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#me.txt#this is exactly what happened at my last job#the perspective became so horrendous I ended up quitting instead of trying#the problem here is that I have no job to fall back on#and I’m not about to find one if I can’t even fucking update my goddamn cv#or look at job offers without crying and lowkey wanting to off myself#this is. a problem. that is. i am the problem.#it’s a week and a day to break but it’s like. starting to be put into question whether I can get there without exploding mid flight#the problem ofc is that even if I do break apart. it’ll just be via pathetic work presentation and bad quality work#which is just kinda sad and pathetic#on brand at least#I’m not feeling better I’m in fact feeling worse but I’m also not fucking doing what the therapist said to do so#I just. cant come up with two nice activities per day#going back to bed maybe. that’s all I can think of rn.#I need to work out what I’ll tell her.#rn all I have is the absolute bleakness of existence. nothing to look forward to ever#just the same day or worse#and worst of all: me whining about it. again. always.#this week will be session 5. I’m. unconvinced this did anything except cost me almost 400€ total#but whatever eh
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Your highness… I don’t feel so good
#I was literally getting the same feeling I got watching Jimmy’s empires 2 when I was watching scars stream from 2 days ago…#and then doc said THAT. full body chills. thanks#hermitcraft#hermitcraft s10#docm77#docm77 skyblock#hermitcraft skyblock#idk how to tag that man#art escapades#jimmy solidarity#solidaritygaming#empires smp#empires s2#sheriff jimmy#tumble town#uhhhh idk what else to tag hopefully that covers it#idk… something about scar and Cleo and Joe all teasing him relentless despite the fact that he was obviously Actually upset#(‘I’m sure it’s actually fine but just. the vibes of someone who’s sick of getting messed with getting relentlessly messed with. yknow)#it makes me feel vaguely sick#again I’m sure they’re fine but idk man he sounded so mad#so naturally. whatever this is happened in my brain#I’m normal I just needed to get this out of my system <3#there’s some really interesting parallels happening here that I can’t quite put into worse#words*#so I put it into images instead… hopefully you’re getting my brain waves
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oh hey! i was reading a fic the other day where Wangji was once misspelled as Wangu. which leads me to: MDZS Pingu-style??? noot noot!
Do you think love can bloom on the sea ice?
#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#digital art#Club penguin#ask#I've drawn a lot of strange crossovers for MDZS but this one really takes it up a notch#I saw this ask and thought “yeah why not. I've been meaning to do style studies. Let's experiment.”#And the moment my pen hit my tablet I was struck by the need to make it even worse.#Perhaps I am just nostalgic for club penguin and pengu but I think there is something magical about them holding hands.#Anyways I think younger WWX would have loved club penguin. It's the joy of the minigames and hanging out with your friends online.#Lan Wangji could never get past the fact the 'Ask your parent/guardian!' part of registration.#Either because he knew Lan Qiren would have said no *or* because he asked once and got turned down.#Lan Xichen probably was like 'Hey I can help you with that :)' to which LWJ said no because that was breaking the rules.#But if I *had* to put wangxian in a club penguin AU? Yeah 1000% it's LWJ as a mod and WWX as a notorious (nootorious) griefer.#WWX would be trying to speed run how fast he can get banned or how much he can get away with.#Getting removed and returning over and over earns him the 'necromancer of CP' title in the community. Loathed by many.#Meanwhile LWJ is about to seriously consider doxxing this guy just to get him to stop making his volunteer hobby less of a nightmare.#Cue 10 years later. They meet up on the ice flow on the last day before the servers get shut down. They have a genuine heart to heart.#Three years later on Club Penguin rewritten: two grown men decide to relive their childhood one more time.#Fate draws them to the same server.#I ask again. Do you think love can bloom on the digital sea ice?
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When you said that the unluckiest person is most hopeful, it reminded me of Nagito Komaeda. If the universe were combined, do you think he would fair well having Anti Cosmo as his anti fairy?
