#let peter get mad at seb!!!

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(spoilers for reboot s2, but not the endgame!)

thinking about the reboot cloning plot again and you know I love a clone plot, but the fact that This Specific clone plot is presented as a neutral to positive thing kinda rubs me the wrong way. I think there should be more exploration of how fucked up it was.

Like... Seb decides, without consulting most of his teammates, that the best-slash-only way for Pr0 to escape his pursuers is to die. He does not ask Pr0 about this plan, he does not tell Pr0 about this plan. He just straight up Murders Him. That's already a pretty big violation, and it's done to a character whose arc is about escaping control and abuse.

THEN, when Pr0's cloned, Seb just... decides, again, Without Any Input, that what would be best for Pr0 is to have his memories edited to process/heal his trauma. Better than just deleting it entirely, I guess, but it's kinda iffy that 1. in rebootworld there is apparently A Singular Point Of Healing after which trauma doesn't bother you any more and 2. you can get to that point precisely via invasive surgery/genetic reprogramming adn. 3. this is a kind and good thing to do to (to!!! he's not doing it FOR Pr0! pr0's fucking dead! Seb killed him!!) your friend who Has Been Controlled Posessed And Moulded For Most Of His Life. not to mention that Seb, iirc, specifically words it as like. hey can you make him more useful to us. Kinda fucked up innit

also they straight up inject 4 years of simulated military service into pr0's mind and like That's also kinda fucked up eh. What if that also gives him trauma. What if pr0 was anti-war and would never have wanted those memories and the resulting alterations to his personality. He might've been, man, we don't know. because again Sebastian Killed Him.

anyways pr0 is explicitly a new person (without any of those pesky coping mechanisms that annoyed his teammates, yippee!! /sarcastic) now, and again. like. this Could Have Been Good. if it was treated as "yo that was kinda fucked up". but no. Peter/clone-Pr0 is totally chill with it. Even Xiang, who explicitly believes that peter/clone-pr0 is a separate person and original pr0 is dead, is totally chill with it. She's still dating Seb. Y'know. The guy who murdered your friend/apprentice in front of you.

And for some more fun (worrying) context, Seb is, at this point, Actively Preparing his plan for global eugenics to... forcibly sterilise all mean people, I guess?? I don't actually recall the details. But he is all too happy about making unilateral decisions on who deserves to live.

(His global eugenics plan which he would've gone through with if his gf hadn't talked him out of it, to be clear! His gf Xiang who is disabled and presumably Asian, and therefore probably has a vested interest in Not Doing Eugenics, and this still doesn't impact her opinion of Seb very much. Xiang deserved better, I'm sorry. I love everything about her except her taste in men.)

Oh, and for Further Context, the guy who offers to adjust Pr0's mind and actually makes the adjustments (and takes it upon himself to age Pr0 up four years physically) legally owns Pr0. Just in case you're wondering if it's really that fucked up to make non-consensual mind and body modifications to a human trafficking survivor whose previous non consensual body modifications were explicitly done by his captors as a form of abuse. Y'know.

Oh, fuck, and now I'm realising that said previous modifications (cybernetics, experimental drugs, etc - they're mentioned in ep1) were for the purpose of making him a better weapon. And in-universe, the necessity of giving Jazza's character some more combat levels comes through as Seb going "hey, dad, could you make him a better weapon". clears throat. Fucked Up innit.)

AND the only team member Seb consults about killing and rebooting Pr0 in the first place is Incongruent, iirc, who is also the only other main character with a "replace all humans with a better race [robots]" plan. Also worth noting that when Incongruent, a member of an oppressed class directly reacting to his oppression, wants to replace all humans, it's kinda fucked up and part of the dystopia and the other characters don't like it very much and Incongruent changes his mind of his own accord, but when Seb and his mom, members of the ruling class, want to replace humanity, it's hand-waved as an "oh well" dropped plot thread despite that having Even More potential to be a load-bearing piece of worldbuilding w/r/t "this is a fucked up dystopia".

I do get why this happened on a meta level - Jazza needed to reboot (heh) his character build. And in-universe, it kinda works, it has some fun parts. In isolation I really like how chill Peter is about being a clone. Icon behaviour. I also get that Seb is reacting to his own horrific trauma. But just. Y'know. I didn't like Seb in this arc very much, and I wish the narrative had acknowledged that more.

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paint the town red - part ten

THE GREAT ADMIN WAR

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HUNGARY 2024

charles leclerc i'm sorry seb! you can't be mad at me.

sebastian vettel charles, you told the internet i had a crush on mark

charles leclerc but you did?

carlos sainz and you told them about his almost make-out with max.

ollie bearman we all saw that coming. i was around for mexico last year.

tony stark are you sleeping with the enemy leclerc?

charles leclerc no.

harley keener oh boy wait until this guy finds out who he is sleeping with

charles leclerc shut your fucking mouth keener!

tony stark i promised pepper i would stop being annoying

arthur leclerc WAIT- IS HE- OH MY GOD!

tony stark WHAT THE HELL DID YOU GET FROM THAT?

ollie bearman OH MY GOD! HOW IS HE THE GENIUS?

bianca stark-potts oh you have got to be fucking kidding me.

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me & bae

for context, this is what he sent me at 7:30 in the morning.

carol danvers added one person

wanda maximoff so he's bae now?

bianca stark-potts no? yelena belova she loooves him

kamala khan oh my god this is the best day of my life.

yelena belova that is a child.

carol danvers kamala is not a child.

queen shuri how old is she?

kamala khan i'm 16!

riri williams by the way, who's bianca seeing?

queen shuri charles

riri williams HER DRIVER?

natasha romanoff now that i think about he is exactly her type.

pepper potts goofy? michelle jones will most likely blush when she calls him a pet name? wanda maximoff flirts with his childhood rival? queen shuri green eyes? natasha romanoff exactly.

bianca stark-potts when have i ever dated someone like him?

yelena belova SO YOU ARE DATING?!

bianca stark-potts NO STOP IT!

kamala khan but she likes him!

bianca stark-potts WHO LET THE CHILD IN HERE?

carol danvers i have never been this interested in someone's love life before.

kamala khan that's because you were in space for the longest time and are now dating an asgardian. carol danvers KAMALA! kamala khan i'm getting the feeling that no one knew that.

natasha romanoff WHAT? WHO?

bianca stark-potts 10 bucks it's valkyrie

carlos danvers 10 bucks bianca's dating charles but won't admit it because she's afraid that natasha and wanda will do what they did last time.

wanda maximoff it was something perfectly normal to do.

bianca stark-potts YOU BROKE INTO HIS HOUSE! natasha romanoff and he ended up cheating on you so really, no regrets.

michelle jones does charles know that harry was the one who gave you the dog? the same dog who loves charles very much and that charles adores?

kate bishop OSBORN?

bianca stark-potts not my brightest moment

kate bishop EVERYONE KNOWS OSBORN IS THE BIGGEST DICKHEAD AROUND!!

bianca stark-potts HE WASN'T A DICKHEAD WHEN WE FIRST STARTED DATING!!

kate bishop HE'S ALWAYS BEEN A DICKHEAD! HE JUST TRICKED YOU!

peter parker heeyy, guess what i just found out talking to red bull's media admin.

isaiah atkins peter if this another genius idea to wage war against the other teams i will tie you against our hospitality.

peter parker that is aggressive. but no bianca's going to hate this.

harley keener oh this is gonna be good.

peter parker guess who red bull invited to the next gp.

tony stark oh no. bianca stark-potts i knew this was going to bite me in the ass when carol brought him up.

charles leclerc what are we talking about?

harley keener oh boy, i can't wait to see how this one will go down.

bianca stark-potts HARLEY SHUT THE FUCK UP!

tony stark seriously hungary of all places? why not miami or monaco? hell texas or vegas would be a better place.

tony stark can't believe the dickhead said yes.

sebastian vettel what the hell is he upset about now?

peter parker oh it's great, bianca's ex boyfriend is attending the hungarian grand prix with red bull. peter parker the same one who gave her the dog we all know and love

bianca stark-potts PETER!!

ollie bearman i thought you said a friend gave you that?

harley keener oh it gets better. he asked her out with the dog as a gift.

charles leclerc oh.

charles leclerc would you look at that i suddenly have something to do with my brother.

arthur leclerc we do? charles leclerc yes we do

tony stark what's wrong with him?

sebastian vettel how do you not get it?

peter parker i'm also confused.

ollie bearman you're both hopeless.

ex-boyfriend huh?

harry and i dated but i never brought him up because he cheated on me. it's just- it's not important

he gave you a dog when he asked you to be his girlfriend.

i asked you out using a lightning mcqueen meme that you posted on your story.

and it was very adorable charles. i wouldn't change it for the world.

i'm not asking for you to do extravagant things like harry did. usually when he did them it meant he was cheating on me again.

a dog is not extravagant.

and what do you mean again?

it happened like four or five times each time with the same girl. the only reason i found out was because nat and wanda broke into his apartment.

they won’t do that to me right?

they might?

my apartment is a mess! they can’t break in with it like that!

glad to know those are your priorities.

are you kidding me, it’s black widow and the scarlet witch, they can’t see my messy apartment!

charles, it'll be fine. i doubt they'll break into your apartment.

but if they do?

they won't.

what if they do?

i'll talk to them.

bianca stark-potts

kamala khan that's so adorable.

michelle jones and they call this man a terror?

yelena belova he was a terror. i've seen the videos

natasha romanoff now i want to break into his apartment to see how messy it is.

wanda maximoff this is all the confirmation i needed to know that they are dating.

maria hill she warned him about you two breaking into his apartment. they're dating.

queen shuri i can't wait to see tony lose his shit over this.

riri williams i can should've seen this coming. he's exactly her type. america chavez you've been around less than me HOW DO YOU KNOW HER TYPE? riri williams i read the groupchat america!

hope van dyne i was in a meeting what did i miss?

hope van dyne OH MY GOD!! SCOTT OWES ME SO MUCH MONEY!!

bianca stark-potts YOU BET ON ME?

hope van dyne we bet that you would end up with a driver and we were right! scott thought it would be logan or lando. my money was on verstappen or charles.

alex albon all those in favor of max releasing the mad dutchman on this osborn guy

max verstappen why would i do that?

lando norris isn't it obvious? because she's dating the platonic love of your life

pierre gasly he's the platonic love of my life! yuki tsunoda do i mean nothing to you? pierre gasly yuki, no, it's not what it looks like!

george russell max just do as we ask! take him out!

oscar piastri as a date or murder? lando norris either works.

lando norris notice how he didn't argue that charles is the platonic love of his life.

max verstappen charles is not the platonic love of my life. it's daniel.

daniel ricciardo i'll take him out. i'll do it for vegas 2019!

charles leclerc NO! NO ONE TAKE HIM OUT!

charles leclerc WHAT'S THE FASTEST WAY TO CLEAN A MESSY APARTMENT?

pierre gasly WE'RE IN HUNGARY YOU IDIOT!

charles leclerc I AM IN DANGER OF IT GETTING BROKEN IN BY BLACK WIDOW AND THE SCARLET WITCH!! SOS!!

george russell WHY WOULD THEY DO THAT?

carlos sainz according to harley it's ritual to do with all of bianca's boyfriends.

max verstappen wait what does that have to do with harry?

charles leclerc oh so he's harry now? max verstappen christian said i have to be nice to him. something about him being some good investor but i couldn't care less charles leclerc take him out. max verstappen and why should i do that charles? charles leclerc ARE YOU KIDDING ME VERSTAPPEN!! HE- YOU KNOW- HE CHEATED ON BIANCA!! max verstappen and why is that important charlie? charles leclerc THAT'S MY GIRLFRIEND YOU IDIOT! THAT'S WHY!

max verstappen BOOM! I WIN! PAY UP LOSERS!

pierre gasly NO YOU CALLED HIM CHARLIE! YOU CHEATED!

max verstappen I TOLD YOU LOSERS I COULD GET HIM TO CONFIRM THAT THEY WERE DATING!

charles leclerc YOU MADE A BET ON ME?

carlos sainz it's not fair, they didn't let me participate because i'm your teammate

oscar piastri can i let it be known that i didn't want anything to do with this?

logan sargeant LIAR! YOU WERE THE BOOKIE!

charles leclerc I TRUSTED YOU OSCAR!

oscar piastri it was either bookie or they were going to make me flirt with peter and figure out if he knew something.

daniel ricciardo i'm back what did i miss?

daniel ricciardo OH COME ON MAX GOT HIM TO SPILL THE BEANS BEFORE ME??

alex albon there is no getting in the way of lestappen daniel. it's time we accepted that. bianca should too if she's going to date charles.

charles sat in his room, frowning down at his phone nothing was worse than a 'we need to talk text.' his stomach currently felt like there were a million bees buzzing around in there. the knock at his door startled him and he rushed to open it, being met with the sight of of bianca. she smiled brightly at him, causing the bees to subside a bit.

