#just kidding that isnt my complex
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not the only bitch with black hair and face piercings in the doll aisle rn :/ feeling: NOT SPECIAL
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Biting the bars of my enclosure about autistic ford tonight. There's something about him using vocabulary and turns of phrase that seem "outdated" or "pretentious" that feels so painfully genuine to me. When people say he talks like that just to "try to sound smart" I wish I could explain what it's like to be so ostracized from your peers growing up that you spend all your time reading instead, to the point where you pick up your way of speaking from books instead of from people. And then what it's like for people to call you out for "talking weird" over and over again, not able to wrap their heads around why the fuck you would choose more archaic or technical or formal words than the simpler ones that surely come to everyone's minds first. What it's like to have to dedicate a sizable chunk of attention to filtering through every single word you say out loud in real time before you say it, to make absolutely sure that it isn't a word people will judge you for using or make fun of you for using, just so you'll have a chance of being taken seriously. Learning through trial and error how to filter out the words that other people don't think are normal or casual enough for the conversation, even though for you, the word choice that's "natural-sounding" enough for them is the third or fourth word you came up with when searching for the right way to phrase something in your head. I wish I could explain just how long it takes to say fucking anything after spending a lifetime doing that during every single conversation, and how repetitive and long-winded you end up being when you spend so long coming up with alternative ways of saying every little thing you ever think. And I wish people realized that, at the very least for autistic people and autistic-coded characters, speech that's seen as pretentious is really just the way they talk when they're not putting in the extra effort to filter through every word they say just so others will take the time to listen.
#ford meta#actuallyautistic#everyone go read the wikipedia page for 'stilted speech' right now#long post#ford isnt very good at masking. he doesn't have the kind of (unintentional) autistic coding that is Palatable To Neurotypicals.#definitely looking-too-deeply-at-a-kid-cartoon right now but in *some* ways. a world where the majority of people think its easy to like an#-understand ford is a world that would feel safe for me to unmask in.#i truly truly hate that fully explaining my thoughts on ford requires me to say so much about myself. but god is it such a crime-#-to use a fictional character as a lens through which to try and explain to people how to be more understanding and accepting-#-of things like this.#making fun of stilted speech is so normalized that people don't even realize they're making fun of someone for being weird.#people think its Someone Thinking They're Better Than You but its something people lay awake at night wishing they could stop doing.#and yet they still end up using the Wrong Words and being labeled a Pretentious Asshole just for talking differently than the norm.#maybe there really are people out there who deliberately use big words to try and sound smarter than everyone else. I don't know.#all I know is. in a world where its pretty obvious that people who use a discongruently complex vocabulary get made fun of for doing that.#why would someone deliberately trying to impress people do something that would only get them laughed at.#sorry for being genuine on main. as if its my fault </3
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If I see one more fucking system say endos are valid I think im gonna fucking eat someone
#do not.fucking.interact with me if youre an endo or support endos your entire existence disgusts me#no being.a system is NOT fun its NOT cool no iys NOT cosplay it is NOT having friends in your head its not fun#to have fictives bc “oh you get to talk to your fave character!!” fictives arent controllable anyway you very well could end up with a#fictive you fucking hate#you could have introjects of your abuser#having system members who sabotage or hurt you on purpose is not fun#being an endo isnt real you cannot have DID or OSDD without trauma#DID is complex trauma. thats what it is. its CPTSD with dissociation.#its nkt.funny haha character time#you cannot be a system without some form of dissociation or trauma.#and no you cannot “become” a system ehen youre older. ykure delusional.#i was severely abused and traumatized in my formative years and it led to dissociationy entire childhood and i have gaps of time miasing#from my mond#like yes i know i was abused i do remember some of the abuse i know i was beaten everyday and locked up in my room#and to see kids say theyre endos with 100+ alters with perfect communication makes me.SO ANGRY my disorder IS NKT YOUR PLAYTHING.#if you were an actual system you would fucking hate being a system iys not fun or quirky#yeah i LOVE not having my entire life in my mond#yeah i LOVE dissociating and forgetting days of my life#i love fhat i cant remember 8 months of my life because its just gone! goodbye! gone from my memory!#fucking endos#dont fucking interact if youre an endo i hate you
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what would u call this aesthetic? does it have a name?
