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xoluvx · 2 months ago
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bet it’s still mediocre ⭐️
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redcherrykook · 1 month ago
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Hi love, how are you doing? There's been quite some time since we interacted
I, i will always
remember how sweet and loveable you were to me when i was feeling low, it made me feel so much better.
I made a request some time ago, tumblr don’t let annex links in anon messages, but i was going through a heart break and asked for a breakup with JungKook with a happy ending, that reminded me Happier Than Ever by Billie Eilish
In our last interaction I thanked you, gave myself the 🎭 anon, anyways I missed talking to you
I love your blog and your imagines, I probably have already read it all, i was wondering can you please recommend me some JungKook series from authors you like?
Also i just noticed i never answered your question, i am Brasilian, my native language is Portuguese, how about you? I read in your bio that you are Italian, that's lovely, i lived in Italy for some time, i also speak italian, Spanish, French and Chinese.
Can you tell me a little bit more about you? Only if you feel comfortable, of course.
Always nice to interact with you
hello sweet baby!! I missed you loads, glad to hear from you again. I'm so thankful for your words, so so grateful that my little drabble means so much to you.
Thank you for liking what i write, i love you!<3
Sooo so cool that you speak this many languages!! You're so inspiring. My native language is german along with Italian.
I'm not really a fan of personal questions so i will share some little things about me, thank you for your kindess<3
I'm gonna study psychology in a year and a half, i absolutely love literature and i drink caramel ice coffe every morning. My espresso machine is my best friend. I actually am a huge, gigantic hopeless romantic and that's also why kdrama and romance manga are my comfort hold.
Here are some recommendations of my favorite fics on here!!
anything by har, my baby. @jeonful
the wine series by @hoseoksluna
Also the steam series by her
the all kinds of wine verse by @frmisnow
Promise you series by @luvismenu
babydaddy JK series by @muniimyg
crybaby series by @lavishedinjimin
Infrunami by @kooktrash
Obvious by @lovieku (go read her entire ariana grande songs series honestly its SO good)
There are so many more amazing writers on here that i love with all my heart, but these are the ones of the top of my head!
Have fun reading sweetheart, i hope to talk to you more often<3
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meet-me-backstage · 1 year ago
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𝐅𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐇𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐓𝐨 𝐄𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐭𝐲
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𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐒𝐢𝐱 ⎈ ��𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐝
𝐏𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 🦇 Eddie Munson x Fem!Reader
𝐒𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲 🦇 You get dragged into the unfathomable events at Starcourt Mall by your hopeless crush on Billy Hargrove and new-found middle-schooler friends. You struggle to cope with the trauma which gradually costs you your popular cheerleader reputation when you return to high school for senior year. Though this loss first appears to be the end of the world, you learn that there's worse things than levelling down in popularity.
Though even in darkness, there is always a light - for you this is Eddie Munson, who you gain an unlikely friendship in and fall for him in the process.
𝑻𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒆𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒔 𝒊𝒔 𝒂 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍 𝒔𝒍𝒐𝒘 𝒃𝒖𝒓𝒏𝒆𝒓 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒍𝒐𝒕𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝒖𝒑𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏𝒔, 𝒔𝒎𝒖𝒕 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂 𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒚 𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈!
𝐒𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 🦇 smoking, mention of and consumption of drugs, horror themes, violence (in the upside down and probs Steve losing another fight (•̀ᴗ•́)و jk jk he's king), nightmares, mention of and consumption of alcohol, mention of and a near death experience, death, bad language, blood, bullying, mention of vomit and vomiting, some domestic (mainly verbal and emotional) abuse(‼️), mention of suicidal thoughts, mention of suicide, mention of self-harm, allusion to eating disorder and smUUT so you have to be 18+ to read this series❗️
𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐒𝐢𝐱 🦇 2.1K words
𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐒𝐢𝐱 🦇 Bad language, domestic abuse (verbal and physical)!
𝐃𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐛𝐞 𝐚 𝐬𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 - 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞, 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝, 𝐦𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐢𝐦𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐥𝐲, 𝐫𝐞𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠!
𝐋𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐚𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐯𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲, 𝐦𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐅𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐇𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐓𝐨 𝐄𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝! <𝟑
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⇜ 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐅𝐢𝐯𝐞 ⎈ 𝐎𝐳𝐳𝐲 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐓𝐢𝐠𝐞𝐫
🦇 𝟑𝐫𝐝 𝐉𝐮𝐧𝐞, 𝟏𝟗𝟖𝟓 🦇
You finally come home after a day of being cozily cooped up in your dad’s trailer. It isn’t your decision to leave, Rebecca shows up, knocking at the trailer door, her arms crossed when your dad opens it with a massive grin on his face, seeing his eldest daughter for the first time in months, "Becky, it's so good to see you!"
Rebecca tries to sneak a look behind him to get a better view of inside the trailer.
You are sat at the table with a peanut butter and jelly sandwich in your hands, about to take a bite out of it before stopping your movement when you hear her voice.
"Is she here?" She asks expectantly, she already knows the answer because where else could you be? Unless you’d ran away to live with Mason... but that is almost an impossibility, considering the fact that you have no idea where he is living right now.
"Yes, she's been here - safe," your dad opens the door wider, allowing Rebecca to get a full view of the trailer and revealing your presence, “How are you, Becky? I’ve missed you so mu-.”
Rebecca ignores him, pushing past him. She storms towards you, leaning over the table and you, "Mom and I have been worried sick about you and you've just been here jamming sandwiches in your mouth?!"
"Yes I have,” you shrug and hum, taking a bite of the sandwich and Rebecca huffs before slapping it out of your hands, making it fall onto the floor in pieces, "Hey - not cool, I was eating that!" You stand up directly in front of Rebecca while your dad tries to clear the mess that your sandwich had made.
"You're gonna get in the car with me and I'm gonna drive you home," she steps closer, making herself much taller than you, trying to make you feel inferior.
"I'm not a baby, you can't push me around anymore, Becky - things have changed," ever since 1984 had ended, "and if anything, I'm cycling back myself - there’s no way I’m getting in that car with you."
"Is this about the stupid party? I'm sick of that silly little stink eye I get from you every time I'm in your goddamn eye-line, whenever I walk in the room, whenever I tal-," her voice raises.
"No, it's not just about the fucking party - it's about being back there with mom, pretending like everything is okay when it's not been okay for ages - that's why Mason left - and we're acting like he's the one in the wrong for leaving when actually maybe we should be praising him... you and mom made me feel like I should forget his existence, like he’s some extinct animal!" Rebecca blinks and you decide you’re not done there, adrenaline pumps through your veins from the freedom you’d experienced over the last day with your dad, "I'm sick of not being able to even say his name and - I'm sick of being told I'm not allowed to play basketball or make friends who aren’t on cheer team and I'm sick of being babied by the two of yo-."
"Stop fighting, girls!" Dad shouts, completely distressed, and understandably so because this probably wasn’t how he was expecting his reunion with both his daughters would go. He slams his hands on the counter in the box-like kitchen, startling both you and Rebecca into complete silence.
Rebecca breathes deeply, giving you a warning glare, "You're already grounded - just you wait until I tell mom what you've just said to me... if you don't come home right now it'll only be even worse for you."
You couldn't run like Mason had done. You have no way of escaping Hawkins with your mom and sister's beady eyes relentlessly on you - and another year of school to complete... you are left defeated yet again and you have no choice but to obey, so you nod, "Ok," you grumble under your breath.
Rebecca nods, "Okay," she lets her arms fall to her side as she relaxes. She’s probably received a lot of flack from mom to find me - it’s probably why she is being so mean, "Let's go."
You hum and reluctantly follow behind your big sister, your dad is stood in the kitchen still, his head bowed... he looks so weak when he lifts his head at the sound of Rebecca opening the door, it looks like it takes all of his strength to move... you really don’t want to go but he doesn’t tell you to stay, instead he mouths 'sorry darling', you nod your head and lift your hand, waving him goodbye.
Once you’re both outside you mumble, loud enough for Rebecca to hear, "I meant it when I said I'd cycle home."
"Fine," she huffs, her face red from embarrassment, knowing that other residents in the trailer park had probably heard the commotion inside your dad’s trailer. Eddie had certainly heard it because he is peeking from a window inside his uncle’s trailer. You don’t notice until after Rebecca has caught him, "You wanna ruin my day some more? Send the devil after me? Go ahead, freak - let's see what you've got!"
Behind the reflection of the glass, he looks nothing other than petrified, humiliated and he disappears from view suddenly, quickly drawing the curtains.
"That's what I thought - stay hiding in your little freaky lair!" She shouts before stomping to her car, leaving you staring in shock at the window Eddie Munson had been looking out of.
"Seriously, Rebecca?!" You shout in a whisper, catching up with her, "I know you don't like the guy all that much but that was uncalled for."
She abruptly turns to face you after opening her car door, "You've spent way too long on this trailer dump - you're now siding with Eddie 'the freak' Munson?"
You walk slower and come to a halt in front of your bike, growing nervous... because I am siding with Eddie 'the freak' Munson? You shake your head, denying that you had seen the same scared look on his face before in the cafeteria, on the sidewalk… Like he doesn’t deserve an ounce of your mind's capacity because you know that it’ll bite you on the ass, your popularity, your life at home and school, "No, I'm not," you state, standing defensively, crossing your arms, "I just want to go back home with you to mom, okay?"
Being grounded meant that at least you can go to school, work with Chrissy at ‘The Gap’, stay in your room with checkups from either your mom or Rebecca every half an hour. You know that it’s going to be hell from previous experiences of being grounded, so you utter that massive lie because you do not want to make it any worse for yourself.
Tears spill from your eyes as you cycle. The wind, at the speed you are going, sends the droplets flying behind you and probably landing themselves on the front window of Rebecca's car. The thought of being trapped in your room makes them continue to spill as you consider turning in one motion and going back to your dad's trailer to stay with him for good... a sense of dread fills you with each pedal you make, getting closer to being given your sentence.
You look over your shoulder a couple times at Rebecca through her car window, but she just stares straight ahead, ignoring you like you’d been ignoring her since the party.
She continues to ignore you once you’ve arrived home, but holds onto the neck of your t-shirt to stop you from running away again.
"Get inside, missy," your mom spits as soon as she opens the door and sees you stood on the front step, wallowing in self pity.
"M-mom," you mumble, frozen on the spot.
"She was cooped up at dad's trailer with peanut butter jelly sandwiches - a basketball," Rebecca interrupts the intense stares between you and your mom. Rebecca stands up straight, probably relieved that she isn’t the one being punished for your absence... now your mom’s fury is aimed at you - again. Your mom looks horrified, disappointed, furious and her lips are trembling as if she can’t speak from the intensity of all those feelings combined. Rebecca continues, "Apparently she doesn't want to be babied anymore and she wants - Mason back - she blames you for him leaving us."
You look up at Rebecca with glossy eyes, the area around them probably red as hell from crying your way 'home'. Your mouth is agape as Rebecca looks at mom almost... smugly, as if she'd done something good.
You knew that Rebecca had the capability to be cruel, but when did she get this cruel? So much for sisterly affection... if we ever even had that… it'd died a death, been run over by a car with mom being the driver. You realise in this moment that all Rebecca cares about is saving herself... and your mom, because she knows that if she disobeys her then she'd no longer be the 'favorite'.
