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babygirlvanitas · 2 years ago

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hh oh i hit the tag limit

#void again #on top of the last void post ive been jus hyperaware of just how things affect me #i wanna make it clear this post wasnt because of her this is just me #just my issues #she did give me a bit of a wake up call though #a wake up call that yeah reminded me of not a good person #but also showed me just how much i look at the past #just how often im anxious because of my past experiences #someone could say something so vague and yet it reminds me of really bad times so i panic a bit #for example #i had this one instance in which someone in a gc needed someone else to listen to #they were expecting me to listen to them but i wasnt in the right headspace to listen to someone elses #problems so i expressed this and muted the gc #when i came back to the gc they were very upset i ignored them and thier problem #one of the few times i had tried to look after myself and it backfired on my horribly #that made me feel so incredibly guilty for it from then on #i cant remember how the rest of the chat were at the time but #anygay if someone dms me now wanting an ear to listen to their problems i will feel so bad if i ignore them for even 5 minutes #my past experiences on the internet and with internet friends have completely ruined how i make friends #how i keep friends and even how i phrase things #the bird bitch ( ex ) left a huge mark on me too like this #they misconstrued my words and phrases so many times and make it seem like i said something i never intented to say #they did this so very often that now i am so careful with phrasing #im walking on eggshells sometimes with it #on top of all that my goddamn hearing loss is biting me in the ass #i have to hear something than understand it then process it at least 5 times over in my head til i can #get a response #a n y w a y s #all that to say im tired and im going ti bed for real now #time to dream kf baizhu

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kenapiece-main · 6 months ago

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Can you believe I'm having to make this meme even after successfully finishing up taxes and applying to job

#adhd #autism #Dad: Don't worry little man it's super simple! Just let me - the figure you seek support from - tell you to not be afraid #and then - stay with me here! - juuuuuust do it!#voila. my job is done you're welcome have fun doing all the research and figuring out without issue now <3 no problem #(and no of course I won't acknowledge your previous adulting accomplishments bc that's just expected stuff anyway)#||#vent #i guess? man #i don't have opinions or feelings on the internet often but man

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specks-of-time · 10 months ago

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#oh..okay #this just explained like 80% of my childhood trauma #neurodivergent #autism #actually autistic #autistic #sensory issues

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butchfalin · 1 year ago

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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

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cowboybrunch · 8 months ago

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i love when characters get angry when they're frightened. shelter dog characters. i love when they bite, not able to tell the difference between a hand that feeds and a hand that strikes. there is no difference. a hand is a hand is a fist. i love characters that are deemed unadoptable. unlovable.

and i love when someone loves them. i love when someone sits with them, patient. they don't flinch at the snarling and snapping. they're not trying to fix it—there's nothing to be fixed. this is you, all of you, and ill wait. because one day, one day you'll take the treat. go on, draw my blood. spit and curse and rage. you're safe with me. one day, you'll feel safe with me.

#savrambles #im in a Mood #thinking about my actual dog with actual behavior issues #and shes such a sweetheart but she was also a stray #and learned to defend herself the only way she knew how. with teeth #and i looked at her in that little cage. all raised hackles and curled lip and sad sad eyes #and i knew. i just knew. kindred souls and all that #ANYWAYS

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littlemizzlinguistics · 1 year ago

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Studying linguistics is actually so wonderful because when you explain youth slang to older professors, instead of complaining about how "your generation can't speak right/ you're butchering the language" they light up and go “really? That’s so wonderful! What an innovative construction! Isn't language wonderful?"

#linguistics #gen z slang #english #as people in the reblog pointed out!#most gen z slang comes from (or was appropriated from) aave #honestly I was just excited to talk about how people in my field actually get excited about non standard uses of English #instead of ridiculing speakers #and I tagged incorrectly and didn’t point out the very real issues of language and power and appropriation inherent in modern slang #in that much of it was appropriated #and even that which experiences language change in the wider culture still originated in aave #aave is just as linguistically valid as any other English dialect because it is a proper language #and the grammar is incredible!!!#habitual be is fantastic and an excellent example of how a richer case system or a certain case can render an adverb unnecessary #and the phonology is just beautiful #anyway I’m very sorry #I fucked up

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egophiliac · 4 days ago

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looking at next month's schedule and between the end of 7-12 and the wishing lantern event it's like

February is officially RIDDLE MONTH, brace yourselves to be absolutely blasted into ashes everybody

