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arcane s2 spoilers ‼️
ummmm so act I happened 😀 i’m already addicted 😭
i love them so much i hope nothing bad happens 😬 pls forgive bad quality tumblr HATES ME
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Caitlyn: My sister in law killed my mom and I'm in my lesbian dictator era
Vi: My girlfriend broke up with me right after we kissed
Jinx: I got reversed adopted by a random kid
Ambessa: *manipulating Caitlyn*
Sevika: *gambling with her new arm*
Viktor: *is Yaoi Jesus*
Jayce, Ekko and Heimerdinger: What the fuck is going on
Mel's subplot:
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₊˚ෆ summer bummer babe !
𝓹airing ∿ stella hughes (oc) x rutger mcgroarty
𝓢. some photo dump’s of stella’s summer
𝓻oro's note. this was so fun to make! just a little inside look on what her summer looked like
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🎵stick season - Noah kahan
entersteller; in my country concert era 🍺
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📍 colecaufield disclaimer ‼️ It was my beer she just wanted to take a picture ‼️
lhughes_06 you were sneaking her ‘sips’ the whole night?
entersteller you are so fake I can’t even @/lhughes_06
Lilybaileys SHIRT IS SO REALL
Lilybaileys Yellowstone rewatch when you get back?
entersteller it’s a date 🫦
_alexturcotte you and rut being all lovey dovey was disgusting to watch
entersteller LEAVE US ALONE OMG?
adamfantilli okay but like, is that my hat?
entersteller well you left it at mine, so technically it’s mine…
adamfantilli ykw whatever you say stell 🙂
trevorzegras I’m having major fomo
lhughes_06 it’s cause you are 👍🏻
entersteller Luke leave him alone 🤓
LiamBarlowe but was it better than the Luke Bryan concert we went to?
entersteller NOT EVEN CLOSE 🤠
rutgermcgroarty I love you so fucking much 🩷
rutgermcgroarty I hate to side with Luke but you were def a little tipsy…
entersteller you tell me you love me then expose me???
lhughes_06 WAIT WDYM HATE?
_quinnhughes 🩷
jackhughes it’s gonna be a good summer 😁
entersteller great you jinxed us 😔
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🎵 unwritten - Natasha bedingfield
entersteller; girls n’ pups trip
📍 Lilybaileys BEST WEEK OF MY LIFE 🙌🏻
carmenbarlowe amen 🙏
tatemcrae amen 🙏
entersteller amen 🙏
rutgermcgroarty my girl 😍
rutgermcgroarty 🫦🫦
rutgermcgroarty you’re so freaking pretty Stella
rutgermcgroarty you were gone for too long 🙁
Lilybaileys she was gone for a week get a GRIP
tatemcrae my sexy gf 🫦
entersteller 🫦🫦🫦
carmenbarlowe body tea face card never declines 😻
tatemcrae @/Lilybaileys what have you been teaching her 😭
Lilybaileys I feel like a proud mom rn 🥹
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🎵 la vie en rose - zaz
entersteller; olympics with the girlys 🫶🏻
markestapa not bringing me with you guys is crazy 😒
Lilybaileys ‘Olympics with the girlys’ emphasis on GIRLYS 🗣️
markestapa I CAN READ 🙄
carmenbarlow Paris misses us…let’s go back!
entersteller booking the flight as we speak
Lilybaileys the aura you have bbg, everyone was asking to get pictures with you 😭
entersteller it’s my charisma 🫶🏻
tatemcrae GAWDDD MY GIRLS SEXY 😻
elblue6 my pretty girls 🩷
nicolassturniolo 🤸🏻♀️🤸🏻♀️
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🎵 feels good inc. - gorillaz
entersteller; camping with my boyzzz
markestapa okay but like why that picture?
entersteller everyone deserved to see how cute you looked burning your tongue on a s’more 🤗
luca.fantilli you forgot to add favorite in the caption 💪🏻
entersteller I knew I missed something 😖
rutgermcgroarty okay but like why is luca so good at telling scary stories
entersteller mark was so freaked 🤣
markestapa I can’t believe you guys made me sleep with luca he kept on pretending he was getting possessed
luca.fantilli dude I shake in my sleep
entersteller wow really insensitive estapa 😒
edwards.73 I can’t believe you guys went without me
entersteller you were busy 🤷🏻♀️
edwards.73 ur cold hearted hughes 💔
_willsmith2 bc boys and stella camping trip when?
ryan.leno_4 STELLA PLEASE
gabeperreault44 🙏🙏🙏🙏
entersteller checking my calendar now
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🎵 supersonic - fromis_9
entersteller; business trip in seoul with vinnie + seeing hoonie 😽
vinniehacker already planning our trip back
entersteller we have to go to the car cafe this time omggg
pshoon2002 you weren’t even here for long 😣
entersteller I’ll be back soon I promise 🩷
rutgermcgroarty your not leaving again, missed you to much 🩷
entersteller missed you more stud 🫶🏻
jackhughes stop traveling (without me)
entersteller cut the cord Jacky
jackhughes I was trying to be nice brat 😡
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🎵 no surprises - Radiohead
entersteller; a week of room rotting with minnie n’ luca
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carmenbarlowe luca looks so bbg in that pic
entersteller he’s my bbg 😖
luca.fantilli 😇
colecaufield why are you listening to Radiohead?
