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Name: Morgan le Fay
Personality:
Somewhere between the 'crazy hermit' and the 'mysterious cloaked figure,' Morgan has carved her niche. She likes to ramble about magic because a lot of people don't. And she does subject those that need her help to it because if you're gonna ask, you're going to understand how it works. She is rather chipper seeming and unserious acting in all situations. However she is also quite learned and wise. She is unintentionally the one that others go to for their woes and honestly she's 'I don't know why the come either...I'm not that good at it but they keep coming...' So she often tries her best with the other generals and tries to put forward a more showy self when engaging with others she is less familiar with.
Background:
The Court Mage and one of King Balmoral's generals. Everyone knows of the Morgan le Fay or at least some version of her. And Morgan is fine with just about any spinning of the story...because they're all entertaining to her. It's so creative how beings, especially mortals, have come to view her. Although she is aware how contrary or anticlimatic it is to find her in service to a king in a relatively 'quiet' section of the world.
And that is because...she is not Morgan le Fay. At least not the one that everyone likes to talk about. 'Morgan le Fay' is more of a title and she is just the latest inheritor of it. Although she does know of the one everyone knows...because that's her mother. She is the daughter of the storied 'witch' and the infamous Merlin. As she would remark, "As often as those two stirred together, was it not inevitable?"
As such, she should be this all powerful witch coming from two very strong people...but Morgan has found herself lacking. It makes her embarrassed she doesn't have this amazing know-how that her parents have. Even though neither parent had this expectation on her as they're immensely proud of their daughter, whom they feel is much better than she gives herself credit for. She just need opportunity to see and use it.
This is where Balmoral met the magic users. He had risen a bit but hadn't yet caused his upheaval. He was planning for how to care for those under his command if he was to do a grand scheme. He had wanted to find the coire ansic, the cauldron that would never run dry and would not leave one unsatisfied. However he doesn't like running solely one task in mind and had also searched for Mwys Gwyddno Garanir, the Hamper of Gwyddno Garanir, where food for one man would be placed in and out would come food to feed at least 100. The search for the latter brought him into contact with Merlin.
Merlin and Morgan both could tell he was gonna do some things and Balmoral could discern who they were and it never hurt to have powerful in your pocket. However both eschewed anything to do with royalty since the Avalon incident but they did offer their daughter to go with him as she had been a bit of shut-in from her studies. And the promise to aid if ever Morgan wasn't enough (but they never thought it ever needed) so long as Balmoral had cared and taught their daughter.
"Ah'm a fighter and she a powerful caster, what could ah possibly teach her?" it was less he was confused and more of he wanted clarification of their terms. They cited him as something of a showman and able to perform despite his...shortcomings. And that if he can help her learn even a fraction of that, they'd be happy to help him out. Of course they needed Morgan's consent to it all. She initially thought that her parents just wanted her out the house and took it so that she could stop 'embarrassing them.'
This was centuries ago and Morgan isn't the same girl she was then. She has grown to be as she might say "a cross between that crazy witch of the woods and the mysterious mage sending one on a grand destiny." She has been a friend and confidant to Balmoral for that long and whom he trusts in matters of magical import. He has never called on her parents because she is that capable. She is also the only general at this point that knows about the fateweaving and has only remained silent due to her promise to Balmoral. Although she has long encouraged he speak before it becomes a problem.
