture!!!#kpop questions #honestly why stress about 'rehabilitating' kpop's image to people who were not gonna care about it in the first place #why. like truly why. just be normal and enjoy the things you enjoy #also its so fucked to say that there's no passion left in kpop like why are y'all so jaded????#idk what y'all are watching but like. maybe stop? clearly it's just making you sad in one way or another #and what's with this frankly evangelical view that you need to spread kpop to as many people as possible?? you do not.#in fact it would be better if you didnt!#not everyone needs to like all the same things and watch all the same shows?#this is not a gatekeepy thing this is a success =/= the best thing. fuck man capitalism screwed y'all up #text #answers #also i feel like i need to defend earlier gens here bc like half of first and second gen was literally just guys they found on the street

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Heyy I’m not sure if you received my message or not😢but I’m glad I wrote it on my notes so I can copy it lol and if you did receive, I’m sorry for sending a duplicate😭I just want to make sure you received it😭

Aww my grandma is cherished by me lol my mom’s bias Yunho and she’s keeps calling him her son🤣but it’s the fact that they saw EVERYTHING at the concert. The hip thrusts, the explicit camera angles, the HAND PLACEMENTS, Mingi cursing (good thing my grandma doesn’t know English lol) like literally Ateez were being bad squishies on stage and my dad saw everything too like it literally had me rolling remembering how my grandma was seeing everything back there but she never mentioned it😂😂

Really? Lol I won’t be going to Australia anytime soon but I do one day, you’ll see me at a kpop concert😂

I really love that so much about the fan community. Idk about Stays yet in person but Atinys, we all literally passed out freebies and stuff, we had a cup sleeve event the day before the concert for Mingi’s birthday, we did dance challenges together, it was sooo fun. I really felt like I was part of the community and got so many compliments on my outfit. They were soo sweet🥹♥️

Nahh fr, it’s like when kpop groups come to America, Australia, and a few others, they release the beast in them and don’t hold back😂😂but I meannnn I’m not complaining lol🤣🤣

Yes I had to do what I had to but next time I’ll be more prepared and consider myself more cuz I sort of did learn my lesson in wearing heels? I mean I knew I was going to suffer but yeah I probably won’t torture myself more than what I already went through lol. And oh ok about the anime👌

Dang that Mars synastry was the end of the world😂😂and awww the hehet aesthetic is the best🥹♥️

No I get it, I overthink so much too and not at all! I’ve been talking to you because you’re so nice and sweet to talk to and you really gave me the initiative to talk since you were into music and that’s what really made me want to get to know you and couldn’t help myself. I really love music so much I got so happy I found someone who writes music like me here🥹I’ve never even requested for any of your works before and I have been reading them for the others you’ve done instead and love them. It’s literally my first time requesting😭

And tell me why, because this goes for me as well. Introverts tend to sound so extroverted online and texting but we’re complete opposites in person?😂😂Because I’m like that but I’ve learned to be more social through work and uhhh experiences so I definitely get it😂😂

I’m so happy to hear you had a great birthday!! But definitely if you need a break, take it and get some time for yourself. We’ll still be here. Awww you’re deserving of love and more♥️💕

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I'm so sorry I didn't respond at the time! but yes thank god for you resending this again because I in fact didn't get it🙃

But yeah I had a huge dumb tourism assignment and immediately had to get ready for the skz concert I just got back from it today actually! Man, it was awesome like the way they were catering for stay, the huge ass stage with the awesome sfx, they just went hard for no reason.

AND OH GOD I HAD THE MOST MAIN CHARACTER MOMENT WITH FELIX AND IT HAPPENED NEAR THE END OF THE CONCERT AND I LEGIT STARTED CRYING. Everyone was cheering and I was crying a whole ass river. I'm literally still trying not to cry rn as I write this but it was just so kind and special in the most aussie way possible. BECAUSE TELL ME WHY FELIX LEGIT GAVE ME SOME KIND OF BIRTHDAY GIFT BECAUSE WHEN THE DAMN LEE FELIX ACKNOWLEDGES YOUR EXISTENCE IN THE NICEST WAY POSSIBLE EVEN WHEN YOU'RE IN THE BACK BACK LIKE HE IS A MONSTER MAKING ME CRY SO MUCH THE MARS IS FUCKING MARSING.

