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simonomaly · 4 months ago

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#Every night without fucking fail my negative self talk gets worse and worse which has been affecting my productivity. When I finally give up #and go to bed I feel completely fine in the morning. The conclusion I should logically come to here is that I should be finishing all of my #assignments when the sun is still up- however #I find myself just straight up not doing my assignments when I have to #leading to me having #to finish them at night. The cycle continues forth and I will learn absolutely nothing.#I have nowhere else to vent my frustrations without feeling like I'm ruining the vibe so this is where I choose to vent. I will very likely #regret this in the morning.#I would like to just run into the woods or something now #but I have promised myself that I will do nothing of the sort until I get to play Half Life 3 #This does nothing to make me feel better.#The obvious solution here would be to seek professional help- unfortunately I am still financially dependent on my parents and I really do n #ot like the idea of them finding out I've been feeling this way for a long time. I don't want to get a job either; which I am aware is an ab #solute dogshit excuse on my part and I should be ashamed. Despite this #I will continue doing fuck all.#This'll probably be deleted in the morning. Don't try to call anyone on me; I'm not going anywhere.

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anna-scribbles · 4 months ago

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emma dupain cheng on the brain😽🎀

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#ml #miraculous #miraculous ladybug #my art #emma dupain cheng #emma agreste #(i think that may the more popular tag for her lol. she is a dupain cheng in my heart though)#plagg #she is thirteen almost fourteen here btw. because i love circularity #emma dupain cheng to me is like. what if emilie or adrien grew up in a stable home with no trauma. that’s emma #and she is theater kid✨#and adrien and marinette are soooo so so supportive and love going to her shows and are so proud of her #/marinette has to be held back from trying to manipulate the school play casting process to secure emma the lead every year #but then emma sets her sights on bigger things(broadway west end)#and adrien pumps the breaks big time #and he’s so torn between supporting her interests and wanting so badly to keep her from like. being a child actor. having a job. b #being pulled from school #and emma gets upset bc he is standing in the way of her dreams #and they fight about it:(#and then emma discovers plagg and convinces him to help her sneak out and go to her callback that she secretly auditioned for #(and forged all the parent signatures for lol)#and. well. plagg CAN be bribed #and also she just reminds him so much of baby adrien🤧 he is a softie #and she runs away to her callback. and adrien and marinette wake up the next morning and see on the news that there is a new chat noir.#anyway. not that i’ve thought about it or anything

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theballadofmars · 5 months ago

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I love how mqf's oficial description is something like: a good heart who wants to help others but then you read the novel and his reaction to lqg trapping ten infected men who are crying in panic is "great now I can start to work in my experiments with decomposed people to find a cure" and gets out a lot of needles, which makes the man cry even harder.

Even if we only get bits of the other Cang Qiong sect leader's we can reach the conclusion that no one there is normal, sqq is just biased.

#the other sects when they have to invite cang qiong: they're our brothers but for fuck's sake they're so weird #sqq is a drama queen married to the demon lord #lqg is an obsessed fighter with no survival instics #sqh is a spy married to ANOTHER demon that somehow is still in the sect doing taxes #qqq could kill you with a look but she also makes fun of tiny lbh in the extras #you know the emperor #so she has probably zero survival instics too #mqf is one step away from becoming a mad doctor #and they're lead by the n°1 apologizer #i love them let me meet the rest #svsss #scum villain self saving system #mu qingfang #liu qingge #shen qingqiu

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hinamie · 6 months ago

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big fan of panels where they look like they wld beat me up

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #yuji itadori #megumi fushiguro #itafushi #fanart #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #yuuji #megumi #YUUJI WILL NOT COOPERATE TAKE HIM AWAY FROM ME >:(((#is it the angle ? is it the expression?? the bangs??????? am i just a fraud and a fake yuuji liker i dont know at this point #god #just . just take it i cant fiddle with the proportions any more ill go insane #it was worse when i tried colouring it but im STILL not 100% sold on it no matter what i shift or tilt #megumi my darling boy i love u at least You always have my back :'<#honestly my leading theory is that bc my yuuji design looks objectively More different than his canon design #its more prone 2 looking Wrong in my head #but even so !!! if i *have* my yuuji design down why does it still feel like im fighting fr my gd life when i try 2 draw him #it feels like he is shattering my drawing hand and smiling at me n taunting me w those shiny puppy eyes th entire time #head in hands I Don't Get It #when will i get it #anyway scoreboard yuuji: 623453766235 hina: 0

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bloominglegumes · 9 months ago

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i love normal guys doomed by the narrative

