#just plain rambles

[istilldontunderstand]

just bc I feel like I didn't do anything today, I'm gonna write down exactly the "nothing" I did today:

dusted and hoovered my room

sprayed the nasty mold that haunted my room corner

ventilated said room like thousand times

cleaned pipes in the bathroom

baked a pie

caught up with my personal bookkeeping

changed my sheets

washed and hanged clothes from two full washing machines

rearranged furniture in my room

made pudding

on top of that, I am still bit ill after two weeks of temperatures and coughing so I took the necessary time to take all my medication and cough up my lung in the morning

and still after the whole day, I feel like I could've done more just because right now I am sitting idly in front of my computer eating and staring at videos

so to all my buddies who have the same nagging feeling of "I should/could've done more", I feel you and please rest <3

[celtrist]

It's okay to be emotional over a ship.

It's okay to be emotional over a ship. It's okay to be emotional over characters. It's okay to share grievances over a ship as much as it's okay to gush over a ship. It's okay to feel so overwhelmingly negatively over a ship just as much as it's okay to feel so overwhelmingly positive.

While it's always going to be better to focus on positives, it can also be just as good to let out any negatives you might have about something rather than bottling it in and, for some, feeling alone in your thoughts about it.

It is so, so, SO OKAY to be so heavy in emotions concerning a ship whether negative or positive because it means you're invested in the characters and their relationships. When spaces seem to allow only positivity when some people might have some negative thoughts on a ship, it really negates any conversations about it and even understanding sides of why someone may or may not ship something.

While understandable, there is a double standard between being negative and positive about ships (or portrayal of characters). If you feel overwhelmingly negative about something, "you need to go touch grass". If you feel overwhelmingly positive about something, "go at it queen". I would personally argue we all need to touch grass.

It is NOT okay to harass others. It is NOT okay to let your emotions dictate that you should attack somebody for LIKING a certain ship or DISLIKING a certain ship. Your emotions DO NOT dictate how OTHERS should feel.

It is okay to be negative about a character or ship as much as it's okay to be positive about them. Neither side of being for or against a ship is more virtuous than the others. It's okay to have some fucking emotions regardless if their positive or not, because it means you CARE about the media and the characters in it.

No, you should not revolve your whole online experience in negativity. Find positive in things you DO enjoy. But to brush off people who vehemently might dislike a character or ship as "losers with no lives" is to disregard a person's emotions on something. And if you do wanna think that mindset, congrats, people who obsessively love a character or ship are just the same by your logic. Obsession is obsession, regardless if it's negative or positive.

TL;DR, If it's okay to be overwhelmingly positive in liking something like a ship or character, it should be just as okay to be negative in disliking something like a ship or character. Just as long as it's not the ONLY thing you focus on and no one is actively being bullied, attacked, or harassed about it. And of course, either way, positive or negative, it is all fiction, and a real person should not be attacked or harassed for it. And if you don't want to indulge in negativity you might have, 100% valid. Both sides always need to take a step back into reality.

[spac3d0lls]

“talia was a codename for noel!”

“noel was catfishing mischa!”

don't care. CURSE OF RA 𓀀 𓀁 𓀂 𓀃 𓀄 𓀅 𓀆 𓀇 𓀈 𓀉 𓀊 𓀋 𓀌 𓀍 𓀎 𓀏 𓀐 𓀑 𓀒 𓀓 𓀔 𓀕 𓀖 𓀗 𓀘 𓀙 𓀚 𓀛 𓀜 𓀝 𓀞 𓀟 𓀠 𓀡 𓀢 𓀣 𓀤 𓀥 𓀦 𓀧 𓀨 𓀩 𓀪 𓀫 𓀬 𓀭 𓀮 𓀯 𓀰 𓀱 𓀲 𓀳 𓀴 𓀵 𓀶 𓀷 𓀸 𓀹 𓀺 𓀻 𓀼 𓀽 𓀾 𓀿 𓁀 𓁁 𓁂 𓁃 𓁄 𓁅 𓁆 𓁇 𓁈 𓁉 𓁊 𓁋 𓁌 𓁍 𓁎 𓁏 𓁐 𓁑 𓀄 𓀅 𓀆

