#just. i need this mess out of my head.

[astrum99]

Thinking about the abstract, fallacious argument of "justice is splendour; splendour is justice". Two elements placed near each other with intention, on a pedestal, under the shine of a righteous light.

Thinking about how swords are made to pierce. How justice is delivered through masked violence. How justice is blind and guided by hands stained with blood. And it too, becomes a broken weapon.

Thinking about the heavy, solid mirroring between Garbiel and V1 instead. Both unlike any creatures on Earth, yet display the same essence that seemed to echo beings on Earth. Both made in the same image, given a role, then abandoned. Grounded, dreadfully freed from the system yet left to their own devices to navigate around the afterimage of loss.

Thinking about the parallel between hating and loving; fighting and fucking. The same fire grows and spreads into arteries and veins until the body trembles with want. Until the mind is feverish with the desire to reach out and touch. Real and dirty - yet the yearning is so pure in intention.

Thinking about engaging in battle, surrender to being stripped down into the barest of essence. To find intimacy in brutality. To pin and get pinned. Hands around necks, legs around the waist. The moment of tenderness between the featherlight touch and the powerful squeeze. Bringing each other to their knees.

Thinking about exchanges in combat. Constant prediction, estimation, and dancing around the tempo of the other to match. One runs, the other chases; one slashes, the other parries. Mocking taunts like bird songs – tend the fire until it envelops them both and boils their hearts alive. Making blood, making meaning, making love.

[lilybug-02]

City of Tears. But Mini.

I wanted to make an atmospheric art piece with Dewi. And the City of Tears is one of the most sorrowing, beautiful, and grand places to do that. This is a lot of firsts for me regarding the architecture and lighting. The shadows cover a lot, and it may have been too much. I'm happy with how it turned out tho.

No idea how Dewi found his way into the City. Probably magic. Probably plot too :) But oh boy, he is experiencing childlike wonder in his raincoat!

This is a better show of the line detail I needlessly covered up in the final lol

[rosebridal]

narrative foil antagonism at its best

[benevolenterrancy]

@little-meowyao a naive and temporary sense of belonging u.u

[shivgirly]

Shiv & Kendall: Perceptions

[boarloved-art]

i like the car movies a lot.......

[fisheito]

hello... please consider... yakumo in:

the classic traditional style qipaos

the modernised and modified ones

bonus: modified hanfu

he would look wonderful wouldn't he? all the more delectable and sashimiable?

ahaha...ahah...AHAHHAH.AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

[artuurle]

the issue with most of my creative process being very "in the moment" is i end up with a bunch of doodles for things i then decide isnt "canon" to things or i get REALLY DERAILED, so last night i drew some love and loss au doodles that kinda occur later on. Huzzle sweep.

The last one above is traveling to another god domain really hurriedly looks like in my head to be 100% clear. mini rift <3. no time for flair we needs to GO NOWS.

if you cannot tell I love drawing huzzle a lot. my cunty lamp <3

[9ofspades]

It’s disability pride month, and if you are disabled in the U.S. from Long Covid I want you to know that you’re not alone, and you’re valid in whatever you feel. Whether that’s sorrow at your new problems or rage at society for failing you, you are valid, and it is truly messed up that society is continuing to fail you.

[wishchip106]

thinking about the fact Erik decided to give up his cause maybe a year or two after his speech in dofp and settled down with a human woman and had a kid

and the fact he started to repress his powers to seem more “normal/human”

WHY ARE YOU OF ALL PEOPLE DOING THAT???

this is a ten year difference btw

not even that Erik likely met Magda maximum two years after his speech

honestly i love Erik and Magda’s relationship but what i would’ve preferred is if he met her BEFORE he met Charles

it would’ve made his hatred towards humanity even more justifiable

how old is Nina? she looks 7 or 8

auughhmyygoddd that would mean he completely gave up on everything that matters to him to fit into the life Charles would’ve wanted for him

he could’ve just moved back into the mansion…

literally crying WHO WROTE THIS?? 😭😭

“And to my mutant brothers and sisters I say this. No more hiding. No more suffering. You have lived in the shadows of fear and shame for too long. Come out. (🏳️‍🌈) Join me. Fight together in a brotherhood of our kind. A new tomorrow. That starts today”

okay so that never happened? 🤨

what? did no one show up to the first meeting?? 😭😭

Raven humbled Erik so bad he went into hiding OKAY 😭🤚

[rinshairandthoughts]

Started Sketching and this kinda just happened.

[greatcelestialhieroglyphs]

Backslide, Vignette, Snap Back, and Oldies Station are so desperately important to me.

For the past few years, I’ve been struggling with a self-destructive habit that I haven’t been able to break. Even though my family has been super loving and understanding, I keep feeling like THIS time is going to be the time that they get fed up and give up on me for good. “Do you think that now’s the time, you should let go?” I feel like I’ve asked that question a thousand times. And the repetition, which sounds (to me) like he’s TELLING the person he’s talking to that they should let go. They SHOULD get tired of me. My self-destructive habits are hurting the people I cared about. I should have fixed it for THEM if not myself, I should have loved them better.

Vignette just sounds like a relapse to me. The way Tyler sings “Man, it’s been a long night” and “Where do I go from here?” are so filled with exhaustion and desperation. The mental image of people he cares about finding him in the woods, covered in bites, as someone finding you after a relapse and seeing what you’ve done to yourself.