trevorzegras bro she’s like depressed I think…
entersteller @/trevorzegras ITS A GOOD SONG LEAVE ME ALONE !!
matthew.sturniolo those fortnite games went crazyyy
entersteller hopping on when I get home 😋
christophersturniolo LETS GOOOO
rutgermcgroarty my girl is so talented
entersteller marry me 🫦
rutgermcgroarty don’t tempt me, I’m already on my knees
pshoon2002 WHAT is that last photo
pshoon2002 dimples where did you even get that?
entersteller I made it 🙂
pshoon2002 why am I not surprised
jackhughes z texted me and said ur depressed, ya good?
entersteller omfg
entersteller IM NOT DEPRESSED LEAVE ME ALONE @/trevorzegras ‼️‼️
trevorzegras well sue me for caring 🙄
tatemcrae omggg where did you get that shirt 😻
entersteller @/pshoon2002
pshoon2002 she only loves me for my money
entersteller LIES !! DEFAMATION !!
williamnylander can’t wait to hang those up when they get here
entersteller I sent them this morning!!
_alexturcotte silly goose
entersteller 😖
_quinnhughes not healthy behavior, go on a walk please
entersteller I wasn’t being serious ✋🏻
lhughes_06 most peaceful and quite week with you locked away
entersteller my 13th reason
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entersteller; what mark said…
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markestapa firstly, where tf did you find that picture
markestapa secondly, yes
markestapa I look so good wow
entersteller I think you mean me…
mackie.samo missed you stell!
entersteller missed you to mackie 🫶🏻
edwards.73 my favorite photographer 🫶🏻
entersteller eth 🥹🫶🏻
rutgermcgroarty you’re amazing Stella
rutgermcgroarty that dress 😩
rutgermcgroarty 7th pic 😳🫦
entersteller check the pics I just sent you 🤓
rutgermcgroarty 😻😻😻
jackhughes DISGUSTING 🤮
dylanduke25 marks talent at always finding the camera needs to be studied
entersteller seriously, like I’m jealous
carmenbarlowe The Hughes hair is hairing
entersteller ikr my brothers hair surprisingly looks good
jackhughes rude but like thanks?
lhughes_06 wtf is that supposed to mean
Lilybaileys your hair usually sucks @/lhughes_06
lhughes_06 😾
Lilybaileys freak mark 😒
entersteller but freak mark 🫶🏻
markestapa what is this language?
_quinnhughes you went crazy on that dance floor, are you sure Jack didn’t slip you a drink?
entersteller my feet still hurt, and no I wish 😖
_quinnhughes I told you to bring a pair of flats just in case 🤷♂️
stellashotboyfie going to that wedding with you made me think of our future wedding 🥹
entersteller it was all I was thinking about tbh ☺️
stellashotboyfie to the Pinterest board!
entersteller I love you 😭
Lilybaileys okay but why did lanky Luke put his ass on the bathroom counter
entersteller HAHA LANKY LUKE
lhughes_06 LEAVE ME ALONE UR OBSESSED
Lilybaileys lanky- more like cranky 🙄
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🎵 summer bummer - Lana Del Rey (feat. A$AP ROCKY & playboi carti)
entersteller; i don’t want him out of my veins
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📍 rutgermcgroarty 1:45 (real)
entersteller real
adamfantilli the fridge is on fire 🫦
entersteller stop flirting with my bf Adam!
ryan.leno_4 what a man….
entersteller MY man….
trevorzegras 🥹
entersteller hi trevy 🫶🏻
trevorzegras stop growing up.
mollyannmcg cuties 🥹
tyler__duke5 Rut my tire needs changing 😩
rutgermcgroarty where are you? Send me your location
entersteller babe he’s trying to make a move on you 🙄
rutgermcgroarty oh
lhughes_06 you guys make me sick
entersteller well your face makes me sick
lhughes_06 wow how creative 👍🏻
luca.fantilli abs abs abs
entersteller come over
stellashotboyfie please
jamie.drysdale 🩷
entersteller Jamie 🥹🫶🏻
jackhughes love is disgusting
LiamBarlowe you literally cried yesterday when we watched that romcom
jackhughes correction, stella and rut in love is disgusting
entersteller just say ur obsessed with us
rutgermcgroarty our number one fan ❤️
jackhughes HATER NOT FAN
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entersteller; family football n’ training
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williamnylander sick shorts who got them for you?
entersteller just my favorite Swedish hockey player ☺️
williamnylander I know that’s right
colecaufield #youdontmattergiveup
entersteller bitchh
gabeperreault44 BC RAHHH 🦅
entersteller UMICH ON TOP 〽️
ryan.leno_4 🦅🦅
entersteller GET OUT OF MY COMMENTS
mollyannmcg ur perfect
entersteller marry mee 😩
g.brindley4 〽️〽️
entersteller ‼️‼️
stellashotboyfie that arch tho 😮💨
entersteller BABE 😭
carmenbarlowe mama ellen is so cute 🥹
entersteller she’s going through our baby pics rn 🥹
lhughes_06 my favorite family picture
entersteller I’m not in it tho ☹️
lhughes_06 exactly, it’s cause ur adopted
entersteller 😟
jackhughes 🤣🤣🤣
_quinnhughes Luke Jack stop being rude to Stella
jackhughes I DIDNT EVEN DO ANYTHING ???
entersteller you breathed 😒
jackhughes QUINN ARE YOU NOT GONNA YELL AT HER FOR BEING MEAN?
