#let's talk about mpreg buckies

[onyxsboxes]

After seeing @avonne-writes' post, I remembered the idea I had for a fic like this some time ago but never finished it (the werewolf!au started at the same time and the rest is history)

Here's a summary of how the fic began:

After the Schweinfurt-Regensburg mission, the Buckies and everyone else are very shaken up, so the brass send them to a country estate to take the pressure off.

The Buckies find a way to be alone and relax together. They spend most of their time in each other's arms, pouring out their love to each other (and not leaving their bedroom much 😏).

Fast forward to the Bremen mission (more or less 4 weeks later we'll say), Bucky goes to London alone (Buck can't leave their boys alone and still doesn't come) and Buck goes down without either of them knowing about the baby.

After arriving at the camp wounded, Buck is quickly thrown into POW camp life. It's only at Benny's insistence that he lets the doctor examine him after not being able to keep his food down too many times.

Buck panics when he learns of the baby's existence, he knows nothing about parenting (let alone what a good parenting looks like), he's a POW in a war and Bucky isn't there. This last point is both a relief and the worst thing of all. Still, he does his best to keep a straight face for everyone, they need their Major and so he's going to look after them.

Pregnancy hormones nearly take over on several occasions, especially as the days go by with no sign of Bucky, but he keeps a strong, stoic face for everyone.

When Bucky arrives at camp, wounded and beaten, it's Buck who takes care of him. He makes sure he's okay, stays with him all the time, makes sure Bucky has everything he needs to heal (even forgetting to rest). All the while, Bucky is plunged into fever dreams, crying for Buck or moaning in pain. It takes a while for Bucky to become coherent enough to understand what's going on around him, but Buck's presence always soothes him, even in his sickly state.

It takes Bucky a week to recover enough to be aware of the world around him, for him to feel Buck's presence near him, not only as the protective, caring presence of his dreams, but also to see behind the mask he wears. The one he put on to keep a straight face in front of everyone, when he was scared, lonely and desperate. All it takes is one look for Bucky to look past and Buck to start cracking, so much going on at once and so much fear, for Bucky, for their men, for their baby who isn't yet alive and is already doomed to suffer.

Here the first time Bucky's conscious and okayish in the camp.

Pausing in his words, Bucky turns his head to look at Buck, and what he discovers breaks his heart. He finds Buck's face completely devoid of emotion, his pupils almost entirely black, his gaze unfocused and unblinking. But worst of all are his tears, the river of tears falling down his face, he doesn't make a sound, just stares at the distance. John watches him shrinking on himself more and more, his breathing quickening and stopping irregularly, soundless. A quick glance shared with Benny gets his message across, and their understanding of the situation causes DeMarco to quickly lead the other occupants of the room towards the exit, away from the panicking Buck. After making sure they're alone, Bucky turns back to Buck. He finds him still completely motionless in his seat. Although they were only inches apart, they had never seemed so far apart. John had never seen Buck like this, never so absent, looking like a broken doll. He learned during their relationship that when Buck is sad or stressed, he becomes silent and motionless. He doesn't cry, he doesn't sniffle, he becomes a marble statue, motionless and indecipherable. Immobile and unreadable. The first time it freaked him out, now, even with more experience, he's still as heartbroken as the first time, if not more so. Because now he knows why Gale reacts the way he does, or rather, why he doesn't. He knows that he's silent to avoid being heard, that he stays still to not show weakness, that he's not present because staying in his head is better than feeling the arsh outside world. When this kind of episode happens, John has only one thing on his mind: find the people who did this to Buck and kill them, kill them so Gale can sleep at night without being afraid of them, kill them because he knows it's their fault that Gale reacts the way he does when things get too much to bear. Bucky gambles, drinks and fights when it's too much, while Buck shuts down completely. He's grateful, in a sick way, that he knows how to deal with it. He just hopes Buck hasn't gone too far and is still reachable. Physical contact is both the best way to get the young Major to come back to him and the worst possible way. In this state, Buck isn't aware of anything. If Bucky touches him without warning, he'll fall like a puppet with broken strings, and it will be very difficult to bring him back to the present. Bucky needs to have his attention and quickly, even on an unconscious level. Mindful of his healing wounds, he carefully climbs out of the bunk. As he places his feet on the cold floor, a chill runs up his bones and rattle his teeth uncomfortably. “Buck, hey buddy, I need you back here, baby," he says softly as he reaches for Gale's uniform sleeve, tugging gently on it. “I need you to get out of your pretty head, Buck. Do you think you can do that for me, honey?" Hearing the soft sigh, he continues. “Yes, just like that, breathe for me, darling, softly and gentle. You're doing a great job, sunshine.” Okay, well, Buck seems a little more present, that's good, that's really good. Second step, skin contact to anchor him further. “I'm going to touch your hand, doll, it's okay, it's just me,” he says, moving his hand from his sleeve to Buck's icy hand. “There you go, just like that, you're doing great Buck, you're doing great,” the small whisper he receives in response saddens him even more. Mindful of his injured leg, John rises from his place in the dingy bed to stand beside Gale. Smoothing his thumbs over the back of the younger man's hand, he gently pulls him upright. Taking Gale in his arms, John feels him relax against him, having anticipated the action, the taller had plant his feet on the floor to support their combined weight, light, too light. ....

After Bucky coaxes Buck out of his panic attack, they soak in each other presence while clinging as much as they can, convincing each other that the other is alive and well.

I have more about this if you're interest 😊

[sweaterkittensahoy]

prompt: someone needs to make an honest man out of bucky and get him pregnant. up to you who it is.

[I don't usually write mpreg, but this idea hit like a brick]

Bucky wakes from an unintended nap when something scrapes across the living room floor. He grunts and tries to sit up.

"Don't look!" Jack says, almost directly behind Bucky.

Bucky twists his head to try and see anyway, but all he can get in his line of sight is Jack's left leg. He's wearing his oldest slacks, and there's saw dust in the cuff. He's been working on whatever he's up to in the back shed again, Bucky realizes. Jack had asked him not to come back there until he was done with something special. A surprise for Bucky. It'd been easier than usual to agree and actually keep his promise. He's seven months pregnant and he's so wiped by the end of the day, he's lucky he has the energy to fall into bed at night.

"What is it?" Bucky asks.

"You'll see. I promise," Jack replies. He darts over and kisses Bucky on the top of the head, then holds out his hand. "Close your eyes for a second, will you?"

Bucky closes his eyes, then sighs in relief when Jack helps him sit up. He slumps against the couch, both hands going to his belly. "I swear this kid gains a pound every time I take a nap."

"We'll have the first full-grown infant in the hospital nursery," Jack says. He kisses Bucky, then slides his hands over Bucky's on his stomach. He rubs his thumbs down low by Bucky's pelvis where Bucky swears it hasn't stopped aching since the kid first started showing.

"Ugh, thank you," Bucky groans. He tries to open his eyes, but Jack kisses each of his lids. "How long do I keep my eyes closed?"

"Just another minute," Jack says. "I just want to set it up right."

"Set it up?" Bucky replies. "Did you finally cave and get that stereo you've been eying so hard?"

"I wouldn't do that without checking with you, first," Jack says. "You know that."

Bucky does, but it's nice to hear. He's always liked the tiny bits of domestic life no one ever thinks to talk about. Like agreeing to big purchases as a team. Since his pregnancy started, they've become an odd little emotional touchstone, a reminder from Jack that he's valued and loved. "Suppose we do already have a record player," he says. "But what if the sound's better?"

"We'll go in and see if they'll let us try it," Jack says, and his voice is a little far away and echoing slightly. Bucky knows without opening his eyes that he's in the nursery.

He listens to Jack walk back towards him and only opens his eyes when Jack's hand touches his arm. "Got your surprise all ready?"

"Sure, do," Jack replies. He holds out his hands and hauls Bucky to his feet, dragging a palm over Bucky's bump as he turns him towards the nursery. "Easy," he says as Bucky takes a step, then sways.

"Fucking center of gravity," Bucky mutters. Jack chuckles and busses a kiss on his cheek, then leads him down the hall to the nursery.

Inside, there's the crib and the changing table they'd picked out last month. The walls are mint green, and there's a stuffed unicorn on the dresser--an early gift from Buck--next to a pair of yellow baby booties and a full layette, ready for when the baby comes home from the hospital.

And in the corner by the window that looks over their backyard, there's a rocker that wasn't there before. Modern-style with a cushioned back and seat done up in blue fabric stamped with little white frogs. The same fabric as the sheets in the crib, and the two back up sets in the closet, and a little quilt tucked away until the baby's first winter.

"Jack--" Bucky swallows hard. "How--"

"You pointed it out in the Sears Catalog," Jack says. "I know that one had striped cushions, but I thought you'd like that it matched."

"Jack," Bucky whispers, and he feels tears fall, so he wipes his face, and Jack hugs him carefully around his middle and kisses his temple. "It's wonderful," Bucky says. He walks over to the rocker and pushes it with one finger. It sways forward and back in a smooth rhythm. Up close, Bucky realizes it's made of teak, polished to a high shine. He runs his palm over an armrest, astounded at how smooth it feels.

"Will you sit in it?" Jack asks, sounding bashful. "I've been wanting to see that."

Bucky meets his gaze and feels floored. He tells Jack he loves him every day, several times a day, but Jack's not as effusive. Never has been. But this. A rocking chair. For their baby. Made with his own two hands. Because Bucky pointed it out in a catalog. "How do you even know how to do this?" he asks.

"Dad taught me," Jack replies. "It's not much harder than a table or a nightstand."

Bucky scoffs. Jack built their coffee table and nightstands and they're beautiful too, but not like this. Not lovingly recreated from a photo. "You're too much," he says, then lowers himself into the chair. He sighs in pleasure as he settles into the cushions. They're thick, and angle on the back of the rocker takes some of the weight off his belly. "Oh, I might live here until this kid shows up," he says.

Jack hums a happy sound and walks over. He crouches next to the chair, taking Bucky's hand and lifting it so he can kiss his knuckles. "I'll make a pallet right here on the floor if you want," he says. "Get you anything you want."

Bucky smiles at Jack and pulls both their hands over his belly. "I'm doing all right with what I've got," he says. "Best I've ever done, really."

Jack spreads his fingers wide on Bucky's belly and looks at him with that sweet, shy smile he has. "Yeah, me, too," he agrees, and Bucky smiles right back at him, as bright and open as ever. He can't wait to find out which smile this kid in him is gonna end up with.

[hils79]

20 questions writer meme

I was tagged by @thesilversun and @kholran

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

262

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

1,385,657

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Right now just DMBJ, although I've also written for The King's Avatar this year and I'm toying with writing for Mysterious Lotus Casebook

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Unleashed (800)

Visible to All But Me (636)

The Truth About Cats, Dogs and Penguins (613)

In which Steve Rogers and Bucky Barnes are surprisingly capable parents (530)

Not The Russian Way (514)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I do my very best to, because I come from LJ where that was just the polite thing to do. I do occasionally miss stuff but I do my very best to reply to everything

6. What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I don't really do angst. Even my major character death fic had a happy ending with a reunion in the afterlife

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Pretty much all of them?

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Not directly. I don't think I've had anyone reply to a fic of mine with hate. People used to bitch about me and my writing on Livejournal back in the day (ah the Supernatural anon meme my most loathed), and someone in the Smallville fandom once accused me of plagiarism because I posted a fic with a vaguely similar theme to theirs (and everyone shut her down for being an idiot).

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I have done, but I don't think I'm very good at it so I tend not to bother anymore. Fade to black works just as well for my style of writing

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

Oh, please let me talk to you about the crossover I co-wrote with a friend which was Lex Luthor from Smallville paired with a character named Rodney (also played by Michael Rosenbaum) from a short web series he did called Shear Love. Obviously I can't stop you from seeking it out but I will warn you it has dubcon and mpreg. It's the weirdest thing I have ever written and the fact that it's not my least kudosed fic still baffles me

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

There's an orphaned copy of one of my Supernatural RPF fics on AO3 so I guess whoever stole it abandoned it?

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes! Someone translated one of my MCU fics into Chinese While Phil Was Sleeping

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yep in a bunch of different fandoms. I'm pretty sure me and @bambiesque wrote Buffy fic together, and I've co-written in Smallville, Supernatural and DMBJ

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

Don't make me choose one of my children. They are all special to me.

15. What's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

My Untamed Hotel AU. Occasionally I think 'maybe' but that ship has sailed now I think

16. What are your writing strengths?

Dialogue, I think. If I could get away with just writing a script without having to describe scenery and what people are feeling I probably would

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Describing stuff

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I don't think I'd use full sentences but I do use Chinese words if it's a nickname or a title

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Still my most prolific fandom over 20 years later. DMBJ is creeping up there but is still way off catching up

20. Favorite fic you've written?

Probably Juxtaposition just for the sheer length and amount of time I spent working on it. I'm very proud of that one.

Tagging anyone who wants to play

[sleeplessmidnight26]

so if youd kindly so if you don’t mind it doesn’t have to be long 500 words is fine you know your fic before he cheats right well i kinds want a small branch of that fic and uh it doesn’t have be long again and you can post it on here but here are two prompts from it

steve gets pregnant bc of bucky

or

tony finds out what happened to steve when he turns around tells clint to stay out of by seeing the blood on his pants or something

again it can be 500 words or shorter

I ended my what if story of this one, but here goes nothing. I haven't written this story in a while so it took me a bit to think about this one. I also wasn't writing mpreg back then so that's why there was no mpreg in this story.

These are just short snippets. 500 words or less. But hopefully you like it. Whoever requested this.

Trigger warning for anyone that hasn’t read Before He Cheats there’s mention/implied rape/non-con in this.

Prompt 1: Steve gets pregnant (Setting this between Chapter 12 and 13)

Steve let out a sigh and laid back down on the bed. He's been throwing up all night and he's tired of getting up. He curls up in the blankets and the door opens. 

"Are you still feeling sick?" Sam asks. 

"Yeah." Steve mumbled. "I hate this." 

“Well I think I know what it might be.” Sam sighs. Steve felt terrible but he looked up at him. That’s when he sees the bag from the pharmacy.

“No.” Steve shook his head. “No it’s not poss-”

“Yes it is.” Sam knelt down beside Steve. “You know it’s possible. You said he didn’t wear a condom.” 

“He didn’t finish in-” Steve stopped himself and he couldn’t say it. 

“That still leaves a possibility.” Sam says quietly. Steve slowly looks at him. “You know it’s a possibility. Just take the test.” 

“What if I am?” Steve mutters. 

“We’ll figure it out. Everything is your choice, okay? You’re in control here.” Sam reassured him. 

Steve didn’t want to do this, but deep down he knows that Sam is right. So he takes a breath and takes the bag. He knows that he has to take the test to know for sure. It feels like an eternity passes before he finishes and has to wait for the test. He knows that the possibility of Bucky being the father if he is, and the thought of it makes him sick. 

“It’s time.” Sam cuts through the silence. 

“I can’t.” Steve shakes his head. 

“Do you want me-” Sam gestures to the test. Steve looks at the test for a minute before he nods. Sam picks up the test and Steve puts his head down. “You are.” 

Steve hears those two words and his world stops. He feels sick to his stomach all over again. The tears burn his eyes. He leans back on the wall and slides down. Sam rushes to his side muttering something about being there for him. The sobs don’t even seem real, like they’re not even from him. He can’t believe that he’s pregnant and there’s a huge possibility that Bucky is the father. 

He sobs until there’s nothing left. He’s completely exhausted himself. He has no idea what to do about the pregnancy, all he really wants to do is to be with Tony. But all he has is Sam and after everything, Sam won’t leave him alone. So they talk and talk. Steve’s never discussed something so much before. But he knew he couldn’t come to a decision lightly. After a long discussion with Sam he knows that he needs to tell Tony. He’s not particularly happy about it, but he doesn’t want to do this without him. So he calls Tony and begs him to come over so they can talk. He has to come clean about everything. 

Prompt 2: Tony finds out

"Hey!" He heard Clint yell. 

"I don't think he wants to talk. Get out Rogers." Clint kept his voice raised. 

"Stay out of this Clint." Steve yelled back.

Tony can hear the commotion outside. He can’t just hide away like this. So he wipes his tears and forces himself up. He opens the door to see Bucky standing by Steve. Steve’s turned around to look at Clint.

He doesn’t think anything of it when he’s about to close the door. When he sees it, his heart sinks. He has an idea of what happened when he notices the blood stain on Steve’s pants. The worse possible thing that could happen.

“Steve what happened?” Tony asks.

“Tony, just get back-” Clint tries to wave him off.

“No! No, wait!” Tony interrupts. Steve puts his head down and looks away. Tony turns him to get a better look. It is blood and the stain is still growing. He turns Steve around. “Steve look at me.”

He knows that if he can see Steve that he will know what happened. He knows Steve and he’ll know in his heart. He takes Steve’s face in his hands and he makes him look, but Steve averts his eyes.

“Steve. Look. At. Me.” Tony demands. Steve squeezes his eyes shut and takes a breath. He slowly opens his eyes and Tony knows. He can see the confirmation in his eyes. He needs to get Bucky out. “Clint, get him out. Now.”

“Why-”

“Just get him out!” Tony yells. He puts an arm around Steve and walks him back to the room. “Jarvis, call Romanoff cut her mission short. New mission detain Barnes.”

He brings Steve to the bed and helps him to sit down. He can feel Steve trembling under his hold. He kneels down in front of Steve.