#i was thinking abt how the small soldiers scene of the dolls tying up the kid making me feel a specific way as a kid..#i also never 'played' with dolls? i would mostly go outside and throw them off the top of my apartment complex or melt them#one time as a treat my uncle let me set a talking doll on fire and it distorted her voice before she exploded and i was so hype#idk broken dolls r just so fucking gender to me#along w that one enemy in SH2 thats just 2 pairs of legs? god i wish that was me#Small soldiers#Mirrormask#Silent Hill 2#ik SH nurse isnt a doll perse but they fit a lot of the criteria of busted doll
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Oh my god, Cole is projecting so hard, what a fickin buffon 😂😂
#Raksh watches hotd#hotd#hotd spoilers#hotd liveblogging#house of the dragon#oh my this is really turning into me just calling all the men idiots isnt it 🙈#but what can I say#they are!#also I like the guard twins#Id love to see more of them in fact#but guess this one will die soon eh 😔#just bcs Cole is having a guilt complex oh well#Cole started as a character I was growing to like#and then everything went to shit and now Im like an exasperated momma looking down at their idiot kid#am I turning into Alicent? ooof better not!#anyway#Im having an headache and feeling very cranky from it#so pls excuse my language 🙈
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did i ever get around to mentioning that my least favourite era of tf cartoons (2010-2017, all technically in the same 'continuity' even though. their obviously not actually. and also. that real bad comics lore) there is so much messaging around the idea that like "you need to stick up for yourself" but it will always be completely encounter to the way everyone acts, the meanness of the humour used, and that like... you have to stick up for yourself! against your direct superiors! no they are NOT beholden to you 'sticking up for yourself' and have no particular method of account. You just! Have to! and once you do! they will, ofc, due to their good nature, realise the error of their ways and redress.... i mean. maybe. at least until next episode?
do i think this has ANYTHING to do with how propagandist each show is regards to... the government, the military, police or even yeah religion, and or how they characterize their settings with having NO tf civilians/non combatants.... WELL.
#some shit#its not called cisformers#this era being sandwiched between the show that said oh the good guys govt is act like. a military propagandist state and antagonist force#[common animated w]#and the show thats like. why the war started is unclear but these ppl use to be friends and civilians but the complex relations between#warring factions makes actions reverbate like dominoes thus reestablishing peace is very hard for material practical reasons#[beloved CV narrative focus]#WELL#did think of this cause of an actually poignant real world post whoops#2010-2017 era shows ofc being. the edgy one. the preschool ones. and the copaganda one <- my favourite of the lot. believe it or not.#this is less moral outrage that THE KIDS MEDIA ISNT teaching good lessons and more like. how put. lacking both the emotional depth#to do actually good moralizing. OR the sophistication to just. have fucked up shit happen and like. damn. thats fucked up.#which again. is less caused because of the media and age demo its for. cause the shows b4 and after ARE NOT THIS.#but more. i always suspect. those FUCKING MOVIES. setting us back SEVERELY.#(in terms of how preschool age shows have no civilians is like. how everyone needs A JOB. in the SYSTEM#no Hey its COOL. if ur just. a kid. or. an unaffiliated Guy. hanging out)
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I think it’d be funny if Damian was completely against graffiti at first until miles was like “oh ok….No it’s nothing I just didn’t think the Son of the Bat would let the GCPD tell him what to do. My mistake :/“ their first joint tag is a mural going around the gcpds main station involving various rogues and vigilantes from each of their cities.
#nightwing visits and appreciates how accurate blud is#red hood signs his section#as do spoiler black bat and somehow the fucking oracle#prowler (omg I can’t believe Aaron didn’t die and just went into a temp coma :0)#anyways prowler says he looks a lot handsomer than the mural makes him out to be but it’s whatever#Tim says they’d be so lost if they actually went to San Fran bc that apartment complex is NOT next to that park omg#he cried and he refuses to admit it#Signal convinces the GCPD to leave it up till the next time the station gets destroyed#Batman doesn’t react but Bruce has each section of it framed and one big picture of all of them combined#damian and miles are literally best friends sorry Jon#Harley is so excited Abt her section and Ivy decides that she’ll give miles and Damian a head start when her plants take back the earth#Selina was surprised to be on there but Damian has a new cat#his name is batcat#jokers not on the mural and he was offended and tried to bomb it and got jumped by the other rogues smh my head#freeze was especially pissed since the mural had a beautiful dedication to Nora#agent a isnt drawn physically but there’s hints of him there that Bruce recognized and pointed out to Alfred like a 10 yr old talking Abt-#-a vid they’re showing their parents#Damian and miles didn’t draw themselves actually#just signed a big ass kid arachnid and Robin#kid arachnid is his name till he’s old enough to actually be Spider-Man
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found family for the arakawas aint even metaphorical shits Literal
