#just my current thoughts and situation

[sameboot]

Simon petrikov coping FAIL compilation

[silent-browser]

Got a positive response to a job application today!! 🥳🥳

It's an video interview but that's alright!

The site won't let me submit any actual video of me answering questions... 😧😧😧

That's alright. Maybe I can message the company about my issue?

They responded almost immediately! 😀

Their suggestions don't help me. 😮‍💨

Oh well maybe I can figure it out on my own.😮‍💨

I can't. I'm freaking out. I'm crying.

This feels like my only chance to get a job. Even though, logically I know it isn't.

I hope they can just call me and do the interview over the phone...

[emberglowfox]

closing time

[wolfsong-the-bloody-beast]

I'm a bit obsessed with Adaar, Cadash, and Lavellan, paired with Blackwall. As Adaar, you're this huge, buff mercenary that towers over even a big burly man like Blackwall. With horns. A lot of people call you and people like you an "ox(wo)man", view you with suspicion, or even fear. As Cadash, you come from the rough life of crime, and due to being a surfacer, you're less than nobody in your homeland. Hardly glamorous. As Lavellan, you're an elf, a second class citizen in the eyes of plenty humans to begin with, and you come from a migratory tribe. Hardly pampered. They're all tough cookies, and their cultures and personal lives are to various degrees very different from even the lowest of human nobles. No princesses here. And then Blackwall comes and keeps calling them, "My lady," and says that knightly stuff like, "You have the whole world at your feet, including me". And he acts the part, too. Of course, each Inquisitor is different, and their reactions depend on everybody's headcanon, but I can't help but imagine my Adaar, especially at the beginning, quietly losing. her. shit. while trying to play it cool.

[a-whiff-of-a-dream]

alright this has been sitting in my mind ever since i first heard it a few days ago, but what Emmrich says about his fear of death in his first scene? It hit differently. Im gonna elaborate underneath the cut.

(also this might be too much personal info for some, but anyways)

'Thats when I discovered I possess a great terror of dying' is putting something I have felt for close to 3 years now so... precisely into words.

I have spend so much trying to find words for this feeling, for this fear, and have not yet managed to communicate it with anyone really so far, because the words have just... not been there.

'It goes beyond dread. It cant be reasoned with or soothed over. It comes without warning, in the dead of night, in sunlit streets. A raw, strangling fear, struck somewhere deep past the heart.'

It hides behind every corner of your life. You can go on with your day like any other person, you can be alone at home or out with friends, seeing the world, and suddenly youre hit with this 'someday it wont matter anymore and you wont feel this feeling and never smell the air again' and you cant outrun it.

Its something you cant change, something maybe not even worth mentioning because there is no way out anyways, so why bother and try to find a reason within it, when there is non to begin with?

'Oddly, I discovered I wasnt alone. I debated this fear with friends, I argued with teachers... Yet... It lingered.'

Others might feel the same, and yes its comforting to a degree, but still it wont make it go away. It wont make it better or unbearable somehow. Because its unreasonable. You know it is. Thats why Ive burried it so deep within me and try not to spiral into despair when these thoughts occure.

I am not really sure where I am heading with this but I guess I needed to get these thoughts out into the world somehow. Because hearing this, having it put into words so nicely? It helped. It made me shiver and it has lingered in my head for a while now, but it also gave me words for something I have not yet come around wording myself.

[toxooz]

Feel free to not answer this if its too invasive but what do you do for work? how do you manage your time to still create such awesome things while working? sorry if this comes off as weird I just want to find a way to work while still having time for my art

hoo boi ok i went into the job field hellbent on getting a more heavy duty job like welding and just do art as i please and preserve my passion for it so i dont get burnt out from an art job, but bröther ive realized the hard way my body just don't have the energy to balance working my ever sweatin ass off all day and Also have the energy to draw. I used to have a factory job building coolers but the management went to pure shit, all my good coworkers got fired or quit, and i was beginning to not trust myself holding a framing gun sOOO as of rn i '''technically''' don't have a job, my patreons payin the bills (and then some praise the lorTTTT) rn plus i got that mural gig that came at the most perfect time but im currently perfecting my craft at tattooing so i can get into that field eventually 🤙 i worked my ass off and drew my ass off for a while but my lack of energy made me crash and burn so i may not be the person to give advice on that AHHAAaa

[helpmyinterestsareverywhere]

Whenever I pick up a Lloyd LEGO set and see a blue figure included I like to try and ignore it and play a game of "is it gonna be Jay or Nya?" and not find out until I get to build it

(It's a win-win situation everytime - i love them both <3)

[kit-screams-into-the-future]

looking at the dialogue i wrote up for the next comic strip and the sheer amount of sketches (sketches. not even the lineart itself) to go along with it........ at this point i may just have to start writing fanfiction. it would be a lot less tedious methinks

[kaeyapilled]

i dont think kaveh and alhaitham were romantically involved back in the akademiya. and in fact i believe that the repressed pining particularly from kaveh's part made their friendship breakup worse

[mossyinkynebulous]

I'm drawing it later, but:

Tim and Jay doing the rubber room w/ rats made me crazy thing while Brian is just sitting there.

Jay says out of nowhere, I want to kiss you on the mouth to Tim and then immediately went back to the chant.

Brian laughing at the outburst, the only one addressing the detour.

Alex walks in for a moment realizes what's happening and just turns around and leaves.

[honeypot-sapphic]

Me holding on to the last threads of my asexual identity so I don't lose the one constant part of how I've identified for as long as I've known I'm queer

[pokemonruby]

deep cut deserved better but otherwise amazing finale; they absolutely went all out for it and i enjoyed every second. it feels very bittersweet ultimately, but now we can look forward to splatoon 4 on the next console!

[dreamedfyre-a]

and if i say i hate that one of the uh 5 mentions hel.aena has in f&b is about her being loved by the people in contrast to the public opinion of rhae.nyra at that point and her death sparking a riot only to have to watch her be attacked bc rhae.nyra is the only good queen allowed on the show

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

on my quest to find more books to read this year, there's been something kind of heartwarming to see that of the books on hold at my local library, or on the weekly bestseller's list at my local bookstores, there's always at least one book up there that's about Palestine. It's at least nice to see that some people in my area want to learn about the historical context of what's happening now, and learn far more than what a few posts on their feed can tell them. It makes me hope that public perception will continue to change for the better - and that the kind of support I've seen in my area won't die down immediately after a ceasefire is called

[shiningstarr15]

Seeing all these concept ideas and headcanons of Vanessa going around on my timeline is making me realize just how truly different my version of her really is… 😅💀😬

[gxlden-angels]

Do not stop talking about Palestine. Do not forget about Palestine. This is not a battle of religion and I do not think it should be treated as such. From the river to the sea, they will be free 🇵🇸

Disclaimer: I am not an expert. I am just some guy in the US. I am not a direct source of information. Please listen to Palestinians. Please help them directly. Please help with protests if your country is supplying Israel with weapons like the US.