_quinnhughes haha good one @/entersteller
jackhughes the clear favoritism is crazy, at least we got each other @/lhughes_06
lhughes_06 Stella is my favorite too 👍🏻
colecaufield #youdontmattergiveup @/trevorzegras
trevorzegras what the hell….
tyler__duke5 best dog ever
entersteller I miss him already
tyler__duke5 thank you for painting my face blue and yellow for the game
entersteller anytime ty 😭
tatemcrae the bows are everythingggg
Lilybaileys watching you and Carmen skate makes me feel like I’m levitating
colecaufield #youmatterdontgiveup @/jackhughes
jackhughes really 🥹
trevorzegras now wtf
entersteller he’s such a troll @/trevorzegras
trevorzegras haha literally 🤣
colecaufield 😞
edwards.73 mark almost dropping you after I took that picture was teww funny 🤣
markestapa emphasize on almost bitch 🙄
entersteller yea bitch @/edwards.73
rutgermcgroarty you’re so perfect
rutgermcgroarty blessing my eyes
rutgermcgroarty I love you 🩷
entersteller I love you more rut 🩷
jackhughes I’m still shocked that that guy walked up to you and asked for your number
entersteller I guess ur just not that intimidating
jackhughes STELLA DONT SAY THAT
jackhughes TAKE IT BACK RN
jackhughes I AM VERY INTIMIDATING
entersteller sure bud 🤣
elblue6 my lovely girl 🩷
entersteller love you momma 🥹🫶🏻
christophersturniolo hard
vinniehacker 🐶
jacob_truscott20 〽️〽️〽️
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nicohischierluvergurl; I miss my bf sm, come back 💔
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carmenbarlowe mom??? girl 😭
nicohischierluvergurl and they call me MOTHER 💅
_willsmith2 need that man neow 👅
nicohischierluvergurl I will provoke your priv privileges rn 🤠
tatemcrae okay but like think of all the songs your writing 🫣
nicohischierluvergurl the only + in my sad girl era ig 🙁
pshoon2002 distance makes the heart grow fonder or some shit like that??
nicohischierluvergurl I DONT WANT DISTANCE HUGSY 😰
luca.fantilli look at those arms damnnn
nicohischierluvergurl I just wanna nom nom 🫦
stellashotboyfie MILF STELLA 2024 👅
nicohischierluvergurl rut the math ain’t mathing
Lilybaileys MILF STELLA 2024 👅
nicohischierluvergurl NO RUT GOT TO YOU TOO 😭
_quinnhughes idk how i feel about being here
nicohischierluvergurl PRIVILEGED WDYM?
_quinnhughes Stella please you are to young to be a mom, omfg you two are stressing me tf out
stellashotboyfie dw gotta by her a house first 💪🏻
stellashotboyfie I miss you to pretty girl, dw I’ll see you soon 🩷
nicohischierluvergurl not soon enough ☹️
stellashotboyfie iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou
nicohischierluvergurl I love you so much fuckk I’m gonna cry again
stellashotboyfie no tears baby, answer my call ok
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Cherry, Cherry 🍒 Chapter 18 🍒
"I Wanted It To Be You"
Joel Miller x f!Reader
Word count: 7,467
Summary: Moving on from Joel, your life takes many unexpected courses: college, marriage.. yet you keep wondering What If..?
(Warnings contain spoilers, so please check beneath the cut if you're curious)
WARNINGS: 18+ Only! Mature and Explicit, age gap (the difference is 17 years, and there are a few time skips throughout this chapter), starts in late 2003 and ends in 2023, Angst Angst Angst, brief mention of jailtime, breakup, parental issues, heavy on the mom guilt, underage drinking, dry humping, anonymous drunk sex (never ever do this, folks), vomit, reader going through a slutty era after getting her heart broken (just like Joel in Chapter 14), allusions to smut, time skips (labeled), panic attack, mention of drugs and alcohol, rough sex, creampie, surprise pregnancy, infidelity, lil bit of a makeout sesh with Tommy, semi-public sex, pussy pronouns, light degradation, Ellie is Joel's daughter, mention of cyberstalking (not as serious as it sounds), mention of reader having a therapist, Joel and Tess are married. If I left anything out, please LMK!
Author's Note: this took forever to write because the more I edited the more I wanted to add. And I know this chapter has quite a few time skips, I just wanted to highlight the important parts as much as I could. ALSO: I apologize for the unrealistically speedy law process at the beginning. I have no idea how that situation would pan out, but it would almost definitely drag out for months if not years.
So much angst here, but now the reader is all grown up! I wanted to add the convo with Sarah but this chapter was already getting so long, and I think it'll fit better in the next installment anyway.
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"I would've said yes."
You've lost count of how many voicemails you leave Joel, who's been ignoring your calls, but this is the only time you say it, that you admit your love could have gone a different way if you'd just gotten back to that hotel room together.
You replay that night over and over in your head, but with different endings. In a perfect world, your father would never have even been there in the first place. In a separate, less perfect world, you would not have called out to him, just ignored him the way he ignored you. Then you'd have some peace of mind, and you'd belong with the man you love.
Each time you call Joel, you expect to hear his gruff voice on the other end of the line. And soon enough the ringing stops and goes straight to voicemail, where you leave him the words of your bleeding, broken heart:
"I would've said yes."
