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Being someone who read Under The Red Hood and came out with the firm belief that, for Jason, it's not about killing Joker, it's about Jason wanting proof Batman would choose him over the Joker (bc shelia chose the joker). Makes seeing any other media where it's all about just wanting the Joker dead is a teeny bit frustrating. to be honest
Jason could've killed the Joker himself, really, really easily. Jason kidnaps the Joker before the confrontation. I can't open my comic for a reference right now, but it felt like he had the Joker for quite a bit before the confrontation. He had him. He beat him up with a crowbar. He had every single opportunity to kill the Joker himself, but he didn't because that wasn't his goal. Make no mistake, he did plan for the Joker to be dead by the end of it, but do you see what im trying to say here
Edit: If I knew this post was gonna get 1000+ notes I would've tried to word it better or something, this was a rant I made on the way to the grocery store 😭
It's not about making Batman kill either. When Batman says he won't kill, Jason adjusts and goes, 'Let ME kill the Joker or kill me to stop me' instead. The test is all about Batman choosing him. The whole final confrontation is Jason's first death again. The parent, The Joker, and the explosives. It even ends with Jason unable to move as a bomb goes off right next to him again because the parent didn't choose Jason. And instead tried finding an option that'd benefit them and (consequencely) letting the Joker walk, again, lol, lmao <-in agony
#the final confrontation was basically his first death again#and YES he Does want the Joker dead#and it would've been really really nice if Batman was the one who did it#but when batman made it clear he wouldn't kill the joker. Jason easily switched to saying “LET me kill the joker” to accommodate#because he Wanted batman to pass his test#he gave a test to dick too. and technically tim but it wasnt the family test it was a different one so it doesnt rly count#AFTER utrh and the reveal and the batarang you can go hog wild about it. i care less about it then#granted i do believe they make jason more scared of the joker after it at some point#i guess because hes a bit too willing to kill the joker and ive heard jason wasnt meant to live after utrh#my watsonian explain for that is he was so fixated on his plan he cpuld override his fear. or maybe the pit. either work#i prefer the fixation bc i dont like the explanation that the pit was the /only/ reason he could get all plan together and done#BUT THATS UNRELATED!!!#dc stop putting the joker in jason stories im begging you please please please. lock him in a vault for the next 20 years or something#it Cpuld be good and i understand. but also. after so long of people that dont know or go for jasons need for family and parents#that love him and he can trust#the joker starts to feel like?? hm. words. a cop out? oh haha its that guy that killed him woagh hes here#i bet you dont even know that jaybin got beat until unconsciousness by an angry mob#while asking batman to save him only for batman to have to walk away#anwya. where was i going with this#i think i got off topic#jason todd#dc comics#batman#ADDED AN EDIT. SORRY. this post has been haunting me it keeps me awake. what if people misunderstand#they cant read my tags where i ramble more depth. thisbis the only option#EDIT EDIT: hiii#removed the sentence abt jason having the joker for several days bc i misremembered some things#go read its-your-mind 's addition instead also#ok no more i wont edit this post anymore i promise
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i can't get enough of them
#river dipping#theodore doe#matthias evanoff#a burning house to live in#echthroi#ts4#ts4 screenshots#have been toiling away at an edit i’ve been meaning to make for months now which Is! giving me psychic damage#and i haven’t logged in in a few days so. shares this screenshot with you 🤲#i have so many random screenshots of them that i could share honestly i’ve been playing the game so much lately#but yeah. this edit i’ve been working on… legitimately can’t even start it because it upsets me every time i stare too long at it#i’m simultaneously putting it off while also being a perfectionist and nitpicking every detail#but anyway. it’s a nice change of pace to look at mattodore being sweet and beautiful instead#i’ve decided matthias is keeping the dimples btw 🙂↔️#also i love their alpha versions so bad i’m just completely ignoring the transparency issues w the hair and my preset#so don’t look at the obv outline of their bald heads#me saying hi i’m alive! look at my ocs! and then turning around and staring in harrowing grayscale at procreate#logging back out .#oh but wait.#beloved anon who sent a message abt matthias crying over theo know this: hehe yayyyyyy#and also i will reply eventually .#the abandoned state of my inbox…. let’s not discuss it.#sawrry . with big wet eyes#i will be capable of saying things about them eventually#i simply can’t form the sentences rn#<- but can ramble in tags foreverrr#hashtag tumblrgirl
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How does conversion work for a trans person? I'm scared of being naked for the mikveh immersion and also the part about circumcision, I really don't want anyone to see my body naked
I feel you on that, anon. So, it will heavily depend on which branch of judaism you plan on converting to, but there will be trans-friendly and trans-unfriendly spaces within each branch. I think the best course of action is to ask around with rabbis which take in students - definitely ask rabbis what their expectations would be as a trans student. Honestly, the only reason I didn't disclose my transness immediately to my rabbi was because I could tell he'd be trans-friendly even through email.
