#and will only make it harder for ren to lose him in the end

[gravitysoda]

refusing an impossible wish and settling for one last game of chess.

[unriding]

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OCTOBER 1 - OVERSTIMULATION

KAJI REN X F!READER ﾉ 1112 words ﾉ the game? three bottles of flavored lube. kaji’s turn to guess. and you? you just have to lay there and let him get a proper taste first.

ᘏ ft. cunninglingus, blindfolded (kaji), fingering, overstimulation

OCTOBER 3 - CUCKOLDING

HAYATO SUO X AFAB!READER ﾉ 1096 words ﾉ FICS4GAZA ﾉ sakura doesn’t think he’s ever held his phone in his non-dominant hand… until tonight.

ᘏ ft. consensual recording, cuckolding (sakura), + masturbation, overstimulation, very light choking, creampie, mention of toys

OCTOBER 5 - MASK KINK

ENDO YAMATO X F!READER ﾉ 1189 words ﾉ endo thought you were joking about masks being hot, but … if you really like them so much, then maybe he’ll put on a show just for you.

ᘏ ft. mask kink, very consensual fear play, both degradation & praise

OCTOBER 7 - SUCCUBUS?!

SAKURA HARUKA X SUCCUBUS!F!READER ﾉ 1126 words ﾉ there’s no better way to lose your virginity than to a succubus, right? do those even exist? he was skeptical before he met you.

ᘏ ft. virginity loss (both), aphrodisiac, creampie

OCTOBER 9 - PREDATOR/PREY

GALLAGHER (HSR) X F!READER ﾉ 1667 words ﾉ delivering this basket to your grandmother sounds easy enough, but they didn’t warn you about whatever seems to be lurking at the end ﾉ in other words.. you act out the fairytale: little red riding hood

ᘏ ft. consensual noncon (cnc), predator / prey dynamics, muffling (his glove), oral (receiving) overstimulation, fingering + squirting

OCTOBER 11 - PET PLAY

KIRYU MITSUKI X F!READER ﾉ 902 words ﾉ you think he just likes seeing you embarrassed at this point. tonight, it’s worse than ever before, and he’s loving every single second of it.

ᘏ ft. pet play, toys (anal plug), praise, pet names, double stuffed

OCTOBER 13 - DRY HUMPING

NESS (BLLK) X F!READER! ﾉ 923 words ﾉ it’s not allowed. he knows this. but he can’t help that it gets a little harder not to claim you as his whenever you come back for more.

ᘏ ft. dry humping to wall sex, dirty talk, marking, possessiveness, forbidden relationship, mentions of fingering, face sitting, creampies

OCTOBER 15 - IN UNIFORM

KUROO TETSUROU (HQ) X F!READER ﾉ 1190 words ﾉ there’s about five minutes left on the clock before your coworker comes back.

ᘏ ft. maid cafe, exhibitionism, time crunch for kuroo, squirting

OCTOBER 17 - APHRODISIACS

DAN HENG (HSR) X F!READER ﾉ 1469 words ﾉ it’s only natural that you’d try to play it off, especially when he had already warned you about this ahead of time. your bad, you’ll admit. unfortunately for you though, this aphrodisiac is one of the strongest, and it won’t be going away anytime soon.

ᘏ ft. aphrodisiacs, mutual pining, wall sex, squirting from putting it in

OCTOBER 19 - GHOSTS!

GHOST! HAYATO SUO X F!READER ﾉ 742 words ﾉ SFW ﾉ you seem to be the only one who doesn’t mind the ghost that trails behind you. your friends want to hire someone to get rid of him, but you seem to be weirdly defensive over something that’s supposed to be haunting you.

ᘏ ft. protective suo (this time in a cute way), ghosts, etc

OCTOBER 21 - SCARY MOVIE

ENDO YAMATO X F!READER ﾉ 841 words ﾉ SFW ﾉ you’ve had some bad ideas, but this one has to be your worst. halloween night, sitting side by side with the man who has it in his dna to tease you, rank #1 for scariest movies in existence playing on the big TV, and your friends. the friends you’ve somehow managed to convince (through a dragged out lie) that there’s absolutely nothing in the world that can scare you.

ᘏ ft. horror movies, reader is a bit scared, + endo comfort !!

OCTOBER 23 - YANDERE

YANDERE!UMEMIYA HAJIME X F!READER ﾉ 838 words ﾉ no one would dare hurt umemiya’s girl. they shouldn’t. they wouldn’t dare. but after some time.. he thinks he should give them another reminder. it wouldn’t hurt.

ᘏ ft. yandere, creampies, overstimulation, praise, size kink, marking, soft possessiveness, reader wears a skirt, catcalling (not from ume)

OCTOBER 25 - CAMGIRL

HAYATO SUO X F!READER ﾉ 3520 words ﾉ you always do what the highest tipper says, but looks like that’s backfired! “bring someone to fuck you raw on your next stream” but oh. you don’t have a boyfriend, do you? so the second best option would be to swallow your pride and ask one of your friends.

ᘏ ft. streaming (audience), camgirl! reader, dry humping, creampie, overstimulation, squirting, virginity loss (reader), teasing, tba

OCTOBER 27 - TOYS

TAKIISHI CHIKA X F!READER! 937 words ﾉ a fun dinner with your friends? unfortunately, the group is one chair short, so it’s a given that the couple shares. takiishi wonders which will give it away first: the buzzing between your legs, or the faces you’re making? you seem to be doing an alright job (much to his dismay) but one push should do it.

ᘏ ft. exhibitionism (hinted that endo knows), mentions of fingering & potential threesome, toy usage, reader wears a skirt, risk

OCTOBER 29 - DEALS

DABI (MHA) X HERO!F!READER ﾉ 890 words ﾉ what happens when your curiosity takes you to the league of villains’ hideout? luckily enough, there’s only one of them there to greet you— and the world seems kind enough to let you off with a deal. fuck him once to guarantee his silence, or so you thought.

ᘏ ft. tw dubcon, forced orgasms, fear play, mentions of murder, etc

OCTOBER 30 - MACHINES

MR. RECA (HSR) X F!READER! 753 words ﾉ your voice is a bit too quiet for films. he says to consider this a vocal warm-up— just some personalized training he’s given you to combat your shyness on set, but you think otherwise.

ᘏ ft. clear power imbalance (professor x student), blindfolding (reader), overstimulation & mindbreak (reader), pet names used once

OCTOBER 31 - ROOMMATES

HOUSEKEEPING! — TOGAME JO X F!READER! ﾉ 7784 words ﾉ you don’t realize how loud you are, do you? or are the walls just paper thin? his patience seems to also be running thin, but he’s always thought of himself as someone who tries to be a pretty decent guy most of the time. a decent enough guy that doesn’t fantasize about fucking choji’s childhood friend raw, at the very least.

ᘏ ft. masturbation (kind of caught), size difference, thigh fucking, creampie, semi-possessive togame glimpse at the end, etc

[aayakashii]

was gonna ask this on anon but... no...

was reading all the asks other anons submitted regarding the jabberwock boys daydreaming about breeding mc and hear me out on mc who knows. just knows. the boys may think they're being sneaky about how badly they want you, but you can see right through them. you can see how hard they get just from being around you, how their eyes seem to swim with lust from a simple glance, how they muffle their moans into pillows at night, masturbating furiously at the thought of filling you up. you just know! and you purposely make it so, so much harder for them.

for example, whenever you're picking something up, you make sure to curl your tail around the swell of your ass, swishing your tail back and forth like a taunting pendulum. you pretend not to notice how haru stares, how his hands twitch and his feet shift in place as he resists the urge to dash to you and grab you from behind. you know his mouth goes dry every time you bend over when you're close to him. you hear every nervous gulp, every muffled gasp, every suppressed groan that comes from him. you know he was already a horny guy before, and you're aware how "unintentionally" pushing his buttons puts him in a difficult bind. poor haru, he's like a ticking time bomb... you'd better put that ass away unless you want him grabbing it! he will lose his cool eventually. eventually, the grating of carnal instinct against conscious sense will result in the victory of the former, and you will very quickly become victim to a man starved of breeding. he will not be gentle, he will not be slow, he will not do it only once. bunnies love to breed, after all!

bucks occasionally go through two ruts, so whatever lust towa was already feeling has been doubled. and he's quite shameless about it. he knows what he wants and he doesn't care, so he'll often come up behind you, press himself into your backside, and wrap his arms around you, burying his nose into the crook of your neck. he does this with absolutely no warning, and his grip is quite strong. you hardly need to do anything to tease towa about how badly he wants you, because he'll just straight up ask you if you're willing to help him out, and bat his eyelashes at you like you did at him moments ago when you were teasing him about his shameless humping. whereas haru and ren would accidentally end up masturbating in easy-to-find spaces simply because they can't take it anymore, towa would do it strictly because he wants you to find him. he'll taunt you just as you taunt him; making sure you catch him when he's masturbating, pressing his hard-on into your side whenever he wants, and licking his lips and batting his eyelashes every time you make eye contact. he'll breed you sooner or later. rather than a bomb, he's more like a slow-acting poison. it'll happen, but only when you succumb to it.

