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Rant/vent about the situation involving EssenceOfThought and VangelinaSkov
On the post I made a few weeks back when "VangelinaSkov Plagiarised My Lily Orchard Series - #JustAnotheriilluminaughtii" released to the public, someone yesterday started arguing with me despite me having stated I wasn't in the mood to argue.
I did comment back at them, because I wanted to give them the benefit of the doubt and inform them, but gosh, I just really hate having to end up arguing about whether or not an abuse victim was actually the abuser when there's HOURS of evidence to prove who the real victim is
For context, this is about Ethel Thurston of EssenceOfThought and Rachel Oates... just Rachel Oates. I don't believe she has an online alias
TW: mentions of grooming and pedophilia, suicidal ideation, selfharm, trauma, mentions of gaslighting, mentions of rape apologists, transphobia/misia, abuse and genocide
Thurston can prove that Oates is a liar who weaponised self harm to turn her audience in a rabid pack of dogs that abused Ethel Thurston and still have left mental scars in her now!
Ethel has been dealing with suicidality and trauma from the incident and as a former viewer of Oates I KNOW that Thurston is 100% more trustworthy than Oates and a lot better of a person.
Oates is a petty control freak, and I was first tipped off at this hearing her tone about when youtube (wrongfully) took her video down that debated the antimask crowd for medical misinformation. (I believe they took it down for the subject being about antimaskers to try to control the issue of people not wearing masks)
Her tone was vindictive (and in hindsight it was a moment that showed her true colors) when she's normally the type of person to act soft, innocent and sweet.
She was friends with rapist apologist and has thanked a person who compared David Reimer to Luna Younger! They compared a mutilated and sexually abused cis man to a victim of physical/mental abuse at the hands of her father because of her trans status (he cut her hair short against her will at the very least)
But because Rachel has been able to turn everything around to paint herself as the victim Ethel is seen as only a monster.
I just... feel gaslit...? Because I know what is true; Rachel has gone as far as to lie about the fucking color of her *EYES* to demonize Ethel Thurston, how the fuck can you trust her after doing that?
Ethel Thurston deserves to share their story without being called a harasser! Sometimes you need more than one book to tell a full story to its conclusion, and that should be extended to Ethel making 5-7 videos about her, since they are all like different parts of the story being told.
I have watched almost all of Ethel's content since Levi joined the channel, and I know that if Ethel really was the monster people paint her as I would have gotten the same gut feeling I have gotten with people like Blair (Illuminaughtii), Vangelina Skov, Rachel Oates and Lily Orchard (trying to think of more but can't... Johnny Silvestri I guess, the way he worded things was very victim blamy at times)
Even applies to some people I've just seen their writings of; recently someone was banned from a shiny hunting community server I'm in, because they were calling someone lazy and unmotivated for not being able to get a job. They also called people who use AI as a helping tool for CVs stupid and said that you should be smart enough to know how to word things if you deserve a job (paraphrased)
And I had a very bad feeling not long after they had first joined and spoken, something told me they lacked respect for other people and their comfort, since one of the first things they posted was vaguely sexual in a mostly PG 13 server.
And right after their ban they, with no evidence, called the server owner a groomer pedophile who hoards minors; absolutely disgusting reaction to being called out for ableism (+ a lot of the community is in their 20s or even 30s)
Yet what is happening here is the more I learn about Ethel Thurston the more I respect her and that is incredibly rare/has never happened before
And I have watched almost all of their live streams, which is where a person would end up showing their true colors
At most I've seen her irritated it's when her friend interupts and I have those moments too when I'm talking about something I deem important and want to get to my point of.
It happened just yesterday, in fact, because they were a bit too insistant on writing about a black kid being abused by white parents while they themselves are non-black, and more specifically, white.
I think I got them to agree in the end to change the parents to at least also be black so it's more general abusive parents rather than potentially being a racist thing, since this isn't something you just do without hours upon hours of research (if not years) and checking with people who experience racism that it isn't downplaying any harm caused by it.
