#gch posts

[greatcelestialhieroglyphs]

Backslide, Vignette, Snap Back, and Oldies Station are so desperately important to me.

For the past few years, I’ve been struggling with a self-destructive habit that I haven’t been able to break. Even though my family has been super loving and understanding, I keep feeling like THIS time is going to be the time that they get fed up and give up on me for good. “Do you think that now’s the time, you should let go?” I feel like I’ve asked that question a thousand times. And the repetition, which sounds (to me) like he’s TELLING the person he’s talking to that they should let go. They SHOULD get tired of me. My self-destructive habits are hurting the people I cared about. I should have fixed it for THEM if not myself, I should have loved them better.

Vignette just sounds like a relapse to me. The way Tyler sings “Man, it’s been a long night” and “Where do I go from here?” are so filled with exhaustion and desperation. The mental image of people he cares about finding him in the woods, covered in bites, as someone finding you after a relapse and seeing what you’ve done to yourself.

Snap Back is. just. Sometimes you can FEEL your resolve getting weaker, you can FEEL yourself buckling under life’s pressures and going to familiar coping mechanisms. You want to be stronger, to have more resolve, but you’re so freaking tired and it feels inevitable. After all, it only takes ONE weak moment. You have all day to relapse. You have all night. You have all week. Can you REALLY stay determined that long? You’ve done this before. You know you can’t.

(And this line of thinking is inherently self-defeating. You’ve relapsed so many times that you’ve lost faith in yourself. You don’t have faith in yourself, so you can’t win. It’s a self fulfilling prophecy.)

And at the end, when you’ve tried everything and said everything to the people you love as they’re sad and angry and worried and afraid and proud and everything else over the years… “I’ve run out of excuses for why I am this way.”

Finally. Oldies Station. Because life is going to keep coming, and you’re probably going to relapse. You’re still learning to deal with fear and pain without hurting yourself in the process. But you’re still here.

“Make an oath, then make mistakes. Start a streak you’re bound to break.” This philosophy is one I’ve been trying to adopt for years. No matter how many times you relapse, you NEED to keep fighting. There is so much freedom in staring again, KNOWING you’ll probably fail, but putting your all into it anyway. Because sometimes, your all isn’t enough. Whether that’s because life is too hard or you’re too weak doesn’t really matter. That’s not what you need to be focusing on. When darkness rolls on you, when you’re filled with grief and shame and whatever emotions plague you in a vicious cycle, you push on through.

You get better. You get stronger. It’s so slow, but it happens. You’re still here.

And when you do relapse again, you may be disappointed, but you can feel yourself on the come up even when you’re at a low point.

You fell into a backslide yet again, but you don’t quite mind. And isn’t that the goal of healing?

Peace?

[clubnate]

[lastmidtownshowmp3]

Travie why are you associating yourself when ATL still when you could literally do a side show with your babygirl TAI </3 treckett divorce I guess

[bastardgoblinwolf]

am i wrong if i say the way a lot of fic writers write travie mccoy comes off as a bit racist.

like obviously decaydance ppl r just some guys and they're no angels, but travie specifically seems to always be presented as either verbally and sexually aggressive, or a completely sidelined stoner with no story relevance. cmon man

[tiff4ny-bl3wz]

Had a dream a while ago that I was on the hot topic website and they had a shirt that looked like this

[fathermushroom]

IM AT THIS BAR CAFE GARDEN PLACE BECAUSE THE SKA BAND MY BROTHERS TEACHER IS IN IS THERE AND THEY JUST FUCKING PKAYED A MCR COVER THWY PLAYED IM NOT OKAY WTF😭😭😭

[model-theory]

Of course GCH is false: 2^2≠2⁺.

[bas-rouge]

I don't know why I didn't just go check the Beauceron confo rankings in the US. I don't know any of the dogs on the top 45 personally but I know a lot of dogs related to them and all of the breeders (not hard, there's not many Beauce breeders in the US). I don't know who number 1 is though so I'm intrigued

[dirt-goth]

"And I suppose you know your sister. Shoot, I swear by hand and God I only kissed her. I gotta foot fetish, but she gotta lotta blisters. I mean hammer time feet, you'd think she had dead bugs for toes"

[saturnisfallingdown]

unbelievable .

[fairytailsart]

Long time no post LMAO

Reaper took BOB and got his AmCh and CACIB during Westminster

I may or may not have forgotten to enter Drizzle into Westminster despite drawing him 😅

But now both the boys are in the NYC Pride Show! Very excited to get a Ch on Drizzle and maybe a GCh or UCh on Reaper!

Cupid also got his WP (weightpull) title and were working on an art trade for his WPCH ! Hopefully a litter with him and another really cool dog in DARPG soon.

[greatcelestialhieroglyphs]

I keep hearing people saying that December ‘04 was written for them specifically, and I feel the exact same way. This song feels so personal.

This song managed to perfectly capture my feelings of like… Christmas has always been a time when the people I love came together but now my family has changed and it’s sadder and I’m more bitter but still good. And we’re not gonna be kids again who believe in magic and Santa Claus but we can make our own magic I think.

It’s Christmas. It’s the end of the year and I’m thinking about my family again, both near and far, and I just want them to be safe and together for a little bit.

It’s the end of the year again and I’m so tired and my New Year’s resolutions are the same as last year’s and I feel like I can’t change anything in a way that lasts but I’m trying. I’m trying. Let’s give it another year. Let’s give it another go.

It’s another year and I’m different and my faith is different. I still believe in God but it’s harder. I’ve gone farther, so I’ll come back on Christmas and remind myself what I believe in and why. So I’ll believe in you.

[clubnate]

x

[lastmidtownshowmp3]

Travtrick nation and the gch girls don’t stop winning

[thekidsare-not-alright]

surprises/swaps of the night 8/1 (Forest Hills, Queens, NY)

7 Minutes in Heaven (Atavan Halen) -- (Infinity On High swap)

What A Catch (piano medley)

Just One Yesterday (piano medley)

Stereo Hearts + Cupid's Chokehold (TRAVIE MCCOY, medley!?!? oh mygod)

Enter Sandman (metal cover)

I Am My Own Muse (magic 8 ball)

27 (magic 8 ball)

sacrifices of the night </3

Infinity On High Swaps ("The Take Over, The Breaks Over", Hum Hallelujah, Bang the Doldrums -- for 7 Minutes)

The Last of the Real Ones (cut for GCH, maybe other reasons)

Don't Stop Believin' (cut for GCH)

Crazy Train (swapped with Enter Sandman)

Goodbye to:

predictability.

stability.

etc

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[hipbonetomyheart]

me when i search travie mccoy / gch on tumblr and all the posts are just about fall out boy or gabe saporta ( i love fall out boy but i want travie content and its really weird that all u guys use his name for brownie points but never want to actually celebrate travie / gym class!! )