#learning how to live

[aurae-rori]

i like creating meaningless sentences and throwing words into walls. i love walking the ink drop down and dry and i will laugh even if nobody else sees it because i made it. maybe what i say is meaningless but that's contradictory. it has meaning to me.

maybe there can be meaning in meaninglessness

and maybe we can have fun instead of worrying about the specifics and going back over sentences to double check if it's sophisticated enough

i want to go back to writing sentences with a pencil in fifth grade as my teacher talks about something i won't remember, scribbling down on a singular piece of paper i shove in a binder only to lose it years and years later because i was sad but still later years later i kickstarted my life and i never forgot that poem i wrote on that blank piece of paper that i will never see again

there is meaning in your definition of meaninglessness

maybe you hold more meaning than you think you do

[thatthirdtriplet]

Relationships:

Tim Drake & Jason Todd Tim Drake & Dick Grayson Dick Grayson & Jason Todd Tim Drake & Alfred Pennyworth Tim Drake & Bruce Wayne

Characters:

Tim Drake Dick Grayson Jason Todd Bruce Wayne Alfred Pennyworth Kate Kane (DCU) Talia al Ghul Damian Wayne

Additional Tags:

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Summary:

Talon will never regret leaving. He isn't as stupid as what people say. Talon knew that the court would kill him sooner or later. Most likely sooner. Talon knew he was useless. He was told that enough.

Aka The batfamily take in a Talon.

[nnezzy]

And finally, this year came to an end. As the fireworks shine in the sky, I'm sitting on my bed. No parties, no drinking. No friends around. Just me, Jerry, my whale plushie and my plants. This year was the first brick of a life I'm not allowed to discover just yet. I've been more alone in this year than in my 21 years of life. And I lived for so little. I remember how many times I thought about ending it all, and being this close to death that her breath felt like a delicate veil. I've been betrayed and abandoned in ways my heart didn't know it was possible to even experience. I've faced traumas I didn't know existed. O made some new friends along the way and lost others. I talked to myself an uncountable amount of times. Monologs and poetry have saved me this year. And I want to thank the hopecore, who taught me so much in so little time. I found out so much about myself.

I learned a lot.

I've changed a lot. And a lot changed.

Im learning to leave the past behind. I'm learning to be myself a bit more. I'm learning how to receive love, affection, care and kindness from others. I'm learning to be kind, tender, and delicate. I'm learning to set boundaries. I'm learning to let people go if they don't wish to stay any longer next to me. I'm learning to be alone. I'm learning to live.

I ask for one wish only to the Universe: May this year be kinder to my soul and heart. May this year be kinder, to me.

Happy New Year kid.

[sinkableruby]

the shiori ED in owarimonogatari ge kills me, but theres a very specific part of it that really gets my attention

right before the first verse there's a little flash in this box that shows an object relating to the arc character

its interesting to see the items for each of them. mayoi's bag is there, and the first thing you notice is that she's not. her bag feels almost synonymous with her, so it almost gives the impression she's left it behind, possibly for a new stage in her life (as it were). hitagi's apartment building is shown, and what i think might be araragi's house next to it. but they're so small that they look like models more than anything, which i feel relates to how these homes are things that are precious to her, they are things she wants to protect. maybe theres something to be said about the home as it relates to family too, and family being very much a big thing to her arc. and maybe theres something to be said about mayoi's thing being "something to protect" too

whats the object in ougi dark, then?

oh. hi ougi

guys im so not normal about this. putting ougi in the same room where the other two had objects that were important/synonymous with them. its because ougi darks ED is for ougi BUT its also for araragi (and shinobu, its about all 3 of them), so its araragis "thing to protect/that is important to/synonymous with him."

but also like. this is also like the only time in the show that we see ougi in any state even approaching nudity, and not just that, ougi is actually naked here (except for the sleeves). and that coupled with the kind of huddled pose really makes this feel like a very vulnerable moment, and a very very significant thing. its saying many things at once. it's saying conception, it's showing you the big bad but not so big and not so bad, its showing you the weakness in a character who has rarely shown anything like vulnerability or weakness, who is still haunting araragi (see the sleeves and the like "gonna get you" hands lol) to the bitter end.

and like if you look closely you can see a little smile which is standard for ougi but like. the hollowed eyes (more ghastly now when theyre white). the inward hunch. the lack of clothes besides the sleeves, that are stylized to look jagged like claws. this is a creature born with a purpose, a creature born to hurt. but this is also obviously a creature who is alone and feeble and Should Be Helped Not Killed for fucks sake lol.

and not just a creature but a person! ougi is armored in layers of separating clothes all the time but this shot is kind of groundbreaking bc it showing that like. she is really just like anyone else. the fronting is very much a front. she, the fake, has Substance. there's a very real person underneath those big sleeves.

and also since the shot is really only for half a second, ougi fades away very quickly. its very much a blink and youll miss it. but that fading away really feels like a flash of vulnerability before she fades away Forever. as in, it's a parallel to her almost final moments. but the fading away in particular feels ghost-ish. not to mention later in the ED shes even wearing like a ghost outfit.

and. god. if that isn't just.

idk. something about. being alive but not really. being a ghost. not long for this world and resigned to it. being so resigned to it you wear it and use that to represent yourself. making it a part of you. and then later being given a life. becoming able to live. idk yk. idk its just , yk its just ,

[xgungx]

my last regret.

nothing to say really just wanted to start off with something.

[upmala]

[bacchuschucklefuck]

couldnt draw my thang for mid-autumn so treated myself to a calne redesign instead

[musyke]

just because it's easy doesn't mean it won't take time

[postersbykeith]

[beaulesbian]

Emmrich & Lucanis banter about/with Spite because it's a very fun angle of conversation between them

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[isawken]

was recently having talks about saving up for a several-week vacation with my partner and he said something that i seriously cannot stop thinking about and i need to Ask The Audience

this is not cumulative, you must have spent over 14 calendar days outside of your hometown in one stretch to be able to hit Yes

i’ve never asked for this before but if you could rb for reach that’d be cool, this is a straight up potential worldview-shattering revelation right here and i need data if im gonna shatter my dang worldview

[spiritualempathstoner]

[astrumasylum]

Watching the sunrises

Day in and day out

The cycle repeats

When will I be set free?

Pray to your unholy god

Let him decide the fate for me

Is he up there on his tainted clouds,

Or in the heels of my worn-out feet?

I'm tired of running out of time

But maybe impermanence isn't so bad

Trapped in my own mind,

Grieving a life I never had

[nnezzy]

Winter always felt scary in some way. And so i tried to hide myself from it.

But this winter feels different. The cold is not as sharp as I remember it to be. The snow is not as aggressive as I thought it was. Instead, I looked at the sky tonight, and the snow never fell more delicately on my skin.

I stand in the middle of the street, and I cant help but smile.

I dont feel afraid to face the winter alone anymore.

[juney-blues]

when you're part of a group with structural power over another goup, you really do gotta just learn to say "i am not exempt from 'fuck 'em' when relevant" whenever someone expresses frustration with you or people like you.