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princessofxianle · 2 years

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Completion Status...

ERHA/2HA:

✅️ Novel

❕️Live Action - waiting...

TGCF:

✅️ Donghua

✅️ Novel

☑️❕️ Manhua - in progress/waiting...

❕️Live Action - waiting...

MDZS:

✅️ Live Action

☑️ Donghua - in progress

🚫 Manhua

🚫 Novel

SVSSS:

✅️ Donghua

🚫 Novel

#just my personal to do list dont mind me #tgcf #mdzs #svsss #erha #2ha #guess this makes me a general danmei blog now #ive expanded past mxtx lol sorry scum villain ill get to you eventually

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bunnihearted · 2 months

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#no but i actually hate that i made this blog to vent freely bc i have no other place to talk abt anything or my feelings or thoughts #and im a very isolated person and a shut in and i dont have a job or go to school successfully and i dont know anyone #like blah blah. i have struggled and im drowning in them all. like why the fuck cant ppl just comprehend that we all have different views o #life and the world? like 'wallowing' is .. i have heavy anxiety which is completely untreated and it gives me real bad suicidal ideation #if me complaining on a blog that im btw not forcing anyone to read helps me to stay alive and get my pain out... why does that matter to #other ppl?????? like why does other ppl get so mad seeing someone they dont know vent??#also this goes for everyone but u can literally have no idea abt all of a person's life #esp on here where all u see is like my text posts where i vent abt how i FEEL. bc i want to. ??? i want to do that so i do #u dont know the context u dont know my experiences or what has happened in my life or context #u dont know what has transpired between me and other ppl i vent abt #like u know fuck all. u dont have the right to pass judgement onto a stranger that doesnt even know u exist #and even if i complain on here bc i dont have a real life but i want to #u have no idea what im doing with the rest of my time???? im making lists im trying to look up info abt school and programs #im trying to read abt my mental health issues and im doing mindfulness and im going to the gym #i am trying!!! and u dont have any idea what i do or how i try and u dont have any right to judge me bc all u see is one part that is me #complaining bc this is what i use this blog for. genuinely i do not get why this is even a big deal or why anyone would follow or read smth #makes them irritated???????#idk.. i dont wanna disable anons and stuff (bc funnily enough no one ever says this stuff with their url 🤨) bc i dont wanna miss out on the #stuff but it is infuriating that i have nowhere to go no friends no therapist etc etc to talk #and this is all i have bc i want to vent !!!!!!! and then i have to be like ok now other ppl i dont even know #and who dont actually give a fuck abt me are gonna judge me and tell me im living incorrectly #and ive never gotten more such things than now? why do y'all hate that i vent abt losing out on my 1st love #and feeling heartbroken?????? what the fuck? that has nothing to do with anyone else but me? like genuinely wtf #i just wanna vent bc i feel like im drowning but now i feel like i cant bc ppl just judge and like ugh

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dullahandyke · 14 days

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Brain trotted up to me asking to experiment with pronouns again ... bro I'm 20 I thought I had this shit sorted

#^ see for the span of years ive been in a position where i rarely have people who both knew my pronouns and talked about me in 3rd person #or at least to my face #so its been hard to gauge how i feel about em when i hardly ever see em used #and similarly its hard to gauge whether 'he' feels weird because its wrong or because im just not used to it #and same with they same with neos etc. considering going by any pronouns because i dont KNOW if i care #and see its weird because i still havent entirely divorced pronouns from gender in my mind it hasnt clicked yet #so i identify as a he/she as much if not more than as bigender #sigh. fuck it we'll leave it as is! if i truly dont care abt pronouns then i wont care abt listing em wrong #im past the time in my life where i scrutinised my gender. its not fun anymore and i have shit to be doing

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nessvn · 2 months

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i just need to make it to shabbat i just need to make it to shabbat i just need

#😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫#short response due tmrw ; seminar presentation potentially tmrw WHICH I ONLY JUST REMEMBERED ; short seminar quiz to do before friday ;#latin club “homework” which im probably gonna tell my friend i cant continue w bc my weekly workload is already too overwhelming w 3 courses #+ i have to have by thrice yearly lunch w my evangelical godmother which means 3 hour convo half dedicated to getting me to abandon judaism #and half to getting me to repent my sinful homosexual ways and go back to being a nice straight girl #all of which is going to happen in public and she WILL tear up at multiple points of the conversation and it WILL be supremely awkward #when people inevitably start eavesdropping bc let's be real if i were at a cafe overhearing this convo i would be listening in too #and everyone's like 'ugh why dont you just tell her to fuck off' but im the only trans person and the only observant jew she has ever met #two groups against which she already has so many preconceived notions so like. idk it feels like my responsibility #as someone who knows her and who she acc cares about (vs a stranger) to try and give her a different perspective on these things ???#like if me being patient and calmly explaining why i transitioned/why i converted can stop her even slightly from sliding even further right #(and like she's Right Wing like covid denial right wing)#and if it might mean the next trans person or whtvr that she interacts with has it slightly easier then like. sure j can sit through #a couple irritating hours every few months #but its just suuuch a shit time for it like im meeting her thursday after class when i have a massive fucking assignment to hand in on sat #which FUCK gotta add that to the list #☞ annotated bibliography due saturday aka friday bc shabbos #okay okay. im done losing my mind in the notes 😵‍💫👍🏻#p.s.

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todayisafridaynight · 10 months

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this writing shit hard as hell

#snap chats #i was gonna joke that i should just pay someone but. but that is a thing i could do #HOWEVER i would not want to inflict my arasawa mental illness onto an unsuspecting victim #also i wanna write something for once :( weh :(#i was writing something but then i decided i hated it #but i stiillll wanna write so im scouring the internet for prompt inspo #nothings working....... mostly cause most of the lists im finding are nsff....#which i might steal for My Personal Folders or goofy comics OOP but still #i almost wanna rb a prompt list and ask for prompt numbers but SIGH #i dont even know exactly what i wanna write #sometimes i think of trying to write something serious but i dont have any strengths in that. im too silly.#i guess i kinda have a fic in mind.......hmmmm...... gonna go play with the idea in docs for a minute #will prob abandon it cause even now that im thinkin on it i dont really wanna do it but ill see #I Repeat my main problem with fic writing is that i always end up wanting to draw it instead #SUCH a pain i hate myself for this #need people to tell me what to write or ill die i hate it here

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caffeinatedopossum · 2 years

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#hehe im just curious :3 #also wanted to actually list out all my special interests since i forget them frequently >_<#theres a lot of them and i tend to go through phases almost where im more or less intrested in certain things #it depends on how available new information is to me and also how my mental health is #since i kind of dont engage in my special interests when depressed #also if you're wondering how one person can have so many its because a lot of the intrests are connected in my mind #but not necessarily to other people #like my intrest in cartoon is related heavily to my intrest in animation #and my intrest in physcology has a lot to do with my intrests in medicine and horror #my intrests in language and music are also very connected since i love to write and analyze lyrics especially #and then botany and animals is connected because i find the ecosystems particularly fascinating #weirdly the cartoons are also related to physcology actually. actually nevermind its all related to physcology #just. physcology <3

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jrueships · 1 year

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why is Jare kinda hot lol like even in that video w kyrie i was thinking he sounded so silly but he looked good doing it!

