#i do love ketamine

[marc--chilton]

i dont care what anyone says, house saying he loves wilson after wilson ups his pain meds was for real to me. it just slipped out and house's unserious nature is the only thing that let him get away with it

[z-0-mbb]

nayyyy :p

[arthur-lesters-right-arm]

you’re such a funny blog how do you do it (challenge you can’t say ketamine)

Years ago, near the end days, far from a life I call my own, I worked on the sabbath with a great one, days of labour with rugged whispers all the same to me now. His name is nothing but a blur but at the time it was everything, all I recall was his godlike disposition, and the way he whispered to me. He spoke of his hands that carried the broken bones of thousands, his face of oil that bled profusely from every orifice, far too many blackened holes to count, his shoulders the bore the weight of everything that he cannot speak of, and everything he cannot name. Though his name is gone, I call him the sole bearer of the mark of sacrifice, for he had nothing to give but himself in the end, and he is gone. And yet, his whispers have never left, I hear anything but words, and when I hear the oil drip and the bones carefully crunch, I still see him there in the fringe of my peripherals. I know he is gone and I have lived on far past the livelihood of my work in the creation of the end days. Though I am nothing like him, I will spare a glance downwards and see the oil drip, and I know what I must do to let his whispers live on.

[weisscreamcake]

seeing the trd psychiatrist tomorrow and now that i have my ocd diagnosis i feel very confident in asking him to zap my brain (tms)

[adhderall]

anyway whatever. im whining AGAIN because i get #triggered when im truly reminded of how much of an ugly retarded loser freak incel i am. blah blah everyone is so tired of this and of me but this is my blog and i can bitch and moan all i want.

[bibleofficial]

no 🧔?

why are u bullying me

[mutalune]

me when people hate on aos trek:

[tomatoluvr69]

Went back to the indie cinemar to pick up my forgotten water bottle but they didn’t open for another hour…oh well lucky for me there’s always trespassing in the old disused trainyard from the halcyon days of domestic industry 👍

[sylvieons]

So I've been getting electro-convulsive therapy in an attempt to cure my depression and I've mostly fared okay but when I woke up today I had absolutely no idea where I was or what the hell was going on.

I also stopped to get coffee afterwards and the guy in the store asked me if I ever got my car fixed and I was like "what?????????" and apparently last time I was there my car wouldn't start or the key wouldn't come out of the ignition or something and he came out and helped me but I have no recollection of this so he probably thinks I'm insane. Which in a way I am or else I wouldn't have to undergo anesthesia and get my brain electrocuted multiple times.

[cedarbranch]

i think one of the funniest things about me when taken out of context is that i was in a fraternity in college and then i got almost everyone i know to also join the fraternity. how do you reconcile that with literally anything else about me

[z-0-mbb]

send me money for sniff 🫧

[sam-dimples]

I wrote a shit ton of headcanons about drugs for Sam and Dean at work and I don't know if I should post it like are there people in my niche?? Do you care about them experiencing with psychedelics? Do you want to know why Sam loves ketamine?

[scarletcomet]

listening to you're on your own kid and taylor says make the friendship bracelets and im literally knotting and making a bracelet rn

[spring-blossoms-autumn-fruits]

I think it's kind of sweet and funny that my aunt (who is a therapist who works with patients with drugs like weed), after learning about my quick-onset debilitating chronic pain, suggested I try weed or ketamine for the pain. Like, she didn't pull a needle and joint out of her pocket, but she sat my mom down and gave her a lot of information to pass onto me

[lassify]

[Spy x Family ch. 109 spoilers]

I just finished the chapter as of two minutes ago, and I have to tell you, I am having the best time getting to use whip out my psychology degree again.

Good people of tumblr, allow me to introduce to you:

Capgras delusion

It's interesting that Melinda disclosed that she was a patient of the hospital before. It is no small feat to be admitted into psychiatric care - especially in a hospitalised setting. Psychiatric hospitals typically deal with very high-risk disorders and behaviours, with many patients being admitted to hospital either for their own safety, or for the safety of those around them.

What has this got to do with capgras delusion?

Capgras delusion is a very serious psychiatric disorder in which a person believes that someone very close to them has been replaced with an impostor.

It is not uncommon for sufferers of capgras delusion to believe that their loved ones have been replaced by aliens, a doppelganger, or a clone.

It can be from many causes: psychosis, schizophrenia, brain damage, neurodegenerative disease. In very rare cases there have even been documented unexepcted triggers such as ketamine, diabetes, migraines, and urinary cystitis.

And, crucially; it is not unheard of for sufferers of capgras delusion to be physically agressive towards the perceived impostor.