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 part 12 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 part 12 spoilers #negai no lantern #gif warning #gifs that have memorized all 800+ rules and expect no less from you warning #sorry cater and azul i hope you have very happy birthdays but i'm going to actually explode #just laying on the floor and thinking about rapunzel-themed event feat. riddle #and ESPECIALLY right after we get his big dream sequence wherein he fistfights his deep-seated personal issues #and i'm STILL processing trey's dream and what it says about his friendship with riddle especially like #i'm #i just #okay hold on i gotta distract myself by looking at the other lantern boys #and their beautiful long flowing tresses that defy physics to blow dramatically behind them #whoever keeps putting jack in the shimmery sparkly delicate floaty chiffon events is my personal hero #his card is incredible. he looks like a perfume ad.#he wants us to know that you can live a rugged outdoorsy lifestyle and still have an undertone of delicate floral notes #god. everyone looks amazing this event is going to be amazing #and like...it probably isn't going to go too deep because silly event versus main story and all #but just the act of casting riddle as the center is still just so #like #i gotta go lay on the floor some more

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rapidhighway · 3 months ago

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the thing that caused me so much grief last night but now i feel better about it fdnghgdfggd

#sighhh im still kind of upset about the whole thing but man whatever i spent so long drawing this xd #sonic adventure 2 #i loooove geralds cell i think its just so cool that sonic ended up in it and it was just kind of silently there #sonic the hedgehog #art #sonic fanart #sth #digital art #there are some issues with my rendering that i am trying to resolve but idk i guess i just have to try and learn #it's already better than what i could do like a year ago or so so i guess its alright #sa2

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lgbtlunaverse · 1 year ago

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Nothing will dispell the "the curtains were just blue" myth faster than writing something yourself, because the amount of pretentious symbolism i am putting in my silly little fanfics is ridiculous. I mean SO much with these words, literally every single one of them. This fic has twenty five typos and zero correct uses of punctuation but if there's curtains you bet your ass I put thought into what colour they were.

#writing #fic writing #like this is stuff i'm doing for fun with my perfectionism meter turned down as far as i can get it #and i am still thinking about it A LOT #talk to me about how in red string fic jgy perceives the memory block both as syrup and as mud but nmj thinks it feels like blood #it's just a thing in their heads that mentally feels kind of thick and sticky but they both made something different of it #it's about issues with cleanliness / lies as a way to craft an illusion of a better lopking world vs the constant violence nmj lives in

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vastunlife · 10 months ago

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weeeee off the strings

#theres a ton of issues but i just wanna get it over with xp #animation is hard #rain world #moon rw #looks to the moon #five pebbles #pebbles rw #iterator #rw #my art #animation #rain world animation

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plague-parade · 2 years ago

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i feel like we dont talk enough about how distressing and disturbing memory loss issues are. forgetting what you were talking about halfway through a sentence, putting something down and instantly forgetting where you put it. having to reread one paragraph over and over again because by the time youve moved onto the next sentence you dont remember what the one before it said. always doubting if your memories of things are real, not being able to remember important life events.

its so incredibly scary, it feels like your mind is constantly playing tricks on you and you start to doubt whats real and what isnt.

“i forgot” is treated like a lazy excuse when it’s genuinely such a big issue for so many people.

#this has been building up in me for a bit #i was talking to my mom and she brought up a concert we went to and i have zero memory of ever going #huge chunks of my life are just. gone.#every time i sew i put the needle down and spend fifteen minutes trying to find it #memory loss #memory issues #cognitive issues #cognitive decline #cognitive dysfunction

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valtsv · 6 months ago

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this is entirely petty and personal but i cannot stand the word "whump" it's like unalive to me. just say you enjoy torturing your favourite character so that you can nurse them back to health again like a sickly baby bird they're not real it's okay.

#🐉#like its not in any way actually a Moral Issue it just feels infantilising to me specifically #i acknowledge that its a useful shorthand for the phenomenon of enjoying hurting your guy to the end of achieving comfort and catharsis #but it sets my teeth on edge and makes me go ew. ick.

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mythicalcoolkid · 7 months ago

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You don't wish your disability was worse or more visible, you wish your disability was taken seriously. Please stop confusing the two, I guarantee you would not get the support you need JUST by being more severe or more visible. Please listen to visibly disabled people when we tell you it isn't better on our side