You haven't taken the ring out of its box, worried you'll jinx whatever luck you have left. Joel is supposed to kneel, take your hand in his, and place the ring on your finger. You've never envisioned what getting engaged would look like, but it definitely bears some semblance to tradition.
When Chris refused to press charges, the law stepped in and did it for him. Thirty days in the Bexar County Jail is what they sentenced Joel. That was why you couldn't reach him, why you felt like you were hitting a brick wall. It's a relief when you're finally able to speak to him.
"I'm so sorry," you cry to him over the phone, his voice like a warm and soothing balm. You imagine yourself curling into his embrace, allowing his arms to enfold you, make you small and safe, hidden from the dangers and ugliness of the world.
"You ain't got nothin' to be sorry for," he grunts.
"I love you." You sound pitiful over the phone but you don't care. "Joel, let me come see you and we can work it out. Please."
He sighs. "I got somethin' I need to tell you. Might change your mind how ya feel about me."
"What?" you ask quickly, your young mind scrambling to imagine what he could say, as if to fortify your already shattered heart. Your stomach sinks, nausea threatening to make the bile rise in your throat. "Joel, what is it?"
He's quiet for awhile and when he speaks it's monotone. "I've been seein' someone else."
It sounds like he's speaking a foreign language. You shake your head, looking at your wall calendar. It's only December. You last saw him in late September. The biblical manger scene on the church calendar your mom put on the fridge is an evil harbinger of time now lost.
"Who?" you ask, dreading the answer.
"Doesn't matter," he says gruffly, sounding uncomfortable.
"Tell me who," you insist.
With a deep sigh he relents. "Hailey."
Again, it's like hearing a foreign language. "Hailey? The girl I worked with? The one who went to Sarah's party? That Hailey?"
"Yeah."
"How.. how did this happen?"
"Ran into her at a bar my first night out of jail. I was lonely and she was.. she was there for me."
"What do you mean? Did you-" you take a moment to breathe, try not to let your emotions take over.
"I slept with her. That's all it is between us, just fuckin'."
It's like a punch in the gut. No, worse. It's a blade plunging into your heart over and over.
In a blur of upset and disappointment, you utter the words of anyone who's ever had a broken heart: "How could you do this to me?"
There's no answer for it from his side. His refusal to go into detail feels like he's hiding his fling with Hailey on purpose, withholding part of his new life to you, but you never stop to think he might be saving you from the pain he knows is due.
You cry after hanging up on him. You cry more than you did when he left you in San Antonio. You cry until you can no longer see because your eyes are puffy, nearly tiny slits that still somehow shed tears when you think of Joel with your ex-friend.
Once the sadness has been cried out, there remains only rage, simmering and profound. With small, practiced movements, you take the engagement ring in its box and mail it to Joel's address. No note, and no explanation needed.
"You're not yourself," your mom mentions one night when you push your plate away, your dinner barely touched.
"Not hungry," you mumble.
She sighs in exasperation. "I don't know what to do with you. You won't talk to me." She pushes her own plate away and downs the rest of her cheap wine. "You come home from God-knows-where, with a damn bruise on your face."
You touch your cheek where your father had accidentally knocked you backwards, wishing it was the only physical pain you endured from that night.
"..you don't bother with the chores anymore, you lock yourself away in your room, probably not even studying. Do you even attend classes anymore? Do you even care about your future?" she continues.
"No," you say quite simply.
"No??"
You shake your head and shrug, as if answering something as easy as 'do you want to watch a movie later?'
"I don't. Give. A shit."
Anita scoffs, refilling her glass. "Great. That's just great. Maybe I'll drink this entire bottle and give myself alcohol poisoning. Then I wouldn't have to deal with your shitty attitude anymore."
The scrape of your chair as you push away from the table is as loud as nails on a chalkboard. "You want me to talk? I'll talk." You lean forward, relishing this moment where your mom looks scared as shit.
"I said I was in College Station, but I lied. I was fucking Joel every weekend I was away. We met up in hotel rooms and fucked each other's brains out. And the best part of it all was that he loved me," your voice breaks but you're wickedly delighted by the look of shock and disgust on your mother's face.
You're on a tirade now that can't be stopped. "Two months ago I found Dad in San Antonio. I did," you nod, a psychotic kind of laughter breaking from you when she gawks. "And do you know what? He's forgotten all about us. He has a new family, new kids, new young wife. And he doesn't give a shit about you or me. He never really has, has he?" You realize you're standing, towering over her as you spit out all the venom she's ever poured into you right back at her.
"Now.. how does it feel to have the truth shoved in your face? To be deprived of the fantasy world you wanted so badly to live in, cushioned by your idiotic pretenses? Because I'll bet you could've gone your whole life not knowing, staying innocent. Well, Mother Dearest, fuck you."
Without a word you pack your things, your body moving way ahead of your brain, stuffing every necessary item into a couple of bags before you leave her house, with the intention to never return again.
Summer 2004 Louisiana
Staying with friends in a shitty apartment, you finish the rest of the semester before transferring to another school. Three schools in one year probably isn't a very good look on your transcript, but it's the first choice you make that is truly your own. Working two jobs over the summer you finally have the money you need to survive as you begin a new chapter in Louisiana.