She never cared about me, all of her 'guidance' at the beginning of high school was to save her own ass and reputation... she didn't want what she considered an embarrassment of a sister to be messing up her popularity... and now she's getting what she's always wanted, she's finally graduating and going to fly from the nest to Alex on good terms with mom, still the favorite... unlike Mason and me.
You realise that you’re still glaring up at Rebecca while thinking all of these thoughts. Rebecca is staring nervously down at you... the smug expression she had on her face before has now fallen, there is sadness in her eyes... it’s like she knows what you’d been thinking, that you’d realised what she is, and she is only sorry because she’d been caught by you.
"Don't you dare look at your sister that way - you should be grateful," your mom shouts in a whisper, not wanting to attract the attention of any neighbours, "She's been looking everywhere for you."
Only for her own gain, not because she cares about me.
If you hadn’t been so scared you would’ve laughed loudly. You manage to compose yourself from doing that, but a small, breathless giggle leaves your lips for about a millisecond before realising what you’d done. You wonder if they hadn't seen, but you quickly gather that, that is hopeless and wishful thinking.
Your mom had immediately noticed and unexpectedly, she grabs you by your hair, pulling you inside of the house.
You yelp all of the way inside and Rebecca follows behind, shutting the front door. You can’t see her expression but if you could take a guess it'd either be fear or relief that it isn’t her experiencing this level of pain being inflicted by your mom.
Your eyes are fixed upon the carpet but your vision is blurry from the tears that are building up uncontrollably. Your heart is pounding at the same time as you realise just how angry your mom is. You bring your hand up to your scalp which is now seething with pain and will definitely be keeping you awake tonight - you try to soothe it by stroking the top of your head.
"Look at me now," your mom scowls, still stood directly in front of you, her arms are crossed.
You expect it to be over, the ache in your head being the only physical pain you’d have to endure for the next few days... you figure it'd be better if you just did what your mom told you to, then she wouldn't be so harsh... but as you lift your head slowly, shaking from terror, about to make eye contact with her, you suddenly yelp and flinch because your mom brings her hand up and... Slap!
She hits you so fast that you don’t properly register it even after both her hands are back at her sides.
Broken sobs keep leaving your lips as you bring your other hand to your cheek, which is stinging just as badly as the top of your head. Every ounce of your being is shaking and trembling with fear because your mom had never laid a hand on you like that before… and you never want it to happen ever again, so you continue to follow her demand and open your eyes, looking her in the eyes.
"You are not to leave your room for the entire summer - you are going to go to school in Rebecca's car, and you are coming straight back home after your lessons. You will not be having dinner or any snacks and you are not going to work at the mall with Chrissy on weekends," she points her finger at you with each syllable she utters while you continue to let out little sobs, "If I ever hear you say your brother's name, or see a basketball in your room, or hear that you're seeking refuge at your father's trailer again - you will receive another one of these," she gestures to the hand that had just slapped you, raising it again for a moment just to make you flinch.
You breathe in little fragmented breaths and stare down her hand in shock even after it falls back to her side. You nod your head rapidly, "O-okay, mom," you say in a hurry, weakly before running past your mom and up the stairs. You look down at an anxious-looking Rebecca, whose mouth is agape and watching you from the bottom of the stairs… she looks just as scared as you are.
You continue to run after, slamming your bedroom door shut and leaning your entire weight against it. Your chest rapidly rises and falls as you breathe loudly, gasping for air. You let yourself slide down the wood of the door until you’re sat on the floor, hugging your knees into your chest for an ounce of comfort.
Your mind is racing and whirling, trying to process all of your feelings, but it’s difficult with the lingering ache you felt on your cheek - which you can feel is bruising.
All that you’re sure of is that your sister and your mom hate you too… that you have nobody, nothing to lean onto but your bedroom door for the foreseeable future.
⇝ 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐒𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧 ⎈ 𝐌𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐋𝐢𝐟𝐞𝐠𝐮𝐚𝐫𝐝
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hestiasroom · 2 years ago
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At first I wasn’t particularly inclined to watch Matt Walsh’s documentary What is a Woman? I know the answer to that one already. Everybody does.
A woman is someone who isn’t allowed a final say on what a woman is. Pretending not to know this — that defining “woman” is incredibly complex and bewildering — is an age-old tactic deployed by non-women, usually in order to excuse treating us badly. 
Are women fully human? Do they have souls? What do women want? Far greater men than the host of The Matt Walsh Show — Aristotle, Thomas Aquinas, Sigmund Freud — have tried and failed to answer these questions (they could always have asked an actual woman, but first they’d have had to establish whether women can think, and then they’d have been back to square one).
As Matt himself says at the start of his film, “I like to make sense of things. Making sense of females is a whole other matter”, noting that “even astrophysicist Stephen Hawking” was “completely dumbfounded by women”.
Even astrophysicist Stephen Hawking! Honestly, ladies, if the author of A Brief History of Time hasn’t a clue what the hell we are, what hope do any of us have? 
The thankless nature of the task may be why the twenty-first century version of The Woman Question has now been allocated to those somewhat lower down the male intellect hierarchy: Edinburgh fringe comedians, disgraced MPs, right-wing shock jocks, Owen Jones and Billy Bragg. 
The proposal that a woman is anyone who defines themselves as a woman — and that no woman may say anyone isn’t a woman — has led to a particularly unimpressive stage of the debate, one which can only be described as the Summa Theologica meets incels r us. 
On the bright side, it’s clear the men are bloody loving it. If you’re left-wing, it’s your chance to put those TERFs in their place after years of having to “do feminism” as part of the right-side-of-history package deal. If you’re right-wing, it’s your opportunity to own all those feminists who suggested female bodies weren’t inferior and that pink, fluffy ladybrains were a myth. As Walsh declares of his film, “the movie makes utter fools of educated elite liberals”. I’m guessing that’s the point. 
I confess to having known very little about Matt Walsh up till now. “I’m a husband, I’m a father of four, I host a talk show, I give speeches, I write books,” he tells us by way of introduction. Hey, that sounds nice! Alas, a quick perusal of his twitter account shows that he’s the kind of renaissance man who tweets things like “feminism is an ugly and bitter ideology” and “rapists love abortion. It helps them cover up their crime”.
He’s also the kind of man who, should feminists show themselves to insufficiently appreciative of his recent woman-defining efforts, tells us we would “rather be a victim than win the fight” and that we “just want to sit on the sidelines and whine”. He’s been, like, getting death threats due to his challenge to contemporary gender mores! Would you risk that, eh, feminists? What’s anyone ever done to you, JK Rowling, you massive coward? 
I first wrote about the problematic nature of a gender identity-based definition of women over eight years ago. Other women, such as Julie Bindel, were sounding the alarm far earlier, and with little support. I know we’re supposed to be eternally grateful to Matt for stepping into the breach. What a gent! As the Onion once put it, Man Finally Put In Charge of Struggling Feminist Movement (admittedly it’s a man who thinks feminism is an ugly and bitter ideology but hey, we can’t have everything). 
In any case, I gave in and watched Matt’s film, just on the off-chance I’d missed something (more fool me; I read Gender Trouble on that basis, and look where that’s got me). There was little in What is a woman? that I didn’t already know from the work of feminists themselves, but that’s no reason to discount it. What’s wrong with alerting the normies to the excesses of trans activism too? 
Walsh never acknowledges the role his own rigid beliefs play
Perhaps the most difficult thing about conveying the absurdities of extreme trans activism to anyone who hasn’t yet encountered it, is that you either sound as though you’re making it up (usually in order to “stoke moral panic”) or the person to whom you’re talking concludes you must have missed some essential point (it would indeed be horrific if teenage girls were having their breasts removed due to social contagion and “progressive” institutions were cheering it on, therefore it can’t be happening. There must be something else afoot).
One of the great things about Walsh’s film is that he shows, first, that harmful things are indeed taking place, and second, that there is no hidden meaning behind them. The therapists, surgeons, academics and politicians to whom he speaks don’t suddenly pull back the curtain and reveal, yes, this is the reason why it isn’t total bollocks to claim that no one really knows what sex anyone is. That moment never comes (and believe me, I’d have loved it if it had. Being a Known TERF is a pain in the arse).
Instead they say things like “a chicken has an assigned gender” and that the word truth is “condescending and rude”. Ha! Aren’t liberals ridiculous? At one point Matt interviews someone who identifies as a wolf (or some other animal. I got bored and went to the kitchen for a biscuit at that point). What’s striking is that you sense his interviewees know on some level that they’re bullshitting. That’s why a number of them end the interview early, citing Walsh’s alleged bad faith as the reason why. 
There are some genuinely moving sections to the film, such as the interviews with female athletes cheated out of prizes by the inclusion of males in the girls’ categories. The contribution from Scott Newgent, a trans man deeply concerned about the impact of medical transition on young females, was incredibly engaging. I could have watched a whole film on Newgent alone, as someone clearly driven by both personal trauma and compassion for others. 
So why, overall, did the film leave a bad taste? Am I just an “ugly and bitter” feminist, peeved that a man has come along and claimed a number of feminist observations as his own? Am I a purist, unwilling to accept any support from anyone whose views don’t align precisely with mine? 
I don’t think so. The problem for me is that Walsh never acknowledges the role his own rigid beliefs play in creating and perpetuating the current situation. 
He finds countless people convinced that the only way to avoid imposing harmful social norms on individuals on the basis of their sexed bodies, is to pretend we can’t define said bodies or impute any social meaning to them at all. Yet he does nothing to suggest one shouldn’t impose said norms, or that his own pink/blue fantasies of girlhood and boyhood might be leading those who don’t conform to feel they are somehow “wrong”. 
“Give my son a BB gun and that’s just about all the emotional support he needs,” he muses over a children’s party scene, all boys in blue jeans, all girls pink princesses. “My daughter on the other hand … I’ve heard people say that there are no differences between male and female. Those people are idiots.”
Hmm. I have three children, all biologically male, all of whom have played with dolls houses and worn dresses. Two of them have Frozen-style long blonde hair and I’ve never bought any of them a toy gun (nor have any of them asked for one). 
Women are caught between two forms of misogyny
According to Walsh’s own gender ideology, I’m on the slippery slope towards the erasure of any stable definition of “male” and “female” at all. This is the mirror image of the absurdities of trans activism. Both Walsh and the people he interviews conflate sex difference denialism with the rejection of gender stereotypes. He thinks we should suffer the stereotypes; they think we should suffer the surgery. Feminists believe we shouldn’t suffer either. 
There’s a particularly grim scene where Walsh attends a Women’s March, and delights in harassing female protestors who don’t want to give a precise definition of the word “woman”. Much as this reticence frustrates me, too, I know where it comes from. The polarised politics of the day has told these women they must choose between denying their sex and accepting an anti-choice, conservative vision of what it means to be an adult human female. It’s a vision Matt Walsh shares.
These women are caught between two forms of misogyny but to Walsh, it’s all “own the libs” fun and games. This man is not on our side, nor will he win over the women he lazily misrepresents as not knowing what’s good for them. 
At the end of the film, Matt returns home from his gender odyssey to his waiting Penelope. She is, of course, in the kitchen, and happens to be struggling with a pickle jar. 
“What is a woman?” he asks her.
“An adult human female — who needs help opening this!” she responds. Got it, ladies? He’ll defend our right to exist as a sex class, as long as we can all agree it’s the weaker one. 