Funnily enough, I feel like it would be Hajime who would have an anti-fairy companion. I mean, he’s surrounded by extremely skilled people! That would attract bad luck in some way for him. Nagito wouldn’t be good food for anti-fairies. Or Fairies. Or Pixies.
...Honestly, Fairies aren’t quite sure what food he produces. It’s like a weird amalgamation of luck, desire, greed, and all sorts of emotions they can’t disentangle. Like a crockpot gone horribly horribly wrong. Eating any bit of that would make any fairy sick.
Eugh. The hell is wrong with that one.
Bitties Series: [Start] > [Previous] > [Next]
#fairly oddparents#fop#fop anti cosmo#anti cosmo#danganronpa#nagito komaeda#hajime hinata#asks#itty bitties fop au#this man has been haunting me for. TWO weeks now.#nagito komaeda get the FUCK out of my inbox#GIT#GIT GIT GIT!!!!!#i guess we doing danganronpa now#i dont think there's any fairy that would put up with whatever the fuck he's got going on.#although the fucking. idea of fairies and danganronpa existing in the same plane is pretty fucking hilarious.#i can just imagine hajime's day getting worse and worse#like. imagine showing up to school. Nope. not school. a fuckgin BEACH. and some fuckgin RABBIT shows up and does weird shit#even worse you go to your room and there's a blue bitch in there.#well. i guess it gets even more and more worse what with the killer bear and the friends killing each other thing#but hey! at least you got yourself a weird blue fucking thing that only you can see!!!#and it keeps taunting you every time you do something cringe. and wont even bother helping you with ANY of your investigations.#and nobody has any fuckign idea what youre saying !!!#well except maybe gundam tanaka.
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tomodachi Ren is doing good, putting him in silly outfits
it's going like this
#14 days with you#14dwy ren#14dwy#i've made him wear worse things but im just giving you the most socially acceptable ones#you need to have a lot of willpower and imagination to make yourself think that the version of tomodachi looks like him my brain is strong#yeah he kills and he's bad but what if i put him in dresses and stuff you knoiw#okback to my enclosure 🍖#PUBLIC EXECUTION TOMORROW FOR MYSELF TAKE ME TO THE GUILLOTINE#i don't know if i said this but i also made redacted on the game maybe i will do the same with them (they look bad too)#ok but i will try to make the next drawing a serious one ok i will try
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Ghost children and the worthless treaty
The DC dimension had faced multiple dangers: invasions, threats, multiple ends of the world, demons. And yet what finally defeated the heroes were children.
The Ghost King was the one who took care of the children for the most part (because he understood them). Which was a terrible idea considering he was a teenager himself and all of his knowledge was pretty skewed towards his own children. Another thing to take into account: his two children were 24 and 14 years old (but not really? He said it was complicated)
So when the Justice League finally contacted him about establishing an alliance, the king gave them a test, that if they completed it they would establish a peaceful alliance immediately and he would owe them a favor. Danny didn't mind making alliances but he needed a few days off from his own children.
When they heard of the test, the heroes accepted, trusting in his abilities. Take care of children? Piece of cake, they had Young Justice and it wouldn't be much different. The king smiled with all his fangs and told them to take care of his children's friends as well. To which Constantine had a horrible premonition.
The League did not expect the problem that would be keeping "Dan and Dani" Phantom in check. Along with Youngblood and Klemper. The four of them much preferred Danny's care, and were not at all thrilled with the situation.
The appearance of the ghostly "teenagers" didn't make it any better, and Batman began to question if it was worth it. Dan Phantom claimed that it could be worse, since he was technically "grounded" and couldn't hurt anyone. Dani teased him about it.
Constantine knew it wasn't worth it.