ren has seen many a catgirl in his time. he's imagined what sex with one would be like multiple times. they're a staple of the gacha games he's played. theoretically, he shouldn't be affected as much when you purr or swish your tail or twitch your ears, yet whenever you do, all he can think about is how badly he'd love to hear you purr at the feeling of his knotted cock twitching inside you, how he'd love to watch your tail swish excitedly while waiting for his load, how he'd love to watch your ears twitch as he moans into them. don't call yourself a pussy around him because all he'll be able to think about is pumping his dogboy cum into your catgirl pussy. don't playfully 'meow!' or 'nyan!' around him because all he'll be able to think about is forcing long, drawn out mewls from you by breeding you. it all circles back to breeding. sometimes it boils down, and he's able to focus on other things, at least until you pop up again and call him a 'good boy' or accidentally swish your tail under his nose. it all boils over again, and he has to gulp his saliva down, lest he start drooling over you. poor doggy! he's like a pressure bomb. the more pressure you apply, the closer you get to his inevitable blow.

god forbid you're in heat at all at the same time they're all in their ruts! i like to entertain the idea of mc exhibiting cat-like heat symptoms. maybe you're paying more attention to your appearance, maybe your words are suddenly more drawn out in excessive whines or mewls, maybe you're more affectionate with the ghouls and curling your tail around their hands or legs, maybe you're quite restless and can't sleep for long, maybe you unintentionally assume the mating position in your sleep. who knows? the ghouls can't get enough of it, though.

i'd go into depth regarding rabbit ruts, deer ruts, and canine ruts (which i have studied for the sake of other fandom smut writing) but unfortunately this ask is already long enough 😭 maybe ill do it another time idk!! im hoping this ask worsens the fixation lmao (/affectionate!)

NOT ME READING AND REREADING THIS A THOUSAND TIMES IM VIBRATING AT THE SPEED OF SOUND

Pink....... pls.... if you ever want to expand the ruts.... I am all ears and eyes 🤲 I'm so obsessed with the idea of frustrated Haru being completely blinded by the horny and Ren just being a dumb pervert omfg. The fact that Ren would go feral for you going meow or nyan AGHHHH HE'S SUCH A LOSER I need him carnally. Towa doesn't even surprise me, I feel like he would have absolutely no shame at all fr 💀

Also Haru being a time bomb, Towa being a slow acting poison and Ren being a pressure bomb??? 🚬🚬 poetic cinema... OBSESSED WITH THIS GONNA THINK ABT IT A MILLION TIMES NOW

[absurdly-overpowered-astronaut]

you know something that has bothered me about persona 5 ever since I played it is how they don’t address Yusuke’s attitude towards art.

He idealises the artistic process to the point its clearly self destructive (ie doesn’t eat , doesn’t have any money ect) and more concerning the idea of the true artist. The artist who is divorced from all worldly needs and pleasures the artists who has cut themselves off completely from society all in the name of their unbending artistic vision.

The best example I can think of off the top of my head is when he comes over to Ren’s house he gets them to watch art documentaries with him and if I’m remembering correctly the guy in the documentary left his family and completely cut himself off from society for the sake of his craft and yusuke considers this aspirational.

The problem is this attitude isn’t actually all that helpful. Any work done while depriving yourself is never the best work you could have made whether that be of sleep , food , social interaction , joy ect and art devoiced from society lacks meaning the best art isn’t completely removed from the human experience it reflects and comments it on it

but more so then this mindset being destructive and a tired idea I have distain for it feels like such a clear extension of Madarame’s abuse. We see Madarame also holds this mindset so Yusuke must have gotten it from him and it seems to disproportionately benefit Madarame and reminds me of abusive behaviour.

if yusuke doesn’t value and understand money or the worldly pleasures it can afford him then he won’t be bothered by Madarame receiving all the money from his works and it makes him more dependent on Madarame / the school he goes to because he can’t for example take the train , afford food or housing and it somewhat limits him socially making it harder to go out with friends.

“Social abuse is behaviour that is aimed at cutting you off from other relationships. This can be your family, friends, your workplace or a community you belong to.

The abusive person may:

-try to stop you from seeing other people or going to social activities

-try to stop you from going out

-make it difficult for you to use your car, other forms of transport or mobility aids” (in this case train)

“Types of financial and economic abuse

The abusive person may:

-take full control of all the finances, spending and decisions about money so that you are financially dependent on them”

if yusuke thinks that the only compensation a “true artist” needs is the artistic fulfilment of completing a work then he won’t be bothered by Madarame taking the credit

if yusuke thinks he needs to cut himself off from the world and others then he will be less likely to realise that what madarame is doing is wrong but also that he is completely dependent on madarame.

“Abusive partners will often try to isolate their victim, i.e. limit their access to those close to them in order to weaken them psychologically. The victim ends up cut off from the relationships that fuel their inner strength, provide validation and support, and could help them to see their situation more clearly.”

(I’m using an example from an article about abuse in romantic relationships but the point still applies)

if yusuke is single mindedly focused on the creation of art that benefits Madarame more because the more art the more compensation he receives

“An abuser may deliberately deprive the victim of sleep, with the aim of making them more vulnerable. The abuser may startle her awake just as she's about to fall asleep, refuse to let her sleep to settle an argument (often deliberately started at bedtime), or wake her up incessantly during the night” “The victim then loses a lot of stamina and finds themselves greatly weakened, both psychologically and physically.”

the idea that only other creative souls will understand your work creates a us vs them conflict and allows the abuser to easily reflect with “they just don’t understand”

It introduces this dynamic that wanting anything that doesn’t contribute to the art is bad and makes you a worse artist a worse person. Its assigning morality and success to the behaviour that madarame wants to incentivise and disincentivise he wants yusuke to make more art but he doesn’t want to yusuke to become disconnect or independent so the sentiment that to be a true artist you must let go of worldly possessions once again loops back round to reinforcing abuse

even though he is out of the abusive environment he still hasn’t unlearned/been confronted on this mind set.

[hmshermitcraft]

After Limited Life Grian passed on the message that the games were over, The Watchers were bored of them and their suffering, and wanted a new meal.

Now the players were free, but what is freedom when you’ve been living in a cycle of violence for years? What’s freedom when you’ve spent so long murdering those you once called friends, gaining and losing pets, experiencing death over and over again.

Cleo isn’t sure, but she tries to remember what she did before. They used to make statues, beautiful statues and sculptures of a variety of things, sometimes it was a gift for a friend, other times it was something they had been commissioned to make. So she starts that up again, crafting their feelings into art and creations, trying to process the trauma.

When Martyn had rocked up on her door in the middle of the night, months after Grian had set them all free, she’d been in the middle of a statue. They left their basement and opened the door, surprise covering her face as she saw Martyn. He looked worse for wear than she remembered, his phantom wings more torn than usual and his hair a mess, but most noticeably was the emptiness in his eyes.

Martyn took a step forward before collapsing against them, and her arms instinctively wrapped around him, holding him close to her. He let out a whimper and buried his face into their chest, tears streaming down his face.

“Hey, hey,” Cleo spoke softly to him, wrapping her arms around him tighter. “It’s okay,” she hummed, “what’s wrong?” Martyn said nothing, only crying harder.

Cleo pulled him inside, setting him on the couch next to them, his head on her lap. Martyn was still crying, but after a few minutes he calmed down enough to speak. “I can’t find Ren, anywhere. I thought since we were free he’d be back but I can’t find him anywhere. I’ve gone across the entire country, I’ve spoken to authorise, I’ve even asked Grian to ask the Watchers for help. But they refused, and now I have no hope.”

Martyn sobbed through the words, but Cleo understood, running their hands through his hair. “Hey, hey, it’s okay.” She hushed him, playing with his hair as they spoke. “Can you walk? I have something to show you.”

To Cleos surprise, Martyn nodded and sat up. She smiled at him, and grabbed his hand before leading him towards the basement. He trailed a little behind, but she kept the pace slow so he could keep up despite the clear stress and anxiety.

Once the two descended the stairs, Cleo’s current work came into view. It was a collection of statues, hearts all lined up in a row. Each heart had a line down the middle, each heart showing a double life pairing. Theirs was the one currently being worked on, and while her side was covered in stitches, Martyn’s had a phantom wing attached to his.