You do everything in your power to get over Joel. The first step was deleting his number from your phone, even though you've already memorized it by heart. To be safe, you also delete Tommy's number, and Sarah's. It feels final, and a small part of you wishes they could get a notification informing them you no longer consider them important enough to keep, even as data.
It still stings when you think of Joel with Hailey. She's older, more experienced, and can probably do whatever he wants without being asked. After you've deleted the Millers from your contact list, you hover over Hailey's name, pressing it and, in a moment of antagonism, send her a text. I thought you were my friend, Turns out you're just a fucking slut Then you delete and block her number.
Dating other guys doesn't come very easy. It's as if they can smell the heartbreak on you, sense your loneliness and unease, the untempered anger simmering below the surface of your smile. You're a walking red flag and you know it, but that doesn't stop you.
You grind on a guy at a club after he buys you a few appletinis. Never mind that he's twenty five and trying to get you drunk so you'll fuck him. With your twenty-dollar Charlotte Russe dress hiked up as you drag your sopping panties over his clothed hardness, he sucks the apple flavor off your tongue, one hand gripping your hips while the other slips inside your underwear to rub your clit and you come for the first time in months. So loud, in fact, that you're caught and promptly kicked out of the club. When your partner (you never remember his name) asks to continue at his place, you decline, already walking to the next bar.
Once the high wears off, you are consumed with guilt as you think of Joel. What would he say if he found out? Would he even care? Maybe he's fucking Hailey right now.
And it hits you that it's already been a year since you first slept with him.
You pause in the middle of the street, coming back to earth when a car honks at you, cursing at you to hurry up and fucking move dumb bitch!
Walking on, you can't get the memory of the feel of Joel out of your head: the way his tongue licked into your mouth, fingers traveling down to play between your folds, telling you he needed you nice and wet before he fucked you, those thick fingers slipping in and playing you like a well tuned instrument, his lips gliding over your throat, resting just above your pulse point, then finding their way down the slope of your breasts, taking each nipple between his lips, his beard rasping against your skin.
You try to force the thought away, but it returns manifold. His mouth, the stiffened warmth of his tongue lapping at your cunt, drinking up every fucking drop and telling you you taste so sweet. He doesn't stop until you come more than once, finally fitting himself inside you, teasing you with the first few inches. Sure you can handle the rest, babygirl? before sliding in in one smooth thrust, joining you body and soul, moving against you just how you need.
You cover your face with your hands and wander into an alley, overcome with despair at the loss of your love, the loss of what innocence you thought you had. Both of those things given to someone who only saw fit to fuck you as he wished and discard when he couldn't handle the reality of your personal life.
"Are you okay?" a voice asks, approaching softly from behind. You turn and see a man, another college student like yourself, dressed in jeans and a striped button down. His features blur together until all you hear is his soft Southern accent and all you smell is his Curve cologne. The next thing you know you're kissing him, begging him to touch you, fuck you, and then he's spinning you to face the wall, dress hiked up, panties pulled down. Your arms support you against the wall as he pushes into you from behind and all you think about is him fucking the pain away, pumping into you hard and fast. He's nowhere near as big as Joel, but you've been so touch starved that the sounds coming out of your mouth are shameless.
Without warning you vomit, splashing your shoes and the wall in front of you with appletini puke, and the guy pulls out immediately, getting away from you as fast as he can, tucking himself back into his jeans.
You rest your forehead against the cool brick wall, spitting out the sour taste in your mouth as tears weep freely from your eyes.
September 2004
At the start of sophomore year you're the only one who doesn't have family come down to help move in, to visit with and take silly, memorable photos with. Nobody comes to your dorm and helps you decorate and put your belongings away. By the time your assigned roommate comes with her parents and little brother you're already set up, fresh sheets on your twin bed, your side already claimed.
You're reading when she comes in, a young girl, freshman, with hope in her eyes, excited to meet you, looking forward to her new life away from Montana or Missouri or wherever she says she's from. You're barely listening.
Who you do notice is her dad: mid-forties, slight beer belly, wearing a polo shirt and cargo pants with brand new New Balance shoes. You make eye contact immediately before he shifts his gaze away. His daughter, your new roommate Jessica, starts to unpack, asking you questions about the classes, what student groups to join. You offer what advice you can, stretching out on your bed in your tank top and running shorts. Her dad's eyes roam over your curves when his wife and kids aren't looking, and you unabashedly flirt back, making sure your shorts ride up, pulling down your tank just a little to expose more cleavage.
Once they leave for a quick tour around the campus you're back to your reading.
Jessica's dad comes back. Alone.
"I think I forgot my wallet in here," he says, giving a forced look of timidity as he checks his pockets.
"You didn't," you smirk, putting your book down and sitting up. "But you can stay if you want.."
He doesn't make an excuse about his family and you wouldn't care if they walked in anyway. Once the door is locked his hands are on your body, grabbing your ass while your hand goes down his pants. You tell him exactly what will make you come, and he does it so willingly it almost touches your heart.
Later as he's leaving and you're trying to get his cum off your bedsheets, he's asking you not to say anything to his daughter, as if you'd proudly exclaim that you fucked him, having barely remembered his name.
You're learning that a lot of men are the same at their very core.
You're a fantasy for the older ones, a college coed with daddy issues and an IUD. Having already been with an older man, you know just what they like, and when you give it you live for the way their eyes light up, and a little of their youth comes back to them for a moment.