#dpxdc#ghost king danny#who gave kids to a teenager#and worse#who gave ghost kids and ghost teenagers to the same teen#The JL don't know what they got themselves into#dan phantom#he is a menace#danielle phantom#she is a menace too#Danny will make the treaty anyways#he just want some days off from being a parent#Kings need to sleep too#Constantine is sure it doesn't worth it#dp x dc#dc x dp#Youngblood is having fun#Klemper will give a lot of hugs#Babysitters JL#They are not prepared#Ghost teenagers will appear too just to cause some trouble
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I just have to say that it's so weird reading how transphobes think of trans bodies as mutilated and gross when they never would have thought my body pre-transition was worthy. The "argument" of mutilated beauty that transphobes have tossed around is just a fear mongering tactic, because they don't tend to actually love or appreciate and see value in bodies that don't "neatly" fit into male and female, with no overlap and no nuances.
#trans#transgender#lgbt#lgbtq#ftm#mtf#nonbinary#i saw so many transphobes agonizing about a trans guy who developed acne from transition...#...they were agonizing about how he ruined his skin and beauty and how *they* didn't find him attractive anymore (how sad /s)#i read that and i realized... pre-transition i had a ton of acne (it's not gotten worse at all so far)#pre-transition i had very broad shoulders (to the point i was made fun of for how i'd act because of my broadness)#pre-transition i inherented most of the traits of the males in my family...#...and if i didn't transition - if i were cis? those same transphobes would think of me just as poorly and they'd hate my body and my soul#because it isn't about 'saving people'. it's about control. it's about manipulating the human experience into two neat boxes#and that excludes people like me. it excludes intersexness and natural variation in human bodies.#transphobia#transphobia tw#like this is shit i knew ever since i first interacted with a transphobe but it to this day blows me away
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wouldnt it be so fucked up tho. time travel. the chain's circadian rhythms would be completely destroyed... u can't tell me all the portals would lead them to the same exact time of day across eras, and even if they did the days are shorter in winter and longer in summer, and the amount of daylight they get is going to vary drastically, and the time they spend in each location is going to be impossible to count right. u can tally days, sure, but how do u tally half-days and half-nights when the portals send them straight from dusk to dawn, evening straight into noon, morning into midnight. how do u count that. when do u sleep. how long have u been walking? how old are u?
#linked universe#listen. i. listen. legend probably obsessively tallies the time they spend in every era but do u think he ever lies awake at night wonderin#whether his counting is off by hours? or days? or months?#i love it when the passage of time gets a bit wibbly. (wobbly even.) liminal.#and this gets worse when you consider that perhaps time is not passing in their own eras at the same speed. are they going to return to#when they left a la phantom hourglass? are they going to wake up into the future a la botw? how old are they? whens your birthday?#do you. do you think they ever hold a joint birthday party. for all of them together. lost together in time#also i just. how do they coordinate mealtimes. and sleeping. how do they#🐝#the vibes. the subtle psychological horror of time travel
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So, I was rereading Makoto's Worst Day Ever, and I found something really interesting about his luck.
It's difficult to analyze Makoto's because it's not something constant. Most of the time it just randomly saves him from dying and that's it. But here? We get to see how big of a roll it can have on his life. Normally, he's just a bit unlucky, but on that day, his luck was so bad it ruined overpowered someone else's extreme good luck. But hey, at the end of the day he got into the best schools ever! So in his eyes, it more than made up for it. At least that's what he thought.
If that were really the case, Makoto’s luck would be eerily similar to Nagito’s, where bad luck eventually leads to good luck. The thing though, is that going to Hope's Peak, didn't end up being such a good thing. So in the end, it was just pure 24 hours of bad luck right? But then how does his luck work?
Earlier in the story, he gets told that karma doesn't exist, that the universe doesn't punish you if you're bad and viceversa. That leads me to think Makoto's luck is unrelated to his actions or his needs. What we get from the series is that it just helps him in life or death situations. Maybe going to Hope's Peak was a good thing, because for all the trauma he got, he still made it out alive. Who knows if he would have managed to do that, had he been a normal civilian during the tragedy.