"you wanted to talk?" charles asked. bianca noticed the scared expression on charles' face and her eyes widened, quickly understanding what charles thought there talk was going to about.

“no! this isn’t that kind of talk, i swear,” bianca quickly said.

“then what is it about?” charles questioned.

“can i come in?” charles nodded, stepping out of the doorway and opening the door wider, allowing her in. bianca gave him a slight smile, before moving to sit on the couch in his room. she sighed, “i owe you an explanation about harry.”

“no, you don’t,” charles said, as he sat next to her. bianca laid her head on his shoulder. charles intertwined their hands, “i do, and it’s the least i can do. besides, if i learned anything from that relationship it’s that honesty is always the way right thing to do.”

“okay,” charles whispered. bianca sighed again, “i met him at some charity event my dad was holding, when i was a little girl, before he was iron man. os corp was stark industries biggest rival, it still is. but somehow we were friends growing up.”

“romeo and juliet,” charles muttered. bianca laughed, “funny, my mom said the same thing. we- we didn’t start dating until we were 17, both of our dads were against it, but norman. norman saw it as an opportunity to show the public that he and my didn’t hate each other. i was a business opportunity to him.”

charles frowned, "that's not very nice of him."

"well he turned out to be a supervillain on another earth who hated peter. so fingers crossed he doesn't turn out like that here."

"what?"

"that's a wild story for another time," bianca explained, "but i loved harry. he was my first everything, except kiss. i lost that one in a game of truth or dare at a party when i was 13."

"hmm, i was kissed in front of a swing set when i was 9."

bianca laughed, "i loved him charlie, and he used it against me. the girl's name isn't important, although, she was very much aware that harry was in a relationship with me. the entire time we were together he was with her. 3 years of my life down the drain, wasted on someone who was never even worth it."

"i'm sorry chérie (dear) ," charles whispered as he hugged her, bianca burying her head in the crook of his neck, "you should've never gone through that with someone like him. maybe it was a good idea to convince max to take him out."

"like a date? or like murder?"

charles shrugged with one shoulder, "it doesn't matter, either works. although, i think kelly might be upset over the date one."

"and christian would upset when max ends up in prison for murder."

charles laughed and bianca giggled softly, "he's such a connard," charles said.

"i don't know what that means," bianca admitted.

"asshole. it means asshole."

"good," bianca said, "because he is one."

"we should- non c'est bête (no, it's stupid)," charles cut himself off. bianca pulled away from him, "no, what were you going to say?"

"it is dumb," charles said as he dismissed his own thoughts.

"it's not," bianca argued, "what is it?"

"we should- we should go somewhere over break. like as a couple. that is what we are no?"

bianca smiled widely at him, "yes we are, and we should. where are we going?"

"oh," charles said, surprised, "i did not think you would say yes. i have not thought that far ahead."

"it's okay. we can go anywhere. i don't mind."

"well i'm glad we are a couple because i accidentally told a few other drivers we were dating."

"charles, i called you bae, and wanda immediately caught on."

charles laughed and bianca smiled at him. she curled into him, laying her head on his chest. the stark-potts girl yawned, "can i take a nap?"

"yeah," charles whispered, "you can take a nap. i think i'll nap with you."

"i'd like that." bianca whispered as she closed her eyes.

SPA 2024

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scuderiaferrari it's a rainy one here in spa but we're glad to end the first half of the season on such a high note. it's another double podium for the ferrari boys. see y'all after the break! next stop: zandvoort!

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username this has literally been the best mid season ending ferrari has had in who knows how long.

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harleykeener LET'S FUCKING GO!

↳ harleykeener is this what red bull felt like last year?

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↳ peterbparker ISAIAH GROUNDED ME AFTER THE INNOCENT WAR I WAGED!

↳ charles_leclerc at least he didn't tie you to the hospitality like he threatened.

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¡leclerc-s speaks! okay, i needed to give bianca an ex but i could not be bothered to come up with a face claim or name for him so i just went with harry osborn. i know technically the osborn family doesn't exist in the main mcu universe but in my world they do. i also googled a fan cast for harry osborn and the most popular one was timothee so i went with him. please ignore any typos in this, i made this on no sleep because insomnia is a bitch.

¡disclaimer! this is in no way making assumptions about the people involved in this story, this is all fake. it is a fanfiction please don't take any of what is said seriously. this is all for entertainment purposes and as a creative outlet for me. enjoy!

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13. But I'll believe in you, still your number one fan

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Chapter soundtrack: The Last One - Maisie Peters

He didn't have the energy to follow her outside. He screwed up twice in two days. First, with his best friend and now with the girl he was hopelessly in love with. Regrets filled him. He didn't even get the chance to tell her he loved her, and now she was gone. His cheek was hurting, but he didn't care. No amount of physical pain would compare to the one he felt in his heart.

He heard people cheering and celebrating. He should be there, he should support his team and his friend, but all he wanted to do was leave this goddamn place. On his way out, he crossed paths with Ethan, who was looking frustrated; the race hadn't gone well for him either. But when he saw his best friend looking distraught, he didn't hesitate to come to him. Kyle explained everything from his fight with Romy to his illness and saw the confusion before the fear in Ethan's eyes and a hint of sadness in him. He was hurting everyone around him and was hating himself for it. He saw Ethan reluctantly leaving him. He had his own girlfriend, not really a girlfriend, to search for. Kyle couldn't blame him. They would have time to talk about this later. For now, he had to find Romy and try to make amends. He wandered the paddock alleyways, starting with Audi's hospitality and garage, but she was nowhere to be seen. Instead, he was faced with an equally worried Seb.

"Dawson? Have you seen my number one driver? She hasn't gone to the weighing nor to the media pen. She was fined, and I don't mind paying it, but I'm just worried."

"It's my fault…" Kyle admitted, eyes glued to the ground.

"How bad have you messed up?"

"A hell of a lot. Wait… you know about…" he dared not say anything further. And say what anyway? There had never been a them when it came to him and Romy and with his confession it was even less likely to happen.

"She told me a few things; let me tell you, Kyle, she cares. More than you think. She has been through a lot; don't give up on her. She won't give up on you."

"I think today, she might. I… I lied to her. I didn't want to, and I feel bad enough."

"You have your heart in the right place, kiddo; there is nothing that a good conversation can't fix. It will work out."

He didn't know what went through his mind, but Seb always had a kind aura surrounding him, and Kyle felt at ease to talk about his illness.

"I'm sorry, Kyle. I can't even begin to comprehend what you must feel. I'm here for you if needed. If you want a second opinion about a treatment, I know a good doctor. Whatever you need. F1 can't lose you just yet."

"Thank you, Seb. For everything."

"Now go, find your girl," the team principal smiled gently at him.

He nodded before going back to his quest. It didn't take long before his phone vibrated in his pocket, and Ethan's name appeared on his screen.

Romy is with Julia behind the Skoda's hospitality.

Kyle had never run this fast in his life. And indeed, she was there, crying in Julia's arms. He screamed her name like a madman, making her look up. When he earned no reaction from her side, he rushed to her and crouched down as Julia disappeared to give them some space and privacy. He took her in his arms, forcing her against his chest.

"I'm so mad at you! You should have told me everything as soon as you started to feel your eyesight declining! Now I understand better why you complained about the headaches and why you were always hitting yourself with the furniture,"she sobbed in his shirt while punching his chest at the same time. 

"I'm sorry… I didn't want you to think about me when you were on track. I don't want to be a burden for you, sunshine. You don't need that. Not when you are fighting for a podium. I don't want you to think about me," he mumbled in her hair.

She sighed, annoyed, and glared at him.

"Oh my God, Kyle Evan Dawson, when will you finally understand that whenever I'm in this car, I'm fighting for my granddad, dad, and you! You are one of the reasons why I want to be up there on this podium! I always have you in mind when I'm racing! Always! I want you to be proud of me! Because I love you! So much!" she punctuated her speech with a few punches on his chest, right where his heart was beating faster than ever.

He had imagined and dreamed of hearing those words from her, but nothing could ever top up the reality. He took her head between his hands and glued his forehead to hers, his breath falling on her lips.

"Romy Lisa Schumacher, I'm in love with you too; you have no idea how much. Be mine. Officially. Please, be mine today and forever. I don't want to let you go, not today, not ever." 

"I'm yours, idiot. I've always been. Even when I was too stupid to admit it," she smiled as he finally let his lips meet hers. From afar, he heard Ludwig cheering, but he didn't care. He and Ethan could talk and whistle all they wanted. He had his happiness between his arms, and he had the firm intention to keep it that way.

They finally left the track, hand in hand, not caring if anyone was seeing them. They briefly separated to go to each other's cars and met again at the hotel a few minutes later. Without a word, Kyle followed her to her room. She asked him for a minute, just for her to change into more comfortable clothes. She sprayed her face with water and looked in the mirror. Her cheeks were rosy and were hurting from smiling, her eyes glossy from happiness. She looked younger, too. Was it what people were talking about when they were saying that you had a special glow when you were in love? She shook her head, laughing silently at herself. 

"I'm in love," she whispered in front of her reflection. I'm in love with Kyle Dawson. And he loves me too." She bit her lip, refraining from jumping around. She felt silly, but most of all, she didn't care.

"Romy?" his voice came from behind the door, startling her a little. "Are you okay in there? It's been more than fifteen minutes…"

"I'm good! Perfect, even," she replied, opening the door. "Hi," she smiled.

"Hey, you."

She felt a little awkward. It was all too new for her; she didn't know how she was supposed to act. Did they have to talk about their relationship from now on? 

"I see the wheels turning inside your mind," he told her, resting his hands on her hips. His breath was hot against her ear, making her blush.

"It's new to me."

"I know, don't worry." 

"There are many things I want to say… I just don't know how," she sighed, frustrated.

"Let it out."

"I… I feel stupid, first and foremost. Because I know I have had these feelings for you for so long, and I wanted to deny them because I was scared, even though you've never given me a reason to be. At least recently. And it hurt me to do so. I was self-sabotaging because I was stubborn. I hurt you, and I hurt myself. I'm sorry. I feel guilty. And a part of me regrets acting like that because I can't help but think I missed many beautiful things with you. And it's time we won't get back." 

He took her head between his hands, making her look at him.

"What is done is done, Romy. What matters is now. I just want to know one thing. Are you, right now, all in?"

"I am. I promise you, I am."

"Then we forget about the past; from now on, it is you and me," he said, pressing his forehead against hers.

She nodded and smiled, throwing her arms around his neck and her lips on his, kissing him until she was out of breath. One thing led to another, and soon, her clothes were off, and soft pantings filled the room. She had never felt safer and more loved in his arms at night.

When she woke up the next day, she didn't want to leave; she wanted to stay. Kyle was still sleeping soundly next to her. She didn't dare move, not wanting to wake him up.

"It's rude to stare," he mumbled.

"Good morning. Boyfriend."

He stirred and opened his eyes before pulling her against him to snuggle.

"Boyfriend?" he mumbled against her hair.

"You don't like it?"

"I only like it if I can call you girlfriend."

"I think it is doable."

She reached for a phone on the bedside table and found many messages from her PR officer.

"Shit hit the fan," she sighed, showing them to Kyle.

"Can you read them for me? It's always a bit hard for me to be fully aware of my surroundings in the morning."

"Sorry… Sonia, my PR officer, is saying that photographers took pictures of us yesterday while we were heading out. We weren't careful, for sure. And now, people are talking. She is asking about our relationship to better prepare for her damage-control session. I don't understand why she calls that damage control… I mean, I imagine perfectly well what is being said."

"What are you going to say?"

"The truth. That we are dating and that I don't give a flying fuck about what they all say. You're one of the very few sources of happiness in my life, I'm not giving that up."

"I'm glad to hear it. It wasn't what you were saying a few weeks ago."

"It's just… I want to be brave. You make me want to be brave for you. You are inspiring, Kyle. Not only because of how much of a champion you are but also, what you're going through…" 

"I don't want your pity," he cut her.