Martyn’s eyes widened at the sight, letting go of Cleo’s hand as he approached the heart statue. “It’s beautiful…” he said in surprise, and Cleo snorted at his tone.

“You don’t need to sound so shocked,” she said with an eyebrow raise.

“No, no, I didn’t mean it like that. I just, I thought you hated Double Life.”

“I hated the betrayal,” Cleo corrected him. “I hated the feeling of loneliness, I hated the fact I couldn’t feel like I could trust you. But you made it up to me in Limited Life, and even Pearl and Scott managed to reconnect at the end. When I was first freed, I went to the old school I taught at and I realised it wasn’t the same anymore, that I wasn’t the same anymore. The life games were predictable, we always knew how it would end. There was comfort in it, in a strange way. So when I was trying to figure out how to move on, I first wanted to make a tribute to my favourite season.”

Martyn turned his gaze to her, tears beginning to stream down his face again. “Cleo…” he trailed off, unable to speak.

“We’ll find Ren,” Cleo promised, “wherever he is. I don’t know how long it’ll take, but we’ll find him. We can find everyone, I’m not sure we can heal alone.” They paused for a moment, before smiling. “I’m glad you came to me Martyn.”

Cleo can't offer a magic solution. But then, they both know Martyn didn't expect that of her. There is no magic wand that can be waved, but there is understanding and a burden shared.

There is also rest. Forced on Martyn, of course, because he's a stubborn prick and would keep working if they didn't drag him to bed themself.

Cleo won't go back on their word. They'll find Ren. And they'll find the others. And they'll heal. Just like Martyn, now, sleeping soundly for the first time since the games began.

[lupercals]

How do I write someone with bpd? I know it's not canon but like I'm absorbing that headcanon

The best i can say is to research and read people's experience but ill explain some of my own :^)

Under cut cuz this might be long + talk about bpd idk if it's triggering for anyone so better safe than sorry

People with BPD have constant strong mood swings, it can be due to a trigger or just happen randomly and we can go from extremely excited to empty or from sad to happy etc you can probably guess this but it's absolutely out of our control and we can't do much besides try to change the mood to a positive one again. For me usually it's triggered, like im happy and then i see something that upsets me and then get sad or angry or jealous, it usually lasts for a few hours so i have to spend the time trying to distract myself with music or doing something i enjoy, it doesn't always helps but most of the time it does.

Like i said there there's this specific thing a lot of people with bpd experience which is feeling empty, im not sure how to explain it well but to me at least it's like i become numb to all of my feelings and everything just feels dead, the feeling of numbness isn't calming at all and to me at least its definitely not better than feeling sad, it's an emptiness that usually makes me desperate to feel anything again and makes me do bad things to get that result, i really do imagine Ren would be the same and either trigger himself or hurt someone/destroy something for the rush of it, self harm is a very common symptom of bpd, it can come in multiple different ways too be it cutting, hitting yourself, drinking, smoking, practicing unsafe sex, etc

Another thing that is pretty common between people with borderline (at least from my experience and from what ive seen others with bpd say) is the desperate need for attention and affection, it's haunting, really. It never leaves and it never feels like it'll ever be satisfied, and people usually can go very far just to try and get that attention they crave so deeply, this is something i see a lot in Ren, so many of his actions were out of the desperation to have something, to feel something, to be loved, to be adored. It's something he rarely experienced considering his childhood + his lack of friends and getting kidnapped, plus, he admits that he loves Strade and if I remember correctly he does say in btd that Strade was the only one who showed him love, he also literally eats Strade's heart to have a part of him forever. This attention seeking behavior never left Ren, neither did the desperation to be loved, this can be seen even in Fox who risks his entire career and reputation as soon as mc showed him the slightest bit of genuine affection, his desperation to keep them alive after the 3rd show when you beg for his attention and love affected him so deeply he was willing to lose it all to have you. (So real king!!!)

With bpd there are also fps, it means favorite person, and it's people who people with bpd are emotionally attached to and rely on for comfort and support, this doesn't seem to bad right? The problem is that for a lot of us we experience extreme reactions to our fps having positive interactions with anyone who isn't us, this happens for a lot of reasons, abandonment issues, our lack of emotional permanence (which ill be getting into soon), insecurities, trauma, etc. I personally fully believe Strade was possibly Ren's first fp and the attention Strade gave him only fed this obsession and dependence he had developed for Strade, I also believe Lawrence could possibly turn into an fp or have been one in the ending where he doesn't kill Lawrence but that's harder to tell, mc also could be one in the endings where you stay alive with him.

Little note here; a person with bpd can have a healthy relationship with an fp, it's all about boundaries and communication but this is ren hana we're talking about he doesn't know how to do these things

Fear of abandonment is such a huge thing good god it's genuinely terrifying a lot of us experience it so much because bpd affects relationships heavily and makes it extremely hard to form lasting bonds for multiple different reasons, this is more personal but i feel it's so hard to make friends because when someone shows interest in me i become so emotional i try so hard to please them and show them in worth sticking around and usually end up pushing them away erm awkward but i feel like this would happen with Ren too, becoming too obsessed with pleasing someone that he ends up displeasing them and at the display of that he panics and either leaves or he makes the person leave (leaning more on the first option considering that ending where he runs away after discussing with you)

Lack of emotional permanence, ok so like for me this is genuinely the worst of all, basically if we're not being shown affection and love constantly our brains convince us that it's no longer there or that it has never exited all together, this makes it really hard to form bonds because you may act impulsively and block someone out of fear of getting hurt or you may upset then by constantly asking for reassurance or any other reasons, i don't remember if in game we have any display of this so i won't talk about it related to Ren and just related to bpd because this is a big thing in our community too

Having an unstable view of yourself is extremely common too, someone with bpd might think they're a good person one day and then be convinced they're a monster the next, at least in my eyes Ren struggles with that a lot, besides also struggling with knowing who he truly is which id say is a common feeling between people who have bpd as well, in game we even see him switch personas to better fit the mc's actions, he wants to please them so desperately he changes himself to see if it'll make them stay with him, and to a very interesting detail in that switch is how depressive his actual self (the one with the gray hoodie) acts in contrast to his Strade persona, his Captive persona and the way he was acting in front of Lawrence and Mc, he's a scared insecure person underneath his confident act, someone who craves love and closeness and affection like the air he breathes but has no idea how to acquire it since all he's ever known is pain and violence.

There's a lot more to bpd but i feel like this is a decent-ish start? I really recommend researching more :^) Also remember not every person with bpd has the same experience this is written based off my symptoms, my experiences and the experiences ive see other people with bpd report and also an analysis on Ren's behavior based on the symptoms of bpd, hope this helped at all sorry for my bad writing ^^

[dat1angel]

Looped Life sounds really cool and I'd love to hear more! Though I do have to remind you Martyn and Jimmy teamed in Secret Life lol! Someone like Etho or Bigb could be cool for the story!

Yeah, I realized after I posted it that I had forgotten they teamed in Secret Life. I'm happy to share more of my thoughts about the AU.

The Watchers don't want Jimmy to know about the time loop. If MC(Main Character) tells Jimmy about the loops they make the current loop much harder for them.

They won't punish MC for telling others though. One loop, they try getting everyone else in on it so they can help. Some people believe them, some don't. I think players like Grian, Martyn, Pearl, and BigB, those who were on Evo and are familiar with The Watchers, would be likely to believe them(dependant on them not being MC). I see players like Joel, Ren, and Etho being more likely to not believe or think MC is lying to try to get further in the game.

I think in one of the earliest loops they try just not teaming with Jimmy. Let the looping and the keeping him alive be somebody else's problem. It doesn't work.

Its a similar line of thinking that leads to them finding out they need to survive until the end too. They purposely let themself go out of the series before Jimmy thinking that they can't be held accountable for him if they're dead. They barely get one second in the afterlife before they're waking up in a new loop.

They try a loop avoiding interaction with other players as much as possible. They build a secret bunker and only leave for the essentials. They don't even stick around for the beginning of series circle pow-wow and explaining of rules. They just turn and leave while Grian is still talking.

They try a loop where they ally with almost everyone so they won't be attacked.

They try a loop where they go on the offensive. High aggression, kill or be killed, trust no one.

In one of the later loops, they lose it. They isolate themself. They scream and cry and bang their head against a wall. They destroy things and burn builds. They're careless with their safety and get hurt a lot because they didn't try to get away from a fire or explosion or wayward arrow. They start to think the loops are less about Jimmy winning and more about watching them break.

The Watchers don't want it to be too easy for them so the loops don't stay consistent. Some loops are exactly the same as a previous loop, maybe one or two differences. Other loops are completely unlike any other from the players to the teams and even down to the terrain.

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Shout out to @brainrot-has-overtaken-me who has started writing a little something based off my original prompt post of this AU. Read the beginning of their work here.