#{The Unseelie}#{Players of the Underground}#she actually is that powerful witch#just needed to gain the confidence#also her parents are very loving#it's her pushing for something more#I realized#I have Morgan up#but I never actually#y'know#introduced her#so here she is#before I finish the other posts
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#jennifer jareau#criminal minds#criminal minds evolution#i had to get this peer reviewed before i gained the confidence to post it to tumblr#i dont think any explanation is needed though i just had a vision
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#The fact that he was too terrified to perform this song with his more “straightforward” rock group and then as soon as he started making#music with john f it was their very first song on their very first demo is just so beautiful#and like when youre used to the way he performs as part of tmbg its insane too imagine him being too shy to even sing loudly enough like#fast forward a couple years and theyre doing the most outlandish stage performances#like he was NOT too shy to sing anymore and its like . he just needed to be making music with the right person#to gain confidence . and as we know john flansburgh Is that fucking person#god like. this is maybe just gonnna make me cry#Spotify#tp#tmbg
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Lol
#theres nothing quite like your mother saying Well maybe you shouldve been more careful because now your boss might think youve been flirting#with this male coworker (whom i like splendidly as a friend) and now maybe she thinks youre not trustworthy#and maybe she regrets hiring you because you said you feel like youre making a lot of mistakes this week and she might assume thats because#your head is filled with this boy.#so dont make her regret hiring you.#MA'AM I TOLD YOU I WAS ALREADY ANXIOUS BECAUSE I MADE SO MANY MISTAKES TODAY WHY ARE YOU MAKING ME ASHAMED#OF SOMETHING THAT I HONESTLY HAD NO CLUE I OUGHT TO BE ANXIOUS ABOUT AT MY FIRST NEW JOB AFTER IVE GRADUATED????#anyway going to bed i cant take this anymore LOL she said it so lightly and im like. well i never even considered#being afraid of making my boss regret hiring me somehow because of some kind of behaviour that i had no idea was sending some kind of signal#anywaysssss 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#and then she was like why are you crying?? 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀#not to be like this is partly why i didnt want to move home but confound it all why are things like this#can i not simply confide in my mother my anxieties and worriws#worries#and not also have to worry about her potentially being like Well have you considered you ARE right and it IS your fault?#idk man something something firstborn child eldest daughter can i have some room to breathe. please#also not to whine but Not my father walking in on me eating dinner at 10pm because i was holed up#in my room in a semi depressive state after so many gong shows in a work day and straight up having no appetite#but deciding my body needs the food anyway its better late than never.....walking in and then saying#you know if you eat this late you'll gain weight. SIR??????????????????#sorry to complain and rant again i simply cannot in this house and whats more am doing my best to honour my parents#but why is it so hard out here and how can they say stuff like that with a smile!!!!!!!#also i DO have an inner critic who is always like Its your fault you are the worst you should be ashamed always........why do my parents#not understand after knowing me for so long and watching me grow up#that i can make myself so ashamed of the smallest thing so easily and that what they say drives me to shame almost as easily?#ANYWAY LOL WHAT A DAY#you guys!!! i am working so hard i promise i PROMISE I am!!! it is my first full time job ever and i am working so so hard#i am doing my absolute best and no one sees it and that is FINE i just wish my parents would see that i AM trying!!#i come back home so dead every single day because i put in 120%! this is literally my first job after graduation#and my parents KNOW this has been the most exhausting taxing and soul crushing year ive had in my very short life so far
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my princess nonsense is being encouraged watch ouyt imabout to be eneaabled
OK WHATF ATHAT'S SO CUTE I HAD TO MAKE IT i know realistically there's little to no chance that rei DOESN'T know how to work heels 🤣 BUT IMAGINE.....ING.... YAKUMO GENTLY GUIDING REI IN HEELS, WEEKS BEFORE THE BIG GALA AND HAVING NONE OF HIS NORMAL FEAR OF PHYSICAL TOUCH BC HIS [TEACHER MODE] IS OVERRIDING HIS INSECURITY
#rei looking directly at the camera like why are you subjecting me to this. i do not need any of this. i know how to do it#rei wearing stilettos the size of your head so he becomes ur very tall bird goth gf#you know how yakumo gets when he instructs someone on how to cook something#he becomes confident and just tells ppl how to do stuff without his usual amount of stutter and secondguessing#i'm gonna pretend that after his stiletto training in misty vale he gains a TINY MOLECULE of confidence due to experience#like [i can help you if you've never done it before?]#honestly i can't imagine this scenario happening because i am so SURE that rei can walk in heels HAHAHA even tho nothing has proven that#SOMETHING COME PROVE ME WRONG SO MY DELUSIONS CAN SLIDE CLOSER TO POSSIBILITY#anyway even if rei didn't know how to wear heels#would he ever mention it? would yakumo ever learn of it?#rei would probably be all . i don't need to wear heels. they can't even see them under the dress. i'll wear my practical shoes#but if he can't get away with that and will be forced to wear heels at the party...#maybe he'll go [meh. i'll figure it out] and just not wear them until the day of the dance#at which point his feet will hurt after 20 minutes and for the whole night he takes any chance to sit down#rei can be frequently spotted on SOME surface SOMEWHERE in the palace. sitting all splayed out and uncaring of propriety#because he is in PAIN and these shoes are STUPID and why do people wear them for ANYTHING . Royals are so IMPRACTICAL#yakumo keeps trying to avoid heels for the dance because he doesn't want to be any taller than he already is#i bet there's a full convo about it between him and eiden#eiden trying to reassure him that if he wants to wear heels then he shouldn't let others' perception stop him from doing so#but if he genuinely doesn't want to wear them then that's ok too#eiden craning his neck up at yakumo in heels like you're my pretty princess 1-2 heads taller than me your height doesn't matter 🥰#i'm now torn. yakumo and rei both wearing heels now? in order to stay at similar heights?#or. rei starting out with heels. getting tired of them. going barefoot for the rest of the night lol#yakumo and rei still dancing in their ballgowns together but a much shorter rei leads a yakumo in heels#yes. yes this is the vision#yakurei#replies#nu carnival yakumo#nu carnival rei
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I see now that you're still just a child. Your heart isn't hard enough to do whatever it takes.
