#kiiinda but not really but also just in case

[patron-saint-of-emesis]

i’ve been taking ample notes while reading TLT to make it make sense, and i often go back to reference these notes, but the thing is that i am fucking bad at taking notes so it just looks like this

[obsesssedblerd]

For me for the unrequited love it sucks for both sides. Y/n isn’t giving a reason for needing space which would help their case more, or even saying they need space, leaving the guys to flounder about what’s going on. On the guys hands, some of them were a little shitty about it. Nanami using Y/n as a proxy (would’ve been nicer to tell them beforehand what was being sent yk) and Gojo blatantly saying he’s excited to see Y/n somewhere only bc their beautiful friend will be there.

You made it very neutral ground where really, no one went about it a good, mature way, and I appreciate that lol it really brings out the humanity and imperfection of people. I’m just hoping there’s a mature resolution. It reminds me a little of how I lost a friend a year or so ago. (About to spill about that I’m sorry ;;—;;

We worked together and they complained about me to our managers (they were a manager as well) and I pulled away to try to think about how it made me feel (I’m not great at standing up for myself or making a conflict) and a month later when they asked why I wasn’t coming to a party I told them my feelings… and they immediately became the victim. Literally using “now my feelings are hurt.”

My point there is, even adults have immature resolution tactics and I kiiinda hope I don’t see that here 😂 (but I kinda do at the same time bc I will gobble up whatever you feed me I LOVE the angst) they didn’t really know or notice I was conflicted and never mentioned it until the party but alas… not friends or coworkers anymore. I hope that wasnt like a big dump or unloading I wanted to like make context on how humans aren’t perfect and kind of suck anyway—

I love all your work and your angst is SO good and you always serve more on a silver platter so fast!! Thank you for all the perfect content and I hope you have an amazing day!!! 🫶🏻

love this and thanks for sharing! once the series is done, i want to talk more about the messy things that unrequited love can bring and why i chose to write these the way i did. 🩷 hope your day is also good!

[crustaceousfaggot]

Hey did anyone else notice like a weird amount of parallels between the Arcane ending and the RQG ending or was that just me

Takes place in a magi-tech society that blends elements of sci-fi and high fantasy with elements of British industrial revolution aesthetics. The bulk of the story takes place in a city which is divided in two - a wealthy and entrepreneurial upper city, and a poor and dangerous undercity ruled by organized crime.

One of our protagonists is an emotionally volatile young woman, raised in the lower city by a powerful crime lord who acts as her surrogate father. She believes that her only worth to the world is her talent for violence, and over the course of the story learns to trust again and care for (an) adopted kid(s). This character has a natural talent for engineering and makes her own bombs.

Another of our protagonists is a nepo-baby from a powerful family who eventually learns that they're a sorcerer with a hidden magical bloodline. This bloodline manifests, among other ways, with their skin becoming more metallic. As this is happening, the character decides to step away from their family legacy and inherited power to become their own person.

The catalyst for the plot is a brilliant scientist pioneering a new kind of magi-tech which he believes will revolutionize humanity and make life better for everyone.

Through a bizarre series of unintended dominoes, this magi-tech (which just so happens to be blue) entirely loses control, leading to the creation of a spreading gestalt hivemind which threatens to overtake the entire world.

Quick break from this to watch a couple of our characters get thrown into another dimension. They'll be fine don't worry (lying)

The final battle involves a very large cast of characters doing cool shit but essentially revolves around "we need to kill the center of the hive mind". Part of this involves taking down a Big Powerful Beast that got infected.

Despite this, the conflict isn't resolved just through combat, but through a scene where a character gets sucked into the Hive Mind Dimension and has a conversation with the entity controlling it. The entity genuinely believes that what it is doing is for the betterment of humanity, and has to be convinced that human weaknesses and differences are something to be embraced rather than eliminated.

Also idk the parallels between the "we'll finish this together" moment and the "we've got this" moment.

From a thematic perspective, a lot of the really interesting stuff set up early on about societal inequality, corrupt but well-meant leadership, and growing tensions between the upper and lower cities gets kiiinda overshadowed in the end by the whole "we all need to band together to deal with this goddamn hivemind" thing, and (in my opinion) doesn't get an especially satisfying conclusion in either case.

Smaller stuff

Amputees with magi-tech prosthetics

Magic Twink that dies and gets revived multiple times (at least once by his partner) and ends up with cool white hair.

"What If We Had A Gay Love Confession In Your Post-Death Mind Palace"

Kooky old mad scientist side character who actually ends up being pretty plot relevant and having some surprisingly solid emotional beats.

Moral debate over whether or not it's worth it to shut down the Very Sketchy Dangerous Machine that also supports a huge chunk of this world's economy and infrastructure.

Various orbs

Evil (?) magic flower

Post-canon lesbian domestic bliss!!!