Now back to you! Dude it feels somewhat victorious when even your parents adopt your idols as sons. My mum loves 3racha to infinity but since she knows how much I love Felix she started calling him "sonny boy" But man idk how your mum can still see Yunho as a son when she would have seen it all.

And you know what if you were ever in Australia come on in to a kpop concert it is a time. Honestly back to fandoms, I'm antisocial af so I normally don't talk but when I do talk to them, for the night of the concert they are angels but then we part ways never to speak again lmao.

Thank you for requesting too! I know I keep saying it but I'm so glad you finally requested from me i love having you as an anon too and I don't always need requests but your request had me getting all sparkly on main.

#🎶anon #my precious anons #💖💖💖#you make my heart sing

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Have you ever been considered popular? My high school friends were, and I also was part of the main friend group that my college org had...so I guess to an extent, I was. I was always the person who was a bit different than the rest of the people in those groups, though. I had vastly different interests in my personal life, but I guess it was my personality that helped me get close to those people. In any case, I never set out to be 'popular' and when I got included in those cliques I still actively tried to be as lowkey as possible and let the other girls shine lol.

Favorite undersea creature? Dolphins and whales :)

What types of things would you plant in a garden? I would not enjoy growing a garden.

Favorite type of fantasy creature? None.

Are you short or tall for your age? A bit on the shorter side but I'm not strikingly tiny. Everyone else is just like an inch or three taller hahaha.

Have you ever liked someone much older than you? No.

What was your first favorite band? Paramore.

Anyone’s grave you visit, regularly? I visit my grandpa a few times a year. It helps that he's very close by.

Have you ever been seriously addicted to anything? When it was new to me at the time, the internet. I was so reliant on it and was signing up for every website I could find, just crazily fascinated about this new online world I was exploring for the very first time. I lost a social life from it and also barely slept. I was irritable whenever I had to go outside because all I wanted was to be using my laptop again. I was also like...11. So pretty bad!

Have you ever had a hamster? Nope.

How many books have you read in the past YEAR? Three. Two memoirs, one novel.

Are you popular on any websites? Nah.

Ever been in the emergency room? I have not.

Are you subscribed to anything (magazines, monthly boxes, streaming sites, etc.)? A handful of streaming sites + there's also a local animal shelter that has started a subscription feature where the funds go to their vet expenses and food. I love that they started that, but I'm hoping they can also consider opening up tiers because I'm super willing to pay more on a monthly basis.

Have you ever given a lap dance? I would hate being on either end the most.

Do bats frighten you? Yes. They're not common here, so it would feel unusual and freaky tbh.

Are you a KPOP fan? I'm more a BTS fan than anything, but I like certain songs from certain groups. After BTS, I like Seventeen and TXT.

Were you anyone’s first kiss? I think so, yes.

Will you keep your last name when you get married? I had planned to hyphenate it.

Are you biracial? Nope.

What is your most expensive piece of clothing? Idk, I don't spend like my life depends on it on clothes tbh. Probably something branded or merch.

Have you ever started a rumor? Gross, no.

Color of your bedspread? Beige.

Do you have a piggy bank? Nope.

Did you ever skip a grade or get held back a grade? Neither ever happened to me.

What’s your favorite rock band? Paramore.

What color(s) eyeshadow do you wear the most? I don't put on eyeshadow.

Do you identify with any organized religion? I was born and raised in it, but I left because nothing about it made sense.

Have you read the book 13 Reasons Why or watched the show? Neither.

What is the sexiest part of the opposite sex’s body? Nothing in particular.

Are you confrontational? Never in a war freak way, but I am when I need to be.

Who was the last person you know (or that you know of) that died? A work contact's dad.

Does your first crush know that he/she was your first crush? Maybe? I don't know, I don't think much about these things anymore.

Do you like your butt? Sure.