(Is that why she was sent to psychiatry before? Is that why she is estranged from Donovan and the children? Is that why she is kept under very close watch? Or is there something more sinister going on?)

From this chapter alone, I wonder if we will see a link between Melinda's delusion, and her past experiences. If Endo chooses to take the scientific route, we may see a history of physical abuse that resulted in brain damage, or a history of psychological abuse that made Melinda vulnerable to psychosis.

I would be really interested to see if Melinda's current way of thinking may have originated from having an initially loving relationship with Donovan Desmond, but she saw a sudden change in behaviour in him to become the heartless warmonger we now know him to be, which could have pushed her into this delusional belief.

After all, how could the man she fell in love with (conjecture), have turned into such a monster? The only explanation must be that Donovan Desmond is not the Donovan she knew, and just an impostor, right?

....Right?

[doberbutts]

Curious about something you mentioned in your post last week, you said that in your opinion all drugs should be legal and I’m curious about how that would be a positive at all? Like I get weed bc it’s pretty harmless but when I think of drugs I think of cocaine and heroin, which have destroyed so many lives. If it was widely available wouldn’t that end up hurting more people than helping? That’s just my opinion but I’m curious on the other side

I do think all drugs should be legal. This is said knowing that addiction runs in my family and that the only reason my older sister is my *sister* is due to drug use and addiction. Otherwise she'd be my cousin.

Making drugs illegal does not stop people from getting high. It does not stop drug related crime. And it certainly does not stop drugs from tearing families apart.

Addiction is a symptom of a larger problem. Solve the problem and the addict problem goes away. Solve the addict problem and drugs stop ruining lives and destroying families and creating massive amounts of drug related violence. Places that have roled out decriminalization strategies effectively have seen an overall reduction in crime rates across the board, a reduction in recreational drug use, and a reduction in bloodborne illness like HIV. Creating safe needle exchanges as well as safe places to get high with medical staff onhand has also created a locale where very few people die from overdose.

Most people hear "decriminalize all drugs" and think I mean a free-for-all. I don't. I think the drug market should be regulated. I don't think you should be able to get ketamine or heroin over the counter at a walmart like you can get asprin. But I think it's time to stop putting people in jail for getting high.

My aunt tore her life and her family and her health apart for years while she was addicted to heroin. My sister, her daughter, needed to be removed from her care due to the amazingly bad choices she made as a mother due to her addiction and her prioritizing drugs over the health and safety of her daughter. My aunt has had multiple heart attacks from the damage the constant drug use did to her body.

My aunt is more than a decade sober and do you know why? It's not because she got a wakeup call when her daughter was taken away, because at the time she willingly and freely signed her over to my parents because that got her "out of [her] hair". It's not because she had a heart attack, because she went right back to it the moment she was out of the hospital. It's not even because she spent time in rehab and prison, because the moment she was out she was using again.

No, my aunt got sober because her life changed. She was put on a better pain management plan. She got out of her shitty marriage to her shitty husband. She completed some education to make her more hireable so she didn't have to rely on less than safe means of paying her bills. She reconnected with my sister and reforged their relationship once she was 18. She bought her own house. She found love with someone who didn't give a shit about her past and brought out the best in her.

My aunt was a deeply unhappy person. Heroin made life more tolerable for her. Until she couldn't tolerate life without it. Until she'd do anything, anything, to get her next high.

A lot of addicts are addicts because they are self-medicating for something else and their drug of choice has chemical properties that makes their brains crave it more. If you fix the "deeply unhappy" part, you create a healthier environment for that addict to take control over their life again. Without it, they are far more likely to continue to relapse.

Knowing this, why would I then want to add the threat of prison and jailtime- life-ruining things themselves- to an addict's list of concerns?

Look up rat park sometime. In the rat paradise, drugged water was freely offered, and occasional a rat here or there would take a hit or two, but rarely enough to even get high and almost never habitually. Addiction literally didn't exist even though the rats were taking addictive substances. But the rats in cages, seperated from each other, with no enrichment, crammed into small spaces and stressed to hell? Those rats took hit after hit after hit until they overdosed and died. The addict rats were deeply unhappy. The drugs were their only escape. The paradise rats had to be lured in with sweetened drugs to even consider and even then they rejected them. The caged rats did not need sweetner, even though the drugs made the water bitter.

If we can see such a stark difference in rats having their needs met vs rats experiencing isolation and stress, what would happen if we showed human addicts the same consideration?

I think a lot better results than continuing to jail deeply unhappy and desperate people for doing the only thing they can think of to cope.