"It's fun when a Lawful Good character edges over the line into full-blown fascism"

Zolf is Vi but I can't explain that one. It just is

Rqg still wins because Arcane doesn't have Mr Ceiling or Bertie MacGuffingham. And frankly I'm disappointed by the lack of blokes

[blackoutsys]

could someone better explain some differences between OSDD and DID to me? i fear my taking things too literally issue might be fucking up my understanding of something

so, regarding memory issues.

is one of the differences of OSDD1b being an utter lack of amnesia, [i know 1b isn't an accurate term to the current DSM criteria but i think it'll give my post better understanding to use it] or is there an amount of amnesia that one can still have before you meet the criteria for DID?

while i'm aware we have pretty bad amnesia of our past, i'm not sure if we experience enough amnesia in our day-to-day life for DID? since we also have other disorders that cause memory issues at the same time.

generally we kiiinda have details of like. i know it happened, but i don't feel like it happened to me, i'm seeing it in like, a display case, i don't feel emotional attachment to a memory, and generally with both of the other two i don't really remember many details outside of the knowledge it Did happen.

as for day-to-day, sometimes we just kinda forget the entire middle of our day? like we remember waking up, usually grabbing breakfast, and then it's kinda just blank until we hit a specific hour of the night

our self'dx while we wait to make enough progress with our therapist to feel comfortable talking in more detail about the rest of our stuff has been OSDD, but i'm wondering if we have too many memory issues for that.

[kingpotato-kartofanschik]

Guess I never posted these here before. So, here we go-

Once I got an idea about mini-versions of these three, but as small flowers. I am not good at the flower language, so I took more obvious flowers for Phoenix ЪsunflowerЪ and Miles ЪchrysantemumЪ. For Larry I decided to take a dandelion. While flowers themselves are beautiful and kiiinda assosiated with happiness, dandelions are weeds, so since Larry can be annoying Ъfor some a lotЪ yet entertaining, I thought it fits him well.

Now for how they work - usually, they just sit in their pots as plants. However, they can get out as mini-copy of an actual person. They can't really talk - the most is sounds. Or screaming, in very specific cases Ъmore like Larry's one-Ъ.

Where did they come from and why only this trio? ... Larry. Just. Just Larry. Larry is Bikini's son and has little ammount of powers. No I will not listen to anyone.

Oh! The main reason why they would even get out of their pots: if their original counterpart is really emotionally or physically Ъcan be bothЪ hurt, then they will get out of the pot. Or if they sence something delicious, or really want something to drink. It is also possible to force them out.

Edgeworth has a Phoenix one. Wright has both Larry and Miles.

And yes, the last bunch of sketches are new. Yay-

[double--hh]

For some reason i think that Orcus would adopt a kid who also refuses to die Lizzie nightmare version

He is like: you don't wanna die? Me too!

Then Yan luo find this surprise adoption and is like "a child before marriage, well..okay then!"

OURGH

I feel like that Yan Luo (Like Mia) REALLY really wants a family. But, for YL's case, the queen of death kiiinda can't bring life into the world of the dead... methinks it's one of her biggest goals in her immortality besides sticking it to her dad. Orcus just wants his wifey to be happy :(

Yan Luo would be an amazing momma :(((

[queenofsquids]

Was so looking forward to Froggy's review of Dream Besties. The video was out today but she just didn't seem very enthused about them at all.

I suspect she really likes the small head and smaller eyes aesthetic too much right now to get into the Besties.

I'm at the other end of the pendulum swing, big heads all over the place 😅

I actually cleared out a whole shelf of the Ikea Detolfs for them, because they didn't fit in with any of my other clusters of dolls 😅 Eventually I put Catty Noir in with them.

I don't have the blonde Barbie one yet but I might. I just might. For the purse alone, practically...

ALSO I was looking on Amazon Japan and saw a Licca (on a bigger body? 17?) that has a clear purse now too. Kiiinda want ALL these doll purses that look like tinier doll boxes/cases.

[ouroborosorder]

OK but when you're free of all the other obligations and able to do it can we get the Ines skin writeup anyway because I liked the Eine Variation one and why do they keep giving Caprinae ops skin like this do they just hate goats at hypergryph or what

Okay so I got this ask a month and a half ago and am just now getting to responding to it. In that time, I got a job as a professional VFX artist so my opinion means double what it did before. So that's fun! Respect me and bow to me, peasants.

I wrote a massively long writeup here and then my page refreshed and I lost all of it twice. Let's speedrun this shit, alright? (She says, immediately writing a 5 page unhinged rant.)

This skin sucks because of the exact opposite reason Eine Variation does, it's just too fucking detailed for its own good.

...Also what the fuck is that in the background is that a goddamned alien spaceship has anyone else noticed this?? This is a bloodline of combat skin this is canon does ines just fight aliens at some point what the FUCK?

Anwyay VFX in the readmore.

Deploy animation. I hate you. I hate this. I hate it.

It's rare I get to see an entire skin's mistakes in microcosm like this! That's fun!

This is so detailed that it actually ceases to have any real shape or identity. This doesn't look like shadow, because skins can just. Change character lore to make something look cool yes I'm still mad. Is it stars? That would explain the weird yellow dots, and there are stars in the art. Fire? No, it's not actually fire, there'd be fire here. Burning fabric? It only looks like that if I squint and zoom in, but I can't... think of anything else.

The colors are so awful. The way that there is a hard line between the dark lavender and the scarlet which then fades into orange is. A choice. I would not have made. At all. In any way. Ever. At any point. Also the random dots of yellow are very funny because they are so clearly just random pixels of yellow. Some of them even aren't in the orange, so they're just like, highlights that have decided to break out of the highlighted areas. Did they.. want this to look like her burning dress? In which case, why are they.. blue? Her dress is black with orange embers, I don't GET IT.