#snap chats#like you know with found families its like Oh We Found Security And A Type Of Familial Love In Each Other like the ichigang#yeah no thats just. these dads found their kids again (even if only one of them knows that)#jo found masato / ichi found arakawa#or did arakawa find ichi?#either way congratulations everyone found their way back to each other and only one bro knows that for sure#and then we all became a big dysfunctional family by merging isnt that cute#we call those Complex Step Families in psychology. or is it complex mix.#i swear i passed my final with flying colors Point Is two parenrs with kids from before join together#double checked it it IS complex step families haha gottem#sorry im still obsessed with the arakawa family dynamic it really is so funny. yes these men have kids together#no theyre not involved like that BUT they do trust each other immensely. whats not clicking#sometimes i think arakawa knew the truth but i still dont think he did#maybe got a gut feeling cause of That Dream but he probably didnt think it was anything beyond a metaphor for his bond with ichi#i already joked bout that tho didnt i..#anyways ignore me i was thinkin of stuff to post tomorrow
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i can def relate to having an abusive mother, the worst part is that people always assume mothers to be good people. thankfully my dad and mother don't live together so i chose to stay with my dad permanently but my dad's girlfriend is constantly talking about how i should make up with my mother because "you only get one mom" and she completely ignores me when i try to talk about how abusive my mother was
yeah. ugh. sorry about your situation anon. it sucks and im sending sympathies
#ask#i just dunno what to do with myself#as if complex trauma isnt enough im now dealing with a lot of complicated situations regarding what to do now#i dont live there anymore. but my siblings do. hi guys i have 4 younger siblings#and me as much as everybody else just wishes there was a nice family to help us develop stable and normal#so im doing my damn best. im trying to stay in contact with the kids. im hoping they have a better support system than i did#but family policy means the teens get no texting privacy no internet time. so as if i can fucking stay in touch and look out for them anywa#i dont think i can do anything. it feels inevitable that every kid is gonna get completely fractured like me#and the only other alternative risks making it worse and uncomfortable when its none of my business anymore#(taking up my therapist on calling cps. lol)#i cant talk about it with my siblings (no real access to them) and it makes me insane#i cant talk to my dad because he has enough shit and i dont want to drive the family to pieces#i cant talk to my mum because she has a habit of abusing the kids and then telling them its because *I* made her mad; blame me#what am i meant to do#as if the past isnt a lot to process right now. im also dealing with the present that this is probably ongoing and theres fuck all i can do#sorry for venting. im in hell. im trying to be normal and failing spectacularly#abuse#domestic abuse#for cw#i wish i didnt have to worry. i wish this was never a problem in the first place
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Woofy
#traditional art#doodle#werewolf#made w a bic pen n colored pencil on printer paper#they were the like. erasable crayola pencils and they kinda fuckin suck ngl#i threw all 500 of my colored pencils in a ziploc n left em on a bench in our complex 4 some kid 2 take#n it turns out i like. kept all the shitty ones it seems. idk maybe i should just finally upgrade to a brand that isnt for kindergarteners#i need 2 get all new paint anyway maybe i should make it an excuse 2 hit up an actual craft store now that i dont live in the woods
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i think the most fun part about writing is exploiting ur character's flaws to create unique & interesting interpersonal relationships like yes what this character is doing is nearly objectively wrong but to them its just another tuesday. im projecting my parents' issues onto my oc & his kid is what im saying
#this post is about valerian & luca#brought on by this one sentence i wrote a while back#in which luca tells someone that 'i thought all the kids with divorced parents were exaggerating'.#luca at the very least got to grow up before he got the barrage of 'i cant believe your father did this did you know your father did this'#bc ever since i was 10 & my parents divorced? 'your other parent sucks and heres why'. from both sides#should people use their kids as therapists or discord vent channels? no!#but it is a real thing. valerian isnt a perfect father. he messes up a LOT. so much so that luca moves in with their aunt when theyre 11#their reconciliation doesnt start until luca's well into their twenties but tha doesnt make it less valuable#within those 15 or so years valerian grew as a person. a lot. but hes still incredibly flawed#i get the fun in mary sues but also i need a way to cope with my parents' flaws and to accept mine. so!#young valerian has a lot of my own characteristics & flaws#even some of my experiences#i project a lot i just try to frame it in a way that makes sense#but also its my ocs and i can do whatever i want with them.#pparental relationships are far more complex than good parent who loves you and bad parent who doesnt#sometimes parents have severe unresolved trauma and thats okay! but also you shouldnt be a parent#its. difficult to fathom the concept of having to support another person for 18+ years#i dont blame my mom for giving up on me i dont blame her for all the shit shes done to make me miserable#because she got it from her mom. and her mom got it from her mom. my mom is just as traumatized as i am she just. doesnt admit it#this is just a repeat of the silco post i made on my main LMAO#ive always been more drawn towards flawed characters who love their kid(s) & i wish fandom understood nuance :/
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I started watching the Terminator movies, and I... meh. Terminator 1 was Not That Interesting to me, and Terminator 2 had a better premise (imo), but it just... none of it Sits Well with me. (My issue is I’m comparing it to the Matrix.) (I typed this all in the tags but I think I passed the tag limit so that sucks.)
