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doggirlnarcolepsy · 1 year

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#feel like I'm drowning #just so tired and empty #being in a relationship for so long only to realize they're having a hard time having romantic feelings for you after so many missteps #and now it being out in the open and I'm just panicking trying to mend what's essentially years of mistakes and baggage #i know I made a lot of mistakes and honestly she should've probably left me a while ago because of how unstable I am #I just feel so fucking stupid for not realizing what I had and having a hard time dealing with the fact that it was me being a shithead #and it was me not being affectionate enough for her to feel loved romantically and that just makes me feel so fucking broken #she's like a sister to me and I don't know what I'd do without her. I just don't know how much longer I can keep starving for affection #even though it's literally my fault that I am here in the first place... even if it was already the case before my latest episode #I certainly didn't make anything better..#back to crying into my plushie and maladaptive daydreaming i guess

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nightly-ruse · 1 year

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I think I’m unmotivated

#just so tired and empty #prob depression but yknow #that’s usual. I mean thsi is also usual #just don’t care much for anything or and generally too tired to do anything #not even drawing or eating much #I’m not starving or anything just don’t want to eat my usual things l #I’ll just go to bed. hope it goes away #ruse rambles

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hinamie · 2 months

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cursed kids v2 ⚠️👹

i've been a jjk first years stan since day one and have been wanting to redraw the first art i did featuring the three of them

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #itadori yuuji #fushiguro megumi #kugisaki nobara #yuuji #megumi #nobara #fanart #jjk fanart #im so tired help but theyre DONE im sososoosos pleased with them #even yuuji who dug his heels in to th very end :'>>>#wow 2020 rly was 4 years ago huh #to my credit i still think the designs i came up with in th og r honestly really good???#obv i didn't do a fullbody redraw (n thank god fr that) so i couldn't include All my details and there were some things that i edited #but overall they r solid !!!! i rly regret tht i couldn't include nobara's fishnets dgfhs #gave her her bat instead . equivalent exchange :)#she has one in the original but i specifically remember being bummed that the pose didnt let me show the nails that were in it #so took Full advantage of the new pose here !! she has killed before and will kill again #other changes....yuuji's omamori earring n sword details r New! as is the decision to include his canon scars :> fits the vibe #megumi changed the least?? changed the tassels n colour of his shoulder kanji to match yuuji and gave him a cigarette to fill empty space #other than that i think th majority of his changes r just me getting better at drawing megu #god the edited poses make these designs sing im so happy i did this #these r my kids !!!!! they have grown with me!!!!!#i am very proud and also sleep deprived and i need to not look at these anymore

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paper-cities · 3 months

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#vibe check!!!#killugon #killua zoldyck #gon freecss #hunter x hunter #im. so tired like yikes. head empty just them.#why did i spend time to poorly color this… another of lifes lil mysteries <3

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bixels · 3 months

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I'm not getting into The Giving Tree discourse...

#personal #delete later #idk i just saw a post of the “alternate ending” comic on my dash and everyone praising it as an improvement and “fixing” the original #which i kinda resent #while tulli and i was taking my nephew to a book store we walked around the kids section and found the giving tree and we read through it #and i was so stricken by how profoundly sad it is. it's not a happy story #in the end both versions tell the exact same lesson. but one flat out tells you and the other makes you sit with a pit in your stomach #and work to find the answer #i dunno it's kids literature but kids literature is important. i don't wanna discredit anyone's bad memories with the book but also i think #sometimes it's ok to make kids a bit sad and upset with fiction.#tweet that goes “what if romeo and juliet didn't kill themselves and explained to the audience that family feuds are bad”#idk you can't seriously read the original book as an adult and say it's glorifying self-martyrdom #when the final drawing of the book is of an old tired man sitting on arotting stump with his hat fallen to the ground #again i don't wanna invalidate people's feelings if they enjoy the alt version i think it's really nice too. but the original has its #purpose too. imagine if at the end of the lorax they show that the boy did it and replanted the world happy ending #wait they did that in the movie shit #i dunno i just love somber children's literature. tulli and i are talking about moomin right now and how the series ends with the moomin #family just leaving. and nobody gets to say goodbye to them. their friends have to find ways to live with the emptiness they've left behin

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sunnymainecoonx · 4 months

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I don't think I ever published these so ig.....

There's a last one but err warning for gore and blood(mostly just ripping an arm off)

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timethehobo · 5 months

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Head empty, doodle another zev.

#Baldur’s gate 3 #bg3 #bg3 zevlor #my art #head empty so just doodle doodle #stylised a tad maybe #brain is too tired so the hand wandered with the pen #oh zev #he’s a cutie ok

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lavender-rroses · 1 year

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read a fic where gillion made destiny’s blade out of water and i wanted to draw it

+some pretzels bc i love her

#jrwi riptide #jrwi #jrwi fanart #gillion tidestrider #fanart #lavrose art #jrwi pretzel #i also felt like painting #and avoiding homework hehehehe #i don’t think i’ve ever drawn water like this actually lmfao #i tried my best #art #doodle #did this while watching trail to oregon and ani #i’m so excited for nerdy prudes must die #ok i’m done with the tags #just roll with it #SIKE #canvas is very empty but i don’t wanna resize gill i’m lazy and tired

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canisalbus · 25 days

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Whenever I see the they/them please in your bio I am strongly reminded of the meme where the guy says "he looks very polite", the t-rex arms thing that some people so, or of a sad little teary wet dog. I really hope you know that you absolutely don't have to ask, that you could just say they/them.