“Steve, baby, you need to tell me what happened and you need to tell me now.”

“N-no. I ca-”

“Yes, you can. I’ll believe you. Just tell me.” Tony softly interrupts. It takes some coercing but Steve eventually starts to talk. Telling Tony everything that had happened.

[graceful-starker]

Steve...What The Fuck?

Chapter 4 - Peter Parker Finds Love

Summary: After Bucky takes Peter to the hospital, things slowly start to get better.

Warnings: omegaverse, omegaverse type sexism/homophobia, abuse, past violence/rape/abuse, suicidal thoughts, wanted mpreg, angst with a happy ending.

Notes: This is...so long overdue. I started this two years ago, and I haven’t updated in a year. But during polling, it was unanimously voted to continue because people liked the story! So here we go!

~~~

Peter wakes up from surgery in a lot of pain; but for once, it quickly goes away. He opens his eyes and sees a nurse smiling down at him, a hand moving from the button on his IV. “Heya baby, you were whimpering so I went ahead and gave you a dose of morphine. How do you feel?”

Peter whimpers again, looking around the room. “Alpha?” he croaks. 

“The alpha that brought you in is talking with your doctor right now sugar, don’t worry. We can fill you in on everything later. Right now, we’re all concerned with how you feel.” The nurse pulls a chair up and sits next to him, petting Peter’s hair.

Her beta scent is welcoming, calming even. She feels like someone who would take good care of him, in another life. “Hurts,” Peter answers. His throat is killing him, and the nurse helpfully grabs a water cup with a straw. He takes a gulp, but whimpers in pain and pushes it away. “What’s wrong with me?”

The nurse hums softly, putting the water back down and going back to combing his hair with her fingers. “The doctor will explain it when he comes in, sweetie. I’ll be here the whole time though, and so will the alpha who brought you in.”

Peter nods, sniffling. “Bucky,” he says. “Does he have to be there?”

The nurse hesitates, but nods her head. “He saved you, baby, do you remember?”

Peter whimpers and shies away from her. “He’s the reason alpha tried to kill me,” he smells her distress, and it makes him whimper again. 

“We can tell the police about that later,” she promises. “I’m not leaving your side, okay? I’ll stay between you and them the whole time.”

Peter looks into her beautiful face, her kind smile and warm brown eyes. “You’ll keep me safe?” he whispers, whimpering and letting out a sob.

She nods, taking his good hand and squeezing softly. “I promise, baby. If I’m not in here, I’ll get my friend to stay in here instead. She’s also a beta, and she’s very good at protecting people.” 

Peter nods and takes a deep breath. “Okay. What’s your name?”

“My name is May, sweetheart.” She kisses his forehead, and then looks up when the door opens. 

Peter notices that a lot of alphas come in all at once, and he starts to panic. May can smell it first, and tries to soothe him with coos and pets. 

Bucky smells it next, and turns around. “I think one at a time will be better,” he says, his own voice thick with emotion. “Do you guys not have any betas on your team instead?”

One alpha in uniform raises his arms in defense. “We can come back. No betas, sorry.” Most of them leave, but Bucky and an alpha in a white coat comes over.

“Hi Peter,” the new alpha starts. “My name is Dr. Strange, I’m the lead surgeon on your case. Dr. Banner is busy, but he’ll be here soon. He’s a beta, and he’ll be taking care of you post-op.”

That’s a lot of words Peter doesn’t really understand, but he nods anyway. 

“Good. I’ll discuss all of your injuries and what happened in surgery. Are you ready?” Peter nods, and so he looks at his notes. “You had a broken femur and internal bleeding in your thigh, both of which we fixed. You had internal bleeding due to being kicked and punched in your abdomen, but we managed to salvage your organs and stop the bleeding. You had three broken ribs and a dislocated shoulder, which do not need surgery, only time. Your throat was very bruised from strangulation, but no broken bones there. We fixed your nose, but other than that, there wasn’t much left to do. You’ll require a lot of PT and time to heal, but you should be stable from here on out. Any questions?”

Peter feels like he’s going to explode, he’s so confused and sad. “I’m going to live?” he asks sadly. 

Bucky makes a wounded noise and he smells of guilt, but the doctor ignores him. “Yes, Peter. But you won’t have to go back to...your alpha. I have a friend who’s coming in later, he’s going to be helping you. If you have no more questions, I have two more things to discuss with you.”

Peter sniffles, grabbing May’s and looking up at Bucky. “Okay. What are they?”

Dr. Strange looks down at his clipboard, smelling uncomfortable. “Given that your alpha...um, won’t be around much anymore, you’re legally allowed to request your mating mark be removed. If that is something you are interested in, we can perform the surgery as soon as you would like; after going over the risks, of course. Then, we have a small procedure we can perform to ensure that...um...”

May pets his hair, smiling down at him. “We can make sure you don’t get pregnant, sweetheart.”

Peter winces at that, nodding immediately. “Yes, please. To both. I don’t care what the consequences are, get rid of him from me.”

Dr. Strange nods, already stepping back. “Alright. I’ll be back with forms and to explain the risks. Until then, I’ll give you a moment.” He leaves quickly, and the smell of awkwardness leaves with him. 

Bucky clears his throat, smiling sadly at Peter. “Are you okay? Need a break?”

Peter looks to May, who only smiles encouragingly. He looks to Bucky again, wincing as he sniffles. “Why are you here?”

Bucky looks down at his shoes, swallowing thickly. He smells sad and guilty. “Mostly a guilt complex, honestly. I didn’t see you were...I didn’t want to see you were getting hurt. I owe it to you to make sure you don’t ever get hurt again.”

Peter nods slowly. He believes that Bucky won’t let him get hurt again. “And...and Alpha?”

Bucky works his jaw in anger, but he takes a deep breath to give off a comforting scent instead. “He’s arrested for now, no one is there to pay bail so he’ll be there until his trial. I’ll be a witness, I’m sure, and I’ll make sure he never see freedom again.”

Peter winces, the thought of his poor alpha sitting alone in a dark cell making him sad. But then he pictures his alpha angry and cursing, blaming Peter for being there, and he’s glad he’ll never has to live with the alpha again. “Thank you,” he says brokenly. 

~

Giving the police reports sucked, but not as much as the two procedures. He had to be awake for both, and if May hadn’t been holding his hand, he might have cried himself to black out.

But he’s out now, feeling better and freer. The thought of abandoning Steve doesn’t hurt as much with the mark gone.

He got some good sleep, and then met Dr. Banner. He’s a beta, and Peter thinks he likes the man a lot more than Dr. Strange. He’s still awkward and stuff, but he’s warmer and nicer to Peter. 

Bucky is always either in the hallway right outside his room, or he's in the room, watching over Peter and keeping him safe. May never leaves him alone either, and they both work together with Dr. Banner to make him feel better, slowly.

It’s another week before he meets him. 

He wakes up slowly, smelling a new person there before he opened his eyes. He sees a dark haired man speaking with Bucky in hushed tones, and May is listening, pretending to read Peter’s vitals. 

Peter sits up, which is difficult giving his injuries. The new man turns, a bright smile on his face and a calm scent relaxing Peter. “You’re awake,” the voice is soft, and so familiar... “Hey kid, how are you feeling?”

And when he calls Peter kid, it hits Peter like a truck. He tears up, and he knows he smells a strange mix of excitement and confusion. “you-”

“Hey, it’s okay,” the familiar voice says, walking closer. “It’s okay. I know it’s hard, I know it hurts. You’ll be okay.”

Peter starts to cry in earnest. “You. I heard you!” Peter says, whimpering in pain. May tries to calm him down, but Peter keeps going, and reaches for the man. “I heard you when I was dying,” he says. The man looks shocked, but he steps closer and takes Peter's outstretched hand. “I heard you.”

The man takes the seat May vacated, the beta obviously shocked at Peter’s display. “You heard me?” he asks.

Peter nods, whimpering and refusing to let go of Tony. “You said you would be waiting for me. You told me to hold on a little longer, to not die so help could get to me.”

The man is obviously a little off kilter, but he rolls with it. “Well, that’s something, isn’t it?” he asks rhetorically. “My name is Tony, I volunteer with the Omega shelters in New York. I work with omegas who have escaped situations similar to yours. I volunteered to help you through this rough time, is that okay?”

Peter nods vigorously, still crying. “You’re my angel,” he croaks. “You kept me alive.”

Tony smiles, leaning in and kissing Peter's hair softly. “And I always will now, kid. I’ll watch over you. I’ll keep you safe. You’re safe now, Petey. You’re safe with me.”

Peter’s eyes flutter closed at the words, hearing them so vividly just a week ago in his closet. It feels just as real now as it did then. He whimpers and keeps his eyes closed, refusing to let go of Tony.

“Does this usually happen?” he hears Bucky whisper.

Tony laughs breathily. “No. I’ve never had anyone say they know me before I’ve met them. They usually don’t trust me right away. Most of them never even let me touch them, just accept the money and the help and stay away from me. This is...new.”

Peter pulls Tony closer by the arm, and the alpha scoots the chair closer, petting the omega’s hair and cooing softly. “I’ll be right here when you wake up,” he promises. 

And that’s enough.

~

It took Peter almost a year of physical therapy, and months of mental therapy, but he feels like a new omega. His divorce was finalized a while ago, and the trial started a week ago against Steve. Today, he has to take the stand.

Tony walks up behind Peter, smiling at him through the mirror. “You look beautiful,” the alpha says softly. 

Peter leans back into the alpha’s chest, relaxing instantly. “Thank you.”

Tony hums, letting the silence sit for a moment while he hugs the omega from behind. “Do you still want to do this?” the alpha whispers. “They have enough to put him behind bars for life already.”

Peter smiles sadly, looking into the alpha’s eyes in the mirror. “With you, I can do anything.”

It was harder than he thought it would be, taking the stand. He froze at first, when he saw Steve. Steve was sitting in between his lawyers, giving Peter such an intense death stare that the omega fights the urge to bear his neck submissively. 

But then Tony pretends to cough in his elbow, and Peter’s eyes snap to him instead. Tony smiles warmly at Peter, nodding in encouragement. 

He answers all the questions with great difficulty, having to fight for every word to escape his throat. He describes how his alpha abused him from day one. How he was raped, how he was forced to do all the chores in an impossible time frame, how Steve would come up with creative ways to punish the omega. How he had many injuries, from burned hands to broken bones to bruises everywhere. 

His lawyer, Matt, nods along and lets him talk without interrupting. Once the flow of words stop, Matt finally asks soft questions. “And the last time he hurt you, what did he do?”

Peter takes deep breaths, the smell of panicked omega sticking up the court room. “He hit me a lot. Punched and kicked me. I tried to crawl away, and he broke my ribs. He stepped on my leg and broke it. He strangled me.” Peter stops, takes a deep breath. He looks into Tony’s eyes, who is nothing but the picture of supportive alpha. “Then he...he turned me over, because I couldn’t fight anymore. He...”

Matt nods encouragingly. “It’s okay Mr. Parker, you can say it.”

“He...” Peter swallows, unable to look Tony in the eye when he says this part. “He raped me. That was it, he was done after that.”

Matt nods, tilting his head in the direction on the judge. “And Mr. Parker, do you know what caused this night to be so much worse than the others?”

Peter nods, taking a moment to calm himself down. “It was our anniversary. He...he had been cheating on me for a long time.” The jury already knew this from Becky’s witness testimony, so he doesn’t elaborate. “And I snapped. He forgot our anniversary, and was with...him. And I just...I couldn’t take it anymore. I begged him to set me free, to divorce me, so I wouldn’t have to live there anymore. And Bucky was--Mr. Barnes was upset, because he also thought Steve was going to divorce me. He left Steve, and that’s what triggered it.”

Matt nods again. “No further questions, your honor,” he says, finding his way back to his seat. 

The cross examination was easier than he thought it would be. They already knew they had lost, so the attempts to discredit Peter were weak and unenthusiastic. 

Peter was allowed off the stand, and Tony was there immediately, helping the omega down and comforting him.  

~

Peter smiles as he wakes up, smelling coffee and eggs. It’s his 21st birthday, and he hasn’t felt this free on his birthday since he was 16. But with Steve behind bars for life, it’s easy to feel free. 

It’s been a very long journey, one that Tony has been there for the entire way. Just like he promised. 

He gets out of bed, waddling his way into the kitchen with one hand on his tummy. “Alpha,” he greets, sniffing the air. “That smells great.”

Tony looks over his shoulder, shooting Peter a giant grin. “Morning angel. Happy birthday!” He slides a plate of eggs and a mug of coffee to his omega. 

Peter smiles back, blushing a bit. It always makes him feel so happy, when he doesn’t have to cook. Even though Tony has never set the expectation he has to cook, he mostly does because he likes it and is good at it. “Baby is excited for your eggs too,” he says softly.

Tony beams and leans down, kissing Peter’s bump softly. “Good morning baby,” he greets, then kisses Peter just as softly on the lips. “She knows her daddy is near.”

Peter nods, taking a bite and nomming happily. “Little May is gonna be a daddy’s girl for sure, I already know it.”

Tony sighs happily, pulling his own coffee and plate closer as he sits next to Peter. “Big May is coming over around 3:00 to drop off your present. She can’t stay long though, she has a night shift.”

Peter nods, taking another bite. “Is Bucky coming?”

Tony nods this time, taking a sip of coffee. “Yep, he’s bringing you lunch. Then after May leaves, it’s you, me, and baby for the rest of the day.”

Peter sighs dreamily, taking a sip of his own coffee. “A whole evening with just us,” he giggles happily. “Whatever will we do with the time?”

Tony grins slyly at Peter, winking over the rim of his mug before setting it down again. “I bet I can think of a few things.”

Peter beams, taking one last bite and climbing into his alpha’s lap. “I love you, Tony. Thank you.”

Tony holds him close, kissing his hair softly and smiling back. “I love you too, kid. Go ahead and eat my eggs too, I know that’s really why you’re here.”

Peter squeals and takes a bite, laughing through a mouthful. He’s so much better off now, and it’s hard to believe he ever wanted to die. Not when he’s this happy now. 

[buckybeardreams]

Unwanted

Chapters: 11/11

Fandom: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies)

Rating: Mature

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Relationships: Steve Rogers/Tony Stark

Characters: Tony Stark, Steve Rogers, Sam Wilson (Marvel), Brock Rumlow, James "Bucky" Barnes, Clint Barton, Harley Keener

Additional Tags: Non-Traditional Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Alpha/Omega, Alpha Steve Rogers, Omega Tony Stark, Service Top, Dominant Bottom, Post-Serum Steve Rogers, Virgin Steve Rogers, Brock Rumlow is a Good Bro, Sam Wilson Is a Good Bro, Romantic Soulmates, First Meetings, Angst with a Happy Ending, Sappy, Romantic Fluff, Awkwardness, Drinking to Cope, Self-Worth Issues, Insecure Tony Stark, Insecure Steve Rogers, Age Difference, Harley Keener is Tony Stark's Biological Child, Bonding, Claiming Bites, Claiming, Mating Cycles/In Heat, Mpreg, Non-Explicit Sex, Light Dom/sub, Mutual Masturbation, Coming Untouched, Anal Fingering, Anal Sex, Wordcount: 10.000-30.000, Knotting

Series: Part 1 of Second Chances

Summary:

Steve is a soft Alpha and Tony is an in charge kind of Omega with no desire to find a mate. He doesn't want to find his soulmate and when he does meet Steve he's determined to stay away from him. 

That is until he realizes just how right they are for each other.

Ch 1 Ch 2 Ch 3 Ch 4 Ch 5 Ch 6 Ch 7 Ch 8 Ch 9 Ch 10 Ch 11

Part 2 is now out and the first chapter can be read on tumblr or ao3.

Words: 1,406

"I can't believe we were both right." Tony shook his head. 

The baby was a boy with a light dusting of blond hair on his head and startling blue eyes that stared up at them all sparkling and full of wonder as he took in all of the new sights around him. 

"He's beautiful," Steve murmured. 

Tony hummed in agreement, pulling the baby closer to sniff his head and take in that baby scent that seems to cling to all young pups. They were still just staring at their baby in awe when he started to cry and Tony's nipples started to leak, wet spots forming on his shirt. 

"I think I'm gonna have to walk around shirtless for the next few years," Tony said with a sigh. 

Steve glanced at him in surprise as Tony passed the baby off to Steve and stripped off his shirt. 

"I have no complaints there, but you do realize he's only gonna stay a baby for like one maybe two years max." 

Tony gave him a look. 

"Don't question my parenting methods, Alpha. You're not the one who carried this thing in them for nine months and you didn't have to deal with him jumping on your bladder either. So I get to make all the decisions when it comes to how we're gonna raise him." 

"Yeah, but I'm gonna be the one staying home with him." 

"I know and I'm very grateful, but if you have any questions you can just call me." 

Steve nodded, because there was nothing else to say about it. If Tony said this was the way it was going to be, then this was the way it was going to be. 

"I'm gonna get hard if you keep bossing me around." 

"Good, we can get started on trying for the next one," Tony teased, taking the crying baby back and coaxing him to latch onto his nipple. 

Steve's eyes widened and he looked scared at the thought. 

"Another one? Already?" Steve squeaked. 

Tony just giggled. 

"I'm just kidding, Alpha. We'll wait until I stop breastfeeding this little guy and then we can try for another one. Until then, I'm going on the pill." 

Steve nodded. 

"Cool. That's, um, cool," Steve said awkwardly. "It's not like I'm against having another one. It's just- I'm still not sure what we're gonna do with this one." 

Tony smiled softly and kissed his cheek, still cradling Harley to his chest while he suckled at his nipple. 

"You're gonna be a great daddy, Steve," Tony promised.

Steve grinned at him and leaned down to kiss him. 

