#just dumping my thoughts

[stuckasmain]

Look if I had to deal with Mrs. Hall I too would go insane, was he a bit of an ass? Yes but

“For the love of god woman leave me alone im three seconds from going absolute bananas let me do what I need to do and I’ll leave.”

He was honest! I’m just saying—

None of this movie would’ve happened if people didn’t keep sticking their nose in his business. Yes his sanity is slipping- but he didn’t start going “you know what fuck y’all,” and start his rampage until everyone started poking the bear. He would’ve just obsessively worked on the antidote for all we know.

It’s one of those “society and hysteria make the monster their so afraid of” situations. I’m not saying he’s completely absolved of his issues as he was meddling with things he should’ve to begin with but there’s definitely a “overreaction is what made the problem”

[iocainesmoothie]

Been playing ffxiv, paid to skip HW but really enjoyed stormblood, saw emet-selch for the first time.

I'm very impressed that his first introduction to the player was to be shot and rag dolled down the stairs, it immediately differentiates him from the other ascians who just say ominous and vague nonsense that never amounts to anything. It was almost more sinister, because it really illustrates the point that the ascians are noncorporeal horrors piloting a meat puppet.

Also very minor detail but I noticed even back in stormblood, instead of writing a boring talk quest as "go talk to so-and-so", instead they say "go meet SOMEONE at such-and-such place". Like it's so very minor, but instead of straight up telling me who you're going to meet they just sorta hint and say how excited that person is to see you again.

Mechanically it's the exact same boring quest format, and maybe I don't otherwise even care about that character, but even that tiny bit of speculating who it is and the implication that they have any kind of emotional response AT ALL is already elevating the writing.

I get the majority of quest text boils down to telling the player to go to X or talk to Y or collect Z and there's only so many ways to do that, and clarity of communication is always top priority, but in something long format like an mmo where the player has likely plugged in a hundred hours already you can kinda assume they've been trained to expect a certain order of events and can play with the format a bit.

Also the last duty of sb was one of those "everyone shows up at the big battle as npcs and cheers at you to go on to the big boss while they hold back reinforcements" fights and it's very anime but honestly it always works on me.

Been leveling up dark knight, but I bought the level 80 warrior boost because I hate playing with other people and I wanted to solo a bunch of the main scenario raids instead of queueing. Also I'm playing dark knight because aesthetics, and tanking for a group is too much responsibility for me.

Honestly dk kinda sucks compared to paladin and warrior, way less mitigation and self healing, and though it feels like I'm doing more damage it's still not as much as a pure dps.

Also bought a bunch of clothes on the shop in a moment of weakness, but now my outfit is so cool I don't want to change into anything else! And I kinda miss wearing vanilla gear and seeing your outfit change as you pick up upgrades. Oh well atleast I'm cute and it avoids those awkward moments when a piece from a new set doesn't fit with your current fit.

Ffxiv clothing designs are so gorgeous, even the shitty low-level vanilla garbage is kinda cute. Ppl who buy store stuff obviously look good but I have way more respect for the glamours I see where people just got really creative with in-game items. The graphics are like 10 years out of date but the hair and clothes and faces are still miles better than some of biowares stuff (guys I love you I'm on your side let's figure this out you can't just make everyone bald)

Also I've noticed the cuts scene cameras do a trick anime does a lot to cut down animation costs, the framing and panning and angles do a LOT of the work when they otherwise can't get these limited models to emote that much. Or else they just fully cut away and let a sound effect imply an action took place and your brain just fills in the difference.

Anyway I'm addicted and am probably wasting a lot of time on things I should be doing instead but it's nice to have something to hyper fixate on for a while, and I haven't even started SB or EW and I've heard they're both life changing so maybe I'll just glut myself until I've wrung all the dopamine I can out of it.

Also I've realized there is such a jump in writing quality in SB that I'm only really emotionally attached to lyse and hien and the general, the rest of the scions are all kind of... idk unlikable?? They're all the same kind of snarky but not really funny, and speak intelligently but not really with any character or having much to say. Allisae being maybe the exception but I feel like she doesn't get much screen time compared to her brother.