In the end, I’m just so fed up with the machismo. Last year I spoke to one of the founders of Woman’s Place UK, who told me sex-based rights will ultimately be defended best by those in it for “the victory, not the glory”. The people, mainly women, often lesbians and women of colour, who do the dull, behind the scenes work of compiling data and challenging unfair practices one by one. The people who aren’t seeking to reimpose other, equally oppressive beliefs about sex and gender. 
It may be that What is a Woman? helps, by showing some still on the fence that the problem is real. Others, it may push in the other direction. Either way, women themselves won’t be thanked for their own hard work and significant risks. 
After all, that’s just what being a woman is.
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purpledaisiesthings · 2 years ago
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***it's another long read this week. Bare with me😁***
AJ and Irving, our resident Conbillie fans 😂AJ my darling you are the best wingman and Irving my sweet sweet instigator 😈
Now 3 people this episode have already eluded to Conrad of something romantically going on with Billie. AJ, Irving and Cade. But what does he say to Billie when she asked him if he was happy with Cade? He says they're happy?🤦🏾‍♀️ Before that he agreed with her that he was also confused after that dance. Conrad, now I'm confused. She was ready to discuss their feelings at that point. Conrad don't piss me off...Lol jk 😜.
Then when she says she's no longer confused, lol, it seemed like she said it out of frustration. Even when she agreed to the date with Dr hottie. She agreed to that because of Conrad. Just look at his face when she says she's no longer confused.
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Stop lying you love her 🤦🏾‍♀️
When he says he wants her to be happy, I saw a parallel to the elevator scene where she also says she wants him to be happy. That was during Billie's pining era. Now it's Conrad's turn Lol.
They both just want the other to be happy which is beautiful and selfless but pls you guys should be happy together.
At this point I really just think it's fear holding him back. He's scared to act on his feelings for Billie and he now knows she feels the same way. But Billie will most certainly not overstep.
I found it interesting that in all of this, with AJ and Irving, Conrad doesn't deny any of their statements about him and Billie. He instead gives excuses. He tells AJ that Cade missed the wedding because she had to stay back at work. Lol AJ was talking about his dance with Billie and that was his answer? Ok Conrad, like AJ said, that makes perfect sense 😏. The man also said he and Cade was just having fun. Does that sound like a man that wants to go further with someone? Nope. Then he tells Irving that Billie was Nic's best friend. Duh 🙄. Again I love Irving's comeback. He was like, and so f*cking what? He was so real for that.
P.s. Irving's answer there made me chuckle a little bit. It's been a running theme with some viewers who don't want them together to give that particular reason. Felt like that was them shutting it down which I appreciated.
At this point, everyone in that damn hospital knows something is going on with them two 😄😄
And to the ones complaining about the love triangle (including myself hehehe) it's now a love square so I guess it's better now 🤭
Yes Billie have fun with Dr hottie. You deserve some sweet loving. I want Conrad to cry of jealousy 🤭😈
I noticed something during that billie conrad scene. I might be wrong though but I think they play a particular music at the background for Billie and Conrad's intimate scenes. I couldn't make out what it was but if I'm right that's dope.
Oh and I looved seeing billie work the surgery again. Also, it was subtle but I loved that Dr hottie called Billie Chief. Like pls, let's not forget, Billie Sutton is the Chief of Surgery. Put some respect on her name.
Plus, I think I spotted a little blush with Billie when she said to Conrad "that was a lovely wedding....AND dance"
Ugh the angst we gonna be getting now mehn 😫 just their stares alone is giving
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lady-of-disdain · 3 years ago
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Taking the more recent actions of jk out of the picture for a second her series still has:
1. Fatphobia, so much fatphobia
2. Lycanthropy being likened to aids with a specific werewolf going only after children.
3. Goblins being equated to Jewish people and even including the Star of David on the main bank floor in the movie.
4. An abusive teacher that joined the magic n#zis who spent almost 2 decades bullying literal children including ones who were already in abusive homes.
5. Expects us to have sympathy for said teacher because he wanted to bang the protagonists mom as if that erases abuse.
6. A magically enslaved race who wants to be slaves and only one person thinks it’s wrong.
7. A magical snake who’s enslaved by the bad guy and revealed to be an Asian woman.
8. Cho Chang being two Korean last names but the character is supposed to be Chinese.
9. Rita skeeter being described with features stereotypical to that of a trans woman.
10. The way she bastardized Native American sacred animals and beliefs in the new movie series.
11. Only one character is explicitly black in the book. His last name is shackle bolt.
12. Confirming dumbledoor as gay years after the series ended. Refusing to let him be portrayed as gay in the new series but still saying him and grindlewald have “hot sex”
So yeah… I know I’m missing things but the series really doesn’t hold up well after 20+ years especially coupled with the author being a terf.
I take a while to get to asks sometimes because my work week can be so hectic, so for anyone who thinks this ask seems very out of the blue since I don't really reblog any HP content, it was sent shortly after an incident where a Yashahime/Rurouni Kenshin/Harry Potter fan showed up on one of Billy's posts about hny and rk proclaiming that they support rk and just because they support rk doesn't mean that they support the creator's views. It was especially ironic because they tagged JK Rowling as well in their reblog with that statement, and it turned out they were a terf, which means they very much DO support the fictional media AS WELL AS the creator's views.
All that said as far as my response Nonny, I do agree. There was a lot of stuff that Rowling said or did even before she was an out and proud terf that made me question her sanity.
I grew up on HP just like a lot of us did, and there is no denying it made a large impact on who I am as an adult today that can never be changed. I still describe myself as a Hufflepuff, I still have the books I bought way back in high school sitting on my book shelf, and somewhere in boxes in my closet I'm sure I've still got my wand and my homemade Hufflepuff scarf.
But DESPITE the fact that her stories did have such an affect on me, I refuse to allow her to have any more part in my life, and I refuse to put any more money or attention into her current works.
I suppose this is on part a secondary response to that terf who showed up in the above linked post (if I hadn't already blocked their nasty ass), because they kept trying to claim that you can still enjoy a piece of media even if the creator is pretty terrible, and honestly?
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If you are viewing the media on a paid subscription site, you are supporting the creator. If you are buying official merch, you are supporting the creator. And honestly, if you are going out of your way to tell other people that it's fine to do the above two things in order to "support the fandom community" you are inadvertently supporting the creator because you are fostering an environment in your fandom where the people partaking it it think it's fine to put their money into it.
I don't really partake in anything HP these days except maybe occasionally reading fanfiction. But fanfiction is all about continuing or changing media past what the original gave us anyways, so honestly I find that it doesn't typically count. (If I had a dollar for every time I read the words "I never played Undertale" when reading UT fanfiction comments.)
But if I DID want to see the new Fantastic Beasts movie coming out (lolno) then I would pirate that shit faster then Jack Sparrow could steal a ship right out from under it's captain nose.
AND I would make sure to proudly admit that fact any time I talked about it, AND I would help other people also pirate it. Because it's not enough to quietly enjoy your free media while hyping up the media in the fandom.
There is a YouTuber I've stumbled across once or twice that makes a great argument for Piracy of anime in light of how streaming services work, and in an effort to try to make them better. But I feel like this is also a great way to openly oppose the support of creators like Watsuki. "Oh you're gonna remake Rurouni Kenshin? Fuck you we're all pirating it just to spite him."
One of the arguments that people have made against his supporting of piracy is "what about the animators?" Well his audience has been supporting the animators via the Animator Dormitory Project for the past 3 years. Their entire stance being instead of paying for that streaming service, pirate what you want to watch and instead put that money towards the cogs in the system to keep them afloat until the industry gets the message.
Anyways this response has gotten way longer then I intended so I'm going to leave it off here with a hilarious response video from above YouTuber to the corporate bootlickers that were crying "waaah piracy is wrooooong!"
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I seen an old post you reblogged that said something along the lines of "repost if you want to fight Micheal Scott" and you put in the tags that as an indigenous person there were multiple things you would fight him over. Would you mind expanding on that a bit? Was there a misrepresentation issue, racism, or something else? You don't have to of course, I was just curious what I had missed and how I could pick up on something like it in the future.
Thank you so much for the ask!
Sorry that it took so long to respond, I wanted to gather my thoughts and try to list all of my critiques of sinf from an Indigenous perspective in one post!
-ballad of black hawk and billy the kid: this book hasn't come out yet, but I already have serious concerns based on the description. having an indigenous medicine woman (or spiritual leader, or whatever ms means by "sorceress") being a villain who destroyed her whole people is not good, especially since it is colonial settlers who were most often the cause of indigenous genocide and switching that narrative erases the real life issues that actually caused indigenous death. It takes the blame away from white people and instead blames Indigenous people. Also, the term "anasazi" is itself racist. It means "ancient enemy" and is Navajo in origin. The actual Ancestral Puebloan people did not refer to themselves that way, and their descendants find the term offensive.
-we only see three indigenous deities in the series: Quetzalcoatl, Xolotl, and Coatlicue. All three are on the side of the Dark Elders. Again, Indigenous magic is shown to be bad, through the framing of these deities as villains. There isn't even any reason mythologically why this should be, as the Nahua people thought of these primarily as positive deities, not malevolent ones as they appear in sinf. As a side note, the term "Aztec" is also incorrect. The Indigenous people's whose religious beliefs include Quetzalcoatl, Xolotl, and Coatlicue refer to themselves as the Nahua people, and that is the correct term to use.
-black hawk, our only indigenous rep among the "good" immortals, fits the "noble savage" trope. He is an honourable warrior, who guides and assists a white character (billy) and is more of a sidekick to that character than his own person with motivations of his own. Think of the character of Tonto from The Lone Ranger, who also plays the role of a sidekick to a white main character. This issue could be easily remedied depending on how his characterization is in the short story when it comes out. Black Hawk is also never referred to by the actual tribe that he comes from, and this homogenization of Indigenous identities is harmful as well as it lumps us all together and denies us our individuality.
-the "white saviour" narrative of how billy became immortal. All that we know about this is that billy somehow saved quetzalcoatl's life at one point, and was given immortality as a reward. So we have an indigenous deity (who one would assume to be quite capable of defending himself) being saved by a white man.
-quetzalcoatl's description. Instead of trying to be faithful to Nahua religious beliefs, ms wrote q as resembling hernan cortes (beard, etc), which is a narrative that was perpetrated by the spanish invaders to justify their colonization and genocide of the Indigenous people's of mexico. I will give ms some credit though, at least he wrote that quetzalcoatl had copper skin, so he isn't completely white-washed.
-the fact that no one can pronounce the name Quetzalcoatl, or Black Hawk's real name (Ma-ka-tai-me-she-kia-kiak) and no one ever even tries to get it right. This is used as a joke in the books, but people have no trouble saying Machiavelli, Aoife, Scathach, or any of the other white characters' names. By making it seem like it is too much effort for the other characters to learn to say indigenous names correctly, it dehumanizes the indigenous characters by not even giving them the respect of being called by name.
-billys scrying bowl is indigenous in origin. The use of an indigenous artifact in the magical practices of a white man borderlines on cultural appropriation. Since it also comes from the same culture as the villain in the short story, there is a very unfortunate chance that Billy is going to take the bowl from her body or steal it from her in some way. This gives off "colonizer steals Indigenous artifacts" vibes (as my friend JK put it the other day), and I am not very happy about that.