"And don't worry about not knowing what you're doing. I'm an Omega so I have the instincts for these kinds of things." 

"Yeah, but I'm not an Omega." 

"I know that, but you didn't know what you were doing when we first started fucking, but I taught you how to please me and I'll teach you how to do this too." 

Steve blushed bright red. 

"You said I did good!" Steve squeaked. 

"You did. You were eager to please and what you lacked in skill you made up for by being cute." 

"What I lacked?" Steve said, his ego clearly bruised. 

Tony rolled his eyes. 

"Yes, Steve. You were a virgin and the way we play goes against most all of your instincts, so it took some time for you to learn. There's nothing wrong with that. I'm a very experienced teacher and you learned quickly how to get me off, so no harm done." 

"Tony!" Steve squeaked. 

"What? Don't worry about it. You're much better now." 

Steve just scoffed and shook his head. 

"Yeah, whatever," Steve grumbled. "I'm gonna go start dinner." 

Tony sighed as he walked away, but his attention quickly turned to Harley. 

"As soon as you can hold your head up, I'm gonna let your daddy take you for a ride on the bike that you were named after," Tony cooed at him. 

The baby didn't respond of course, still happily suckling at Tony's flat chest, but he did look up at his mom like he was aware of what Tony was talking about. Tony smiled softly at him and brushed a finger over his cheek. 

"You're gonna be the most spoiled, loved, happiest baby in the world Harley. I promise," Tony murmured.

*****

Steve was still pouting when they went to bed that night, Harley curled up in between them. Tony really didn't think he would be so hurt by the comment, since in many ways Steve didn't seem like an Alpha. Sure, he was protective and he had a knot, but for the most part he acted more like an Omega, at least when it was just the two of them. 

Tony wasn't stupid though. He knew he had upset him and he sighed when Steve kept peering at him through his lashes, a pout on his lips, looking away anytime Tony looked his way. 

"Steve," Tony groaned, scooping Harley up and gently laying him back down so he was now sleeping by the wall instead of in between them. 

They had pushed the bed up against the wall, because Tony had read that was the safest way to co-sleep. 

"Alpha. My pretty, pretty, Alpha. I love you so much, you know that right?" 

Steve didn't respond, he just bit his lip and fidgeted with the sheets. Tony groaned again and pushed him flat on his back, climbing on top of him. 

"Steve, look at me," Tony ordered, knowing that Steve wouldn't disobey him. 

He smirked when Steve's eyes snapped up to meet his instinctually. 

"There you go, pretty Alpha. Such a good boy you are, Alpha," Tony purred. "I'm sorry that I upset you, but you don't get to just pout about it. If there's something wrong you have to tell me. You don't get to keep things from me, Alpha, because you're mine. You understand?" 

Steve bit his lip, his eyes darting away from Tony's, but returning when Tony growled softly in that way that wasn't quite a growl but still managed to come off as a warning. 

"Yes, sir. I understand." 

"Good. You're so good for me, Alpha. I didn't mean to upset you and I shouldn't have teased you like that. It was mean. Can you forgive me?" 

Steve whimpered, pouting. 

"I'm still an Alpha, you know. I know that I'm not like other Alphas, but I still have pride, Tony." 

"Aw, I know you do and I like that you're not like other Alphas. I won't do it again, okay?" 

Steve chewed on his lip for a moment, considering something.

"Um, Tony?" 

"Hm?" 

"Do you think you could maybe do it again, but maybe while we're, you know, mating?" 

Tony raised his brow at him. 

"Really? You want me to humiliate you, Alpha?" 

Steve licked his lips nervously, nodding. His cheeks were bright red, but Tony could feel his dick hardening. 

"Maybe just a little?" 

Tony chuckled and kissed him. 

"Yeah, I could do that, but not now. Sam and Brock are watching Harley this Friday and I'll take you apart then, okay, baby?" 

Steve whined, his hips rocking up. 

"Please, sir." 

"Shh, not now," Tony murmured. "Don't wake the baby or I'll be punishing you on Friday." 

Steve whined again, but he wrapped his arms around Tony when he slipped off of him and pressed back until his ass was snug against the erection in Steve's sweats. Steve squirmed and Tony smirked, shifting slightly just to hear him whine again, the sound muffled as he ducked to hide his head in Tony's neck. 

"I love you, Alpha," Tony teased, his voice sugary sweet.

"I hate you," Steve mumbled into his neck and Tony wriggled his hips just to punish him. 

"Be good, Alpha, or I'll make you regret it." 

Steve sucked at his neck, his hips rutting forward at the threat. 

"I love you, Tony. My pretty Omega. I don't know how I got so lucky." 

"I don't know how you got so lucky either. I'm a catch," Tony teased. 

Steve rolled his eyes affectionately and kissed Tony's cheek. 

"You really are." 

Tony smiled softly, a light blush on his cheek. His eyes landed on their baby in his sleep sack, laying on top of their thin covers. He doesn't know how he got to be so lucky as to end up with a perfect mate and a perfect pup.

[seven-oomen]

Every road leads to you chapter 1 | Sambucky a/b/o mpreg

Note: obvious tags for this are a/b/o and eventual mpreg. Alpha Sam, Omega Bucky, Bucky deal with CPTSD, missing scenes, canon compliant, canon continuation, frenemies to friends to lovers, roommates, only one bed. Probably a few more tropes. tbh I wrote this chapter in like a day, posting it here first because I wanna finish the whole fic before posting it to Ao3 but hoping to get some feedback for it here. So I hope you like it. Let me know if you do.

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“Stop the car!”

Goddamn Walker and his goddamn fucking mouth. He couldn’t believe this shit. Battlestar. More like throwing away everything Steve had ever stood for. These two, Walker and Hoskins, they weren’t fit to defend the mantle of Captain America. They were soldiers, not good men. He hated their freaking guts for that.

Sam should have never given up that shield.

He stalked further down the road, past the bus stop and onto a smaller road that wound back to town without looking back.

“It’s always that last line.” Sam said after a short back and forth with Walker and not long after Sam’s footsteps trailed after him.

“Buck, wait up!”

He kept walking, trying to contain the anger boiling under his skin. Pulsing and creeping up, threatening to overload his nervous system at the slightest touch. He took a deep breath instead and released it slowly. Trying to calm the waving energy inside of him.

Just keep breathing. Everything is going to be okay.

Sam fell into step beside him, his eyes practically burning holes into the side of his face. Though he paid it no mind.

“You’re not going to talk to me, are you?”

He glared at Sam but slowed down his pace just a little to allow the Alpha to keep up with him. As much as he usually enjoyed bantering with the other man, right now everything was just too much. And even Sam’s words echoed in his head and threatened to overload his entire system.

Sam, thankfully, understood.

“Alright. Let’s find a phone. Call Torres.”

He looked at Sam for a moment. The Alpha didn’t judge him for his mood, simply understood what he needed and left it at that. Honestly, it was nice for a change. He sighed, fishing his still working cellphone out of his pocket and handed it to Sam.

“Here.”

Clearly, Sam hadn’t expected that. But the smile Sam gave him created a pleasant warm feeling in the pit of his stomach and eased the pulsing energy through his body just a little. In a way, it was soothing to see him smile.

“Thanks Buck.”

“You’re welcome.”

Two short phone calls later they were on their way to the airport in a cab, their knees touching and only the sound of Taylor Swift singing over the radio surrounding them. Even the driver was quiet.

He still noted the driver’s glances between the two of them but didn’t comment on it since the chubby man didn’t either. He figured the man had bigger problems in his life than having an unmated Alpha and Omega sitting in the back of his cab. Having the kind of walrus mustache the man sported, had to be one of them.

Sam kept sneaking glances between him and the driver, his lips curled up in an amused smile. Almost as if he knew the kind of things he was thinking. It was a little weird, a little endearing, mostly just annoying. He raised an eyebrow at the behavior and leaned back with a smirk when Sam just glared at him and crossed his arms.

Damn right.

Though a small part of him winced at the way his gut twisted at Sam’s reaction. When was the last time he’d taken his suppressants? A quick silent count said he’d taken all of them. So that couldn’t be why he was having a reaction. What else could it be though?

Torres welcomed them at the airport, thankfully Walker or Hoskins were nowhere to be seen. A small miracle all things considered, but a very welcome one.

“Plane’s fueled and ready to go when you are.”

“Then let’s take off, I’ve had enough of Germany for now.” Sam said.

He followed, trailing after Sam into the cargo hold of the plane where they would undoubtedly spend the next few hours just staring ahead. And maybe even getting some sleep if they were lucky enough.

It took a few hours for them to get bored enough. He certainly didn’t know what to do with himself and Sam was on the verge of a mental breakdown judging the by the way he was glaring at him. Then again, if Sam had been mindlessly pacing up and down the cargo hold he’d probably be in the same state.

“Would you please just sit down?”

His fingers twitched at those words yet he did stop. Hands clenching and unclenching in an effort to get rid of some of his excess energy.

“I can’t. I’m restless.” He was. It felt like a dozen fire ants were crawling up and down his spine and the only way to alleviate that feeling was by pacing around the plane.

“I can see that, but you’re making me restless. Come on.” Sam beckoned him closer.

It was… tempting to sit down beside him and allow Sam to calm him. He couldn’t do that though. Couldn’t let anyone get that close. He didn’t know if Sam knew what he was, they didn’t talk much about that stuff. And a part of him never wanted Sam to find out either. He didn’t want to lose this edge of whatever it was that was between them. In a way it was comforting to know that someone didn’t take his bullshit, that someone still called him out on his stupid ideas.

He sat down on the floor opposite Sam, his back propped up against some crates and the tips of his toes not quite touching Sam’s.

Sam merely stared at him for a moment, then leaned forward and offered him his hands. “Gimme your hands.”

“No.” His first reaction was to lean back further and glare. Sneering at the hands he was offered.

Though Sam didn’t budge or get angry at his behavior and stayed calm. Within minutes his shoulders relaxed just a little and he laid his hands in Sam’s with a soft grumble.

“Fine.”

“Good, now breathe.” Sam said, taking a deep breath in. “In, hold it-” He paused for a few seconds, then released his breath “-and out slowly. Repeat.”

“You’re playing therapist now are you?” He appreciated Sam’s help, truly, he did. But there was always a part of him that just wanted to rile Sam up. Just to see if he could.

“No, I just want some goddamn peace and quiet without you pacing a hole through the floor and this is probably the best way to get that.” Sam bit back, the corners of his lips curling up.

It did something to him. A warmth that pooled in his stomach and slowly traveled to his heart and eased the little aches, pains, and pulses of his body. God he could drown in those dark eyes all night.

He blinked rapidly at that thought, only then realizing that his breathing had synched up with Sam’s and they were calmly breathing in and out together. How had that happened? Even his own therapist hadn’t been that effective in getting him to calm down.

He hadn’t even noticed he had exposed the dog tags around his neck for Sam to see. His full name and designation clearly stamped and visible.

James B. Barnes O

32557038 T41 42 O

R.Barnes

3092 Stoorton RD

Shelbyville IN P

Sam didn’t seem to care either way. “Better?”

He nodded, quickly pulling his hands away from Sam’s when Sam’s thumb brushed over the back of his hand. “Yeah…”

“Good. Let me know if you feel restless, we’ll do it again.” Sam leaned back and closed his eyes, his breathing slowly evening out.

He honestly didn’t understand it. Sam had had every opportunity to absolutely obliterate him and yet he hadn’t. Anything vulnerable he showed him, any kind of weakness he had, for once it wasn’t used against him. Sam treated him like a person. He never really noticed that before, or it hadn’t registered this clearly. It was too easy to forget when he was around Sam, too easy to just fall in beside him and joke and snap along. It scared him just a little.

It also gave him hope.

Maybe that’s why he brought Sam to Baltimore.

He should have known things would go south real quickly.

“How come nobody ever told me about him?” Sam’s voice was full of fire and emotion and yet it cut him cold across the chest. He wasn’t sure if he deserved that reaction, but he understood it in a way.

“Steve didn’t know and I didn’t-” He ran a hand through his hair, sighing “-I didn’t tell anybody because he’d already been through enough.”

The sharp sound of sirens pulled him out of his thoughts and brought an entirely new problem with it. Before he knew it, he was the one escorted into a police car with his hands cuffed. He missed his court mandated therapy. Wasn’t that a fucking joke?

He spared one glance at Sam just as the car pulled away from the scene and immediately wished he hadn’t. The look Sam gave him hurt more than any punch ever had and for the life of him he couldn’t figure out why. He didn’t owe Sam anything. And yet it felt like he just lost his entire world.

“I’m sure everything will be sorted quickly, Mr. Barnes.” One of the cops, the shorter one, said. He was quite a bit more nervous now than he had been when he thought Sam had been an aggressor, possibly because he feared repercussions from profiling an Avenger. Good. Maybe it would make him think twice about pulling shit like that, though a part of him very much doubted it.

He simply glanced at them in the rear view mirror, feeling an almost sick sense of satisfaction as that unnerved both of the cops further. He didn’t say anything to them despite their attempts at making small talk with him.

What was the fucking point anyway?

He didn’t expect Sam to come get him at the station. Seeing him there felt like a slap to the face. Not because Sam had done anything wrong, no he’d done everything right. And that’s exactly what hurt so much.

The doc seemed hell bent on getting him to open up about his problems. And as much as he didn’t really want to he found himself opening up anyway.

“Well in my miracle, he would talk less.” He said, glaring at Sam as he said it. And maybe that was a bit harsh, but Sam took it like a champ and threw it right back at him. God how he wanted to shut him up in that moment. Though in what way he wasn’t quite sure. In the last day his emotions had been all over the place.

He wanted to hate Sam, but he couldn’t. Something deep inside him just couldn’t hate him for any of this. Not when he himself had done so much worse.

The doc didn’t seem that pleased with them. Honestly, she should have known better. “You guys are leaving me with no choice. It’s time for the soul gazing exercise.”

Now that, he actually liked. “I like this one a lot better.”

“Oh god he’s gonna love this.” Sam said.

“Oh yeah, I’m ready.”

They scooted close, legs intertwining as they sat opposite one another. Once again he was staring into deep brown eyes except this time Sam’s warmth also seeped into him. In a way it was like touching spring for the first time since a cold winter. Warm and pleasant with just enough breeze to keep you alert and in the moment. It was both heaven and earth on hell and he wanted nothing more than to punch him in the face. He didn’t. He couldn’t.

Because punching Sam wouldn’t solve anything. It wouldn’t give him closure. It wouldn’t bring Steve back. Steve, who had walked out on him and left him in a time he barely knew just to get his own happy ending. Yeah maybe that had left him a little bitter and a little broken.

“Why’d you give up the shield?”

He poured his heart into his words and bared his soul wide open and it didn’t seem to matter to Sam. So maybe Steve had been wrong about him. About both of them. Maybe he didn’t deserve redemption or compassion. Maybe he didn’t deserve a second chance. And maybe he didn’t deserve Sam’s kindness or compassion either. Maybe he was just broken.

“See you outside, Buck.”

Maybe he was just too broken to function after all.

“Thanks doc.” He followed after Sam, quiet and brooding on the outside but his mind was screaming and crying in agony.

Worthless. He was just so fucking worthless.

He shouldn’t care this much.

He didn’t deserve to care this much.

Maybe that’s why he suggested to go the HYDRA route and find Zemo, or maybe it was a form of self sabotage. Who knew? All he knew, was that this was his last chance to do something right for this world. No matter what it would cost him.

[aurumacadicus]

Day3: Angst / Hurt/Comfort (Post-Worth Melting For)

I’m catching up on @winteriron-week! If you didn’t know this AU was mpreg than honestly that was really on you. Enjoy some hurt with some comfort!

Also: Tony has heard of the Red Witch but never actually met her. He’s seen her handiwork but has no idea who she is.

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“You,” the Red Witch hissed.

“Wanda,” Tony choked out, horrified, and then ducked out from under Bucky’s arm and bolted out of the doorway.

Bucky stood there like a dumbass, blinking at her, then said, “Um?”

“Get out!” the Red Witch barked, and Bucky didn’t need to be told twice.

Tony hadn’t stopped running once he’d made it back outside. As Bucky watched, he could see Tony starting to ascend the mountain by foot, even though he knew exactly which rocks to move to find the tunnel they’d used as a shortcut to get there. How frightened was he, Bucky wondered, that Tony would try to climb an entire fucking mountain if it meant not pausing to allow someone to catch up?

“Tony!” Bucky called out, but Tony kept climbing, either not having heard him in his terror or willfully ignoring him in an effort to keep getting away. He’d never be able to catch up to him without shifting into his full yeti form, and he was loathed to do that when he was so close to an obviously agitated witch. But if he got into the tunnel, he could definitely outpace him.

He caught up to Tony after the third tunnel fork, reaching out to snatch him up off the ground because he doubted Tony would stop moving if he shouted for him again. “Tony!”

“No!” Tony cried, hands coming up to his chest, before he realized it was Bucky and not someone else. Then his face crumpled, and he croaked out a broken ‘Bucky’ before collapsing in his arms.

Bucky held him tightly, confused, as he felt Tony begin to tremble. “Love, what’s wrong?” he asked softly, rubbing his face into the human’s neck.