[mammoth-clangen]

It makes me so happy to see how passionate you are about paleo!! That kind of dedication is so lovely to engage with

Oh I'm glad! I worry I'm rambling aimlessly so knowing that at least some people are enjoying it is nice to hear c:

For some paleo related fun, here's a huge Eurasian Pleistocene Big Cat sketchdump from 2023 when I was brainstorming for White Cat, Gold Plains

I still like a lot of these, though I was obviously trying to lean more into realism than I do in Kindred Also they're not Fleet Fangs, they're a different species within the same genera, Homotherium latidens and Panthera (leo) spelaea

Past me was some kind of madlad trying to put spots on things, no wonder the comic died after 10 pages c':

[maniaeofmadness]

Not ashamed to say that I hate superhero costumes that at just skin tight with nothing else. Give me more dimension! Give me more texture! Give me something more interesting!

I love The Bats outfits so much because they always have so much more dimension and creativity than just another skin tight body suit. Big fan of the fact that Babs’s bat girl kit often has separate pants and jacket. Damian’s Robin costume having influences from his League of Assassins attire. Jason as Red Hood almost always has a jacket in his costume that ties everything together.

The Supers’ costumes lowkey piss me off cuz most of the time it’s just a skin tight suit that has variations in color and nothing else. Young Jon Kent’s Superboy design is my favorite for him because the jeans and the zip up give it so much personality, but then he ages up and gets the same fuck ass spandex suit as his dad. He doesn’t even wear the trunks!?! Kon is one of my fav Supes because he almost always has a belt or pants or jacket depending on his iteration, and of course 90s Conner Kent with the beautiful jacket, belt, AND shades?!?!!?!?!? Clark could never.

I know it’s mainly cuz they wear their suit under their regular clothes, but like- you have super speed????? It’s really not that big of an issue

Anyway, all this to say we need more dimension in superhero’s costumes than just spandex

[rainecreatesstuff]

the problem with being a desert duo enjoyer is like. (on a character level) they hate each other but also they love each other so so much and. grian hates himself for hurting scar and scar has only ever actually been hurt from grian pulling away out of fear of hurting him. they are cuddling and talking about building on hermitcraft and in secret life they are leaning across a counter with palpable tension in the air and also pushing and pulling away and towards each other. grian is hooking his claws in scar’s shirt and scar is gently unweaving them from the fabric but wrapping grian in his arms when he falls from the sudden force. also they are fucking nasty style. also they are tenderly making love and crying. also they trust each other more than anyone else and at the same time they are holding each other at arms length with a sword

does that make sense

[kyouka-supremacy]

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[soscarlett1twas]

(tw/cw: this is dark and discusses things such as suicide, blood, abuse, etc. they’re mostly brief but still be mindful.)

mythic!twin who was not born a supernatural being.

mythic!twin who was born minutes after a baby identical to himself and whom he spent his early life attached to the hip of.

mythic!twin who shared a unique language with his twin similar to how they shared a womb. incomprehensible to anyone else, it was their secret. it would not be their only shared vice.

mythic!twin who slowly began to be discarded in favor of his brother, who slunk to the shadows not because he wanted to, but because he was suddenly the moon to his twins sun, a rock only permitted to shine under the other’s glow.

mythic!twin who began to resent him.

mythic!twin who no, didn’t resent his brother. he was jealous, sure. who he truly hated was their parents. their false piety. their teachings.

mythic!twin who sat in his sunday best, trying his best to block out the preacher. it were the small justices he searched for. his eyes always landed on his brother.

mythic!twin who was shoved to the back of photos and watched his brother take centerstage, forced there by their parents bragging. he was a treasure. what could his mirror hold to that?

mythic!twin who is approached by a boy nearly every mass. they’re of similar age, they talk. turns out they attend the same school as well. they become friends.