Also small thing but it has a drop shadow, but like. She's literally in all black until she fully appears. And the swirling ribbons are dark-colored. There's no worry about them not standing out against a light background. Is that just supposed to look like she's surrounded by shadow if that's the case then why isn't the rest of this shadow AGH.

This looks weirdly... JPEG compressed??? Like, you can kiiinda see it in the big version, but if I shrink this down to phone resolution...

GOOD LORD SHE'S BEEN DEEP-FRIED.

S1 is good. I like it. It's simple, elegant. Good use of colors, and I think the impact looks great, good use of red and orange to create visual interest. Not gonna bother to screenshot it, it's not that interesting NEXT

S2!

Stop it. Stop it. Put a few colors away. I am counting 8 distinct colors in this one swing alone, and then two more for Ines herself. Stop it. That is too many colors. Add less colors.

I don't even see what the colors are there FOR. Are they selling the tip of the swing? That's not right, because the red highlights start at the tip, then swirl inwards until the red is in the inner part.

I do actually think this one is a lot better at actual resolution.

It's still too detailed, and that detail ends up being crunched and not really... serving any purpose in the grand scheme of the effect, but I do think it is... better. It makes it more clearly light on the outside, dark on the inside.

Also I hate the ends of this swing. I hate it. Why is one a perfect circle that's been stretched out and the other end a rectangle that's fading out. Why is that how you did this. This effect looks like two different swings that have been stapled together like goddamned Catdog.

BUT WHEN IT FADES IT HAS AN INKBRUSH LOOK SO WHAT IS THIS EFFECT.

Why not lean into the burning dress look? Have it be a black trail that like, burns away when it fades? That would be STUNNING, anything but. Whatever is happening here. Mrgrgr okay fine it can't get worse right

DEAR READER. I PRESENT. S3. THE CULMINATION OF EVERY SINGLE PROBLEM.

So this IS a stars theme after all. This IS stars? Just wanna make sure we're all on the same fucking page here.

Dear reader. I hate this. So fucking much. This may be, and I do truly mean this, the worst piece of VFX I have ever seen in any game. This doesn't read as a piece of VFX in an anime game, it reads like the background of a YA fantasy novel's cover.

The nebula doesn't move. It's static. It is clearly just a jpeg. It's not even doing the Chowder screen-space orientation thing. It's just. There. Inescapable.

The comet itself just. Ends. It doesn't fade out or taper. It just. Stops. There's barely any anti-aliasing here. It's just a hard line between the comet and the background.

Ines herself is surrounded by identical dark lavender and orange energy, so there's no visible difference between the effect and herself. Sure. It's not going to be onscreen long anyway. Who cares.

The center of the comet is bright white as if it's the highlight of the effect, but it's... it's off-center?? so it's ultimately... Highlighting something. is it highlighting the sword? Is it supposed to be a haze that shows you the sword? But it doesn't look like it because it took me 15 minutes while writing this to realize that the sword was there at all because it's the same orange color as all the other highlights and so it gets eaten. If your highlight color stops drawing my eye, then you've fucked up because that is literally what a highlight color is supposed to do. Where am I supposed to look at this thing, where is the focus, the shape?

It's even funnier that the blade leaves a little cartoony goofy team rocket blink when it leaves, before immediately turning into whatever public domain NASA star image they're using for the comet. A real glimpse into what it would look like if Spiderverse sucked ass. (I do like the blink itself tho, a small little blue haze to add color and contrast against light backgrounds, smart touch.)

Explosion sucks. Suddenly they decide the palette is something entirely different. Where did the yellow come from. Yellow isn't even on the art. I guess when your palette is that big, you can change them up how you want. I would actually like this effect if it was slightly less detailed and in a skin that had actually used this pallette. It reminds me a bit of Specter the Laurentina. But with this level of detail and these colors... This somehow looks more like a YA book cover. A Sword of Goats and Stars. Fuck me I hate it.

I almost like this buff uptime indicator, It's just that the red from the swords fades into the orange on her dress and makes the whole thing muddy. Also she has an actual roiling flame behind her LMAO GET DUNKED ON HOEDERER THAT'S RIGHT I WILL DUNK ON HIM EVERY TIME EVEN THIS PIECE OF TRASH HAS ONE UP ON THE HOE LMAOOOOO

(In fact I actually... think this might be a recurring texture? It looks familiar, but I can't pin down from where. This is a bad screenshot for showing it but I'm not bothering to get a new one. This is my mental breakdown and I get to choose the visual aids.)

Anyway, maybe I'm being mean. After all I'm criticizing an effect for being too detailed when I am actively zooming in and looking at the details. So let's shrink down to the resolution of my phone just to see how it would-

Ah.

Final Ouroboros VFX ranking: A jpeg compressed photo of a wizard airbrushed on a van / 18 Originium Prime. Actually wait no that sounds too cool. Uh. The wizard is also racefaking. Now it's no longer cool. Nailed it.

[adachimoe]

About Adachi's school life

Adachi briefly talked about his high school life back in the PS2 game. When he threw Saki into the TV, he mentioned how when he was in school, he couldn't do anything but study, study, study.

In his Golden Social Link, Adachi talks a bit more about his life as a student.