I messed up, I know I did. Because I let that human go, we're all in danger. But that's why you have to let me make it right.
You still young, little one. Your heart is good. Sees things others cannot. I've been messing things up, and everyone's been angry at me. What if they're right? What if I'm... not good?
It's the irony of Runaan's loss of faith in the future versus Kruha's renewed hope; Runaan sees Rayla's naïvety and youth as weakness and stops her, declaring that it's too late, while Kruha recognizes Claudia's as strength and reassures her: Your heart? It will see.
#emphasis mine. just me pointing and screaming#rayla#claudia#parallels#1x02#puzzle house#i did it for the framing#the dragon prince#s6-7 though. need rayla to gain confidence in her goodness and claudia to maybe reevaluate hers. just a little. please baby girls
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first driving lesson went well, i wanted to make a joke ab getting the redbull seat but they couldnt wait till tomorrow
#lourdes.txt#I already know how to drive... i just need to gain confidence on the street for my exam
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Something’s wrong.
Biz isn’t shitting on Georgie for once.
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why does adulting have to feel like walking through a mine field; i constantly feel on the edge of making some horrible mistake 😔
#i just need the exposure therapy of doing the adulting and gaining confidence in my decisions#but when i fall out of practice from it the worst case scenario spiral starts up again#blake’s last braincell
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btw todd’s reluctance to join the dps because he doesn’t want to read (which is then accommodated for) and is scared to put himself out there (which is also worked through) being read as todd not wanting to go AT ALL, and thus neil making the proper accommodations (“todd anderson, who prefers not to read, will keep the minutes of the meetings”) and encouraging him to step out of the box that stifles him being seen as ‘forceful’ or like he can’t take no for an answer makes me insane with rage
#and him trying to stop neil from asking if todd not reading at the meetings is okay isn’t him wanting not to go#its him not wanting neil to ask because (as someone with social anxiety) it’s EMBARRASSING ASF for someone to ask for things on your behalf#literally just think about it as the meme of ‘when i tell my friend im hungry and he tells his mom that *i* want food instead of both of us’#and the whole ‘neil not knowing how to take no for an answer’ thing…… dont get me fucking started#the kid who’s had to take no for an answer his whole life? the kid whose first proper scene IS him taking no for an answer? are you serious?#being encouraging and accommodating and (admittedly) a little pushy when he’s got his mind set on something—#—is NAWT the same as not being able to take no for an answer or bulldozing through conversations with people#he and todd DO listen to each other in those conversations theyre just on opposing sides—#—because their understandings of the world don’t fully align at that point in time/the movie#which is totally fucking normal?????? because later on they DO properly align?????????#i feel so crazy about this every time i see someone say todd didn’t want to go the dead poets meetings because it’s so obvious he DID#he was just scared#and you know what maybe it IS a little forceful#but given how dedicated todd is to shutting off and hating and isolating himself he NEEDS a little forceful to be broken through to#if no one ever pushed me to do things when i was scared (as irritated as it can make me) i’d never do SHIT dude#and obviously todd is the same way because he ALL BUT OUTRIGHT SAYS AS MUCH#‘i appreciate this concern but i’m not like you’ IS about neil’s voice and opinions mattering to people but it’s ALSO about—#—him being outgoing and trying new things and putting himself out there#WHICH TODD WANTS TO BE ABLE TO DO!!!!!!!!#the moral you take away from todds growth is NOT that he has to change to be accepted because he DOESNT#its that he has to gain the confidence and belief in himself to grow and become the version of himself he WANTS to be#he NEVER changes on a fundamental level to make others happy (although his growth does make others happy) he just opens up more#and i dont know WHY some people think his arc is becoming a completely different person#like yall PLEASE#this isnt even an anderperry thing this is an issue even if you read them completely platonic#i blame the FUCKASS novelization…. dps book you will always be hated by ME#dps#dead poets society#neil perry#todd anderson