But anyway, point is that when someone tries to butt in with a point you're getting to on a sensitive topic; being snappy is understandable.
Just needed to get some thoughts out of my head, because I'm feeling frustrated and unsure of my own understanding of things... But I know that Rachel Oates is a liar, because I've heard her lies myself years ago as I SAW her "Lies about me" video before it was taken down to protect her fucking *image* She lies like if she'd stop breathing if she was honest!
She lies about Ethel's pronoun order, she lies about her fucking EYE COLOR, she lies about changing to be a better person, she lies about being unable to pick a side in the literal GENOCIDE GOING ON while claiming she's against genocide!
She's a horrible person for that one especially; you can not fence-sit here. You're either pro-genocide or you're not. What's happening in Palestine is one of the worst crimes happening today and it's been going on for decades; now adults and children are starving to death as Israli soldiers cheer each other on for killing them!
It is vile disgusting behavior to act like you have to be an expert to say that Israel is in the wrong. They are in the wrong; they are genocidal colonizers who have been trying to exterminate the people who's land they were granted by uncaring foreigners (the USA) to claim as their own.
And I know that if Vangelina Skov could prove she didn't plagiarise by not crediting the work of the people behind EssenceOfThought, she would have, instead of calling Ethel an extortionist
Sorry for this long post, but if you took the time to read it then thank you.
Please do not argue about this with me; if you want to know the truth look into it through EssenceOfThought's content.
I know I'm right, and even if I am wrong you can't convince me either way, so please just spare both of us the upset /gen
From now on I will block anyone who does try to argue immediately Just to be clear: you can ask what the sources are, but if you argue from VangelinaSkov's side without having watched any of Ethel's videos you're blocked
I have watched the video multiple times, because I'm autistic and need familiarity and Ethel's tone of voice is soft and soothing, so I'll know if you haven't actually heard her talking points from her own mouth /srs
#lark rants#lark vents#long post#just been having some shit on my mind#ignore if you feel like this is more of just screaming into the void
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#had this image in my head for several months... prairie sunsets are so red it like glows#do you feel the warm breeze in this pic it's very important#birds#lark sparrow#pixel art#just checked and the last time i posted here was in may... man... don't go to grad school. don't do it.#i want so bad to have time to do art and vent game but i unfortunately am not smart enough to do that and keep my head above water :/#gonna try really hard to make more than like. 5. pieces next year though lmao
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From some of the discussion I've been seeing regarding Sparrow's decision in the last episode vs Lark's decision to release the doodler- I think people are giving Lark a little bit *too much* leniency based on the rogue card? Like don't get me wrong, Lark was a kid and Willy played a big hand in manipulating him into doing what he did, but the rogue card itself did not *force* Lark to stab his dad. It instilled a hostility within him towards his father (one which admittedly I think would have come to be either way if less strongly but that's another post), sure, but releasing the doodler was still very much a premeditated decision on Lark's end, albeit one swayed by his magically-enforced hatred of his dad. I don't blame Lark for the whole ordeal I'm just saying I don't think it's fair to just write it off as some kind of rogue-induced hypnosis, when Lark did very much still have agency in the matter.