#okay my main issue#besides how badly they treated mr dyson who like... i dont think did anything wrong since he had no way of knowing what was gonna happen#is that like... 1. that im comparing it to the matrix lol#2. that the way the matrix glorifies guns and has mindless violence just feels different than the way terminator does it#or like the matrix has a good general discussion of human hubris and like how There Should Be A Line with machines but i feel like#terminator doesn't have the same degree of nuance in terms of like... i genuinely think dyson was just trying to like make a cool tech thing#like a nerd! and then down the line it got corrupted (probably by big corporations idk im not paying a lot of attention)#also one of the things that is really fascinating to me about the matrix is like... i like to think about machine sentience#and the matrix has a lot of room for complexity with like#agent smith clearly feeling hatred and having a sense of self-preservation#so do brown and jones when they run away from like neo at the end of movie one#whereas like it is so uncomfortable to assign sentience to the terminator bc he just Does whatever the kid tells him to do#(which reminds me of lost in space but i found the robot in lost in space more compelling than the terminator actually)#(probably because the robot protected the kid Because the kid saved him and he also questioned what the kid told him to do)#but idk i find the terminator to like... not be a particularly compelling robot (maybe it gets better later im only at movie 2)#and while both have excessive violence the matrix still has like... it isnt *as* excessive ig?#im also admittedly incredibly biased#but like yeah i dont really like the terminator series so far#one thing i really didnt like abt movie one is that like (presumably) the gimmick is that the viewer doesn't know about the time travel#and its like 'woahhh [the guy idk his name] is johns dad'#but i was Not Surprised at all#or like 'woah the picture is the same picture'#and both have the like If You Encounter This Robot Just Run You Can't Win#which i think in the terminator would be wayyyyy better suited to a horror movie than an action movie#because then theres genuine suspense and its not boring that theyre just running bc thats the whole point#but w/ terminator it was kinda like... theyre hyping up that its an unbeatable bad guy but for like no reason#because it doesnt actually raise the stakes#since you know at the least sara's gotta survive#i have so much more to say but i think my tags are gonna get cut off anyway#rip
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YESSS YESS EXACTLYY
vash w this hairstyle is literally so cute.. .. wolfwood matchies or smt T__T
#THANK YOUUUUU LITEALLYLYYB ABAJSVAHHAHAA#im such a sucker for imperfect / complex / tense sibling dynamics like it rly drives me up the wall#the thing u said ab them being estranged and changed in ways neither can understand each other like b4 .. im foaming @ the mouth#its soo .. i saw a post the other day of smone talking about what a post-finale life would look like w the two of them#and the struggles in trying 2 reconcile their images of each other from what they remember vs what they see#and knives seeing the lasting impacts his ghg-terror has had on vash sure but also 2 be able to witness#vashs ideals on a personal level w human interactions he has not once experienced in his life .. hrmm#like isnt tht crazy.. like knives sees mankind as this virulent and evil thing#bc his only exposure (save for rem) has been 2 the atrocities back on earth (conflict vids on the seeds ship)#to the select few ppl on gunsmoke (the side of the village only he saw + all the gung ho gangs + all the exploited plants)#meanwhile vash - who has lived among ppl for more than a century - has a holistic view of the good/bad but overwhlemingly. good#kind caring and compassionate ppl who genuinely do strive to do their best w what little they have#so for knives to meet the doctor and the kid who help him save his brother liek .. MAANN it was The first shift we see in who knives has#been exposed 2 in daily ordinary life. just some random ppl in some random town doing what they can 2 save this stranger and his brother#obviously i wouldnt expect it to radically change him but THE APPLE TREE??? obvi it left some impact and it reminds me of when he was a kid#and hoped for a world where humans and plants could get along. which.. btw him being the twin -> antag. LUVV ITTT SOO MUCH#like u said.. acknowledging vashs ideals .. repetance .. nodding so hard#i just want 2 navigate a post finale life w knives and vash SOO BAD RRGGAAAAHH idek where i was going w that stuff but like^#how thats just 1 piece of the puzzle yk.. so many little tasty things we could seen w respects to his character#also the thing ab him not regretting what hes done.. agree agree agreee agree YAAA yeah i think that is literally so him#bc at the end of the day .if he had never done what he did . u could argue gunsmoke wouldve never had that ‘oh shit’ realization#of plant sentience / how theyve been treated as a collective. blah blah earth crewmen probably couldve put a stop to that but thats boring#wheres the drama wheres the excitement wheres the uprising (pointing 2 knives)#also.i just like how in maximum.they r kind of bitchy & rude to each other at times HAJAHAJAHAHAH like it isnt some fake ‘brothers forever’#boring admiration but . u rmbr vashs ‘ill tell u my secret if u calm down’ jab. they would bicker so much in the weeks following the finale#as they try to come 2 terms w each other HELPP i would do anything 2 see jt lkke avtually im like dragging myself on tbe floor#trigun#trigun spoilers#trigun maximum#knives trigun
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— kanato headcanon's
hii, omg i laugh a little while reading this, bc its so true! kanato can be put in a stereotype and cant get him out if that but ill do my best so i hope i dont desappoint!! and ty so much for enjoying my blog, it means a lot to me that you guys like what i write and specially my art!