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#ah #on some level I know yes #and it's very nice of you to come and say that to my face because it certainly feels good to hear it ;-;#answered #anonymous #this has nothing to do with anything but I've noticed that do the t-rex arms thing when I'm really tired #at one time I was emptying the dishwasher and thinking to myself 'why is this taking so much time and effort??'#then realized I had been keeping my left arm folded against my chest the whole time and was doing everything with just one hand

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beaft · 3 months

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every time i tell my mum about a personal difficulty i've faced due to being trans she's like "well you can't complain, you chose this" and i'm like. alright. technically true, i suppose, but also not the most tactful or helpful thing you could have said in the moment

#had an incident today where i had to pick between male and female bathrooms and the male ones had a queue for the single stall #so i went for the female one (which was empty) because i don't love standing in the men's staring at my feet hoping i don't get clocked #except as soon as i went into the female bathroom a bunch of girls came in after me and i had to hide till they'd gone #relayed this to my mum and she thought it was very funny #couldn't even be like 'actually it wasn't funny it was really scary and humiliating'#because i knew if i did she'd just be like you asked for this you knew what you were getting into etc etc #and she'd be right. technically.#lord above i am tired

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onejellyfishplease · 11 months

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here, have another meme redraw.

#i thought it was funny #snapdonnie (post curing) is just so traumatised #beetle donnie is just distraught #unmutated is vibing #Mosquitello is probably plotting behind thise empty eyes #theyre tired #rottmnt #rottmnt donnie #open your shell to find your wings #mosquitello #snapdonnie #unmutated donnie au #meme redraw

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causeimanartist · 1 year

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Who even am I if I can't draw Bruce Wayne?

#I'm on the struggle bus #I'm just so tired and bored #it's been a loooooong few weeks #(worse for my mom but still long)#I just want to be no thoughts head empty draw Batman #instead I'm so many thoughts head stressed can't draw #fuck the chronic art block and fuck working at a law firm #I hate it here >:(#dad if you see this no you don't #don't psychoanalyze me #to delete later #not art

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janthewriter · 9 months

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I Am Tired

I am tired of feeling unloved.

I do not think anybody could ever love an unusual creature of perpetual habit like me. Only can they become intrigued with fascination of the unknown. Digging and prodding, only to yield no answers, fueling their anger until they move on to next best thing of existence, one that will gift them with the satisfaction they do hungrily desire.

I am tired of feeling this way.

My mind takes me to the dungeons of a Victorian castle in some frightful place unknown. Even the moonlight raises no hope against this stand of darkness within. I can never seem to escape the shackles. I must free myself. I must free my brain from it’s cranium. And then maybe I will finally be set free at last.

I am tired of the hollow emptiness.

It almost feels as if there is nobody else out here in this void of darkness. I call out, echoes of silence are my only answer in return. I turn mute. Only to match the peaceful, yet painful silence, that I am forever engulfed in.

I am tired of feeling trapped.

I wish I could free myself from this labyrinth, that I somehow found myself stumbling into. The birdcage in my chest that encloses a beautiful bluejay, feels punctured with every breath, being poked and prodded for amusement.

I am tired of breathing.

I breath, just for the oxygen to be sucked out of my lungs through the mouth of a lover, into the infinite space unknown. It is pointless, I shall take shallow breaths until my breathing diminishes altogether; this way it can never be stolen at the hands of a thief needy for more, again.

I am tired of seeing the good.

It becomes painfully hard to see the good, when I can only feel the bad. My eyes are the most diligent. They never fail at accomplishing to deceive me with enticements that are almost up for no refusal. I know better to believe the sweet lies that my eyes show me, telling me all is well. Almost nothing in this world is.

I am tired of fighting.

I am strong and indestructible, until I am not. I become so weak and fragile that with every step I take, my bones creak, revealing my hand of vulnerability. My armor has become too heavy, my arms to weak. Tears cascade down the calming silver onto the battle ground. Fighting has become pointless. It is not in my favor. But someone must win the battle. This war must end eventually.

I am tired of only being seen externally.

My body has nothing left to give. I have ripped every organ out with my bare hands, just to serve them on a silver platter to the greedy. I have given almost everything away, but no one has accepted my heart yet. Seek pity on me and just take what’s left of my heart and make it yours.

I am tired of this torturous day to day life.

A good day only seems to stare at me with wide eyes, extending it’s hand. I reach out in acceptance, thinking greatness is to be bestowed upon me, at last. I am deceived into receiving the small left over bread crumbs called inconvenience. I watch as the the latter is passed on to the next one in line awaiting the opportunity of delight.

I can’t do this much longer.

I am just really really tired.

~Jan