#i hate that i feel like this
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been able to keep both my fear and hype about totk in check by watching nothing but elden ring videos for weeks but now i read something on accident and my anxiety is going through the roof again

#ganondoodles talks#pls nintendy#dont do this#it was only a sentence with no clear spoilers or anything#but by god its put fear in my heart again#pls let totk be its own game#id even be willing to spoil myself on some stuff just to know my fear isnt based on truth#i hate that i feel like this#even if im better able to stop panic attacks before they happen#i still feel so silly for feeling so strongly about a game and its lore#but no matter what i try i cant help it#its been my thing of comfort for so long i wouldnt know what else i would focus on if i were to lose it#and it would be so much work - years of work- basically wasted#plus i would feel so bad having made people be interested only to abandon it before its even really started#the only thing giving me comfort if this was the case is knowing id just post all lore -concept art -drafts and scripts#as a sort of -this is what i had been working on for all these years- so at least the people who cared could get an idea of it#and in the unlikely case that it would be liked by alot of people#i would keep working on it despite it making no sense anymore#im rambling on trying to calm myself down#sorry#gotta be exhausting reading my anxious ass tags over and over#;__;
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Dumb thing that would not leave my brain
#jayvik#arcane#viktor#jayce talis#suggestive#bluesky enjoyed this one way more than i thought so i figured id toss it here too#ive gotten such sweet nice comments on my last triptych drawings#fellow jayviks you are so niceys#stop enabling me!!!! ill want to draw more!!!!#i STILL cant get jayce's face right. i feel like flynn rider#i hate hate hate drawing anything inorganic especially in perspective#if i have to draw a straight line or an ellipse its game over#so it truly speaks to my love for The Character that ive willingly drawn viktor's brace several times lol
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party rockers in the
#im sure someone has already made this joke but i think im hilarious#house md#hate crimes md#greg house#gregory house#james wilson#lisa cuddy#i feel like such a loser tagging things like look at me give me attention god. shut up.#scout talks house
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if you have a transfem lover I do not even know how to begin to explain how important it is that you touch her without her having to ask
#puppy barks#obviously like some people won't want that#but god what I wouldn't give to be fucking#explored? worshipped?#someone just grabbing me and feeling me like I'm the most beautiful creation on earth.#like they can't have enough of me.#and i hate feeling like I have to ask for it.#I want to feel like loving me like that comes naturally.
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what's meant to be is meant to be. if you even care.
(pls click for higher res i worked really hard on this)
#anastasia broadway#anastasia musical#anastasia#dimya#fan art#my art#iz draws#jc leyendecker#illustration#i love the drama of his work#it almost feels like carravaggio#christy altomare#derek klena#i feel like i like the sketch more so here it is again#i also hate painting with pure black so that is why it's not quite as dark as the reference painting
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How the gentle wind,
Beckons through the trees,
As autumn colours fall.
#I’ve been trying to do some more full illustrations#working on colours and environments#which is awful and I hate it#but I feel like I’m at least progressing so yknow#a win is a win#PLUS! I’ve been meaning to draw these lil dudes for FOREVER#It’s certainly the weather for it#my art#over the garden wall#otgw#wirt#otgw wirt#otgw greg
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whats wrong with my dog bruh 😂😭
#art#illustration#colored pencil#digitally edited quite a bit tho#black paper#horror#surrealism#unreality#this is what realistic quad fursuits make me feel like btw#no hate to ppl who make/wear/like them and theyre v impressive it just freaks me out#i think those kinds of fursuiters need to work in the film industry making practical effects for horror movies#like making a skinwalker or something similar#it looks like a dog at first glance but the way it moves isnt quite right and u realize its someone/something just mimicing a dog#animal uncanny valley to me
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i don't care that joe biden is old and tbh, i don't actually think the media cares either. they just want trump back because him sucking makes for easier clickbait
#text only#politics////#i hate saying this because it makes me feel like a conspiracy theorist#but with the nyt acting like a jilted lover#and the head of cbs having said that trump was 'bad for the country but good for ratings'#forgive me if i'm a little cynical!#the 'joe biden is old' post
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i feel like not enough ppl are factoring in the cultural clash between laios and shuro and the many micro agressions shuro faced while being in their group. literally the name 'shuro' in itself is one
his name is toshiro 😭 lets also not forget that he has his own communication issues, in the opposite way that laios does- thats literally a factor in their argument, that his envy for laios's ability to express himself sincerely manifested as part of his distaste for him.