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So funny to me rhat people are still hung up on how adrien and chat are like completly diffrent people when like. Marinette is the most clumsy disorganized unlucky girl in the world but she also ladybug: yknow, the magical lucky organized superhero that pulls random shit outta thin air and makes it work? like come on now
#like marinette needs to control everything in her life because hashtag anxiety but as ladybug she just kind of#trustfalls into it#because shes wearing a mask and she dosent have to pretend like she can just make shit up and stuff works out because she has magic luck#and adriens so shelterd most of the time we see him is in school and home settings#where he feels like hes moniterd by his father all the time#so yeah hes gonna act diffrent when he dosnet have that weight on him#their both dummies your honor. and they gain confidence behind the masks#dustbunnies.txt#you cans ee in the later seasons how their experiance as heros bleed into their civillian lives#like with marinette tricking lila and chloe and adrien sacrificing himself for felix and being cheeky liikeeee
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THAT'S 60,000 WORDS LET'S FUCKING GOOOOOOOOO!!
#RAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH#I might write a little bit more this weekend we'll see cause I may be busy#current status on chapter two: beginning portion edited and good#still working on editing the smut and#I don't know if it's just taking forever or if I added way too much to the scene where you jerk aki off#because why am I still working on that segment#you haven't even slurped on it yet#editing the rest of the smut is sure too take just as long though because after this scene#everything is pretty much rough outline mode#so there's a lot of work that needs to be done#I've also started working on the ending#I'm about halfway done with the rough draft for it#I figured out what I want to do with it I think#at this point I think I will certainly get close to 70k words but I'm not quite sure yet if I'll actually break that barrier#there's a ton that needs to be added to the second half of the chapter though so it's definitely possible#and I still can't say when exactly I'll be done#my current hope is to release the second chapter about three weeks after the first#is that good? is that too long???#you promised you'd be willing to wait didn't you... yes I'm talking to you....#I'm starting to gain a little more confidence in the second chapter after working on it more#gonna have my bestie read it when I'm done so she can affirm that I am indeed not a failure#ok I've talked too much#aki sex. soon. aki sex
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Cannot stress enough that Thor 1 era is Loki’s only physically twink-descriptive era. This is because of baby factor and that he is younger and smaller than everyone in his surroundings (Asgard, mainly)
#to be clear you can’t call him a twink henceforth because he gains confidence#this is not problematic take at all#I just need to point out that Thor’s arc as a narrative foil goes the opposite direction#gg#Sif @ Thor in TDW: oh hi Thor how come you don’t bang wenches anymore is it because you’re in love with that mortal now#Thor: no actually I’ve inherited the family’s twink title heirloom#Sif: oh rip. get better soon?#Thor choking up from compressed emotions: thanks
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ovo whispers menacingly abt his grandstanding .