Now, I don't know your specific circumstances, nor will I ask, but there are options depending on what you're looking for. I'm a trans guy - I don't have the obligation to go through bris, and I'm not really able to. However, I do fulfill many of the mitzvot for men, and that compromise sort of offsets the fact that I don't have any way to really go through with bris.
For the mikvah, I've heard some places will put a sheet barrier in the water so that your body isn't fully seen. From what I know, you just need people to witness (even for a split second) that you are fully immersed and not your body. This might be dependent on the movement, however.
Otherwise, the process is very similar if not identical to cis counterparts. You can fulfill a ton of mitzvot as yourself, and in general, transness doesn't really prevent you from doing that. I would definitely talk with your rabbi for any accomodations you might want in this process - it's imperative that you're able to trust your rabbi to be receptive and willing to hear you out or compromise or anything else. If you have follow-up questions, I'd love to hear them; I can only speak to my experiences, but I know that it can sometimes be comforting to know you're not the only trans convert in the world. Transsexuals have become jewish since the dawn of time; you have no reason not to be jewish if that is something you want.
#ask#jumblr#jew by choice#jewish conversion#trans jews#queer jews#personal thoughts tag#i can't speak to the mikvah process as a trans person yet but once i do i will let you know what my options were and what i chose#i myself have become a lot less dysphoric but there was definitely a time where i was EXACTLY where you are now anon#so i get the feeling and i want you to know that there is nothing wrong with how you feel#being trans is a beautiful thing but it's also hard#with the last sentence: it's lighthearted but it's true#trans people have existed for thousands of years#trans people didn't just magically start converting when we were invented in 2014 in the bowels of tumblr#no; we were in medieval spain and bronze age egypt and talking with emperors and existing as people no matter what#to say that there's no precedent for trans people and no precedent for us comverting isn't really true#therefore there is *inevitably* going to be a space for you. judaism is vast this is true. which means there's a spot for you in it#it's true that not all spots in judaism are progressive. there are some places where being trans isn't seen as a thing#but that doesn't mean judaism is going to look that way across the board#i hope remembering that helps. it helps me
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Honestly, I am not trying to be inflammatory but the more I think of it, the more I am convinced that the curse of hatred exists, but it's actually Tobirama and all of his students that carry it.
Every time Tobirama or Danzo, in particular, talk about the Uchiha Clan being inherently evil because of this or that, it genuinely sounds to me like they are projecting onto them.
Tobirama: "So the Uchiha Clan loves others deeply, but they can't handle their emotions and turn evil because of it when something bad happens to their loved ones"
Also Tobirama: "The Senju clan bases it's strength/jutsu on love, but that never led to us being evil or us being unable to let our hateful feelings go☝️ because we're so rational"
Also Tobirama unable to let his hate and fear towards the Uchiha Clan go (singling them out from all the other clans) and acting like they are so overcome by their emotions that they can't act reasonable or be trusted. Even though Madara, whose brother was literally killed by Tobirama, acted civil towards him for (probably) multiple years, while Tobirama was setting the foundation to keep the Uchiha isolated and away from any real leadership position.
Tobirama’s disdain never lessened and got passed down to the next generation.