#either that or hilariously dysfunctional or both #tf one #orion pax #d 16 #megop #megatron #optimus prime #my art #saw one post pointing out in the trailer that a like5 frame shot of megatrons cannon that was snuck between their mahoushoujo type transfor #mations and like.messed up deeply messed up u see how goofy best friends orion and megsy are theyre just silly guys but in every telling of #their story they always end up enemies ok like in a meta multiverse hopping way think about it.like oh my god prewar tfp megop was already j #juicy and earthspark divorced-remarried megop is like.RGHFH tf one is going to destroy me bc this is what they had Before do u get me #before the war before they fell apart before friends became enemies and hands were stained before the beginning of the end im so so normal #like ok.this silly tight goofy buddy dynamic thats shown in tf one so far is.is what they had before. its what they could have kept if only #if only things turned out differently. but in every world optimus prime and megatron end up leading opposite sides of the bloodiest war ever #ok.its a universal fact and everyone who knows any transformers knows this BUT THE CHARACTERS DONT THEYRE POWERLESS TO PREVENT IT #ill clean up these tags in the morning but like im so.so normal about fictional robot guys #anyway i was intending to draw a background for this but i got lazy and also spent too long on the hands!!!!so whatever

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problemnyatic · 6 months ago

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executive dysfunction really is a complete fucking nightmare. all the decisions you could make, but you won't. All the things you know you should do, you want to do, but you won't. Yeah yeah we all know it's a symptom but it feels and looks like just.... deciding not to be responsible.

It's easier not to, so i guess I just won't. I promise it's not laziness, I swear. It's not me just giving up on things that affect more than just me, I swear. Maybe if I say it enough I could hope to believe it myself.

#I need to make dinner but only decisions that lead me in the other direction are capable of having any strength #I can step back but pushing forward is completely useless #fuck me I guess. I'll just hate myself because what other choice have I been given here #problemnyatic vents #problemnyatic thoughts

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egophiliac · 2 months ago

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I don’t think we’ve ever seen you draw knight of dawn before 🤔 what are your thoughts about him? Or take?

I've drawn him a couple of times, just really little/in the background. but I should draw him more, I love this guy a lot! I have many, many thoughts about him and the way he parallels Silver...and also I think it is extremely funny that his ghost is stuck in a ring. especially considering where that ring has been for the last 16-ish years.

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #don't mind me just killing time waiting for maintenance to end so i can stick my face directly into 7-12 #i mean i'm on the record (read: constantly posting) about how much i love the whole tragique backstory behind mal's birth #and. look. hold on it's a day ending in y time to be embarrassing about anime characters online again #no but really i love him. i love how he's such a vague figure but also the way his and silver's stories contrast #i cannot articulate it very well but just #i love how he's essentially like...bad end silver #he let himself go along with the big evil plan because he wanted to save his dad and not betray his king and all that #and when he finally did take a stand it was too late to stop the worst of it #meanwhile silver was immediately like NOPE WE'RE NOT DOING THIS #silver is NOT going to end up slaying the dragon thank you very much #me kicking my stupid little legs in glee over it all #and! the retrospect when you realize! that he was the one leading silver around lilia's memories!!!!#he is so happy that silver and lilia have each other!#he's so happy for them!#i want to put him in a can and hold him in my pocket for 16 years #also: his ridiculous hair. it's so silly and so good.#may vil never meet him #the knowledge that there's someone with naturally gorgeous hair who has somehow done it even dirtier than silver would destroy him

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aitadjcrazytimes · 1 year ago

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#lmao #for anyone who's curious the process went:#send ask to aita official #blog blows up #someone realizes its a chexer fic #i follow them bc they seem cool #i join their rvb server #their encouragement pushes me to finish the Actual Fic i was working on #i expand the fic to be more of a whole au after it comes out much better than expected #the next fic in the au that i work on has to do with a character's brain injury #this leads me to do research into brain injuries #''......huh. this sounds. a lot like the neurological symptoms that my doctors have been saying is just part of my anxiety disorder''#think on that for a while #go to the ER for unrelated reasons #remember my theory #bring it up to the doctor #Doctor Immediate Concern #doctors orders a ct scan #''eeyup! that there's some atrophying and a chiari malformation! y'ever had a head injury''#(i had had several)#''well! shit! time to refer you to neurosurgery :) see if we cant do somethin about all that memory loss and severe pain and shit''#and now we are here #it also lead me to research osddid systems for the first fic #and now my therapist is having me tested for osdd because i did not know that those symptoms were not a thing everyone experiences #so like. thanks for helping me meet friends who could encourage me to engage with the things i like + learn more about myself #^ ^ <3 #im actually not gonna say ''ok last update fr this time'' bc idfk maybe something WOULD be funny to post on here

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lucabyte · 6 months ago

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On autonomy, and what it means to be Obliged to Help.