do you forgive him for this because i dont

#JAREN WILL BE KNOWN FOR MANY CRINGEFAIL THINGS IN MY MIND #(thats how my favs become my favs. they just plague me with their LOSERNESS)#but doing individual praise research on d*llon dinosaur head brooks marks the TOP of that VERY EXTENSIVE LIST #'LiKe A LiOn LION EMOJI' omg just say he folds you and spare us this hell jaren #OK to be not joking tho he is so handsome fr #like damson idris levels #the way he got his big nose and cheesy lil grin from his parents #his eyes are soooo pretty i love drawing him so much so much #hes gorgeous #jaren #ted asks #my jarebear dunks are only an act of love i SWEAR yall know only the stutter of my desire. my LUST #by all means it is CARNAL #but it is so carnal... i must Help him. by Not Helping Him.#i think bcs pg and him are so attractive some ppl might not look to deep into a pretty thing bcs they dont think #they have visual access to any depth that they can explore unlike a broken thing that is forced to bank on #the attraction of personality or actions first aka offer more opportunities of accessible exploration via inviting a superior confidence #it's like say two caves. one is very pretty on the outside and smooth. the other is dank and decrepit #ppl who enter either cave can want with the pretty one: a basic exploration. nothing too deep. not much trekking. here for the sights #not the frights. stand and admire rather than any hands on changes or battles #ppl who enter the dank cave expect smthing that pulls more than conventional attraction. expect having to toil and triumph #expect the unexpected. actually TRY to go deeper. unlike the pretty cave explorers who go the length the scheduled tour allows them #they dont expect anything thats not already told to them by the guide or in the brochure and dont ever plan on expecting at all #BUT I WILL DO JUSTICE FOR BOTH CAVES BY EXPLORING FHE UNEXPLORED ! VALUEING THE UNVALUED!!#i think the pretty cave IS deep (but bcs i am fucked up and unwell. i humanize better from the negatives) so i VERY LOVINGLY #treat it a little less formal. and for the dank cave? i will offer it some politeness! some respect it rarely gets in a method #that doesnt involve an exchange of some kind #ANYWAYS this is just a general explanation of WHY i like being playfully mean to my favs BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN THEYRE NOT MY FAVS #i love them. jaren is gorgeous. and he is also cringe. as is pg. i love them. i hate them. they are my favs 🥰🥰#TY for appreciating him anon I LOVE JAREN LOVE!!!!!!! he gets overshadowed by some of his other grizzlies antics sometimes

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uitzinnigmp3 · 1 year

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no guys i dont think u understand im so terrible at tagging people in tag games

#i have literally spent the last hour making a list of all my mutuals just to make sure i dont accidentally tag someone who doesnt follow me #and still i am scared to tag anyone in this list because like. do they consider us friends. are we close enough that i can tag them #or will it be weird ?? will they think 'oh wtf why did this person tag me i didnt even know i followed them' LIKE #pls tell me someone understands. i hate my brain <3 #also if u see this and u do not mind being tagged like. let me know if u want (or not)#god. anxiety sucks. anyway #s.txt

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erythristicbones · 1 year

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unexpected side effect of deciding to redesign Nisha & Artemis & Apollo as an evil punk band bc its my story and i choose the self-indulgence......im actually getting really attached to Apollo now

#i made this decision bc i adore nisha/artie both as their own ppl and also as a deeply haunting romance that wont leave me alone!!!!!#and yea apollo is there too bc she has to be #i was not super invested in her ever #like half of my plot decisions for her have been solely based on me going 'hey u know what would be funny?'#she's like one of the only villains out of the main 7 that remains a villain the entire time!!!!#i was not supposed to give her a second thought!!!!#but yea Pol has been on my mind this entire morning as i redesign her n artie #i dont think i'll attempt to redeem her still. i think she deserves to always gaslight gatekeep girlboss forever. as a treat #but wow she might be one of my irredeemable villain OCs that im invested in #its hard to explain but like. part of me making the villains i do is that i personally Dont Need to get attached #not in the same way i do the other characters #i have a very weird relationship between my Compelling Villians and my Just Villains. if theyre meant to be complex #then i'll let myself get attached #otherwise my writing process hinges on me seeing them as an antagonistic force and not a nuanced being ya dig?#apollo was not intended to be a nuanced person. she was supposed to just be an antagonistic force #but one simple(not even finished yet) redesign is singlehandedly changing my entire view of apollo #i highly HIGHLY doubt she'll ever be as important to me as nisha/artie are.....but she's defs much higher on the list #than she was prior to this morning aldjdjaks