“Can we just go home?” Tony whimpered.

Bucky turned his head to press a kiss to his ear, murmuring a soft, “Yeah, sweetheart, of course we can. Let’s go. I’ll carry you.”

Tony seemed to appreciate the idea, because he curled his arms around Bucky’s neck tighter and lifted his legs to wrap around his waist. Bucky pressed another kiss to his cheek before turning to head back into the tunnels.

.-.-.-.

Tony put the necklace he’d given him back in the box.

Bucky stared, heart dropping down to his toes. Tony had looked so happy when Bucky had presented him with it, had admired himself in the mirror for hours as he’d chattered on about whelps and parenting styles and all the toys that he’d make for them. Now he looked so sad, so—so sorry. Bucky didn’t understand why.

“Love?” he asked, finally stepping up to him. “What’s wrong? Please talk to me.”

“I—” Tony began, eyes growing hot with tears. He ducked his head and sniffled softly. “You’re never going to be able to have whelps. Not with me.”

Bucky frowned, reaching out to cup his cheeks. “Why not?”

“I didn’t—I didn’t know that Wanda was the Red Witch,” Tony explained as his head was tilted up. “My father, he—he hurt her family terribly. But he died before Wanda and her brother could confront him. She’s not cruel enough to kill me in his place, but she’d never help me. I bet she likes it,” he added tearfully. “Knowing I want kids and that she’s the only person capable of giving them to me. Knowing she won’t ever do it.”

“We can find another witch,” Bucky offered, because even though it would be difficult finding another witch as powerful and skilled as the Red Witch, it would be worth it.

“No we can’t,” Tony said sadly. “Not if we want to stay here with the rest of the clan. It would be an insult to Wanda to allow such a powerful spell from another witch in her territory, and most witches wouldn’t do it, knowing we’d be coming back here.”

“Then we’ll find a different clan,” Bucky answered firmly.

Tony jerked his head up to stare at him, shocked. Then his face did something weird, like he wanted to laugh and cry at the same time. “Oh, beloved,” he whispered, hands coming up to cup his cheeks and stroke his thumbs over Bucky’s cheekbones. “That’s so sweet. I’ll remember you offered that whenever I start to feel guilty.”

“I mean it,” Bucky insisted.

Tony used the grip on his face to gently ease him down for a kiss. “I know,” he murmured into Bucky’s mouth. “And that’s why I love you. But I love it here, and I don’t want to leave. We—we could always just be really good uncles,” he added, voice cracking a little. “They don’t have to be our kids for us to love them just the same.”

Bucky frowned down at him. “Yeah,” he agreed after a moment, because Tony didn’t look like he could handle an argument right now. “Yeah, we could.”

.-.-.-.

Bucky waited until Tony was asleep before he went to Steve.

“What do you mean she’s not giving you whelps,” Steve asked angrily. “I let her live in my territory, I give her our protection, and she’s withholding whelps because Tony’s dad was an asshole?”

“I mean, apparently he’s the reason her parents died,” Bucky began.

“What does that have to do with the fact that she lives where she does by my good graces alone and she’s insulting me?” Steve asked, voice low.

“I’m just saying, I don’t exactly trust her to cast a spell on Tony anyway, so if we could just get permission from her to use another witch’s spell,” Bucky started again.

Steve held his hand up, silencing him. “Go back to your mate,” he ordered quietly.

Bucky frowned. “You’re not going to do anything stupid, are you? A lone yeti against a witch is still a—”

“Go back,” Steve repeated between gritted teeth. “To your mate.”

Bucky noticed that Steve’s hands were slowly contorting into claws and booked it, because he might worry about Steve’s safety against the Red Witch, but it was now secondary to his safety against Steve. “Don’t do anything stupid,” he blurted out before he cleared the cave entrance.

.-.-.-.

“Did you hear that Steve banished the Red Witch from our territory until she could sincerely apologize for insulting him?” Sharon asked.

Bucky and Tony dropped the baskets of wool they’d been holding, staring at her.

Sharon stared back, baffled, then slowly added, “Um. He said she’d insulted his benevolence, his power, and his clan, so she was no longer welcome in our mountain range unless she could make amends.”

“What about everyone who needed her help for whelping?” Tony asked breathlessly, wringing his hands together.

“I—I guess Steve already had another witch lined up?” Sharon answered, eyes darting between he and Bucky nervously. “Said something about how a witch who holds grudges is dangerous anyway.”

“…What fucking witch did he have lined up?!” Bucky sputtered, because yetis and witches typically did not interact at all.

“I mean, he’s bringing her around to meet the clan so they all know who she is, so I guess you could ask when they get to your d—” Sharon began.

“TONY!” someone shouted, making them all jump, and then a woman with long red hair was wrapping her arms around Tony and pulling him up into a big hug.

Tony squawked in offense immediately. “Put me down, put me down, this is undignified—”

“Nothing about you has ever been dignified,” the woman deadpanned, even as she obeyed and set him back on the ground.

“Bucky, defend me,” Tony ordered.

Bucky held his claws up more on instinct than anything else. “But you aren’t dignified,” he said, confused.

“I’m leaving the clan,” Tony complained.

“I just brought you a new witch who will help you whelp. You’re not leaving the clan,” Steve told him sternly.

Tony’s mouth remained open for a moment before he closed it again, looking between the woman and Steve uncertainly. “You—” he finally tried. “You brought Pepper. So I could have a family?”

“I mean, to be fair, she didn’t really give me much of a choice after I banished the Red Witch,” Steve began.

“I’ve been looking for you ever since you fled our village, Tony,” the woman, Pepper, said, reaching out to take Tony’s hands. “Jim and Happy have, too. I heard that a scientist had recently bonded into a yeti clan, and I just knew, from the bottom of my heart… it had to be you.” She smiled, eyes damp. “I would love to help you have your whelps, Tony. You look so much happier here than you were back home.”

“It was never really home,” Tony admitted. “Not to me.”

“I think we all knew that,” Pepper answered softly. “I’m glad to see you happy, Tony.” Then she turned, eyes narrowed. “And you must be Tony’s mate.”

“I don’t like this,” Bucky said immediately.

“You’re stuck with me. I am your new resident witch,” Pepper informed him.

“I suddenly have regrets,” Steve added.

“That’s your problem,” Pepper said, turning toward him.

Bucky looked down at Tony, who was smiling down at his feet shyly. Pepper had said he looked happier here than wherever he’d come from. She said he’d help him with whelps. She clearly cared about Tony, and Tony valued her opinion, even if she was terrifying. So Bucky figured they could trust her.

Bucky reached out to take his hands, smiling. “Will you put the necklace back on, love?” he asked, hope clear in his voice.

Tony looked up at him, lifting a hand to wipe his eyes even as he laughingly answered, “Yeah, as soon as we get back to the den.” Then he laughed again when Bucky pulled him up into a tight hug, burying his nose in his hair and snuffling like he always did.

[fandomcares]

The Project Black Lives Matter Silent Auction IS CLOSED!!

@fandomcares​ is a support blog run by dedicated members of the Teen Wolf and Sterek community. Our goal is to help fans within the community who may be going through financial, emergency, or other hardships, be it through fundraising, providing resources, or just giving them a safe space to talk.

The silent auction will start NOW and will go until 12:00 am PST (-5) on Tuesday, June 9th.

Fandom is full of creators that wanted a way to support the Black Community. This auction will be multi fandom and a percentage of the proceeds will be split between several charities suggested by our participants. Check out this post for more information: 

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#1 >5k word fic: DiscontentedWinter - Opening Bid: $20

Current Bid: $30Current Bid: $50Current Bid: $100Current Bid: $110Current Bid: $150 Current Bid: $175  Current Bid: 200

Current Bid: 500

Fandom: Teen Wolf - Sterek, Steter // Offering:  1 -

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620114718125932544/discontented-winter

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#2  >5k word fic: BunnyWest- Opening Bid: $10

Current Bid: $30 Current Bid: $75  Current Bid: $100

Current Bid: $150

Fandom(s): Teen Wolf - Steter, Stargent, Stetopher, Dargent, Steter Senior // Writing (fics over 5k words) // Likes: fluff, HEA, domestic fic, arranged marriage, friends to lovers, nothing too dark // Dislikes: scat, watersports, incest, non-con.

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620062358022291456/bunnywest

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#3 Digital Art/Traditional: RubyRedHoodling- Opening Bid: $20 Current Bid: $25 Current Bid: $35 Current Bid: $45

Current Bid: $50

Fandom(s):  Teen Wolf - Sterek, Steo, Cordia, Allydia, Allira, Berica, StoydHaikyuu!!, My Hero Academia (BNHA), Fruits Basket, Ace of Diamond (Daiya no A), Demon Slayer, FF7R (Final Fantasy 7), FE3H (Fire Emblem 3 Houses), DnD, Critical Role, Animal Crossing and more // Offering: Digital Art, a single full body chibi character (fanart or Dnd/ Animal Crossing OC), a chibi couple

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#4 Opening Bid: $10

Current Bid: $15 Current Bid: $50

Current Bid: $100 

Fandom(s): Teen Wolf - Sterek, Steter // Likes: darkfic, angst, fluff, AU or canon, anything // Dislikes: none // Offering: Writing (fics 5k words and under)

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620062418906890240/cookie

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#5 Opening Bid: $5 Current Bid: #10

Current Bid: #15

Current Bid: $25

Fandom(s): Teen Wolf - Sterek, Berica, 911 - Buddie // Likes: fluff, angst, mystical/fantasy (with sterek) // Dislikes: non-con, graphic violence, self harm, suicide mentions // Offering: Writing (fics 5k words and under)

Creator Profile:  https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620118576220733440/mila

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#6 Opening Bid: $15

Current Bid: $25

Fandom(s): please visit Artemisa's showcase at https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620119057099866112/artemisa // Likes:  To explore the dynamics between character dynamics that stand on opposite sides just as hunter/werewolf, imperial/rebel, pureblood/muggleborn, mutant politics in general…), Kid fics and mpreg // Dislikes: Smut, Time Travel AU or full crossovers, but open to discuss AU where characters live in a different universes (please talk to the author about specifics) Bad Peter Hale or Bad Hale Family. // Offering: Moodboards

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620119057099866112/artemisa

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#7  Opening Bid: $10

Current Bid: $15 Current Bid: $20 Current Bid: $50

Current Bid: $60

Fandom(s): Teen Wolf, Supernatural // Likes:  Sterek, Destiel, open for other pairings, happy endings, fluff,  smut, crack and angst as well or a little bit of everything // Dislikes:  Peter, Theo, and Crowley MCD where character stays dead, and some kinks (please contact the author for a list) // Offering:  Writing (fics 5k words and under), Writing (fics over 5k words), Depends on story idea/prompt for length

https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620119265775894528/swlfangirl

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#8  Opening Bid: $5

Current Bid: $5 

Current Bid: $25

Fandom(s):  Teen Wolf - Steter, Sterek, Stoyd, Voiles, Stalion, Stargent, Steopher  // Likes: fluff, angst //Dislikes:  Non-con, dub-con, drug use, graphic violence, infidelity // Offering:  Writing fics around 1k and lower

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620119682067922944/bxdcubes

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#9 Opening Bid: $10  Current Bid: $20  Current Bid: $30

Current Bid: $40

Fandom(s):  Teen Wolf - Sterek// Likes:  fluff, hurt/comfort, angst, crack fics // Dislikes:  non-con, incest, abuse // Offering: Writing (fics 5k words and under), Writing (fics over 5k words)

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620117416667643904/rachel

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#10 Digital Art: Paws - Opening Bid: $20

Current Bid: $30 Current Bid: $50  Current Bid: $75 Current Bid: $80  Current Bid: $95  Current Bid: $125  Current Bid: 130  Current Bid: 135  Current Bid: 150

Current Bid: 160

Fandom(s): Any Fandom // Likes:  Portraits, figures, soft romance // Dislikes:  non-con, underage, sexually explicit // Offering:  Digital Art

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620119907407921153/paws

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#11 Opening Bid: $10

Current Bid: $25 Current Bid: $30Current Bid: $50Current Bid: $51

Current Bid: $60

Fandom(s): Check, Please! - Zimbits // Likes: Fluff, domestic fluff, meet cute, AUs,  Zimbits fluff, Zimbits AUs, flirty meet cutes // Dislikes: Infidelity, Kent Parson anything, non-con, A/B/O // Offering: Writing (fics 5k words and under)

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620119997898981376/wrathofthestag

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#12 Opening Bid: $5

Current Bid: $10 Current Bid: $15

Current Bid: $25

Fandom(s):  Marvel (MCU) - Steve/Bucky, Captive Prince - Damen/Laurent // Likes:  angst, fluff, smut, getting-together, first kiss, mutual pining, UST // Dislikes:  non-con, A/B/O, hardcore BDSM // Offering:  Writing (fics 5k words and under)

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620122054562398208/disraeligears

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#13 Digital Art: happyzimm - Opening Bid: $15

Current Bid: $25 Current Bid: $30 Current Bid: $40 Current Bid: $41 Current Bid: $45  Current Bid: $46  Current Bid: $50  Current Bid: $55

Current Bid: $57

Fandom(s):  Check Please (zimbits) // Likes:  portraits (no background, digital illustrations/drawings // Dislikes:  nsfw, violence // Offering:  Digital Art

https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620062669146374144/happyzimm

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#14 Opening Bid: $10

Current Bid: $10

Current Bid: $15

Fandom(s): Teen Wolf: gen or Sterek, Supernatural: gen or Wincest, Buffy the Vampire Slayer: Spuffy, Spillow, Spangel, or no pairing // Likes:  gen, fluffy, dark, angsty, Sterek, Winchest, Spuffy, Spangel, Spillow // Dislikes:  cheating // Offering:  Writing (fics 5k words and under)

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620062661373296640/astus Bid on Me!

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#15 Digital Art: Poetry-Protest-Pornography - Opening Bid:

 $15 Current Bid: $25 Current Bid: $30 Current Bid: $35

Current Bid: $40

Fandom(s):  Teen Wolf (Sterek, other ships can be discussed),  OMG Check Please! (Pretty much any ship that doesn’t involve Parse), The Witcher // Likes: Sterek and Zimbits // Dislikes:  non-con, graphic violence/gore, bestiality // Additional Info:  Poetry-Protest-Pornography is open for other fandoms as well as OC’s. // Offering:  Writing (fics 5k words and under), Digital Art

https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620062775276961792/poetry-protest-pornography

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#16 Digital Art: BEERWOLVES - Opening Bid: $20

Current Bid: $30 Current Bid: $50 Current Bid: $65 Current Bid: $75  Current Bid: $80

Current Bid: $100

Fandom(s): Sterek (Teen Wolf) // Likes:  Fluff or anything SFW // Dislikes:  Non-Con or anything NSFW // Offering: Digital Art/Sketches

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620062720027459584/beerwolves

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#17 Opening Bid: $10

Current Bid: $15

Current Bid: $50

Fandom(s):  Teen Wolf - Stiles/Derek, Stiles/Peter, Stiles/Derek/Peter // Likes:  romantic, fluffy, angst // Dislikes:  non-con, humiliation, major character death // Additional Info: Devilscut is definitely into ‘happy ever afters’ or at the very least into hopeful, positive endings. // Offering:  Writing (fics 5k words and under)

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620120197360156672/devilscut

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#18 Opening Bid: $10

Current Bid: $20

Current Bid: $35

Fandom(s): please visit LadyMerlin's showcase https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620061333557280768/ladymerlin // Likes: fluff and angst but fine with any genres, happy to do smut too // Dislikes: graphic violence, non-con // Offering: Writing (fics 5k words and under)

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620061333557280768/ladymerlin Bid on Me!

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#19 GIFs and/or GIF sets: Klam - Opening Bid: $15

Current Bid: $20

Fandom(s):Teen Wolf (any and all characters prior to season 4)// Offering: 1 - GIF or GIF Set // Likes: Dark fics, fluff, angst // Dislikes: Non-sterek, super sweet fics

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620120341660991488/klam Bid on Me!

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#20 >5 word fic:  Halehathnofury : Opening Bid: $10

Current Bid: $15 Current Bid: $20 Current Bid: $30

Current Bid: $50

Fandom(s): Sterek, Stucky, Hannigram, any Sterek side ships especially Berica, Clintasha  // Offering: 1 - > 5k word fic // Likes: Anything goes // Dislikes: Non-con, female Stiles, self insert, oc insert with main ship

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620120820925235200/halehathnofury Bid on Me!

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#21 Opening Bid: $10

Current Bid: $20 

Fandom(s): Check Please, Star Trek, Teen Wolf, Harry Potter, Leverage (Please check the creators ost for more information) // Offering: 1 -

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620120526501920768/thereoncewasagirl Bid on Me!

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#22 Digital Art/Traditional Art- Gwen- Opening Bid: $15

Current Bid: $25

Fandom(s): Hetalia (Fruk; Gerita; Spamano; Prumano; AusHun; PruHun; Ameviet; open to discuss other ships; open to general fics and brotp)  // Offering: 1 -

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620121138941558784/gwen Bid on Me!

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#23 Opening Bid: $ 10

Current Bid: $15 Current Bid: $25

Current Bid: $50

Fandom(s): Sterek, Stony  // Offering: 1 -

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620121321217605632/yoda Bid on Me!

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#24 >5k word fic: HolyCatsAndRabbits - Opening Bid: $10

Current Bid: $20 Current Bid: $35 Current Bid: $55 Current Bid: $70 Current Bid: $85  Current Bid: $150

Current Bid: $200