#(you can grandstand and be impulsive and prone to violence and have a terrible temper without being arrogant thanks)#(the closest he ever gets to saying he's above anyone else is w/ the jotuns if you really squint at it and he only ever said-)#(- that he wanted to use /force/ aka /violence/ to get them to submit to his rule bc otherwise he views them as DANGEROUS)#(based not only on historical /fact/ but cultural differences boogeymanning and seeing firsthand how they-)#(-MURDERED SOME OF HIS PEOPLE???? AND BROKE INTO HIS HOME???? ON CORONATION DAY????)#(he doesn't act like heimdall or the warriors or sif or even loki is below him. he wouldn't /ask them/ for permission otherwise)#(he even asks the humans-he-just-met for permission a la jane and then respects their decisions and apologizes for being rude abt the mug)#(and the one time he says 'know your place' to loki is when loki is actively bUTTING INTO A CONVERSATION that thor is being ridiculous abou#(bc to thor it's about /winning/ the argument with laufey and he's totally losing track of his goal to try and figure out wtf the jotuns)#(were doing ///in asgard inside the palace IN THE VAULT on CORONATION DAY///.)#(arrogance is specifically thinking you are inherently better than anyone else bc you exist)#(thor very clearly demonstrates selfish desires that translate to poorly thought out deeds)#(eg: taking it directly to laufey instead of trying to take a step back and figure it out in OTHER WAYS before a direct confrontation)#(and he also demonstrates overblown self-confidence.)#(eg the “i have no plans to die today” / “none do.”)#(that's being overconfident in his own abilities that's still not arrogance.)#( ooc . ) — stories that leap from the page .#( salt to taste . ) — in this house we love the actual main character . crazy i know .#tbd#(thor expresses boastfulness and pride similarly to his whole culture of over-exaggerating ur war stories)#(his vice is letting that vanity get to his head and fueling increasingly impulsive and stubborn decisions)#(out of the sheer and desperate desire to prove he's good enough to take up such a heavy mantle as the crown of asgard + nine realms)#(but he doesn't just look at other people and go 'oh yeah i'm so totally better than you just because i exist')#(he's also not a lightning mcqueen who actually DOES see himself above the rustees cars and the route 66 cars)#(goes out of his way to make that abundantly clear and wants actually nothing to do with any of them in pursuit of his own gains)#(only to finally figure out he's not all hot shit and slows tf down to understand and enjoy life as part of society not above it)#(he literally flies of the handle because he fully believes the jotunar actually plotted an entire elaborate scheme)#(SPECIFICALLY in the effort to exploit him as the green thumb weak link as Newly Instated King who Doesn't Know What He's Doing)#(And therefore will OBVIOUSLY do a terrible job because he's not odin and can never be odin but he /needs/ to be like odin bc odin is stron#(HE doesn't know it was loki's plan. he doesn't know it was /loki/ who timed it to the coronation.)
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AU I made when I was REALLY fixated on Pokemon Violet where I just put everyone in the fucking academy as transfer or exchange students. Originally it was just the SuMo squad and I had some comics (unfinished) about it, interactions between everyone, ect! Then I got distracted and months later I pick up White 2 and well. Back on my bullshit LMFAOOO 🫡
Unfortunately Lillie and Gladion look much better in person, did not show up on camera well 🥲
All of this is just proof of concept anyway!! Espppp trying to get a feel for color palettes and having fun pushing the uniform rules to their limits LMFAO, and also wanting to show how a character wears a uniform can also be a reflection of themselves!
#pokemon#ALSO MADE THIS AU BEFORE I KNEW ABOUT THE DLC AND HOW WE'RE GONNA BE EXCHANGE STUDENTS (EXCITING)#video games appeal to sick male fantasy such as. *squints at notes* having friends and a good time in school#i need ALLL OF THEM to be friends SO FUCKING BAAAD#like beyond the obvious arven/lillie/gladion friendship/solidarity/processing trauma ect (which i do have concepts for btw)#i NEED arven and hau to be best friends actually. like fucking yesterday.#AND nemona/gladion and now hugh as endless pursuit of strength buddies. nemona is SO EXCITED ABOUT IT#nemona is ALSO VERY enthusiastic about helping lillie gain confidence as a trainer as well!!! much like how she was w protag#also gladion/penny wolf t-shirt kid solidarity. walked the mile. are you listening to me.#and obviously for years now i've been wanting a hugh/gladion friendship like come on!!!!!!!#roz/rosa can fit in anywhere tbh i just want them here. also moon is canon in the au but idk what they're up to. somewhere abroad.#rival hugh#trainer rosa#pokemon lillie#gladion#hau#arven#nemona#trainer penny#my art
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I do not think I can express how deeply I do not care about Debling or his interactions with Pen
#I'm about to write a fic where he's a serial killer#people keep shipping him with pen over colin and i just#we know basically nothing about him#i do not care if hes a nice guy#i do not care if he flirts with pen#i am here for pen and colin AND THAT'S IT#i do not want another love triangle and if i have to deal with one for 2 episodes so be it#but I cannot fucking deal with people who are like#oooooo colin fucked up so bad i'm gonna ship pen with this random blank slate of a blond man#absolutely not#and if people think pen needs male validation via flirting to gain more confidence/self esteem?#also fuck that
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