[dawnlibrary]

Two in one, Chloe Liese edition

If Only You (Bergman Brothers #6)

Summary:

Ziggy I’m the youngest player on the National Soccer team, the baby of my family, and thoroughly sick of being underestimated, so I’ve decided to take matters into my own hands. Which is where my brother’s best friend and teammate, the infamous Sebastian Marchand, comes in.  Seb needs to rehab his reputation. I want to give mine an edge. So I propose a fake friendship with real benefits: spending time in the public eye, my good-girl image and his bad-boy notoriety rubbing off on each other. He’s my devious, dark-haired fantasy come to life, but his destructive ways make it easy to keep him in the (fake) friend zone. Or so I thought, until I start to see the heart of gold he’s been hiding beneath that sinister surface… Sebastian Like any self-respecting reprobate, I’ve been spiraling downward, and finally I’ve hit rock bottom. My hockey career and sponsorships are in jeopardy, and while I’m not ready to actually reform my ways, I’m happy to pretend that I have, to secure the life I’m on the brink of losing.  So when my best friend’s sister, Ziggy Bergman, proposes a public “friendship” to revamp our reputations, it’s an offer I can’t refuse. Up till now, I’ve stayed away from Ren’s sweet, shy little sister to avoid any risk of ruining my one good friendship. But I reassure myself there’s no risk in our scheme. I’ll fake a friendship with Ziggy, fix my reputation, and get back to hockey, the one and only thing I love. At least, it was, until what began as a transactional arrangement became the most loving relationship I’ve ever known. ​ If Only You is a brother’s best friend, (fake) friends with benefits to friends to lovers romance about a bighearted, quietly fierce soccer star on the autism spectrum, and a thoroughly unprincipled, almost irredeemable hockey player who has celiac disease. Complete with an absurd level of mutual pining, meddling family and friends, and a spicy slow burn, this standalone is the sixth in a series of novels about a Swedish-American family of five brothers, two sisters, and their wild adventures as they each find happily ever after.

It was lovely to read someone finding confidence in who they are and being loud about it.

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Everything for You (Bergman Brothers #5)

Summary:

Gavin We’ve been teammates for two years, but it feels like a lifetime that Oliver Bergman’s been on my last nerve. A demanding captain and veteran player, I’m feared and friendless, while he’s the beloved rising star, all sunshine smiles and upbeat team spirit. To make matters worse, he’s obscenely attractive. In short: he’s genetically designed to get under my skin. Avoiding Oliver has been my survival tactic on and off the field. But when Coach drops the bomb that we’re now co-captains, avoiding him becomes impossible, and keeping the truth from him–let alone my distance–is harder than ever. Oliver Life was great until soccer legend Gavin Hayes joined the team and proved he’s nothing like the guy I grew up idolizing. Instead, he’s a giant–albeit gorgeous–grump who lives to rain on my parade. I’ve sworn off pranks since entering the public eye, so rather than settle our differences the Bergman way, I’ve had to settle for killing Gavin with kindness. There’s just one problem: killing him with kindness is killing me. To make matters worse, Coach gives us an ultimatum: put an end to our enmity or say goodbye to being captains. I’m prepared to be miserable while we meet her demands and make nice, but the last thing I expect is to discover an explosive attraction we can’t help but act on, and worse yet, to realize the man hiding beneath Gavin’s gruff exterior is all I’ve ever wanted. ​ Everything for You is a grumpy-sunshine, enemies-to-lovers, age gap sports romance about an upbeat rising soccer star with anxiety and his curmudgeonly veteran teammate who lives with chronic pain. Complete with nosy senior citizens, nosier siblings, and a meddling coach, this standalone slow burn is the fifth in a series of novels about a Swedish-American family of five brothers, two sisters, and their wild adventures as they each find happily ever after.

Oh, Gavin made me angry several times, but over all I enjoyed this one.

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Yes, I read book 6 before book 1... and then went backwards and read book 5, again, before book 1... things happen.

It seemed like I was in a sports romance roll for a few days because I read a few of those and then stumbled upon these ones and I enjoyed them.

[desolationcleo]

some life series martyn design headcanons i've had for a while now

(this originated when i noticed his ears aren't visible in his shadow alliance skin with the hood down, when they are normally, combined with how i generally call attention to jimmy and martyn's ears when drawing them to reflect their listener affiliation, and also some of it is taken from actual cape status. also when i tell you i lost it upon realizing cherri was on the same wavelength as me about having him grow his hair out over the course of a death game)

So, back in Evo, he had short hair, and sometime after first encountering the Listeners but before the dragon fight, he and Jimmy got matching pairs of crawler earrings with pale almost white gems hanging from them. He's also got that cape, with the fire looking design at the bottom.

In Third Life, he still has the earrings, though Jimmy has now lost his, given that it's pretty hard to wear earrings when you now have little canary wings where you'd expect your ears to be as a manifestation of your curse. Martyn's not quite sure where he got these earrings and doesn't know Jimmy used to have a matching pair.

Midway through Third Life, he starts growing out his hair a little. This coincides with him first making contact with the Watchers. Upon going yellow, he takes off his cape to show off the symbol on the back of his coat.

At the start of Last Life, he gets his cape back, but his hair length remains the same as it was at the end of 3l. Over the course of the season, his hair keeps getting longer.

Aside note, Ren begins braiding his hair with a ribbon woven in after devoting himself to Lizzie. This will be relevant later. Now, back to Martyn.

For those not in the know, crawler earrings, despite their appearance, only actually require one piercing. This means they're no harder to accidentally lose than any other earring. During the chase scene with Jimmy for his life back, he loses an earring and doesn't notice. This also results in him matching with Cleo, who also only wears one earring, foreshadowing their being linked in their next lives.

He gets rid of his cape again, this time so the moon kanji on his robe can be visible. After first putting on the Shadow Alliance robe, he now has a permanent shadow over his eyes.

By the time his friends start dying, his hair has grown long enough that his ears are no longer visible. This includes his remaining earring.

After he turns red, he now has scars from his death, and his hair is singed from the lava. It remains this way until his final death.

At the start of Double Life, his hair is still long though no longer visibly burnt, he doesn't have a shadow over his eyes 24/7 anymore, he doesn't get his cape or his earring back, his hopes of escape are dashed, and Mumbo is gone entirely and presumed permadead. He does what one does when bad things happen and cuts his hair. With a wooden sword. And no access to a reflective surface. Predictably, this leaves it rather uneven to say the least.

When he goes to the Nether, he makes a new pair of earrings, and incorporates glowstone. As a result, when he leaves the place, he has glowstone dust all over him for the rest of the episode. He also no longer matches with Cleo. (and yes, he did roll up to her covered in glowstone and with a laughable haircut)

Eventually he does fix his hair. That or it fixes itself when he goes yellow (a death which also leaves a scar).

In Limited Life, he once again has a cape, but as he dies over and over, it's more or less shredded by the end. He also starts growing his hair again and braids it this time, this combined with the streaks in his hair (which are unnaturally dark) makes him resemble Ren in season 2. Right before the final battle, said braid comes undone shortly before he does.

[daisy-jonesss]

little!karen and cg!camila headcanons <3

happy new years!! wishing you all a safe, happy and healthy 2025 <3

karen is super fussy with the textures of clothes, especially when she's little. she's found that knitted or crocheted clothes are kind of the only things she can stand when she's feeling small, so camila makes it her life long mission to knit as many cardigans and sweaters for karen. she has at least one for every colour in the rainbow.

camila sprays her perfume on karen's jumpers and cardigans when they're going to be apart.

karen usually regresses anywhere from two to six, sometimes even smaller, and on the days when she is feeling particularly smaller and finds it harder to communicate verbally, she and camila set up a color coded system. it works like this; a color is associated with an emotion (red is anger, blue is sad etc), and karen can point out how she's feeling. it makes it easier for camila to figure out what she needs and it also prevents a lot of frustration on karen's part!!

karen is nervous about her regression, and it takes camila a long time to coax her outside. the first time they go to the park for a walk together, someone passes a comment, which leads to a very angry mam!mila and a very sad karen. they tend to stay in the back garden now, because it's enclosed and karen can sit and play in the sand pit while camila watches from afar.

camila calls karen her "little 'ren." it slipped out the first time when camila was comforting an upset karen but camila could feel her melt into her and it's just stuck. karen calls camila "mila" or "mama" but camila's fine with either!!

little!karen is a sucker for art. she drew on one of billy's songbooks when she was little once and he got super mad, which was understandable but made karen a bit more wary of letting her little side out to play. camila buys her her own notebook and set of pens and lots and lots of chalk to use on the sidewalk in an effort to keep her away from billy's songbook.