#mini vent perhaps lol#dndads#honestly even outside of this issue I tend to disagree with how rogue is depicted/understood a good chunk of the time#but ah whatever#lark oak#lark oak garcia#sparrow oak#sparrow oak garcia#dungeons and daddies
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That tiny bit of happiness... my heart is unable to accept it. https://open.spotify.com/track/40KFocvzK7xc1jHzBDM8k4?si=c7ee04aa3c4e435c
#artists on tumblr#black and white#gothic#oc#digital art#gothic art#clip studio paint#red#gothic aesthetic#goth art#lark vashkel#inspired by music#Jpop#ヒトガワリ#きくおはな#emo goth#emo#emo art#kawaii#kawaii goth#blood#actually mentally ill#bpd#bpd vent#bpd thoughts#actually adhd
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i say this as someone who has loved pjo for many many years but how r u gonna walk in and say with ur whole chest something that is so mythologically inaccurate and historically wrong fully believing it just bc it was in pjo. when it comes to actual myth and ancient history you NEED to leave that at the door. come on now
#pjo#greek mythology#this isn't ab anything on here just venting about irl#posts of lark#lark screams into the void
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ohhhhhh i love it when my ex's old blog pops up in my recommended
#so bitter that its actually embarrassing but whatever i hope hes happy w his new partner that he started dating 5 months after we broke up#wonder if he still posts weird romantic/sexual stuff abt fictional characters or if he finally learned to have some decorum and respect his#partners wishes 🤭 knowing my luck it was just me and his new partner is happy as a lark#sooooo funny to me how it was painfully obvious how uncomfortable i was and told him so on multiple occasions and yet he'd still post these#almost mocking in a way... i remember 2 years ago on my birthday he posted a gif of some anime boy and tagged it with something like#“are you available to go out this wednesday”.... i used to deactivate a lot partially as a joke but mostly because i didnt know how else to#express my anger besides vague vent posts and that day was the last time i was ever on kinblr. And the stupid mf still didnt get the hint#that he was actively hurting me LMFAO!!! and then when we broke up it was all about “this is whats best for both of us”#anyways thats all for now im sure ill come back for round 2 of bitching later
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Absolutely fucking tearing me up inside that I cannot draw
#The end to s1 of dndads is fucking tearing me apart#I need to get away from that fucking show it makes me feel way too fucking deeply#literally everything with lark and sparrow makes me feel awful. like a period for the soul#I'm having heart cramps ig#it just fucking hurts so much man#Henry is the best father out of all of them and he has been the whole time#he didn't fucking deserve that#shit#I got through the entire season without shedding a tear but it's the post-credits scene that just gets me#they're just kids man#lark didn't deserve that card. shit#FUCK#now I'm crying again#it hurts so bad I want to throw up#ouch owie owie owie ouch ykwim#damn it. damn everything#anyway#vent#spoilers#dungeons and daddies#damn it!!! shit!!!!!!
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I <3 ptsd I <3 locking myself in the bathroom to hide from my mother I <3 feeling like she would just open the door to talk to me if I didn't lock it I <3 knowing that when I was a kid we weren't allowed to lock doors and I <3 that if we did she'd just unlock them with her fingernail <3
#from the lark themself#sorry for the vent i am simply#not doing well with how much my mother has been here lately#i appreciate the help she's provided during this time! but this is awful for my brain!#edit to add: would someone please tell her to go to bed the bathroom is too warm and i need to charge my PHONE
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Cole headcanons perchance 👀 maybe a bit of angst :3
The fan favorite of the group
HUGE worry wart
Gets ready for things an hour in advance, then gets stressed when no one else is also ready
Kingsley in particular drives them up the wall with this
Because he definitely takes his sweet time getting ready (but he somehow always is on time and ready to go without being late)
Being late is NOT an option for Cole
The Lark was once late to one (1) single performance, and Cole was convinced that their fans hated them and were going to throw tomatoes
Makes really good tea out of various herbs
Often tells Perrine to calm down and relax, since she’s always going and going and going, not quite realizing the irony in what they’re saying
“Pot calling kettle black” -Perrine
But in fairness, Perrine does the Exact Same Thing
Feels like they’ll never be able to live up to The Storyteller’s legacy and thinks that they’re ruining their image/name
Their voice once cracked during a performance, and they couldn’t sleep at all that night out of embarrassment
It STILL keeps them up weeks later
When they blush, their WHOLE HEAD turns red, even their ears
Keeps a diary
Writes songs to vent their emotions
Once gave Clémentine flowers with the roots still attached (they got nervous and ripped them straight out of the ground)
Has frequent nightmares about the death of their family
Their biggest fear is forgetting the faces of their parents
The voices of their mother and father have already started to slip
If they lose their faces, too, they don’t know what they’ll do
So they’ve done everything in their power to preserve their image
Such as painting and drawing
They just need to cling to them a little longer
They’re a kid
They shouldn’t have to go without a mom and dad
It isn’t fair
Why them?