Fandom(s): Good Omens (please check the creators post for more information) or Original Characters// Offering: 1 - >5k word fic // Likes: low-fantasy romance, erotica, pining, fluff, adventures & misadventures, SFW and NSFW, with characters in a variety of gender identities and sexual orientations, including aro/ace.  // Dislikes: No horror, graphic violence, torture, non-con, dub-con, underage, & other really dark stuff. For the erotica, kinks are negotiable: most common kinks are fine, and I will do light consensual non-consent with safe words and after care.

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620121431708172288/holycatsandrabbits Bid on Me!

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#25 Opening Bid: $10

Current Bid: $15

Current Bid: $25

Fandom(s): Yuri on Ice (Viktuuri, Salami, EmiMike, Leoji, Seung chuchu), The Magnus Archives (Jonmartin, What the Girlfriends), Fullmetal Alchemist(/Brotherhood) (canon ships, Royhughes), Sherlock Holmes (Holmes/Watson) // Offering: 7 - >5k word fics // Likes: shippy fluff, domestic moments or slice-of-life, or single-character introspective pieces // Dislikes: Noncon/dubcon, underage, heavy angst/angst without a happy ending

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620121795702472704/the-walrus Bid on Me!

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# 26 Opening Bid: $10

Current Bid: $30

Fandom(s): YuGiOh DM & GX (not Abridged or dub), Hetalia, Babylon 5, Mo Dao Zu Shi / The Untamed, Persona 4 // Offering: 1 - >5k word fic // Likes: Fluff, h/c, unusual AUs, crossovers (if both fandoms are known), dark or mature themes, rare pairs // Dislikes: Explicit NSFW, ABO. Dark themes discretionary to be discussed

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620060934002655232/sixy Bid on Me!

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#27 >5k word fic: Gia (outtoshatter) - Opening Bid: $10 Current Bid: $15

Current Bid: $25 

Fandom(s): Sterek, Teen Wolf // Offering: 3 - >5k word fics // Likes: AUs, fluff, action, adventure, romance, plot driven, world building // Dislikes: non con, graphic sex, incest, drug use

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620060976948117504/gia Bid on Me!

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#28 Digital Art: hillnerd- Opening Bid: $15

Current Bid: $40 Current Bid: $55

Current Bid: $60

Fandom(s): Harry potter "I prefer canon pairings but am willing to do almost any", marvel, dc, broadway shows, jane austen, anne of green gables, avatar tla "Really any fandom I'm happy to draw- as long as I don't have to do mechs/furries." // Offering:  2 - Digital Paintings // Likes: "I'm best at cute fluffy moments- sweet romantic ones, character moments- check out my art and see for yourself :)"// Dislikes: non-con, gore, anything like pedo/chan works.

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620017264783196160/hillnerd Bid on Me!

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#29 >5k word fics: Neche - Opening Bid: $10  Current Bid $15

Current Bid: $30

Fandom(s): Teen Wolf (Sterek)Marvel MCU (Stucky) // Offering:  2 - >5k word fic  // Likes:  fluff, one shots, get together, canon compliant // Dislikes: rape, no main character deaths, no drug use, no incest (this includes adoptive & step siblings), no paedophilia

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620061125051072512/neche Bid on Me!

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#30 $15

Current Bid: $20

Current Bid: $50

Fandom(s): TW, Sterek, Supernatural, Harry Potter, Buzzfeed Unsolved, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, MCU, crossovers, Rare Pairs (please check their creators post for more information) // Offering:  1 -

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620060896844234753/stormlyht Bid on Me!

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#31 >5 word fic: cleo - Opening Bid: $10 Current Bid: $20

Current Bid: $45

Fandom(s): Marvel Cinematic Universe (MCU) (please check the creators post for more information)  // Offering:  1 - >5k word fic  // Likes: smut, dark, au, fluff, crack // Dislikes: Hard DNWs: Foreplay and sex involving food scat, watersports, emetophiliaUnrealistically happy endingsHigh School AUA/B/OCalling a partner Mommy or Daddy (or variations) during sexAnimal abuse/animals in peril

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620061570378153984/cleo Bid on Me!

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#32 >5k word fic: deathsweetqueen - Opening Bid: $10

Current Bid: $15

Fandom(s): Marvel - anything with Tony (please check the creators post for more information) // Offering: 1 - >5k word fic // Likes: Racebends Tony as Indian, Tony or fem!Tony centric, poly relationships, soulmate AUs, canon AUs, canon divergences, genderswaps, horror movie AUs, Skrulls, pirate AUs, daemon AUs, time travel, historical AUs, A/B/O AU, supernatural bonds // Dislikes: Non-human (except supernatural) sex, tentacles, scat, urine, age play, mpreg, Zombie AU, Hogwarts AU, Coffee Shop AUs, bodyswaps, Steampunk/Cyberpunk AUs, apocalypses, fake dating, incestuous pairings

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620061517301366785/deathsweetqueen Bid on Me!

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#33 Opening Bid: $10

Current Bid: 10

Current Bid: 15

Fandom(s): Steve/Tony, MCU  // Offering: 1 -

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620061270009380864/neb Bid on Me!

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#34 Traditional Art: Alby ( artgroves) - Opening Bid: $15

Current Bid: $50 Current Bid: $75 Current Bid: $80 Current Bid: $100  Current Bid: $200

Current Bid: $215

Fandom(s): Merlin, Marvel (any fandom), X-Men, The Eagle, TW (Sterek)  // Offering: 1 - Pencil sketch or paste painting // Likes: "Happy to draw any rating, including fluff, angst, porn and romance, would prefer something shippy" // Dislikes: character death, violence, complex armour, mecha or furries

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620122286012399617/alby Bid on Me!

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#35 Opening Bid: $10

Current Bid: $10

Current Bid: $15

Fandom(s): Marvel - Bucky/Tony, Loki/Tony, Stephen Strange/Tony, Gen // Offering: 1 -

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620016483950592000/calmena Bid on Me!

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#36 Opening Bid: $10

Current Bid: $25

Current Bid: $50

Fandom(s):  Teen Wolf -  Steter, Stetopher, Stargent, Chris/Lydia, Derek/Lydia, Corydia (Cora/Lydia), Lucifer, Tidelands - something Cal-focussed; preference is Cal/Corey/Dylan, but Cal/Corey, Cal/Dylan, and dark Cal/Adrielle is also on the table. Also willing to do Lucifer/TW crossover pairings // Likes & Dislikes: please visit Twist's showcase at https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620116913977180160/queerfictionwriter // Additional Info: Twist is disabled, so there’s a good chance they won’t be fast in completing your prompt. They also do not, as a general rule, take prompts, so if you’ve ever wanted them to write something for you, this is your chance! // Offering: Writing (fics 5k words and under)

Creator Profile: https://fandomcares.tumblr.com/post/620116913977180160/queerfictionwriter Bid on Me!

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[winterironbang]

Art Preview:

 Below you will find the art previews for this year, remember authors that its not quite time for claiming yet!Take a good look and pick 2-3 favourites and remember their Title for when claiming does begin.

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   Title: Kissing under the fireworks

Description/Prompt: what it says on the tin. Kissing under the fireworks.

This one is a pretty open universe, could be a first kiss, a regular kiss exchanged at New Year's Eve, the fireworks are celebrating that one of them have been crowned King or them finally getting married. Or maybe a romantic proposal at a holiday celebration. 

Warnings: None

Limitations: No unhappy/ambiguous ending, no alcoholism (but recovery or past mentions are fine), no watersports (kink) 

A/N: The art is not finished I am open to reinterpretation and/or taking the prompt a different way then the one I have outlined or changing the art a bit to better fit the story like Bucky (not) having the arm, short hair or long and similar 

 Title: welcome back / welcome home 

Description/Prompt: Bucky pulls Tony into a bone crushing hug, extremely relieved that Tony is back home and alive. Bucky doesn't plan to let him go, ever again. 

Open verse, could be a no-power AU, or pre-Afghanistan, or maybe sometime when Tony is IronMan. It could be focusing on Bucky's anguish at not knowing where is Tony if he is alive. Or could be the celebration that Tony is home. Maybe how is their life is being affected after.

Warnings: None

Limitations: No unhappy/ambiguous ending, no alcoholism (but recovery or past mentions are fine), no watersports (kink) 

A/N: The art is not finished I am open to reinterpretation and/or taking the prompt a different way then the one I have outlined or changing the art a bit to better fit the story like Bucky (not) having the arm, short hair or long and similar

   Title: 19th century AU

Prompt: 19th century-vibes AU (or can be Bridgerton AU), with behaving one way in private and another way in public to save face, love, and searching for one's freedom. (Can be ABO or not)

Limitations: dubcon/noncon between the OTP, eye gore, MCD, D/s verse (a normal universe with a D/s relationship is fine though), unhappy ending, pwp. I would prefer if it was not simple love at first sight.

 Title: Sweethearts

Description/Prompt:  Punk!Alpha!Bucky gets into a fight, not on purpose - this time - and while he does win, he gets beaten badly. 

He tries to walk it off, but he runs into his Omega classmate Tony who is heading home from a late night lab-session. 

Tony sees him and is very adamant to treat Bucky's injuries - he lets slip by accident a couple of details about Bucky, showcasing that he pays more attention to Bucky than a "proper" Omega should. 

Tony patches Bucky up, and they fall asleep on the couch, Bucky relaxing after a long while.

They end up becoming friends and Tony offers to tutor Bucky. 

They end up falling in love with Tony, and Bucky stops skipping class and getting into so many fights. Though Tony patches him up, every single time. 

In the end Bucky's grades improve enough that he finishes in the Top 10 of the class. 

Warnings: none

Limitations: No unhappy/ambiguous ending, no alcoholism (but recovery or past mentions are fine), no watersports (kink) 

A/N: The art is not finished I am open to reinterpretation and/or taking the prompt a different way then the one I have outlined or changing the art a bit to better fit the story like Bucky (not) having the arm, short hair or long and similar  

Title: Iron Man Noir AU

Prompt: Iron Man Noir AU with influences from Spider-Man Noir. It is 1939, Tony Stark is undercover in Berlin in his hidden Cabaret, to gather intel, and help where help is needed. 

Why is Bucky there? Is he sent for undercover work, ready to meet some secret contact? Is he a Russian spy sent to gather information about America's plans? Or is he just some normal guy who wandered into the wrong Cabaret at the wrong time? 

(These are just some ideas for Bucky, if you have others, let's talk! Bucky could be MCU-inspired or comic-inspired, or a mix or something else.)

Limitations: noncon between Bucky and Tony,  MCD, ABO, D/s verse (a normal universe with a D/s relationship is fine though), eye gore, eye things in general, unhappy ending, pwp, smoking except pipes.

  Title: BDSM AU

Description/Prompt: I was definitely thinking praise kink and rope play, but feel free to include others as well. Who is being tied up is the Author's choice, I will adjust the art accordingly (like including Bucky's metal arm) 

Warnings: BDSM, Rope play and I guess other kind of kinks if they get included. 

Limitations: No unhappy/ambiguous ending, no alcoholism (but recovery or past mentions are fine), no watersports (kink) 

A/N: The art is not finished I am open to reinterpretation and/or taking the prompt a different way then the one I have outlined or changing the art a bit to better fit the story like Bucky (not) having the arm, short hair or long and similar.

    Title: Sea AU 

Description/Prompt: Siren/Mermaid Tony and Sailor/Pirate/Privateer!Bucky - Tony visits his land bound lover, Bucky. 

This one is open verse, I have already listed couple of options for them, but feel free to change that. 

The world can be dark - Siren!Tony attracts unsuspecting ships (and sailors) to their death. Either by Bucky's sword or by shipwrecking them.

Could be angst - ala Little Mermaid style (original or Disney version) or a completely new one 

Could be hurt/comfort - Bucky is the only survivor of his ship, because Tony saved him. But Tony could only bring him to a lonely Island, where the only way out is for Bucky to build a raft, and Tony provides company whenever he can stay above water. 

Could be fluff - Tony and Bucky deeply in love, where in the end Bucky follows Prince Tony into the depths of the ocean, never to be seen again by human eyes.

Or any other combinations! Go wild! 

Warnings: None, I would say 

Limitations: No unhappy/ambiguous ending, no alcoholism (but recovery or past mentions are fine), no watersports (kink) 

A/N: The art is not finished I am open to reinterpretation and/or taking the prompt a different way then the one I have outlined or changing the art a bit to better fit the story like Bucky (not) having the arm, short hair or long and similar 

Title: Vampire Bucky

Prompt: Vampire Bucky AU with Bucky. How does Tony find him like this? Let’s brainstorm together.

Limitations: noncon between Bucky and Tony, unhappy ending, pwp, MCD, ABO, D/s verse (a normal universe with a D/s relationship is fine though), eye gore, eye things in general, smoking, evil Tony, evil Bucky

A/N: It's still very sketchy, total WIP.

   Title: Knight in shining armour

Description/Prompt: The Winter soldier is pulled from a burning HYDRA base by IronMan. 

Open verse, it could be that Bucky is slowly methodically taking his revenge on HYDRA, and everytime he is injured IronMan comes and rescues him, but Bucky never stays, all the way until the end. 

Or maybe Bucky was kidnapped and wiped, and IronMan wiped out the HYDRA base in revenge and now he is taking Bucky home.

Maybe IronMan finds HYDRA during Avengers one and decides to do some recon on his own and comes face to face with Bucky Barnes. 

There are sooo many possibilities! 

(While the IronMan armour is intended to be the Bleeding Edge armour, this can be changed) 

Warnings: Hurt/Comfort? Possibly darker themes 

Limitations: No unhappy/ambiguous ending, no alcoholism (but recovery or past mentions are fine), no watersports (kink) 

A/N: The art is not finished I am open to reinterpretation and/or taking the prompt a different way then the one I have outlined or changing the art a bit to better fit the story like Bucky (not) having the arm, short hair or long and similar 

Title: Dragon Shifter AU

Description/Prompt: Tony and Bucky are dragon shifters, Tony with fire magic, Bucky with ice magic. They can't stand each other, but they have to get along now... (Basically any enemies/ frenemies to lovers story you can thing of will make me happy, maybe with arranged marriage or a common goal/ enemy?)

Limitations: no A/B/O, no Civl War salt, no non-con between bucky/ tony, no mpreg

A/N: This art is purely self-indulgent. Anyone who wants to just have fun with the idea feel free to pick it up!

Title: Warlord Tony AU

Prompt: Everyone has heard of the warlord Iron Man, a cunning monster whose troops mercilessly slaughter his opponents on the battlefield and who has never lost a single battle. According to some he's not even a man at all: After all, he can cut through weapons and people alike, and survived direct hits that would kill a normal man. His army turns wins fights against superior numbers and his cannons never miss their target. Very few people know that he also hides quite a number of secrets in a calm little valley at the heart of his territory, in a town called Arc.

For Bucky, you can go wild - whether he's part of a tribute, an enemy soldier, an assassin or something else. We're looking forward to talking about plot ideas!

Warnings: implied violence, blood

Limitations: no non-con between Tony/Bucky, no fully evil Tony, no MCD, no ABO, no mrpeg, no team cap  bashing pls

  Title: Alpine 

Description/Prompt: Biker Bucky finds Alpine on the side of the road, abadoned and hungry. Bucky decides to take Alpine to the vet, unfortunately this being - your choice of holiday - there are not many vets are open and most of them is for emergency only. 

Bucky worried that the kitten won't survive the night, runs into vet!Tony who is about to head home. However seeing the kitten, Tony decides to help and nurture the kitten. Alpine survives the night and becomes a bike-riding cat, usually traveling on Bucky's shoulders or back pack. 

The story could be a falling in love at first sight, or Bucky bringing all kinds of animals to Tony, because Bucky trusts Tony to take care of them. (There maybe a cracky story hidden in there somewhere too *wink*) 

Warnings: no kittens were harmed in the making of this prompt - none 

Limitations: No unhappy/ambiguous ending, no alcoholism (but recovery or past mentions are fine), no watersports (kink) 

A/N: The art is not finished I am open to reinterpretation and/or taking the prompt a different way then the one I have outlined or changing the art a bit to better fit the story like Bucky (not) having the arm, short hair or long and similar  

    Title: Late night dance lessons 

Description/Prompt: Bucky is baking late into the night as a super soldier he doesn't need much sleep and baking is a relaxing hobby. It's 2am, the night is quiet no people around and his favourite music is playing from the stereo. 

This is the moment when Tony arrives (could be a long night at the 'shop, or maybe just coming in from an overnight flight, maybe this is the time they regularly meet), they get into a small talk which slowly evolves into Tony staying and talking and Bucky reminscens of old times and what he can remember. It's a soft and tender talking the one people only have at 3am. Then an old times music comes on, reminding Bucky of nights when he went out to dance. And Tony seeing the look on his face offers to dance with him. 

Warnings: None

Limitations: No unhappy/ambiguous ending, no alcoholism (but recovery or past mentions are fine), no watersports (kink) 

A/N: The art is not finished I am open to reinterpretation and/or taking the prompt a different way then the one I have outlined or changing the art a bit to better fit the story like Bucky (not) having the arm, short hair or long and similar 

Title: Feats of Flexibility 

Description/Prompt: Bucky is doing push-ups, and someone accuses him of showing off - he had been in the gym for hours now - and Bucky claims that this nothing challenging to him, so naturally he is challenged into proving it. 

This is escalated into more and more complicated and complex tasks ending in Tony sitting on Bucky's back while he is doing push ups, with his feet in the air 