-in the vampyres short story, it is said that Quetzalcoatl is an unknown deity nowadays, but that is just wrong. Quetzalcoatl is still an extremely important part of Mexican culture.
These are just the main points that I could think of. If I reread the books, I'm sure that I would find more points of critique. Also, I'm Mi'kmaq, so if there are any other Indigenous peoples in the fandom who want to add their own thoughts, feel free!
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tinseltownie · 4 years ago
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A person who knows nothing about Justice League, DC comics, and has only watched the Chris Nolan movies, watches Zack Snyder’s cut
Pt 3
I am already tired
Oooooo Ezra Miller is hot
That girl is the car that isn’t starting and the gross truck driver are so going to collide
Okay all super fast super hero scenes that go in crazzzzyyyyy slow-mo are the same and they are always 3x cooler than the rest of the movie
Look at all the potential fish in the sea 👀
Hey isn’t Percy Jackson technically a son of Atlantis
Ew metal spider is gross
Motherbox this, mother box that... just say discount infinity stones
Yeah superman still isn’t dead
Bruce and Diana have zero chemistry and no accidental hand touching will change that
What’s cyborg
Yaaas mom Dr. stone
Oh my effing god GCU is Gotham city university 😂
Joe Morton you are good at playing a dad
The Sony recorder close up tho
Is Victor just.. Vision? Or Ultron??
Fate of the world in a college football player’s hands um ok sure honey
What is the emotionally manipulative montage
Okay how is that one time deposit a long term solution
Oh my god Billy Crudup??? Why uncredited? Why do mean to Ezra? Why murder wife?
Bruce in Barry’s house is Tony in Peter’s house vibes....
I mean cmon Ezra.. he’s Batman
I am also a black hole of snacks
The Mercedes product placement is well.... ya get it
ITS A GAUNTLET???????
Fuck da world yup
I also fly away when asked to be responsible
Did he just bury the mother box at literal surface level??
Is the lab tech evil
Bye Joe Morton I’ll miss you
Gary Oldman or no one for comish Gordon but JK Simmons will do
Okay maybe the movie is toooo long but is the evil alien also hot? (I’m jk for shock value)
Now Jason will have to join the gang cause he lost a infinity stone mother box
Is this still the third part?
Victor will now join the fight to save Joe Morton
The mother boxes are magnetic, cool cool cool cool cool cool
Okay that was really fun and I’m super intrigued to be continued at a later date byeeee
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stonerbughead · 5 years ago
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Maria watches friday night lights (#6)
Season 3 continues! 3x04-3x06~
let’s get it, under the cut:
-oh we have a COWBOY on the scene? Lovely.
-Correct, Cash, Tyra IS a goddess.
“You are a molder of men and i find that admirable and I find that sexy.” Tami and Eric Taylor invented marriage, crazy!
-I respect Julie’s game yo she’s out here tryna study with Matt. Get it, gurl! Get ya man back!
-aww Matt’s trauma with his mommm, my poor babe
-isn’t it funny how my posts were longer when the show was more off the rails? now you get why my Riverdale podcast works lol
-omg the way Eric Taylor has dealt with this Saracen/JD conundrum has been heartwrenching!
-it’s so wild that this Landry and Matt car scene, pulling into the school parking lot together, feels so full circle to the beginning of the show when Saracen was QB2 and never expected anything different to happen
-Tyra: “I’m allowed to have a boyfriend.”
“Didn’t look like a boy to me.” Yesss Tami stays calling out these adults preying on teens, we stan!
-omg Tim keeps quoting Buddy garrity’s dumbass quote about flipping houses I’m dead I cannot 🤦🏻‍♀️😂
-omfg billy, you are not doing business with GUY, the methhead roommate from season 2!!! Whyyy
-like come on how did you not know this was a bad idea?! This isn’t even the first time the Riggins brothers have sped away from this particular guy shooting at them!
-even with a baby, Jason is still boring. Like, his roommate Herc is more interesting.
-they give Tyra the wildest plotlines—a couple eps ago she was running for student body president and now she’s skipping school to hang out with a cowboy while indie folk music plays in the background?? I can’t
“It’s not a big deal, everyone has one.” “It doesn’t mean anything, its a tattoo!” is this Julie Taylor or my sister Sofia as a teenager bc I see no difference
-oh fuck not Matt’s mom finally wanting to go see him in a game the first time Matt’s QB2 since the first game of sophomore year 😭
-alright soooo excited for 3x06 which had Matt and Julie at a lake in the description. Teen drama goodness already guaranteed.
-ewww I don’t like the “have you found any cheerleaders you think are cute” comment from JD’s cringe mom. An adult being so involved in a 15 year old’s love life creeps me out. Anddd of course his controlling dad then follows up by saying JD can’t be serious about a girl! (meaning he’ll inevitably want to date a girl this season at some point)
-oh wow Landry’s metal band is still going strong?! Oop jk this is the scene where they break up?! I forgot it even existed!
-lol so Riggins is skipping school to work on this house but is still showing up to practice. Wild.
-are there fairy wings on this wedding dress Mindy is trying on????
-yes Julie and Matt taking advantage of grandma yelling at Eric Taylor in the grocery store to flirt! Here for this. Also LOLYES to grandma still hugging Eric Taylor by the end of the convo. “I can’t stay mad at you.”
-oh Jason you shouldn’t have ever gotten into this with the Riggins brothers 😭 omg Billy saying “I’ve worked construction before” all angrily then accidentally hurting himself a second later
-JD plays awkward freshman way too well
-JD’s dad in the locker room is so cringe tho omg, this poor kid already has it bad enough trying to fit in as it is!!!
-Ohhh there’s a cute girl trying out for Landry’s band ok I see you!!
-ayyy Jason’s baby mama’s a Jersey gurl? Represent!
-omg Saracen just came over and asked Julie to go to the lake after borrowing Landry’s car? They’re so cute! They’re both trying now awww I’m too soft~ we love loveeeee
-And just like that, Lyla and Tim adopted JD from the dance
-ah, andddd he’s drunk! These flip phones with the grainy quality filming in the party!! Are the early days of camera phones about to be the downfall of JD McCoy?
-OK that Matt and Julie frantic reunion makeout by the fire did NOT disappoint! Can I tell you how much this reminds me of the getting back together bughead scene in 2x12? See my separate post. TEEN DRAMA PERFECTION!!
-Ugh and the long soft kisses as they said goodbye when Matt drops her off I am 🥰
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-Ah and they locked eyes in church the next day. Young southern love.
-ew why is jd’s dad ratting out JD for drinking to the coach for no reason? Like who the fuck do you think JD was drinking with, dumbass?
-Jason singing to his daughter over the phone was actually super endearing. I can tell this is the set-up for his exit arc, which is kind of sad bc I feel like he’s finally interesting to me lol but it does kinda feel in some ways like they didn’t know what to do with Jason’s storyline ever, is it just me?
cc anyone who has shown they care at all about this journey: @iconic-ponytail @lockitin @heartunsettledsoul @investigativeduo @miss-eee
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heavynlymuses-a-blog · 6 years ago
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a love post !!!
@diamcndscarred i cant make a post about people i love without including my sestrinka !!! i love brandi with my whole heart !!! give brandi the entire world 2k19 !!! brandi deserves love and happiness in all its forms and seeing her happy and thriving makes me happy !!!
@prcphesiied tiger is amazing and has sm amazing muses that i love and appreciate. dami & the murder carnival love harry sm !!!
@fuckingvictus *chants ominously* billie ! billie ! billie ! billie has introduced me to sm great fandoms & has been an amazing friend for the last 4?5? years !!!
@exilekniight ive only had exilekniight on my dash for a short period of time but if anything happened to them i'd kill everyone on the dash -shot-
@cateyeswarlock kirsty is the sweetest of sweet beans & i love her sm. she's absolutely adorable & i cheer for her success & happiness at all times !!!
@celestialbcrne dis my fave baby ducky & i love !!! i would fite for syd !!! i love syd sm !!! syd is also the sweetest lil bean burrito ever !!! a baby ducky !!!
@ravagerchose robs / ribs is a blessing !!! and absolutely amazing in sm ways !!! im so glad robs is my homie
@mythosbornc / @mythosborne i love you sm forever and ever and ever and ever & youre so fun & amazing
@killypool 🐍🐍🐍🐍🐍🐍🐍🐍🐍 i love aisling sm !!! idk if i could survive without shrek & croc memes anymore. get y'all an aisling !!!
@drusillawantstoplay ive known star for so long now guys !!! star is a sweet & pure bean & i love her
@chaoticwitxh i love mitchie. mitchies my best girl & hopefully if i go to san diego this year i can give mitchie a hug
@killthebxy fil is a sweet bean. the sweetest bean in the got fandom. i love & admire how supportive and protective and inclusive fil is towards the whole fandom.
@wolfqueennamedstark sims & i will one day actually hang out & then its over for u all !!! jk i love sims sm & wish them the best day ever !!!
@sevenbled i cannae not tell the world how much i love you & how much jonathan loves having sex with ember -shot-
@boltxnbastard umm i absolutely love & adore seeing you on my dash sm & you are such an amazing ramram !!!
@thedemonhunterscousin WHERE WOULD I BE WITHOUT CAM !!! pretty much all my muses love & adore cam's muses !!! and cam is the only one to have read the books i love sm !!!
@mclancholics whitney is my little princess & i love her sm !!! she deserves only the best !!!
@ofseances i see u likin my posts from time 2 time & i love u and the support lol
@vetusxlupus i absolutely love you & am glad a friendship came out of that weird marysue tryna tag us in that fake suicide letter omg. hashtag memories
@gypsylobo you are the coolest dude & i love peter sm & one DAY I WILL STOP BEIN A SLOW ASSHOLE AND ACTUALLY ANSWER STUFF
@risesagain you guys cant imagine how much i love this beautiful person and all their amazing muses ESP isabelle !!! and how contagious their love for hadestown is !!!
@beatsdrums i love buck sm guys and the beu is the greatest thing ever
@idumean is THE PUREST UWU BEAN i loVE MONROE SO MUCH ICB HOW MUCH
@hcredis ALSO THE PUREST UWU BEAN AND I LOVE ALL THE CRACK WITH JACE AND HIS TRASH BABIES & ALEC BEIN ANNOYED. youre so sweet and amazin !!!
@vcrlac talia is such a wonderful soul you guys. we dont deserve her in our lives uwu
@agirlofwinterfell i love you so much and i love how arya interacts with sm of my muses. youre such a funny and wonderful person !!!
@kingxfmischief also a wonderful person to see on the dash !!! i love your vulture culture posts sm !!! and youre a wonderful loki
@wildtm I WILL LOVE YOU AND MALIA UNTIL THE DAY I DIE
@justicescreaming i WILL ALSO LOVE YOU AND BELLAMY AND ALL YOUR MUSES UNTIL I DIE
@oathkeeperwench i absolutely love and adore your brienne !!! you have such passion and it shows in all your posts and i love seeing it on my dash
@qceensofkings fox absolutely love isabelle sm & youre so fun to rp with
im sure i missed people but this post is already so long. i love so many people and even if you werent included i still love you
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ts-2020-olympics · 5 years ago
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EPISODE 1 - “My Legs Were Not Qwoperating” - Kathy (Part 2)
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So, it’s morning. I look around at our camp, and see everyone is at work. Karen is painting their flag and using safety scissors to cut out Monty’s head, Kevin is chanting to himself in the corner, Stoner’s been asleep so we buried him in the sand up to his neck and then sculpted a sand castle around him. Tommy is just trying to make eye contact with anyone he can and so I’m...avoiding that. I’d say we are solid but that’s probably not the truth, and so that kind of stinks. I’m hoping the newbies really fuck up, and I know that’s harsh but...that’s showbiz, babe!! Speaking of newbies I still haven’t talked to a few of them.  Emma like zoomed away the first day and I’ve given up on talking to her. Hope she goes first. That’s all I got for now, going to eat breakfast I will continue this rant later.