camila sleeps in karen's bed when she's feeling small because she knows karen gets super overwhelmed and scared if she wakes up alone, especially because she tends to have a lot of nightmares when she's small.

on that note, karen is such a cuddle bug. she's always clinging to camila or linking their pinkies together or holding her hand or literally curling up in her lap. she will come up with any excuse to be close to camila.

camila is the one person karen will go to when she needs comfort. she knows that camila will never turn her away or belittle her or anything of the sort, and despite knowing that none of the boys or daisy would do that, it will still always be camila.

karen has a big habit of sucking her thumb or biting her nails when she's feeling small and camila is always having to remind her that it's yucky. camila invests in a pacifier for her and always carries a couple spare in her bag because karens always losing them.

karen loves sesame street and her favourite character is cookie monster. camila buys her a stuffie of him for christmas one year and karen is delighted cause you can hide things in his mouth -- camila quickly realises to look there first when her pacifiers go "missing"

camila reads karen a book every night before bed. they buy the ones with tactile pictures on it because karen loves the different textures.

karen and camila bake together -- and by that, i mean camila bakes and has to keep reminding karen not to eat the raw batter or she'll end up with an icky stomach.

camila loves to teach little!karen spanish !! karen struggles with english when she is small but she still gives it her best shot cause its more than worth it to see the way camila's face lights up when she tries.

karen loves using roller skates to get around when she's small, but she unfortunately doesn't have the balance for it, and keeps falling on her ass. in the end, she just clings on to camila's hand while camila pulls her along.

karen really really really hates having a bath and camila has to coax her into them with the promise of cuddles and fruit snacks afterwards.

camila is well-versed in karen's nonverbal cues. karen could whine in a certain way and camila would instantly know what it is that she wants/needs.

when camila and billy move into their own place, camila knows that karen will be feeling pushed aside -- she'll feel sad or abandoned, which stems from her childhood, -- so camila turns the guest room into a safe haven for karen.

[benayoung]

honestly, nayoung isn't surprised that the rest of the circle dissolves into absolute chaos. she's actually surprised they managed to complete the exercise and make it back to her in the first place. a small part of her is worried if their ceos will be disappointed in them - the coaches of this team, taking time out of practice, going off on their team members, arguably losing their tempers.

she thinks she was valid, though - ultimately unsurprising. she usually does. ren, though? she isn't sure. his outburst seems to come from a place that is a bit more personal, and she's not sure how beneficial it is for the team as a whole to bear witness to this.

still, she doesn't interrupt, even as siwoo defends himself, because she wants to give them time to work it out. if they manage to, she thinks it would be good for morale overall. the more siwoo talks, however, the more certain nayoung is that it won't be enough for ren. as a former fake bitch, she knows another one when she sees them, and siwoo has disingenuous written all over him. honestly, though...he should. it's how he should behave on camera, and if he already has this down, maybe he has more of a future in the industry than she thought.

it's an unfortunate reality, at least for people like ren, who are too sincere - too earnest. she knows his heart is entrenched in music and this career by extension, maybe deeper than it should be. she understands why people who don't care upset him so greatly, and she suspects...something deeper is going on, but now isn't the time or place to ask ren about it. she will eventually, away from the cameras.

ren is too vulnerable, almost fragile, though to be fair, nayoung did sort of ask for this, didn't she? yes. the honesty is important, and she can only hope it will relieve more tension than it caused, but...she thinks of his ceo ripping him to shreds on a previous episode, and fears the repercussions he'll face for letting his emotions get the better of him.

nayoung hears the words listen to nayoung, and takes that as her cue to regain control of the situation and speak up.

"okay," she can't help that it leaves her mouth as more of a sigh than anything else. "thank you for your honesty and vulnerability, everyone. if this inspired anyone to have some harder conversations, i'll encourage you to speak to one another privately - away from the cameras, if possible. in the meantime, let's take another five minute break, then get back to practice. hopefully now that we know each other a little better performing as a group will look more natural."

with that, she stands up from the circle, a physical indication of the end of the exercise.

"no you won't listen, because you don't listen-" he blurts automatically, like it's a biological instinct to defend himself against the snobbish, indifferent ryu siwoo from his past, come to haunt him in the present, at a crucial pinnacle of the only future he knows. there is too much to process coming out of siwoo, too much ren would want to address if he was as conniving and eloquent and levelheaded as his opponent.

"superiority complex? are you serious?" the smile that just barely and just briefly graces his lips is bitter, melancholy, sad.

"you think i think i'm superior to you? i'm not stupid. i have to wake up every day and remind myself i'm not inferior to you," he glances briefly around the circle, as if to indicate that fact applies to everyone there (and maybe everyone who isn't), "the only thing that separates me from the rest of you is opportunity, and a piece of paper with my name on it. and i know that. i'm not entitled to any of this. i have to work so hard, every single day, and when someone gives me something i have to fix about myself, i listen to them."

he refuses to shed any tears in front of siwoo. he won't give him that satisfaction. but the epiphany that siwoo wasn't just a complicit bystander that day, that he has only aged into someone even more cruel and more cold-hearted and more lacking of remorse stings behind his eyes regardless.

"and to pretend like we've never spoken to each other once?" he doesn't realize he's uttered it aloud, so pathetically, so desperately maddened by it. but he shakes his head of it, just as desperate to drop it as he is to finish the task at hand and be rid of it entirely.

"i'm sorry, everyone," he adds, looking to the rest of the team sincerely, before his gaze lands on siwoo with a pointed look, as if to warn him against attempting to apologize or even speak on ren's behalf again.

"i'm taking up your practice time with this, and every minute counts," another warning: get your shit together, because i can see right through it.

"you should all do your best and listen to nayoung. there's a reason we've been paired together for the finale."

[sintiva]

percolator..// ∘* e. jaeger

୭̥⋆*｡ summary: in which eren can't keep his mouth off you, literally

୭̥⋆*｡ cw: established relationship, fingering, squirting, overstimulation, voice kink, eren cums in his pants, penetrative sex (+suggestive), we in the car..// wc. 1.4k

୭̥⋆*｡ notes: hi guysss, miss me?

“thought it was just gonna be a little.” you moan as your tear glazed eyes peer down at eren whose head is slotted perfectly between your thick thighs. after giving eren the most ridiculous head he’s ever received in the back of your car he just had to return the favor. he laid you down in the back, and pushed your panties to the side as his tongue dropped out of his mouth eagerly ready to make work of your insides.

“this,” he slurps up your juices on his tongue, “this is just a little.” he smirks.

“eren…” you quietly moan as your hips buck up into his mouth. your eyes cross in your head and you’ve got your hands balled in tight fist that push into the plushness of your hips. he likes to hear the pleasure on your tongue. it makes the rutting of his hard cock into the soft pink cushion of your car seats more pleasurable. he shouldn’t even be hard after the thick loads of cum he spilled into your throat, but he’s just so worked up.

he’s real good at making your pretty little clit perk up too. he can’t be the only one whose getting off — he loves to tell you how horny he gets from making you cum cause you just happen to look the prettiest when you’re cumming for him.

“yes, princess?” he smirks right against your cunny and swipes his tongue up over his lips. “mmm, i don’ know,” you grab on to his hair, and try to push him away from being so close. his nose purposely nudges against your clit and his fingers are striking a ferocious match that sparks up inside. it makes your body jerk as you feel a steady surge of pleasure wire through your body.

“rennie,” you whimper and it comes out as a squeal towards the end, “mmph — feels like ‘m gonna pee—” he nearly shoots up from his position, because you’ve gone through this before. a moment in your pleasure where you were so come over, and showered with pleasure that a clear liquid gushed right out of your pussy, and eren was on the receiving end drinking everything up — not allowing a single drop to slip by.

“that’s not what it is, princess,” he peers up at you, and at the same time you look back at him through tear heavy lashes, and eyes. you hiccup back a sultry moan, and eren’s ears tingle as he laps at your pussy like a starved dog. “jus’ means,” he slurps up, “— jus’ means your fucking pussy feels good.”

“d-don’t say it like that.” you shudder. you squeeze your eyes shut in embarrassment, but you continue to grind your pussy against his hot tongue. you feel yourself fluttering as you near your orgasm.

“don’t be embarrassed,” he comes up for a bit of air, “want it all right here, princess.” he points to his mouth, and attaches it back to your clit as he sucks on it. he takes his middle and index fingers and massages your plush, soppy folds between them; making sure to squeeze them together a bit harder when he’s up at your pretty pink clit.

“e-ren,” you mewl weakly.