"It's not pity… far from it. I'm in awe of you. You're so strong and brave. I just wish I could be more like you for you. That's all I'm saying," she touched his cheek. "You said that you had a list of reasons why we would be perfect together…"

"I do, indeed."

"Can you tell them now?" she shyly asked.

"What do you think they are?"

"Well, from an aesthetic point of view, we look good together," he laughed as if it rarely happened. 

"It was not the first thing on my list, but you're right. Honestly, that list is not that long. I think I can shorten it to one sentence. We are so different that it is what makes us alike."

"Okay, Shakespeare."

"I mean… you complete me, Romy. Every piece that I found was missing in my life; you brought it to me. All that makes you who you are and that I'm not makes me want to be better for you. We are one and the same despite what makes us so different. And I like to think I do the same thing to you."

"You do. That's what scared me and attracted me at the same time. You're grounding me. I just have to look at you to know everything will be okay. You make me feel at peace with myself. And you're hot. That helps," he pinched her side, making her yelp. "No, but for real. Somehow, you're my first love. I've had boyfriends before, but none compare to what you made me feel when I was a preteen and what you make me feel now. I still feel like ten years ago when you're near."

"And I hope to make you still feel that way in ten years," he kissed the side of her head before moving to her lips.

Author's note: Yay, they confessed. Have I ever said I loved them? 🥹

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1990s Eurobeat is amazing because after you listen to it for a good time you can literally recognize the year a song was released just by listening it. Absolutely no information needed, just paying attention.

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Eurobeat mixtapes: Personal favorites - That's Eurobeat 1

Michael Fortunati - Give Me Up (Dance Mix)

Ken Laszlo - Tonight (Remix)

Seventh Avenue - Love's Gone Mad (Peter Slaghuis Euro Mix)

Michael Prince - Dance Your Love Away (Disco Vocal Mix)

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Headcanon madness

PHOTO NOT MINE. THIS IS ALL FICTION. Genre(s): crack Fandom(s): MCU actors Pairing(s): none, it’s all platonic Summary: A fan asks a question about headcanons and you open your can of worms Warning(s): Does European!reader count as a warning? / There’s also no specific time set, so if that triggers you, boohoo A/n:  These headcanons are from all sort of posts and videos, but the main inspiration is from thecaptainsdoll on TikTok. Most of the credit goes to her [Masterlist]

Doing a press tour with Sebastian Stan, Anthony Mackie, and Chris Evans is always such fun. Especially something like ComicCon where you are squeezed in the middle of Seb and Chris, Mackie on Seb's other side.

"I have a question for (Y/N)", says the next speaker and I perk up, my mic to my lips. This is the first question directed at only me. "Since you said you were a huge fan of the MCU, what are your headcanons?"

A laugh escapes my lips. This is going to be so much fun!

"Head- what?" Seb looks confused at me.

"Headcanons. It is like... things you make up in your head about some characters. I have a few."

"Oh Lord, here they come", laughs Mackie and I shoot him a glare.

"Tony hates peanut butter. I don't know what it is, just something like... like... he just hates peanut butter, okay.

Natasha is an amazing singer, but the only two people who have heard are Clint and Steve. Clint because he's a little impostor and likes to hide in the vents." I throw a wink at the crowd, as a nod to Among Us. "And Steve. Just makes sense because they were on the run together in The Winter Soldier."

"What's an impostor?" Chris leans back slightly.

"It's from a game. Not like y'all old people would understand." I smirk. The guys give me dirty looks.

"Sara Rogers, Steve's mom, was an amazing cook. She taught all her recipes to Bucky because Steve didn't want to learn how to cook. So when she died, Bucky was the only one how to cook like Steve's mom. And before Infinity War, when Bucky was in Wakanda, Steve visited him sometimes and Bucky would cook for them."

The crowd awes and one guy yells from the top of his lungs, "Stucky!"

I snort. "Thor loves baking. And when I say loves, he loves baking. Especially bread. And no matter how many times Tony or Bruce have tried to explain to Thor how yeast works, to him it is just witchcraft.

Steve smokes and hates sushi. He smokes because he's from the '40s and has asthma and the treatment was smoking back then. I did my research, everybody. He hates sushi because of the whole USA versus Japan during WW2."

"Are all these of yours so long-winded?" 

"A few quick ones, then." I poke my tongue out at Mackie. "Sam's VA club becomes a Falcon Fanclub. Scott and Peter have each other as 'bug-boys' in their contacts. Thor doesn't know what a whale is and is too afraid to ask. Clint wears hearing aids like in the comics. Natasha hacks into any official document that says 'Captain America' and changes it into 'Grandpa frisbee'."

Chris laughs loudly, clutching his chest while throwing his head backwards. "She would do that, yeah."

"And the last one is that Peter once took a BuzzFeed quiz to find out which Avenger you are. And when he got Tony, he took a screenshot and sent it to Tony. Tony was in a board meeting and had to try to not get emotional because Peter's happy he got Tony."

"How do you come up with those?" The three guys look baffled at me.

"I am an insomniac with access to TikTok and Tumblr. What do you guys expect?" I lean back with a smirk on my face as the crowd cheers.

Another person rushes up to the mic, a girl by the sound of their voice. "What side of TikTok are you one?"

I whip my phone out of my pocket, giving a quick glance at my fyp and likes. "I am def on MCU-Tok. Ehrm... Europe-Tok, especially the trash-talking American side." A rumble goes through the crowd. "What? I am European! I can do that!"

Seb high fives me with a big smile. "Yeah baby, European rights!"

"Oh well, okay." Chris rolls his eyes like a toddler before Mackie and he squishes Seb and me in an 'American' high five over the two of us. 

I let out a weird, suppressed scream as I am laying underneath three grown men. "I am getting killed by three giant Doritos. Save me!" I flail my arms the best I can before they get off me. 

Chris neatens out my hair, but I swat his hand away. "No touch me, you lumpy space princess." I point my finger at him while narrowing my eyes, thickening my native accent.

I have forgotten the fact that it is not only us four but also the ginormous crowd of ComicCon goers, but their laugher brings me back to reality. Some are even crying.

"So, anyways. Be careful what y'all post and thirst about. Because I am hiding in the crowds, keeping an eye open for them and def sending them to those guys." I point towards the men next to me, earning another laugh from the crowd.

It's not until much later, when I am hanging out with the three idiots, that my Twitter notifications go wild. Fans have tagged me in memes and videos of today's panel.

God, there is nothing as great as the MCU fandom and their meme-making skills.

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Butterflies

Remus Lupin x Reader

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Summary: You're Lily Evans' little sister. She isn't the only witch in the family.

Remus Lupin Masterlist

You walked back into the common room after lights out that night. Purposefully. You hoped that your friends wouldn't be there. But of course, nothing was in your favor.

Remus sat on the couch, his leg was shaking, and he watched the fire intensely. You tried to sneak past him but he looked up as the portrait closed. He quickly stood up, walking over to you, letting out a breath.

"Thank Merlin, you're back. I was getting worried. And-" you just walked around him. It was physically painful to do so. A part of you knew Lily and the boys were only looking out for you. But a much bigger part was mad at them. "Wait, Y/N, please talk to me."

"There's nothing to talk about, Remus," you say, still not turning back to him. He stops infront of you, causing you to stop. He puts gentle hands on your arms. A big contrast to how Seb touches you. You look down at his hand on your arm for a second. That feeling in your stomach coming. You were still confused for a second. A split second. Butterflies. No. No, wrong! Wrong person!

"Please, you're my bestfriend," he says. "I just don't want to see you feeling like that. It's painful, Y/N." You finally meet his eyes again, your eyes still wide from your realization. That good feeling in the pit of your stomach. The one that started causing nervous, yet comforting waves through you in third year. You felt them around Remus. Only Remus. And you barely registered his words.

"I'm with Seb," you say, more so to yourself. But he doesn't see that. He rolls his eyes.

"Yeah, I know. But he's not good for you, Y/N," he says. You meet his eyes. Now, that registered.

"And who would be good for me, huh? Nobody else has shown any interest in me, ever! I'm happy with Seb," you say. You were partially trying to convince yourself of the last bit.

You walked past him, not noticing the sad, hurt look on his face as you did so.

And the next day when you were in the hallway with Seb, his arm was slung over your shoulder. He was talking mindlessly to his friends while you were lost in your thoughts. Your gaze went to the side while you thought about what Dumbledore told you last night. And what you felt around Remus. Dumbledore couldn't have been talking about Remus, could he? You mindlessly chewed on your lip while you were thinking. Seb leaned down to whisper in your ear.

"Keep your eyes off other guys if you know what's good for you," he says. Was that a threat? You snapped your gaze to Seb. You glanced over, realizing your eyes had landed on where the Mauraders were talking across the field.

"They're my friends, Seb," you say. His gaze hardens.

"Not anymore." You roll your eyes.

"You can't tell me who I can and can't be friends with," you say. He raises an eyebrow, his arm leaving your shoulders. He grabbed your arm. This time was tighter than usual. Visually so, according to his friends reactions. The girls who you were friends with seemed a little surprised, staring at Seb as if he were going mad.

You just met Seb's eyes, not flinching. Not wavering. He pulls you away from his friends, towards the castle. You followed, him going faster than you would have liked.

He pushed you against the wall, your eyes never leave his. And you don't show a single sign of weakness.

"Gryffindors," he says, rolling his eyes. He lowers his lips to your ear. "So brave." His grip on your arm felt like it'll bruise. He pressed a kiss to your neck. You rolled your eyes, trying to push him off of you. But he didn't budge. You kept hitting his chest.

"Get off me, Seb!" You say. He grips both your arms now, glaring at you.

"You're my girlfriend. You'll behave like it." You showed weakness now. You were scared. Your eyes widened, and he seemed satisfied with your visible fear. You hated that. You glared right back at him.

"Then find yourself a new girlfriend. Because I don't want anything to do with you," you hiss. His grip somehow tightens.

"You're not breaking up with me," he says. You winced slightly.

"Except she is," you hear from down the corridor. You and Seb both look over. Mauraders. You couldn't help but smile slightly. But you didn't see Remus. Where was he?

"You guys stay out of this," Seb says, rolling his eyes.

"I don't think so," Sirius says, walking closer to Seb. Taking hurried steps.

"Just stay away from my girlfriend," Seb says. Sirius chuckles.

"I don't think you heard her correctly," he says. He glances over Seb's shoulder. You looked just as Remus tapped Seb's shoulder. Seb turned around, and was immediately met with Remus punching him.

"She's not your girlfriend," he says, looking down at him. He was taller than Seb. You'd never seen Remus look that mad. You were shocked. When did they have time to plan this? Did they plan it? Seb looks back at Remus, glaring back at him. He goes to punch him, but Sirius grabs his arms. Remus barely glances at him again, looking at you.

"Are you alright?" He asks. You were still in shock. You simply nodded. He grabbed your wrist gently, lifting your sleeve to look at your arms. You could see hand shaped bruises forming. His jaw tightened again. James noticed and looked at Seb.

"Well, we already abandoned the 'avoid the face' plan," he says, punching Seb. Sirius lets go of Seb, smirking. Probably thinking it'll be more fun. The boy was a year younger than them after all. A small group had formed at this point.

Sirius kicked Seb's legs from behind him. Remus put a hand on your elbow, going to make you turn away. Then Seb pulls his wand out. You could tell by their expressions they didn't want to pull their wands out. The didn't want to go expelled, after all. Peter goes to grab the boy's wand, and gets throw against the stone wall. Not by strength, by magic. Your eyes widened.

"Seb!" You exclaimed. He turned to you, still glaring. The mauraders that weren't on the floor were fuming at this point. James punched Seb again, and Sirius went for the gut. Remus was holding himself back, and you could see it. It didn't help that he had to physically hold you back from the boys. Finally, Seb blasted James into the crowd. He slid on the floor, landing infront of Lily. She quickly got down to make sure he was okay. Mary and Alice were with Peter. They were both holding their ribs. He sent Sirius by turning quickly, and Marlene ran over to him. Remus had clearly had enough. Finally letting you go. He went to go at the boy, but he pointed his wand. Not at Remus, but at you. The next word from his mouth caused you the worst pain imaginable. And beyond that, too.

"Crucio!" He exclaims. You instantly fell to the floor, crying and screaming. It felt like a thousand years. It was probably only a few seconds, though.