This could be really messed up though, so take it with a grain of salt. Because that means that bad things could happen to him and yet he would make it out. We saw him being really close to deaath, one of those times by his own hands, and yet he still lived. So even if surviving were to feel like bad luck, he still would. And with all the survivor's guilt he's got...
The question is though, if Makoto has a lot of bad luck, but he also survives because of it... does that mean that surviving is inherently bad for him?
#something something makoto being dr's punching bad#cause man things just seem to get worse for him#same with Nagito kinda#except his luck does rely on what's important to him#makoto naegi#danganronpa#dr thh#nagito komaeda#makoto naegis worst day ever#dr
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not to be bad disabled representation but does anyone else get sad when they think about their disabilities too much
#the isolation of being disabled and especially growing up#the guilt of having mobility aids and taking up space#the anger of knowing there are just some things you *can't* do#especially if you could in the past#the turbulence of some days being worse or better than others#the frustration of it staying the same#the helplessness of wanting your disabilities to be seen and accommodated for and they're not#the shame when you wish they couldn't be seen#like man idk about you but that's making me stare at the ceiling at 2 am holding back sniffles#sorry i don't mean to complain a lot i just carry a lot of constant feelings about being disabled lol#actually disabled#neurodivergent#physically disabled#feel free to add on any other feelings wherever
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(they'll never understand) How could I ever understand? No, I don't have to understand. I don't wanna understand. So I will never understand. (we could have everything)
#Danny Phantom#art#sketches#i do not feel like colouring this. you'll have to use your imagination#also i highly recommend listening to Nick Lutsko's Swords album because it is so Jack & Maddie it's not even funny#i've been listening to Superior on repeat for like 2 days which is why i whipped this comic up#but also Sideshow is how i was introduced to the album & is also very very very much Maddie & Jack coded#i want to write a fic about it. alas i'm already writing like 10 fics about everything right now so it'll have to wait#i just have this idea in my head of it actually being pretty obvious to Maddie & Jack who Phantom is#he's wearing their hazmat. using their inventions. can open their biometric locks. has their son's face. his voice.#Danny Fenton has an extremely high level of ectoplasm. he even has an ectosignature. the same ectosig as Phantom in fact.#but they're so in denial. so obsessed with their work up til then not being a waste of time & resources. that they just keep ignoring it#keep burying their heads in the sand#& things just keep getting worse. & they keep having a harder time committing to attacking Phantom#have a harder time believing in what they're doing. have a harder time explaining away the truth#but they can't face it. they have to keep refusing to see it#because the truth will never set them free. it will only confirm all the terrible things they've done.#they're good people. everything they do is good. there is no other side to this story. of course
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whiteboard dragons <3 it's dragon appreciation day!
#DRAGON APPRECIATION DAY. GO KISS A DRAGON RN. TAKE THEM ON A DATE.#barn in the corner. ignore him. he'll be in a different post#mannnn jade (green dragon) really just. has a bad time from start to finish#w a few shining moments in between#well. no. tbf she actually gets a decent chunk of Peace in her life#but when shit hits the fan again it just does not stop hitting... Yayyyy!!!!!#man. same for daelyn really.#once the bad times start it just gets Worse and Worse <3#scribble salad#not-fish <3#dragon#dragons#dragon oc#oc#original character#original characters#ocs#ITS THE YEAR OF THE DRAGON BABEY LETS GOOOOOOOO#its been like. 2 weeks of 2024 and ive already gotten so much done w my dragons#like! some of them finally have actual names!!!! holy shit!!!