mythic!twin who fears they’re also becoming something more.

mythic!twin who realizes the way they act around eachother it’s not normal. but they adore it. they adore each other.

mythic!twin who can turn to no one about this but his brother. he has no response, just shell shock. he’s uncomfortable, but it has to be done. they talk it out. neither reaches a conclusion.

mythic!twin who does, mentally, and knows his twin did to. they just can’t say it aloud.

mythic!twin who passes through life with this creeping knowledge of himself. but that self hatred took root from his parents and their vitriol, so how true can it really be?

mythic!twin who accepts himself slowly. slowly and painfully. but it is a piece of himself he fosters and cares for, because he knows no one else will do it for him. not his parents, who would kill him if they found out. so he does it instead.

mythic!twin who takes the chance and kisses the boy. he kisses back.

mythic!twin who never officially dates the boy, but it’s them. it’s them against whatever invisible force there is in the world which hates them. neither realize it’s still themselves.

mythic!twin who is happy. and he shares it with his brother. they laugh. they reconnect, which has been rare since he moved schools to persue his academics. but it’s still them.

mythic!twin who doesn’t see the fall coming.

mythic!twin who is only there to expirence the avalanche.

mythic!twin who gets a call from his ‘friends’ mom about what happened.

about the suicide.

mythic!twin who collapses in on himself. how couldn’t he have seen it coming? was it his fault? was it because he was too scared to save him? was it because he was so lackadaisical in his relationship that he couldn’t see the signs?

mythic!twin who gets his answer that sunday, when the preacher man stands in front of his crowd and disgraces the boy for his sin. for his homosexuality.

mythic!twin who hates everything. himself. his brother. his parents. the church. everything but the boys grave, which he sneaks out to see.

mythic!twin who finishes his highschool education in a fog. he can’t wait to get out of there.

mythic!twin who leaves and has no intention to look back.

mythic!twin who goes kind of crazy in uni.

mythic!twin who does whatever the fuck he wants. he did so before, but this was far more restrained. he’s having the time of his life, still carved out from grief, but growing a life around it.

mythic!twin who had a roommate, a man named helios. they do not get along.

mythic!twin who only goes back for the holidays, partly because he has to.

mythic!twin who only sees murderers when he stumbled through those halls, purposely either drunk or avoiding his brother. often both.

mythic!twin who returns and crashes in his dorm. who spends some time with helios, learning he’s actually a pretty chill guy. they start to get along.

mythic!twin who is actually healing. he’s mellowed out. he’s working on his degree.

mythic!twin who gets a text from his brother asking to talk, saying that he tried over the holidays but couldn’t seem to get to him.

mythic!twin who agrees, because honestly yeah he misses his brother. they use to be best friends. how bad could a talk really be?

mythic!twin who goes out to a cafe with his twin. his brother is fidgeting and nervous, he tells him out with it.

mythic!twin who is told his brother is dating a man.

mythic!twin who watches his twin gush about it. how amazing it is.

mythic!twin whose heartbeat is rapid and the only thing he can hear. who is about to have a panic attack. who tells his brother how happy he is for him before telling him he has to go.

mythic!twin who is upset beyond words or meaning. who is pissed. who is sad. who is scared.

mythic!twin who is above all, what he always is of andrew: jealous.

mythic!twin who can’t stand him anyone. can’t stand himself. back is the self-hatred spiral and memories of a boy he once loved, unreachable.

mythic!twin who returns to the less healthy of coping mechanisms.

mythic!twin who finds himself stumbling drunk, helios holding him up.

mythic!twin who collapses close to water, mumbling out his prayers, uncaring that helios hears it and is trying to help him back.

mythic!twin who wishes a heaven exists just for his first love to live happy. who wishes for a hell to house everyone who killed him.

mythic!twin who confesses since, he’s always been scared of loving someone more than he’d be hated for it.

mythic!twin who is so fucking envious of his brother. who hates him and loves him, who could not be more different yet always end up with the same sins, but yet again, diverging outcomes.