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jvzebel-x · 1 year

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#absolutely fucking nothing like answering questions w a new psych doc lmao i say some of this shit out loud #&im just like. well YEAH when you put it like that. 🫠#... im so into that little melty emoji lmao it captures my default mood so perfectly.#anyway lmao she was asking about manic episodes so she could get a decent idea on what that looks like for me #&im just like 'well it isnt that bad i just dont sleep&my mind races a ton so i need to do things to calm it down or i get v.v. anxious'#&shes like 'well what do you do to calm yourself down? can you give me some examples?'#so i start listing some stuff off the top of my head&like halfway thru the convo im just like. wait it sounds bad all blunt like this.#&shes like 'you just told me you used to go hiking down ravines after work at night alone&that you rode on the hood of your car while your #cousin drove like i dont think its bc you were blunt that it sounds bad.' lmao.#shes v nice&takes all my weird shit in stride thus far lmao shes just also like. not willing to pretend that anything isnt what it is #which i guess is one of my fav qualities in a person in general lmao so i should be/am v grateful so far.#buuuut thats also why she has no issue prescribing me antipsychotics on my first visit to her office lmao #or being extremelt blunt in every other convo lmao.

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starflared-arrow · 3 days

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#dude I can’t take it I have like 6 drafts of me going fucking insane over kieran I actually cannot handle this many emotions #HES WAYYY FUCKING COOL #HES EVERYTHING TO MEEEEE UUURHHGHGHGHGFHH BANGING FIST ON THR GROUND #seeing kieran slander physically hurts me like shut UPPPPPP YOU DONT GET IT YOU DONT GET IT ARRFHHGHGHFHHGHJGH #sorry. normal. normal.#idk how I even fucking survived playing through the game like every sentence out of his mouth or anything #any dialogue that was marginally related to him gave me the urge to throw my switch across the room #I can’t. I can’t I can’t I can’t I can’t I can’t I can’t take it #EVERYT(ING ABOUT HIM. HES SO.#like….. he’s so deeply relatable to me… it’s rare to me to find a character that resonates with me this much #especially on this aspect like ughhhhh fuck you. fuck you!! shut up!!!! DONT CALL ME OUTTTTTT #watching kieran is like watching myself from third person and oh. oh man. you were fucking WEIRD. get a GRIP?#‘were’ don’t kid yourself you still ARE. oh my god.#its like getting blasted straight in my face with my own insecurities like shut up. stop it.#you’re. you’re ruining my perfectly crafted facade. I haven’t flaunted this insecurity enough to be in control of it yet can u. stop.#BUT HE GIVES ME SO MUCH HOPE THO. LIKE #I can do it too-! maybe there’s hope for me yet #uuuughhghhhhhh #stronger and stronger and stronger and stronger and stronger #head in hands #I’ve been slacking….. shaking head I gotta keep up the momentum #just do it!!!!#it’s been a month+ since… I need to do it. I need to change. you’ve been getting behind… you can still do it…!#write a list…? probably have to… even I’m starting to forget #1) be honest. don’t. don’t change yourself to be ‘palatable’. you’re ryu. your friends will love you no matter what you do because im me #don’t hide away your true self it’s ok!!!!! you can say what’s on your mind you can say your opinions #your preferences… don’t lie….#they won’t hate you they won’t take it personally they want to know about ‘you’ after all… ryu #2) just talk to your friends…. there’s nothing to hesitate about. they understand even if you’re low energy they understand if you��re busy #reached the tag limit fuck

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inviso-bill-strikes-again · 2 months

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having an awesome day where everything hurts (sore from dive yesterday) and we're really really really tired (slept for too long last night) and have NO idea whos fronting rn