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Happy last day of April :3 (and Autism acceptance month); since we started the month of with cats I thought it would only be fitting ending it with cats as well x'D
A little treat to @j-restlessgeek and other Jure girlies (gn) :3
#I wasn't sure if posting two things on the same day was smart but tbh my art has not been doing too well lately#so it probably can't do much worse x'D#and in the end I draw these silly sketches mostly because its fun either way#you liking them is “just” a bonus ^V^#jure maček#joker out#mine#my own art
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lord its so dark in here the sahara desert of tsaritsa content you are like a shining oasis. your characterisation of her compels me & mihoyo would be hard pressed to top it imo.!! caaaaan i humbly request yr thoughts on her first meeting w a reader of any kind, or maybe even multiple kinds (sagau, sagau god au, isekai, etc) if you so desire...
it really is like a desert here. being the fan of a character we aren't getting until the last damn nation is driving me up a wall but i will persevere bc if nothing else i support morally bankrupt women in media. we r in a severe drought over here but i do my best. unfortunately nothing i say is ever coherent so pull out your translation notes its abt 2 be messy
also this got out of hand but thats bc first meetings w the tsaritsa are tricky to write + a LOT of her characterization lies in deeper exploration then just surface level yknow...NOT A DIG AT YOU this is just my excuse for rambling. gently pats the tsaritsa she can hold so much complexity i do not have the word count to delve into it completely :]
gonna talk cult au for a bit here though because that's 99% of my content. and honestly? she thrives in sub au's of the cult au like villain au + imposter au. it's basically made for her. i mean, early days, the imposter au had been going around for a little while but one of the first few ideas was the Fatui taking reader in so like. it kinda technically actually was. pretty sure cult au Tsaritsa popped up because of the imposter au. a lot of it's writers kinda left though which. man am i getting old or.
anyway.
there isn't much of a chance her first impression is all that positive. at best it's usually neutral, imo, but rarely if ever positive. specifically because i view the Tsaritsa as someone who isn't as fanatical as most of the acolytes typically are towards the creator. she's not exactly going to worship the ground you walk on unlike a certain geo lizard. which is partially why i think she thrives in the sub au's i mentioned.
imposter au, for example. she meets you at your lowest. there's no gaudy extravagance or pampering from the acolytes waiting for you because your own acolytes have turned on you. for all intents and purposes you aren't a "god" at all. which is why i don't think she meshes well with normal cult au reader. the Fatui are made up of outcasts, basically, and imposter au slots right in just perfectly. you're weak, at your lowest, when you meet the Fatui in the imposter au. and the Fatui can help you, too.
a mutual exchange, really. the Tsaritsa sees a tool she can use to one up the rest of the nations and especially Archons, and she has no qualms about you using her and the Fatui in turn. you both want something out of it, after all. whether you just want to be safe from the rest of the acolytes, or you want revenge, or whatever else..she'll give you the power to fulfill it, and she gains the strongest piece on the chessboard when all is said and done.
the best way i can describe the first meeting is "practical", i suppose. she sees an opportunity in you. the ultimate gamble. because if she "saves" you, and you dont trust anyone else because they tried to kill you, well..she holds all the cards, doesn't she?
but the Tsaritsa, imo, is just as capable of being just as fanatical towards you as anyone else. she just won't worship you as the creator. but as yourself? clawing your way back to your divine power and taking back what belongs to you? the Tsaritsa is, to me, a character who's character flourishes in long-term fics more because she changes a LOT between "just met reader" and after having been with reader for some time. she's practically apathetic at the beginning but a lot of her character, in my characterization, shines through LONG after the first meeting.
