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↳ "Typical Targaryen features are silvery-gold or platinum hair and striking lilac or indigo or violet eyes, and is a famous proclamation of their heritage."
what he says: fishermen and pirates are nothing alike
what he means: i'm scared. i'm so scared. and i'm unlovable. because i can't be what you want. i can't be who you want. i can't be anything for anyone at all.
i don't know myself anymore. the only thing i do know is that i want to be away from piracy. i want to be away from the violence, and the pressure, and the constant threats on life. i want to be away from the threat of losing you.
but look at you. look at us. you're thriving. and i'm running. you want all of this, and i want none of this. we've always been different, but now we're polar. you're leaping into all of this with open, excited arms, and i'm desperately careening to get out.
so why would there be space for me? why, when we're going in two opposite directions? why, when i'm exactly the opposite of what you seem to want right now?
fishermen and pirates are nothing alike. so you can't possibly want me anymore.