#i rewatched sasukes fight with danzo and now I am mad all over again#curse of hatred is the stupidest thing I've ever and people keep using it as justification for the massacre and the treatment of sasuke#it makes me sick#everytime tobirama opens his mouth during that conversation in the shrine#it sounds like he is just accusing the uchiha of things that are true for himself but he just can't amit to himself#so he has to dress it up as some official scientific fact as if he didn't make it up because he is so consumed by his fear and hatred#same with danzo#accusing the uchiha that their coup would have undermined konoha while his actions are undermining and hurting konoha left and right#and everyone lets them get away with it#don't get me started on hiruzen “I want peace but I want take a single diplomatic action towards peace” sarutobi#👉👈i couldn't do anything to stop him uwu👉👈#you are a fucking dictator#but you stick your head in the sand and don't take action because you don't really care and it's your friends committing those crimes#hatred and evilness is fine as long as you and your friends are the ones with it#but god forbid an uchiha isn't happy about getting pushed out of the village they helped create#Even when Tobirama first met Sasuke he immediately looked down on him and profiled him as a scoundrel despite not knowing anything about hi#there's others that definitely have better articulated takes on this#I am not good at putting my thoughts in words so sorry if i am a little all over the place and my sentences are a little weirdly written#anti tobirama senju#anti tobirama#anti danzo shimura#anti danzo#anti hiruzen sarutobi#anti hiruzen#anti those other two elders#madara uchiha#pro sasuke uchiha#pro uchiha#pro uchiha clan#anti curse of hatred
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Tris (angel+human/purgatory hall oc) doodle because it’s midnight and the art demons tell me I must
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Istg I’m a gremlin because do not give me art motivation after midnight or else I’ll stay up until it’s finished. See that doesn’t even make sense. I’m tired I sleep now idk man
#I don’t actually know if I’ve spoke of her much???#but she’s my baby#mortal soul trapped in an immortal body💔#someone put her down /affectionate#like she needs to be killed in the sense you put a pet to sleep when they’re too old or on pain. her blood would paint a beautiful goodbye#Wtf does that last sentence mean#let me sleep before I draw again bc WHO let bro cook#she just misses her brother (it’s a one sided familial relationship lowkey)#(Simeon when I catch you)#sorry for waffle gang#obey me#obey me solmare#obey me!#obey me shall we date#obey me oc#ocs: Tris#I’m gonna start tagging my ocs I have 4 main ones now and they rot my brain#a million smaller ones but oh well#good night sleep tight chat
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gn lovlies I’m gonna go dream about Umemiya getting bit in zombie apocalypse au
#mari says#when im stressed i think abt killing him multiple ways….hes my punching bag…my little stress ball….#this one lets me have much angst i think#his initial reluctance to tell you but if he DOESNT then he’ll turn and hurt you but asking you to finish him off before he turns???#oooo the look on his face when he knows ur gonna say you cant do it is so gentle and theres no blame at all#fun fact: i loooove zombies#all kinds#hmmm i could make him immune and his reaction when you push him out of the way not knowing that and getting bit yourself?#or him finding you after you’ve turned and he’s gotta put you out of your misery? Dreamy sigh#i started writing a lil bit but ive been soooooooo…bad. lately that i can barely get a sentence out#I wanna write blood and guts and sinew#sinew is one of my fav words#you may ask yourself “mari if he was gonna turn into a zombie what would you do” excellent question imaginary you#i’d probably just let him bite me#but i do have it in me to mercy kill him too ig#but then i think…people wanna fuck the resident evil zombies right? well….#nvm back to killing him#why didnt i do zombies for halloween? cliche#jk i was just in my seasonal depression funk#still am but im trying to get better ✌️
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"Damn, that's crazy..." + Madison ♥️
"Well... when I was 14 — like, a couple months before my 15th birthday — my mutation came in... AT. SCHOOL. I was arguing with this girl in the hallway, and water just SHOT out of my hands, and I basically turned into a fucking raindrop! Everyone was freaked out by me now, even my own friends! So, after my birthday, my parents forced me to go to this stupid mutant boarding school to learn to control it and "be near relatable peers." I fucking HATED it there, but at least I met my friends pretty quick — Jas, and Chris, and Kara. Then I met John... He was perfect... and other than kissing, he was my first EVERYTHING! He was a jerk sometimes, but he has issues. With his family. Anyway, then my best friend Jasmine told me that John liked Rogue. ROGUE! SHE ISN'T EVEN PRETTY! She's just kind of cute and White, that's why people like her! Anyway, John said it's no big deal because he likes her, but he loves