#just auditory processing problems

[wren-kitchens]

happy disability pride month and FUCK all the subtitles that go [speaks foreign language] instead of just saying what was said

[r3musmoony]

YouTube really needs to be better at captioning

[autisticlee]

sometimes I think about how when I went to college for a year before I dropped out (basically failed out,) the counselors/dean told me they can't help me at all or give any accommodations unless I have an official autism/adhd diagnosis. that might sound logical at first, but when you think about it more, it's actually quite fucked up. if someone is struggling really bad, what's the harm in helping them? why do they require a paper to get even the smallest amount of help? people who don't need help aren't going to be failing miserably without help! even NTs could benefit from some adjustments to the horrible school system! (but changing the entire system is a whole other conversation that the school system isnt ready for)

but even if you do agree to jump through their hoops, you realize it's even more fucked up that the diagnosis process requires YEARS in most cases (in my case it took 4 or 5 years, can't recall exactly now, for autism/adhd diagnosis, which would have meant i finished school before getting it if i managed to mot fail out, or i wait that long before going back, which is a whole struggle itself) and they also tried billing me for THOUSANDS of dollars because of insurance issues!!

so you put a ton of time and money into this, and then get told the only accommodation they are willing to give you for autism and adhd is "a little extra time on tests"

....

my test scores were the best part of my whole class experience. that was NOT what I struggled with!!!!! those tests were all online and could be done in the comfort of your home where you can accommodate yourself and have plenty of time left over when you finish them because you are comfy in your own space, (and also, no one was stopping you from having your notes/books/google open to find the answers,) and you don't even need a time consuming, expensive diagnosis for that!

SO WHAT'S THE POINT!!!!!!!

[cosmogyros]

Auditory processing issues suck SO HARD. I just spent about 1.5 hours watching the first half hour of a movie on YouTube, because I had so much trouble understanding the dialogue that I kept constantly having to go back and listen again and again and again, look up a transcript of the full film (the transcript contained mistakes, so it wasn't much help), compare and contrast various subtitle files available online, even cup my hands around my ears, etc. Just to figure out what the characters were saying to each other.

And it's not just literally understanding what words they say to each other, oh no. That's only the first step. The next step is figuring out what those characters MEAN when they say certain words. Like when a dude says "You know, I see, like, if we can get successful, it's, like, L-L, man… limos and Learjets," I feel like I'm having a stroke. I have to hit pause and sit there for a sec and ask myself a bunch of questions and do some research online.

Why did he say L-L? Why did he randomly say the initials of the two things he wants? Also, why does he specifically say 'Learjet'? When people dream of having a private jet, don't they normally say 'private jet'? I'd never heard the word Learjet before, so I had to go look it up to try to get more context, but that didn't really help. Is this a music biz reference I don't know? Is this a Canadian reference I don't know? If this happened once or twice during a movie, it would be no problem, but when I'm stopping and going back literally every two minutes, it takes for-fucking-ever to get through the film and my brain is So! Fucking! Exhausted!

I had to stop at about the half-hour mark. I felt like I was about to cry from frustration, so I quit for the night. I'll return to it in a day or two, when I've got a bit more mental energy, and try to work my way through the rest. If I can get through half an hour of film time per day (in an hour or so, however long it takes to get through that much), I can finish the movie in three days of watching. (And this is a movie I really, really WANT to see. I wouldn't waste a moment of my time struggling through it if I didn't care this much about it.)

Anyway. Sometimes when people say they "don't watch movies much", it doesn't necessarily mean they're being elitist snobs or whatever. Sometimes it's just so fucking challenging and exhausting to watch a movie that it leaves me feeling angry at my own body for being a dysfunctional piece of crap. I don't know if this counts as a "disability" and I'm not claiming that label because I don't want to step on any toes, but I have to admit that the mere prospect of watching a film often fills me with dread because it can be so intensely difficult for me (unless I just mentally check out and give up on understanding it completely, which is what I typically do when I'm watching with other people).