What did they ever do to deserve such a fate?
They were good people
It should have been them
They should have died that day
Not their mom and dad
They wish it had been them instead
#ask#usually i don’t have that many personal hcs for characters that aren’t my absolute faves (perrine in this instance)#but i think i got a good number for the little rabbit!#sorry this took a few days!#yaelokre#meadowlark#the lark#cole yaelokre#yaelokre headcanons
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Having a bad day, just wish I had stayed in bed
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Jaskier: the emotional support bard for EVERYONE
Well, remember my "Things we learned/confirmed about our bard in Vol. 2" post? You can see it here.
I haven't stopped thinking about point #16 (He's the emotional support bard for EVERYONE (Geralt, Yennefer, Ciri and even Dara) but who the hell is my baby's emotional support?) and after many sleepless nights I finally got around to it to write something about it.
So here you have 2k words of hurt/angst for my beautiful bard. Because he needs to vent to someone and I love a Geralt writhing in pain and guilt :D
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Geralt is truly grateful to have Jaskier in his life. Having him is the true blessing.
The bard is always by his side, with a soft and understanding smile on his face, with the right words that will give shelter to their hearts and a joke to lighten the mood.
He knows just the right combination of words to make Yennefer smile sincerely. He knows what song to sing for Ciri after her nightmares. He knows what to say to elves who have lost their homes and families to always keep them hopeful.
And of course, Jaskier is always sincere about his emotions, the things he likes, the things he dislikes.
Jaskier is colorful, loud, colorful and true with his feelings.
That's why Geralt is at a loss for what to do when he hears Radovid comforting his bard.
Geralt was about to tell them both to gather by the fire to continue the party after saying goodnight to Ciri. The party in the forest was in full swing when both lovebirds decided to step away from the spotlight and spend some time alone.
"How are you, lark?" asks Radovid.
"I'm perfect, my prince. All things are finally flowing properly" replies the bard cheerfully.
There is silence for a moment, Geralt sneaking up on the pair, not wanting to abruptly interrupt their moment.
"I could see how your hands shook as we approached the fire, I also noticed that you didn't play your usual notes on your lute, and of course, you tried to sing the dirtiest songs in your repertoire only to have your friends tell you to stop singing in front of the girl" the prince murmurs softly and Geralt stops his steps altogether.
"Well, I wouldn't want a witcher and his sorceress to cut little Jaskier for singing obscenities in front of his daughter. You should thank me for stopping, I know how much you enjoy little Jaskier."
A silence follows, Geralt thinks the matter is settled, that Jaskier is fine.
"And now you're evading the issue" replies the prince in a tone Geralt can't detect. "You said you weren't afraid of the fire anymore but you sat in the farthest place from the campfire, you didn't have your twitch with the strings and I know you only do that when you don't want to want to keep playing the lute and I also know you only sing your dirtiest songs when you want to make people uncomfortable and make them stop asking you for songs.
I ask you again, how are you?"
Jaskier doesn't respond. Geralt holds his breath and frowns in the darkness.
Jaskier isn't acting weird, it's just Jaskier being Jaskier, Geralt thinks. His bard is always happy, in fact he is surprised that he always smells like honeysuckle and lavender all the time because humans always have a wide variety of smells about them. Sadness, anger, joy, satisfaction, and more and more, but Jaskier always smells of happiness, and several (many) times of lust. Radovid believes that just by knowing Jaskier for a few years he is already able to read him backwards and forwards. Like him
Jaskier doesn't say anything for several minutes and for a second, it seems like the conversation has stopped there, maybe he'll start cracking a joke about how being the most famous bard on the continent is taking its toll on him or maybe he'll comment that Radovid isn't giving him any enough attention.