me. Whatever. Anyway, one night, our school got mafia-jobbed by this government army guy who had beef with our headmaster, and wanted to kill us all. So we ended up on this horrible trip in the middle of the night, and then we ended up at Bobby Drake's house, and his brother called the cops on us! Logan got shot, so John decided to start shit with the police, and I was SO fucking embarrassed! Whatever! So, Ms. Grey and Ms. Monroe picked us up, and then the fucking AIR FORCE came after us and blew a hole in the roof! Rogue flew out, but unfortunately, this blue guy our teachers picked up saved her. So then this old fucker Magneto started brainwashing John on the plane, and I told him NOT to talk to that man or his girlfriend! Anyway, so the adults were off doing stuff, and then John got bored, so he followed them. Wouldn't listen to ME! And then the military dude made the professor almost blow up all our brains! And after ALL of that was over... John left with those fucking terrorists! He just left! Then Ms. Grey, like, sacrificed herself to save us because the plane wouldn't move, and the place was about to flood. But no one even cared about John! Anyway, so we got home and I had to tell John's little sister, Ryland, that he left with fucking Magneto. She literally thought he'd died when we first came in! Okay, so, then... like, 3 weeks later?... I was, like, throwing up and nauseous a lot, and I thought I was just super upset. But then, my friend Christan... made me take a pregnancy test. And... it was positive. I feel like I blacked out for, like, 10 minutes. Anyway, I went to the doctor and stuff... I was going to keep it. I mean, it was the only thing I had left of John, other than Ryland! Anyway, a couple of months after that, I was in class, and I started cramping like I was on my period, and it felt like my period came, but obviously, it didn't. So, after class, I went to the bathroom... and I was bleeding. So, I'm freaking out, and then I found Kara, and she took me to the emergency room. Look, you can probably guess what happened. Whatever, it's... whatever! Anyway, after that, I just... I didn't really care anymore. It took me over a year to even start trying to get over John, and... everything. And then after he'd been gone for over 2 years, I finally sort of did. But then the mutant cure came out, and there was all this bullshit around it. People freaking out like other mutants shouldn't be allowed to make their own decisions. I mean, Rogue was such a freak that she couldn't even touch people! Anyway, I thought I was over John, but anytime I thought about getting the cure, I kept thinking "What if he comes back?" I knew he'd think I was a loser for it. So then, some people go to fight The Brotherhood and Ms. Grey, who is alive now and INSANE, and guess who comes back with them? John! Bobby Drake, like, saved him, I guess! So, I don't even know what to do with this, and Ry doesn't even wanna talk to him, and his older siblings were there, and they do wanna talk to him because they'd thought him and Ryland were dead for years, and like!" (cont. in reblog)
#GUYS I HIT THE FUCKING LIMIT!!! 😭😭#Take a shot each time this girl starts a sentence with “Anyway” or “So” or says “Whatever” as a sentence! 😮💨#She's such a little bimbo I love her! 😭#I know she's a dumbass for John but IN HER DEFENSE! ☝🏽...#I too would let him treat me like shit. ✋🏽😌#x men oc#xmen oc#mutant oc#marvel oc#marvel original character#aren’t all the pretty girls happy? ☆ madison hunter.#verse: marvel#⌨ commentary.#✉ mail.#oc trauma dump#txt.#tw: miscarriage#miscarriage tw
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i swear if you people start uwuifying OCD like you did with ADHD and autism I'm going to start attacking
#the general idea of what OCD is already so fucking wrong and harmful#if you start being like 'oh my little meow meow is so OCD' or 'its not a disorder its just a different way of thinking uwu'#I'M GOING TO FUCKING KILL#ALL OF MY EARLIEST CHILDHOOD MEMORIES FROM AGE 3 AND UP ARE OF HAVING PANIC ATTACKS#PLEASE GO FUCK YOURSELVES THIS IS A MISERABLE FUCKING DISORDER ITS NOT CUTE ITS NOT QUIRKY ITS THE REASON I HAD GRAY HAIR AS A TEENAGER#i saw this like 'i let the intrusive thoughts win' isn't something people use all the time for like dying their fucking hair#its exhausting how many people what to be all 'mental illness needs to be more accepted'#and then in the next sentence want to deny that your mental illness is actually harmful to you and doesn't negatively affect you#and its just because society doesn't accept your different way of thinking uwu#NO I LITERALLY WOULD HAVE KILLED MYSELF AS A TEENAGER IF SOMEONE HAD CONVINCED ME THAT MY MENTAL ILLNESS WAS NORMAL AND FINE#figuring out that something was Wrong with my brain was like the best moment of my life#and this 'no you just think differently don't try to change' attitude may be helpful in SOME CASES#but that shit needs to me pulled back on A LOT online because that framing can be extremely harmful to some people (like me)#knowing exactly what is wrong with my brain is literally the only way I'm able to not let it affect me#and it not affecting me is literally the only way I can function and live happily#like you understand that some people do genuinely have things wrong with them#and telling them they don't is beyond cruel