"Expelliarmus!" Remus shouts. But you don't really hear it.

"Stupify!" You hear Lily yell. Again, you couldn't quite hear it. Your breathing was labored and your knees had given out. You were on your back, your legs uncomfortably folded beneath you. You whimpered slightly when the torturing spell stopped. You felt tears leave your cheeks, and pressed your lips together. That definitely wasn't what he did to the boys. Because that wasn't send you flying and curl up that was torture.

You heard footsteps running into the circle, but didn't open your eyes. You heard Dumbledore shout something, but still couldn't focus clearly. Your breathing was still labored. You felt someone lift you up slightly.

You whimpered again, curling in on yourself. You felt someone gingerly move the hair out of your face. "Y/N, c'mon look at me," you hear. Remus. You knew it was Remus. You managed to pry your eyes open slightly. He was holding you like a fragile piece of glass.

You turned your face into his chest, letting your small sob escape you. Not only was the magic still radiating through you, and you had to wait until the waves deminished, but you realized you had dated that boy for almost a year. A boy so willing to hurt your friends. And you.

"It's okay, love, it's okay," Remus says. Your hand found his shirt, gripping onto it. You closed your eyes again, but held your grip to show him you were still there. You heard the voices fading around you though. You were going to pass out.

Y/N's grip started to loosen on Remus's shirt as Mcgonagall told him to get her to the infirmary. He quickly stood up with her in his arms. His friends were getting up now. Still clearly in pain. Lily helped James walk, but they all made their way towards the infirmary.

When he placed you on the bed, he was told to walk away for a minute. But neither he or Lily would do that. So, they waited. When the boys had been checked up on, they sat around the bed too.

Dumbledore came in that night with Mcgonagall. "You all need to get to the dormitory," Mcgonagall says.

"Professor, she's just been cursed," James says. She nods.

"I know. And she needs rest. She's young. The effect will be worsened on her. And that also means, the chances are she'll still be asleep when you come back in the morning." Dumbledore looked at Remus who still gripped Y/N's hand. Looking very unwilling to leave her side.

"The girl should have her friends here when she wakes up," he says. He still made eye contact with Remus. Not even glancing at the others.

"Albus-" Mcgonagall starts.

"I'm quite tired, Minerva. I think I'll go to bed," he says. She glances at the group again then she sighs, following Dumbledore out of the room.

"Minnie's mad," Sirius says. The boys all smile slightly, looking back down at Y/N. They each found their way to one of the beds in the infirmary at some point during the night. But Remus stayed by her side. He layed his head down next to her, on her bed.

At some point in the night, you started shaking. Not from something medical. But the cold. You looked colder than anyone else. Your teeth were chattering in your sleep. And Remus noticed. He woke up, feeling your body shivering. He looked up at you, seeing if you were awake. You looked paler than normal. His eyes widened and he grabbed blankets off other beds, quickly putting them over you. That only seemed to help a little.he looked over at his friends. James had woken up to his frantic movements. He got up, rubbing his eyes under his glasses. He looked at Y/N.

"Give her your jumper or something," he says, gesturing to her. Remus looks down at the jumper he was wearing. James rolls his eyes.

"Come on, Moony. It'll warm her up. She's freezing. If she keeps shivering like that we'll have to get Pomfrey. Besides, we've all seen it before," he says, winking at his friend. Remus glares at James, then sighs, taking off his jumper. He walks over to Y/N, carefully putting her into the jumper. She made a small noise that made him stop for a second, scared he'd either hurt her or wake her up. Or both.

Once she was in it, James and Remus both watched her teeth chattering stop slowly. But she was still shivering.

"Body heat?" James suggests. Remus glares at him. He gestures to Remus and then Y/N. "I didn't mean me, I meant you!" Remus looks down at her. He pressed his lips together for a second before finally peeling the blankets away and climbing into the bed beside her. Y/N instantly turned and curled up into his chest. He looked at her, then over at James who yawns.

"Goodnight, mate," he says, walking back over to the bed between Lily and Sirius. Remus looked back down at her. She was perfect. And he was glad thinking about the crack he heard when he punched Seb.

Both times. He'd punched him after he had disarmed him and right before Lily got her wand out. The second punch was much, much harder.

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my thoughts on captain america: civil war (2016)

wow i haven't watched this movie in a while everyone looks so different

okay yeah, start the movie with bucky being tortured why not, it's not like i feel bad enough for him already

seb... babe i love you but who made you say отвечач instead of отвечать (okay okay, i'm just joking i know it's a small pronouncation mistake)

steve&nat teaching wanda how to watch her back during a mission is so cute (also wow, my queen has come a long way since this movie)

"he's cute go on pet him" SAM STOP PQJDOWBDIW

i feel like rumlow could've been used more in these movies why did they just kill him off like that

"who's the homeless person on the couch" i love howard

"if that's true you'll be a great man someday" and he did become a great man howard, he did, indeed

tony feels guilty about sokovia, wanda feels guilty about lagos and bucky feels guilty about his past. give them a break marvel

zemo switching into his own accent as soon as he got the hydra agent tied up lmao

"compromise where you can, and where you can't, don't. even if everyone is telling you that something wrong is something right. even when the whole world is telling you to move, it is your duty to plant yourself like a tree and say no. you move." sharon believed that with her whole heart and look what they did to her now I'M MAD

"staying together is more important than how we stay together" and she gave her life for them at the end no matter how much she didn't want to go

THE KING HAS ARRIVED (we miss you chadwick)

''we have orders to shoot on sight" meanwhile bucky: oooh lemme get some plums

ok so caramel chocolate bars are bucky's favourite, that's good to know

awww bucky couldn't even control his strength in this movie (throwing people off the stairs, hitting them with bricks, punching the shit out of them) and now he is barely even using his metal arm bc he's scared of killing people AWW MY BABY

i swear to god if sam wasn't there to save these two's asses all the time *eye roll*

oOOHHH THE CHASING SCENE WAS SO GOOD

when bucky grabbed that motorcycle we all felt something right?

i remembered how much it broke my heart when rhodey said "congratulations sam, you're a criminal"

vision cooking for wanda is still the cutest thing in this movie

"so you like cats" SAM

the fact that they were so scared of bucky that they had to put him in an extremely protected capsule thing... THE POWER HE HOLDS

"pregnant?" "uh, definitely not" and a few years later we see morgan wearing her mother's helmet WHY AM I MAKING MYSELF CRY

i love how steve was actually about to sign the accords until tony mentioned wanda

i forgot how much i wanted to punch zemo in this movie, he was literally so desperate to find bucky that he had to turn 7 billion people against him

"let's talk about your home, not romania, certainly not brooklyn no" well, we have some news for you zemo

the look on bucky's face when he sees the notebook and how he immediately starts screaming after hearing "рассвет" hurts my soul

BUCKYNAT BUCKYNAT BUCKYNAT

sebastian looked so ripped in this movie holy moly

wtf he really is like a death machine he could've easily killed steve in that helicopter scene

OH I FORGOT THIS WAS TOM'S FIRST APPEARANCE IN THE MCU WTF

"it's so hard for me to believe she is someone's aunt", "we come in all shapes and sizes you know" AUNT MAY I ADORE YOU

"i retire for like what 5 minutes and it all goes to shit" well he's not wrong

"move or you will be moved" ayo always steals the show with one line (tfaws spoilers guess?)

the scene that started it all guys "can you move your seat up" "no"

"thinks for thanking of me" SCOTT LANG IS A TREASURE ALRIGHT

"suit up" YEAH AND DON'T THINK ABOUT THE CONSEQUENCES SHARON WILL PAY FOR BRINGING YOUR TOYS

when the craziest thing happened in the mcu was spidey joining the avengers ah good old times

the airport fight was sooo good omg

i love t'challa is just like ''just lemme kill barnes i don't care about your white nonsense"

"i didn't kill your father" "then why did you run?" UHMMM I DON'T KNOW SIR MAYBE BECAUSE YOU'RE ALWAYS TRYING TO CHOKE HIM BEFORE HE HAS A CHANCE TO EXPLAIN HIMSELF??

scott's "hohoho" will never not be funny for me

this movie got me so hyped up for a possible buckynat storyline dude i'm still mad, they had such potential

peter getting scared of tony approaching him shows how hard their job actually is i feel so bad for them

vision accidentally shooting rhodey OH MY HEART CAN'T TAKE THIS

and wtf did sam do tony for fucks sake

zemo calling the hotel from moscow so they can find the body in the bathtub lsndjsbdjs he's such a diva

avengers getting treated like criminals is still pissing me the fuck off

"you better go get a bad cop cause you're gonna have to go mark furhman on my ass to get information out of me" OKAY MY FAV SAM WILSON LINE

zemo killing all the winter soldiers instead of waking them up is a great way to show his ideology actually

"there's a bit of green in the blue of your eyes" well that sounds poetic

i don't know which is worse: seeing tony watching his mom killed, or the amount of guilt bucky must've felt in that moment, or the way tony managed to keep his cool until he realized steve acted like he didn't know the entire time AGH IT HURTS

"i remember all of them" and that look on his face SEBASTIAN STOP

the fight between steve&tony&bucky was actually one of the best scenes in the mcu in my opinion, especially when bucky's arm gets destroyed (seriously tho, watching the way he pushes tony into the wall, trying to rip off the arc reactor with his metal arm and the fury in his eyes agh i love this scene)

aww zemo deleting the voice message of his wife before attempting to kill himself broke my heart

i remember crying in the cinema watching steve and tony beat the shit out of each other... my friend who's never seen any of the mcu movies before was looking at me like i was an alien

bucky still trying to protect steve by gripping tony's foot i- HE LOVES STEVE SO MUCH

oh when tony lifted his hand to protect his face with that terried look, he thought steve was gonna finish him

i!!! wanna!!! die!!!

"are you tony stank?" stan lee we miss you, you beautiful man♡

"i've been on my own since i was 18" having multiple illnesses, and probably mental ones as well, steve only had bucky on his side. he was the only one who always got his back, making sure he was okay, always protecting him. so he knew he had to do the same. bucky was the best friend he ever had.

soo, this gave me enough trauma for today. i think i'm gonna go cry until the next episode of tfaws.

[p-parkerthespiderboy]

Mob boss tony looked lonely and bored in a random bar until a sexy and gorgeous brown eyes boy is dancing in a pole.

Tony took a sip of his drink, so bored he didn’t even taste weather it was whiskey, bourbon or scotch. He watched it spin around the ice in the cup the music from the club surprising soft and calmer on a Tuesday night. He held New York in the palm of his hand, and yet, he was bored and a bored mob boss could have meant trouble for someone.

He was about to leave, his hand curling and uncurling around the crystal glass in his hand before he set it down, no one glancing to him as it cracked against the table knowing full well who he was. He stood brushing his hands over his suit his eyes glancing over as the lights to the small stage flashed, a new dancer moving out and Tony froze.

He was- lithe, small, amber hair brown eyes, wearing some skimpy red thing as he danced to the music in the back round his hips and body moving as if fluid. Tony watched, mesmerized as the young boy got to the pol and used it to make his body do more things Tony definitely wanted to see more- intimately. “Seb, who is that?”

The bartender looked up and made a soft noise. “Peter Parker, started here about a week ago.” 

Tony nodded and moved from where he was to get closer to the small stage, he opened his wallet pulling out a fifty and reached up to tuck it at Peter’s ass, the boy turned and smiled at him looking at him up and down and Tony reached to take his chin in his hand. “You delicious boy, are coming home with me.”

“Am I now? And who put you in charge?” Peter smirked at him and Tony let him go taken aback at the taunt to him, to his face.

Tony made a noise pulling his side arm out, people making noise and leaving the bar almost instantly and Tony pressed it to Peter’s chest watching in astonishment how the boy puffed his chest out more to him. “I’m Tony fucking Stark, pretty sure I run the place.”

Peter tipped his head, a boyish innocent smile on his face despite the position he was in with Tony and he leaned more into the pistol. “Is that so? Well mister Stark I’m pretty sure I get to say who I go home with and whatnot.”

Tony felt anger flare in his chest, how dare this- boy treat him like this, and yet something dark laid in Peter’s eyes as they stared at each other, something dark and promising and Tony moved the pistol up to lift Peter’s chin and watched the boy bite his lip. Ah, so this was how it was going to be, Tony grinned he definitely could play this game, no longer bored at all.