#having the big. identity issue today. not a real person etc. just like. autopilot. i guess.#everything hurts so i dont wanna do work. so maybe im cam or zac.#but also ive got sea shanties stuck in my head (gill) and also like. i Feel like mac but im Not .#none of the names feel right. if that makes any sense. sigh #literally all the like. motivation or drive or whatever in my mind today is Crossing Things Off Of Lists.#which like. sooooo close to being caugjt up w current podcasts. thats going great. but my yr watch later is taunting me #and i opened storygraph earlier so now THATS taunting me #so all i wanna do is read or watch yt or do the billion and a half projects on my desk to get them done #and instead i am. at work. sigh #i have things to clean though so. i guess i can spend the day doing that. i dont Wanna

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aashiqui-aashiqui · 8 months

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by the way when i say other cricketers i mostly mean the english players and no offence but i do not get what people see in them…like i know theres english people on here who obviously are gonna post about their own team but like i refuse to believe those players are that interesting

#joe root might be the only white person on that team i care for #moeen ali and adil rashid get my support by default though because theyre fellow brown people and muslims so like they were always gonna be #included in this incredibly small list #but yeah thats it i could care less for any other english player like so many of them infuriate me for no reason #buttler and stokes are two popular ones i dont care for at all but for some reason theyre (relatively) popular on here?#in comparison to other individual players i mean #australia has fans on here too but like i dont mind them because the aus team is interesting to me #nz had some key word being had as in most of those blogs are inactive now so thats great but its a nice time capsule almost to revisit-#those blogs and see what was going on then in earlier years #as for pak i literally can count on my hands the number of blogs dedicated to pak anf its not a lot at all 😭#im gonna post more about pak cricket too but thats when psl starts #indian cricket fans are probably pretty common om here too i just purposely ignore them because like as a pakistani i cant bring myself-#care about that team at all and any time i see an indian player its like a jumpscare you know #hate that team so much its in my dna but theyre also just obnoxious as people #our team just has a bunch of cuties like what has pak ever done #anyway yeah that concludes my massive rant in the tags but in conclusion i need to see more subcontinent cricket stuff #as compared to white people cricket like we should be more active than the colonizers guys #what do i tag this as #i guess cricket but like i dont want to be attacked and murdered #its okay whatever happens doesn’t matter to me #cricket

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opiopal · 3 months

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Imagine Mc having a rough day and snapping at the brothers when the dining table gets a little to loud, but instead of just yelling at them as a group they go down the list oldest to youngest,

Like this,

Mc, shooting up from their seat at the dining table: HOLY SHIT SHUT THE FUCK UP ALL OF YOU.

The brothers all stop whatever argument they were having in shock,

Mc, pointing at lucifer: STOP BEING STUCK UP AND GIVE YOUR BROTHERS SOME BREATHING ROOM

Mc turns to mammon: STOP DIGGING THROUGH MY WALLET I AM JUST AS BROKE AS YOU. YOU WILL NOT FIND ANYTHING I PROMISE YOU THAT.

Mc, Now pointing at Levi: IF I HEAR ONE MORE WORD ABOUT “nOoOo iM jUsT a YuKy OtAkUu” WHEN I TRY TO SAY SOMETHING NICE WILL STRANGLE YOU. JUST TAKE A COMPLIMENT!

Satans turns: WE ALL HAVE DADDY ISSUES HERE DEAL WITH IT LIKE A NORMAL PERSON AND HAVE AN ATTRACTION TO FICTIONAL MEN INSTEAD OF TRYING TO ALWAYS CURSE LUCIFER! IT ALWAYS LEADS TO ALL OF US GETTING CURSED AS A WHOLE. SO DROP THE SPELL BOOK.

Mc turning to asmo: NOT EVERYTHING IS A SEXUAL INNUENDO. GET PENIS OFF YOUR MIND FOR FIVE MINUTES! I KNOW YOU ARE CAPABLE OF IT DONT LIE TO ME!

Mc turns to beel, skips beel,

Turns to belphie: AND YOU.

They drop their tone,

Mc: you know what you did.

By the end all the brothers are sunken down in their seats and/or look absolutely baffled at the sudden outburst, Mc steps away and shoves their chair back into place as they start storming out,

Lucifer: I- Mc where are you going?