#asks#Anonymous#sagau#tsaritsa#like. am i explaining this coherently?? first meetings r GOOD and i could go on a tangent of like. first meetings w zl and make it work#but first meetings w the tsaritsa is like. you just cooked a 5 course meal. took one bite. called it a day.#so much of my characterization lies in the “after” of the first meeting#because her first meetings are generally the same. she's apathetic at best!! she does not gaf abt the creator in the SLIGHTEST#but show that you are more then the creator? that you do not cling to the title like a shield? that you do not rely on it?#youve got the worst person youve ever known ready to kill a man for you.#tsaritsa is very like. EXTREMELY hard to earn the trust of but when you do she will kill someone for you no hesitation no question#which is why she works SO WELL in villain au and imposter au!!!!!!!!!#esp if theres a fake “creator” calling you the imposter. she hates their ass and was .5 seconds from dethroning them anyway#you just made it 10x easier#also cant do just first meetings bc i am incapable of not shoving themes of love into every fic w her SORRY#tsaritsa going on a full multiple month long mental breakdown bc she is not in love with you but she would destroy everything for u..#(shes in denial)#tsaritsa and complex themes of love and what it means for the god of love to be incapable of feeling it + what it means when reader shows u#LIKE UGHHHHHH okay. i guess ill write another tsaritsa fic and put it in my vault#aka my drafts#i hold so many fics hostage there its crazy#this answered like 0 of ur questions sorry i see tsaritsa and black out and this happens#i just think first meetings dont let her character really come thru but my response got out of hand so uhhhhh everyone look away. please#putting tape over my mouth now so i shut up before this gets worse#basically tsaritsa gravitates more towards outcast reader rather then one who has already become accustomed to the adoration of the acolyte#does that make sense........#i havent slept in forever and im running on nothing but spite and dreams atp dont expect coherency when it comes 2 the tsaritsa from me#head in hands someone please stop me i keep rambling abt the tsaritsa it makes me go NUTS#lays down. explodes
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Oh my gosh whyyyy am I so obsessed with numbers I don't like it at all this is driving me INSANEEEE😭😭IT'S GETTING WORSE AND WORSE AS THE DAYS GO BY AAAA
#IT'S SO WEIRD I HATE IT I HATE IT SO FCKING MUCH#I've had this weird relationship with numbers for years but it's gotten so much worse#I'm so obsessed with even numbers and odd numbers likeeee#I have even days and odd days?? that's what I call them anyways#where on even days everything has to involve even numbers and on odd days everything has to involve odd numbers#like those are my safe numbers for those days#and if I use the wrong number on the wrong day something bad will happen so I have to.I guess?? neutralize it?? somehow..#usually I figure out how in the moment but other times I just panic#likee for example today's an (I'm assuming) even day right now. so I have to have my tv volume on an even number#I have to eat an even number of food today#I CANNOT rb something on tumblr if I'm not on an even numbered reblog or I'm not an even numbered note... that makes no sense lemme explain#so I always have to like posts I reblog it's a rule I have for some reason. so in order for me to reblog a post#I have to land on an even number when I rb it#so for example if a post has 172 notes I'll like it which'll give it 173 notes then I'll rb which'll give it 174 notes#but if the post already has 173 notes before I liked it then I'll just like and not rb bcz if I rb it'll be 175 notes#which lands on an odd number and ahasbdhfbdsfaedw#it's the same for odd days just vice versa (it'd have to be on 177 though bcz 5 is an unsafe number for me rn)#YEAH 100% unsafe numbers for me are 3 5 6 and 9 and any number involving those numbers (so 26 and 13 are still unsafe)#basically no matter if it's an even day or an odd day I cannot land on anything with those numbers#and if I don't follow these rules my brain made up then something awful will happen or my day will go bad#or something I wanna do won't go well#thess numbers apply to EVERYTHING. and and it's SO ANNOYINGGGG. I've been trying to ignore it but it's getting harder and harder HELPPSADNF#I tried to tell my mom abt it but she just says “oh your grandma's also like that. you probably got it from her”#THANKS GRANDMA FOR THE NUMBER OBSESSION :'D#vent
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You think I've done awful things, and I have. But I'm not evil. It's me. You know me. I'm still the same person.
I actually think these lines / scene from Claudia is one of her most interesting in the entire show, so let's talk about it, beat by beat.
You think I've done some awful things, and I have.