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[shawn-mendes-post]

Starving

A/N: It has been a while, but I am back. I do not own anything. The new song is Starving by Hailee Steinfeld. I love her music, and can’t wait for the next chapter. Some of the lyrics were changed, and I will edit this soon. This is chapter 5. 

October 

It was the middle of October; kids were getting excited to dress up. (Y/N) was invited to different Halloween parties, which made it hard to decide. However, she decided to go to the American Horror Story party for the 100th episode. She thought it would be a good time to introduce her boyfriend to the world. She did have doubts about how the fans would receive the news since many shipped her with Shawn. Oh, Shawn. She wanted to call him on multiple occasions but stopped herself. 

(Y/N) stood in front of the mirror, adjusting her costume, wondering if she should stay home. Sighing, she turns around to grab her purse. "Sebastian, are you ready?' she asked, walking toward the bathroom, knocking on the door.  The door opens, letting the man walk out in his mad hatter costume from the show Once Upon a Time.  (Y/N) smiles at him, checking him out, wondering how she could get a perfect boyfriend like him. She moves closer to him, wrapping her arms around his neck, leaning till their lips touch in a soft kiss. 

"You look sexy right now," she mumbled, pulling away when she felt his hands on her hips. "I should be telling you that," he growled, pulling her tightly against his body, loving how she fits with him. He wanted to place her on the bed and ravish her body with love. He knew she was still in love with another man, but wanted to be there for her. He believed he could help her move on, but understood the risk of being in a relationship with her. Primarily, he was older than her by seventeen years, and at times felt like she would want to be with someone else. 

"We should go, do not want to be late. " The two pulled away before driving to the party, talking about anything. Sebastian has his hand entwined with hers, glancing at her, thinking if they should open up to the world about their relationship. "We do not have to tell them yet," he whispers, knowing she is thinking about the same thing. 

(Y/N) shakes her head, wanting the secrecy to end, or else she will never get the courage to move on from Shawn. It is not like he didn't move on from her. She could still see the countless headlines of the couple popping up in her feeds or interviews with people. "No, I want to do this. No, we need to do this. I have to move on, Seb. I want to be with you, and I am not ashamed. I know there will be people talking about our age difference, but I do not care," she explained, kissing his lips to convey her feelings. 

Pulling away, she exits the car, feeling the cameras taking pictures of her. She smiles, waving before holding her hand out for Sebastian. She smiles when he exits the car, pulling her towards his body and arm wrapped around her waist. "We will get through this together," he mumbled, kissing her forehead before walking the carpet with her. 

"How long have you been together?" A male reported said, waiting for the answer. 

"When did this happen?" Another reporter asked, looking at both of them, knowing it will be big news. 

"Are the two of you serious?" Someone asked from the left, making Sebastian slightly turn, but stops, knowing not to give a reaction. 

"What does Shawn have to say, (Y/N)?" A male reporter asked, grinning creepily as if knowing inside detail between the relationship. (Y/N) stopped mid-step, wanting to answer the question with "it is none of his business," not knowing if she meant the reporter or Shawn. Shaking her head, she continues forward, not wanting to answer any of the reporters, unless she knew them. 

"Sebastian Stan, can you tell us about the Disney plus series you are in?" A reported asked, looking at the male beside (Y/N), needing a scoop for the papers. 

(Y/n) keep walking, smiling when she spots Evan Peters with Halsey. "I told you, the two of them are together, "she said, bumping her hip against his. Sebastian turns to look at the couple, shaking his head he lost to his girlfriend. " Yeah, I should have listened to you." 

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November 

The 47th Annual American Music Awards is at the Microsoft Theater in Los Angeles. (Y/N) was currently in the audience watching the performance of Shawn and Camila singing their song. It still hurts to see him with someone else, but she would not leave. 

Her heart was slowly moving on, or that is what she told herself. Cameras were zooming in on her face, which she hoped did not show how she felt. Heartbroken. She smiles softly, trying to appear happy for the couple on stage, knowing she was not. 

Sebastian stood next to her; hands entwine as he moves them to the beat. He sings softly in her ear, making her smile as she walks along with him to the beat. Slowly the two dance seductively together, not minding the people around them, who were watching the couple.

As the song come to an end, Sebastian leans down, pressing his lips against hers, smiling. She responded to the kiss, wrapping her arms around his neck, falling for this man. The two finally pull apart, breathing heavily, knowing this will get on the news. (Y/N) pulls Sebastian away from the grounds, her turn to perform was coming up, and she had to get ready.

Time skip

(Y/N) stood in the center by herself, staring at the crowd that was going crazy for her. Her eyes trail across the group, smiling as she sees some of her friends in the group. 

"You'd probably think I was psychotic," she starts to sing, staring at the floor, as if ashamed. Her face was in a frown, "What I still got in my closet," she said, grabbing the hoodie on the floor.  

"Slip it on over my shoulders," she makes a motion on putting on a hoodie, "Something I'll never get over," wrapping her hands around her waist to hug herself. 

 "It makes me feel a little bit closer to you," she sings, feeling nostalgic. The hoodie was big on her, wrapping around her frame, once belonged to Shawn. 

"I can't keep your love," she sung, making eye contact with Shawn, sadly. 

"I can't keep your kiss. Gave you everything, and all I got was this"  (Y/N) shakes her head, not wanting to keep the good memories they shared. 

 "I'm still rocking your hoodie and chewing on the strings." She bobs her head, dancing to the music, "It makes me think about you, so I wear it when I sleep," she regretted writing agreeing to sing this song here, where Shawn did not stand too far away. 

  "I kept the broken zipper and cigarette burns. Still rocking your hoodie Baby, even though it hurts," she points at the audience, close to where Shawn was. She wanted him to know the songs she is singing today is about him. 

 " I used to put my hand in your pockets," she puts her hands in the pockets, smiling at the crowd singing along. "The smell of your cologne is still on it," she signs, recognizing the faint smell of his cologne she loved. 

"Slip it on over my shoulders. Someone I'll never get over." 

(Y/N) looks away from the crowd, hiding her sadness with how truthful she was in this song, despite never telling him in the end. 

 "It makes me feel a little bit closer to you. I can't keep your love," she sung, trying to let go of her feeling and move on, "I can't keep your kiss. I gave you everything, and all I got was this. I'm still rocking your hoodie and chewing on the strings." She bobs her head, dancing to the music, 

"It makes me think about you, so I wear it when I sleep," she pretends to be asleep. 

"I kept the broken zipper and cigarette burns. Still rocking your hoodie Baby, even though it hurts," she points at the audience, before pausing as she removes the hoodie. She then moves closer to the audience, smirking as the crowd cheers loudly. 

"Can't keep my hands to myself," she sings, the crowd cheers widely.

"No matter how hard I'm trying to," she sings, moving her body, hand running down her smooth legs, "I want you all to myself."

"You're metaphorical gin and juice," she walks away from the audience in a sexy manner. "So come on, give me a taste," she sings, her fingers glide across her cherry red lip gloss as she glances at the audience. 

"Of what it's like to be next to you, "She runs her hand down her cleavage, eyes mischievously glancing at Sebastian before grazing across to Shawn's. (Y/N) paused for a moment, surprised to see many conflicting emotions in Shawn's eyes. 

"Won't let one drop go to waste," hair flips, she moves closer to the crowd. Hands are reaching out, hoping for a chance to touch the Goddess. "You're metaphorical gin and juice." Her hand rested on her hip before she slides up her body slowly till she runs her hand through her hair. "Ohh, cause all the downs, and the uppers Keep making love to each other," she sings more passionate, stopping to move on to the next song. 

"You know just what to say," she points at Sebastian, waving flirty. 

"Things that scare me, I should just walk away," she sings, making a scared expression, not being able to move, "But I can't move my feet." 

"The more that I know you, the more I want to," she sings, finally moving to the center of the stage, "something inside me's changed."

"I was so much younger yesterday, oh."

Dancers come out swaying to the beat, one male dance his way close to her. "I didn't know that I was starving until I tasted you," the man wraps his arms around her waist. 

"Don't need no butterflies when you give me the whole damn zoo," she sings, looking up at the dancer, shaking her hips. 

"By the way, you do things to my body. I didn't know that I was starving until I tasted you," she moves out of his embrace, her hands trailing down his chest. 

"By the way, by the way, you do things to my body," she sings, raising her arms to wrap them around his neck, leaning close to his face. 

"I didn't know that I was starving till I tasted you," she pulls away, dancing by herself, hands trailing her body. 

" You know just how to make my heart beat faster. An emotional earthquake brings on the disaster."

The man grabs her arm, bring her close to him, dancing with her to the beat. 

"You hit me head-on, got me weak in my knees," she sings, glancing at Shawn, hoping he knew how he used to make her feel. "Yeah, something inside me's changed. I was so much younger yesterday, ye-eah. So much younger yesterday, oh, yeah."

The other male dances move close to the two, dancing around her. She smiles, "I didn't know that I was starving till I tasted you. Don't need no butterflies when you give me the whole damn zoo."

The male dancers circle her, their arms grazing against her body in different places. 

"By the way, by the way, you do things to my body.

I didn't know that I was starving till I tasted you. " The dancers move away, dancing in sync with her. 

"By the way, by the way, you do things to my body. I didn't know that I was starving till I tasted you," she moves to dance with one of the male dancers. 

"You, yeah, till I tasted you," she moves on to the next male dancer, "By the way, by the way, you do things to my body," the dancer's hands trail down her sides. "I didn't know that I was starving till I tasted you, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh," she moves on to the last man she didn't dance with yet. 

"The more that I know you, the more I want to," he presses her back against his front, dancing seductively with each other. "Something inside me's changed," She sings, "I was so much younger yesterday."

The song ends, and the audience is lite up with excitement. "Thank you," she said, waving as she walks off the stage with the male dancers. She makes it to the changing room, wanting to go home and take a nice bath. Sebastian was already waiting in the room, flowers in hand.

 "You were amazing out there. I must say, I was a bit envy of the guys dancing with you," he mumbled, moving close and kissing her. She laughs, shaking her head, " cause they were touching me?"

"No, cause they were younger than me," he said, playfully, biting her lower lip. Giggling, she slaps his chest, moving to get changed, wanting to leave. "Really? My old man jealous cause they were younger than him? "

Sebastian groans at what she calls him, not liking when she jabs at his age. " I remember you were pleased last night. What were you calling me? " He asked, growling sexy, coming closer to her, like a lion hunting its prey. (Y/N) face heats up, pretending not to know what he is talking about before changing the topic.  

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72 ”there’s always another way.” for peter

Featuring @spiffythespook's Henry!

"I can't fucking do it!" Peter threw the book at the wall, glaring at it as it thumped, hit the end of the bed, and finally crashed to the floor. "I can't learn anything! I'm too fucking stupid, Henry!"

Henry sat quietly on the other side of the bed. He hadn't moved. Blue eyes tracked Peter's movements without fear but also with a kind of tension that came with a deep, instinctive understanding of anger as something to protect against. "You can, Peter. Just maybe not the way the book says to "

"I can't! That's the way you have to learn it and I, I just, it makes no fucking sense to me!" Peter stalked over to the book, Dex's chiding signs in his mind, and picked it up to make sure he hadn't actually damaged the spine or bent any pages. "I'll... I won't get my GED. This is the way to learn it and I don't-"

"There's always another way, Peter. We just have to find it." Henry's voice stayed calm, and all the shaking fury in Peter drained away.

He turned to look at the redhead and felt his shoulders slump. "I'm... I'm sorry."

"I know."

"I know you don't like angry people-"

"I get why you're mad, though. And you're not mad at me, you're mad at-"

A pause.

"Her," Peter finished.

They let the memory of the late Karen Renford sit in the room with them, for a moment, in silence.

"Yes," Henry said softly. "Her. You can learn this, Peter. I know you're smart. We - Seb and I - see how smart you are, every day."

"I don't see that." Peter sighed and moved over to Henry, dropping to his knees, lying his head in the redhead's lap.

Henry placed a hand on Peter's dark hair, careful and deliberate. "Well, I do. So let me show you."

[leclerc-s]

paint the town red - meet the crew + a timeline of events

series masterlist

THE NEW AND IMPROVED FERRARI CREW

BIANCA STARK-POTTS

faceclaim: nicole wallace

─ 1/2 of scuderia ferrari's lead engineers

─ charles leclerc's new race engineer

─ child genius, like her father, she began attending college at 14. graduated columbia with a PH.D in mechanical engineering and masters in electrical engineering from MIT

HARLEY KEENER

faceclaim: froy gutierrez & ty simpkins

─ 1/2 of scuderia ferrari's lead engineers

─ carlos sainz' new race engineer

─ has a masters in mechanical engineering from columbia and is studying for a masters in computer science and engineering at MIT.