Compulsory education there stops at junior high school (kiiinda equivalent to American middle school). So when Adachi talks about going to high school, he's talking about senior high school (kinda equivalent to American high school), indicated by how he specificies "高校" here. Since it's optional, his parents also paid some amount of tuition for him to go. Most kids do go to senior high school, hence why everyone in anime seems to be there, etc.

I assume that his parents sent him to senior high school to try and help him secure a job in the aftermath of Japan's economic clusterfuck of the late 80s (the Lost Decades). Adachi was born in 1984, so he was around Nanako's age when the bubble economy popped.

On his rank 3 Social Link, Adachi tells you that when he was in high school, all he did was study cause he went to a college prep school where grades were everything. I dunno if everyone understood it was a college prep school from "pretty good school" or not, but that's what it's referring to. While it's quite normal for kids to go to senior high school even though it's optional, not everyone goes to a college prep school. (Also, it wouldn't surprise me if Adachi went to a cram school too.)

He continues that it's not like he hated having to study. He found the concept quite easy to understand: If he did something (study), then he got something back (grades).

I think this might have affected how he thinks about effort as an adult, but that's like a 10 page unhinged rambling for another time.

Afterwards, he tells you that, so long as his grades were good, his parents didn't say anything to him about it. They can't get on his case about his grades if he's already studying his ass off and getting top marks. And I think this implies the opposite: if his grades were bad, then they did bug him.

The English version is a bit different and it makes this line feel contradictory with the Saki scene. "I could only study" and "I could do whatever as long as my grades were good" express different levels of freedom as a high schooler. But really, this stuff just happens when the PS2 game and Golden got localized some [x] many years apart. I barely remember what I wrote 1 year ago, much less 4 years ago.

Finally, he says that this only works out when you're in school. Which makes sense. The loop of "put in time studying" and "get rewarded with grades" is only something that happens in school. The adult world and working at a job is different.

Overall, I think you can get an impression of what Adachi's academic school life was like. He went to a prep school for senior high school with the objective being get good grades and get into college. And if his grades weren't good, then he'd be disappointing his parents who were probably paying like $3k - $5k per year for him to go to optional levels of school at a prep school, and I'm sure they gave him an earful about it if he wasn't doing well. So he studied, but the only thing he had to show for studying were his grades.

[ryuichirou]

Do you have any head canons of what piercings the characters would have? I just got my septum done and my friends say I look like Ruggie if he got his septum done 😭

Anon! You probably look so cool with your septum… and probably just look like Ruggie in general! In any case, thank you for putting the image Ruggie with septum in my head lol

Normally I would write a list of all the characters and talk about everyone, but this theme is quite specific, so I’ll skip a lot of people. Sorry!

Deuce 100% used to have his tongue pierced + still has a lot of holes in his ears that haven’t healed completely yet. The majority of those are gone now. He almost pierced something on his body, but changed his mind.

Ace doesn’t have any piercings, but he kiiinda wants to get a cartilage piercing. He’s considering it. Either this or a tattoo.

Cater has his ears pierced, we know that. He also possibly wants to do something edgier, like to pierce his tongue or maybe nose or a brow, but he can’t – he knows his sisters are going to criticise him for that.

Leona could have something pierced? I can’t think of one place that would suit him the most, whatever I’m imagining, it’s always “yeah makes sense”.

Ruggie strikes me as an ear piercings person. Maybe it’s because his ears are so big and it’d look really good on there. But he wouldn’t pay for it out of his own pocket lol

Floyd has no piercings (aside from his and Jade's earrings) but has a hole in his other ear and his tongue because he just felt like it once, but then quickly got bored of it + Azul yelled at him for getting a piercing without consulting with him first. It makes Floyd even more intimidating!

We also know that Jade was supposed to be kind of a punk-like character initially? But with the way he is now, I don’t think he would have any piercings, because he enjoys playing the role of a “clean-and-proper secretary”. But if he was to have a piercing, it’d probably be in his tongue.

Kalim and Jamil both have their ears pierced, but Jamil doesn’t wear earrings. And even though I can’t justify this, Jamil is inevitably going to get his nipples pierced at some point lol but it wouldn’t be out of his own volition.

Vil’s ears are pierced; Epel has nothing but he is someone who could be coerced into piercing something that he’s going to regret lol just to prove a point.

Lilia is a cursed bat from Hell lol He had a very brief phase when he had his entire face pierced, but it scared the shit out of Silver and Sebek, so he took it all off. He thinks it’s a shame because he really enjoyed looking intimidating with piercings oh his top and bottom lip, nose, ears, brows, cheeks…

Malleus could have his ears pierced, and he also strikes me as someone who theoretically could pierce something on his body as a memento or a symbol of his love for someone.

Bonus: Che’nya is probably the most pierced person out of the entire cast. It’s surprisingly easy to picture him with all kinds of… things… everywhere….

[shoku-and-awe]

Dinner being too grim an idea to contemplate, it started to feel like time to try my hand at one of my favorite Western(?) dishes that I've never eaten outside Japan: anchovy cabbage! And it was SO good. Why was it so good?