[kaiidos]

having auditory processing issues is like playing the world's worst game of telephone at all times except nobody else is playing

[lilac-set]

Two modes of auditory processing issues:

1: can you say the exact same thing again? No i need you to say the exact same thing again with the same words in the same order and the same inflection. If you say it differently that’ll actually make it even harder

2: can you rephrase that? No that was still mostly the same words, i need you to use completely different words

[liesonthefloordramatically]

You can kiss a hundred boys in bars Shoot another shot, try to stop the feeling You can say it's just the way you are Make a new excuse, another stupid reason

[consolecadet]

I’ve faced multiple back surgeries with moderate stoicism, still drive despite experiencing a car-totaling mid-speed collision, continued to live in the same town for years as someone who had repeatedly tried to choke me out, and signed up for a 4-hour session for my first tattoo because I was not afraid of the pain…but I am only now voluntarily getting a Steam account because I feel embarrassed to have been afraid to play a video game for twenty seven years. I still don’t know why other than that Video Games Are For Other (“Normal”?) People. I am the kind of person who is Not Allowed To Play Video Games. What kind of person is that? The kind that’s not allowed.

I realize that this is insane. I know literally none of you care whether or not I play a video game. The only thing any of you are likely to judge me about from this post is "being extremely weird about trying to do something many of your peers have been casually doing for fun for years". And yet even posting the words "I am getting a Steam account" to a public forum where people kinda know who I am is requiring me to muster bewildering amounts of courage.

Anyway, the hidden rule forbidding me from attempting to play a video game or talking about wanting to do so is just made up bullshit that doesn't exist, so I will ignore it and do whatever I want. If I realize I want it.

[softichill]

I never thought I could get into a podcast due to Auditory Issues but learning that there are well-known accurate transcripts I could read along to while listening has been live-saving

[paul-simon-juggling]

I've seen One Trick Pony more times than I've seen the inside of my own eyelids but I somehow only noticed that Walter's secretary is named Kathy upon reading the script.

[corruptedwraith]

"god I wish porn had subtitles..." -me, just now, bc I can't understand shit being said

[butch--dean]

My company announced yesterday that they’re making everyone return to office 3 days per week EXCEPT for us in Denver (they’re closing ours bc only four people regularly go in…… of the 100 of us who work here…..) and y’all. It is a shit show

[yippeecahier]

How do I explain to my partner that when he sends me videos I am less likely to engage with the content than if he sent me articles or still picture memes and why

He recently lamented that he engages with every piece of media I send him, but I engage with less than half of what he sends me (because most of the time its YouTube videos).

Like, even if I play the video on 2x speed and with captions, it's so much more of a "commitment" in my mind than scanning a text-based article at my own speed!! I just want to scan my eyes over it during my lunch break not play a video! Ahhh

[fallsouthwinter]

My fan finally broke last night after ten years of service. Thing is, I did not realize how much ot had been helping to keep my misophonia under control until I got to work today and nearly had a meltdown due to auditory overstimulation. Seriously, I ended up asking a store manager permission if I could just wear my earbuds otherwise he'd have a sobbing mess on the bakery floor in another fifteen minutes.

Anyway. A new fan has been purchased and picked up, and I bought fancy earplugs to wear for such an occasion. Or every day. I didn't fully realize how much I struggle with auditory processing until today - on a day to day basis. Mostly my misophonia is triggered by repetative noises, especially wet sounds like chewing or drinking.

[frogeyedape]

receptionist: [says some stuff]

me: say that again?

receptionist: say that again?

me: oh i was just saying to say that again

receptionist: [repeats the stuff but i understand it better this time]

[258-milkbags]

And that's just in English (I'm assuming) because there some folk who are second language learns who also struggle with understanding certain words. Or the fact they don't offer other language captioning like this isn't even the tip of the iceberg, the fact that some refuse to add CC is because it takes too much time or it makes the video less appealing/palatable is such BS

That's not even talking about the automated captioning and censoring of words, like I get it if you don't wanna get demonetized on YouTube but usually the actual word also gets censored but like on movies, TV shows and even on other forms of media??? That's not necessary or even wanted as if anyone is going to clutch their pearls at a swear word (of courses there's exceptions like always but wouldn't it be nice if we could choose???

I, a hearing person who likes subtitles just as a preference, shouldn't have to read a subtitle that's obvious nonsense, go back a couple seconds, and listen again in order to figure out what's going on. An accessibility feature should not be the most half-assed part of a professionally made production. Scripted media has absolutely no excuse for not having subtitles or having subtitles that aren't perfectly verbatim. Professional captioning services should be ashamed of the shoddy work that they put out. Captions should be treated as a part of the production, just like filming, editing, audio balancing, etc - and anything that releases with missing or bad captions should be seen as unfinished