#life in limbo

[readyinfive]

What’s up World This is “Ready In 5”.

What is that you may ask?

Here I’ll share my past and current experiences in the entertainment field.

I’ve been Freelance Modeling & Acting for 4 years and have picked up some cool feats along the way like: Casting Assisting, Film PA’ing and Styling.

But to keep all of my “things” afloat sometimes I sling drinks as a Barista, Delivery Driver and to stay sharp “Live Model” for Classes

(It’s giving mannequin)

Here you’ll take away some Saucy Secrets, Restless Day job Stories and Tips that has kept me afloat not only in the Model world but in life.

Anyone else in a constant state of limbo?

Anyone else on this journey of figuring it tf out, after you thought you did?

(I know every creative screamed after I said that)

I want to hear from you.

I quite literally have an audition to send in now so fingers crossed. Keep hustling.

Cheers X

For now…

[infizero]

my interpretation of grian is like what if there was a 20 year old rave girl stuck in the body of a 36 year old uptight loser

[llemon-soda]

younger shinji

[twojamie-o-clock]

[five-rivers]

Hey, listen. I've been posting donation asks lately, but there's some stuff that I'm just. Not going to post. Like, if you spam my inbox by sending several exact duplicates of an ask within minutes of each other, or if you send something that's just a straight up guilt trip about people not responding to your asks, I'm not showing that to my followers. I am also not going to post anything with pictures from people I don't know, because I don't want to play the 'does this blurred picture contain graphic medical procedures, open, untreated wounds, dead bodies, etc. that I'm going to regret seeing if I click on it' game. This is a fandom blog I do as a hobby, not a donation or activism blog, and if this gets too stressful or annoying for me, I'm going to just stop posting this kind of thing and close my inbox altogether.

[cyanoweasel]

i'm a day late but i wanted to doodle something for half life opposing force. here is my pet rabbit "Sheppy" with her namesake. ^^

[cellworm]

Do you think cwilbur started to forget everyone he knew while he was in limbo? Do you think when he got flashes of ghostburs memories he was unable to tell who he saw? Do you think that at some point the only visual image he was able to remember was cold and gray train station? Do you think he didn't recognize ctommy? How painful it would be not to remember what the people that you love look like and how their voices sound. Do you think that he just forgot. He knew that it would happen at some point–it was his eternety, after all– but still wasn't ready for the memories to slowly fade away.

[lynnbutlertron]

do you guys fuck with the scudlertron badges….. i put them on my tote bag i need everyone to know i am SO annoying

[klistohikaru]

forgot to post it here. the worms in my head

[pharawee]

"Then I will show you how much I missed you."

—THE HIDDEN MOON · เดือนพราง · Episode 08

[chillin-in-limbo]

this tree be giving that good good lol 🌳🌿💨

[cringefail-clown]

how does Beforan Karkat react to Kankri's pretty much idolizing of him?

hes absolutely baffled (he secretly loves the attention) ((sollux wont stop making fun of it))

[rookflower]

you see, i don't hate ivypool, but i also think dovewing should be legally allowed to kill her if she ever wants to at this point because come on

[uncanny-tranny]

I think what might actually help the families of trans loved ones is to actually engage with where the trans person is at - especially if the family isn't quite understanding yet. When I came out, I was completely alone in figuring out my manhood. I had peers and I had exposed myself to so many trans people who explored gender, and while it was amazing, it isn't quite the same at times. I grieve quietly, sometimes, about all the missed opportunities that might have just made it easier for my family to have seen how utterly happy I was. It took them a very long time to actually notice that I was happy, especially once I got on testosterone. I'm lucky that they saw that happiness eventually, and slowly accepted it. My manhood is completely detached from their influence, both to my relief and chagrin. It's sad to me that I learned to shave from a kind online stranger, somebody who didn't even have a father and yet, I do. I have a father. I grieve at the loss of a potential shared experience. I grieve about the pain I went through when I was in that stage of transition, especially because it was raw and vulnerable. I grieve that many trans people today are traversing the path I had to, because it's sometimes lonely (even when you do have other forms of support).

It's hard to know that I will never have gotten my sense of being from my family. In many ways, it has severed a lot of connection with them because there were so many times that I was begging them to see happiness when they were focused on the idea that I was almost in a state of purgatory - flesh which felt warm but held no familiarity to them. I don't harbor ill-will toward them, I hope I don't leave the impression that I despise them. I understand what they felt, even if I can't conceptualize it myself. However, it's a raw wound in my heart, and I don't want to leave anybody else feeling that way, either.

[bemp0]

Ensayos sobre la empatía

[radenka]

Im back fellers >:)

As an offering, i bring to you a drawing of reina 🙏🙏🙏