The recipe I referenced said 1/4 head of cabbage and 3 anchovy fillets, plus 1 bulb of garlic, 1 tbsp of sake, and a pinch of spicy. But I measured with my heart (and also forgot the sake and added the juice of half a small lemon). The key, I think, is to get the olive oil really hot and let the cabbage get all sweet and charred, then add the other stuff. Also I overdid it on the olive oil (had to; I used the bad pan), but a heavy hand might actually have helped...

Again, WHY is this so good? I don't even need anything else. I do kiiinda wish I had a baguette, but that's basically always the case. I honestly think I might be happy with just a plate of cabbage for dinner. Yum.

[leonawriter]

Honestly? Yes. Yes I think he would. That does look a lot like him. Just look back at his (honest) reactions to Ran hitting things for "stress relief" and to threaten him!

But the thing is... as much as she wants him to be Shinichi, at this point in the story I kiiinda feel she wants it for the wrong reasons? She wants Conan to be Shinichi so she has a good reason to be angry with him. She wants to be able to go "you were right there all along, you were lying to me, I din't know what your deal is but this is unforgivable."

So I think that a part of her also doesn't want this to be true. She wants him to be Shinichi, but she also wants to not think of him in that way, and she has this image of him in her head - the ideal of the cool detective who's off travelling for a big case, and he'll come back any day now and everything will go back to normal.

It's enough to make me think that... really, what she needs is to come to terms with the idea that "if Conan is Shinichi, then that means that Shinichi must be in a dangerous situation to not have told me in all this time" rather than either wanting him to be Shinichi because she's angry, or being satisfied with waiting. If she came to that conclusion, then she'd be able to help him discretely, but also understand his perspective rather than assume the worst.

[dajaregambler]

HeliosR - Fight out vivid colors! - Chapter 3

Translation of chapter 3 of the event ‘Fight out vivid colors!’ from ‘Helios Rising Heroes’.

Faith: Dino, we’re done with strength training.

Dino: Huh, ah, you two are impressive!

Dino: You guys were able to do it easily even with raising the amount of burden. The results of training daily♪

Junior: …..Dino, are you worried about something?

Dino: Eh? Totally don’t have anything to be upset about♪

Faith: No need to pretend. It’s easy to guess what’s on your mind. 

Dino: Uugh…..

Faith: It’s about Keith, no? Don’t shoulder it on your own and tell us about it.

Faith: Both I and Ochibi-chan understand the circumstances, so maybe you can clear out your mind a little

Dino: ……Right. Thanks.

Dino: Lately, Keith has been doing his best at work, right?

Faith: Well, more than before yes.

Dino: I really think that’s admirable, I even think of how I want to help him. But….

Dino: What he did yesterday, I just can’t let that slide after all…..!

Faith: You mean, the whole case about the street fair right?

Dino: Yeah…… I know that he’s busy, however if everyone came together to lend a hand we should’ve been able to join

Junior: In the first place Keith’s only said how he’s got more work on this plate than before, it’s not like he’s overworking himself 

Dino: Yeah. And also… I’m somewhat extremely, extremeeeeeeely……

Dino: Annoyed!!!

Junior: He’s acting like a spoiled kid. Up until now he wasn’t trying, and once he does a lil’ bit he’s whining how he’s sooo busy… 

Junior: What the hell does he think it’s like for us, who are always being pushed around by him!

Faith: …….Then how about we give him a taste of his own medicine for once?

Dino & Junior: Eh……?

Faith: Aha. Something interesting had popped up in my mind♪

-

Keith: I’m baaack~.... Aaah~ so tired. Meetings first thing in the morning seriously sucks……

Faith: Welcome back, Keith… Fwaah…

Junior: Aah~ Tired…..

Keith: ? Whatcha lazing around for like that

Faith: Kiiinda am outta energy y’see

Junior: Ain’t in the mood for anything anymore today……

Keith: Geez, while I’m swamped with work…..

Keith: Actually, what happened to training?

Faith: Dino got in the mood for pizza so we stopped

Keith: Haaah? What the hell…. Where is he?

Junior: Making pizza in the kitchen

Keith: Hey, Dino. Just what are ya…..

Dino: Puhaaah. This drink goes well with pizza

Keith: You’re- that’s- ain’t that my bottle of alcohol! The hell are ya doing!?

Dino: Ah, what are you doing, Keith! Give it back! You said I could have a drink whenever I’d like to from the alcohol that’s left here!

Keith: Aah~ did I say that……?

Dino: I also get in the mood for drinks sometimes. So leave me be!

Keith: Nah, as if I can do that! You skipping work and drinking in broad daylight is weird as hell!

Dino: I-it’s absolutely not weird at all! I do what I wanna do…….!

Dino: If there’s alcohol I’ll drink it, and I’ll skip out on work… and sloppily… teach….

Keith: Huh?

Dino: Ngh, anyway, I want to laze around and do nothing too!

Keith: And I’m telling ya to stop!

Dino: I decided on becoming an awful mentor. Don’t get in my way!

Faith: I mean, didn’t you drink whenever you wanted to, Keith? So why can’t Dino?

Keith: It just ain’t like him no matter how ya look at that. You cut it out too---

Keith: Wait, in your hands- are those my cigarettes!?

Faith: Yup. Thought to give them a shot. No problem, right?

Keith: As if!

Faith: Ochibi-chan, want to try smoking too?

Junior: Yeah

Keith: Waiwaiwait, don’t you out of all people even dare!