so here i bring kanato, and with a little warning as well as i did with laito, kanato is also a very complex and deep character, he isnt childish all the time and definetly not a kid, he is a hole ass man with the usual mommy and daddy issues (cortesy of diabolik lovers to every character)
tw: this post has nsfw content (+18) , so if you dont like it dont read it!!
kanato was so friking difficult to draw, i dont love it but in another moment ill draw him again until i like the result.
his looks and selfcare
so, kanato, i have some thoughts, to begin with lets talk about his appearence, i like to think that kanato has the kind of ethereal beauty, maybe bc he is the one who looks the most like his mother, so the beauty is serving. kanato has round eyes and long lashes, and his dark circles juts makes his gaze pop out.
oh, and kanato gaze? i think he may be the most scary one, ofc not all the time, kanato round eyes makes him have a cute and friendly gaze and as well one that sink into you the moment he see's you with dark eyes and a terrifiying aura.
i like to think that kanato has the most pretty eyes of the sakamaki brothers, and even if his brothers may say he is kind of femenine, kanato doesnt care, he may be more of a femenine beauty but still is so godamn handsome.
i like to think that kanato does not really take care of his skin. its like shu, he has a pretty and soft skin just by washing his face with water, dont have acne even he always eat sweets, but he do use a good soap like laito, a bar soap and only for his face, and really hates when his brothers use it for their hands, kanato throws it away if that happen's.
i think kanato has a sensitive skin so he has to be carefull with what he cleans himself, one time in his teen years, kanato used ayato soap by mistake and he got urticaria, but the soap was'nt used before so kanato knew it was'nt for the dirty soap, it was just a cheap soap. since then kanato only use natural soaps, he likes lavanda ones, vanilla or coconut, he likes sweets escents. also uses natural shampoo.
kanato prefers long baths bc he enjoys the hot water, and really really hates cold showers.
kanato likes to style his hair, he doesnt have fluffly hair, so he has to style it to have more volume.
i think kanato do not use sunscreen, he thinks its dumb since he is a vampire and tecnically dont age like a human so he isnt worried for that.
and since kanato has sensitive skin, i belive he also has some sensorial issues, like he can't stand someting itchy or to rough to the touch. kanato will literally burn it, he has to feel soft clothes, like cotton or silk, and yes, he loves silk, actually, kanato has slik sheets and pillows.
i think kanato has a normal sense of fashion, like i dont get why people sometimes put kanato in lolita or cute core or whatever, kanato really loves comfy clothes and more like "grandpa" clothes, like chunky sweaters, he likes to use belts and classic shoes, dont like sneakers.
and for his body, i think he does have wide shoulders, but he is skinny bc he dont excersize, it happens the same with the sunscreen, kanato think is dumb to excersize bc he has super strenght so he does'nt really need muscles to prove how powerful he is. kanato has big and slim hands, good cared nails. i also think kanato dont have a small waist, he has a more thick waist and prominent v line, but not so much like his brothers. i like to think that kanato has a mole on his side stomach.
and he also can grow a beard but dont like it, he think he looks terrible and freak out a little every time he sees a little hair on his chin.
random stuff
so, i have a lot of thoughts in kanato.
to begin with, i think kanato has a lot of sensorial issues, like he cant stand being with a big group of people for too long, the noise of people talking or just hearing them breath it makes kanato stress out a lot. this also happens with food, if the food has a weird texture he has the instict of throw up. and lastly i think this also happens with the touch, like if he touch sticky things, clumpy or bumpy, something of a strange consistency, kanato will go crazy.