PETER PARKER

faceclaim: tom holland

─ scuderia ferrari's new social media admin

─ graduated from midtown tech and is taking a gap year before attending MIT.

─ is spider-man and an avenger-in-training.

ISAIAH ATKINS

faceclaim: gabriel guevara

─ scuderia ferrari's new pr manager

─ graduated from ucla with a bachelors in public affairs

─ is not paid enough for his job

SEBASTIAN VETTEL ─ four time f1 world champion

─ former driver for bmw sauber, toro rosso, red bull, scuderia ferrari, and aston martin

─ scuderia ferrari's new team principal (still obsessed with bees)

THE TIMELINE

2010

the events of iron man occur

2011

the events of iron man 2 occur

2012

the events of the avengers occur the events of iron man 3 occur

2014

the events of captain america: the winter soldier occur

2015

the events of avengers: age of ulton occur

2016

the events of captain america: civil war occur the events of spider-man homecoming occur the events of black widow occur

2018

the events of avenger: infinity war occur

2020

the events of avengers: endgame occur ─ tony and nat survive (don't ask me how. they just do.) ─ steve rogers official retires, giving the shield up to sam.

2021

the events of falcon and the winter soldier occur ─ the only change is that sam does not give up the shield. so no walker becoming captain america. he does however go on to become us agent, taking the serum, which he stumbles upon after the death of his friend. the events of shang-chi and the legend of the ten rings occur

2022

the events of spider-man far from home occur ─ the only change is that peter does not get accused of murder. (tony stark is alive people, he would never let that happen. he would figure that shit out before anyone else. and he’d probably give fury a piece of his mind for dragging a teenager into it.) the events of spider-man no way home occur ─ this is simply so the three peters can meet and no other reason. the mind erasing does not occur. (don't ask me how they stop the universe from collapsing on itself, they just do.) the events of doctor strange multi-verse of madness occur ─ this is only so we can meet america chavez (wanda gets therapy for her survivor's guilt, she is not the villain here)

2023

tony stark purchases the scuderia ferrari formula one team the events of hawkeye occur ─ the only difference is that since nat lives, valentina puts a bounty on clint's head or something like that for him to be hunted down by a black widow. it could be yelena or it could be someone else

2024

march 2024 - the new f1 season begins

all other mcu events occur unless stated otherwise

note: peter reveals his identity to the drivers & team principals because he ended up climbing the walls one time on a sugar rush, but they all signed nda’s so they can’t say anything.

¡leclerc-s speaks! loopholes are so much fun to ignore. don't ask me how or why certain things happen or don't they just do. i had to bring seb back and logically the only way to do so was to make him the new team principal (sorry fred).

¡disclaimer! this is in no way making assumptions about the people involved in this story, this is all fake. it is a fanfiction please don't take any of what is said seriously. this is all for entertainment purposes and as a creative outlet for me. enjoy!

[openforjean]

Mr. Neighbor- 7

Warnings: a lil angst, dirty talk, swearing (+18) 

A/n: peter p series coming soon!!!!!! question of the darn day: whats ur name & fav movie?

I wasn’t sure if I should tell Bucky about my interaction with Laurie, would he get mad?

‘Fuck it, I’ll just call him’

I dialed his phone number in the parking lot, I tapped my fingernails on my phone as I waited.

“Hey beautiful, I’m on my way home now,” his voice was smooth, I grip the phone tightly.

“Hey, I-ugh ran into Laurie just now,” Bucky didn’t waste a second to mutter a curse under his breath. I swallowed thickly, I can hear him sigh through the phone.

“What happened?” His voice sounded annoyed. 

“She told me some things and I can’t help but wonder if it’s true.”

“What is?”

“That you’re using me for my body,”

“Ah fuck, Y/n. I’m not using for your body, I like you the way you are and don’t listen to anything Laurie says. She’s jealous, and not to forget she’ll never compete with you. You are just too damn amazing,” the words melted my heart. I couldn’t wait to see him, I was going over to his house for dinner and maybe some desert.

“I know, I’m sorry Bucky. She’s just so manipulative, I saw Emmy with her. She waved at me while she was in the car,” I start the car as I put the phone on speaker and put the phone in the cup holder.

“Where do you see Laurie at?”

“CVS, I was picking up a surprise for you and me,” he let out a satisfied hum.

“I can’t wait ‘til I get home, I miss you so much,” I pull out the parking space and head home.

“I miss you too, I was bored and alone this week.”

“I especially miss your little jokes, noises you make when I slap your ass. How could I forget those pretty lips and cunt? It’s all I thought about. I missed all of you, babydoll.” That got me wet, anything Bucky said remotely seductive got me wet.

“Bucky,” his breathing was louder through the phone.

“Say my name louder, doll,” he snorts.

“James Buchanan Barnes, I hope you’re almost home so I can show you the surprise I also have in the car that I picked up from the mall.” I say.

“Don’t worry, I am. There’s just a car behind me and he’s been following me for quite a while now. If I flip him off, you think he’ll stop?” Bucky says jokingly.

“Sounds weird, just stay with me. Also, keep those fingers in the car,” I say playfully, but that was open chance for him to make a sex joke.

“I will, doll. I rather have my fingers in something else,” Bucky says with a sultry voice. “Fuck, doll. Can’t wait until we get home-”

The line was cut off. A rush of panic hit me, I looked at my phone screen. Nothing was wrong with it, I pull over and I take my phone and call Bucky.

No answer.

I called again.

No answer.

I did it 7 more times, until i got a call from Jackie. I answer it.

“Y/n-”

“Jackie, Jackie,” I was breathing erratically, I couldn’t control it.

“Calm down, Y/n. What kind of car does Bucky drive?”

“What? Why? For what?”

“JUST TELL ME,” Jackie yells into the phone.

“I don’t know the type just what it looks like. It’s dark blue with a red star on the back window.”

“You need to go to the hospital quick, Y/n,” Jackie says.

“Why? What happened?”

“It’s Bucky, Bucky got in a car accident.” 

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[adriennestar]

Loved Endgame but... I'm gonna be that b*tch

I loved everything except Steve's ending. I will never be able to accept it and according to social media, I'm not the only one.

It's a slap in the face (actually more like an axe to the spine) to everything that Stucky has been through together in the MCU. All of their chemistry and feelings for each other that have been established are undeniably romantic and still stand. The Russos can't "Thanos" away "I'm with you till the end of the line" (ie "till death do us part") or that the only person Steve repeatedly goes to the ends of the earth for is Bucky, or that Stucky's story arc falls into many romantic tropes in the CA trilogy.

Evans said that Bucky is Steve's home and everything he needs while Seb has said that Bucky's relationship with Steve is probably the only thing keeping Bucky from killing himself. So in short, Bucky is everything Steve could ever need and Steve is Bucky's literal reason for living. Sounds pretty romantic.

In TWS, Steve goes on about his love life and wanting someone with "shared life experience" minutes before Bucky (his genetically enhanced super soldier ex, who has been frozen for a majority of the past 70 years, fought in ww2, and grew up in 1920s/1930's Brooklyn) shows up with just that.

Thor gives up the throne for Jane in Thor 2, Tony gives up his suits for Pepper in Iron man 3, and Steve gives up his shield for Bucky in Cap 2 AND 3.

"You're keeping the outfit right?"

"He left me for a damsel dark" (From the tavern scene in TFA when Bucky visibly is sad about Steve and Peggy)

"It's Been a Long Long Time" is still Stucky's song. It get's introduced with Stucky during their reunion scene in TWS.

"Even when I had nothing, I had Bucky"

"Your Bucky"

"Rumlow said Bucky and all of the sudden, I was a 16 year old kid again in Brooklyn". 16 is the stereotypical age (especially in fiction) people experience their first love and Steve without warning, reminisces about being that age upon hearing Bucky's name. He get's SO distracted that Rumlow is able to detonate a bomb in front on him.

Bucky is the only reason why Steve has EVER surrendered himself in battle.

In fiction, whenever a main character's love interest is captured, killed, etc, it becomes the main character's main motivation to save or avenge them. That is Stucky's entire story arc in Cap's trilogy.

1. Steve opposes 117 countries, for Bucky.

2. Steve fights half of his friends, the avengers, for Bucky.

3. Steve fights Tony practically to the death, for Bucky.

4. Steve would rather die by letting Bucky kill him than fight Bucky.

5. Steve single handedly storming that hydra base to save Bucky is the same energy as an old fashioned Disney prince, storming a castle and slaying a dragon to save the princess. (Not even joking)

6. Steve before he loses Bucky in TFA doesn't want to kill anyone but as soon he does lose Bucky he wants all of Hydra dead or captured.

Cap pulls a helicopter out of the sky with his bare hands to keep Bucky with him.

The images below are tweets by the writer for CA:CW

Did anyone else notice when Endgame Steve encountered his Avengers self, the 2012 Steve had the same reaction to seeing Steve's compass and hearing about Bucky still being alive? Because I did lol.

Picture either Steve or Bucky as a woman and then all of the sudden, even the most heteronormative minded people can acknowledge how immensely romantic Stucky's story arc is.

Over the years, Marvel sets up all of this romantic subtext/chemistry between Stucky, literally say Steve and Bucky are soul mates, then they shove a heteronormative end that goes against Steve's character/character growth down our throats.

They even add insult to injury by giving us a dry and lifeless Stucky scene before Steve goes back in time. The Ned/Peter and Tony/Peter reunion were 100 times more emotional than Stucky's. I feel like the Russo brother's intentionally drained the life out of Stucky's reunion scene while directing it by telling the actors to act as hollow and uninterested as possible because they're trying so hard to bury Stucky alive in a shallow grave.

Deep down I always knew they didn't have the spine to explicitly represent Stucky as the canon romantic couple they were in the MCU but Stucky is still real. They're just not OPENLY lgbt.

Speaking of the openly gay character in Endgame... thanks alot Russos 😧🙄. Thanks for throwing us some scraps on the floor when it comes to explicit representation while the cis/het's get to enjoy yet another banquet.

The MCU prior to Endgame has done nothing but heavily hint that Steve and Bucky are the love of each other's life and now they turn around and say "haha heteronormativity ftw". Stucky is a broken promise.

But I'm not giving up on Stucky. They are canonically lgbt just like Valkyrie(bi) and Loki(pan) even though they too didn't get explicit representation.

I guess I'm just going to stay mad about this forever. Someone has to. Stucky deserved better than to go out in such an insulting way.

PS

Peggy may be "the love of Steve's life" but Stucky were each other's first love back in the 1930's. "The first cut is always the deepest" is the notion that your first love will forever define your perception of love. Maybe that's why the very next person after Bucky Steve finds himself attracted to is essentially the female version of his first love.

Bucky and Peggy are virtually the same person, just of the opposite sex. They are both brave, intelligent, strong, capable, compassionate, good looking, sharp shooting, army brunettes, who hate bullies. They even get introduced by beating up a bully while sporting their army clothes. You just can't make this sh*t up!

You can have it both ways. Maybe one day Marvel will understand that.

My hopes are lower than the bottom of the Mariana trench when it comes to that though.

Rant over. Bye.

[islcndxmisfits-a]

below is a list of my currently updated thread tracker since the website hasn’t working lately.... but here’s the link anyway.  the threads are listed in abc order (as best as i could) by partner url !!

now that i have updated my tracker, i am willing to take on more threads (will probably post some starter calls for muses without any threads since they need love too) .... with exception!!!! as well as bust out my currently old memes in my ask box :P

and figure out relationships & verses & bios & which muses to keep / get rid of since my last update and clearing out my followers / following lists !!! pretty much everythiiing!!

i will probably from now on, as replies come in for me, i will most likely reply & add them to queue as i do them so they don’t build up and i can also work on other things in between however some might get posted right away depending on how much muse and how much interest i have towards that specific thread at the moment.

if I’m missing ANYTHING please let me know.