Snap Back is. just. Sometimes you can FEEL your resolve getting weaker, you can FEEL yourself buckling under life’s pressures and going to familiar coping mechanisms. You want to be stronger, to have more resolve, but you’re so freaking tired and it feels inevitable. After all, it only takes ONE weak moment. You have all day to relapse. You have all night. You have all week. Can you REALLY stay determined that long? You’ve done this before. You know you can’t.

(And this line of thinking is inherently self-defeating. You’ve relapsed so many times that you’ve lost faith in yourself. You don’t have faith in yourself, so you can’t win. It’s a self fulfilling prophecy.)

And at the end, when you’ve tried everything and said everything to the people you love as they’re sad and angry and worried and afraid and proud and everything else over the years… “I’ve run out of excuses for why I am this way.”

Finally. Oldies Station. Because life is going to keep coming, and you’re probably going to relapse. You’re still learning to deal with fear and pain without hurting yourself in the process. But you’re still here.

“Make an oath, then make mistakes. Start a streak you’re bound to break.” This philosophy is one I’ve been trying to adopt for years. No matter how many times you relapse, you NEED to keep fighting. There is so much freedom in staring again, KNOWING you’ll probably fail, but putting your all into it anyway. Because sometimes, your all isn’t enough. Whether that’s because life is too hard or you’re too weak doesn’t really matter. That’s not what you need to be focusing on. When darkness rolls on you, when you’re filled with grief and shame and whatever emotions plague you in a vicious cycle, you push on through.

You get better. You get stronger. It’s so slow, but it happens. You’re still here.

And when you do relapse again, you may be disappointed, but you can feel yourself on the come up even when you’re at a low point.

You fell into a backslide yet again, but you don’t quite mind. And isn’t that the goal of healing?

Peace?

[telleroftime]

Parrots can whisper but it's not like they do so often. They simply can't contain their need to squawk. Urogi is quite similar to that. You're quiet when you talk to him, repeating the same set of words over and over again like a little stim. Bobbing your head and waiting for him to do the same. Cooing at him as if he was your pretty pet bird. He does so, of course. Stomping his feet in place, claws clacking on the ground. It makes you giggle and his attempt at being quiet is precious.

It's an airy whisper of barely suppressed energy, a parroted version of your own words. He manages to whisper once. Then twice. And then when you try to get more out of him, your voice a cheery call as your smile carries into your tone, he's silent. It's as if you can see him bubble where he stands. His feathers are puffed up a little, hands clenching. He takes in a deep inhale, chest jutted out. The sharp fangs in his grin look glossy as he cheers loudly. Your words are so loud on his tongue. He repeats them over and over, laughing shrilly.

It's not that Urogi can't whisper. He can. Of course he can. It's just that he can't contain the joy you bring to him. He wants to be loud and you just have to deal with it. Not like that's a problem.

[iknowicanbutwhy]

Puyo/Madou, meet ISAT. ISAT, meet Puyo/Madou. I'm sure you have everything in common and this is not at all a completely random crossover of my two current interests

[emotinalsupportturtle]

Just more random stuff I felt compelled to note down whilst listening to the rest of the Putting it Together podcast (decided to put it all in one post to spare everyone of the spam)

Love the image of David Tennant struggling to name footballers to look cool in front of his Macbeth cast mates

David when asked about what sports he watches initially saying none then suddenly remembering he’s been photographed there - “I like a bit of Wimbledon”. also who actually watches darts (David tenant apparently)

he cannot take a compliment it’s so funny, the dude simply said “you seem fit” in response to DT worrying about his age and David nearly melted in to the ground. You could hear him blush

I forgot he’s actually funny even in serious talk mode

Brian O’Sullivan (the host) saying David has a way with interpreting Shakespearean text. that’s so real of him

I think I just really like listening to theatre people talking about and geeking over shit they’ve done

I know way too much about Shinda the magic ape (is that how you spell it? Idk). no complaints though

“he was VERY handsome” David, was that necessary?

David IS doing the old actor telling anecdotes thing, as he himself points out but who cares I’m eating this shit up

Both fascinated and horrified listening to him recount bad reviews early on

David talking about getting advice from another actor early in his career about not milking it and then going “look he wasn’t wrong but he was doing it too lol” - this is interesting to me cause I’ve always felt he knows exactly the right balance to get always, without overplaying or underplaying, I guess it’s something he learnt

DT’s revenge on Taggart “I’m going to reboot that shit that’ll show them”

you know he’s good friends with someone when he just starts dissing them

DT with his costars (almost every one of them, including the host) is one of my favourite genres actually

Brian O’Sullivan is a cool podcast host (maybe Ive had bad experiences so far but I find most podcasts by actors really insufferable and annoying - excluding dt, and now this guy)

Bad puddingbowl haircuts and hitler-esque moustaches are not uncommon mistakes among young actors

newsflash! David Tennant has toyed with the idea of writing but gets put off every time he sees a good script

We need your writing David, please

Help not them talking about famous actors having egos and the host says “I mean that is something potentially accessible to you” and dt being like “god I can’t imagine.. maybe I should, but I just couldn’t” and Brian going “nah man we love you don’t change”. Wholesome moment

[brown-little-robin]

it went fine yesterday btw :}