Poor Tony who only come down to keep in shape and tries valiantly to not stare at those feats of muscles and flexibility gets roped in 

Can end in a kiss/confession or more sexy times *wink*

Warnings: None

Limitations: No unhappy/ambiguous ending, no alcoholism (but recovery or past mentions are fine), no watersports (kink) 

A/N: The art is not finished I am open to reinterpretation and/or taking the prompt a different way then the one I have outlined or changing the art a bit to better fit the story like Bucky (not) having the arm, short hair or long and similar 

Title: Untitled

Description/Prompt: Open to any ideas for some steampunk shenaniganry! Skyships, pirates, dashing captains, scrappy inventors, swash*buckly* adventures?

Warnings: none?

Limitations:  DNWs include a/b/o, mpreg, noncon, dubcon between major protagonists, death of major protagonists, unhappy/ bad endings

  Title: Fantasy Secret Identity AU

Description: Bucky standing in front of a wall plastered with posters of all sorts, among them some wanted posters, one for Iron Man, one for the Winter Soldier.

Prompt: Tony Stark is a well-known noble and mage, and Iron Man is a well-known villain. Of course, the two aren't connected at all. Until Tony Stark takes on a bet to figure out the identity of the man in the armor - and hires James Barnes, a washed-up mercenary to find any clues possible. It's just as well James has no links to the feared assassin called Winter Soldier, because that would be making things complicated.

I'm always open for other ideas but am really hoping for some identity porn :D

Warnings: None

Limitations: no A/B/O, no mpreg, no CW salt, no MCD

A/N: I haven't inked most of the posters in order to leave the author some freedom for the AU they want to make - I'm open for suggestions about adding stuff in!

  Title: Promise of the Desire to Live

Description/Prompt: This is a Pokémon crossover piece. The Pokémon egg on the left belongs to Magearna and will hatch in her original coloring (which are pretty much Iron Man colors). This Magearna will be the partner of Tony. The Pokémon egg on the right belongs to Mewtwo and will have almost the same coloring as Shadow Mewtwo except that his tail will be navy blue. This Mewtwo will be Bucky’s partner. Here’s the prompt – 

            The Avengers are called to deescalate a situation involving a young and semi-inexperienced Inhuman who lost her family due to a suicide bomber. After receiving her powers mere days after that traumatic event, this young girl, no more than 12, is able to sense who has a strong desire to commit suicide and send them to places/people/beings that need help and are able to bring them back from the brink of suicide.

Omega!Tony and Alpha!Bucky are sent to a Team Plasma lab with an egg incubator in the center of the room with two eggs in it. They take the eggs.

Warnings: Discussions of depression and suicidal thoughts

Limitations: Story cannot be ended with the Pokémon hatching. I want a full-length Pokémon journey from Bucky, Tony, and their Pokémon. I want them to find a way to travel between the Pokémon world and their home world. Also, must have A/B/O. No rape.

Title: Bunny Tony/ Wolf Bucky

Description/prompt: No matter what the media and Hollywood tried to say, there wasn't really that much difference between predator and prey presenting people. A jaguar wouldn't love climbing trees and napping all day anymore than a squirrel would hoard nuts and play deadly games with cars.

But whenever Tony's gorgeous rear and fluffy tail wind up in Bucky's line of sight, he has to clamp his teeth against a strong urge to bite. And when Tony comes down to the kitchen each morning, hair a mess and silky, floppy ears on display, Bucky has to fight more possessive urges. He's sure neither the team or Tony would appreciate Bucky dragging the bunny off to his territory...Would they?

Warnings: N/A

Limitations: Happy Ending, No Civil War, No  AoU, No bathroom kinks, Prefer Team as family, Explicit welcome

A/N: The sketch will be colored and have at least one more piece featuring a Wolf Bucky. And maybe a shot of Tony's fluffy tail.

  Title: Untitled 2

Description/Prompt: something based on the John Wick tailor scene or James Bond-Q outfitting or just general spies or mafia? 

Open for brainstorming or alternate interpretations or anything really! Assassins/Spies not up your alley? image can be edited/background removed if your idea is for a non powers tailor au instead!

Warnings: canon typical violence for story (john wick levels or mcu levels up to author?)

Limitations:  DNWs include a/b/o, mpreg, noncon, dubcon between major protagonists, death of major protagonists, unhappy/ bad endings

Title: Hold out your hand

Description/Prompt: The only thing I feel needs to be heavily included in the fic would be about Bucky's relationship with his arm and how Tony helps him with that (though it doesn't technically need to be the main storyline) 

If you want other input then I love tropes especially soulmate type situations and Bucky recovery fics, but pretty much any trope is good. 

Warnings: NA

Limitations: Character death, age play (I am pretty much open to anything else, any rating is cool with me as is including smut or not)

A/N: I am still messing with the composition and finish on this so if you have any input then let me know :) (for example the smaller images of the hands and Tony could be used individually for page breaks in the story rather than being the main art?)

Title: Porcelain and Metal or maybe a Toy au?

Description/Prompt: This particular piece was created because I really wanted a porcelain ballerina tony and nutcracker-ish bucky.This could be a first meeting scene of sorts with bucky being a shameless flirt but the writer could expand and add more scenes of course! I mostly just wanted a very cute and magic realism-ish vibe. 

Warnings: N/A

Limitations: No unhappy endings. A bit of angst for the sake of the plot is fine. Non-consensual acts of any sorts is also a no

Title: Scheherazade AU

Description/Prompt: Based on Thousand and One Nights, war chief!Bucky refuses a spouse and threatens to kill anyone he's set up with. Tony ends up married to him and talks every night, leaving off right before bed so Bucky has to keep him around another day 

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Limitations: no noncon/heavy warnings. Also really not into stucky, even as background influence/past feelings. Also don't want any feminization of Tony by having him as 'weaker' or a damsel. I don't like infidelity or overcomplicated drama because of simple misunderstandings. Some smut is okay, but no hard kinks, PWP, or A/B/O.

A/N: Besides inspiration of original story, I don't have much planned. While no warnings, it would include arranged marriage, but no actual noncon please. I like slowburn so totally down for a long fic. Also pretty relaxed with background ships and always here for some epic friendships (tony and rhodey, bucky and nat, etc). 

  Title: Mirror images

Description/Prompt: Bucky and Winter got separated into two bodies by accident or on purpose, which helps greatly with them getting along better (or at all), until they decide independently to woo Tony 

Both of them show how much they care about Tony, even if it's very very different from each other 

Tony appreciates and loves both and absolutely can't decide between the two (nor does he want to because both are important to him) and it ends in polamory either a triangle or v-shaped

Warnings: N/A

Limitations: No unhappy/ambiguous ending, no alcoholism (but recovery or past mentions are fine), no watersports (kink) 

A/N: The art is not finished I am open to reinterpretation and/or taking the prompt a different way then the one I have outlined or changing the art a bit to better fit the story like Bucky (not) having the arm, short hair or long and similar 

Title: College au meet cute or something

Description/Prompt: No specific plot, maybe Bucky and Tony like each other but both are oblivious to the others feelings. Steve and Rhodey as the "Why am I bestf riends with an idiot" best friend. With minor thundershield please 

Warning: N/A

Limitations: No unhappy endings. Bit of angst for the sake of plot is fine.

A/N: Will color and clean this up a bit. I'll also be willing to make more art for the story if ever.

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my year of fic (2020)

I had a lapse in doing this, because the end of 2019 was just---a haze---but I thought it might be fun to try again on this, my first day off of 2021. Ignoring for a moment the armed sedition and the pandemic and the general feeling like the world’s about to spin upside down, I think it might be a good day. Let me try to feel some joy in writing, so that I might do some more writing this weekend. There’s a chance!

Per the AO3 stats tracker:

Total words written in 2020: 278,664 (Compared to 2019: 201,375 -- definite improvement!) That brings the overall AO3 published total to: 1,160,723. Jesus. I need another hobby, haha.

I’ll try to collect a year masterlist below, but let’s see what happened with stats first.

fic with most hits, which is not the same thing as best: no disguising truths i’ve sold -- y’all are fiends for the dadsex, just admit it. It always gives me a giggle how many hits these ones have with so few people actually interacting. :)

fic with most kudos, which I guess means people admitted they liked it: there will be better days -- which I guess isn’t a surprise, written when it was, but it’s still super gratifying to see that people enjoyed it. This one takes top spot for most of the other categories, too, so I’m going to go for the 2nd-placers on the next few...

fic with (2nd-)most comment threads, which I guess means people wanted to chat about it: In a Cursed Hour, which is a pleasant surprise! This is the very long gen (with sneaky pining!Dean), the first part of which was technically finished this year. I hope I come back to it at some point, because the story is... great, haha. Just super hard to write. Gratifying that people wanted to talk about it!

fic with (2nd-)most bookmarks, which I guess means people want to read it again: see things so much clearer -- aw, now that’s a nice surprise! This kinda felt like channeling old-school weecest, in some ways, so it’s cool that people seem to have enjoyed it.

fic with (2nd)-most subscriptions, which I guess means people are hoping for more: welcome to capitalism -- another nice surprise! I almost forgot about this one: a little ruthless, a little kind. Logical choices in a world that sucks, kind of my favorite genre, haha.

longest fic: what comes after certainty -- ow, ow. This is a---strange one---started in 2019 before the haze, published finally in a bit of ignominy, still not read by the recipient I’m pretty sure because it’s fucking depressing, haha. But I’m kinda proud of it, or at least proud of myself for finishing it, so I guess it’s good that I spent this many words on it.

least popular fic, if we’re going by kudos: transference -- lol, that makes sense -- Umbrella Academy momcest? That said tho, it’s kinda fun and you should read it. Diego’s just the biggest mommy’s boy. Ahem.

The best thing writing-wise about this year was stretching into stuff I wouldn’t normally write, thanks to the charity drives. Maybe I’ll try to do that again this year; I’m sure something horrific will happen that will need some monetary support.

In the meantime, here are all of the fics I wrote this year, in order that they were written. Probably Sam/Dean unless otherwise specified. Imagine retrospective montage music:

January

none. no surprise here.

February

the hollow summer - E. Boy King Sam, AU.

March

‘he has a kiss stuck in his mouth’ - M. Pining!Dean, Stanford era.

no disguising truths i’ve sold - E. John/Deanna, pre-series.

“I almost died” - T. Jared/Jensen, firefighter!Jared fluff.

‘sam waking dean up with his mouth’ - E, somnophilia, married!sex.

relay - E, D/s play.

April

extreme pollen warning - E, sex pollen, established relationship.

whatever we were before - E, Dragon Age AU, mage!Sam/warrior!Dean.

‘cokehead!Alex’ - T. Alex/JDM; part one.

pragmatics - E. Established wincest, past Dean/others. Prostitution.

May

teamwork (makes the dream work) - Alex/Jared/Jensen. cokehead!verse pt 2.

to dream of the next - E. First time, pining!Sam.

In a Cursed Hour: Protesting Fate Supreme - T. Men of Letters AU, ch.6.

June

FFFB 1 - M. Gabriel/Rowena, meeting through the years.

FFFB 2 - E. A/B/O, first time.

FFFB 3 - E. Jensen/Jeff, voyeur!Jared, Non-AU.

FFFB 4 - M. Cloud/Sephiroth, mindfuck.

FFFB 5 - M. Amos/Alex, pantykink.

FFFB 6 - E. Dubcon shading to noncon, pining!Dean.

FFFB 7 - M. Hannibal/Will, first kiss.

FFFB 8 - E. Post-Michael possession, piercings, body mods.

FFFB 9 - M. Tony Stark/Stephen Strange, AU.

FFFB 10 - M. Dean/Bobby, Stanford era.

FFFB 11 - E. Mommy!kink, bunker era.

FFFB 12 - M. Gen, Sam’s wall, mild self-harm.

FFFB 13 - M. Sam Wilson & Bucky Barnes, racial discussion.

FFFB 14 - M. s2, Sam’s cast.

FFFB 15 - E. Jared/Jensen, established relationship, CBT.

FFFB 16 - E. weecest, first time.

FFFB 17 - M. Sam/Dean/Jack.

FFFB 18 - M. Amnesia.

FFFB 19 - E. BDSM, sub!Dean, dildos.

FFFB 20 - E. A/B/O, demon!Dean, noncon.

FFFB 21 - T. Established relationship, Stanford discussion.

FFFB 22 - E. Dubcon, time travel, soulless!Sam/young!Dean, prostitution.

FFFB 23 - M. Implied Dean/John, jealous!Sam.

FFFB 24 - E. ‘The End’!verse, Lucifer!Sam/Dean, noncon.

FFFB 25 - E. Tentacles, body horror, oviposition.

FFFB 26 - E. Belly bulge!kink.

July

none. apparently I needed a break.

August

have a cigar - E. Sam’s powers, slight D/s.

welcome to capitalism - E. Jared/Jensen, prostitution.

September

the wealth gap - E. ‘capitalism’ pt 2; Jared/Jensen, prostitution.

what comes after certainty - M. Mutual pining, amnesia.

reunion theory - E. Cloud/Sephiroth, Cloud/Hojo. Body horror, torture, mpreg. Fic for fire relief 1.

the honeytrap - E. Jared/Jensen, mob!AU. FFFR 2.

scotch courage - M. Sam/Kevin, hair play. FFFR 3.

he will tear your city down - E. Damen/Laurent, slight D/s. FFFR 4.

cyrano - E. Jensen/Antony Starr, established J2. D/s, consensual infidelity. FFFR 5.

two runners on base - E. Dean/Deacon, established relationship, BDSM, DP. FFFR 6.

what’s to stop me, pretty baby - E. Noncon, MoC!Dean. FFFR 7.

the need to choose - E. A/B/O, pregnant!Dean. FFFR 8.

transference - E. Diego Hargreeves/Grace, mommy kink. FFFR 9.

vertex - E. John/Dean, Stanford era, pining!Dean. FFFR 10.

faith without works is dead - M. Sam’s powers, violence, dubcon. FFFR 11.

be subject to each other - E. Photography, facial. FFFR 12.

October

you know i’m gonna be like him - M. Past Dean/John, child abuse. FFFR 13.

unbalance - E. A/B/O, Jared/Jensen, prostitute!Jared. FFFR 14.

buccaneer - E. Crowley/Deanna, demon!Dean, always-a-girl!Dean. FFFR 15.

make much of time - E. Sam/Dean/Jack, virginity kink. FFFR 16.

see things so much clearer - E. Pre-series, first time, diaries. FFFR 17.

won’t let you let me down so easily - E. Sam/Brady, Sam/others, Stanford era, mind control, gangbang, noncon. FFFR 18.

the beams of our house are cedar - E. Bunker era, panties, feminization. FFFR 19.

November

negotiation tactics - E. Homelander/Soldier Boy, D/s, superpower sex.

finale coda - M. Heaven.

15.19 coda - T. Jack as god.

there will be better days - E. Heaven, first time.

December

a leaden anchor - E. Post-Playthings.

That’s it. I haven’t had a single writing thought in my head since that last one. Here’s hoping it comes back in 2021!

[lambourngb]

he’s got a smart mouth but a good heart - Michael Guerin

It’s Day 2, celebrating characters, and much to my own surprise, at the end of season 2, Michael Guerin decided to move into my brain and take up residence. Obviously I still love Alex Manes (He lives first and foremost in my brain since 1x08), but there was something about how Michael buried his own pain about his mother to help everyone in season two that rang pretty true to my own life right now. I didn’t always like what he was doing in season 2 but I understood it.

Anyway, when I find a story that celebrates how complicated he is, I cheer and rejoice- so here’s a few of the stories that I have gone back to again and again.

Truck stop knives and other assessors of childhood @angsty-aliens (13,200) I can’t lie, I love a good trope story, and I especially love a good sci-fi trope story, so this story hits all of my buttons. It takes our two science nerds, Liz and Michael, mucking around, and accidentally creating a version of Michael- but not just any version, but the child who hitchhiked to Fosters ranch, completely over humans and desperate to find his family. The kid who was feral from neglect and abuse... he was the cutest thing and the most mortifying thing that ever happened to Michael to be displayed and shown. This story takes the de-aged trope and turns it on its head, and oh yeah, there’s a sweet backdrop to Michael and Alex getting together.

Implicit Memories of You by @ninswhimsy (3464) - So this is an amnesia story canon-divergent story set after 2x11 basically, where they use the mind erasing drug on Michael. I know, I’m reccing this about Michael characterization, but it’s so solidly him after all the memories are stripped away and he’s acting on instincts, locked in a room to torture Alex with before death. There’s so much going on in so few words, something that Nin is a master at, especially the ephemeral remembrances of his mother that Michael has- oof right in the feels.

Maybe this time (he’ll stay) by @hannah-writes​ (7700) This is a sequel to one of my favorite stories I recced last year, dealing in alternative timelines where in one world, Michael is lost and alone and has pushed Alex away, and in another world where Alex came home from Iraq in a flagged draped coffin. It answers the question, what about Mikey? Where’s his happy ending? The confirmation of the multiverse means there’s an Alex out there who needs him- and through trial and error, Michael finds him. The world building in both stories is top notch, because for every action, there’s a reaction and reason shaping Michael.

Constant as the northern star by celzmccelz (53,000) - don’t know the tumblr here - This is an Mpreg, and it starts solidly after 1x13 and goes AU from there. But what if in the 100 mile drive home from Caulfield, Michael and Alex share a grief-induced moment of insanity where they fall back into their oldest language- sex for comfort, and then Michael does everything he does in the finale, including turning toward Maria, what if there was a souvenir? Despite the trope of mpreg, this is just how I see Michael, deeply in love with Alex but unable to trust that Alex feels the same depth in return. The friendships in here are also top-notch, from Kyle being a baby-doctor, to Isobel having her own Max-related spiral unable to let go of her brother only to refocus on Michael, to Liz fucking off with Rosa for the first half of the story because she’s caught up in her own grief (which turned out to be canon!). And there’s a whole plot here! With Jesse Manes being the worst.