and i also think (maybe canon?? im not sure) kanato is not a cry baby, its just his way of manipulate things at his favor when he needs it. i think he only has really cried for anger in his life, not really bc he is sad.
i think kanato likes to collect figures, not teddy bears of plushies, he likes specially horror figures, like lucky boxes or just iconic horror figures. and speaking of horror, kanato is a big fan! he has maga, movies and books of horror stories, he thinks humans maybe do has good ideas but sometimes he thinks its too absurd, like zombies? where did that come from?
i think kanato likes to walk, just, go around and take long walks, it help him clear his mind and dont think too much of his mother. and its no secret kanato has a hard time in rainy day so i think he listen to music with earphones bc he feels down if he hears the rain.
i also think kanato has a special way of expressiong himself with other people, like, he takes everything literal so he says things very literal, and has a short temper, cant stand stupid or slow people (me neither kanato, i got you) it gets on his nervers.
i like to think that kanato gets the ick with a lot of things, like if he sees someone drop their food and pick it up again and eat it, kanato cant belive it, or when someone says a joke that its not funny, he gets the ick, also when someone has bad taste in music, kanato cant stand bad music.
and speaking about music, kanato is a big fan of the classics singers, but also some divas, he just likes how their voice can go so high. but he dont really like singning, he despite its but love it at the same time. vampire things.
nsfw
so... kanato is one fo a kind. maybe the most kinky out of his brothers.
so to begin with, kanatos dick, a solid 16 cm, very avegare, mostly for his complexion. is a pretty dick, with a pink tip and not pubic hair, kanato has two veins coming from the croch to his tip. and its slightly pointing up with a little curve.
(and btw, so its not too crazy, the lengts i put are when they are hard, like hard and wild. i belive all the brothers are team blood, except for subaru but thats another story)
i think kanato its a switch, but he prefer to be dominant rathen than being dominated. oh and he has a really high sex drive, but not like, with everyone, when he is into you and really loves spending time with you he get the urge to be under your skin everytime he can, but likes to make you know it too, he wants you to want it.
i think kanato can be very unpredictable, mostly bc his mood swings a lot, but if you are patience and please as he wants you to, he may become interested in you, constantly looking out for you and wanting to spend time with you, thats his love lenguage, quality time!
at first i think kanato will ask you to do things for him, and in some point he will start doing things for you, like if kanato sees you cooking he may join to help, at the begining you are in shock for his actions, so caring and nice all of the sudden, but then you will get use to it, and if you two are close enough. kanato will tease you in a cute way.
"am i suppose to be impressed by your cooking? maybe if you cook topless il be more thrilled hehe"
you see, kanato is not really a dirty talker, he has a more sooting tone and his way of speak when he wants to get you in the mood its more loving and like a smooth seductive. oh and he will call you by nicknames before having sex, but during it kanato loves to say your name or call you a good girl.
i think kanato also loves spending time with you, like a little cute married couple.
and if you two are doing any other activity he suddenly will kiss you, just bc he finds you so cute and precious, he cant get his eyes off your lips, he loves kissing you. kanato is a tender kisser, likes to feel to softness of you lips and how your tongue respond to his, and if you two kiss for a while he can get worked up "you like kisses? i'll kiss every part of you, so be a good girl, okay?" and then will start kissing your neck, likes to kiss right where the big vein in your neck pump, he can feel the blood flows through his lips and that is a turn on for him.
"you like when i kiss you here dont you?... i feel how your body tremble when i do it... you're so cute like this..."
kanato takes his time with you, likes to build up the mood and stuff. when he get enough of you neck, he'll mess with your earlobe and your chest. kanato dont love to be rough in bed so the foreplay is really calm and slow. will put his knee bewteen your legs as he suck on your tits, likes to play with your boobs, suking your nipples makes him so hard while hearing you moan softly while gripping his hair, and he loves when you hold onto his hair.
kanato is'nt a rusher but when you had enough of teasing he will take your clothes, and i mean it, kanato will tear them from your body.
"i don't care about your clothes, i'll buy you nices dresses so i can rip every one off your body"
and maybe unexpected, but kanato do likes 69, likes to eat you out so much, he think that your juices are as good as your blood, and he definetly makes you eat pinapple with him for this moment. he likes to tease your clit and sometimes will stick a finger inside you as he keeps on sucking you. and a little detail i like, i that when you suck him off, kanato doesnt realize his hips moves unvoluntary, so sometimes you may gag, and after you cum or he does, your eyes will be really watery from how many times he thrust into your troat.
oh, and he also likes to play with candles while fucking you, like when he is inside but not moving waiting for you to feel confortable, kanato will take a candle and with his powers he get the fire to melt a little so little but hot drops of candle fall into your stomach and chest.
kanato is a classic, loves missionary, mostly bc he loves to watch your face while fucking you, kanato is a slow and deep kind of guy, like he makes sure you feel him real good so he tends to take it all out to put it back again. and really loves seeing how it goes in, he thinks its very romantic to see how your bodies make one.