Have you ever been to a night club? I have several times, yes

Do you believe in reincarnation? It's fun to theorize/fantasize about, but in the grand scheme of things I don't think it's true. There's nothing in death, at least for me.

Can your dog roll over on command, if you have a dog? Nah, we never got to that point. Cooper can sit, high five, shake, and stand up though. He does kiss too but like super selectively, i.e. if there's food waiting for him LOL.

Do you use any styling products on your hair? Yup, I put serum in it as it helps lessen the friziness.

Do you have a favorite local band? Who are they? No one that stands out above the rest.

Do you use the Facebook chat often? Yeah, Messenger is all people use here.

Do you own a robe? What color is it? Nope.

Who ended your last relationship? She did.

Have you ever been engaged? Nope.

Do you have any bug bites on you right now? If so, where? I don't currently, thank goodness. They're such a nuisance when you do get them.

What is the biggest problem in your life right now? Just impostor syndrome following me around at work all the time.

How many pets do you have? Three.

Do you like tomatoes? No. I remove them from stuff when I can, haha.

When was the last time you shaved your legs? This morning.

Do you have any exes your parents never liked? My relationship was never out in the open with them.

Are you a fast or a slow eater? SLOW. Very slow. I will either take hours to finish a meal, or not finish it 100% if I need to leave/do something else already haha.

What was the last thing you purchased from a small local business? I guess this quaint cafe I'm in at the moment counts as a small business? I got their almond mocha latte and a ham and cheese panini. Both are very good!

Have you ever run from the police? Nope.

What does your wallet look like? It's pastel purple and has like a million and one slots inside.

Do you have any hickeys on you? Haven't had one of those in years.

If you had a son right now, what would you name him? Owen has always been a contender, after Owen Hart.

Have you ever dated someone longer than a year? Yes, we were together for six years total.

Have you ever done ballet? I took classes when I was 5, but I was terrible, couldn't follow instructions, and apparently was very prone to distraction. After that summer session, never dabbled in ballet again lol.

When was the last time you consumed alcohol? Two Wednesdays ago.

Are you interested in creative writing of any sort? No. I tried to make it my friend, but it just doesn't like me back.

Are any of your friends virgins? I don't think so. But I'm also honestly not so sure, we never talk about sex...

Who is the funniest person you know? Hans.

Are you overweight? The opposite – I'm underweight.

Ever had a black eye? Have not.

Last person to cuddle with? My ex, a long long very long time ago.

Have you ever lost a friend to drugs or alcohol? Nope.

Have you ever read a play outside of school? Uhhh no. I've watched a musical though if that counts?...I saw Miss Saigon twice a few months back.

Do you listen to music while you sleep? Nah, I prefer having videos in the background as it's the talking sounds that help me fall asleep much quickly.

Do you sell any products? If so, what? I mean, I'm in an agency so the job is technically selling our services but that's as far as it goes for me.

Do you own a bobblehead? Nope, not my style.

Do you like scrambled eggs? Love them.

What is currently happening that is scaring you? The Taylor Swift-Vienna thing is pretty freaky tbh. I feel bad for the fans but seeing the outpouring of support from the local community to give the Swifties as best an experience as possible without the concert was very heartwarming.

What was the last movie you saw and who did you watch it with? My sister turned on Contagion when my cousin and grandma came over last week. I watched bits of it but mainly stayed for Kate Winslet's scenes tbh hahaha.

Can you cry on command? If so, have you ever used it to your advantage? No I cannot.

Have you ever snuck out of your house? Nah.

Can you do any impressions? My Mr. Bean is pretty spot on. I know so because it sends my sister laughing every time I do it. Hahahaha

Have you ever been kicked out of a public place? Why? Not kicked out but my group has gotten stares for being too noisy. I was always the one trying to ask them to shut the fuck up but would get overpowered.

Do you have any important anniversaries you celebrate? [TW: SUICIDE] Yeah, there's the day I decided not to push through with dying.

Do you know how to use a DSLR camera? Only if it's in auto mode, which I know barely counts hah.

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