#life fucking sucks right now

[deadtothebones]

Ville was right there is no end to the hurting

[somepeoplethinkimadyke]

lil life rant. If you know me irl no you don't. tw suicide

i swear to god life happens at the worst fucking time. Firstly nearly getting sent to a crisis centre due to being suicidal which resulted in needing to take a step back from literally everything else going on in my life.

and then a good friend of mine that i'm on the board of a theatre thing goes and resigns because they believe they haven't been respected and then goes and talks shit about another friend and myself to the potential next board. And i have to take over their responsibilities cause I am the only other person that has access to various things. And like yes i respect this friend's decision but also it was completely out of nowhere and i'm like why didn't you talk to us??? what happened to the strong communication that we had

also i'm most likely going to have to do an extra semester/year at uni which is fucking intense and i hate that that has happened. and it means that i'm talking to my parents about it.

But hey at least i'm getting help and managed to skip the waiting list and got an appointment literally 4 days after talking to my gp and hopefully things will get better

anyways rant over

[lazylittledragon]

do any other artists feel like. yeah you're a 'good artist' because you draw things that look nice, but like. TECHNICALLY? you're really not great

i really hate that i can recognise that yes, my art is good, but is it VARIED? is it dynamic?? is my anatomy good? is it full of texture and colour theory? do i know how to do This? can i do That? no, not really. and that's quite painful actually

[lunarharp]

if i just told you i love you would this world change

[perilegs]

my sweet little baby man is no longer with us

[mildmayfoxe]

i’ve talked about this before but i have a friend who only wears masks when she’s with me going into places but will talk about like going to restaurants and stuff in a way that makes it clear she doesn’t wear masks unless she’s with me. and it’s like. are you just humoring me. do you not want me to judge you so you’re pretending. i talk to her about covid stuff not infrequently so like i know she knows how bad it is to get multiple times. do you just not care

[rapidhighway]

stressed

I have to fight family again

[shima-draws]

Been having a rough couple of days. Send me asks?

[mod2amaryllis]

Pepper passed away this morning. last night jose called me over while tending them; she was dehydrated, lethargic, wheezing, I'd played with her normally the day before. she's been slowing down with age, but this was a crash. we gave her water and heat support, i was planning to bring her in to work first thing this morning, but when we woke up she was gone in the same cozy position we left her in. i believe she just faded peacefully.

we're pretty devastated. she was 14, our first animal, we've had her almost half our lives. she was very much jose's baby. it really hit me when i carried her to my clinic and prepped her for cremation; that's a task i do frequently after euthanasia and it's become a kind of ritual, but carrying your own animal is just so different. I'm really sad.

[todayisafridaynight]

sometimes i get nishiki i really do

[rqg179]

i will say though that brennan revealing last episode that kipperlilly has been going to guidance counsellor for anger issues since freshman year has absolutely ruined me for seeing her as actually evil. i cannot believe that a teenage girl with anger issues is irredeemably evil i just can't

[shannonsketches]

like why did they change where Vegeta was when Cell announced the cell games in the anime

why did they make this vegeta starting shit with yamcha instead of chillin in the lab with his family? why did they take Bulma out of the lab? Why'd they say she was Out while Dr Brief was repairing 16? Why did they change Bulma working on advanced robotics to running in late with her baby?

it's the same scene except: - Bulma's actively at work being a scientist - Vegeta's not being rude to her (or anyone else!) - Vegeta waits for Trunks instead of leaving the room - Cell interrupted the airwaves, which means Trunks and Vegeta were just hanging out with Bulma and Dr B while they were working

Those are all Great Character Details!! That the anime rails against!!

[nomairuins]

i like overthink everything now it makes me feel so dumb. i used 2 be able to just talk 2 ppl but nowadays every single thing im like Is that actually going to make them hate me. Yes probably. and then i just dont respond which makes ppl hate me. this is how it is

[termagax]

re: "good girl" i think they say it once randomly as a joke and its just one of those things that gets him wayyy more than they expected it would. so now its their secret weapon and they use it very sparingly and every single time he gets super embarrassed about it but it works ill tell you what.

[griancraft]

I am so fucking scared for this next Canadian election the conservative guy wants to strip protections for queer people in the military and my brother is in the reserves and he's gay (he is very left he's doing it bc it's the only place that's actually hiring) and dating a trans guy. I'm scared for him and I'm so scared for whatever else that right wing fuckhead will ruin.

[amywritesthings]

well. i officially lost my endo meds.

i am just... yeah.