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my truth is that i haven’t played an org game in so long i forgot i was playing and then remembered an hour ago and tried to do this wack qwop game hsksksj! my legs were not qwoperating 
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I see there's an arena going on! I might go there first if the rest of the team is okay with it - gives me a chance to scope things out and get a feel for the area. I'm excited!
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WE WON THE FUCKING CHALLEEEENGE AAAAA NOT ONLY DID WE WIN BUT WE KILLT IT WE SCORED 12 AND EVERYONE ELSE GOT LIKE 8 AND 5 OHMYGOOOD IM NOT GONNA BE FIRST OUT YALL IM SHAKING I CANT BELIEVE GSJDKDVDSNDBWSKHSD okAy okay so thank god bc my tribe has like no drama so our vote would’ve been really difficult and that gives me more time to think about my possible advantage and the possible bonds here. 
so while I am safe I still have to game a little bit and talk to the people I’ve been talking with who are going to tribal like Sammy and Jordan, funny enough who are on the same tribe.... maybe I can get them to protect each other..... hm
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Well we lost because of technicalities, I choose to blame that. This tribe is apparently extremely quiet to each other, so the fact that I messaged everyone hello this morning, nearly 48 hours after the start, I am SOMEHOW one of the best social players here. Challenges are generally my strength, we got last in QWOP, so backup is social game in a social ORG. I can be in some danger here, but I think I have a TRusuT sclusTER to keep myself here. As is necessary. I don't care who goes, I have a preference, but I don't really want to set a goal right now. Flexibility is key.
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I'm literally PISSED. I'm fuming right now, like wtf? OK so I haven't confessed anything yet because my tribe has been SO quiet. I've honestly talked a lot more to some of the people from ONE WORLD than I have from some of the people from my own tribe... and I'm not crazy okay? It's NOT my fault. I put in effort with these people... But some of these people are just DRY! Drier than the Sahara Desert! Drier than my chappy ass lips! They can't hold a conversation, and that's obnoxious. I'm not going to respond to you if your message has literally nothing in it worth responding to, that's why most of my messages will either have a follow-up question, or something actually of substance to comment on/reply to... YOU SHOULD DO THE SAME SO WE CAN ACTUALLY SPEAK AND MAINTAIN A CONSISTENT DIALOGUE!!!!!!! But NOOOOOOO, my tribe decides to not speak... MOVING ON! The only people I've had good conversations with really are Juls and Em, and lo and behold, Em does lit rally nothing in this challenge, which sucks because I'm afraid that may put a target on her back. But I'm not sure, I definitely will vote with her and I think Juls will too. I'll move onto that later but I wanna talk about why I'm fucking LIVID RIGHT NOW. I literally made SO many suggestions on how we could tweak who does what in this challenge, or what we do on certain parts. Now I'm going to admit a TINY bit of fault here, in that I didn't say my suggestions on the tribe flag. There are some things I think we could've done to make it better, but I love Juls, and everyone had already told her it was great, so I didn't wanna make her feel that I didn't like it or was over criticizing. So I didn't say anything. That was my bad. BUT EVERYTHING ELSE, LUV? I said We should guess lower than 610... Now granted my even 600 guess still would've been too low to win, BUT AT LEAST IT WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN OVERBOARD! HMPPHH!!!!! Or maybe we could've compromised on 605 if people hadnt IGNORED ME!!!! IDK!??!?!?! Further than that, I asked for different tweaking on the chant and nobody gave any suggestions. I'm not saying we would've won or anything had I taken the lead or that I was doing everything the right way,  obviously I wasn't since my chant got 3rd, but what I'm saying is once it became obvious the challenge was going to be about group participation and suggestion, our tribe needed to unify. Everyone in the tribe needed to have a clearer vision and talk to eachother and actually put in the EFFORT that this stuff requires. Which I'm admitting my own error, in not doing that with the flag. But our tribe was just so quiet and silent before now, which sent me down a paranoid spiral, that I was super fucking worried about my place in the tribe or where things were heading. Now I realize I'm in a good position on the tribe for sure, it's just that our tribe is STRUGGLING. ON THE (Mr.) BRIGHTSIDE!!! We lost by a tiebreaker guess, and only by 4 points.... and I'm pretty close with Juls, and it seems like a target will probably fall pretty easily onto Billy. He had the worst QWOP score, described himself as arrogant in his own intro, and just seems.. critical of others. He gives off a strange vibe. If it's not him, I'm pretty sure it'd end up being Jacob or Em. I feel that me and Juls are safe which is all that I can hope for on a tribe this freaking tiny, I instantly connected with Juls over our love of anime, the fact her name is the same as Euphoria Jules, and other stuff. As far as One World goes, I honestly keep forgetting it exists. I haven't reached out to too many of the others but have talked back to those who talk to me and it's been generally decent. I get along well with other Jacob, the not pie one. Caeleb I already know from before this and so I feel like we'd def work together, and I get good vibes from a lot of these people like Eve, Nicole, Ben, etc. Honestly I'm just so frustrated right now because things have been quiet and nervous and I'm PARANOID, and my tribe was so close to winning but fucked it up over minor things we could've tweaked had we just tried a little harder and communicated a little more. ugh, this SUCKS. now my first legacy in Tumblr Survivor is a mediocre chant (i honestly really like it and i put a LOT OF THOUGHT INTO IT OKAY....) and a trip to tribal council *Sobs* Here's hoping things take a positive turn from here...? It could always be the Bronze before my Gold! ~Hamfisted olympics metaphor~
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Love my tribe a lot! However, i still feel on the outside somewhat tho.... Idk this is a lot for me I just hope we win until a swap or whatever its called ahh
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Alright, Darcy back here with yet another confessional!   Here is a little update since I last posted confessional, mainly the biggest difference is now I have an ally formed with Ben.   At least, I made a deal with Ben yesterday proposing just the generic looking after one another ordeal, then going to give it some time and maybe question Beck about forming an alliance, since I've been connecting with her even more past bit, but don't want to go too fast and end up asking half my tribe right away to work with me, as I don't want to be seen as playing hard out the gate and make myself a target.   Meanwhile, I decided to give the Olympic Village searching a shot, but alas was no luck in the cafeteria cabinets, so will just have to try my luck again in the future rounds.   Thinking of searching either the South or North end of Village next round, but we shall see.   Anyways, I'm glad my tribe won Immunity, so don't have to go to tribal this round, and this Olympic Arena twist sounds great, essentially one person from each tribe goes to the Arena, I believe for the immune tribes just 1 person is selected to go to the Arena, and for the losing tribes, the two voted out go to arena, where the winner of the voted out people come back in the game, and loser is out of the game for good.   Think I read that all right, but maybe won't hurt to give it another read to double check.   For now though, I shall go, so will see you all with my next confessional.
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Fuck having to go to tribal first. I don’t like having to send someone home when I don’t even really know who I’m playing with yet. 
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Seems like Billy pulling the "I don't want to make any moves" to me was surprisingly bullshit. Who would've thunk. I think everyone is fine with voting out Billy here, I didn't really want to initially, but yeah, uh no. I could be in danger, but if everyone is honest here, I should be fine. Fingers crossed. "I'm either going to be first boot or win" - Pia Miranda
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So, the first tribal is in a bit and we were almost sent there but managed to pull through in the tiebreaker! I hope that opens some of my tribemates eyes (lets be real, just Stoner who hasn’t been doing much of anything!) Being in One World but none of the newbies talking to me is still wild to me, half of them still haven’t even accepted my contact request. Yet they’re plenty active in the chat, so what gives? Anyway, I hope it’s just that they are intimidated by the very fact that I am beauty, and grace, and Miss United States. I hope we can win the next round, hopefully first or second place so we don’t have a close call again. We are trying to get Chris to go to the Arena so he can get us that 20% but he hasn’t answered so...what gives? On the alliance front I’m good with Kevin and Karen tribewise , the bigger picture is Kevin, Jacob and Sammy want to align and then we will have a bigger alliance that includes Beck, Juls and Eve. Eventually I might wanna break off and align with Jules and Eve, but having bigger targets around is essential. Anyway that’s all I got for now. I should start making video confessionals AS THINGS ARE HAPPENING. Ya know? Anyway toodles for now see ya next round. OH, and I’m hoping Jules and Jacob are safe this tribal :( love them and hope we can work together going forward. 
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Hiiii, arena results are about to come in so I'm just gonna drop a quickie confessional before that happens. I don't honestly remember how much I talked about the strategy and gameplay that was going on, so I'll give you a quick rebriefing of that. I'm really close with Juls. Em I like, but I want more out of her. Jacob is quiet, but inoffensive. Billy, I actually like him, but there are certain things about him that just.. Rub me (and others) a strange way and that's why we voted him out because certain things he did just didn't quite gel with the rest of the team. If he does return from the arena though, it's possibly I may vouch for him over Jacob because Jacob... HE JUST NEEDS TO TALK!!! But idk. One world still SUCKS and is dragging me through the MUD because nobody wants to do cross-tribe talking me included but that gets me paranoid as FUCK, luv. About the live tribal, it was fun! My camera angle was awkward and I was soo nervous though, but I think I was still able to hold it together relatively well, act normal, and give semi-decent answers. Will definitely be improving my live tribal performance for next time so I can be a bad ass bitch on call, it's GOING to happen... dskfdsf. I love Emma on call/video sooooo much, But on text she's kind of dry. Maybe I need to ask her if I can call her sometime, but I haven't done a call for a game like this in a looong time. I'm a bit nervous about that. But yeah. I'm looking forward to the game... The first tribal just makes everything real, and you realize, oh shit, we're playing Survivor. And I forgot how thrilling it was to play in a live, video environment like that, it just grips you and it feels so much more intense than when wiki results are just posted in chat and you don't have to deal with physically seeing the person you're voting out, talking to them with your actual voice, etc. All that stuff just makes the experience that much more realistic and it's so intense and fun. I'm ready to get this game on (Btw fuck the arena twist)
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hey guys im really loving this game so far... keep up the good work!
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i didn’t appreciate the attitude billy gave me whenever i tried to help the team out but! i’m willing to get over it because he is a nice guy. i feel fairly comfortable with my team and i’m just hoping we can avoid another tribal! 