It was very touching that she's the tough prickly one, but very honestly tells you she feels alone and sadly asks you not to leave her in a moment of vulnerability before the fight where she reaches for your hand desperately before her soul is teleported away. Like damn yeah this is manipulative but you got me! I'm invested now!

Also that little crystal cat boy was in arr and I never finished/paid attention to his quest line so idk how he ended up i SB, guess I'll find out.

[saturns-ringg]

something I think I'm dumb. I might be. I write things and they don't make sense- or sometimes I don't understand things. I'm sorry if sometimes my posts are written funky/don't make sense sometimes.

[majachee]

Something I like about TMNT is that, for the most part, they get sibling dynamics and teenager behavior right.

What most people tend to forget is that, for sibling relationships, there are a ton of dynamics to exist. Some siblings do call eachother sis/bro (my sister calls me Sib, and I sometimes call her Sis), some siblings do greet with eachother with an insult (we do this too).

Some siblings are competitive, some siblings aren't, some siblings are best friends, some siblings will literally recreate The Battle of Lexington and Concord over a shirt (my aunts were like this as teens).

But the most important thing to remember is that, at the end of the day, regardless how often some siblings may fight/argue; siblings would die for eachother. I'm not a martial artist like my sister, she gets on my nerves a lot, we have fights, but I'd throw punches and lay down my life for her. And I think that's important when writing genuine, sibling relationships.

As for teens - well, they're teens! They reference memes, they're loud and obnoxious, they can be dicks, they're young and excited about the outside world. Even though some are sillier than others, they're still obviously young teens yk?

TMNT has a range of sibling dynamics and dif types of teens they've portrayed, and it all feels GENUINE, yk? Yk??? YOU KNOW??

[bolontiku]

Turkey day

We eat.

And this year it is being held on Wednesday for our little family. This the brother decided once I got home from the hospital.

He has forgone inviting the elder as she works, and will likely celebrate with her new bf and his daughter, has invited several coworkers and the wife and hubs. Wife has to work tho so she invited me to her place for Friday but I don't think I will make it as hobbling to the bathroom and kitchen is a pain for me rn.

He has bought the main ingredients and will be doing the cooking as I am unable to move around freely. Lol I really didn't expect him to be Gung ho about it as he has been working overtime to make sure he can cover the bills and pay for presents. I had expected to send him and the Lil sister off to the families houses without me this year and idk I was just ready to miss out this year.

Why does he do these things?

Anyway, I have done worn myself out cleaning up the dishes and kitchen counter. The little sister did some grocery shopping (I gave her money and a list of items he missed) and she is going to do cleaning today. I reminded them trash gets picked up today and they boogied to get it out and to the curb.

I'm a little tired, but grateful for my idiot siblings.

[unfunny-ness]

Dude it both sucks and at the same time it doesnt to have been spoiled that shingetsu is actually lying to yuma during the first parts of Zexal II, because I always get bothered and uncomfortable when says anything kinda suspicious and yuma doesn't even notice because I know what he's doing to yuma but I guess in a way it adds to the experience of watching it all unfold especially now after watching their duel against girag still pissed that they beat up alito tho he didn't deserve that. Also Number C39: Utopia ray v was really fucking cool especially for yuma's first rank up xyz summon.

[minnieposting]

talking about ocd, hyperfixations, and loving vocaloid

minnie journal entry style post again, except this ones SUPER long lol.

a few nights ago i had a Moment of Weakness . it mightve been a withdrawal thing but i was not at my best lol, i just became really upset out of nowhere?? i was listening to some teto synthv stuff and kinda just Reminiscing on my vocaloid days ... i find myself doing that pretty frequently lately but since im not rlly hyperfixating on anything rn, vocaloid pretty much becomes my default. but im getting ahead of myself.

i get weird about my hyperfixations. when one starts slipping away it used to be so genuinely painful like i felt it so physically i would get so depressed whenever i felt hyperfixations start to slowly fade. i was always like that, but it was different with vocaloid.