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#a homestuck walks into an antechamber and asks #hey is anybody going to make this dynamic wholly deterministic and thus dubiously consensual by its very nature #ANYWAY bigger ramble below. scroll down like usual #isat spoilers #isat #isat fanart #isat siffrin #isat loop #sifloop #THATS RIGHT WE'RE STILL SHIP TAGGING IT BABYYYY #in stars and time #in stars and time fanart #lucabyteart #RAMBLE START: anyway i think loop is wrong here. they have it backwards. as-- in my opinion--#the main reason they could be called back into existence postcanon is because *their* wish for help is still not complete #they still need help. siffrin still needs help. neither of them will ever stop needing help.#they will thus uphold the wish until the end of siffrin's natural lifespan.#that said. what does it mean that loop can be so wholly forced to abide by siffrin's wants?#(assuming the dagger cutscene posession is them being forced to uphold the 'help siffrin' wish via harsh universe logic)#[as opposed to something capricious and cruel the change god did. which feels out of character for the change god to me?]#much like how the island wish and duplicate objects are neutered by simply sliding off people's brains...#is loop subtly ushered toward their wish? obviously it's not a full override (see: the bossfight). but is there any interference?#and if so. so what? does it matter? if they don't notice? is it even real if they don't notice?#and even if they do notice. the universe leads we follow. how much do either of them value their free will in a belief system like that?#the whole game is dedicated to siffrin habitually NOT excersizing his free will. doing things the same Every Time.#Loop ESPECIALLY does this. predetermined predetermined predetermined even in the FACE OF CHANGE. REFUSING. ANY CHOICE.#Maybe they'd even be comforted by having a universe-ordained purpose even if it is subservient. even if its to Him.#(though. i can't see siffrin enjoying the idea that someone is subservient TO them... then all their suffering is his fault...)#loop got into this mess via WANTING too much. no more free will. can't be trusted with it. take it away from them.#but yeah. gets my greasy detective pony hands all over this. and everyone please do remember i like to make characters Outright Wrong A Lot

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bookalicent · 5 months ago

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yeah so this was insane

#i feel like too many people reduce this interaction to jason being like ‘lol same’#but idk :/#this chapter is from jason’s pov #and leading up to it he’s like ‘people keep walking on eggshells around me bc of the the michael varus stab wound’#and he hates it so when he goes on deck to help out with the storm #everyone’s like wtf except for percy #and jason states how much he appreciated percy not treating him like a sick kid #and i feel like it’s echoed in this sentiment where jason could say so many things like #‘you should never feel that way’ ‘im here if you need anything’#but he doesn’t make percy feel alone in his desire to just…. end it all #which ik for some people that doesn’t work but you’re not a character in hoo and percy is dealing with so much guilt #and he can’t tell annabeth bc she’s a main aspect of that guilt #and he doesn’t wanna guilt her more and he feels ashamed and when he describes this he feels weird for feeling it #so having jason this tough guy be like ‘yo i understand it bc i felt the same way #that’s gotta mean a lot to percy #also insane how jason who also struggles to display vulnerability #allows it in one of few times in this moment just so percy this guy he’s supposed to be jealous about #feels comforted and not alone in his guilt and shame #and also it’s just insane how jason’s wanting to kay em ess does not get talked about AT ALL #and just seeing his mom and the pressure of new rome getting to him #like this scene is insane and i’ll never shut up about it #also ignore me i’m just finishing my reread of hoo that took all summer #jason grace #percy jackson #pjo #ashla.txt

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windfalling · 6 months ago

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1.02 // 1.06 // 1.08 The Stranger vs. Sol on recognizing and differentiating Osha and Mae

#the acolyte #theacolyteedit #starwarsedit #osha x qimir #oshamir #osha aniseya #qimir the acolyte #sol the acolyte #star wars #mae aniseya #sometimes i make things #the acolyte dragging me back to fandom and gifmaking #i am not back on tumblr except i am just for this #i have a couple other gif ideas we'll see if i end up making them #there's something about sol's paternalistic attachment to osha leading him to tunnel vision when it comes to her #mae as an extension of osha #mae as the version that went wrong; corrupted;#whereas the stranger recognises and treats them as different people almost right away #and there is something so compelling to that #that even the person who claims to love you (and does love you in his own way) struggles to even recognise you #and will always see you as that little girl on brendok who needs saving #the stranger sees the parts of her that were unwanted; acknowledges her grief and anger and trauma #whereas the jedi and by extension sol saw that as a threat #ANYWAY im done i dont know anything about star wars except that i need this to be renewed asap