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Hello! I can not believe I'm back for a 6th time on Tumblr Survivor this is so crazy! Especially for an Olympic season because I vowed to myself that I would never do a season again that was more than 20 people after being in Japan. Now that I'm back I'm ready to play, I haven't really came into this season with a strategy but if I did it would have changed because this is a One World season and now with the arena twist I'm sweating. One World makes the season super social (probably one of my least favorite twists) it's very easy for this season to let pre-mades and majorities take over just like that and let underdogs like me in this season to get taken out especially taken out early. So I have been social not only with me but a few people on different tribes but not too much. I don't want to seem like I'm playing too hard but I wanna build relationships before swaps happen so that people choose to ally with me (A WINNER) over a newbie or a returnee who hasn't won because I already have a big target on my back. With how the tribe divisions are it gives the newbies the biggest advantage with 15 newbies compared to 5 winners and 5 non-winner returnees, which isn't bad in a Fan vs. Favorite season because the ratio is even with returnees and newbies. However, now that I'm in the minority and also labeled a WINNER, I have to do damage control to lower my target but most importantly integrate with other people which is hard because I'm not the best social player and I know that's my weakness but I still have to attempt. In terms of my own tribe I'm closest to Kevin, when I talk to him we have a good conversation I probably already irritate him but I think out of everyone I can put my trust in him the most compared to everyone else. I think having one good ally is how I want to approach this season due to the arena twist I don't want to come across as running the tribe especially the winners tribe incase we do go to tribal because if I vote in the majority and that person stays they are immune and will be mad and spill the beans about the tribe, and I want that person to be the least mad at me so the focus is not on me. So having overall good vibes and 1 strong connection is a good strategy for the long term game. It might put me at risk for being voted out in the short term but I want to play the long-term game. Preferably if it is up to me I'd want Nicole to be the next closest to Kevin and myself without myself having to make an official deal with Nicole so I'm not seen as the ringleader. Kevin says he wants Stoner to be the first one voted out on our tribe but honestly I rather it be Karen. Stoner has the reputation keeps his target bigger than the rest and I think Karen has the better chance of flipping on the winners and succeeding than Stoner does. So my target is Karen if we do lose. I also believe that there may be an alliance with Nicole, Kevin, and Karen which I hope is not an actual alliance because that's bad news for me. I hope we don't go to tribal because I don't wanna go to a tribal with only 5 people. Wish me luck!
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Whew it has been one round and i've fucked up so much its not even funny. its a little funny. anyways i start this game on a tribe of 5, i allign with connor who ive never played a game with and find some similar common ground, and with jacob who seems chill. we lose the first challenge sucks and all hell breaks loose, long story short fuck sammy. I'm trying to work my way back in caeleb and jacobs good graces. its gonna be a rocky road, but its one i've driven before
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rosymiel · 6 years ago
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1-100.. bitch
oh FUCK you (im jk.. i love you..)
The meaning behind my url: i love french, and so i wanted to spice up my url and have it not be sims related from the get-go (my previous url was ughplumb). at first i wanted my url to be “cherry wine” in french because my favorite song of all time is cherry wine by hozier, however the url was already taken. i settled for rosy honey, hence rosymiel
A picture of me: honestly just look at my tag “kyla has a face”! i don’t have any new selfies of myself aside from what i’ve posted.
How many tattoos i have and what they are: i only have one, and it’s right in between my shoulder blades on my back. it’s of my family’s crest, which says “miseris succurrere disco”, which basically means to help people in need.
Last time i cried and why: last night because i was watching queer eye
Piercings i have: i used to have my ears pierced, but i hated keeping track of my earrings so i just let them close up. i wish i never let them close up, and now i also want to get my nose pierced 
Favorite band: i don’t really listen to any bands, just artists!
Biggest turn offs: burping and chewing sounds. chewing sounds legitimately anger me so much, i don’t know why
Top 5 songs: Cherry Wine (Hozier), Rain On Me (Joji), IDFC (Blackbear), I Love You (Billie Eilish), The Night We Met (Lord Huron)
Tattoos I want: OHHHHH MY GOD i want so many!!!! i just honestly want my body to be covered in flower tattoos to the point that i’m just a walking garden!! i really want to get a pair of watercolor roses or lilies right under my collarbones!!
Biggest turn ons: good cologne. i don’t know why, but cologne makes me go insane, i love it so much
Age: 18 going on 19!
Ideas of a perfect date: relaxing at home and cuddling with my boyfriend while watching our favorite show
Life goal: oh god this is super deep and i’ve sat on this question for a fat minute and all i can think about is how much i want to be content with myself, so i guess that’s my goal
Piercings i want: nose and ear piercings, babie!!!
Relationship status: happily taken!
Favorite movie: oh god, probably across the universe. i’ve loved it ever since i was a kid
A fact about my life: i’ve been in choir almost all my life
Phobia: the dark. when i was a kid i used to see faces on my walls when my room was dark
Middle name: marie
Height: 5′5.5 (basically just 5′6)
Are you a virgin?: yessirree 
What’s your shoe size?: 7
What’s your sexual orientation?: i’m pretty straight, but i think i’m heteroflexible. i’d definitely get down and nasty with a girl, but i’ve never felt any romantic attraction towards females
Do you smoke, drink, or take any drugs?: no, my parents smoked cigarettes for most of my life, and my dad regularly smokes weed. the smell of weed makes my head hurt and makes me feel nauseous, so no thanks.
Someone you miss: my boyfriend. he’s been on a family trip to cuba, and he hasn’t contacted anyone (including me) in almost 10 days. i miss him so much that it genuinely hurts.
What’s one thing you regret?: not learning to love myself sooner and finding comfort in feeling depressed because it’s something familiar
First celebrity you think of when someone says attractive: zendaya 
Favorite ice cream?: i don’t eat a whole lot of ice cream, so i guess cookies and cream
One insecurity: my teeth. my two teeth next to my front teeth are pointed, and i used to get called a vampire when i was young. i was always bullied for it, and for most of my life i would cover my mouth with my hand whenever i laughed or smiled. a recent incident that comes to mind was sophomore year in high school in my english class. i sat next to my friend mooney (i called her by her last name because we met in gym), and one day she was talking to the guy infront of her about how pretty she thought i was, and how she thought that i could’ve been a model. the guy who sat in front of me, who’s name was tristan and was also in my choir the previous year, said that i’d be pretty with me if my teeth weren’t so fucked up. 
What my last text message says: “god this fan feels so nice”
Have you ever taken a picture naked?: :)
Have you ever painted your room?: no, but i’ve tried painting the bathroom with my mom
Have you ever kissed a member of the same sex?: nope
Have you ever slept naked?: yeah?????????
Have you ever danced in front of your mirror?: i can’t dance, so absolutely not
Have you ever had a crush?: yeah??!??!?!!? ofc. i had a major crush on my current boyfriend, and he had a crush on me first before we started dating. it’s actually a really cute story
Have you ever been dumped?: yeah, twice. my last one was really brutal, but not because of how he dumped me.
Have you ever stole money from a friend?: nope
Have you ever gotten in a car with people you just met?: nope
Have you ever been in a fist fight?: nope
Have you ever snuck out of your house?: nah, i’m a goody-two-shoes
Have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back?: oh HELL yeah
Have you ever been arrested?: nope, and not planning on it!
Have you ever made out with a stranger?: nope!! 
Have you ever met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere?: not in a sexual or romantic way, no
Have you ever left your house without telling your parents?: nah
Have you ever had a crush on your neighbor?: i don’t think so??
Have you ever ditched school to do something more fun?: i ditched my nesika (which was like homeroom, but only two days of the week rather than daily) to go to a coffee stand with a friend
Have you ever slept in a bed with a member of the same sex?: not in a sexual or romantic way
Have you ever seen someone die?: no, and i really don’t want to :^(
Have you ever been on a plane?: yup!! i love it
Have you ever kissed a picture?: maybe…………… :’^)
Have you ever slept in until 3?: oh my GOD no. i fall asleep relatively early and wake up early, even on my days off.
Have you ever loved someone or miss someone right now?: yeah??? lowkey this question is phrased in a weird way
Have you ever laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?: oh my god yes, it’s so relaxing
Have you ever made a snow angel?: yup!!!!
Have you ever played dress up?: oh HELL yes i have!!!
Have you ever cheated while playing a game?: okay does anyone remember doing the stock market game in freshmen year/middle school in history class? my friend and i looked up the answers online and cheated. we were rich that day in that class.
Have you ever been lonely?: i’m lonely right now
Have you ever fallen asleep at work/school?: maybe for 10 seconds, but no
Have you ever been to a club?: nope!
Have you ever felt an earthquake?: i don’t think so, no
Have you ever touched a snake?: SDKJGBSD NO!!!!!
Have you ever ran a red light?: nope!
Have you ever been suspended from school?: nope!!!!
Have you ever had detention?: i had lunch detention for saying “stfu” to a guy who was bugging me in 5th grade. i thought i was the shit for that.
Have you ever been in a car accident?: nope!
Have you ever hated the way you look?: 100%. i’ve always had huge insecurities surrounding my body or how i look.
Have you ever witnessed a crime?: bruh i literally stole a pack of gum from a store when i was 4. i COMMITTED a crime. in my defense, i stole it for my mom to make her happy. i got yelled at
Have you ever pole danced?: nope, but i would love to! it looks like a really good workout!
Have you ever been lost?: i got lost just last week
Have you ever been to the opposite side of the country?: nope!!! i don’t travel much
Have you ever felt like dying?: yes. i used to be suicidal
Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?: hell yeah babie!
Have you ever sang karaoke?: i sing karaoke on youtube almost every single day. not only that, but on the first day of practicing for my high school graduation i stopped by my choir class before it began (seniors got out earlier than everyone else), and i sang karaoke with them.
Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t?: 100%
Have you ever laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?: NO?!?!?!?!?!?!?
Have you ever slept with someone at least 5 years older or younger?: no
Have you ever kissed in the rain?: how can u kiss the rain. bruh.
Have you ever sang in the shower?: i sang in the shower earlier today
Have you ever made out in a park?: nope!
Have you ever dream that you married someone?: yep!!!!
Have you ever glued your hand to something?: i don’t think so????
Have you ever got your tongue stuck to a flag pole?: no, but i got my tongue stuck to one of those metal low monkey bar things.
Have you ever gone to school partially naked?: no?????
Have you ever been a cheerleader?: no, but my childhood friend and i wanted to be cheerleaders in high school before i moved to a different state
Have you ever sat on a roof top?: nope
Have you ever brushed your teeth?: who are you, my mom?
Have you ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone?: oh my GOD yes
Have you ever played chicken?: nope!! im a pussy
Have you ever been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?: nope!
Have you ever been told you’re hot by a complete stranger?: not that i’m hot, but i’ve gotten many compliments from strangers
Have you ever broken a bone?: nope!
Have you ever been easily amused?: i used to be one of those kids that would laugh before they could finish a joke
Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?: i’ve laughed so hard that i’ve pissed myself. so yes.
Have you ever mooned/flashed someone?: i mean????
Have you ever cheated on a test?: i cheated on a 2nd grade spelling test. who knew that i would end up actually being great at spelling shit
Have you ever forgotten someone’s name?: oh my god i have the worst memory and i’m terrible with names
Have you ever met someone who didn’t seem real?: my boyfriend :’’’’^)
Give us one thing about you that no one knows: a couple friends know, but when i’m too lazy to throw on shoes or socks to walk around the house i just pull my sweatpants legs a bit over my feet and just wrap it around my feet. it’s weird
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bamfcoyotetango · 6 years ago
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21 Questions
Was tagged by @4vrafangirl
+Rules: answer 21 questions (if you'd like, no pressure, y'all) 
Nickname: Bumblebee and that's only supposed to come from my Mama so don't even think about using it. 
Zodiac: Capricorn! Funny story, most of my family is on the end of the zodiac and only one is dead center. 
