#light at end of the tunnel

[thoughtsbeewild]

emotional post traumatic stress- yes motherfuckers that real-will be offline for a good while-priorities-survival comes first

doesn’t mean you have post a video crying, fake crying.. that saying

Feeling the pain in silence, screaming places alone

evil demoncrat small business start up piece of shit property management owners a fucking white man and his can’t speak English Mexican wife

I wish trump n his administration would audit the mistreatment they do to tenants.

I feel like the California fire victim it’s happening to me and my family.

this property management decided to terminate our lease for a remodel. They had their resident specialist call me saying the demoncrat owners want terminate to remodel the home. I ask after the remodel can we go back. Said no, after remodel cost, the owner will triple the rent of the cost and find a new tenant who will pay the amount. They don’t give a fuck, they want money. Even though you pay your rent on time, been a resident for over 20 years, demoncrats money owners don’t give a shit. They treated their tenant like I’m an employee, emailing a list of tenant task like fix the blinds, fix air filters, then confirm when complete, provide your invoice and repairs you made. If you ask me, I felt this was a long time coming, each inspection thiey were trying find ways to make it tenant responsibility to pay. In this case, they were finding bullshit power over the tenants to have tenant pay for all repairs, once it’s time. Owner would find obstacle to evict the tenant so it leaves them paying less to fix and sell out market for double.

I don’t think by law they can terminate tenant without fault. I read online the owner after remodel can put tenant back in at same price. After telling me GTFO, kick in the face, they send an email automated email of how was our service of kicking you out, are you grateful for what we did? Please let us know your thoughts and comments. Don’t forget to give a 5 star rating to us to let people know they are super great. When I got that, I wanted put all my emotions in cussing words, but I didn’t. I’m not going let these piece of crap small business owners get the best of me or a fucking reaction. Just mildly quietly fuck you in my mind, deep breathe n you gotta face the music, overwhelming of what is coming. They are stupid send a link that goes to their email server. Kick me when I’m down, I’ll find a way in next weeks to get back up to find a new home. Praying with god and keeping my faith during a difficult period.hopully orange can help with these landlords mistreating good paying citizens on time, never late..

man I went to tour a picture of what was renonnvated, but outside it looked like a scary hostage mostel where you feel so unsafe, if you were trying run to escape from a rapist, a crazy murder, thief no way from the design of stairs, it’s like a maze, especially it’s nighttime man you feel like a crime, someone would bulgar your unit. Scariest I’ve seen , the cost of it to live there 2,683..would you pay that? Knowing the above, scary times…

Offline for a good period,..stay positive folks, even in your darkest time know to keep your mind in light when facing a negative terrible situation

[asteroidtroglodyte]

5 years ago, I was in Rehab.

10 years ago, I was watching my Potential and Opportunities dissolve and evaporate in an ocean of cheap gin and expensive whiskey.

But 5 years ago, I was in Rehab.

One of the exercises they had us perform was to imagine ourselves happy, 5 years in the future.

Many of us in that room had forgotten how to imagine nice things happening to them. A few snorted (well, I snorted), finding the notion that we’d even still be around in 5 years grimly humorous.

For about half of us, it was the last stop on the way down.

But I indulged the therapist. I was there, after all, because I did not want to die. So, I imagined myself, 5 years hence.

Happy.

It came to me all at once; an artistic remix on Norman Rockwell’s Freedom From Want, reframed with myself placing food at the table.

Sunday Dinner At My Place, I answered, when it came my turn to share my fantasy. I was asked what food I imagined eating.

It’s not the meal itself, I said, it’s the implications framed around it. Sunday Dinner At My Place means that I have a Place. It means that I have Family that will actually speak to me and friends who actually want to see me. It means money enough not just to feed myself but others too. It means having the time to spare to take the time preparing the meal.

A lot of nodding heads all around me. A struck chord. Many people with no Place, in that place. Nowhere that would lament their leaving.

5 years hence, as I lay down to sleep in my Home, with my Wife and my Son, surrounded by my Art and my Flowers, I reflect.

It was a long road. It was hard. We lost people. So many people. There were long days and long nights and hospital stays. Angry arguments with ghosts. I changed, in ways I never hoped for, or expected. Good ways, finally, for once. Slowly, against the backdrop of a world in chaos, I found my mind.

Sometimes, My Wife wondered aloud, what she did to deserve me. After some stumbling with my feelings, I eventually settled on an answer.

I’m a Rescue.

She gave me a Home.

And, so, I gave her a Family.

It seemed fair

This Sunday, my folks, which whom I have not had a shouting match in years, will come over for dinner. We will cook and eat together. My Friend became My Wife, and she took a piece of me and with it she made Our Son. There will be many hugs, and no violence. Good Things Happened.

I don’t know who needs to hear this, but you don’t know what the future holds.

don’t give up yet, ok?

It could get good, even.

[uh-ohspaghettio]

[fairydrowning]

in order to live a happy life, you must romanticize everything (and see a good therapist).

[grandquest]

Eyecatch redraw

[evydraws]

I couldn't stop making more and more of these small ink vignette illustrations for the art zine

[smokinghorse]

To another coming year of Jean in 2025! I hope next year is good to all of us.

[parisoonic]

artblock = heads facing right (whoops secret reupload as i made some small adjustments to sniper as he looked daft. him/soldier/engie are definitely the toughest mercs for me to draw)

[otaku553]

Procrastination doodles of sabo for the king sabo au :)

[buckycap]

idk you guys there’s something about orym previously being so willing to follow will into death and letting his grief eat him alive but now telling the matron that it’s pretty great living a lifetime while holding dorian’s gaze and smiling at him, orym and dorian both going through so much pain and grief in life yes but being alive also means experiencing and finding love and joy

[yearling-234]

Affirmations 🙏

[oldpotatoe]

just put down seven words for flwogb ch25. we are so back.

[valoale]

Hard launching my current obsession that just started as an innocent discussion with @sarxzu (dangerous)

So now we have a figure skater Regulus and the stupid twink keeps twirling in my brain and won’t leave me alone (not complaining)

[tinyuselessadult]

Light at the End of the Tunnel- Tap Dance Cover

Finally got the courage to record myself lol. Please be kind, I don't post my face/performance stuff much so any support is greatly appreciated :).

Here's the rough draft lol

[stevieborbolla]

hiiihi ik i've been really dead ova here and stuff but i've been slowly reposting some things on bsky if anyone wants to follow me over there too

[roebeanstalk]

rent/food help request!

rent: 14/675

i need to get some food in the house and also get my landlord at least a partial payment towards may rent. i have about $14 right now, lol. ko-fi / cashapp / venmo

if anyone could help with *anything* i'd appreciate it. thank you!!!