Mc: Purgatory hall! Because even the CHILD doesn’t act as childish as all of YOU!

Of course after they cool off they do return and apologize for their outburst and how they should have just addressed their issues more calmly and not while they were all trying to eat,

#obey me #obey me mc #obey me mammon #obey me asmodeus #obey me beelzebub #obey me leviathan #obey me lucifer #obey me belphegor #obey me satan #obey me one master to rule them all #obey me imagines #obey me shitpost

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year

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Y'know I'm not big on shipping so sometimes I'm like: "Man, why is it all Kazumaji." when searching for fanart but then I am on Twitter and... I think I am fine with Kazumaji on Tumblr.

i don't know the further implications of this and the diff between twit and tumblr kazumaji but Personally to me it just isn't my cup of tea and i don't really get the pairing

#snap chats #maybe its cause its popular and i have popularitis or something idfk i just cant see the appeal #or. i CAN but not personally yk. i understand why other people like it is what i mean it just doesnt do it for me for some reason #like Sorry Everyone Trying To Scroll The Kazumaji Tag Rn In Peace but ima spit #nvm i forgot what i was gonna say. never mind i remember #anyway it just doesn't do anything for me #like it's not wholly established and there isn't even a lot of in-text reasons to like it which . Hasn't Stopped Me Before #but like i don't have anything to go off of... like the pairings i like i have something to point at and go 'ah there it is mental illness'#and ig with kazumaji there's SOME things like Again I Can See Where People Are Coming From #but it's nothing that makes me go Ah.. The Brain Barnacles Are Here #we been over this but it's been a while but kiryu and majima's relationship really does just feel professional after a certain point #like y3 the earliest but ESPECIALLY after saejima comes into the picture #idk im rambling about something that WILL get me shot but i'm speaking my truth on my blog #moving on. watched the first half of tonbi today..... crying...#i have to update my Top Cutest TTM Charas list now...#but i gotta do these comms first ok bye #then im watching the second half if these dont take me all night..

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libraford · 1 year

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Now that I work with a bunch of homophobes, I feel the weight of being a 'one of us.'

"Why are women so --- oh but not you, you're different."

"Why are gays so--' but you're not like them, you're more like us."

Krusty The Bird Killer rants for five minutes about black women being 'sluts that all have eight kids with different fathers because they'll lay with anything that moves,' and then talk sweet to our secretary, a black woman in her 40s who doesnt seem to count as a black woman when he's ranting.

I've been trying to put words to this behavior for awhile now. And I think it just comes down to 'us vs them.'

I showed up to work in a cowboy hat and work boots, wasnt afraid of the men's room, and lifted a 50 pound trash bag full of dog shit on my first day. I'm not like other women to them. I dont count. I'm one of us.

I talk about my girlfriend in a quiet way: I dont declare queer supremacy and I dont make my whole life about being queer and oppressed. I'm not like other lesbians. I dont count. I'm one of us.

They dont know me. They dont know my girly interests and they dont know about my political art pieces and they dont know about the fake eyelashes that I wore during pride. They certainly dont know I'm trans.

I passed their test. I'm 'one of the dudes.'

I'm really not, though.

If they saw me outside of work, I would be a Them. But they got to know me first. I'm in their list of "thems that are us." And every them that they meet can be an us. But they dont go out of their way to meet many thems.

I'm a Gay. I'm not the Gays. I'm (to them) a woman. I'm not Women. The secretary is black. But shes not The Blacks (pardon the phrasing, it hurt me to even type it that way.)

Every person is the stereotype of their group until someone gets to know them. But that doesn't disprove the stereotype- it just means that the person doesnt count as part of that group anymore. They're with us now.

Respectability politics really dont get us anywhere. If you're out to disprove the stereotype out of a sense that you'll change their minds, I'm telling you that energy is better spent living authentically if you are safe to do so.

Your influence on them doesnt change their perception of the box they put you in. They just put you in a smaller box. Fuck their opinions.

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