Height: 5′7"
Last movie I saw: Mortal Engines! I feel like it would've been better as a series a la Into the Badlands Season 1 
Last thing I googled: Sesshomaru to look at that ridiculous flower pattern he has so that I could embroider that shit. 
Favourite musician: Ask me again later and it'll be something totally different but the standard rn is Utada Hikaru, Oh Wonder, Zella Day and Billie Ellish
Song stuck in my head: So Far Away (Acoustic) by Ben Woodward, Trøllabundin by Eivør, Settle by Vera Blue and Technicolor Beat by Oh Wonder 
Other blogs: I have two other blogs! @ask-sentient-jaegers and @leelu-n-stitch , which are my PacRim Jaeger interaction blog for my written Jaegers over on my Ao3 and my cats, though unfortunately one of the title cats has passed over the rainbow bridge. 
Do I get asks: Only when I post ask memes and even then only a few responses. But man, some of the writing prompts are fantastic. 
Following: 348
Amount of sleep: Sleep, what sleep? Jk, I'm a night owl and I am more like a perpetually exhausted pigeon because some morning person decided that society functions in the morning
Lucky number: 13 and 24
What I’m wearing: PJs rn but I gotta go people so hoodie, t-shirt & jeans 
Dream job: Hard same, @4vrafangirl ! Writer, though, I also wouldn’t mind elevating my cosplaying to a level where I might be invited to Conventions. I'm gearing up to enter a con costume contest in July and I'm already crying about materials. It's an expensive hobby, is Cosplay. 
Really though, I'm getting into my dream field of Veterinary medicine and excited to start~ 
Dream trip: Go home to my old stomping grounds in Italy and make my way up to Ireland and definitely swing by both France and Solvenia again. Damn do I miss Europe. 
Also Thailand/Korea/Japan mostly for the history and the temples. 
Play any instruments: Ocarina but I can't find it rn and it's a teeny plastic one. One day I'll have a nice ceramic one. 
Languages: English. Italian but its rusty AF and I can understand more German than I speak. Sister-in-law was doing an app w languages that I can't spell rn but I'll look into it to catch up on my languages. 
Favourite songs: Guillotine by Jon Bellion, East of Eden by Zella Day and On & On (feat. Daniel Levi) by Cartoon, Young by Vallis Alps and Pe In Eirinn I by Dual~ 
Random fact: I'm going into Vet Med because I've had animals who hate everyone but Their Person approach me. I used to volunteer at a stable and they had a mustang named The General that insisted on pets in the morning when I passed by him. I found out that he had a habit of biting people he didn't like but I never got bit. Pretty much every animal that hated people there basically shoved their heads into my hands. 
Describe yourself as aesthetic: Slytherin, peppermint mocha, crochet, soft blankets, sunset, boots, swords, chameleon colors 
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I’m really bad at tags because I never know who has done these already and don’t want anyone to feel pressured. So if you want to and weren’t tagged, please feel free and tag me back I’d love to hear your responses. 
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kat-riddle · 6 years ago
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Wool’s Orphanage
Part 2: A Magical Game of Hide and Seek
||Chara Bolton was left at Wool’s Orphanage when she was just a few months old. She has been living there ever since. Chara likes being alone and does not have many friends but upon realising that she and Tom Riddle have some special things in common, she wants to spend more time with him.
(All the rights belong to JK Rowling except for a few original characters)
I’m sorry if my writing sucks. This is my first story and English is not my first language. I also want to add a small trigger warning for depression, self-harm, violence and abusive relationships.||
Prologue  Part 1          Part 3  Part 4
After Breakfast, Chara didn't feel like reading anymore. She also didn't want to be stuck in her tiny room all day so she decided to go outside, even though the sky was still depressingly grey it had stopped raining. The door leading to the backyard was wide open and Chara could already tell that many children had started playing catch because she heard them arguing about whose turn it is. Today was a good day. Chara was in a good mood, classes were cancelled because of Halloween and she even felt like interacting with others. Betty and Amy sat next to each other on the swings, giggling and whispering into each other's ears, as always. No one else was on the playground, well it wasn't really a playground because it only had a set of swings and a sandpit but everyone called this corner of the backyard 'the playground'. Chara walked over to Eric Whalley, who was obviously hiding from Billy Stubbs behind a big bush. He was startled when she tapped him on the shoulder. "WHAT? Shhh" he put his finger on his lips "We are playing hide and seek" "Yes, I can see that. I want to join in, is that okay?" "Sure after this r-" "AHA! I found you!" Billy yelled, running towards Eric and Chara. "That's not fair! It's Chara's fault!" Eric yelled at Billy, pointing to Chara. "I-" "It's your turn! New players always have to be the seeker!" Eric interrupted her. Chara decided not to start an argument. "Well, who else is playing? I have to know who I have to find." "It's only me, Eric, Walter and Barbara." Billy answered Chara just put her hands over her eyes and started counting to 30 out loud. Through her fingers, she could see Billy getting behind some bushes next to the playground. They played a few times, with a lot of arguments in between rounds due to Chara and Billy never agreeing on the rules, then decided the next round would be the last one because they would be called to lunch soon. It was Billy's turn and Chara desperately wanted to win this round. She looked around, Billy had already counted to 15 and was starting to count faster, when her eyes fell on a few trees next to the wall that separated Wool's Orphanage from another big building. She quickly ran over and started to climb up the most hidden tree, while making sure Miss Lester, who was overseeing the children today, couldn't see her. Though Chara immediately regretted that decision because the few leafs this tree still had were wet. She started watching Billy from above, he found Eric first, who hid in some bushes yet again. Chara was getting bored, so her mind started to wander. She wasn't really enjoying this game of hide and seek. Billy was annoying especially when he was losing. The only guy Chara hated more than Billy was Dennis Bishop because he was always so mean. He used to make a lot of jokes about Chara's parents abandoning her until Mrs Cole told him to stop. Betty said that he is mean to her because he has a crush on Chara but she couldn't understand the logic behind that. Everyone was always talking about who has a crush on who but Chara really didn't care about things like that. She never had a crush on anyone. She tried to avoid thinking about her parents but especially today she wondered why they brought her here. Chara didn't really care about finding them or knowing who they are, she didn't know them and she will never. They didn't want her. Maybe they were too poor to care for a child. Well, she would never know the answer. Of course, sometimes Chara wished they hadn't abandoned her but not because she wanted a family desperately, like many children here, but because she hated this place. Wool's Orphanage. What a sad little place to grow up in. Everything was so loud, she disliked so many children here and the place was scabby and nearly everything was falling apart. Most of the other children were almost obsessed with finding out who their parents are, but some children were here because their parents died. A sudden hissing noise made her snap out of her thoughts. Chara looked down to see someone sitting next to the tree she was currently sitting in, but she couldn't recognise them. Looking over to the other side of the backyard Chara noticed that Billy had found everyone except her. The hissing continued and it almost sounded like words. Chara wanted to see who the person was and started to climb down a little but she had forgotten how wet the wood was and slipped. "Ahh-" Time seemed to slow down as she was falling, she closed her eyes, waiting for the pain of hitting the ground. But it never came. Chara was confused, she couldn't feel anything. She slowly opened her eyes and was even more confused. She saw grass. The ground was right in front of her but gravity seemed to have stopped working for her and she was floating just a few centimetres above the grassy soil. She was amazed. This feeling was great, it almost felt like flying, as if she didn't weigh anything. Chara only remembered there was another person present after he started speaking. "This-this can't be- I'm not- this is not- I'm not doing this!" Chara stopped floating after she recognised Tom Riddle's voice and hit the ground. She looked at him in shock. "Please-PLEASE don't tell anyone about this!" she begged, still not quite believing what just happened. "I-how did you-I thought I was the only-" he stopped himself and glared at her, he seemed angry. Chara didn't understand why and slowly got up. "Pl-" she started. Tom sighed. "Do you really think anyone would believe me? Are you that stupid?" "Hey! I-" "FOUND YOU!" Billy came running over with Walter, Barbara and Eric right behind him. He noticed Tom standing next to her. "Aww, I see you were too distracted by Riddle to stay in your hiding place." He added mockingly. The others started to giggle at his comment but Chara didn't care. "No, I got bored and you weren't gonna find me anytime soon so I decided to come out, then I saw Tom and started telling him how bad you are at hide and seek. It's not even fun to win if you have to wait an hour until someone finds you!" she almost yelled. "It didn't take me an hour!" "It would have if I hadn't come out of my hiding place." Billy glared at her for a few seconds, then turned around and walked away. "Who wants to play catch with me until we get called to lunch?" Barbara asked them. "Me!" Walter and Eric answered in unison. "I think I'm gonna go to my room." Chara said more to herself than to anyone else and headed to the entrance. She noticed that someone was following her and of course she knew who it was, so she continued faster, took two steps at a time, ran through the corridor and quickly closed the door to her room behind her. She told herself that it was stupid to be scared of him and he wasn't following her intentionally, he just wanted to go back to his room. Chara sat down on her bed, causing it to make a squeaking noise, to calm down a little. She still tried to find a rational explanation for what had happened. She was floating, hovering just above the ground. And she wasn't crazy, Tom saw it too. His reaction was really weird when she came to think about it. He said 'I'm not doing this' and he was angry and maybe a little annoyed? Everyone else would have been confused, astounded or scared. Chara just couldn't understand. What was he doing there anyway? He was rarely ever outside. She looked at her pocket watch. They would be called to lunch in 20 minutes. She got up, sat down at the desk and started reading again. She was very hungry and exhausted and she just noticed that she was shaking. She had been looking forward to trick and treating but now she just felt like sleeping really early today. Chara froze for a second as she heard the door behind her open and close again. She turned around to see Tom standing in the middle of her room with a serious expression on his face. "How about knocking before you just enter someone else's room?!" Chara said while standing up. He didn't answer, he just stared at her. "Okay... what do you want from me?" "An explanation." He said, in a demanding way. "I-um- I don't know what you're talking about." Chara tried not to show that she was a little frightened but as he took a step forward she couldn't help but back away. "Do you think I'm stupid?! You know exactly what I mean! Talk. NOW." "I don't know what you want me to say. I- I don't know what happened- or how I did that. I'm just happy that I didn't get hurt ... and that feeling- I felt so-" "I don't care about how you felt. Does stuff like that- weird stuff- does that happen to you a lot?" He interrupted. Chara tried not to break eye contact with him but he was really intimidating. "I'm not sure. Sometimes. Maybe... I don't know." She mumbled. Tom didn't seem happy with that answer. "Oh come on. Stuff you can't explain, things that happen for your benefit, objects floating or appearing somewhere you didn't put them, stuff like that?" He was definitely annoyed with Chara and yes things like that had happened to her but should she tell him? "Why do you ask me this?" "This is a waste of time, you're oblivious." He gave her one last look of annoyance before he headed for the door. "It's happening to you too, isn't it?" This made him stop, he just stood there for a few seconds, facing the door, probably trying to decide if he should tell her or not. Chara didn't know how to feel about this. Were they different from the other children? Of course, she had noticed some weird things that had happened around her but after today she couldn't just ignore it anymore. The fact that Tom could be the same made her feel better somehow. "It's not just 'happening' to me. I can control it to some extent." He was facing her again. Chara was sick of standing now and sat down on her bed. "You can control what? What is 'it'?" She questioned. "I would say it's some kind of power. I thought I was the only one with this power." "Is that why you never do anything with other children?" She regretted asking this question right away because Tom just glared at her. "No, I just don't want to waste my time with others, most of them are so dull." She had to agree with him there. It wasn't always fun talking to other children here and some of them just never got anything the teacher was trying to teach them, which was annoying. "If you can control it, can you show me?" She asked him eagerly. He thought about it for a second, then started to look around, seemingly searching for something. His eyes landed on Chara's books on the table. Tom's eyes met Chara's again and the book started to fly around the room. He didn't even move his hands or look at the books. "This is so amazing! How are you doing that?" Chara got up and tried to catch her favourite book but they were too high for her to reach. "I'm just thinking about it. I command them to fly in my mind and with enough concentration, they start doing what I want them to do." Everything he said was emotionless. Chara couldn't understand how he wasn't amazed by his power. "I want to try!" She pulled her pocket watch out, put it on the bed and started staring at it. Nothing happened. Confused, she looked over to Tom and expected him to tell her what she had to do. "I guess I'm just more powerful than you." He was smirking now, it was pretty obvious that he loved being better at this. "Maybe I just have to practice a little." She looked back at the watch, trying to concentrate.