I OWE: already replied and added to queue. if you want to drop or move any of the following threads, feel free to let me know. i will delete it from my tracker & my queue if it hasn’t already been replied to !!

plain text = done, queued, & added to tracker

italics and indented = queued, needs added to tracker after posting

indented = in the drafts, needs icon, queued, & added to tracker.

bold = needs replies, then queued, then added to tracker

@abrokenwitch​

Family Reunion // Sebastian & Lizzie

@actionrewarded​

Romantic Dice // Lizzie & Peter

Playlist // Lauren & Peter

@agentjadelance​

Resident Evil AU // Ray & Kayla

@aheroslegacy​

Early Lunch // Kara & Lena

@akumubaku​

Amnesia // Dabi & Yume

@bracteatum​

A Christmas Witch // Seraphina & Sharon

Almost Uncertain Death // Laurel & Sara

Arranged Marriage // Leonard & Sara

Bloodlust // Leonard & Sara

Dragon and Assassin // Eleanor & Sara

Familiar Faces // Steve & Diana

Gotham's Queens // Sofia & Sara

Sara & Enzo

Saved By The Flash // Leonard & Sara

Second Chances // Ray & Nora

Treasure Hunter // Chase & Jean

Welcome to Hell // Caden & Sara

@cheaburi​

Friend In Need // Charlie & Dean

New Friends // Charlie & Claire

@dalphahale​

Drunk Beck // Beck & Derek

A Helping Hand // Beck & Derek

@dawnblxde​

Escape // Marceline & Noctis

Long Live The Queen // Historia & Noctis

Investigating // Winry & Noctis

@demon-blood-youths

Blood Kink // Himiko & Shdwkyz

@devicus​

Bad Influence // Toni & Amber

Dangerous // Steve & Seb

Hot Tubbin' // Lea & Lana

I'm a Delacour // Adaline & Camille

Live To Party // Farah & MIchael

Snap with Sierra // Sierra & Camden

Stepcest // Kara & Gray

@dorthbaum​

Reincarnated Lovers // Dean & Dorothy

@fclsusrex​

New Visitor // Sonia & Yozora

Tomato Fight // Sonia & Yozora

@fxckingnxrd​

Soft Lips // Bakugo & Deku

Comfort // Bakugo & Deku

Nightmare // Bakugo & Deku

@galaxiism

Birthday Boy // Dominic & Jagger

Caden & Rory

Christian & Jagger

Hugh & Jagger

Klaus & Rory

Rory & Elijah 

@hallowcrown​

A ghost and a vampire // Hal & Sally

Who Sent You? // Hal & Sally

@heartonanoose​

Infamous // Tara & Alu

Kill to Survive // Natalia & Alu

Loners // Stefan & Alu

Truth or Dare // Nick & Alu

@inkdreamt​

A New Meta // Barry & Maddie

A Powerful Mutant // John & Victoria

After Cotillion // Ben & Mal

Another Kryptonian // Kara & Maddie

Another Mermaid // Cleo & Evie

Anything She Wants //  Lea & Kara

Corrupted Ben // Ben & Mal

Done Talking // Avery & Kara

Easter Dinner // Evie & Mal

Fake Girlfriend // Michael & Clara

Famous in Love // Josh & Maddie

Fancy Meeting You Here // Wes & Liv

Forgive Me // Erik & Ondina

Holden and Superhero!Liv

House of El // Kara & Clark

Hurt // Gar & Gwen

Hurt & Angry // Mon-El & Kara

Into the Spiderverse // Brainy & Gwen

Livewire's Apprentice // Livewire & Liv

Mermaid Reunion // Cleo & Emma

New Earth // Miles & Gwen

New York Minute // Holden & Liv

Old Friends // Sebastian & Lilly

Pain in the Ass // Tandy & Ruby

Peter & Mal

Poisoned Mal // Ben & Mal

Quiet Time // Hades & Mal

Return of Lilly // Lilly & Freya

Revisiting Themiscyra // Diana & Maddie

Romantic Evening // Ben & Mal

Seeing Double // Lilly & Harry

Stefan & Elena

Superhero!Maddie and Josh

Surprise Return // Mason & Alex

Survival // Lorna & Victoria 

Thank God You're Breathing // Mason & Alex

The World of Music // Barry & Kara

True Love // Harvey & Sabrina

Vampire Powers Activated // Hope & Lilly

What Do You Think You're Doing? // Ben & Mal

Winter Spirits // Noelle & Evelyn

@loktonphoto​

Shower // Levi & Prompto

You Can Be Useful // Levi & Prompto

@magicallyimpossible​

Drag // Harley & The Professor

Scoot Over // Clara & The Professor

Sit On My Face // Harley & The Professor

New Playmate // Harley & The Professor

Morning Sex // Harley & The Professor

Crisis Averted // Oliver & Lea

@multidivision

A Whole New World // Staz & Kise

Attractive Meme // Kageyama & Tsukishima

Gilthunder and Gowther

Impatient // Kageyama & Tsukishima

Puppy Love // Gilthunder & Gowther

@multiversalmagic​

Cisco & Hestia

Cisco & Aria

Cisco & Aqua

Cisco & Tara

@musesatyourservice​

Accidental Mistletoe // Hayley & Elijah

Ass on Display // Hayley & Elijah

Ass on Display // Lucien & Cami

Carnival Date // Kol & Davina

Comfort After A Nightmare // Elijah & Hayley

Karamel Angst // Kara & Mon-El

Mating Season // Klaus & Camille

Nude Pictures // Klaus & Camille

Oh Bite Me // Kol & Davina

Pinned // Klaus & Camille

Small Closet // Klaus & Camille

Smell of Blood // Klaus & Camille

Snowstorm // Klaus & Camille

Take Off Your Pants // Christian & Hayley

Trapped in a Closet // Hayley & Dean

@naturesloopholed​

Hizzie // Hope & Lizzie

Hosie // Hope & Josie

@paintedragcn​

Old Faces // Hades & Mal

Seduction // Harry & Mal

@prcttypoiscn​

Bucky & Harley

Drunk & Missing You // Mon-El & Kara

Kai & Katherine

Mommy’s Little Monster // Lucy & Harley

Selina & Harley

WinterQuinn

@predictableisnotbad

Bloodbath // Christian & Alice

Damon Royalty AU // Damon & Alice

Dark Kink // Christian & Alice

Familiar // Christian & Alice

From Playful To Possessive // Damon & Alice

Greece Vacation // Christian & Alice

High School Sweethearts // Christian & Alice

Late Night Phone Call // Christian & Alice

Mating Season // Damon & Alice

Need You Now // Christian & Alice

Negative Soulmates // Christian & Alice

Pray For The Wicked // Christian & Alice

Prince Christian // Christian & Alice

Sex Under the Stars // Christian & Alice

Surprise Me // Christian & Alice

Vampire Lover // Christian & Alice

@redemptivexheroics​

Brotherly Reunion // Kol & Henrik

Distracted // Persephone & Poseidon

Do You Knock? // Rebekah & Henrik

Fated Meeting // Hope & Raven

Forgot To Knock // Freya & Kol

New Students // Jackson & Sebastian

Opposing Sides // Natasha & Jake

Persephone's Garden // Hercules & Persephone

Please Remember // Hope & Kol

Singles Night // Riley & Kyle

The Modern World // Hades & Ares

We're Family // Hope & Henrik

Who The Hell Are You? // Hope & Jackson

Young Gods // Persephone & Blake

@storiescfdreams

A Pirate's Life For Me // Harry & Harriet

Children of Hades // Mal & Hadie

Children of the Sea // Uma & Uriella

Like Mother, Like Daughter // Jasmine & Jasura

Mermaid Teachings // Ariel & Aria

Riddle Me This // Chesney & Alice

Sisters At Heart // Ruby & Ginny

Stretch Your Wings // Maeve & Fleur

The Aftermath // Audrey & Preston

The List // Erica & Malia

The Sheriff and Archer // Roland & Skye

Underworld's Royalty // Hades & Persephone 

Voodoo Queen // Freddie & Mal

@strawberrycolaaa​

Childhood Crush // Gou & Sosuke

Future Fish // Rin & Sosuke

@sxcrificx​

Heaven and Hell // Maxxie & Cas

How Badly Do You Want Me // Maxxie & Cas

Oral Sex // Dean & Cas

Pin My Muse // Dean & Cas

The End // Dean & Cas

@tellmeitsadream​

High School Sweethearts // Hugh & Addie

@thecharmingknightemma​

Not Alone // Iris & Emma

A Princess and a Pirate // Killian & Emma

Super Friends // Kara & Emma

@thewxnderer​

Lucy Quinzel, Nice To Meet Ya // Rick & Lucy

@tofeelthecold​

Enzo and Bex

Brothers Salvatore // Stefan & Damonm

@violetxsilverxstark​

Ain't No Crying in the Club // Harley & Kelsey

Breaking and Entering // Harley & Kelsey

Hold Still // Kelsey & Asya

@wicxedxcharming​

Heartbroken // Luciana & Dahlia

Stargazing // Benny & Ben

@youngkopa​

Almost Killed Me // Lizzie & Oliver

It's Safe Here // Josie & Oliver

Lost Stray // Harley & Oliver

Make Me Feel // Lizzie & Oliver

New Roommate // Oliver & Harley

Oliver and Chloe

You're Staring // Josie & Oliver

YOU OWE: let me know if you want to drop any of the following !! i am also willing to move some to discord to make things easier. these threads will automatically be dropped if i don’t get a reply within a month except for those with a ** who have been on hiatus.

@actionrewarded​

School Work // Penelope & Peter ( x )

Upside Down // Josie & Peter ( x )

Tour Guide // Lizzie & Peter ( x )

@amnesiic

Alice & The Mad Hatter // Alice & Jervis ( x )

@bracteatum

Kennedy Cochran, P.I. // Kennedy & Sara ( x )

@daddyxreyes​

Master & Servant // Lucy & Kyon ( x ) ** will be archived temporarily due to hiatus.

@heartonanoose​

Cheryl and Alu ( x )

Don't Let Them See // Hazel & Alu ( x )

Oldest Friends // Jayden & Alu ( x )

Slow Dance // Dick & Alu ( x )

Terrifying // Valerie & Alu ( x )

@inkdreamt

Sorry I Ran Into You // Remi & Maddie ( x )

Travel Back in Time // Kara & Annabelle ( x )

Birthday Girl // Vera & Luciana ( x )

Practice Makes Perfect // Snow & Hope ( x )

Thief In The Night // Mal & Roland ( x )

Found Dog // Neal & Snow ( x )

@lonelybxstards

Aren’t You Afraid // Diana & Chaos? ( x )

Chaotic Good // Harley & Chaos? ( x )

Hot When Angry // Harley & Chaos? ( x )

@galaxiism

Too Much To Drink // Lux & Chase ( x )

@loserbled​ / @hcrlequins​

Mommy's Little Monster // Harley & Lucy ( x )

@mudbirthed

Handosie Threesome // Hope, Landon, & Josie ( x )

Landon & Ava ( x )

Landon & Jo ( x )

@multidivision​

Stolen Sweatshirt // Tsukki & Kageyama ( x )

Can’t Wait // Dean & Tsukki ( x )

Personal Chef // Tsukki & Shinomiya ( x )

Attention // Tobio & Tsukki ( x )

Summer Vacation // Gou & Momo ( x )

@musesatyourservice​​

Christmas Celebrations // Nick & Sabrina ( x )

Broken, Beaten, & Bruised // Steve & Nancy ( x )

One Scratch, Two Scratch // Nick, Nate, & Sabrina ( x )

Nick, Harvey, & Sabrina ( x )

Sweet, But Psycho ( x )

@ofeniigma

Sibling Bonding // Mia & William ( x )

I Own You // E2!Laurel & Felicity ( x )

Taking Care of Laurel // Laurel & Felicity ( x )

Apocalypse Now // Emily & Felicity ( x )

@paintedragcn​

Cold Weather - Penguin // Uma & Mal ( x )

Cold Weather - Santa Hat // Ben & Mal ( x )

Fake Girlfriends // Evie & Mal ( x )

New Villain at Auradon // Harry & Mal ( x )

Listen... // Ben & Mal ( x )

Happy Anniversary // Ben & Mal ( x )

@prcttypoiscn​

Alone // Toni & Cheryl ( x )

Harley & Wade // sms ( x )

Roommates // Ivy &  Cooper ( x )

@predictableisnotbad​

I’m Gonna Show You Crazy // Kai & Alice ( x )

Bad Things // Damon & Alice ( x )

Dance, Dance // Christian, Damon, & Alice ( x )

Newly Turned Vampire // Cristian, Damon, & Alice ( x )