This line, along with others from Viren (his "I had to" is another form of justification, and what's to justify if you done nothing 'wrong' or nothing to be blamed for?), i.e. "In the name of love, you will perform acts so unforgivable, you will never forgive yourself" as well as Claudia's explanation in 4x01 ("I had to do things... I never imagined I would be able to do" with tears in her eyes) and Terry's assertion ("I've seen you do a lot of awful things, dark magic things") is like... while Claudia still doesn't see the error, I'm willing to bet, with the bulk of her actions (elves and dragons are still clearly not wholly people to her), she's still done things that she considers awful. Things that crossed her previous moral lines, beginning, I'd bet, with the deer in 2x09, and that which only escalated from there.
Claudia still thinks she's a good person (which we will get to in a second, believe me) but she doesn't think she's squeaky clean. She knows, just as Viren knows (and just as Callum knows/believes) that she's done genuinely awful, terrible things.
A character feeling bad about doing something, or a character recognizing that something they've done is terrible ("It's horrific, Viren" "We have no other choice"), is not a get off scot free card in this show, and it never has been. Not for Claudia, and not for anyone else.
While Claudia has been manipulated by Aaravos, everything she's done is of her free will, and without lying to herself about the exact nature of them (even if there's still plenty she's in denial of like the plague, but I digress).
Claudia is like 5 different cognitive dissonances in a trenchcoat, but she's not stupid, either.
But I'm not evil. It's me.
This to me shows the mask slipping the post, because if there wasn't even a hint of possibility at being evil, you would feel no need to declare otherwise. I forget where I've said this before but Claudia cares (esp in arc 1, less so in arc 2 but it's not nonexistent) about being a good person. It's kinda like how Viren doesn't really care if he's good or not, but he wants to be important (matter). Bonus points for Claudia's hypocrisy/shields being worn down over time ("She kidnapped you and Prince Ezran, how can she be good?" -> attempting to do the exact same thing an episode later). She's cracking, but desperately trying to convince them (for mostly manipulation reasons) and herself (genuinely) that she's not, that instead...
You know me. I'm still the same person. I am.
TDP has always been very interested in identity, most notably for characters like Callum, Rayla, and Soren in arc 1, but it's fun to see it be expanded and interrogated further by looping Claudia in during arc 2. S5 and arc 2 places a lot of emphasis in particular on the idea of knowing yourself ("That's not my name. I am Elmer") or knowing others ("She's not the elf, she's Rayla") / preserving your sense of self in the face of change or hard circumstances ("But violence tests us" "Callum, you're the 'destiny is a book you write yourself' guy").
Claudia highlights this twofold. She asks the boys to know her, despite how much time and bad blood has gone by. She appeals to the many years of friendship they had in contrast to their few months turned years of being foes. It's barking up the wrong tree (Callum's Spellbook asserts that even as of s2/s3, "I feel like I don't know who she is anymore" on his end) but I am actually inclined to believe her.
This may be a misread, simply because from S1 but especially S2 onwards I always figured Claudia would end up precisely where she is now, so I don't know if it's the consistency influencing my judgement call possibly clouding more intense changes (she refused to use Harrow against the boys in 2x02, to a degree) but... I don't think almost anything Claudia does in S5 is something she wouldn't have done the bulk of in S1, other than threatening the boys, and she's done that multiple times by the time the end of S2 and S3 rolls around, most notably towards Ezran.
She's still the same person, but her circumstances and therefore her responses have gotten steadily, consistently worse. But this has always lived inside her. She's the same person (but worse), they know her and see her more clearly than they ever did before, and both of those things are precisely the problem.
#tdp claudia#dragons liveblogs#5x09#analysis series#eye motif#the dragon prince#tdp#tag ramble#reminds me of callum's assertion that 'not everything's changed' i.e. he's still as devoted to rayla as he always has been#since arguably 2x03 but i could argue for earlier#or even rayla and ezran and soren of like#by and large in arc 2 they are the same ppl they used ot be#but things are getting worse. so most of them are getting worse. and i think that's really interesting#negative character development/circumstance my beloved#altho rayla is getting better. For Now#one day i'll write a thing just about the claudia + viren eye motif properly
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