If there's one thing everyone who knows Jaskier personally knows, it's that the bard is...
"I'm tired "
And Geralt's heart stops. Because he has never heard the bard speak in that tone. Not even when they had walked miles and miles for hours, not when they had spent days and days sleeping outside instead of an inn, not even when Geralt apologized after the mountain. It's not the kind of physical exhaustion that Jaskier always brags about, it's the exhaustion that comes from his soul.
A soft sound is heard and the witcher must not have special mutations to know that the prince has gotten closer to the poet “Dear heart, it is me. "You know you don't need to pretend to be someone you're not with me."
More silence. More doubts.
And then, like a dam that has broken, Geralt smells for the first time the bitter aroma of rotting dandelions: Jaskier's sadness.
"I feel so lonely." Jaskier sighs, an exhausted, desperate sigh.
And then the sobs come.
Geralt can imagine the prince holding Jaskier in his arms because the poet's voice sounds muffled and sobbing.
Jaskier talks about how he has always felt sad and alone since he was a child. How sometimes he is not able to remember his childhood because his mind has blocked everything bad to protect him. He talks about how music saved his life, how sometimes it's not enough and he just forces himself to make it enough.
Geralt thinks about the times Jaskier didn't sleep or eat because he stayed to write in his notebook, how he took his lute and held it to his chest saying that the muses were blessing him with inspiration. He now wonders how much was real and how much was the bard breaking.
The bard tells the prince how scared he was when he first toured the continent, fearing that he would have to crawl back to his parents to survive. The happiness of being able to find Geralt and follow him. The sadness of being rejected over and over again by the only person who was his lighthouse at that moment. The panic attacks he suffered when he woke up and Geralt was already gone. The tremors in his legs when he ran to the next town to catch up with the witcher and the fake smiles he had shown when pretending that their reunion was accidental.
Geralt remembers a time, in Temeria, when he found Jaskier drinking beer in a tavern and how his leg kept moving, up and down over and over again. How Jaskier told him it was the emotion that the red-haired waitress caused him. He tries to remember how many miles Jaskier had to walk by himself.
Jaskier tells him how devastated he was when Geralt left him. Because he knows that 20 years are nothing for a witcher but they were half of his human life. He tells him that he returned to Geralt because he missed him and is his best friend, the person he has the most faith in, but he doesn't think he can trust him again, not like before. Because he had been his only friend, his only constant after leaving and being disowned by his own family, because he had given him his youth, voice and friendship for decades and yet Geralt had left him. And his heart is so broken that he can't put another patch on it or will be useless forever.
He tells him how ashamed he is of his human condition. Because he's surrounded by gods who can set the world on fire literally and figuratively, he clings so hard to being someone magnificent like them, but sometimes he's so exhausting that the very breath escapes him. He tells that every time they make a joke about being weak, worthless or just being left behind he gets it because they remind him of his family, but now it has become a dull ache that builds up in his heart and he knows it's wrong, but now has gotten used to it.
Geralt doesn't even have a specific memory, but he knows that he has a lot to think about.
The poet talks about nightmares about being burned, about being left behind for being a mere human. Because he knows that he is only a second in the infinite life of the people he loves, that he is nothing more than a thorn in the hearts of the people he considers his family. Because they will live long, wonderful lives and the memory of him will one day be erased from their minds, and sometimes it's okay, but other times it feels like it burns his soul to know that he means nothing to anyone.