Leave the light on by @sabrinachill​ (36,900) - Confession time- I love fake dating as a trope, I know, shocked right? But I especially love it with RNM because Malex are exes by 1x03. Mattie nailed the dynamic of pining and the assumption of unrequited love so well in this story. Although the POV switches here a bit between chapters, (and Alex is fabulous) what I really really loved was how she wrote Michael, in love but convinced that he’s messed up too much for Alex. Aware of his faults but not in a sullen way, but an acknowledgment that he was in a bad place and Alex hasn’t always been the best remedy him in the past. It was a very mature take on the “give me another chance” trope in Malex reunion stories, where both sides had a share of blame. The plot was suspenseful and tight (how do people do that???) with a climax that honestly shocked me! I really enjoyed rereading it while I prepped my rec-sets, and I won’t be surprised if this story isn’t mentioned by everyone doing ‘Creators Week’. It’s worthy of all the love.

Temporary wounds by @prouvaireafterdark​ (7800) - How many times can I rec this story? Hopefully you’re not bored by my adoration of this Lynne.  So even though it’s set post-season 1 with the assumption that Michael/Maria will fizzle out while Alex/Forrest date- it’s actually perfectly set for season 3 (an author who is psychic??). As a rule, I hate jealousy as a trope, but this story has the only type of jealousy I want to see on screen- where Michael wonders what was missing inside of him that Alex didn’t want to be public during their long affair (even with the acknowledgment that Alex was too scared before)- like that type of sad pining is my catnip!

The first who ever did by nostalijinks (33,000) post season 1, but really it also stands pretty well after season 2.  There was an interview during season 1 I think that talked about how all Michael really wanted was to be a hero to Alex (the way he stepped in front of Jesse as a kid)  but he thinks he failed at it since Alex enlisted. That failure soured him in ways but he never stops trying, for Alex. This is a really well done 5 times plus 1 story, with an overreaching arc of reconciliation between Alex and Michael, starting as teenagers, then as adults while Michael is with Maria, then as friends, real friends, trying to support Alex as Alex dates. The whole emotional journey of maturity that Michael takes here is so well done, where there’s no real villains in the friend group. I just love it. I wish the author had written 100 more like this one, but as a standalone work it’s epic.

The person that you’d take a bullet for is behind the trigger by @iwontbeyourmedicine​ (25,000) Ly has a very large body of work, that you could spend days paging through on AO3 or tumblr, but this one hits two of my kinks hard- the amnesia story line and true love conquers all. So three fandoms ago I was huge into Steve/Bucky, that iconic moment in Cap 2 where Bucky breaks through the brainwashing has never left me. This story takes my love for that moment, and makes it Malex. Alex gets programmed by his family and set loose on his friends, on the aliens and it’s a shitshow bloodbath since he’s really fucking good at kicking ass. Michael is caught between keeping everyone safe and trying not to hurt Alex, and the tension is just top-notch. I love how it’s not an immediate fix either, the way they circle each other in the aftermath, wanting to come home, but home would be a totally new step for both of them. Just chef’s kiss good at joining action, angst, and romance together.

Into the palm of your hand by @haloud​ (5900) hal is a treasured friend, so I am admitting some bias here, but we both enjoy talking about how wonderful and sad Michael is and how desperately we enjoy poking at that softness and then wrapping him up with love again... so this story was written pre-shamegate (and if you know what that means, I’m sorry) but it matches my head canon of what the history of hiding does to someone. The internalization of believing maybe there’s a reason behind the hiding that has nothing to do with homophobic townies. Alex has an ex boyfriend come to town, and he doesn’t tell Michael. And omg the journey hal takes us on with Michael’s spiral and Brave Little Toaster act was so wonderful and painful and real. The communication between these two was top notch as they worked through a road bump from the past, and let’s face it, once we get our malex back, these things are going to happen, and it will either tear them apart or bring them closer together- I prefer to believe it will be closer together.

There is beauty in a failure by @jule1122​ (2400) There’s been a few Greg and Michael stories to pop up on my radar after 2x10, and this one was one of my favorites. This is a Greg who pulls no punches in exposing his brother’s past to Michael, but also gives Michael the space to work through what he wants. It’s an AU from 2x12, that allowed Michael to break up with Maria for basically the same reasons that Maria used on him in 2x13. The way Michael is able to what he wants and communicate it Alex in the end- so good! We can only hope to see something similar in season 3.

I don’t know what to think (but I think of supernovas) by @queersirius​ (3900) This story is a delight from start to finish- I mean frustrated cursing turns the console on into a hologram who then takes the most pleasing form to Michael’s eyes? SIGN ME UP for those shenanigans. I fucking loved how Isobel saw it first too. And then the comedy of Alex discovering it? And what happens afterwards? Oh it’s so delicious. Now of course, full disclosure, this light-hearted romp through the feels also inspired me  to think up a much much sadder version of Michael building an AI for companionship considering how isolated he ended up being at the end of Season 2 and we all know Michael needs friends, badly.

Innuendo by the Roswell anon (6000) written for @bisexualalienblast​  the roswell anon is my favorite treasure in this fandom, I could pretty much list all of their stories as examples of some very fine Michael Guerin characterization. This one was one of my favorite post-season 1 fix-it fics though, because it has some of the most real 28-30 year old guy dialogue I’ve come across- from the crude jokes, to the sharply self-deprecating observations- this is Alex and Michael stripped down, all edges but what’s left is fatigue and love. The resolution at the end, where Alex observes that yes, Michael has tried the last 10 years but this is their first chance to try together- to pull in the same direction? It just lays me flat on the ground with how true that is to canon.

Whenever You Want to Begin, Begin by @foramomentonly (3200) - this is a sequel, and the first story is dynamite- don’t get me wrong- but it moves from the hopeful side of an ending to legit Happily-Ever-After here, and I devoured every word. First of all, having Michael turn to photography as a way of self-improvement is fucking genius. Photographers are always at the center of every happy event, but never the focus, and that screams Michael to me, the way he lives on the outskirts of the 9-5 job and literal outskirts of town in his trailer. The other thing is photographers are revealed by their work, and that’s also something I head-canon with Michael just in the mundane- he’s good with his hands, he wants to leave a car better than he found. Anyway, this story is gorgeously written, moves a bit like a really good bottle of wine- heavy but soft, as you watch Michael become Alex’s friend, and even more importantly, Alex becomes Michael’s friend. Fantastic- I’ve read it about four times now since it was published.

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evanstan. abo. mpreg sebby and mildly overbearing chris would be absolutely fantastic.

I know this ask is from a long time ago when I was taking prompts to pick an mpreg fic to write (which I am writing— recovering!Bucky A/B/O). But I was having some Thoughts about this and kind of ended up with an alpha!Chris x omega!Seb head canon and I’m very happy about that because there is honestly not enough Evanstan A/B/O in the world? (Preface: This head canon is completely independent of my ‘normal’ Evanstan RPF stuff)

warning: fluff and smut ahoy!

Alright so Chris Evans puts a baby in Sebastian Stan let’s do this:

It’s a huge moment when they finally get that positive pregnancy test...

They’d been trying for a worryingly long time and Seb had become convinced that they waited too long, that he was almost 40 now and he was too old to carry a baby.

I’m picturing a lot of Chris laying on the praise and comfort through the shared disappointment of all those negative tests, a lot of “no, no baby you’re perfect, I just need to do more next heat, need to knot you up even better next time, okay?”

Chris is so proud and ecstatic when it finally happens that it all kind of funnels into arousal and he goes and sweeps a crying Seb off his feet like he isn’t a fully grown man, lays him down in their bed and rips off Seb’s clothes without hardly taking his own off.

He presses Seb’s thighs into his chest and fucks his husband like that so he can rub hands all over his still-flat belly and let his mouth run away with “can’t wait to see you all big with our kid, with my kid” and “wish I could put another in you right now, just like this, just like this, just take it”.

The first trimester is kind of hell for them both, and not just because Seb’s got the absolute worst morning sickness.

To be honest I absolutely lol’d @ ‘mildly overbearing’ in the prompt because who are we kidding? Chris would be intensely overbearing until Seb finally has to tell him to tone it the fuck down.

Chris is constantly telling Seb to take it easy and swooping in literally anytime he sees Seb trying to move an object that weighs more than 10 pounds, which is all well and cute and a little charming at first... but then they end up in a massive shouting match the day that Chris implies Seb should quit weight training completely. Massive. Seb tells Chris that he “could never understand how hard it is for an omega actor to keep on muscle between jobs, to be worried you won’t ever get another alpha role or even a beta role because of how hard you have to work just to pass,” but then he keeps going and he ends up saying a lot of things that he doesn’t mean and Chris knows he doesn’t mean them but Chris cries anyways, and that makes Seb cry. The whole thing ends with them on the floor surrounded by medicine balls and holding each other, Chris apologizing over and over and over because he “wasn’t tryna control you, baby, I’m so sorry,” Seb promising to talk to his obstetrics doc how he can maybe adjust his weight routine to be safe for their growing baby.

Other times Chris definitely deserves the cold shoulder, but sometimes Seb is just feeling irritable. He takes to shutting himself away in the bedroom and blasting the song from ‘Never Ending Story’ until he calms down.

The whole first trimester Chris is practically vibrating out of his skin with the itch to tell his family but he can’t yet, Seb wants to wait, which Chris understands and respects but it is so, so hard for him. When they finally hit the 12 week mark and Chris gets to tell them, his mom just smiles and says, “Oh, sweetie, I smelled it on him weeks ago,” and she hugs them both.

Oh my goodness... when Seb starts showing in the second trimester?!?

The night that Seb first looks in the mirror and actually notices a bump, Chris is on their bed reading a script. Seb comes out of the master bathroom, one hand rucking up his over-sized sleep-shirt and resting on his tummy, grinning from ear-to-ear with his eyebrows knitted together adorably with something like awe and a sweet kind of heartache, reaching out for Chris with his other hand and softly saying, “Look, alpha...”— and Seb never calls him that, outside of the deepest throes of heat. The sound of the word and the sight of his omega with his baby growing inside makes something deeply primal surge through Chris so fast and sharp it feels like whiplash, and it comes out as a proud growl.

Seb had known for years how much Chris was dying to finally see him like this, to see him “all pretty and bred up ‘cause of what I did to you”... but oh, god, it’s so much more than he could have ever expected.

The thing is that it’s not just the baby bump Chris is obsessed with. He tries to hide it from Seb but Seb sees it, the way that Chris’s gaze gets all heavy and dark when he starts to notice Seb’s thighs and ass thickening up with fat instead of just muscle. He starts getting handsier every time Seb is around, finding excuses to grab and cup and feel every curve on Seb’s pregnant body.

When they have sex Chris is nothing short of worshipful (if not more than a little possessive). He will lick and kiss every square inch of Seb’s skin before telling Seb to lay back with his ass on the edge of the mattress, and then he’ll hold Seb’s legs up while Chris stands and fucks down into him, practically begging when he tells Seb to put his hands on either side of his own swollen belly, to touch, to stroke around all that struggling skin, to “show me where you keep her safe, show me-- yeah, that’s right, am I the one that put that little girl inside you? Yeah, that was me? Tell me sugar, say it, say ‘Daddy, you--’” 

Sometime in the middle of the second trimester Seb’s hormones make him go from ‘miserable and bitchy’ to something more like ‘fat and happy’ and that mood magically sticks around for the third trimester, even when his ankles start to swell up.

The baby is due in March so that means that Chris gets to spend the entire last trimester taking pictures of Seb bundled up in chunky maternity sweaters and scarves while he looks out over the snowy Massachusetts hills, nose a little pink, cheeks flushed, smiling wide and looking happy and perfectly adorable.

Speaking of pictures-- Chris takes so many of them that Seb almost starts to get annoyed, but then Chris tells him how he just wants to “make sure our little girl knows how gorgeous her mama was when she was growin’ in his belly, she’s never gonna get to see it like I did,” and Seb can’t help but smile. Chris captures that one on film, and he loves it so much he gets it framed.

Seb. Nests. He goes crazy with nesting. Their home was definitely decorated by professionals when they moved in but over the course of his pregnancy Seb slowly starts to make it more personal, starts to buy things from antique shops that catch his eye, purchase art and photography and really soft blankets that strike him as something their home just... needs. There are no professionals present when he and Chris paint the nursery themselves and get paint all over the hardwood floors.

Baby Girl Evans comes into the world very, very early on a Wednesday morning, just after midnight.

Sebastian labors for 18 hours, the first half of which are spent at home while they wait for Seb’s contractions to speed up. Chris knows better than to start freaking out and try to drive Seb to the hospital too early, but it’s a close thing; he wants to freak out. Seb passes the time watching the Food Network on the couch and trying to keep his mind off the pain. He stops trying to time the contractions himself after the first two hours, when he notices Chris press a button on his watch every time Seb starts wincing and breathing extra deep.

The hours fly by and before they know it Seb’s body is saying it’s go-time. Chris stays by Seb’s head the whole time, at Seb’s insistence. He covers Seb’s sweaty forehead and hair in kisses and he murmurs praise and encouragement and tells Seb he’s “so good, so perfect, making our little girl and bringing her into the world so we can love on ‘er forever, so perfect, thank you,” and the majority of the time Seb doesn’t even try and swat him away.

Her first little cry is angry and piercing. It’s the most beautiful thing either of them have ever heard. 

Seb’s mom says she looks like the spitting image of Sebastian. Chris’s mom says she looks just like Chris. Neither Chris nor Sebastian really care who she looks like, so long as they can keep kissing her dimpled chin and staring into her blue eyes.

...

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[naferty]

Your newest post has me in love and confused. In so many different ways. Like little mini baby that looks like an exact copy of Tony♥️♥️♥️ Random tiny baby child that appears at their door and knows about Uncle Rhodey ♥️♥️♥️ But like- is it their actual actual kid or is it their actual kid from another universe that has some trouble going on and Other Universe! Rhodey knows about them because of Other Universe! Tony/Toni was studying them because they knew what was going to happen???

Ooooh, I had initially thought of this baby child as being their son way in the future and getting sent back in time because of reasons and wanting to keep their child safe.

But now because of wonderful you, I went an angsty route and all I could think about is a different ‘verse Tony and Steve, who fell in love as well and have been together for some time, had a child together in whatever method fancies the reader (tube baby, mpreg, Tony or Steve got turned into a woman temporarily and they couldn’t keep their hands off) a little before their civil war began. 

So this ‘verse’ Tony and Steve start to argue over the accords, all while having a newborn under their care. They’re able to be civil at first, for the sake of their infant, but tension soon rises, arguments between teams soon turn violent, and neither Tony and Steve believe they can remain civil with how bad everything is turning. 

Then the worst thing that could happen, happens. Both Steve and Tony in that ‘verse die because of the civil war. No one knows who fired those bullets, but they hit both their marks. Tony died en route to the hospital. Steve died instantly on the streets. 

It’s a terrible day that day. 

But made worse for a little infant who just lost his two parents. 

Uncle Rhodey takes the baby under his care. Having lost his best friend, he feels it’s his absolute responsibility to make sure Tony’s kid grows up strong and healthy and loved. Rhodey is also extremely protective of him. He doesn’t let anyone get close to the baby. Only those he absolutely trusts. The winter soldier and the falcon try multiple times to get close, but hell hath no fury like Rhodey scorned at what happened to his Tony thanks to the group that opposed the accords. Bucky and Sam are not getting close. Sharon and Natasha even less. Rhodey has lawyers, the law and military favors working for him. 

When Steve’s friends get too insistent, making threats to kidnap, Rhodey disappears. Living in a peaceful cabin somewhere not even Natasha knows about. Raising the kiddo with Pepper and Carol’s help. Watching him grow and being the proud uncle he is every time baby Peter hits milestones. 

Tiny Peter grows up with incredible stories about his parents. Rhodey ain’t cruel. Steve Rogers may have turned into an unreasonable asshole in Rhodey’s eyes towards the end, but long before that he had been a good man for Tony. The only man that Tony loved with every piece of his heart. That’s the Captain America he talked about to Peter. The only Captain America and Iron Man tiny Peter knew. 