"you should see this... you take me so well... so good for me... you're such a good girl for me..."
and when the pace become steady he will be hipnotized by your tits bouncing, he loves your boobs. probably will stick a finger inside your mouth as he keep going.
but i also think kanato can be a player, a really kinky one.
for started, kanato likes the dinamic where he is the one in charge and you are his slave, his pleasure slave, and when he is in that kind of mood, kanato will tie you up, use his powers to make you stay still and play with you, loves to edge you, cut your pleasure gives him pleasure, hearing your cries for not cuming and desperate moans makes him really hard.
like if your are getting fingered he will take his fingers before you cum and if you attempt to touch yourself he will use his powers to make you stay still "oh... dont be a bad girl, you'll come when i say so... either way i am the one controling your body... hehe" and then he will finger you hard to make you cum, kanato loves to hear how wet your pussy get that he will ride you trough you climax by oral.
and he has make you squirt but he doesnt know how, the firts time you squirt was on a busy night, you had come a lot by that point and he just keep going even after you just cum, no breaks, so kanato was amused when he sees how you wet the bed and his legs got, he thought it was so hot that he got mad bc he didnt get to drink it all.
and if kanato feels to horny, probably for the full moon, he will get savage. starting soft and nice but at some point of the night kanato will be basically destroying your pussy, like fucking you so pussy drunk he cant stop even if you had cum before. loves to heard the wet sound every thrust makes.
"fuck... you might eat me tonight... hehe... how can you feel so good huh?... keep cuming... i have more for you" and with his sloppy thrust, cocky grind and needy eyes. dear lord.
when kanato is about to cum he will start to fuck you a little harder, and will bite you at the moment too sometimes. kanato will thrust deep as he feel it coming.
"be a good girl and take it... yes... such a good girl for me.."
the aftercare its two ways, or you and him cuddle for a while and then sleep after cleaning himself and you with wet wipes, or you two go for a snack before goign to sleeep. you know, to keep the sugar high.
and when you two are well rested he may began kissing your neck again while playing with you nipples "you deserve a reward for making me feel so good... i think you are able to take another one... right?"
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I recently received a DM from a fellow who was a junior mod in the Shipping Container server, & they’ve been gracious enough to allow me to use their words on the current happenings, covering the events of the 0303Emily internal happenings of the server at that time.
Now, you may wonder why exactly I’m bringing up the 0303Emily debacle, much less in association with Pansear?
Well, besides the fact that the accusations leveled against 0303Emily are baseless themselves (One example of why at the bottom of this post, completely ignoring the fact that Azriel was only a month or 2 away from being 18 at the time of the accusation while 0303Emily was just 20.), they indicate a trend between both accusations that further shows minimal actual PROOF & deliberate misinterpretations of situations to then twist things into a more negative light.
Now, the statement from the junior mod:
“first off, sorry this isnt really that well worded. i dont even know where to start with all this. i wanted to offer my view on things from the internals of the SC server and some info that might explain the origins of all this. ive wanted to talk about this for a while but im not a very confrontational person and i didnt even have a tumblr or twitter
i was a helper (basically junior mod that had bare mininum perms) on SC during the entire event, and while I did not participate in the decision because it was really complex and i was busy with finals but i did lurk the convo and read a lot of it. i dont have any screenshots of this because i left a few weeks later after the entire mod team basically dissolved and the server lost all its users.
basically a while back before the grooming accusations some kids (like under 18) on the server were going around looking up artists on furaffnity, e621, and other nsfw websites and then reporting it to the mods of SC and i think mainworld too. the mods were pretty "this isnt really our business" about it and told the kids to stop snooping, and that was the end of it.
a few months later still before the grooming the issue resurfaced with the same users going after nsfw artists, they were again told to mind their business but a few weeks later came back with the grooming accusations on top of it. the key thing here is that the mod issue was heavily centered around the nsfw art that emily had been making, along with several other users who were in nsfw servers that these kids had joined to snoop around. they logged thousands of messages from multiple users and sifted through them looking for anything that could be added to this report.
again i just want to emphasize that this was not at all about Emily and Azriel at this time. The entire report was about NSFW people were doing in private NSFW sites and places that the kids had to lie and sneak into because they were LOOKING for dirt on these people. It was not just emily but around a dozen users in our server that had been perfectly fine up until this point.
there was a lot of delay with getting this report finalized and the grooming accusation came later. however given the context this seemed to raise a few red flags for the staff because the accusors had been so intense about their search for info and the fact that the conversation between them was months prior, there was some question of if the accusors had coached or otherwise convicned azriel about them being groomed just to get more dirt on emily.