ig all this to say like, was their fight heart wrenching, especially when reading laios as autistic? absolutely. anybody whos ever been in laios's position knows how much it hurts to realize someone you thought was your friend doesnt actually like having you around, especially when they didnt tell you and you had no way of knowing due to not understanding their cues. but im begging yall to step back and see the nuance of this situation cause im gonna be real a lot of you are kinda just brushing over it acting like everything is toshiros fault and that hes a terrible person when in reality hes an average guy who really, really clashed with laios and it led to a very long misunderstanding due to their supremely opposite methods of communication. even laios and toshiro, after letting everything out in their fight, were able to come to an understanding and start a foundation for an actual friendship built on better communication
ok yknow what Edit: i shouldve made it even more explicit at the end of this post, i hadnt thought i would need to since i started the post with this, but i think a few too many people are missing my point so i just wanna clarify. i shouldnt have said 'really clashed' and left it at that because yeah they did, but it wasnt just their opposite methods of communication, it is also very much that toshiro was experiencing microaggressions via laios. it may have been unintentional on laios's part, but it still happened and wore him down, made it harder for him to communicate on top of both the more subtle social cues that he was raised with and his own communication difficulties. i also want to say that the fandom reaction to toshiro and the complete ignorance of this point is also racist tbh or at the very least ignorant. i understand that the anime did not cover this panel, and neither did the manga, as this was an omake, but im gonna be real with you guys. there are enough context clues within the story to clue you into this. if you didnt pick up on it thats ok, but i think this is a good lesson in picking up subtext in the stories that youre watching and/or reading. kui shouldnt have to explicitly say 'by the way laios was racist to toshiro' for this point to be understood, and at the very least, when the author portrays a character in a sympathetic light (as kui clearly does) it should make you question Why they are doing so and what makes them sympathetic, rather than youre immediate and only reaction to be 'well i hated what this guy did/said so i hate them and they suck'. idk exactly how to finish this, just. idk. question your biases and gut reactions to things you see in media and stories, and think about whether or not theres subtext that youre missing.
#dunmeshi#dungeon meshi#shuro dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#toshiro nakamoto#dont get me wrong i understand relating to a character and hating whoever wrongs them cause youre protective or you relate really hard#but i think toshiros been getting the short end of the stick for a long time now 😭#even his love for falin is misunderstood#he literally states all the reasons he likes her#and none of them are superficial#but hes so closed off and has such difficulty expressing himself that instead of asking her out or smth he just#proposed to her out of the blue 😭#leading a lot of ppl to just assume that he went 'white woman spotted' and proposed#do Not misunderstand me i am#a HUGE farcille stan#obviously#but i dont think toshiros feelings are surface level and i think theyre absolutely crucial to understanding him and his motivations#as a character in this story
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only you.