[ktempestbradford]

it is NOT normal for Jedi to become force ghosts when they die.

True!

that's like a brand new skill Yoda just unlocked.

Kinda true, though Yoda didn't unlock it!

I'm mad that I know this, and I only know it because I read the novelizations of two prequel movies, which ARE canon. And, in at least two cases, were far better than the films.

As I type this I'm now wondering if OP meant that Yoda unlocked a skill that was new to Jedi or that Yoda was the one who invented the skill. Apologies if you meant the former!

Anyway, Qui-Gon Jinn is the Jedi who discovered/invented the Force Ghost skill. In the movies you kiiinda get a hint of it. When Anakin loses his shit after his mom dies and kills everyone, there is a faint voice crying out: No, Anakin, noooooo! Then the scene cuts to Yoda, in meditation, opening his eyes like "I sense a disturbance". When I first saw the movie I thought Yoda had gotten an inkling of what Anakin had just done. But no.

What Yoda was reacting to was hearing Qui-Gon's voice. In the novelization, this is explicit. Yoda is all: I thought I heard Master Qui-Gon, but that's impossible. Once a person dies their energy is reabsorbed into the Force as a whole and the individual is gone.

Or something like that.

But hearing Qui-Gon's voice makes Yoda real curious, so he meditates more on it, investigating.

Now, I didn't read the whole of the second movie's book cuz the vast difference in quality of story between the two made me real mad. I also only read about 3 chapters of the third movie's book, which was on bookstore shelves a week or so before the movie came out (oops), and stopped because it got me excited for said movie. When the movie ruined everything good about those 3 chapters in 10 minutes, I never bothered to go back.

I told you that story to tell you this: I'm not sure how much page space was dedicated to Yoda figuring out what was going on with Qui-Gon and finally getting in contact with his ghost self and Qui-Gon explaining how and why he retained his whole personality instead of faffing off into the Force. I remember how, at the end of the third movie, when Yoda casually mentions to Obi-Wan that he's been in contact with Qui-Gon and they're exploring a cool new thing, I was like: YEAH, Y'ALL REALLY SET US UP FOR HOW FORCE GHOSTS ARE SPECIAL AND NEW, DIDN'T YA? EXCEPT YOU DIDN'T.

To me, it was a seriously wasted opportunity to expand on that as it was an interesting bit of worldbuilding. Jedis aren't supposed to be hanging out with the living. That's the opposite of "don't get attached". It is, in fact, the ultimate form of getting attached and not letting go. Again, I didn't read all of the books so I don't know, but it seemed to me that Qui-Gon held onto his personality/individuality with such great force (y'all know that pun was intended) that The Force was finally like: Fine, I didn't want you as part of my matrix, anyway. He was so concerned about and centered on Anakin that he broke the rules of his physical/material life as well as his spiritual one.

What's crazy to me is that, while this is presented as an aberration, it is not presented as A Problem. From a storytelling point of view, I see that as A Problem.

Sure, Lucas broke a LOT of his own worldbuilding with the prequels. See "everyone just kind of forgot who the Jedi were within the span of a generation" above. That shit LITERALLY makes no sense. Hell, it wasn't even a generation, it was half of one. People who were adults when the Republic fell weren't even that elderly when the first movie started. They had JUST finally dismantled the Senate. But everyone forgot the wizards with the laser swords who used to be everywhere? FOH

Becoming a Force Ghost is supposed to take work. Yoda and Qui-Gon figured it out after some years, and since Yoda said he'd teach Obi-Wan, I assume he was doing that meditative work all those years he was on Tatooine. Yet fukkin Anakin just.... did it. Showed up lookin' all like he hadn't been wearing a helmet that gave him terrible skin for 20 years. How does Anakin even know what he looks like in order to project himself like that in ghost form?

I don't agree with Lucas' choice to replace the original actor with Hayden at the end of ROTJ. Still, it as least makes a little bit of sense. Not enough, though.

Honestly, it would have been better for the Force Ghost thing to stay normal. If they needed an excuse for why Qui-Gon didn't come back as one, there could have been a conversation between Yoda and Obi-Wan where the younger Jedi remarks that he keeps expecting to see his old Master again given all that was left unfinished when he was killed. Then Yoda might say that the path to retaining your individuality when your energy returns to the Force is a difficult one, and most Jedi don't choose it and instead trust that their essence being part of the Force will be enough to provide guidance to those they left behind.

That as the double effect of showing that Yoda and Obi-Wan not only chose a difficult path, but they did so because the situation was dire. The Jedi Order? Gone. Sith have taken over everywhere. The only two Force sensitive children they can find/know about are the only hope for dismantling an empire AND restoring the Jedi? Better get to meditating!

Thanks for coming to my TEDTalk.

some of my fav 'inconsistencies' between the prequel trilogy & the OT and by fav i mean i genuinely think these were good calls:

it is NOT normal for Jedi to become force ghosts when they die. that's like a brand new skill Yoda just unlocked. if Luke tried to tell ppl about Obi-wan's force ghost literally no-one, even ppl who were familiar w the Jedi when they were around, would know wtf he was talking about

R2-D2 knew everything that went down during the prequels and just opted not to tell anyone ever which is fully in-character for him

becoming a Jedi was a whole process involving 15+ years of training and formal trials to determine if you were ready for knighthood and then with Luke Yoda was just like 'yeah fuck it you're a jedi knight now. burn the jedi temple did. made up all the rules are. gives a shit who does.'

everyone just kind of forgot who the Jedi were within the span of a generation. love that.