Well the SC mods were tired of the NSFW artists being reported and considering the number of people being reported (again, more than just emily) and the methods the accusors had taken, decided that this was basically tantamount to stalking and kicked everyone involved.
What you see on tumblr is the response to that. They went and said "SC is run by groomer zoophiles" and everyone who had a hate boner for pansear jumped on board and it went nuclear.
I dont really know if this helps but i am just tired of sitting here being unable to speak about it because i dont have a following and i really miss pansear.”
I want to further emphasize this part:
“again i just want to emphasize that this was not at all about Emily and Azriel at this time. The entire report was about NSFW people were doing in private NSFW sites and places that the kids had to lie and sneak into because they were LOOKING for dirt on these people. It was not just emily but around a dozen users in our server that had been perfectly fine up until this point.”
Minors actively invaded adult-spaces, willingly & ACTIVELY exposed themselves to adult content EXPLICITLY to ‘dig up dirt.’
So, with that in mind, why would they stop at that? Why would they stop at something so trivial as faking screenshots? Multiple members have actively made threats to people accused & they care not about spreading a falsehood (Just look at Pansear’s old Tumblr handle!).
And here’s the example I said I’d give earlier. Azriel starts the conversation with mention of the horrors of some NSFW content from the fandom & then gives an example. 0303Emily follows up with a shared experience. This is some of the ‘proof’ that was presented in the doc Azriel & Co. put forth.
This doesn’t even mention any of the other discrepancies in their own ‘proof.’ The ‘Zoophilia’ allegations are once again Anthro on Anthro characters engaging in sexual acts, just like the allegation against Pansear.
Don’t believe me? Their own google doc is right here on this chap’s post. Read through it.
And if you want to read more, read this. It further emphasizes on this matter.
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me and my cousin spent 10 hours straight talking abt the Todoroki siblings the other day and these drawings are all the result of that🙏 had to draw them being normal siblings!!! so imagine this is an au where Rei and Endeavor get a divorce right after Shoto is born and Toya gets mood stabilizers and therapy
Toya is still so competitive and gets so mad when he doesnt win at everything! especially with superiority complex he has😭when playing games the other three know that if he isnt winning hes going to flip the board and accuse them of cheating! they know its going to happen!
Toya lives to make his siblings lives harder! but in this au instead of it being. murder. its just him taking any opportunity to embarrass his siblings! they go into stores and he SO LOUDLY will say "oh my god Fuyumi are you stealing😨" HIS SIBLINGS HATE IT!!! Fuyumi is the main person he embarrasses though because she reacts the most!
also these two playing hide and seek^_^ Shoto would hide with Natsuo and Natsuo would get so mad and tell him to find his own spot! and they would bicker and both get caught first.
other hcs is that Shotos siblings would say they are gonna play hide and seek with him and he would go hide and the rest just. wouldnt😭he would be hiding for like 45 minutes and they would never come to find him! and he would get so upset😭😭
when Toya starts driving his siblings would all make him so stressed when he would be driving! pointing out every cop they see, scream if he accidentally goes through a red light, freak out wayyy too much if he accidentally goes up on a curb. all that. HE HATES IT!!! once he got more comfortable driving he started driving poorly intentionally, just to freak out his siblings. like swerving the car randomly, harshly breaking, letting go of the wheel for multiple seconds😭just to startle them.
if any of the kids did Christmas concerts the other three would always cheer ABSURDLY loud just to embarrass them! Shoto wouldnt get embarrassed, he would fully stop singing and wave at his family in the crowd. Natsuo would get extremely embarrassed and would pretend he doesnt notice them, he would yell at them afterwards. Fuyumi would get embarrassed and try to keep her composure but would be laughing and lose focus ! Toya would get embarrassed like Natsuo, trying to stay focused on what hes doing so he doesnt mess up. he would be very very annoyed in the moment but would forget about it afterwards i think.
when any of his younger siblings have good Toya will always ask for a bite and take the most absurdly huge bite ever😨even if his siblings say no! he asks as just a formality i guess. even if he has the same food or even worse, if its a food he hates😭he will still take a bite just to be mean! but if any of his siblings ask for a bite of his food he will either refuse or, if its in some kind of a wrapper, he will only unwrap the smallest bit so they can only take the smallest bite ever. and even then he will say they took too much!
i have a million other ideas and thoughts but i dont want this post to be too long‼️
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