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I finished book 3 of svsss which means I finished the main story (book 4 is bonus stories right? I'll get to that next month) and ngl I liked the story overall but the last part had me struggling. I lost focus constantly, and idk if it was me or the book but something wasn't vibing for me
#I was literally spacing out every other sentence or so#do NOT ask me what happened in these books I do not know#anyway I'll get part 4 next month and then that's enough mxtx for me for a long while I think#december will be the next part of fish boy adventures#then in january I can start with a new series so if anyone has any recs for me let me know?#(I only buy one danmei every month to spare my poor wallet a little lmao)#(in case anyone's wondering why I'm mentioning months)#anyway#seven seas danmei#mxtx#svsss
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been able to keep both my fear and hype about totk in check by watching nothing but elden ring videos for weeks but now i read something on accident and my anxiety is going through the roof again
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#ganondoodles talks#pls nintendy#dont do this#it was only a sentence with no clear spoilers or anything#but by god its put fear in my heart again#pls let totk be its own game#id even be willing to spoil myself on some stuff just to know my fear isnt based on truth#i hate that i feel like this#even if im better able to stop panic attacks before they happen#i still feel so silly for feeling so strongly about a game and its lore#but no matter what i try i cant help it#its been my thing of comfort for so long i wouldnt know what else i would focus on if i were to lose it#and it would be so much work - years of work- basically wasted#plus i would feel so bad having made people be interested only to abandon it before its even really started#the only thing giving me comfort if this was the case is knowing id just post all lore -concept art -drafts and scripts#as a sort of -this is what i had been working on for all these years- so at least the people who cared could get an idea of it#and in the unlikely case that it would be liked by alot of people#i would keep working on it despite it making no sense anymore#im rambling on trying to calm myself down#sorry#gotta be exhausting reading my anxious ass tags over and over#;__;
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posts that took me 6 months to finish making. so anyway,
its too late in the night for me to be coherent about this but
"I don't distrust you," he admits since you've gone silent. "You're allowed to be here." He feels guilty. Guilty over how he's been treating you, but also over how things turned out.
"I take that as you've done some things you regret." "Many." Her brows draw together. "And some I blame myself for, even though I know I shouldn't."
There's more here. You can feel it simmering under the surface. He looked away last time. It couldn't be that bad, could it? He could have, he should have…[i]not this time.[/i]
"I feel like I actually got a chance to move on now that you're back in my life. I don't want to be the marshal that messed up and got half ${his} team killed; I want to change. But it's…hard. Harder than I thought."
"Good." The laughter sounds genuine. "I'd hate it if that part still showed."
thinking about fhr and second chances. about characters that live and make mistakes and regret and have to move on anyway. and maybe they do, or maybe they dont. thinking about how it reflects on sidestep, on all different versions of sidestep, and the ways they can handle their rebirth. thinking about sidesteps that try to fix things with the people theyve hurt, or find new people to help when they cant make it up to the people they need to. about steps that have to bury their regrets to have their new lease on life, and the ones who manage to lock up the skeletons in the closet vs the ones who still have the past hounding at their heels wherever they go.
theres the way it all interacts with eachother too. like, take argent, for example, somebody who cant afford to do anything but move on and hope that she can still be better this time around as a matter of survival. compare that with herald, that lived his life constantly thinking about the needs of others and so has to apologize for every minute problem he might have caused. or chen, who has such an understated self-loathing for the mistakes hes made in one lifetime and yet reaches the same conclusion of pushing aside his guilt so it doesnt crush him, so he can Get Things Done. ortega and mortum are different in the way they approach regrets too, where mortum cynically accepts it as part of life and ortega has to find literally any way they can make it right.
just like. man. fhr is a story about regret, huh.
also have a bonus hg quote from the 4.2 about it because it literally inspired this insanity and itd feel wrong not to include it LMFAO
[i]The arms around you pull you into a hug as you try to think. Smother you in caring and worry. Loss. Fear. Not letting you go. Not this time. Not again.