It's almost pitiful how easy you figure out the opposite sex. Once you know what they want it's easy to become that, to dress how they want, to feign interest in the things they like, even to keep your thoughts to yourself. You learn to live inside your head, which until now has been the hardest thing to do.
But it's necessary when you're holding onto the headboard of some frat guy's bed while fake moaning as he's holding your hips, going as fast as he can because that's what they do in porn. Each and every guy has a Scarface poster above the bed, or Playboy centerfolds taped to the walls, neon lava lamps on the nightstand along with CDs by Kanye West, Franz Ferdinand, or Velvet Revolver. Your thoughts are elsewhere as you give halfhearted head.
You learn to feel nothing, not even pleasure, because they certainly can't tell that you fake every sigh and gasp.
But the older men, the professors, TA's, even men you meet off campus at the bars in town.. they are what interest you. It's not common for you to find yourself bent over a desk during your professor's office hours, or with your panties around your ankles when a one-on-one study session turns to something else.
You fuck men who remind you of Joel because you can't fuck Joel. It's his hands on you instead of theirs, his breath hot on your ear.. but no one else can fill the part of you that Joel hollowed out for himself when he made you his on a hot Texas summer night.
Though you think about him every day, soon enough, you start to wonder whether he was ever even real, or just someone you made up.
March 2006
Spring Break finds you at a beach house on the coast. The friends you came with are nowhere to be found, and you're pretty sure your drink is laced with something. The music is so loud that you hurry out into the night, seeking solace before the roaring waters of the gulf, black water topped with silver waves. Their rushing sound is soothing, yet you sink to your knees because your world is too heavy.
"I'm dying," you whisper to yourself, crying. Your chest feels tight. It's so hard to breathe, and it feels like your heart will explode.
Only one person on the entire planet comes to mind, and after all this time you still remember his number. You dial it, fingers savoring the press of each button on your phone. How many times have you called Joel and hung up before he could answer? There have been a couple of times when you dialed him while having sex, not sure if he ever picked up, hoping that he heard you moving on and moving away from him. That'll show him.
But you can't even breathe to talk to him. And what if he doesn't answer? What if he's changed his number?
You leave all his numbers entered on the screen but you don't hit the call button. Not yet. You have to think of something to say. Tell him you love him before your body rejects the air it's trying so desperately to claim into your lungs.
"Hey, are you all right?" a gentle voice asks behind you, and a hand is on your shoulder.
You flashback to that night in the alley, the guy who took advantage of you, but this time it doesn't go that way.
A man with soulful eyes and a kind smile kneels next to you, his hand remaining on your shoulder. "I think you're having a panic attack. Can I help you with that?" His voice is as kind and gentle as he looks, and you nod.
"Can you breathe for me? Like this." He inhales deeply and slowly, and when you try it it feels so foreign but you manage it.
"There you go," he says quietly. "Now breathe out.."
Soon he has your breathing back to normal, and you don't have to force your body to do what it naturally does.
"Tell me five things you can see," he continues.
A shaky breath in. Hey, at least it's a breath. "Um.. the water.. the sand.. the moon.. you.."
That's when you get your first good look at him, beyond the smile that works its warmth into your heart, and the eyes that search yours, exuding humanity that you haven't experienced in a long time. He's really cute. You can't deny that your heart skips a couple of beats.
"One more thing?" he says, his voice soft.
You snap back to reality. "Uh.. a ship.. out there in the distance?"
He glances behind him at the water, seeing the great big liner, possibly a cruise ship, on the inky horizon, and takes a seat next to you. "How are you feeling now?" he asks.
"Good.. I think. Better." You nod. "Thank you."
"May I?" he lifts your hand from your lap and turns the palm up, his fingers poised above your pulse point. You nod again.
He presses his touch to your wrist, and you watch his eyes calculating, his lips silently moving while counting. Despite everything you've been through the past two years, this is the most intimate thing you've felt.
"Your pulse is normal." He gently places your hand back on your lap. "Do you want to go back to the party or do you want to stay out here a little longer? If you want to go back," he adds, "I'll be with you, make sure you're okay."
You opt to stay on the beach, embracing the quiet for a little longer. This is the first time a man has had you alone and hasn't tried to fuck you. It's nice, for once.
Towards the end of the night he leads you back to the party house, guiding you through the throng of people there, the air rife with alcohol and the pungent aroma of weed. You're holding his hand, you realize as you walk together. He's your lifeline in this very moment. You grab your jacket and purse from one of the bedrooms, passing by couples making out, some slipping into rooms to do much more than kissing. To think you could have easily ended up there with a random guy makes your skin crawl.
"What was your name again?" you shout to him over the music.
"Justin!"
"Dustin?"
"Justin!"
You both laugh. You tell him your name and of course he mishears you.
He drives you to the small motel room you're sharing with your friends who are inevitably crashing at the beach house, too drugged or drunk or fucked to return for the night.
Justin smiles at you as the engine idles. "Is it okay if I ask you out?"
You exchange numbers, your heart thrumming with a pleasant nervousness. You haven't had a boyfriend since..
..not since Joel.
Don't think about him.
"You can reach out to me if you ever just feel like talking," he says. "I'm here."
So you do, and after a week of texting and a couple of late night calls and getting to know each other, you go for a date for the first time in three years.