 i will never be able to really describe HOW much vocaloid means to me but its litreally part of my soul. its ME. like i was sitting here trying to do exactly what i said i couldnt and guess what, i couldnt really describe it. i was really REALLY hyperfixated on it for 8 whole years straight, elementary school up to when i was around 15?  thats when my ungodly uncharted 4 hyperfixation came eating my ass .... and i remember the only reason it stopped was bc i felt too guilty abt leaving vocaloid behind I KNOW U CANT CONTROL HYPERFIXATIONS BUT MINE LITREALLY JUST STOPPED. after a specififc day of intense guilt lmfao

but yeah. guilt. whenever i leave behind a hyperfixation, i just feel SO guilty, and i dont really know why. i always feel this need to “prove” to myself that i still love a character, they still make me as happy as they used to, and i feel weird and bad if im not getting into smth as obsessively or if im not “consuming it the correct way”. i feel like im not rlly explaining this thing well but ocd is just a nighhttttmare , it bleeds into everything and lately its been bleeding into my interests and my creativity x1000. and im just really sad about that because i feel like i wont ever be that same person again, bc im just too hyperaware BC of my ocd and i just find myself ruminating a lot. though this usually starts to become Active in my head when my hyperfixation is actually starting to go away ... lol. when im balls deep into smth i will be way too obsessed to be in my head like that!

but. all this just being context lol... i was listening to teto synthv stuff and just. i dont even remember what caused me to start getting so upset but i just started reminiscing and getting in my own head about all this. how i dont like vocaloid as much anymore and wondering if ill ever be as happy as i was back then. i hate being an adult bc being an adult means being more Aware and being aware means ocd bothering me and just. idk. I was thinking about everything. Typical rumination spiral. just started getting really sad and upset bc i was just stuck in my thoughts and thinking about how younger me would be disappointed in my current self

it didnt last very long at least, and i ended up listening to re:ng and pinnochiop. but the songs that i clicked actually ,,,,,, helped me so much. one of the songs i clicked was rainy snowdrop by re:ng, and i found myself resonating so deeply with the lyrics. like im actually a bit emotional rn typing bc i went to go look at the lyrics again and im listening to the song rn. it really picked me up and made me feel ok again. then because youre here by pinnochiop played. and just. FUCK BOTH OF THESE SONGS ARE JUST EXACTLY WHAT I NEEDED TO HEAR IN THAT MOMENT. it reminded me that itll be okay. simple as that.

and. im only writing abt what happened a few nights ago because while i was playing future tone earlier, it just hit me. ive always been saying that vocaloid makes me feel like myself. but then i started thinking about what exactly that means. and im actually thinking about it now while i write. its like home to me. vocaloid is where ill always go to, where ill always be. i grew up with it. its never not been with me. and no matter where i end up, itll follow me and itll be okay. ocd likes to make me ruminate about the past present and future but one thing that i know for sure is that vocaloid will always be there for me. i see it in a way where its me and my kid self. and i value my inner child so much. which is a bit ironic to me, bc of the way i treat myself...

idk. vocaloid is just really grounding in general. whenever i spiral or need to be pulled back down to earth, its there, and itll always help. its just nice to have this forever thing that i love so much

[tuesdayinyhehc]

ok ik people usually draw pike mage with a robot or normal body

but like. 

mannequin body pike please

[93daes]

After binging on all 12 eps, I feel so disappointed about how everything ended. The first half of the show was good, but after a while every obstacle had a very convenient solution and it got boring fast.

I’m also confused about the Great Aunt’s death, was it In Joo or someone else??? I couldn’t tell if it was suppose to look like In Joo killed her under the influence of the Blue Orchid or if someone else killed her and framed it on In Joo. I found it weird that they just accepted that it was the caretaker when I’m pretty sure Do Il saw him drive away when he was parked outside the house.

And In Hye distributing money that wasn’t hers didn’t make any sense. While it’s not fair that they suffered the way they did, it’s kind of ridiculous for them to be compensated for it. I’m glad they did, but it kind of paints the picture that they deserved it because they suffered. Which is kind of insulting to those who continue to suffer but don’t get rewarded because it’s kind of saying they probably haven’t suffered enough yet.