FUCKED UP SIBLING RELATIONSHIPS YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS!!!! TO ME!!!!!!
#fhr#pulp speaks#do i tag all the characters. hmmm#eh nah#i am Also thinking about how i have to study integration and i am very not doing that but its fineeee i can ignore ittt#everytime i save to drafts i have this fear that tumblr is going to post it instead of save it AND ITS NOT EVEN UNWARRANTED#TUMBLR CAN YOU PLEASE LET ME SAVE MY 6 MONTH OLD DRAFT IN PEACE#its like 5pm where im at rn but i still have to keep that “its too late in the night” sentence from the start. atp its required#my guy has been with me from the beginning‼ its an og‼‼‼#the quotes were originally screenshots and i Do like the aesthetic of it but then i realized it was. Impossible to read#and the screenshots were too small to accurately press the alt text button especially on mobile#so alas. quotes it is#btw the reason this took 6 months was i kept procrastinsting gathering all the quotes#i wrote everything. today 🫶#feeling normal thoughts and emotions about fhr in this club tonight boyssss#oh and something ive also been thinking about but havent included#ortega+hg clinging onto their second chance by their teeth#cant afford to let it go. cant lose them Again#hey ortega. hey. how does it feel knowing that you and your greatest nemesis share the same fear of losing the person you care about most#and that said person is the same one for both of you?#just wondering
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gosh FUCK everything was so EASY three months ago!!!! and now I can't stop worrying about everything my body is doing all the time!!! is this tiredness fatigue am I eating too much sugar how long do I have until I end up diabetic is that tingling in my hands neuropathy am I hungrier than I should be why am I tired when I haven't eaten since breakfast why am I tired after I eat what's this and what's that and I just can't get my brain to fucking shut up. I KNOW the facts and I know that I'm fine so why can't I stop turning it over and over in my head!!!
#like?? not only am i Actually Fine also something like that isn't even a death sentence!!!#I saw ONE thing on the internet from like a Microsoft Start Page post about some really weird minor thing that was claimed to be#a sign of diabetes and since then I haven't been able to truly relax or stop thinking about it#like!!! I KNOW the facts and that I'm fine!! I do!!! so why do I keep worrying!!! and why am I more tired than normal!!!!#(the more tired than normal is likely because of worrying. and summertime)#Lu rambles#literally just let me go back to a few months ago when everything was so so good in my head and I was doing so well 😭
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now why did dazai say here he wanted to ask chuuya sth 🧐🧐...? WHAT WAS THE QUESTION SUPPOSED TO BE?! like I know it'd be probably another joke but what would he say hadn't he made that joke...
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#also yk when you're scared of ur feelings / don't want the other person to know sth so you start saying sth and then stop mid sentence?#not bc u didn't realize what u were saying but bc there was some hope maybe you'd hear what you wanted to hear#or just that you wanted to live in the fake reality for a moment and imagine yourself asking that not necessarily wanting an answer#yeah that's what happened here 😍#no but tbh i think sth similar happened in ch 101#but actually not similar ahhhh I'll make a post abt that#anyways WHAT WAS THE QUESTION SUPPOSED TO BE DAZAI I NEED TO KNOW 😭#and don't tell me it would've been a joke i listened to one too many skk songs today#soukoku#bsd#okay actually im not finished bc this is another time where Dazai purposefully acts like a person / character in love with the other#(character bc how he does that is stereotypical. like an archetype from a movie) (the Book thoughts in my head rn)#so yeah like you don't say such a think to a random person or a colleague like THE BONDDDD god#and the fact chuuya really gets scared....#remember in 15 when they first met and Dazai was like 'will you let me go... if I talk?' and then he said chuuya ought to drink more milk😐#imagine if adult!Dazai's question was meant to be 'have u been drinking milk?' with that blank annoying expression of his#bungou stray dogs
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sometimes i try to strongarm my adhd but i fear it's much too even of a match up
#my phone is locked with an app that won't let me use it#(which i purposely turned on)#i have 10mg of adderall in me#my laptop is open#writing playlist on#and i'm staring at the start of chapter 23 like “what if i just didn't do it instead”#so i'm at a stalemate with myself#where my brain won't give in and just do it but i also won't let my brain win and do nothing instead#unstoppable force vs immovable object#i've written one sentence in like 30 minutes#if this book ever gets done just know it took about one thousand miracles to get there#personal
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Hey, I noticed your post on Ectonurite religious practices, and I thought the concepts were very interesting. I’m a big fan of the Anur System myself, to the point I’ve learned how to make languages for them, if that’s not too weird…
In reference to this post-
The 'having a favourite fictional setting' to 'make a conlang' pipeline is all to real Pilgrim, my linguistics teacher let me use mine for my end of term project instead of the assigned analysis (transcribing a conversation between yourself and a friend, which probably would've been useful to study); you wouldn't believe what planet I based it on (don't look at my icon that's cheating :P)
But nah yeah, the Anur System is to me one of my favourite parts of Ben 10 Omniverse since I love horror and horror themed things but hate being scared of them so- the Anur System and the movie monsters that influence their design always has a special place in my head!