Justin picks you up in a Honda Civic, and as you get comfy in the passenger seat you breathe in the scent of the black ice air freshener and his spearmint gum. The radio blasts Smashing Pumpkins at a level you know is too much but it only adds to the excitement of the evening.
He's a year older than you, native to Louisiana, and on leave from the Army.
Living just a half hour from your campus, you start to spend much of your time together. Movie dates, dinner dates, and dates where you just drive around, talking about nothing and everything.
You only sleep with him three months into your relationship, desiring to take things slow for once, to know him better than you have ever known anyone.
It's nice. It's like what you see in the movies, two people wrapped up in each other, soft, no words needed. For once your head isn't forced down into the pillow, or your pussy spit on. For once it's just normal, and normal feels so good.
June 2008 New Orleans, LA
Bourbon Street is alive, electric, no matter that it's a Sunday night. People will drift into work tomorrow still drunk on Zombies and Hurricanes. The entire street reeks of piss, but people either don't care or have been here long enough that it no longer harasses their senses. But more often than not, people are having too much of a good time to care.
You're behind the bar at little hole-in-the-wall place, slinging daiquiris and kamikaze shots when you hear a familiar voice and a tap on your shoulder. "Hey there, Cherry."
You turn and your eyes go wide. "Tommy!" You reach over the bar to hug him, nearly spilling a beer on him in the process. "It's been ages! How are you?
He looks older, more mature, even though it's only been five years since you last saw him: he's letting his facial hair grow, but his eyes still sparkle with mirth and kindness. "It's good to see you, girl." He's no longer with Sofia, their romance having ended a few years before, on friendly terms or so your cousin claimed. You always blamed yourself for the demise of their relationship, believing that your breakup with Joel cast a shadow over her own connection with Tommy.
"What are you doing here?" you ask.
"We're good, just here in town, expanding the business."
"We?" Your hands start to shake, and you put away the bottle of gin you have your grasp on. Your heart starts to pound before the next words even leave his mouth.
"Yeah, me and Joel are lettin' off a little steam, wanted to toss back a few before we go back to the hotel."
You feel his eyes on you before you're even aware that he's here. Looking up, at a small table near the entrance, is Joel Miller. Your heart stops, and you don't know how it is you're still alive. He looks you up and down, appraising every feature and detail about you, and you wonder if you've changed in five years or not. You wonder if he still loves or hates you.
"...and we thought this was that bar where girls dance and pour tequila down guys' throats, but this is just as good 'cause you're here."
Tommy manages to snap you out of your trance. "Oh.. you mean Coyote Ugly.."
"Yeah, they opened one in Austin a couple years back but this one ain't never wanna go nowhere," he motions back with his head to Joel.
You return your gaze to the older brother but he's no longer looking at you, his glance dotting along the crowd, following a younger woman as she saunters up to him, smiling, flirting. Your stomach turns and you force a smile at Tommy.
"Whatever you want is on me."
Tommy's smile and laughter is infectious. "You sure about that, Cherry?"
"I'm sure," you say, pouring out a shot for yourself. "You know, nobody's called me that in a long time."
"What's that?" he catches a bright sparkle on your left hand, and quickly takes it within his own. "Cherry, you didn't tell me you were engaged!"
Joel must have one ear straining to listen because Tommy's outburst got his attention right away and he swivels his head to look at you.
"Yeah.. he's a nice guy." That's how you describe Justin to everyone: he's a nice guy. He'd proposed last year after your one year dating anniversary. "He's in the Army, they're shipping him out a week after our wedding. And I'm going with him."
"He's a good guy if he's an Army man," Tommy approves, just as Joel approaches, the woman he was talking to now gone. "So? Are we invited to the weddin'?"
You can't tell if he's teasing or not, and Joel's poker face gives zero indication as well. "I already sent out save-the-dates, but if you'd like to come I won't object. The more the merrier." For the first time you see Joel up close and your heart stutters, an irregular beat that you'd gotten used to in the aftermath of your disastrous breakup.
He's still so fucking handsome: the dark brown of his hair fading to what you can already see as gray, with gray patches in his beard. There are more lines around his eyes. There's still that jolt of electricity when your gazes meet.
"You happy?" he asks, his countenance giving nothing away of his true feelings, so it's difficult to gage whether he's legitimately asking, or simply being nice.
"I'm happy." But it sounds forced, like taking the pliers to your own mouth to fix your own abscess.
Joel only nods as you pour a couple whiskeys for them. "To Cherry getting married!" Tommy beams his salute and the three of you down the shots quickly.
It's sometime after your shift, and you're in the parking lot with Tommy, his arms around you as he presses you to the side of his truck. Or maybe it's Joel's truck. You don't know and you don't care, all you want is to feel something again. The nearness of Joel all night has rewired your brain, and as Tommy deepens the kiss, you're disappointed that it's not Joel's taste, not Joel's scent that surrounds you. Luckily he's not a bad kisser, and his hands roam everywhere you want them to be.
Better the wrong Miller than no Miller at all, your whiskey-soaked brain tells you.
"Always thought you were pretty," he whispers, hands palming your breasts over your shirt. "But you were Joel's from the moment he set eyes on ya, told me so himself. Leave that one alone, she ain't for you.'"
"He didn't want me enough.." your voice cracks as tears spill effortlessly down your cheeks.
"Don't cry," he says gently. "I don't got any tissues with me." He uses his thumb to wipe away your tears. "Still want me to give you a ride home?"