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windydrawallday · 22 days ago

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NOT OKAY TODAY / WORTHY

The comic I wanted to post was the last art of 2024, but because of a sudden power outage, it is now a hybrid that started the "past year" and finished on New Year's Day. The text is not mine! This beautiful poem belongs to the author Jarod K. Anderson, who writes about themes such as mental illness and how one can cope with the aid of nature's lessons. I found this poem on Pinterest when I was trying to distract myself from recent awful moments, and it resonated with me deeply. It reminded me how GOOD I felt when helping people I care about by listening to their doubts, when I treated them well, or when we shared ideas together etc. And it became MORE meaningful when I was the one in need of that help... and these people reached without hesitation 💝. You really get what you give! This poem reminded me my kindness is always worthy to be shared. I wished to portray it in the form of art for everyone who needed to read it too!

I hope this New Year brings more kindness to everyone 💞

Special mention to these peeps who brought me so many sweet moments, who let me be silly, who let me babble about art or vent together about adulting stuff: LUV U ALL TO THE MOON AND BACK AAA 🐾

@grinningghoulie @novalizinpeace @sildrae @ghostbulb @skullydrawsstuff @sug4r-melon @emisatea @frosty-tian @cometchasinglove @mariequitecontrary @spashahoney @nepetacataria-art @spiritshaydra @goobygnarp @ballpitbee @soothedcerberus @ninjakarkki @electricpez @akapen011 @lecanel @joonisstrange @tundra-tiger @lets-try-some-writing @myrablurple @ivycorp @confluencechimera @cerebrocentric-bullet @gelu-the-babosa-multiversal

IF I FORGOT SOMEONE SORRY! (... At which moment did this list grow? Life is made of many surprises)

#myart #maccadam #tfa #transformers animated #sequential art #short comic #poem #I HAVE MILLENIA WITHOUT DOING comics #lettering by hand #scribbling rendering-- alright I do that quite frequently but let me beee #sorry if my work is not the most amazing detailed thing ever: i wanted the words to take the lead here so #simplified EVERYTHING but at the same time #i let it be what the narration needed of it #im currently a ball of fuzzy warm feelings im so sorry to be such a sappy being kdsfhksdjhf

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methoughtsphantom · 7 months ago

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Danny fake guardian angel au

You know how sometimes it’s highlighted how you have to be very careful on what you say in the presence of a spirit because they can twist your words and end up bidding yourself to it?? well uno-reverse-card the spirit also has to be careful on what he says because when Danny had said he owed the dude one for coming to his rescue in a gala Vlad had dragged him to, he didn’t expect that to be taken literally.

danny: wait seriously?? i literally say that all the time!

cw: not after being crowned ghost king, you haven’t

danny: but—but I was also human when I said it. doesn’t that protect me or smth

cw: *shakes his head*

danny:

danny: omg this is a nightmare

cue timmy’s brucequest period (cuz he’s the guy) being so high strung and tired, he just wants some company, which is a so low stakes thing to want the deal Danny unintentionally goes sure we can do that and pulls him towards the guy, despite Timmy never outright saying he wants company. (tim always speaks in the sanctity of his own mind, not out loud)

So. random spirit manifesting. Tim going all who the fuck are u

and Danny panicking and saying your guardian angel

Tim not being impressed while Danny promptly blushes like a moron because that did not come off as he wanted it to.

Yes accidental dead tired where the dynamic goes from Tim trying to shake this probably demon that somehow latched to him being all like ??? dude leave me alone, and Danny being there like bitch i’m trying

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huh. im actually being protected by a spirit like he said he would. he’s strangely an idiot but also he’s overpowered and just never leaves my side which he says it’s an angel obligation but I think it’s bullshit but also hoping it’s not because it appeals to my crippling fear of abandonment (anyways he really seems to take after those little cartoon angels that poof into your shoulder to keep from me doing wrong decisions) translate into my future boyfriend seems increasingly appalled to what i am up to

meanwhile danny

Bitch you better thank your god I’m dead because otherwise I would already been killed. I did not sign up for a assassins what the fuck I thought you were a normal civilian not a literal superhero and omg that is a fruitloop. no no back off you wrinkly raisin this is my emotional support idiot you can’t have him and what do you mean you’re messing with time whatever this way I can get back to clockwork—