Teacher’s Pet // Christian & Alice ( x )

Dark Kink // Christian & Alice ( x )

High School Sweethearts // Christian & Alice ( x )

Fifty Shades of Grey AU // Christian & Alice ( x )

@redemptivexheroics​

Christmas Party // Aurora & Henrik ( x )

Into the Unknown // Regan & Wyatt ( x )

Anti-Christmas // Kai & Henrik ( x )

Masquerade // Lucien & Ellis ( x )

@sheroaredlouder

Earth & Fire // Tara & Ember ( x )

@strawberrycolaaa​

Old Friends // Nagisa & Rin ( x )

@wicxedxcharming​

Shielded From The Rain // Ruby & Dorian ( x )

DROPPING:

Should've Been You (fcxsinned)

Protect Ban (fcxsinned)

Not Morning (fcxsinned)

Why Him? (fcxsinned)

Butterfingers (licnspride)

Drunken!Sins (licnspride)

Massages (licnspride)

Remarkable (licnspride)

Fairy Children (windscint)

Spanking (windscint)

Extra Special Service (pollutedxdesires)

I'm Fine (fragmntedx)

Home For the Holidays (monsterineveryone)

Gotham City Siren (sarcasmpersonified181)

I’m Your Mother (killersmoakism)

Snow Fairy (killersmoakism)

Brothers (memorystxrs)

Are You Cold? (pinafcl)

On Your Knees (multidivision)

The Hunter & His Wolf (multidivision)

Cook Off (multidivision)

Not Drunk Enough (multidivision)

Pinned (multidivision)

The Boar Hat (multidivision)

Oikawa & Shoyo sms thread (multidivision)

POSSIBLY MOVING TO DISCORD:

all threads with @chooseyourmuse​ & @ocylum​

Elizabeth & Howzer ( x )

Workout Routine // Izuku & Bakugo ( x )

Freaking Me Out // Meliodas & Elizabeth ( x )

New Friends // Gou & Kamina ( x )

Take Me With You // Xi & Colin ( x )

Is That Blood? // Cassandra & Matthew ( x )

Guzma & Alice ( x )

Blushing // Ochaco & Bakugo ( x )

Romantic Dice // Ban & Jericho ( x )

some threads with @multidivision already moved over; not linking bc too much work and they’re already linked in discord.

[elevatorsnot-worthy]

Just A Little Chaotic (Chapter 9)

CHAPTER 9 - LOOK AT WHERE WE ARE

Description: Alison, a singer-songwriter and an actress, finds herself in a middle of a chaotic set up with two of her cast mates. One’s a new face and one’s an old friend.

Pairings: Chris Evans x OFC x Sebastian Stan

Warnings: Language

Just A Little Chaotic (All Chapters)

After filming my scenes for the second Captain America movie, I went straight back to the studio to do my second album. Chris and I would have Skype dates since he’s back in Cleveland still shooting the movie. I drowned myself in music as I try my best not to miss him. The sound of the piano just became my way to express my feelings for him since he is miles away from me.

Miles apart and it’s driving me crazy,

Your eyes are all that I see,

The stars will show that I will be –

Waiting, searching, loving only you

I made sure I gave all my emotions with every word and every note. I closed my eyes as I sang to the microphone. I imagined as if I was singing to Chris. As soon as I finished recording I sat on the couch to rest. My brother and I have been in the studio since 7am and it’s already almost midnight. I took my phone out from my pocket to see if I have any messages from Chris.

“Chris still hasn’t message you yet?” he asked as he takes a swig from his beer. I just shook my head and put my phone down on the coffee table. Adam was finalizing the mix for the song number three that we recorded today. I started to worry since Chris would always call or text me even when he is at work.

“Maybe he was really busy and really tired.” I sighed. “By the way, have you talked to Seb?” I asked my brother, trying to worry about something else. Sebastian was distant again since the last time we talked on set. I tried calling him, but he wouldn’t answer.

“Yeah, we talked yesterday. What’s up?” Adam turn around from his swivel chair and faced me.

“I don’t know, he’s been avoiding me,” I answered him. “Ever since I dated Chris, he’s been acting weird but they’re friends, so I didn’t understand why he’s been avoiding me.”

“Well you’re dating his friend, maybe he’s weirded out or he’s just busy…” Adam suggested.

“I don’t know, man.” I shook my head and stood up from the couch to get a bottle of beer from the mini fridge in the corner of the room.

“And you know Sebastian, he’s like that sometimes.” He explained. “He’s always been protective of you. You know, I’m not saying Chris is a bad guy, I really like him, but maybe because he’s like a new person in your life.”

“But he’s not a jackass like Peter.” I said as I took a sip from my freshly opened beer.

“Yeah,” Adam nodded in response and stood up from his chair. He reached out for a toast and said, “Let’s just hope for the best, right?”

My brother and I spent the next hours in polishing the songs we recorded the whole day. Chris still hasn’t texted or called me yet. 2am rolled in and Adam and I called it a day. As we were cleaning up, we hear a sudden knock on the door. I went and opened the door and it was Chris with a handful of baggage in his hands.

“Hi babe,” Chris smiled as he entered the studio. I jumped up to him and gave him a big hug. “Sorry I didn’t call, I wanted to surprise you.” I looked up to him and his eyes looked really tired.

“I thought you’re still in Cleveland.” I said as I helped him with his bags.

“Well we changed locations and we’ll shoot here in LA this week.” He explained as I lead him to the couch. “So as soon as I got off the plane, I went straight to you.”

“I love you, babe.” I kissed him on the lips. “Well, Adam and I are just cleaning up. You just rest there and then we’ll go home.”

After a couple of minutes Adam helped Chris and I to load his luggage in my car. Adam went and drove off on his own car since he’ll be coming home to the apartment he recently got with Eloise. Chris agreed that he’ll stay at my house for now. As we got in the car, Chris immediately noticed the brown teddy bear on the front passenger’s seat.

“Is this yours?” he asked as he got the stuffed animal and sat on the seat.

“Yeah, why?” I asked him nonchalantly as closed the door.

“Who gave this to you?” he asked.

“Sebastian gave it to me as a congratulatory gift for my tour, he went to the San Diego show.” I explained, and I can see the annoyance in Chris’ face. “He knows I like stuffed toys when I was a kid.” I got the toy from his hands and threw it in the backseat.

“I didn’t know that.” He muttered sarcastically to himself.

“What?” I looked at him as I started the engine.

“I didn’t know that he gave you that.” He said as he tries to avoid eye contact with me.

“I’m sorry, I must’ve forgot about it.” I apologized. I started to drive out of the parking area and Chris just became quiet. It was just the sound of the wheels running on the ground and the ambiance around us. “Are you mad at me? Because if you are, you know, it’s nothing to me. If you want me to throw away the toy, then fine. It doesn’t mean anything, it’s just a congratulatory gift.” I said as I tried to make Chris talk.

“No, don’t throw it away. it just annoys me that you’re close—”

“What I can’t have friends?” I snapped at him.

“No, it’s just you guys are really close, and I saw how Sebastian looks at you and how he talked about you before.”  He explained. “Why are you all defensive?”

“Because you always act like you don’t believe me! How many times do I have to tell you, Chris? We are just friends. If he has feelings for me, I don’t care, we are just friends.” I was starting to get annoyed. “Don’t you trust me?”

“I do but I can’t help to be jealous, you had a whole life with him.” He said.

“We were just roommates! It’s not like we dated!” I raised my voice at him because I was getting really frustrated. “We were just roommates. In fact, we lived in three-bedroom apartment in Lower Manhattan – quite spacious actually. What else do you wanna know?” I burst out.

Chris did not answer, and it was dead silence between us as we drive back to my house. The short drive felt like it lasted for hours. I focused myself on driving as soon as I parked the car on the driveway of my house, Chris held my hand.

“Babe, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have acted that way. It was stupid of me. I was a little insecure and it was really childish of me to act so possessive. I just really want you to be for myself because you’re really important to me. I love you, Ali. So much.” He apologized. “I get so anxious that I’ll mess this up, do something idiotic and you’ll run off with someone else.”

“Chris,” I sighed, and I faced him. “Don’t be anxious baby, we’ll be okay. I love you. I won’t run, I’ll always be here.” Chris just nodded and kissed me. Since it was already really late, Chris and I just unloaded his luggage, left it in my room and went straight to bed.

***

Our relationship kept going stronger, it was easy for us to keep things quiet since we were both busy. He would visit me in the studio or I would visit him on set. We would go out on dinner dates, but we were lucky that we haven’t been spotted by the paparazzi or by fans. We were kind of domestic, since we spent most of our free times at home just relaxing, binge-watching, playing music, or cooking. Chris would even sometimes help me in writing music for my album.

Sebastian on the other hand was still a little distant. We would talk sometimes and catch up on what’s happening in our lives. He said that he’s dating a girl now. I still haven’t met her, but he said she’s somebody he met a while back. He sounded happy when he was talking about her and I felt happy for him.

It was the night of the Winter Soldier premiere and I was initially not going to keep my cameo a secret, but Chris wanted to me to be his date. Brandon finally let me go out in public with Chris, he thinks that it is a good move that we would go to the premiere together. It still annoyed me that everything has to be business though Chris and I just ignore him whenever he tries to control us.

Chris and I arrived at the El Capitan Theatre, and the sea of fans overwhelmed me when I stepped on the red carpet. I immediately turned on my extra playfulness to compensate with my nervousness. I was wearing a short form fitting baby blue dress to somewhat match Chris’ navy blue suit. I held on to Chris’ arms as we walked down the red carpet. I would wave at the fans and smile at everyone.

I would let Chris do his interviews alone since we would avoid the awkward “are you dating?” questions. While waiting for Chris to finish an interview, I felt a hand on my waist.  It was Sebastian in an all black suit. He greeted me with a tight hug and a kiss on my cheek.

“Ali, I missed you.” He said. “I’m sorry if I was acting weird before, I was afraid that it’ll be like Peter all over again – but hey, we’re talking about Chris, he’s a good man.” It was a relief to hear those words from him.

“It’s okay, Seb. Anyway, how’s your girlfriend? Did you bring her here?” I asked him.

“No, I like to keep in on the DL, for now.” He answered.

“Well, I look forward to meet her soon.” I said. Finally, we were back where we were always at. Both of us have our own relationships and supporting each other.

“Seems like you guys are finally going public.” he commented.

“Yeah, but we’re not going to make a huge deal about it. We kinda got tired of hiding so we agreed to slowly let the people know.” I explained. “Plus, it feels kinda nice to be shown off.”

“I’m pretty sure any man, you know, that’s dating you would gladly show you off. I mean, come on Ali! Look at you!” he beamed as he motioned to my dress. “I don’t know how you do it, man. You always look better and better.” Now Sebastian’s starting to sound like the Sebastian I knew.

“Well you look great tonight, too. Real sexy.” I said because I know he’ll immediately blush. Sebastian giggled uncontrollably while looking down on the floor. “For real, Seb. You look great and I’m so proud of you. The movie’s fucking named after you.”

“Thanks, Ali.” He smiled. “I’m proud of you too, you know. Your career’s just getting bigger and bigger. I remember back then when you would write songs at midnight and wake me and Adam.”

“Oh God, I’m sorry.” I laughed.

“But it’s all worth it. To see you where you are right now with your career... and your love life.” Sebastian cooed. “I really am happy for you.”

Chris walked towards us after finishing his interview. He greeted Sebastian with a hug then he placed a hand on my waist. “Hey man, you look great tonight!” Chris patted Sebastian’s shoulder. “You excited?”

“Yeah, it feels all surreal to me still.” Sebastian shook his head in disbelief. “Feels like a dream.”

“I’m proud of you, guys.” I can’t help but to join in their conversation. I reached up to the both of them and gave them a hug. My best friend and the love of my life both in my arms. I was happy, ecstatic even. We were interrupted by one of the ushers telling us that we must go in the theater. Both of them offered their arms for me to hold on to and I reached for the both of them.

“I love you, babe.” I smiled at Chris who’s on my left as the three of us walked towards the theater.

“I love you too.” he smiled back and kissed my forehead. It was all finally okay. Chris wasn’t jealous of Sebastian anymore. Sebastian doesn’t walk out on me when Chris is with me. It was all good. Or so I thought. I looked up at Sebastian and he was looking at me with that sad smile and he mouthed to me something I’ve heard from him a million times but tonight it struck differently.

“I love you.”

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