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dearly beloved, I will be retiring early tonight due to insane jetlag and Ketamine Obligations. But you’re getting that chapter tomorrow 😎 and while my upcoming move will proooooobably cause me to go a little batshit insane for a while, I will do my utmost to maintain the twice-weekly publishing schedule from this moment onward.
#fic updates#need to go night night so bad but first I have to do my stupid biweekly ego-dissolving spiritual quest#it’s super casual. definitely not in violation of my apartment’s code of conduct at all#personal#ketamine mention
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found at goodwill! felt pen handwriting reads "ketamine University," "ketamine," and "help I've fallen and I can't get up" on the front and "i love you," on the back.
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genuinely so many of you want to be leftist and "punk" and countercultural soooooo bad but you refuse to become comfortable with the concept of people taking drugs for fun because they like it and not because they were somehow tricked or forced into it without knowing what they were getting themselves into
you'll be like "addiction is a disease!!" but think you're better than those degenerate stoners because you only drink energy drinks and white claws and would never touch "illegal drugs"
many if not most drugs CAN be consumed completely safely with almost 0 risk to the user and even if that werent true and all drugs were extremely dangerous you still wouldn't be better than those of us who love doing drugs recreationally
lighten up and grow up. get offline, talk to real adults, and stop being shocked to discover that they enjoy doing stuff that adults do like have sex and do drugs and even listen to rock and roll
#put punk in parantheses bc yall are hardcore straight edge at best lmao#goes to a punk show in someones basement and gasps when i see people snorting coke off each other in the corner#anyway heres your regular reminder from your friendly neighborhood drug addict that drugs can be and often are consumed safely#LSD‚ MDMA‚ psilocybin‚ cannabis of course‚ ketamine‚ coke‚ whippets. these are all drugs that i personally have used#and that are completely safe when used correctly and by someone who doesn't have some sort of allergy#even if someone is on a dangerous drug like meth or heroin you are not better than them#in fact theyre probably a lot chiller than your ass if youre still viewing drugs as a thing for 'degenerates' to do#literally can not hang out with non druggies anymore bc they cannot stop themselves from moralizing it#i mention that my vape has thc in it and i get That Look and a bunch of 'i would never smoke weed. i mean its fine. i just would NEVER'#i get it! you view drugs as a thing thats only for poor people or people who dont care about themselves or whatever#i call that the go ask alice effect. people will think you smoked weed then immediately had sex got pregnant and died of a heroin overdose#even when they think theyre being super progressive
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i can't believe my wife is a groupie now.. they just went to their 8th king gizzard and the lizard wizard concert this tour, and got a set list from one of the band members who doesn't usually give out set lists but he recognized them... and they have so many groupie friends now? they drove to this concert with someone who's done ketamine with kesha.
#imagine living the type of life where you do ketamine with kesha?#i'm not even a big concert guy i would not want to see the same band 8 times in a row even if they were all within an hour radius#but i'm glad my wife is having fun lol#they're even selling enough merch at pre-show fan meetups to help offset the costs#it's just like when we used to table at anime cons together and make just enough money to cover the costs plus all the art We'd buy#silverstarschat#drugs mention#also they're very recognizable bc at every concert they wear the strawberry hat they knitted lol#plus they're really active in the huge fb group for kglw fans
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gonna bash my brains in fuck my stupid baka life GOODNIGHT NEW YORK
#omg kiera no one cares#i get i have other issues but if i had a dad who wasn't worth abusive a good majority of my life my problems?? would be hapbed#*halved#just so frustrated and upset and i wish i didn't have to take stupid medication since i was 11!!!! because it literally helps but ruins your#life!! HOW GREAT#when i had trazadone it made me go two whole numbers down of my prescription#i had corrective eye surgery to help with vision and lazy eye and medication actively works against that#not to even mention that I'm unfortunately treatment resistant so i have ketamine therapy soon and if that doesn't work#what then#I'm thrilled for modern medicine but god i wish i didn't have to do this!!
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Person A: Do you want a beer? I’m paying.
Person B, going through the restaurant’s menu: No. Ugh, where’s the good stuff?
Person A, half jokingly: I thought you were an alcoholic.
Person B: Exactly. I’d need at least, like, four beers — without food — to get slightly buzzed, and my stomach can’t fit over 2 beers in it. I’m small. I’ll have a rum, neat.