Also I found it hilarious when Sang A first introduces the Father Tree to In Hye and tells her it’s illegal to grow or import Blue Orchids because they’re endangered and poisonous, and what does In Hye do? She just nonchalantly sniffs one, indirectly ends up on the hospital, and continues to go back there for some odd reason. She talks about getting away from her sisters because they will lead her to her death, yet she has no problem dying in other ways.

I also had a hard time taking In Kyung seriously because her serious face just looked like she was about to blow her nose really hard lol. And that same face reminded me of an ex friend I had so it made it harder to watch her in the later half of the show.

I also saw some people comparing Sang A’s death to Do Ha’s (Big Mouth), I agree. Both of their deaths were lackluster and they were both mediocre villains that were just hyped up by the characters around them in my opinion. Sang A was only slightly better because of her theatrics. If they were suppose to be as evil and monstrous as they were made out to be, their deaths should’ve mirrored that. But I guess a mediocre death could also be a form of insult for them since they aimed to be as loud as possible only to die quietly.

Lastly, how are these girls not more mad at their mom??? She stole money from her youngest daughter to go see her lousy husband. She selfishly brought her daughters into this world when she wasn’t financially capable and had the audacity to talk about living for herself rather than her children. She was leaving them to fend for themselves.

[ato-dato]

I don’t think they’re ugly. But I think the number of times Jean has begged him to buy new clothes is astronomical.

[artkaninchenbau]

People keep on asking for more Baby Robin and Papadile so here is more Baby Robin and Papadile. Now never ask anything from me ever again

[collophora]

Do yourself a favor and go read the entire fanfic work of @fanfoolishness

(In order: Under sun and shade, Blind Side, and Breathless (patching up is one of my fav too, I just had no cool sketch idea for it)

[mloveschaitea]

staying up late reading your texts

wondering if there’s a way to love you any less

my head hurting, my chest bleeds

while you say it is not me your heart needs

holding tears to stop them from falling

I let out silent: “I will be alright, my darling”

[wriothesleybear]

Gallagher is an old fashioned romantic. Meaning he is a gentlemen who will bring you your favorite flowers, kiss you on the back of your hand every time he greets you, hold the door open for you, serenade you with his saxophone, use his vest to put over a puddle so you can walk over it. (Okay, maybe not the last one but you get what I mean.) Although he looks unkempt and doesn't seem like he cares much by looking at his disheveled attire, he actually cares a lot about his s/o. He will make the time for you even if he's tired from work. Spending time with you is his favorite part of the day and it's what he looks forward to, which helps gets him through his stressful jobs. He really likes chill dates where you two just talk, bask in each others presence, and do simple mundane things. If you wanted to go out and do something exciting, he wouldn't mind, but he really enjoys your chill dates the most.

Man will swoon you. The type of man to cover the floor with a trail of rose petals that lead to the bed which is also covered in rose petals. Then he would proceed to make love to you on said rose petal covered bed. And it would be the slow, passionate sex where you're both not in a rush to get off and take your time exploring and admiring each other's body. He's really good at appreciating his woman, both in general and in bed. Just imagine being married to this man. Having this man as your boyfriend is basically like having him as your husband. This man will do anything for you. He'd be like a house husband. Cooking, running errands, cleaning the house, getting on his knees for you (I may be delulu but hear me out).

A part of me feels like he isn't the type to sleep around, you know like having flings. Dating around takes a lot of time and energy which he doesn't care for so when he finds someone he really likes, he's in it for the long haul like you're stuck with him. His thoughts on marriage are pretty simple. He could see marriage with you in the future, but he believes you don't need a piece of paper or wedding to make your love for each other official. If you want to get married, he's down. If you don't want to get married, he's down as well. He literally could go either way, he's chill like that.

[mangfotingar]

in daniel matthews' case, it takes a village

[saltlordofold]

ye olde classic messy dao sketch dump which is how you know life is kicking my ass