Even in my mutants and magic au where I retcon even OS to include more mutants and more magic users and presence where I made the Mummy an actual mummified priest who's attempt at resurrect worked (to the detriment to waking up to the grubby mitts of the British museum) and making Viktor an actual frankenstein's monster who's functionally mutant both to parallel Gwen and Max better (Gwen for magic obviously, Max for being a not-so-ex-Plumber who dealt with more than just alien phenomena but humans doing weird things inspired by old books and other stuff), I can't not still have the entirety of the Anur System still exist! I can't remember who but someone made thep khufan siphonophores and well- riding the coattails of my fulmini posting I got excited over them :P same goes for transylians though I haven't thought much about their potentially interesting biology other than the thought of 'how weird can scar tissue adaptations in biology become' so :P :P :P
#ask#thepilgrimbetweenworlds#anur system#ben 10#even with the yenaldooshi still being a loboan i also started slightly retconning them to resemble more of a coyote#heck- just slightly altering the episode plot with something more fitting for 'how to deal with a yenaldooshi'#with some skipping over details because 1) i inherently don't know everything and 2) that avoidance of detail can be explained in-canon#because while something resembling a yenaldooshi does entitle at least some knowledge on how to deal with that due to the overall threat#anything beyond getting one of your back is kept secret by wes and kai because the rest isn't the tennyson's business#:P the secret third 'm' is myth but myth can be split into mutants or magic- maybe even both#so the lack of focus on myth specifically isn't because myth and legends don't exist#it's just that they have existed in due part because of mutants and magic#see; the mummy- it's really just magic keeping him around plus a little vengeance against ungrateful descendants#and is also the root cause of kesi existing 'alive' in the modern era (who unfortunately came to in the middle of an unwrapping party :P)#since the priest was wanting to practice a resurrection spell and may have replaced the protective wards to not take suspiciously long#speaking of having a language based on a fictional setting- have an anglisised (but not fully ipa approved) sentence i found#vorite thuuqithau e|atsu dheetwrax finicariqaai#aka 'we killed the man that laughed at god' where thuuqithau e|atsu dheetwrax means 'the man laughed at god'#me and my friend who was making this conlang with me were practising writing run-on clauses and well we didn't make a lot of words#technically we haven't done much of anything for a while so :P#especially since i've got a backlog of logograms without dictionary entries yet let alone meanings attached#what it HAS done is insert dental and alveolar clicks into my stimming rotation aka my original alien character krr'tch reflects that
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Literally JUST finished season one of hannibal not even 10 seconds ago and omfg.....this is a series that I've put off getting into for soooo long because I just knew that I was going to be obsessed, and I'm kinda sad I did because I had no idea that I was going to like it this much
#the pyre#literally starting season 2 rn#I heard that this show got cancelled early so maybe once I finish it I'll read the book and watch the movie#it's funny bc by chance I picked up this book that I suspect might have been inspired by hannibal#just bc it's about a women whos a serial killer who eats her victims#it's p good except for the fact that the mc mentions sex literally like every other page#don't call me prudish for being annoyed that every other sentence in this book is:#“I went to this one place and fucked loads of guys. I don't like that girl she could never fuck guys like me. I should fuck that guy”#the book is a certain hunger pls read it I'm desperate to let you know that I am not exaggerating at ALL#it's so excessive
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