#source: me#incorrect quotes#incorrect quotes ideas#incorrect quotes prompts#tw: drug mention#tw: drugs#i used to be so small when all i did was heroin and ketamine. since i started drinking (i only started drinking every night because the-#-opiate withdrawal was so fucking bad alcohol was the only thing that kept my legs from kicking all night long and my skin from feeling-#-like it was on cold wet fire somehow)#anyway. when all i did was opiates ™ i was like 45 kg and i’m 165 aka 5’5 like i looked like a sickly model#now it’s only been a month drinking and not doing morphine or some shit and i already gained 12 kg it’s insane i’m like almost 60 kg now#i’m queueing this for a month from now so hopefully it’ll have been 2 months when this gets posted#and like i say i’m an alcoholic cause i don’t think it’s normal to drink like 5 nights a week but i’m not chemically dependent on it like i-#-was with opiates like i’m sober half the time. ive never done surgery while drunk for instance. there was this one time i had just had 4-#-shots in the bathroom in secret cause i was having a panic attack and didn’t know what else to do but anyway.#and they asked me if i wanted to close up on a tubal ligation and i passed on the opportunity even though i was Fine bc idk i just didn’t-#-feel good ab it. which is more than i can say for my professor tbh#like some other medical intern said ‘wow it must be so hard having to be On Call 24/7. like i bet u can’t even drink’#and he said ‘oh come on surgeons have lives too. in fact i drank more than a few beers just a few hours ago lol’ and proceeded to cut-#-someone open#anyway. yeah. i don’t get drunk at work yk#felt like i had to make that clear
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youtube wants me to do ketamine.
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Hi! Just wanted to drop by and tell you that your Karabita fics are AMAZING they've brought me so much joy and comfort 🥺 as I'm sure you can tell since I probably spammed your notes endlessly with likes and reblogs and silly tags these past few days. But gosh, it was just SO GOOD you're an amazing writer and after so many hours of joy I just really had to let you know (again haha). Thank you sooo much for sharing your work!! It was simply lovely 😔💜
I've really enjoyed reading your tags!! I haven't really thought about karabita much in the past few years, so it was nice to kind of have a walk down memory lane. I found myself reading back through some of my old work as you were reblogging it, and it was really nostalgic.
I didn't actually realize how much karabita I wrote! I've just been going off my AO3 stats for years. But I had a tendency to put stuff on tumblr back then and I didn't always crosspost to AO3, apparently. Then again, there's also a lot of karabita that I put on AO3 and never put on tumblr. So it was wild to realize that, in addition to the 50+ karabita fics I posted to AO3, I apparently also had this whole mess of ficlets that were tumblr-only. I didn't remember writing most of them at all until I saw you reblogging them. lmao
Anyway... thank you very much! I'm really very genuinely glad you liked them. I didn't realize anyone was still reading those. I haven't seen most of s2 or any of s3 (I bounced off of s2 pretty hard) so I wasn't sure if that was still a ship that anyone cared about. It's nice to know people still care after all these years.
I also laughed a lot when I saw from your tags that my Osomatsu-san/Muppets crossover was the first Muppets fic you ever read, but I was glad you enjoyed it! I was even more well-known for Muppets than Osomatsu-san for a while there, which is why I assume someone asked for that. It really made me laugh when I realized that I'd accidentally reeled someone into Muppets from karabita; the two are just such wildly different fandoms. (Though... in other ways very similar...)
I'm not in karabita fandom anymore, but I'll admit that it was a really fun part of my life. I really enjoyed all of the unhinged stuff I wrote, and I really loved how collaborative the fandom was. I didn't remember until I saw your notes how many ficlets I wrote based on requests back then, or how much fanart was made of those fics.
Natsukashii... 🥺
#replies#praise#though I'll admit I was a little alarmed to see how often I mentioned in those tumblr posts that I was tipsy-writing lmao#I was in a LOT of pain my senior year of college when I was writing karabita#I hadn't started taking doctor-recommended cannabis and ketamine yet so I was in SO much pain#my chronic illnesses were wildly unmanaged when I was in college and honestly it almost killed me#I rarely drink much these days so seeing all these posts about how I was writing drunk (and sometimes editing drunk too) had me like.. ah..#I remember my ribs becoming dislocated and drinking like half a bottle of wine and writing fanfic to distract myself#like....... a lot. that happened a lot.#not healthy days honestly but normal painkillers didn't work...#so I guess I really do not miss that part#but the ship itself was a lot of fun
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I am so fucking miserable
#i cant keep living like this#i want to sh so bad rn#dying would solve all my problems#the problem is my top and probably most lethal method could result in like lost limbs if i fail#the more and more desperate i get though the less i care because i just need it to work#i can't do that to my family tho. they would be sad.#im such a burden on them tho#my depression is getting so bad that i can barely even function#i often feel the need to like escape whatever situation im in#it feels like the only way to stop feeling so miserable is to die#i can't take this anymore#43 days self-harm free but i could really use the distraction and the pain right now#ugh maybe my therapist was right when she mentioned going back to the hospital#at least then i wouldn't be expected to do all these things and act normal#i feel like i need to get through this weekend and then if im still feeling this way and insurance hasnt approved the ketamine#then i should consider hospital#but i have to go to philly for my twin sister's graduation. i am so happy for her and all but it's just going to be really hard#with how I've been feeling lately in addition to how graduation just reminds me of all my failures#i was supposed to graduate last weekend. my sister and i were supposed to graduate at the same time#all my friends are graduating too#and im as depressed and hopeless as ever#i dont know what to do#im going to ruin everything if i go but my sister will be upset if im not there#i just dont think i can handle being in philadelphia all weekend
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psychiatrist: do you really think you have treatment resistant depression?