“babyyy.” he groans back. his hips thrust into the cushions a bit harder and his eyes roll into the back of his head. you just taste too good, and smell so fucking good he’s losing his mind. if your car was bigger he’d fold you up right now, and fuck his seed into you. he can only think about how adorable you puffy cheeks would look with a bunch of tears running down them.

he takes two of his digits, and steadily pushes them into your folds. there’s a bit of resistance from your hole, but he’ll get ‘em in. he looks like a madman; with strands of hair sticking to his face, and some of them fly lose from his bun. all of his hair nearly rest on his shoulders ready to abandon the weak hair tie he had it tied back with. “you’re squeezing tight, baby.”

he takes a moment to stare at your hole, “pussy’s so pretty ‘n pink.” the low grumble of words travels to your ears making you clench a bit tighter, “you like that?“ he giggles as he pushes his fingers in a bit more — just a couple more inches. the warmth of your insides are pleasurable along with the gentle throbbing he begins to feel as your pussy swallows up his fingers.

“gotta let me in, i wanna feel you.” he groans. your bodies burn hot in unison. “ ‘m tryin,” you moan back. “i know, baby.”

his fingers finally make it in, and when they do he curls them up. the long digits stroke at that spongy spot that makes you go fucking dumb. it makes your legs spread a bit wider, and has you fucking his hands with a slutty whine of your hips. “oh — my fuck!” you scream out.

he continues to lap at your clit with a calm flick of his tongue. you quickly crumble from both forms of pleasure. “r-ren.” you stutter weakly as you feel him, hungrily pulling your arousal right out of you. “that’s it, princess. all on my tongue.” he grins. your fingers twirl around the strands of hair as you bring his face impossibly closer to your pulsing heat. he slurps it up like soup, and his tongue swipes in between your folds; licking up any and everything that seeps out. but as you think you’re nearing an end you feel something knocking against your tummy.

it feels real warm and it doesn’t help that eren’s got your clit setting perfectly in between his puffy pink lips. he sucks gently at the nub as his fingers rush in and out of you filling up the car with the pure sound of how sloppy you get when his mouth gives your pussy some fucking attention. you try to push his head back, but he won’t let up. he’s not letting your heightened sensitivity escape him. “aht, aht,” he mumbles, “just a little more—“,

the last twirl of his tongue against your clit has you squirting all over his tongue. the clear liquid gushes out in cute spurts and eren’s dick throbs insanely hard. you attempt to push his head away, moaning endlessy as your body jerked. you wanted to scream out so bad, but you mouth just hung open with your tongue lolled right out the side. witnessing you trying to run from over stimulation makes the cum in his balls trickle from his tip. it makes him grind his leaking cock into the seats so much harder.

makes him wince out a pitiful, “fuckkk, baby — makin’ me cum.”

he groans into your pussy as his hot cum begins to taint his boxers, and on top of him being nose deep in your cunny — he’s in euphoria. your moans are a lustful gift to his ear, and it makes him all the more happier that he records these little sessions. gives him good material to fuck his hand too when he just can’t get your cute pouty face out of his head. better yet, when he thinks about how he has to look down at you, when he rest his chin on the top of your head and gets a face full of curls. the scent of coconut wafting up into his face.

when he gets to hold your waist in his hands, and sink his fingers ginto the fat of your stomach and next thing you know he’s humping you, because you feel so fucking soft and he just can’t help himself, and how horny he gets. but the way you look down at him now is too inviting. how your looking down at him again between your legs with your lip trembling between your teeth, hissing as he licks your clit again.

“tha’s enough — eren.” you squeal. he disregards how you tremble in the back seat and how you clasp your thighs tight around his head. but he knows how to handle you — he knows he’s so much stronger than you and he can easily pry your thick thighs back open. “can’t run from me.” he huffs.

“look how messy you made me.” he motions down to the giant wet spot in his sweats and you open your eyes wide as you still see the fat outline of his heavy cock. “gonna fuck you,” he grunts as he slips his sweats down with one hand and leads your calves to rest on his shoulders. he rubs the bottoms of your cute little feet, and kisses the souls of them before he’s now focused on your soppy pussy.

he grabs his cock and taps the tip right in between your folds. he pushes it right in between them and watches them part for him. he rubs his tip between them for a little bit until he angles it down and lines it up with your hole.

“you’re just too pretty not to fuck,” he gasps as he bottoms out, “take it like a good girl for me, yeah?”

“yes! hmm - i will daddy.”

[habeascorpseus]

im curious, what do you consider ooc for grian? i agree w you completely but i would like to know 👁👁

ohoho *takes a BIG sip of my 5 hour energy and slams it on my bedside stool*

okay, so i HOPE this doesnt become a big old rant, because i really should sleep, but, the thing people misunderstand about him MOST, which therefore sort of branches into most other mischaracterizations i see with his character, is that he's not an asshole.

he's also not not an asshole.

here's what i mean: grian's moral compass is looser than a door without hinges, but his honor, and the honor of others, holds priority. in season 8 during the boatem prank war with big eyes, he aptly called his policy, "prank hard, clean up harder."

for the more innocuous offenses he commits, like pranks, and minor amounts murder, he will almost always feel bad and offer to help clean up if he feels like what he did is "too much." "too much" is dependent on circumstance, but most often it includes permanent loss of valubles- like armor, large amounts of resources, and hard to obtain items- which he will attempt to replace or make up for with helping the unfortunate recipient of his ill-fated prank with chores. "too much" also includes griefing and base editing whether it be accidental or on purpose- most notable examples being in season 7 when keralis discovered the "removing stuff from keralis' base" challenge, and rebuilding part of scar's base in season 8 after accidentally getting it blown up. if he feels like it's even partially his fault, he'll almost always offer to help fix the mess, even if he does complain about it the entire way though.

so he likes to fuck with people- he doesnt like permanent damage. that doesnt mean he doesnt occasionally want to cause permanent damage, such as in the life series, but he also often needs a reason to cause damage like losing lives or permadeath.

renchanting trap? scar wasn't doing his job properly as the only red life. tnt base trap? home no longer safe, revenge for pizza. killing jimmy and mumbo in last life? they provoked him and were reaping the consequences. killing bigb and ren in double life? they provoked him by (to his knowledge) being the cause of scar's death as a yellow life. no matter what death grian has personally called in the life series, either before or after it took place, you can find an instance of grian saying why he felt he needed to do it. and if the death is accidental, or accidental collateral damage, he tries to make up for it with his time and energy. (like with the physical objects.)

i see a lot of fics on ao3 with the tag "grian is an asshole in this one, sorry", and i dont normally read those, because those just leave a bad taste in my mouth- but i also see a lot of fics unintentionally write grian as more of a jerk because they forget he abides by honor. its not that grian isnt a murderer, its that he needs a reason to do it- or he'll excuse it after the fact with a reason. its not that grian isnt reckless with other people's lives, its that if he realizes the damage he causes is permanent he balks at doing it. its not that grian isnt an asshole, its that he likes to piss off people but wouldn't dream of purposefully damaging his friendships. grian, as a character, is defined by his willingness to push boundaries and his hesitance to cross the line. and far too often, people forget these two coexisting facts, and write grian as only being one or the other.

again, this is all mostly opinion and writing advice, and ive read fics where grian was ooc that i still enjoyed. but also sometimes you just look at a fandom and you're like "wow youre so valid but youre also wrong!" and occasionally i do be feeling that. in the end what matters is that the fic was fun to write, and the rant resulting from that is also fun to write. goodnight all,

[arminsfanclub]

Pairings: Eren Jaeger x Fem!Reader

Summary: Reader and Eren have sex in the kitchen… it’s literally just porn. 

Content Warnings: NSFW, fingering, oral (fem. receiving), penetrative sex, praising.

A/N: Not sure if I should be proud or ashamed that my first post on this blog is pure filth. Am I okay??? Btw this is my first time writing smut LMAO 😵‍💫 I’ll definitely try to improve. Please let me know if there’s anything that needs to be fixed or if any cw’s need to be added.

“Hold it properly.” He mumbled against your pussy.  

“I-I’m trying.” 

Eren had instructed you to hold up your midi ivory summer dress for him as he roughly tongue fucked you from behind.

He had you leaning against the marble countertop of your shared apartment, your stomach pressed against the edge of the large kitchen island. One of your hands planted on the counter as the other one struggled to hold onto the soft material of your dress. You stood on your tippy toes as he kneeled between your legs, his face buried in your soaking pussy.

“Try harder.” Was his only response as he sucked harder.

“Ah!” You moaned loudly feeling your legs begin to shake. 

One of his hands was holding onto the back of your left thigh, his fingertips digging roughly into your soft flesh. His other hand played with your dripping pussy, he moved two of his fingers in and out of you at a quick, rhythmic pace.

He licked the lewd juices running down your thighs, sucking your delicate skin along the way, leaving love bites all over your thighs. “Eren… oh, fuck,” you sigh pressing your body harder into the countertop, closing your eyes in pleasure.