He tells Radovid that he is so afraid that he will leave him too. Because he knows that he can be a lot and feel so much that he is used to being left aside, but he doesn't believe he can bear Radovid's rejection and he doesn't believe can bear to say goodbye to the prince he has fallen in love with like never before. He tells him how much loves him, how fervent his love is, but Radovid is a prince, the representation of the gods on earth, the man who has armies and subjects and men and women at his disposal; and he’s a simple bard, with scars from torture and a lute on his back. Jaskier opens up and talks out loud about how scared he was when he met him, because he always jokes about being heartbroken, like every good poet, but he never talks about the fear of not being enough again.
He talks about his resentment and envy of others. He was always the bard of comfort for everyone, always the shoulder to cry on and complain about, always the perfect man to put down and feel good about yourself. Jaskier, the man who always smiles. Jaskier, the man of a thousand words. Always the bard Dandelion.
He says that has no right to cry and complain about his pain, because there are elves out there who have lost their homes, their family, and their lives. Because just a few steps from him, there is a girl who lost her parents, her grandparents and her entire home in the flames. There is a sorceress who was sold by her father, who was undone and remade countless times. Because he has traveled with the man with the purest and noblest heart on the continent, that he has suffered for decades without complaint. Because there is a prince trapped in a viper's nest next to him. He has no right to cry because he is exhausted.
But sometimes it's so hard to stay smiling. Sometimes the curtain must be lowered, sometimes his lips also get tired of saying words of encouragement without any in return, his arms are also tired of holding and not being held, his heart sometimes gets tired of loving without being loved.
Sometimes he just wants to sleep and not wake up again.
Jaskier talks and talks and talks. But for the first time, he's not about the best color for his doublet, but instead he mutters about the insecurities he hides behind those colors. For the first time, Geralt doesn't tune out Jaskier's inane, meaningless chatter and actually listens, hears the tremor in his voice, smells the pain in the air, feels every sob rumbling in his chest. And he wonders how he never saw it, how he always took his friend for granted.
It seems that Jaskier's words are exhausted, because all that remains is a deafening silence and the aroma of salt from tears not shed for years.
“You are not alone, lark,” the prince murmurs, soft and determined. “You have me, Geralt, Ciri and Yennefer. We are your family. We are yours. And I'm sorry you feel that way, because it was never our intention to burden you with our burdens. Because we love you. You are the light of our lives, and the only reason we all have a family. Jaskier, you are my lark, my heart and my soul. I love you more than anything, Jaskier. You can always come to me to listen to you, to cry or simply to be by your side, the way you want me, all the time you want me.”
Jaskier sobs again and Geralt can imagine Radovid holding him tighter, closer, because it's something the witcher wants to do.
Geralt walks away silently with only the thoughts of him.
He returns to the bonfire that miraculously continues to burn, with no Yennefer and Ciri in sight.
Geralt sits in his place. He thinks about everything he has learned from the bard in 1 hour and has been missing for 24 years. He wonders how much of what he sees in Jaskier is him and not his mask. He questions why he never asked Jaskier how he is.
Then he hears footsteps coming out of the forest. He feels Yenn sit silently to the right of him and then Ciri to the left of him. Everyone heard, everyone felt their bard break.
No one says anything, as if the bard had taken away their words. He probably did it. So the three of them sit together until they decide to go to sleep, always in silence.
The next morning, the 3 find a note from Radovid saying that he and Jaskier will take some time together. That they will soon find them.
The witcher, the sorceress and the princess shed tears together and then wait anxiously for their bard. Their lark.
#jaskier#my baby deserves the world#my beloved bard#radskier#geraskier#fanfiction#ficlet#the witcher#geralt of rivia#emotional support bard#angst bard#ao3fic#fanfic
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OMG YESSS GO OFFFF
Yeah not to respond to your long post with a long post but
😅 Maybe I should preface this by saying that I've been sippin' on vodka so I am writing this a bit drunk, but if you'll humor me,
Firstly, yes, Sparrow is soooo underrated! I lowkey feel like all the hate he gets played into me becoming as obsessed with him as I am over the course of season 2?
