#kind of a vent anyway

[glitteringpeachy]

Fallen Rudy

Holy shit back on the sfm shit and lord is it edgy! Anyway, not canon to divine detours! Just an AU. Explanation below the cut, but warning for mentions of self-harm and sex and all that fucky shit

Ok so, I came up with this AU idea with Rudy. I recall someone ages ago saying something about Rudy becoming a lust demon, and it intrested me. So, here's fallen Rudy. Half demon, half angel. He still has his angelic powers, though I imagine they're corrupted. Still working on the details. But, upon falling, one of Rudy's eyes turn black and white. Upon falling, Rudy is absolutely devastated. He still had a home up in heaven, and appreciated his angel heritage. Plus Rudy doesn't like demons, so becoming one- even half of one isn't great for him.

While he tries to act how he typically does, his mental state has very clearly gone of the rails, and he becomes a huge sadomasochist, harming himself for pleasure. I don't imagine he harms himself out of self hatred, at least not at first- he just learned he enjoys the pain, blood, etc. However, the longer he goes on, I feel like the self harm may become like a drug to him, and prehaps even a self hatred thing after a while. But yeah along with that, he has a lot of risky sex. Not risky sex in like, std sense- coz Rudy is kinda immune from those, but he falls in with the wrong people that don't care for his safety or health. In his opinion, at least in this au, that just makes it all the more fun.

Long story short, Rudy has gone insane- no care for his own mental or physical wellbeing. Give this man therapy. Idk what else ill do with this AU but it was fun to write!

[ducktracy]

there are a lot of evil people in the world and a lot of darkness in the world and so it’s very important for me to stress that now more than ever is the time to spread kindness and compassion. combat the evil by not only not partaking in it, but actively refuting it. destroy the notion that being compassionate or generous or kind to someone is uncool or embarrassing or even scary. be the change you want to see. start a chain reaction. positivity only breeds more positivity. do an act of kindness for someone so that that person who is too afraid to do it themselves can see you, realize that they’re not alone, and perhaps sheepishly follow your example. and then the next person who is too afraid but sees that person can do the same. when bad news comes out about bad people or horrible atrocities in the world it’s such an easy impulse to despair, and obviously it’s important to feel what you need to feel. grieve. be angry. be sorrowful. be empathetic. but dust off your pants and get up and be a part of a chain reaction that, no matter how small the scale, and spread compassion and love and care. all the reasons why you might not—“it’s hard! it’s scary! people will make fun of me! it’s useless because there’s too much evil!” are all grade A arguments as to why you should. you have no idea how many people you could inspire to do the same. even if it doesn’t get you anyway far, you can at least say you have the nobility of trying. please choose love and please choose life. you are worth loving and you are worth inspiring others to love

[malo-mart]

The magic of Majoras Mask is trying to comfort characters who are grieving their future through little acts of kindness. Like, the simple but layered juxtaposition of the joy of marching the chicks around on the third day to a little ocarina tune while the game vibrates every few minutes to signify that the moon is closer and closer to falling....

[yalibat]

you arent alone, roy

[vodid]

zero's pressure

[jazzy-flowerr]

Y'know if I had a nickel for everytime I really liked a horror game where the main character is a small child with a talking toy as a companion and the game is also really relatable to me due to its depictions of alcoholic and/or verbally [sometimes even physically] abusive parents,

I'd have two nickels.

Which isn't a lot, but it's weird that it happened twice, right?

[deoidesign]

I met the me who made different choices

[romatito]

coloring experiments with some displeased españas 🍅 i always love digging beneath his optimism to find the negativity underneath thats Just as passionate -- its one of the most fascinating things about him to me

closeups under the cut

[queenlucythevaliant]

Just to clarify my thoughts (since I've had a number of people ask me about it) re: Job and cursing God. There's a big difference between cursing God as used in Scripture and how we generally would think of cursing at God today.

Cursing someone, in the Bible, has a lot of depth to it. It's not just saying "screw you " in anger, it's got a sense of forsakenness to it. It's the opposite of a blessing, a removal of blessing. If the blessing is presence, your face shining on the person you're blessing, then a curse is absence. In some translations, Job's wife tells him to "renounce God and die," which I honestly think makes a lot more sense to modern ears.

Job says a lot of unpleasant things to and about God in his anger and grief. So do the Psalmists. A number of the Prophets. So can we. God can take it if we come to him with honest expressions of our emotion, including those not-so-nice ones directed at him. I don't think there's anything wrong with getting mad at God and saying, "How dare you, you bastard" when you suffer unjustly. You can say much worse, I think, without sinning, though I don't feel particularly inclined to give examples. But as long as it's an honest expression of your heart, I think you're doing exactly what prayer is for. You're presenting him your heart with an open hand. He can use that. Opposite of love is not hate but indifference, etc.

Job doesn't renounce God. Neither should we. But I think when you're truly suffering, you're gonna have those feelings toward God either way. He'd rather you address them with him directly than try to avoid them. Cursing at God in the modern sense is actually a great way to keep the relationship strong and not end up cursing/renouncing him in the Biblical sense.

[bottombaron]

you know, i can handle a little bit of fun "Nandor is dumb" talk, but i have a net-zero tolerance for any implication that Nandor is not educated.

Nandor would have been incredibly educated in his lifetime.

even (or especially) as a soldier in the Islamic World. being a soldier was more like getting sent to boarding school that's also a military camp. they weren't just concerned with creating loyal fodder for war. they were building the next government officials, generals, accountants, advisors, etc. it was important that young men knew how to read, write, speak multiple languages, learn philosophy...sometimes even studying art and music was mandatory.

if he was nobility (and its most likely he was), take all that shit and multiply it exponentially. Nandor would have been reading Plato at the same age most people are still potty training. he would have been specifically groomed in such a way to not be just a brilliant strategist and warrior, but also diplomate and ambassador of literally the center of scientific and cultural excellence of the age.

so like yeah, he can be a big dummy sometimes, sure. but that bitch is probably more educated than any of us will ever be.

[starconfessor]

I can't believe it's officially been 15 years since Nana went on hiatus I am undone

[redactedcrowart]

regardless, i wasn't built to be alone

part of this series 1 ; 2 ; 3 ; 4

[cold--carnage]

Um, it's kind of a lot...

[blitzwhore]

It's always fun experiencing severe mental illness symptoms because of fiction, eh?

[fishing-lesbian-catgirl]

I can imagine anything guy image: “I can spiral into tears and convince myself I’m the worst person alive over anything”

[ilovejoll]

Context my kinsonas btw yayyyy