He scissored his fingers causing you to clench around his digits as your knees buckled, groaning and panting in absolute bliss.

“Good girl.” he praised running his tongue against your folds, mixing his saliva with your fluids, “So nice and wet for me. Shit, you taste fucking amazing.”

Eren continued his assault on your pussy, switching between his tongue and fingers every once in a while.

Your body felt hot, your arms and feet started to get tired from the amount of stress they were currently under. But you were close, so so close, so close to ecstasy that you didn’t care about the pain shooting through your limbs.

“‘Bout to cu-cum, Ren.” 

Eren chuckled and slipped his pointer and middle fingers into your hole once again. He curled his fingers inside you, hitting that sweet spot that makes you lose your mind, as he bit into the flesh of your ass. 

“Eren!” You screamed as your orgasm hit you. Your hands roughly grabbed onto the edge of the counter for support, allowing your dress to fall down. You were trying your best not to fall to the ground afraid of the painful bruises you might end up with.

Eren stood up from the floor, placing his hands on your waist for support. He leaned into you, pushed your hair aside and began kissing your neck as you shook under his touch. He breathed into you and rubbed his body against yours, squeezing one of your clothed breasts.

“Mmm,” you moaned, reaching behind and palming his dick through his jeans. He moaned, “Fuck baby, I’m so hard right now,” into your neck as he kissed and sucked on the sensitive skin.

You were still facing away from him when you felt him move a few inches away from you and you heard him mess around with belt. You turned your head around to watch him as he freed his erect penis from his boxers. Your pussy twitching as you watched him pump himself a few times as he made eye contact with you.

He moved closer to you, rubbing his cock against you, dirtying your dress.

“You’re too short,” he grunted and turned you around. He picked you up and sat you down on the counter. You now sat facing Eren, your legs dangling off the edge of the counter as he stood between your thighs.

“Much better,” he smirked, his striking green eyes boring into yours full of lust and desire.

Eren pulled your thin dress straps down and under your arms until the top of your dress pooled around your lower torso. 

As you couldn’t wear a bra with this particular dress, you shuddered as you felt the cold air make contact with your exposed chest. “Mmm, so pretty,” he watched as your nipples became erect, licking his lips.

“‘Ren p-please. ‘M so horny,” you mumbled.

“I know baby, just be patient.”

He captured your lips in a kiss, you parted your lips allowing his tongue into your mouth for a sloppy kiss. His right palm rested against your throat as his finger dug roughly into your jaw. 

He nibbled on your bottom lip as you moaned loudly tangling your fingers in his locks. You tugged on the hair at the back of his neck lightly, earning a grown from him.

He pulled away from you and stuck two of his long fingers into your mouth, “Suck on them for me, sweet girl.” You did as you were told, playing with his finger in your mouth, sucking on them and running your tongue along them. Eren stared at you sensually. He moved his free hand and rested it on the side of your face, your ear was between his thumb and pointer finger. 

Eren played with your ear, tugging the bottom of your earlobe, something he knew you absolutely adored. You closed your eyes for a few seconds, humming in pleasure.

He pulled his fingers out of your mouth, a string of saliva connecting your tongue to his fingers. Slowly, he slid his wet fingers down your body until they finally found their place in your pussy.

“I want your cock ‘Ren,” you complained, annoyed with the lack of connection between your bodies. 

He hushed you, “In a second baby. You’re still too tight, I’ll end up hurting you.” 

He thrusted his two fingers and out of your hole whilst his thumb lazily played with your clit. 

He lowered himself until he was face to face with your breasts. His unoccupied hand grabbed a hold of your right breast and he pinched your nipple, massaging the supple tissue. He attached his mouth to your other nipple and began sucking and nibbling on it all whilst he continued his movements on your pussy.

All you could do was moan his name. You tangled your fingers in his hair once again and looked down at him. He stared back at you as he continued touching you in all your most sensitive spots. 

“‘M s-so close Ren.” That only made him move his fingers in and out of you at a quicker pace. “Yeah! F-f-fuck!” With your hands still holding onto his head, you moved his face closer into you as he smirked into your chest.

You came quicker this time, most likely due to the visuals of seeing Eren devouring your tits as he finger fucked your pussy. He continued touching you as you shook due to his touch.

Eren rose from his position to, once again, meeting you eye to eye. 

“You love it when I play with your tits and finger fuck your dirty pussy don’t you baby,” he laughed as you leaned your head against his chest, panting and mumbling in agreement. 

“We’re not done yet,” he said as he grabbed both your shoulder and pushed your body off from his.

Exhausted, you raised your left hand to caress his cheek. 

He gave you a warm smile as he grabbed the hand that was resting on his cheek and brought it to his lips, giving it a quick kiss. He then brought your hand up to your mouth, “Spit,” he ordered while moving the hair out of your face with his unoccupied hand. You did as you were told, pursing your lips together and allowing a blob of your spit to fall into your hand. “Mmm. Fuck you’re such a good girl.” He bit his lower lip watching your indecent act.

He moved your hand down to his erect penis, forcing your fingers close around his cock. He leaned down close to your ear. You could smell him, all of him, his sweat mixing with his cologne. “Move,” he whispered.

You moved your other hand and wrapped it around his bulging penis and began to move both hands up and down as he moaned. 

He closed his eyes briefly, cursing a quick ‘fuck’ under his breath as you moved continued moving your hands.

He reached for his brown leather wallet that laid on the counter right next to you and pulled out a condom.

While you were occupied playing with his penis, Eren tore the condom open.

He pushed your body down and you felt the warm skin of your exposed shoulders and back make contact with the cool marble, “Eren,” you breathed out.

Eren grabbed his throbbing cock with one hand and began massaging it against your pussy. “Hear how wet you are,” He said as he teased you pussy.

You could hear the unholy sounds your wet throbbing pussy was making as he moved his dick against you, “Just pu-put it already. Stop being such a di-“

In one quick thrust he rammed his entire cock inside of you, knocking the air out of your lungs and stopping you before you could finish your sentence.

“What the fuck,” you moaned out wrapping your legs around his waist.

Eren laughed as he grabbed both of your wrists with his hands and brought them close to his abdomen. He used your stretched out arms to help him move in and out of you at a fast pace.

You could hear your incoherent babblings and his cursing as he continued thrusting.

“Fuck, this pussy’s all mine.” He groaned as he pounded in and out of you.

You couldn’t even form a response, too focused on the way his penis felt inside of you, too focused on the lewd sounds emitting from the connection of your bodies.

“I-I’m gonna cum, Ren!” You shouted as you felt yourself get closer and closer to your orgasm, still incredibly sensitive from your previous orgasms. This caused Eren to slow down his strokes and thrust into you with more force.

He smirked down at you, you could see the sweat on his forehead as it glistened due to the warm glow of the pendant lights that hung above both of you.

“Do it. Be a good fucking girl and cum for me,” he said as he let go of your wrists, he bent down and he grabbed your face with both of his hands to kiss you passionately. He caressed his tongue against yours and moaned into your mouth.

Eren moved his hands down and grabbed your waist as he continued his slow and forceful thrusts. 

Finally, with a loud scream, you reached your climax.

As you shook underneath him, Eren continued pounding into you, “‘M close baby,” was all he said before he too, reached his orgasm. 

“Where do you want it?” He asked pulling out of you. You couldn’t answer him though, too fucked-out to form a reply. You could barely keep your eyes open as you laid on the counter. One of your arms rested on top of your stomach while the other one dangled off the side of the counter.

With your lack of reply, he pulled the latex off and made the decision for you, choosing to empty out the contents of the condom onto your breasts.

As you laid on the counter, with his warm cum on your breasts, Eren stared down at you, “Let’s move to the bedroom, pretty.”

[phoenixkaptain]

Can’t stop thinking about Star Wars…

The Original Trilogy is about forgiveness and love. How love can help people who everyone thinks are too far gone. How you can choose to be good at any point, even if you’ve done terrible things. You can make the choice to change your behaviour and become maybe not a good person and definitely not a perfect person, but a better person than you were just a moment ago.

Thinking about how the Prequel Trilogy feeds into this. Anakin makes choices throughout, and he feels unmoored. He feels like he has to hide. He does hide. He hides from the people who can help him, the Jedi, because he can only see how he’s imperfect and they’re perfect, he can’t see their flaws. He loves Padme and Obi-Wan but that love tears him apart and he stops feeling safe anywhere. He loses everything he loved, from his home to his mother to his Master to his wife, and that makes his final choice in the Original Trilogy, his choice to do something good, all the more meaningful because we know him. We know he isn’t perfect and we know he’s capable of committing atrocities, but he chose not to. He chose to sacrifice himself for someone, instead of wishing someone would sacrifice themself for him.