[sibswin]

Erm this isn’t a “rape threat” but idk if this is a bad case of hyper-sexuality or you being touched to the point you think incest and rape kinks are desirable(?), but out of all the kinks why these two? I will never judge anyone, this is a genuine question 🤷🏾‍♀️

OH ok I can answer this actually ok SOOOO (also should I change my askbox name to something else? I just like encouraging em but I don’t mean I only will accept those lol)

There are a few reasons. It’s mostly to do with repression, social anxiety, the need to match my freak, and a way to express my sexuality without feeling guilty.

(the below involves some personal backstory. Not anything super crazy, pretty tame by this websites standards, but like, if u don’t wanna hear about someone’s issues when they were younger, now is your sign to leave.)

so basically, first, I’m going to explain all my Lore, and then explain how my kinks connect to that.

so bare with me, this is going to be a long ride

I had an incident years ago when I was a lot younger - I wasn’t raped or anything like that, I just made a few mistakes that led to some consequences and made me go “NVM this is a bad idea I’m out” in regards to expressing my sexuality.

Problem is, at least on meds, I’m very hypersexual. Even now, it’s kiiinda annoying. It just, takes me over.

Soooo yknow I was constantly trying to push it down, get rid of it, find methods to stop.

Annnnnd this led to me basically developing a dichotomy of acting like a bit of a prude, but having a secret shameful crazy sex side that I had no escape for.

Additionally, it severely stunted my learning of how to express my sexuality - like, socially. Everyone around me was growing, making sex jokes, talking about this and that in public, laughingly using kinda flirty language, etc. and…I barred myself from a lot of that.

The entire culture of that, I rejected. Couldn’t do this, bad idea. Adding to this, up until recently, I had lots of social anxiety. Even was a bit of a hermit.

Was nervous, didn’t know how to talk to people. I was…so lonely. I didn’t have many friends. Much less people I’d fool around with.

friend groups irl? Hardly. even when I had them, I was always on the outer part of it, yknow.

There were other factors too thst aren’t really relevant to how they developed as kinks, but, that’s the gist of it

Now….putting it like that.

incest, sibcest, specifically, is really about having someone close to you, someone there all your life, who you know, have just as much sex drive as you. Or more. They’re always there. They’re always going to be there.

And they’re often, growing up with you. Learning with you. or, alternatively, they could be older than you…always there, an older sister who is more experienced, wanting to show you the way, guide her slightly younger bro through sexuality.

Furthermore, I am an only child. I don’t have any experience with real siblings, what they’re like.

So, I either usually fantasize this about someone similar to me, or someone who would guide me.

And look at where I was at; Socially anxious, unable to connect with my main peers about sexuality, while still having this secret side…thst felt shameful.

Who else would be better than someone else who could share this with me, who also had this secret side but we’re learning and exploring together? And it felt so shameful anyways, but we could be thst together. Someone just me, who will always be there.

or, a guiding force, someone who would assuage all my doubts. Guide me through the process, taking the lead, making all my insecurities go away, while also understanding me or well….taking it by force. Which brings us to my rape kink.

Feeling shameful, feeling repressed, like I wasn’t able to get it out, but it was there and I couldn’t stop it bjt I hated it….and being socially anxious, being unable to express myself, feeling wrong for doing so,

Who would be better for that, than someone who forces themselves on me?

I wouldn’t have any shame, nor any worries of being bad or wrong, no social anxiety to worth about, they’d forve open my sexual side whether I liked it or not, etc.

They’d be the one taking the lead.

theyd show me through this, even if it was forceful, and if it was forceful, I couldn’t feel bad about it either, or worry about my end.

That doesn’t entirely capture it tbh, I’m having trouble putting it all into words, even though the vibe is crystal clear in my head, but oh well.

the idea of someone being there and just taking me, in all those years, was and is attractive to me. even if I’m doing better in life now, some of that still remains. Esp due to being neurodivergent. Someone telling me what they want, being so clear thst they’re doing it without me getting to stop them, is so…nice. In that context.

but there’s at least one more big piece.

THIS LAST PIECE IS REALLY REALLY LONG THOUGH AND LARGELY ME VENTING BEFORE I EXPLAINu HOW IT CONNECTS AS A KINK. BJT ITS LARGELY VENTING TBH LOL

……rape kink is a good way to feel good about expressing my sexuality, but not guilty about doing so because I am a guy.

. I am very socially conscious. In fact, maybe too much so.

And, I don’t know how to express this without being rude or insensitive so I’m going to not even try

Hearing constantly all your life about how men are pigs, how male attention is unwanted, creepy, how flirting can quickly become harassment, how…just, all my life. Hell about how disgusting guys are in general, how they can be horrible just to get a pic or to get whatever. I feel bad to be a guy.

And like. Even when I’m saying that.

Those statements aren’t exactly wrong

in fact, I have seen it first hand, through some of my female friends.

I have seen some of the most disgusting, vile, guys I’ve ever seen, because one of my friends complaining about them. To the point my jaw regularly fucking drops.