But even still, I can honestly pinpoint the exact point at which I became ridiculously concerned with Sparrow's wellbeing, and that was THIS FUCKING MOMENT
In fucking Retail Therapy. I guess it probably wasn't what most people were focused on during this part but oh my god did this little moment hit me like a truck.
It's just- uuuggghh no there's too much to say about this to be able to do so in my current state but wow if the rest of season 1 from this point forward doesn't just SUCK for Sparrow. Literally like all of it is him trying so hard to cheer up his brother and mediate between him and Henry and for what?? For nothing to get better? For Lark to stab Henry??? Not to mention all the little moments of Sparrow being denied his father's love and attention not because Henry didn't love Sparrow to death but because Henry had no choice but to focus on Lark.
And I actually love Lark so much even if I don't talk about him nearly as much, but fuck if he isn't the anchor that's been drowning Sparrow slowly for the past 20 or so years.
AND THE BETRAYAL. The betrayal. Okay yeah the alcohol is hitting me now lmao It's wild to me that after all this time we still don't know for sure whether or not Sparrow knew of Lark's plan before he stabbed Henry, but the implications are fucked and tragic either way. Either he knew, but like Lark he didn't understand the true consequences of carrying out the plan and now he carries the same guilt (or at least a comparable one) with him, surely for the rest of his life- OR, or, he *didn't* know- and that scenario is actually kinda worse I think? Cause like- that Lark- that *Lark* would *use* him that way, *betray* him that way and specifically take advantage of the fact that Sparrow wanted more than anything to reconcile Lark and Henry's relationship and of course accordingly would be thrilled at the prospect of Lark apologizing to Henry and that DESPITE THAT, despite all of that, he still blames himself for the end of the world. Am I making any sense??
Sparrow is marked by betrayal, actually. So is Lark but that's a different post. Lark's betrayal in the aforementioned stabbing incident (depending on the circumstances ig), but also in sleeping with Rebecca. And Rebecca betrayed him here too obviously!
And I see all these posts I love about how Hero is probably Lark's kid- but what I don't see is discussion of the implications for Sparrow. Do you think at 19 years old (if my math is right? Assumed 12 in S1, +25 years into S2, -18 for Hero's age??) Sparrow was ready to have a baby? It's one thing if that was his own doing. But if Hero was/is Lark's? Oh my fucking god. Sparrow's life has changed forever, he's somehow been more stripped of his childhood than he already was, and Lark can't. even. own. up. to. it!!! And it's such a testament to their relationship because Sparrow is *SO* used to holding himself accountable for Lark's shit
And maybe, in a more subtle way, Henry betrayed Sparrow too. I hate giving Henry a hard time because I love him so much, and he tried so hard, and he deserves the world- but I do think he failed his kids. I think in failing to discipline Lark and Sparrow he enabled- well enabled both of them but especially Lark, and in doing so forced the responsibility of accounting for Lark's actions onto Sparrow. Not that Sparrow can bring himself to punish Lark either, but he can spend a lifetime trying to reunite Lark and his father, and he can spend a lifetime living with Lark's mistakes if it means saving him from being completely alone.
But that's not a secret, is it? He says it himself when he's disguised himself as Lark
Henry can't punish Lark. Henry can't punish Lark, so Lark keeps hurting himself, and Sparrow is caught in a perpetual state of trying his best to fix him.
Oh that's another thing- I've seen people interpret this scene as like, "Sparrow was okay with Lark dying on the throne" or what have you. I disagree! I really disagree! I think Sparrow absolutely fucking hates that it's come to this, blames both himself and Henry for it, but ultimately understands that Lark is going to sit on the throne either way- and gets why he has to. He understands that for Lark there's no other option- understands that Lark's guilt runs so deep that he would gladly die if it meant undoing even a fraction of what he's done.
Hence,
But most of all Sparrow was betrayed because he was taught to love. He was taught to love, and every time he loves someone, whether it's Lark, or Henry, or Rebecca, or Normal, it's never enough. It's never enough, and no one ever thinks to love him back.
i have too many thoughts about Sparrow Oak-Garcia that I am barley containing as is.