"LUNCH IS READY, I want everyone down here in less than five minutes!" Miss Lester's yelling broke Chara's concentration and Tom's apparently too, the books hit the ground and his smirk was gone again. They both went for the door without picking up the books. Chara looked at Tom with a big smile on her face which he didn't return.
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purpledaisiesthings · 2 years ago
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Here’s the thing, yes The Resident coulda done a better job of showing us more of Conrad’s inner conflict regarding his feelings for Billie while with Cade but I will say we did get some signs of that inner conflict. We got him seeking Billie for validation in his relationship w/Cade. Here’s the thing, he’s already sought her out about Nic being ok with him moving on & he already remembered that convo btwn him & Nic telling him to move on. Yet he asks her anyway & it seemed like he felt something was off or needed her to tell him something diff bc he didn’t seem satisfied with her answer in the elevator. Then there’s the denial ep. Again it’s like he was seeking something from her, then he says later it makes him want to ask everybody everything, even if he’s afraid of the answer, what could he have been referring to? I say Billie. It’s similar to Billie’s convo w/AJ when she talked about her being just as afraid he’ll says yes as well as no. Then there’s the OD ep where the kid was saying that girl was his fr and he didn’t know what he would w/o her, he says he knows how he feels, again Billie. There’s the dance where he initiates the dance being more intimate and whispering in her ear. There’s him seeking Billie out to spend time with him and Gigi, showing that he misses her company & him looking confused when she talked about his weekends being full, like he can never be too busy for her. Then we have the looks he gave when James was asking Billie out, yes he didn’t like it but tried to play it off. Yes seeing more of him not liking it woulda been nice but we know he didn’t. I think the 13 eps meant the rushed over some SL while others went on way too long. That’s why I’ll be disappointed if we don’t get a season 7 cause I feel like we deserve to see Conllie fully fleshed out
We got enough of Conrad's perspective to know what was up, but I needed maybe more jealous Conrad. I wanted him to cry blood while seeing Billie and Dr. Hottie 🤣 ....jk 😜
We've got to see Billie in love and pining for Conrad since last season, so we've had longer to stew on her feelings and her perspective. It just felt kind of unbalanced for me.
The 13 episodes didn't make it any easier. It already felt like the thing with Cade went on forever. If it was a normal episode season, it wouldn't be a problem, and we would have gotten more out of that storyline.
I'm not mad at it tho. Like you've pointed out, there were still beautiful moments between them. Moments that showed us the trajectory of their journey.
We definitely NEED season 7. We deserve it 😫
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strangelysardonjc · 7 years ago
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every breath you take - steve harrington
steve harrington x reader
warning: major spoilers. jk jk, just minor ones. S2E9
summary: a month later after they broke up, snow ball happened. steve drove dustin to school for it. he saw through the door and he remembered their good times. he couldn’t help it anymore, so he walks in in a tux, ready to swoon her and finally take her back.
word count: 1, 457 (i didn’t proof read it btw)
“Alright, buddy. Here we are.” Steve mumbles as he pulls up. Dustin takes a look in the school gym with pure nervousness in his eyes, “So, remember, once you get in there…”
Dustin nods before saying, “Pretend that I don’t care.”
“You don’t care.”
“I don’t care.”
“There you go. You’re learning, my friend. You’re learning.” Steve says, nodding as he looks at Dustin. A moment later, Dustin moves the rear view mirror of Steve’s car to check how he looks, to which Steve immediately reacted to. “Hey.” Steve holds the rear view mirror, covering it from Dustin.
“What?” Dustin asks.
“Come on. You look great, okay?” Steve says with a sigh. “You look… You look great. Okay? Now, you’re gonna go in there…”
“Yeah.” Dustin says.
“Look like a million bucks.”
“Yeah!” Dustin says, agreeing with more enthusiasm than the last.
“And you’re gonna slay ‘em dead.” Steve says, looking at his friend.
“Like a lion.” Dustin says smiling lightly, before purring.
Steve looks reluctant. “Yeah, don’t do that, okay?”
“Okay.” Dustin says and Steve holds his hand out to Dustin before saying ‘good luck’ and Dustin clashes his hand with Steve. Dustin gets out of the car, straight to the gym and Steve looking at him like a proud father. Steve watches Dustin carefully with a light smile curling up in his lips before his eyes landing at the girl he loved the most.
She was right there, smiling at everyone who enters, having a casual conversation if given a chance. The girl he loved the most, but also the girl who broke his heart. After a year of relationship, she breaks up with him with an unknown reason that left his heart absolutely shattered into pieces. He thought they were the “me and you against the world” kind? He thought it was all bullshit to her when she broke up with him through the phone.
But also he found out the real reason she broke up with him. The days when she was nowhere to be seen, she was with Nancy and Jonathan. They went missing for days and to keep Steve safe and out of danger, Y/N breaks up with the boy, so he would stop looking for her within those days. They even had a fight at Byers’ house when they were supposedly to be talking the problem through, but it made things worse.
Steve sighs, shook his head lightly before stepping at the gas to go home.
Y/N saw Steve’s car take off in her peripheral vision, but she acted as if it was nothing to her, since she was a bit busy in her booth here. She had a sash resting on her shoulder across through her body, with the word ‘USHERETTE’ written.
She still loves Steve, obviously. She could still hear the words that were said in their last and recent fight. She sighs as she pushes as strand behind her hair.
“And you decide to break up with me? Through the phone?!” Steve shouts at her and Y/N tried to be strong, but the guilt that was spreading through her body failed her. “Where the hell did the trust of this relationship went?”
“Steve, you have to understand—“
“Understand? I understand, I really do, but I thought there are no secrets in this relationship?” Steve says with a dry laugh. “I can’t believe I cared about you.”
“What the hell does that supposed to mean?” Y/N says..
“I can’t believe I cared about you. I can’t believe I trusted you. I can’t believe I loved you in the first place.” Steve says. “I used to not care about anyone, just myself and now, I’m here. Right in front of you, miserable as we talk about this.”
“Steve, I’m sorry.” Y/N mumbles and Steve chuckles.
“I’m sorry. But I’m not going to be stupid for just some girl.”
“Hi, Y/N.” Dustin said with a smile as he entered.
“Hi Dustin.” She smiled back, but her eyes widen with his hair. She smiles in a few moments. “Love the hair, Dusty. Can I?” She asks teasingly as she holds her hand up to touch his hair. Dustin hits Y/N’s hand lightly.
“Worked very hard on this tonight, I’m sorry.” Dustin sayd and Y/N laughs.
“Your friends are over there, have fun.” Y/N says as she pointed on the table where the Party are. Dustin thanks Y/N with a smile before walking up to his friends. Students came in and Y/N would greet them with a smile, have a nice conversation and guide them where they would go. The whole night was filled with her work, she’d occasionally smile at Nancy and Jonathan and she would come back where the table of the food was. But she only got a drink.
By this time, less people were coming through the doors and she did what she usually does when she has absolutely nothing to do and stuck at the place for some reasons: people watching. She people watched and soon, very too soon, she was tired. Feeling tired already. She just wants to go home and sleep, be covered in her blankets.
But then, the familiar intro of her favourite song came through the speakers as she momentarily forgot about being tired. She saw the kids on the floor, dancing with their partners and in her peripheral vision, she sees Eleven. She walked up to Mike and immediately the pair began to dance. She smiled as she saw how the two were finally happy again.
She was quietly singing as she people watched and then suddenly, she felt a tap on her shoulder. She turned around with a smile, thinking that probably someone would be asking for direction to somewhere. Her smile slowly falters as she saw Steve right in front of her; in a tux, his hair done and on his shoulder across his body, as sash resting with the word ‘USHER’ written on it.
“H-Hi, you look beautiful.” Steve says and Y/N could actually feel his nervousness in his voice.
“Hey.” Y/N says, looking down. Steve looks at her with a slight frown on his lips, and right behind Y/N, he sees Dustin flailing his arms wildly as he gestured Steve to keep on talking to the girl who’s in front of him.
Steve blinks twice before lifting Y/N’s chin with his finger, so she could look at him in the eye. “Do you want to…” Steve trails off, before shrugging and nods to the dance floor. “Dance, maybe?”
“Steve…”
“Come on, Y/N. I’m trying to fix us,” Steve says. “if you’ll let me.”
Y/N sighs. “Even if I don’t let you, you’d still find a way.” Y/N says and Steve smiles lightly, taking Y/N’s hand as he gently drags her with him. Y/N was a bit reluctant, so Steve takes her wrists and puts her hands around his neck and he places his hands on her waist.
“Why do you have an ‘usher’ sash?” Y/N asks and Steve shrugs.
“So we’d look better together than we were before.” Steve mumbles and Y/N laughs.
Not a minute has passed by and these two were at it already.
The two smiled at each other and Y/N wrapped her arms around Steve’s shoulders, her temple leaning on Steve’s jaw. Steve’s arms wrapped were wrapped around Y/N’s waist.
“Since you’ve gone I’ve been lost without a trace, I dream at night I can only see your face, I loot around but it’s you I can’t replace, I feel so cold and I long for your embrace, I keep on crying baby, baby, please.” Steve quietly sings along.
They stayed in that position until the song ended.
“Y/N?” Steve mumbles.
“Yes, Steve?” Y/N says and Steve pulls away lightly, so he could look at her.
“I still love you.”  Steve says and Y/N nods.
“I’m sorry about what I did.” Y/N says. “I know it was so shitty of me to do that, but—“
“Baby, I understand.” Steve said, his hand cupping Y/N’s cheek. “And I’m sorry that I burst like that, but I just want you to feel that you can tell me everything and know that I will respect you and your decisions.”
“Are you taking me back?” Y/N asks a bit hopeful. Steve sighs, hugging the girl by her waist.
“It’s hard letting you go, but it’s harder without you by my side.” Steve says and he feels Y/N’s grip on him tightens. “I love you. Y/N.”
“I love you, Steve.”
Steve pulls away lightly and crashes his lips on hers.
a/n: steve trash right here baby. hey, hey, hey, send me requests. (jonathan, billy, mike, will, dustin, lucas, whoever tf u want) hope y’all enjoy it. i also do riverdale and narnia lmfao
[Nov 24, 2017. 7:57 pm. ph time]
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