I’ve gone on angry rants before, even, after seeing how some of my friends are treated.

So. Im also faced with the fact that those things aren’t exactly wrong.

And well…..

I also am a people pleaser. A giant, people pleaser. Who, a while ago would rather do the most tedious routines, thst only really hurt me, than ever make someone uncomfortable.

And…honestly I can’t even say whether that’s just being a good person sometimes it’s. lets say I walk on eggshells.

I have OCD.

and I walk on eggshells sometimes. And I used to even more.

And yknow what? It’s okay to walk on them sometimes. Hell most of what i did, and do, is just being nice and considerate.

But the way I dedicated myself to it….day in and day out, always, always, wearing myself down over months and months and years eroding me little by little every little bit

I…I can’t communicate it, really, without going into exaclty how I act, and I don’t really think I’m explaining how I acted and it’s sounding like I’m jus being nice when it was more than that maybe but…

Point is. Eggshells. People pleaser. Constantly.

and then…even IRL, a common thread I’ve had for lots of my life is different friends throughout time independently telling me something like

“You’re really nice for a guy.”

I’m not a nice person. I’m a nice guy. And not in the Reddit way, but in specifically….with the quality of being a guy. Like!

Even when I was being complimented, it was with the fact that it was not expected nor really a quality my gender, part of my identity, is seen as having. And that’s not to blame any of the people who told me this. Genuinely, thisisnt their fault, but…

It gets to you, yknow?

and combine thst with the fact that I’m walking on eggshells. Combine that with the fact that only when I go so out of my way to be nice and extra considerate thst it mentally wears me down and erodes me, that, only then am I nice for a guy. I’m only thst when I’m walking on eggshells.

…..so,

how does this connect to my rape kink?

Wellllllll

I feel bad because of my gender, am constantly worried about overstepping, always facing the idea thst I shouldnt make advances or I might end up being awful, feel like I have to walk on eggshells, hear stories again and again and again about guys being awful and creepy, and

Feel unwanted specifically in terms of my gender.

Like, guys, aren’t….attractive. Or wanted.

. So

A common fantasy of mine is a woman making advances on me, forcing me, I can’t overstep because I’m literally being raped, no eggshells cuz I am literally being raped, it doesn’t feel wrong or bad, and they’re making the advances, they’re being evil to ME, I’m okay, and they want me, they rape guys. They want guys so badly that they take them. THEY WANT GUYS SO BADLY THAT THEY TAKE THEM.

and…I can’t overstep cuz I’m literally being raped. No matter how I act, no matter whether I hold back or not, I’m the victim.

I’m allowed to not hold back on myslef

because I’m the victim.

Even now, I like propositioning myself as a “boytoy”. Something for others to get use out of.

Cuz I can’t be wrong if I can be THEIR free use stress toy! Like!!!

I get pleasure, but i don’t feel bad about it cuz they’re the ones using me for their own gain!!!

like! I wanna be a free use boytoy cuz then I can be a sexual person without being the one who, idk, is in control.

You can do whatever you want with me. It’s your choice. Therefore, i can let myself be out there, without being creepy.

am I explaining this well? I hope I’m explaining this well cuz this still affects how I like, do stuff with people, and is still one of my core things.

If I’m for your pleasure, then there’s not a problem with me.

And that’s how I still do stuff with people.

So…..yeah.

that’s why I have a rape kink. And incest kink

[ahogechef]

👪 !!!!! gimme da deets......... just in case chihiro or ayumi happen to meet her parents >:3c

{ Talking About The Family!!! }

"Mom is the sweetest woman I know! Her and dad were like my main teachers in teaching me how to cook. She also taught me a lot of recipes from her homeland, France! And how to grow vegetables and fruits, too!! It's why we always have the freshest ingredients to use for our restaurants dishes, hehehe."

"When Dad is away from the restaurant to take care of errands, she's basically the boss. Everyone there loves her, because she's always so kind and takes care of the staff and customers. And whenever I'm really stressed or anxious, she can always tell, even if I think I'm doing really good in not showing it. She always knows just what to say to help calm me down and cheer me up...she seriously is the best. I love my mom so much!"

"Dad is my other hero, too! Hehehe, everyone says I'm basically like a 'mini him' because we're both the stubborn hot-heads who won't let anyone hold us down! He's the big boss of Akamatsu Sushi! He can be strict and not afraid to give you a good scolding if he thinks you're slacking off, but honestly, the tough love helps a lot, sometimes: it's why I always want to make him proud!! He's the one who practically taught me to always put passion into any dish you make, so that you can make the customers or anyone who eats it, happy, and be able to feel that passion and love you put into it, too. But deep down, Dad is really kind with a big heart! Everyone loves him, too. He won't ever allow you to doubt yourself or give up, and whenever we're getting stressed out at the restaurant, he tells us to just calm down and remember that we got this. It's why I want to be just like him if I ever own my own restaurant in the future: a dependable boss that my staff can count on!"

"...Ah, and sorry to advance to anyone I'm dating about him. He's kiiinda one of those dads that's pretty protective of me, and wants to make sure he can 'trust' who is dating his precious little daughter. He's so embarrassing, sometimes, that old man, but I swear once he approves of you, he'll like ya. Hahaha..."