#Okay important note don't drink vodka after eating an apple ew#Though I did try this vodka from Nova Scotia made from apples and that was pretty good#OP#I hope this made the tinniest bit of sense!#Your post made me feel like venting hahahaha#I really enjoyed myself reading your post#I'm very happy and grateful my tags helped give you the room to write!#ik I tell you this all the time in the Discord but your L&S drawings really make me so happy#So rock on!#also#for whoever happens to read this#I actually have a lot of sympathy for Lark#and maybe one day I'll write a long post about how since that pyramid fell on him Lark has felt betrayed and lesser and unworthy of love#but Sparrow is my obsession hahaha#You know this already#Sparrow gets so much hate#but he's golden to me#sparrow oak garcia#sparrow oak#dndads#dunegons and daddies#text post#lark oak garcia#lark oak
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Once again I’m guilty of drawing my OC with the main characters instead of drawing actual scenes lmao
Here’s love wolf sparrow surprising the shit out of lark, and adult fen trying to get normal to vent to him cause damn it let me love you
#dndads#sketti draws#dungeons and daddies spoilers#dndads spoilers#dndads oc#dungeons and daddies oc#skettis oc
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🌻🍉🎀☯️ for the fanfic asks game, if you so desire! :]
🌻what makes you want to give up on writing? what makes you keep going?
oh, that's a good one. honestly, i've got into a bad habit lately of feeling like not having as much engagement as other writers makes me a bad one. like i'm not!! many people rlly like my fics, and i'm thankful for that. but despite a lot of people calling for change in the byler fandom, it can be really hard for smaller writers to gain any traction/response, which leads to insecurity and can be really frustrating. lowkey i miss the 4-5 years i spent ONLY being on ffn/ao3 & dealing with the rest of fandom. i never felt this insecure about my work back then. but i keep going because i love to write, and i do like sharing it with other people. i like putting my blorbos in Situations >:)
🍉in what ways has writing helped you process trauma and/or navigate through your own life?
hoo boy. ok. so there are MANY (unpublished) wips in my drive rn from the summer of 2019, when i literally did nothing but write vent/party-bashing fics about will being mistreated by them. yeeeah. i adore the party, and they r all very good people and friends, but will's experience hit a liiiittle too close to home. and my experience did NOT end up well for me. 😬
🎀give yourself a compliment about your own writing
i think i'm good at writing internal monologues!! i hope people think so too. i really enjoy getting into characters' heads.
☯️how do you think engaging with each other through tumblr, twitter, comments, kudos, creates healthy fandom experiences? How do you deal with that if you're not a social person/experience social anxiety?
i think it definitely builds a lot of rapport and uplifts people!! i know i always really enjoy interacting with people. although i am a very nervous person, so 90% of the time i'm just making posts being like "HEY COME DM ME." like, i need to stop 😅 (please do tho 👀) but in general people have been very kind, including you!! i'm really really glad i've talked to you 💕💕 i really like talking to people but i always get so nervous about it. (i feel like part of that comes from feeling like everyone has a head start on me in making friends here even though i've been in fandom for like. 8 years now. rip)
anyways,
come ask me a question about my fics!!
#byler#lark answers#lark writes#thankyou for this ask <333#sorry for venting a bit#i appreciate you 💕#perexcri!!
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*Lark and Scott's house is on fire, but they don't know it* Lark: Damn, it's hot in here. Scott: I know, it's so hot there's smoke coming out of the vent! Lark: Lark: First of all, I'm assuming you have no idea what the problem with that statement is. Scott: What? Lark: Second of all, we need to get the fuck out of here, NOW.
#incorrect saw#incorrect quotes#sawposting#sawtism#saw franchise#saw fandom#saw#lackeyshipping#lark saw#scott tibbs#see queue at the bitter end
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