mythic!twin who whispers these retributions to the water of the thames, which was deceptively clean in the moonlight.

mythic!twin who does not even realize when he drunkenly falls in.

mythic!twin who does not realize he’s falling.

mythic!twin who watches a large, scaly creature swarm around him, ensnaring him in a whirlpool of its own tail.

mythic!twin who does not realize when he becomes a supernatural being, only that something fundamental has changed about him.

mythic!twin who awakes in the dorm room, unclear on if what happened was a dream or not. and helios seems unsure too.

mythic!twin who tries to readjust to life after… whatever that was.

mythic!twin who is told by his roommate, his friend, that he is moving back to america. he is welcome to join him.

mythic!twin who gives no real answer.

mythic!twin who is left to his own devices when yet again, someone leaves him.

mythic!twin who begins reeling. it starts small. the feeling of slithering on his back, feeling strangely in tune with the water and, perhaps most alarmingly, in tune with people’s jealousy’s.

mythic!twin who feels his own compounding his skull constantly.

mythic!twin who is terrified.

mythic!twin who just wants comfort. and not even his own self can feed it anymore.

mythic!twin who's so desperate for love, for someone, he begins a whirlwind affair with the first man who gives him the attention he wants.

mythic!twin who knows not all love is good. but he doesn’t know what he is.

mythic!twin who also doesn’t know the trimedian exists.

mythic!twin who is take by his affair, stolen off to america to be put through the circuit of underground supernatural dealings.

mythic!twin who had no clue what he even is and is still being punished for it.

mythic!twin who’s world has been yet again turned upside down by everything revealed to him. but he’s not even given the time to consider it for himself, as he’s quickly bartered off to a man. no, not a man. a gang.

mythic!twin who is quickly thrown into californian power schemes as he becomes a pawn for the penance, who plan on using ‘his kind’ for an upcoming gang war.

mythic!twin who has no god damn clue what this means but wants to get out of there. aimless for so long, now he had a lust. a craven need. one for escape.

mythic!twin who is not unfamiliar to this need.

mythic!twin who is beaten and drugged by brutes, trying to edge the monster out of him.

mythic!twin who feels something growing inside of himself. something deeply reminiscent of the beast in the water. but he has the wits about him to not give them the satisfaction.

mythic!twin who can barely hold onto those wits any longer.

mythic!twin who is beaten. and bloody. and dissociative. and drugged. and berated. and abused.

mythic!twin who is gone. he had never had much of a life. it wouldn’t be the first time he thought of, or even attempted, suicide.

mythic!twin who had no other thoughts. just that. and, of course, the growing feeling inside of him. the snake-like one. the one which held him in the thames that night.

mythic!twin who one day sees an exit.

mythic!twin who runs.

mythic!twin who's so drugged out and panicked he accidently kills the only man standing in his way. a man who tries to claim he isn't apart of the penance, that he can get him out, but it's too late.

mythic!twin who mauls the man badly but manages to escape. thankfully the compound is near a body of water. he bounds towards it but the man, holding onto his last breath, tries to tell him something.

mythic!twin who only hears his name was vic before dragging him down into the water with him, his terf, finishing him off.

mythic!twin who is not him in these moments, but something monstrous. what the penance wanted him to become. what his parents always knew he was.

mythic!twin who watches the diffusing blood cloud around the body as it drifts ashore.

mythic!twin who, instead, swims down low, in a body not quite his own.

mythic!twin who rests in the water.

mythic!twin who never wants to leave his domain. his home.

mythic!twin who tries to accept death.

mythic!twin who finally has control of everything around him, of himself. mostly. but still cannot have the last thing he wants - rest. death.

mythic!twin who finally lets himself wash up on a river bank, falling asleep under the sun, a person once more.

mythic!twin who awakes in a bed. there are no harsh florescent lights. just thick blinds and doctors equipment around him. he cannot be back with the gang. this is too nice for him. he'd already would've been killed for an escape attempt.

mythic!twin who lays until someone returns, dressed in a lab coat. they turn to get someone else, someone he hadn't known for a long time.