Then tragedy strikes again on Peter’s seventh year when a second earth threatens to destroy theirs. No amount of brilliant minds banning together to come up with a solution helped. No backstabbing methods, no desperate acts, no sacrificial attempts could stop the worlds colliding. 

Rhodey moves fast. The two earths are hours away from colliding. To keep Peter safe there’s only one person he could think of when all his other backups are currently off the planet. He goes to Strange. Begs him to move Peter somewhere safe and far away from their world. 

Strange chooses the closest ‘verse where Steve Rogers and Tony Stark are still happily in love and alive and clearly not evil. A young ‘verse that hasn’t suffered the traumatic events their world has gone through. Not yet anyway. 

Perhaps their child can help change paths around and find a better outcome down the road? 

Rhodey says goodbye to baby Peter. Tells him when he gets there to only talk to his dad and papa. No one else. Rhodey also tells Peter the next time he sees him, he might not remember him and to not be sad about it. Uncle Rhodey won’t remember, but Uncle Rhodey will still love him the same. Just as he loves him now. Don’t ever forget that. 

He gives Peter one last hug, holds back the tears and pushes him through the portal. 

The earths collie two hours later. 

[graceful-starker]

Home Ch. 2

Chapter summary: Tony returns home to find out Peter is missing.

Chapter warnings: kidnapping, omegaverse, mpreg, abuse, rape, self-victim blaming

~

When Tony get asked off his plane, he expected his pregnant omega to be bouncing in excitement next to his bodyguard and driver.

He was not expecting Natasha and Steve.

Tony frowns heavily, walking over to the pair. “What’s going on?”

Natasha and Steve share a look, before the latter steps forward. “It’s Peter,” he says softly.

Tony immediately feels his chest constrict. “Where is he? Where is my omega?”

Natasha steps forward now, trying to appease the anxious alpha. “We’re going to find him, okay Tony? I swear it. We’ll find him.”

Tony grabs onto her arms, and Steve shifts as if to stop Tony. As if Black Widow couldn’t defend herself against an unarmed man. “What are you doing here, then?! Go, find him! Now!”

Tony is hysterical, after that. Happy and Rhodey have to wrangle him into the car, and wrestle him into the tower. He doesn’t want to listen or talk; he wants to find his pregnant mate.

He never should have left his Peter.

~

Tony clenches his hands into fists, fighting the urge to cut Fury off. It won’t get him any points.

“…so, I think it’s time to call it, Stark. Most kidnappings are deemed too late after a few days, and we’ve been searching for a month.”

Tony stands up, and Steve’s hand holds him back. Probably for the better. “We don’t stop until he’s either safe in my arms, or we find his body. If you don’t want to use your resources or time, then fine. But I, and anyone who even cares a little bit about Peter, are not giving up.”

“Stark, this isn’t-“ Fury quirks a brow as Tony snarls viciously.

“I can’t breathe, without him. He and my baby are out there somewhere, waiting for me to come protect him! He needs his alpha, he needs me, and he’s waiting for me! You wouldn’t understand, being a heartless monster and all, but you don’t give up on people you love. You don’t just throw in the towel when your mate is missing.”

“Okay,” Steve says, putting himself in front of Tony. “He gets it. We aren’t giving up, okay? Me and Nat and the rest of the team, we’re not giving up. It’s okay.”

Tony still feels the animalistic urge to put Fury into submission, but he doesn’t. “I’m going to my lab. I’m going to have Friday look for him again.”

Steve nods, starting to walk with him. “Okay. We’ll find him, Tony. We’ll find him.”

~

Tony takes a sip from his whiskey, scrolling through more images.

Every time Friday sees someone who looks even remotely like Peter, she sends Tony a picture. And Tony looks at the omega, knows it isn’t his omega, and gets depressed.

Friday is looking through every cell phone, every computer camera, every security camera. Whoever has Peter is smart, and is keeping him out of view.

Natasha has started knocking on people’s doors, if they have houses with basements or attics.

Steve and Bucky going through every single possible way the kidnapper could have left. They’re checking car rentals, car purchases, bus fares, taxis; everything.

He even has Strange searching for Peter. He doesn’t know what the wizard is doing, but the more people that help the better he feels.

Not that he feels good, really. He feels like he’s in a constant state of panic and desperation.

It’s been two months since he’s seen his omega. Since he’s held him, kissed him, smelled him. Since he got to talk to his baby growing inside Peter.

Two months.

~

Peter is trying his hardest.

But he’s lost track of how long it’s been since he’s been kidnapped. He doesn’t remember how long it’s been since he saw his kidnapper, let alone Tony.

His bump is bigger. His baby kicks more. It’s been a significant amount of time. But how much time?

He does know that it has been exactly 7 sleeps since his last meal. The pains in his stomach are agonizing, and all he wants is something to eat.

He’s so hungry, that he ate a dead fly that was laying in the corner of his room.

After he wakes up for the 8th time to no food, and it’s been hours since he felt his baby move, he can’t take it anymore.

Tony will forgive him. Surly. It’s for their baby, otherwise he wouldn’t do this. He wouldn’t.

“Alpha,” Peter wails at the door. He’s been doing it for weeks now, but he never gets a response. “Please alpha, your omega needs you,” he tries. That part is new.

“Please, your omega needs you alpha…you have to take care of your omega! I’m starving!” He puts a hand on the door, tears streaming down his face. “Please, I don’t want to die!”

The door opens, and Peter almost shouts in relief. He attacks the alpha in a hug, sobbing into his chest and nuzzling against his neck to scent him.

Every fiber of Peter’s being is screaming at him that this is wrong, that he’s betraying Tony, that he’s a terrible omega.

But then the alpha pulls back and smiles down at Peter, leaning forward with puckered lips, and Peter can’t think anymore.

He reaches up on his tip toes, kissing the alpha as hard as he can with how weak he feels.

The man pulls back, smirking happily down at the omega. He’s obviously proud of himself for getting Peter to this level of desperation. “Hello, omega.”

“Alpha,” Peter cries, clinging to his clothes. “Please, I’ll be so good for you alpha! I promise!”

“I know you will,” he says ominously. “My name is Beck. I’m your alpha.”

“My alpha, Beck,” Peter repeats, trying his best to be good. He needs to learn how to be good, so he can earn time with another human and food.

Beck nods, stepping further into the room. “Are you ready to be my good omega, now? No more fighting? No more silly words about a different alpha?”

Peter nods desperately, still holding onto Beck’s clothes. “I promise. I promise I’ll be good. I promise.”

Beck hums happily. “Good,” he says. He pulls a granola bar out of his pocket, handing it to Peter.

The omega grabs it like a feral beast, ripping the plastic open and taking a huge bite. He chews as fast as he can, barley even tasting it before it’s gone.

Beck laughs at him, shaking his head fondly. As if the omega did something funny. “Such a little piggy you are,” he teases. He hands Peter some water, and the omega gulps it down.

Now that his belly is full and he knows he isn’t going to die, it’s harder to keep playing nice. But he knows he has no choice; he has to stay alive until Tony rescues him, after all. “Alpha…thank you alpha, thank you!”

Beck hums and leans down for another kiss, and Peter fights his revulsion. “Good omega. You have to keep my baby safe growing inside of you, don’t you?”

Peter physically flinches at the words. He doesn’t want to being his baby into this. It feels like a bigger betrayal than just kissing another alpha for food. “Y-yes, alpha.”

“Say it,” Beck growls, smile disappearing. “Say you’re growing my baby inside you.”

Peter’s throat constricts, and he fights back the urge to cry. It won’t help; it’ll hurt, actually. “Alpha, I’m growing…I’m growing your baby inside of me,” he forces out, tears building in his eyes.

Beck grins evilly, a sadistic glow in his eyes. “Good boy,” he coos, pulling Peter close and kissing him again. “How about I get you a bed, since you’ve been such a good boy?”

Peter gasps at the idea. He’s been sleeping on the cold concrete floor for…however long he’s been here. “Oh alpha, you’re so kind to me!” He wails.

Beck chuckles darkly. “I know,” he agrees.

~

Peter climbs into Beck’s lap, kissing at his neck and whimpering softly.

“What’s wrong, pet?” Beck coos, hands sliding down to cup the omega’s ass.

“I want…I w-want…a sh-shower, alpha. It’s been so long since I’ve been cleaned,” he looks up at Beck with big wet eyes. “I’m too dirty for you, alpha, you deserve better!”

Peter would normally feel bad about manipulating someone like he’s manipulating the alpha. But Beck is the one manipulating Peter, so he thinks it’s okay.

“You are dirty,” Beck agrees. He seems to think about it for a moment, before sighing. “Okay. You and I can take a shower together, okay?”

Peter pales a little. So far, Beck hasn’t done much to him. But a shower is…it’s a place where something would be easy to happen.

“Unless you don’t want your alpha to keep you. Maybe you’d be better off as a dirty whore, hm? I’m sure you’d be worth a pretty penny-“

“No!” Peter cries, shaking almost violently at the thought. “No I…I want to be good for you, alpha. I only want you to touch me, I don’t want any other nasty alpha,” he begs.

Beck seems pleased by Peter’s words, and squeezes Peter softly. “Good boy,” he says. “Come on, let’s go shower.”

Peter has a hand cupped around the back of his neck, leading him like a punished puppy. He’s forced up the stairs, and into a hall bathroom.

Beck locks the door, and starts the shower. He’s watching Peter the entire time, as if the omega plans on bolting.

Peter doesn’t know how he would get out of here, even if he did try.

“Okay omega, it’s warm. Get undressed and get in.” Beck starts to undress himself as well, as if it’ll make Peter feel safer.

It doesn’t. It makes him feel even more scared.

But he strips, and he slowly makes his way into the shower. Beck steps in behind him, and then turns Peter around to face him. “Good omega,” he coos softly, barley able to be heard over the water. He tilts Peter’s head backwards, and Peter closes his eyes to avoid getting water in them.

He lets the alpha run his fingers through his hair, the water soaking it. The alpha’s hands slide down, running over Peter’s neck. They move up to slide over his cheeks, cupping them with his thumbs resting on Peter’s lips. “You’re so beautiful, omega,” he purrs.

Peter forces himself to smile, keeping his eyes closed. “For you, alpha,” he mumbles.

The older man hums happily, moving his thumbs and stealing a kiss. Peter kisses back softly, not wanting to put too much effort into it.

He sighs happily as Peter does, before pulling back and putting shampoo in the palm of his hand.

Once Peter closes his eyes and the smell of the flowery shampoo fills the air, he can pretend it’s Tony giving him the shower it lulls him into a false sense of safety.

But then, he has to wash Peter’s body.

Beck takes his time while washing between Peter’s legs, rubbing between his cheeks and circling his finger around Peter’s hole.

“Alpha,” he whispers, starting to get scared.

“Sh, not today darling. You aren’t ready yet. I promise.” Beck says back. He then moves his hand around, grabbing Peter’s cocklet and stroking from base to tip.

“Wait, alpha,” Peter feels tears spring to his eyes, and his knees start to shake.

How the hell would he explain cumming from another alpha’s hand to Tony? Getting raped is one thing, but no one wants an omega who enjoys getting off by another alpha!

“It’s okay, I’m not going to hurt you, omega. I’ll never hurt you. I’ll only make you feel good,” the alpha promises.

Peter starts to cry, holding onto the alpha’s shoulders weakly. “W-wouldn’t you r-rather me g-get you off alpha? What k-kind of omega p-puts their p-pleasure above their alpha’s?”

Beck groans, and Peter can see his cock twitch between them. “You’re such a perfect omega, aren’t you?” He asks rhetorically. “That’s right baby, but this is what I want right now. It’ll bring me pleasure angel.”

Peter silently cries, chest heaving. He can pretend that it’s the water cascading down his face if Beck asks.

Peter tries his best to not enjoy it, he really does. But Beck’s hand is so soapy and wet and tight and warm, and he—

It takes much longer than it normally would have, but Peter does finish.

He shakes with guilt after, sobbing as he clings to Beck.

Tony might save him, but he won’t want Peter after he finds out what he did to survive.

Beck coos and pets Peter’s back. “It’s okay,” he says softly. “It’s okay. You’re such a good boy, my perfect little omega.”

“Please,” Peter sobs brokenly. “Please, I want to go home.”

Beck laughs meanly, rinsing Peter off. “You are home, silly! This is the only home you’ll ever have again, and I’m the only alpha that will ever want you again.”

Peter sobs brokenly; he agrees that Tony won’t ever want him again. But it still hurts to hear it out loud.

[buckybarnesbingo]

BBB Week 17 Roundup!

We have the date set for our next party!  This coming weekend on July 17th all over the world, we’ll be doing our Discord Party!  Square trades between participants will be open, and adoptable prompts will be up for grabs, as well as our usual party games and other fun.  Come join us!

Title: A bow and nothing else Collaborator(s): Girl_Back_There Link: AO3 Square: Y2 - Teammates Rating: Explicit Ship(s): Steve/Bucky Major tags/warnings: Talks of Panic Attacks, Canon Divergence, Shrunkyclunks, Birthday Sex, Light Dom/Sub Undertones Summary: Steve’s birthday is coming up and Bucky has no idea what to get him. How do you shop for a man like Steve Rogers? Turns out the Avengers are really unhelpful on this one. Word count: 3688

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Title: Distractions Collaborator(s): Ruckystarnes Link: Tumblr Square: C2 - Kink: Body Worship Rating: Explicit Ship(s): Bucky x reader Major tags/warnings: Semi public sex, public sex, oral sex (f receiving), fingering, biting Summary: Bucky has a terrible timing when he wants you Word count: 397

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Title: Unplanned Collaborator(s): TiBun Link: AO3 Square: B4 - Last Chance Rating: Teen Ship(s): Winterhawk Major tags/warnings: Mpreg Summary: Bucky's enjoying a nice, quiet spring day at the Avenger's Compound when life changing news comes dropping down out of the ceiling vents. Word count: 1534

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Title: Patience Gets Rewarded Collaborator(s): snowstark Link: Tumblr Square: K4 - Kink: “Please let me come” Rating: Explicit Ship(s): Bucky Barnes/Tony Stark Major tags/warnings: Dom/sub play, Dirty Talk, Smut Summary: Bucky gets some work done while Tony shakes and cries on a sybian, tied and gagged, forced to patiently wait until Bucky's finished to get some relief. And boy, do they both get some relief. Word count: 2520

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Title: Buck Collaborator(s): Raz Link: Tumblr Square: C2 - Turned into an Animal Rating: Gen Ship(s): N/A Major tags/warnings: tw animal injury, deer, stag, buck, Bucky, wolf, wolves, Summary: “You seeing this?” “I’ve never seen anything like it-” “Holy-” “...” “...does that buck have a metal leg?” An unusual stag has been seen wandering the forest, no one knows when it arrived or where it came from. It’s larger than most, wears a strange pelt on it’s back unlike any other deer, as well as being seemingly stronger and more intelligent than it’s neighbours. Stranger still they tend to avoid other herds either by choice or they don’t sit right with the locals who knows. Fends itself from wolves just fine. But the strangest aspect of all is the metallic limb. Word count: N/A

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Title: P.S. I Love You (although I never say it) Collaborator(s): Magica Link: AO3 Square: Y5 - Bucky/Thor Rating: Teen Ship(s): Loki & Thor Major tags/warnings: AU - canon divergence, angst, implied/off-screen character death, sad/bittersweet ending, nerve damage, major injury, Loki feels Summary: Loki just has to reach out one last time. Even if he'll be gone by the time Thor gets it. Word count: 1145

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Title: the feeling you get in the golden state Collaborator(s): Malakh / flintrage Link: AO3 Square: C5 - Sharing A Bed Rating: Gen Ship(s): Bucky Barnes & Sam Wilson Major tags/warnings: Fluff, Friendship, Sharing A Bed, Genfic, Lazy Mornings, Platonic Relationships Summary: There was only one bed, so they shared it like mature adults would. Barnes wakes up and has some feelings about friendship first thing in the morning, like some kind of buffoon. Word count: 750

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Title: Unexpected Visitor Collaborator(s): ABrighterDarkness Link: AO3 Square: B2 - Kink: Held Down Rating: Explicit Ship(s): Bucky/Steve Major tags/warnings: Sexual Content, Spiders, Shrunkyclunks Summary: Bucky was sure that eventually, someday, it would be one of those things they looked back on and laugh. Word count: 1000

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Title: sipping on straight chlorine Collaborator(s): cyanica Link: AO3 Square: B4 - angst Rating: Mature Ship(s): bucky/Steve Major tags/warnings: pica, eating disorders, past torture, psychological trauma, body horror, mental health issues Summary: Thousands of aching, agonising twists and knots pulsed throughout his stomach as if he’d swallowed nothing but shards of glass and broken gravel and fragmented bones, and maybe – maybe – he had. The Soldier is not human, and only humans eat food. Or Bucky eats glass and batteries and gasoline. Word count: 1531

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Title: Like Cotton Candy Clouds Collaborator(s): BBD2BH Link: AO3 Square: U5 - Schmoop Rating: Teen Ship(s): Bucky Barnes/Steve Rogers Major tags/warnings: Canon Divergence, Boys Kissing, Pre-serum Steve Rogers, Pre World War II Bucky Barnes and Steve Rogers, Fluff Summary: The only thing Bucky loves more than cotton candy is cotton candy on Steve's lips. Word count: 1652

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Title: Cool Kids Collaborator(s): ariel caótica/caótica on AO3 Link: AO3 Square: Y2 - Shared Trauma Rating: Teen Ship(s): Steve Rogers/Bucky Barnes Major tags/warnings: Alternate Universe - Everybody Lives/Nobody Dies Summary: Steve is bad at technology. Bucky thinks it's hilarious. Word count: 576

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Title: Jean Jacket Collaborator(s): ariel caótica/caótica on AO3 Link: AO3 Square: K1 - jean jacket Bucky Rating: Teen Ship(s): Sam Wilson/Bucky Barnes Major tags/warnings: Fluff, Alternate Universe - Modern: No Powers, Fluff, Meet-Cute Summary: Sam is into fashion. His boyfriend Bucky? Not so much. Word count: 814