#alt versions under the cut!#my art#arcane#jayce talis#viktor arcane#jayvik#these two have infested my brain like mold#oh god its yooouuuuuu that i liieeeeee wiiiiiith#sweat this out of myself in the brief three days i spent home (want to go backkkkk im tired im nauseous im in my hate everyone era againn)#i just want to feel better!!!!!!!!!#letting myself go a little bonkers with this helped a little but the guilt over not progressing with my thesis film is going to consume me#anyway. enough of using the tags as a confessional. bone apple teeth
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companions re-classed part 3 - shadowheart 🌌🌚🌝
*shadowdancer isn't a 5e rogue subclass, it's a 3.5e rogue-based prestige class, but it suits her so well and when i played 3.5e as a kid i thought it was the coolest thing ever lol so i wanted to use it
karlach 🔥 wyll ⚔️
#shadowheart#bg3#my art#*i still think it's the coolest thing ever#ngl tho i hate to speak a word against objectively the best class (rogue) it could use more weird spooky subclasses#rly the only cool supernatural one rn is phantom which i do like a whole lot but it didn't feel like a good fit for her#glad to get this done before succumbing fully to DA brain but idk what the fate of the final three will be lol#next up is lae’zel so im hoping the Do It For Her will motivate me
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does science experiments on you (homoerotically)
#petra idk if you read tags but I was wondering how ok you were with people making comics esp since tigers is ongoing;;;#I assume jokey comics are probably fine but I don't know if gets iffier beyond that#I'd hate for you to feel like your work as a comic artist is being undermined!!#I tend to think Sequentially by default hehwhwerjwh#ANYWAY#wasnt sure if I was gonna post this FUCK IT WE BALL#tiger tiger#luck tiger tiger#ludo#ludovica bonnaire#my art
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Kim Kitsuragi is a fascinating character because there's not that much fun or interesting or compelling about him. And yet somehow over the course of playing Disco Elysium the game rewires your fucking brain around him. He's the middest man you've ever seen in both appearance and personality but at some point he says something kind to you or something critical of you and you feel like you just got hit by a truck and you need his approval like you need oxygen and like how tf did this happen. what are you
#disco elysium#de#kim kitsuragi#i have an interdisciplinary degree in game design and psychology and i'm still unsure how they pulled this off#my best guess is that the early game beats you over the head with how much you suck and everyone hates you#and this allows for any genuine praise from another character to feel massive#the fact that he doesn't take pity on you ever contributes to praise from him feeling earned. like you CAN get better#whereas pity from lena or judit#while comforting#doesn't do anything to alleviate how pathetic you feel
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thay tiktok thats the guy saying 'i like wearing my sunflower hat' smiling and someone shouting 'I HATE YOU' 'KILL YOURSELF' 'I HOPE THIS GUY DIES' is literally what its like being transgender here
#but also its kind offunny. like i dont feel like im missing out on anything persay bc the ppl who act like that are literally so miserable#you hate my silly nature.... but i will notd Shes spitting on the front porch again. Okay
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I don't think this guy is good at handling any kind of affection let's be real 🙏
#mmelart#cookie run kingdom#shadow milk crk#shadow milk cookie#pure vanilla crk#pure vanilla cookie#truthless recluse#shadowvanilla#pureshadow#I feel like Shadow Milk wouldn't accept any kindness well especially from someone who he's attached to lol#Like.. he finds it comforting but also hates it and fears at the same time if you know what I mean#And I can imagine PV secretly trying to give it to him without it being suspicious or something while being Truthless Recluse#Okay idk how to put it into words but I hope you understand my vision here- I can't think properly I don't want it to be way too OOC#They have been on my mind so much I need moreee
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DPxDC Idea
Danny working at Wayne Enterprises as some sort of engineer, uses the in-house app for all his blueprints and stuff
He starts getting notes from a coworker in-app, and assumes its this annoying older guy in his department who constantly undermines him because of his age, despite his education and past achievements (i feel like in this AU the Fentons react well to the reveal and they work together on a number of non-lethal ecto inventions that have Danny's name attached to them)
Except one day his coworker mentions never using the app, and Danny suddenly realizes there's only one other TD he could've been arguing with in the notes of the app
#dp x dc prompt#dpxdc#danny phantom#danny fenton#batman#tim drake#red robin#i have no ideas what happens beyond danny realizing it's been tim the whole time#and having a 'fuck ive been arguing with the big boss' moment#cause of course when he thinks its some asshole from his own department hes snarky as hell#but the ceo??#should he stop with the sarcastic explanations behind his designs?#or will tim think its weird if his tone changes#in my head this does end up being dead tired somehow#just because i love the idea of these two bonding over snarkiness and engineering#and i feel like tim would simultaneously love and hate danny's notes#but also is that actually in character? cause the only batman thing i've read is rhe webtoon#and i know some vague things about canon#but thats it#haven's writing
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