mythic!twin who watches helios step through that door. they watch eachother for a moment before helios approaches him. he explains. what he is, what this is, what the 'underground ravens' are. what the penance are.

mythic!twin who listens, confused.

mythic!twin who is presented with a choice. for the first time in his life. he has a choice.

the ravens or freedom?

mythic!twin who is scared. who is lonely. who is fucking terrified. who is in no room to make a rational decision. so helios lets him wait.

mythic!twin who waits for weeks, rehabilitating with the doctor whom he comes to learn is apart of the ravens. he meets others, friends of helios. it's still a gang. but it isn't a penance-type gang. it's a something smaller. less cruel.

mythic!twin who chooses to stay with the ravens, on condition he is to work as a doctor as well to help people like him (whatever that means.) helios smiles. he wouldn't want it any other way.

mythic!twin who clasps hands with helios and embraces him, a brother in arms.

he watches the slight movements of his patient from across the room, it is not often he is able to aid those who were stuck in the same ring as him, but when it does happen, he is able to offer the unique comfort of shared experience.

when he has free time, he spends it with helios or the other higher-ups. the underground ravens were tight-knit, friends before their guns. or his abilities.

he also spends it in london. helios criticizes him for it sometimes, but he doesn't know. not yet. he'll tell him eventually.

"just, stay safe, darius."

"i will."

and the line goes dead, and he looks up. it was not planned, but he watches the nasty thames water lap below him. nightfall did wonders to hide its filth, but he could sense the impurity like a buzz or sour taste.

what he could not sense was the man a few yards from him, but that was planned.

he stood with a person at his side, their silhouette barely visible.

he wouldn't mind a reunion with them present, but he has little interest in it now. the man hadn't even spotted him. he'd like to keep it that way.

he had thought he needed this conversation, but he found the emptiness of it, the questions of what would happen, kept him biting at the dream more than it's realization.

so he turned back to the water and dived in.

he was not human when he fully submerged, serpentine in body and soul. he was not a brother, a lover, a fool. he was Leviathan. and Leviathan was he.

[youandthemountains]

it probably is insane how much I wish I could express the thing about spones. the vibes about spones. Like there's the joking fun fandom vibes and I love them, I love to play with them, of course of course. but the THING. the CORE to me. i wish i could capture it and share it.

[margindoodles2407]

WHY is our copy of the Catechism khaki with an orange drop-shadow font

[milolunde]

We all know Timmy is Wanda’s mama’s boy but we need to keep in mind he’s still Cosmo’s kid too and that Cosmo would love him just as vehemently as Wanda

[spicy-phantom2]

Genuinely can't tell when I'm being flirted with. I've also been told that I flirt accidentally. Please just make it easy for me by taking hold of my wrist and bringing my hand exactly where you want me to touch you. Tell me point blank that you want me and steal a kiss.

[nightsong-rain]

I love how Bloodborne has such interesting lore. And if you watched Charred Thermos' SEVERAL part in depth video essay about the real life inspirations it's a lot more fucked up.

But also it has silly little moments in it like how you can basically play dress up with the messengers. You can also just turn it into a dress up game with virtually no consequences. (I do) Fisting your enemies to kill them. The Doll's reactions to your gestures. Micolash's death line never ceases to crack me up, I find myself quoting him when he dies. Wearing the golden ardeo and going down ladders. And the milkweed rune just turns you into a cauliflower alien.

[wackpedion]

you guys ever think about what kind of gossip about you there is out there

[hypocriticaltypwriter]

I had to do some outfit studies for art and went with Maternity Fashion Of The 80s! Featuring Chrysta during her late trimesters into pregnancy with some of her boys. 🥺🤭

[windwardstar]

Oh good news today: I managed to go the entire eye doctor appointment including the glasses shopping part without getting misgendered once. And when it became obvious I was not finding what I was looking for in the petite women frames (ick) someone directed me to the youth frames which had multiple options I liked and one that was my favorite shape and color!