The Sequel Trilogy had so much potential. But, there was no plan. And that’s the most diappointing part. The original and prequel trilogies have flow, they make sense, they connect intrinsically to each other and they only strengthen each other. The sequels just don’t flow, they don’t connect, they feel disjointed.

If Rey had to be Palpatine’s granddaughter, I think it would have made more sense for her to be the Vader mirror instead of Ben Solo. If Rey had been raised and groomed as Palpatine’s next apprentice, if she had been taught that Jedi = bad and democracy = bad, but Palpatine ruling everything = good, if she was a Sith from the beginning, but she chose not to be? That would tie in to the first trilogy a lot better.

Especially because they could have used the psychometry they gave her. She could have found Anakin’s lightsaber and felt heart break. She could have seen all the terrible things that happened because of Anakin, because of Darth Vader, and she could have had a moment of realization that she can choose to be good. Especially if she didn’t find Anakin’s lightsaber, but Luke’s.

Rey could have been powerful because she was trained her whole life to be powerful. She could have been masculine because she was trained her whole life to be masculine. She could have been such a better antagonist than Kylo Ren was. And it’s all because of the choices the characters would make and the intention behind them.

When Ben Solo leaves everything behind, he lost everything, but it was his choice to do so. If Rey was in a situation where she was raised by Palpatine but decided to give up that life, her fear of losing everything hits a bit harder.

They could even have made the same story! Like, Rey leaves as a teenager and goes to Jakku to hide because nobody will look for her there, only to stumble on a droid from the Resistance and realize that this is her chance to do good. She could seek out Luke Skywalker, hoping that he’ll teach her how to be good instead of bad. She could kill Palpatine by throwing him down another reactor core.

You wouldn’t even have to change the other characters all that much, honestly. You could still have Kylo Ren, his bond with Rey would just be a bit different. Maybe they were groomed together for a period, maybe he was to be her replacement, either way, you could still have that, if you really wanted to.

You could have anything you want, because the sequel trilogy is the way it is and it’s not going to change just because I have opinions. I wish it was different. I wish the people who made it were allowed to care about it, to see it through to the end, all three movies, to make a plan at the start then follow it through to the end. I wish they’d been allowed time to revise and edit and do things better. I wish, I wish, I wish, but it’s not that way. And I just have to make my peace with that.

[dreamkidddream]

Final Girl || Slasher!Nanami

Lmao so apparently Nanami was originally suppose to be a villain, with his backstory being that he snapped at work and k-word everybody and it made me love this idea even more 🥴 reader is gender neutral!

CW: blood, violence, gore, language (typical horror movie stuff), unhinged Nanami

Dream’s Spooktober 2021

You don’t know how long you’ve been running, but you forced yourself to keep going.

The branches clawed at your bare legs, the adrenaline coursing through your body overpowering the stings of pain you felt with each step. Though it seemed that no matter how fast and how far you’ve been running, you couldn’t lose the thundering steps behind you. Which was getting closer and closer, and the bastard was only walking. Like this was some leisurely stroll to him.

You kept repeating in your mind to don’t look back, to not see the this psychopath stalking after you, clinging onto that butcher knife no doubt still stained with the viscera of your friends. If you had just trusted your gut, if only you would have pushed the issue harder of how you felt like you were being watched, then maybe they would have still been alive and not mutilated to the point that they’re unrecognizable-

How did a simple getaway trip come to this?

You repressed the sob that threatened to crawl out of your throat when the image of Ren being disemboweled and holding his own intestines in his outstretched hands appeared in your mind. When you remember Jun’s terrified expression etched onto his face, the rest of his body missing. You had to keep running, unless you wanted to end up like them-

Your foot tripped over something stiff and you stumbled down the slope, not stopping until you slammed into the tree.

Your body was sore, chest on fire, head bleeding and vision blurry from the impact, but you still hurried to get up on your trembling legs using the tree as leverage. Then your hand touched something sticky, and you collapsed and couldn’t hold back your scream anymore.

Mika’s dead gaze stared back at you as you scrambled away and tried to gain your footing again, a thick line of blood oozing from her shoulder and diagonally across her propped up body. And you felt bile rise in your throat when you realized that you stumbled over Jun’s decapitated corpse.

“You can’t continue this much longer.”

You stilled, heartbeat drumming in your ears. You broke your own cardinal rule in looking back and made eye contact with him.

Now that you’re getting a good look at him, he looked…normal. A man with styled blonde hair and sharp brown eyes, unbuttoned work shirt with matching pants. He would look like an average office worker had it not been for the blood splatters adorning his clothes. But that thought didn’t stop you from shaking. And the fact that he spoke so casual with you, like you’re discussing when to hang out and not like he’s murdering your friends one by one-

It scared you more if anything.

Someone that you could have been walking by and not spare a single glance to would be the cause of such brutality.

“And to be honest, I’m tired of this little cat and mouse game that we’ve been playing.” He took deliberate slow steps towards you, and you forced yourself to get a grip and to start running once more. “Yet you’re still being so stubborn. It was endearing at first, but now it’s getting frustrating. I already told you that you wouldn’t end up like the others, have I not?”

The leaves crunching beneath his feet alarmed you at how close he was getting.

“You’re hurt and in no shape to fight me.” He let out a tired sigh, “And it’s already been such a long day for me. Make this easier for us both so that we can go home together.”

Tears were rolling down your face as you limped away. You hoped that they were still alive, but the screams you’ve been hearing throughout the night has you clinging onto a false hope. Especially with the way they would just abruptly end. But the small hope you felt for them was crushed.

But not completely.

Mika carried a small switchblade in her left pocket as a good luck charm from her brother, and she always fiddle- fiddled with it whenever she was nervous. And you could see the hilt sticking out of her pocket, like she was in the midst of pulling it out. You could hide it up your sleeve and if he got close enough-

You felt his presence, body heat radiating from his arms that you easing their way to your face, cupping and smearing your cheek with his bloodstained hands. You wouldn’t give him the chance to trap you. And if you were going to die, you were going to die fighting.

“Have you made your decision?”

You stood up straight and flicked the blade out.

“Get the fuck away from me you psychopath!”

And stabbed it right in his neck, jerking it out and watching the blood spurt from it. He clasped his wound and you saw the sheer anger that glossed over his face before you took off sprinting.

The grunts and curses that slipped from his lips left you more than satisfied, and you would have loved to see how deep you stabbed, but you didn’t have time to relish in it. You could see a glimpse of bright light pass through the tree branches, enough to blind you momentarily but you could just cry-

You were near the road.

You would survive the night.

You kept going until you were wheezing, lungs desperate for air, but you didn’t dare stop into you practically got ran over. The driver was getting ready to cuss you out, arms raised above his head before he took in your bloodied form.

“Please help me!”

You banged on the passenger window leaving crimson handprints on it. And then you heard a click and got in before he could change his mind.

“Gogogogo-“

“W-what’s going on-“

“Drive! Drive!”

He didn’t waste any time in taking off, scared and confused and not trying to experience what hell you’ve just been through.

Eyes narrowed and scowl deep, he watched the car speed off. He tightened his grip on his blade.

This isn’t over.

Far from it.

—

“What do you mean you didn’t find him?!”

“I’m sorry, but the only bodies we recovered was of your friends. We did not recover a body of the man you described.”

You felt anger well up in you, but you just snuffed it out, finding no point in it. Being in the hospital has made you feel a range of emotions- grateful for being alive, frustrated at the monster who caused this nightmare still free, guilty for being the only one alive.

You couldn’t even go to their funerals and could barely look their parents in the face. Why was it you that lived and not them? You knew they asked themselves that, and you did too every single day.

You would be released from the hospital in a few days, and even with the police keeping a close eye on you, you still didn’t feel safe.

The nurse brought in a vase of flowers, the colorful arrangements being your favorite. She didn’t say where they came from, only joking that you have a very lucky someone out there who really loves you, especially if they hand wrote their letter.

But you weren’t dating anyone.

And when you read the letter, your eyes were wide with terror and you started to hyperventilate.

(Y/N),

I will say, I am disappointed in you. Attacking me and believing that you could get away with it? The fury I felt…maybe it was for the best that we did spend some time apart. I would never forgive myself if I were to harm you. But that doesn’t excuse your actions, and your actions do have consequences. But don’t worry, we just need to work through these issues together.

Such a strong and independent individual. Intelligent, witty, fast- only a few qualities that I admire in a person, and I should count myself lucky that it was you. Even when I first laid my eyes on you, I knew that I made the right decision. Your actions proved that. There is room for improvement, but patience is key.

I’ll be coming to get you soon. It would be in your best interest to behave. I still hold onto some irritation from that night, and I would hate to have to take it out on the people who’ve done well to look after you.

I’ll see you soon, dear.

-K.N.