me looking at her with my 13 years of suicide ideation, over 10 types of medications tried, and 6 years of trying multiple types of therapy:
#yeah i think so#she's doing her best i think she just wanted to make sure I'm serious abt my request#anyway. she upped my dosage for now and sent an email to someone who can check where i might be able to get ketamine therapy#so ig we'll see how that goes.#guys i will not lie . i am doing very bad i do NOT want to wake up tomorrow i mostly want to off myself 🫡#but ig this is why I'm looking into another type of treatment huh (therapy was the wrong word there but I'm too lazy to retype the tags)#i don't have a lot of hope tho. bc currently it seems my only option is the one that has a lesser success rate 😐#I'm too fat for the better one 😩 yay#sorry for the pessimism and negativity i am unfortunately not feeling well. as usual. w/e I'll find a distraction or smth 😐#vent#negative //#suicide mention //#ask to tag
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how i be acting after watching saló in the k-hole
#girlblogging#gaslight gatekeep girlblog#girlblogger#pier paolo pasolini#it girl#drugs mention#sex and drugs#girl interrupted#lana del rey#salo or the 120 days of sodom#ketamine#tw drugs#pang xunqin#art#coquette#pinterest#manic pixie dream girl#manic pixie dream boy#femcel
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when ur balls deep into a (therapeutic, prescribed) ketamine trip and like, 10 seconds away from entering the spirit realm, BUT. The piece you’re listening to is fire as hell. So you interrupt your imminent khole, fumble blindly for your phone, and take a screenshot that you are literally too high to see. And only a day later do you finally discover that it is the classical music piece that you have been searching for the title to since 9th grade.
Something something the universe, something something. Also, that baby is me right now.
#personal#this means nothing to anyone but me but I don’t care it’s a TRIUMPH#I spent hours singing the melody into those Shazam-style music detectors with zero results#and then a random ketamine playlist saved the day#I have nothing to say other than 👋👋👋yay!!!👋👋👋#three cheers for liebestraum no 3#unrelated#substance mention
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i didn't end up getting this sweater but holy shit so silly 🐎
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society if Richard Nixon hadn't've decided to halt all research into the psychiatric effects of LSD and MDMA as part of his war on drugs in an attempt to impede the anti war and black liberation movements
#so many people would still be alive :(#its cured peoples addictions and ptsd ocd and depression and anxiety and greatly reduced symptoms even in those who werent cured#psylocybin and ketamine too. not to mention mescaline (the compound in peyote) which the nac literally calls 'medicine'#all my life ive been given genuinely dangerous medications and nothing has helped#and then i found put about the numerous wildly successful clinical trials on this stuff in the 50s-70s#which were entirely supressed by the government to make us believe these drugs are more dangerous than prescriptions when they just arent#how many people did Nixon and Reagan condemn to death with their war on drugs. this + over policing and incarceration...#hundreds of thousands of lives were probably lost or ruined as a result of their petty reactionary actions
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Was at a party the other day, the kind where they take photos of you with all kind of props like wigs and funny glasses and cutout cardboard texts etc
Well I immediately spotted the one I wanted, big bold colourful letters, perfect for my anesthesiologist ass, so I immediately told the lady in charge of the photo machine that I want the one over there that says "ketamine"
The lady was like, what
Yeah so apparently the text said "cake time", the party being a child-friendly one...
The lady couldn't stop laughing for minutes while I was trying to explain to her that I drug people for a living and that's where the misunderstanding came from, so yeah, fun interaction
#medblr#disaster medblr club#i do love ketamine#as long as i am the one administering it to others#btw ketamine is a child friendly thing in anesthesiology so there's that too#but yeah i really should learn to read#and to proofread before speaking#drug mention
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Yeah, the Skaven view of human women is (unsurprisingly) not great lol
#suicide mention#ooc#lorebits#'good thing our god didnt give OUR females sentience 8)'#warhammer fantasy#skaven#also skaven ketamine is called weirdroot apparently
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