You nod, telling him you need to make a quick trip to the ladies' room to fix your makeup, and in the narrow hallway where the restrooms are hidden from the rest of the bar, you run into Joel.
"Sorry," you mumble, trying to get around him, but he puts his large hand on your shoulder to stop you.
"You gonna take my brother home and fuck him? Then marry some Army jackass?" he says as in disbelief.
You put your guard up, tougher now than you were five years ago. "What I do is my business. By the way, how's Hailey?"
"Who?"
"Don't play dumb." You push past him and start for the women's room to fix your makeup when Joel stops you again.
"You ain't gonna fuck my brother tonight, or any other night, babygirl," he utters.
There's a fire lit under you now. "Oh? What are you, the Morality Police? Fuck off."
"Fuck me," he says. "You know you want to. You're probably wet from Tommy, and I appreciate his gettin' ya ready for me, but I notice the subtler signs: your eyes are glistenin', you've been lickin' your lips every time you look at me, and you probably haven't noticed, but your nipples are pokin' right through your shirt. I bet they're just beggin' for attention, huh?"
He says all this while just standing in front of you, not crowding you like any other guy would. And you realize he's not even trying to rile you up. He's giving you a choice.
"What makes you think I want you? I have a good man who loves me. He's all I need."
"Needs and wants are different, babygirl. Once you're married you're stuck with him til' death. Hope you realize that."
"I'm aware." But it's already hit you: you'll be with Nice Justin for the rest of your life. You'll be a Nice Wife and maintain a Nice Home for the inevitable Nice Kids you'll have. You hate Joel for putting this thought in your head.
"He fuck you like I did?" he asks in an intimate tone.
You shake your head, already pulling him into the restroom with you. "Joel, no one's ever fucked me like you did."
Your body delights in the quick, sweet reunion with him. It's as if time has never separated you, as if both your hearts are whole again. His mouth greedily devours your kisses. He tastes like whiskey and cigarettes, the latter a bad habit. You're shoved into one of the stalls, fumbling with the lock while Joel's hands find their way across your body, one under your shirt, palming your breast, the other going into your jeans, expertly finding your soaked panties, crooking his fingers into your cunt.
Your back is pressed against his broad chest, his cock already hard inside his jeans, rubbing furiously against your lower back until he bends you forward to press against your ass, finally pulling your jeans and panties down in one go.
Too much time has passed for you to be gentle or even careful. He presses you to the stall door, nothing but heat and raw need between you. Words not needed, your only communication grunts and whispered curses that echo against the tiles of the cramped space.
"You ain't takin' no slow and gentle with me, sugar. i ain't got the patience for that right now." He nudges against you and it's a wonder you don't burn up with all the fire that inflames you. After so long it's a labor of love to fit him again, but as his fingers add pressure to your clit you get wetter, opening for him as easily as you did years ago.
"There she is," he says. "Been waitin' for me, been needin' a real man to fill ya up, ain't ya, babygirl?" he huffs in your ear, breath warm against your skin. "Answer me, baby."
"Yes.." your voice comes out in a hiss, your brain only thinking about his cock, the way it stuffs you, the only thing that completes you.
"That's what I thought. These lil' college boys don't know what to do with such a tight, pretty pussy. And neither does your fiance." He hikes one of your legs up, tucking your knee under his arm, keeping you nice and open, watching himself slide in and out of your weeping slit, slamming himself against you as he sinks his thumb into your puckered asshole, eliciting an all-but muffled gasp from you. "I know you called me just so I could listen to them fuckin' ya.. I know you never came with them, not once. This pussy is mine, has been from the very start."
You're no longer a virginal high school grad, and he takes what he wants from you, giving you what he knows you need.
The door opens but he doesn't stop, just quiets his own noises and clamps his hand over your mouth to squelch your sounds. The stall door jiggles and you put your hand over it until the person grumbles and walks away, muttering about having to piss. When they're gone Joel pumps into you relentlessly, chasing his pleasure and yours. He knows by now what will make you come, which combination of touches and kisses make your knees weak and your clit stand at attention.
"Fucking come for me, you little slut," he whispers, his tone almost loving if you didn't know better, and when you let go the pleasure is almost painful. Years of need and pent-up longing are released as your cunt squeezes around his rigid cock, milking him, smiling when you feel the warm spurt of his come as he presses deep at your cervix.
"That's my girl," he says proudly, your come spilling out already, lining his dick with a mix of both of you. "She's wrecked, split wide open like she's meant to be.. gonna send you back to your man drippin' with my come, used up like a good lil' whore."
His words add a sweet sting to the pleasure that has yet to ebb, resounding through your veins like thunder that takes its time in rolling away from the storm. Whore.. well, he's not wrong.
When your heavy breathing has subsided, you feel him start to slip out of you and you put your hand back on his thigh, a silent gesture to hold off.
"Missed you.. needed you," you mutter, tears of joy and relief and heartache brim in your eyes, until you allow the pleasure of the moment to take over without thought or feeling.
"I know.." he says softly, slipping out of you, careful as you're still sensitive.
That could have been the end. You could have gone your separate ways, but you're drawn to each other, and that doesn't go away easily. When you emerge from the rear entrance of the bar, Tommy looks up, and you can tell he expected that you'd end up with Joel instead. He simply nods as you pass him, walking with Joel to the tiny apartment you share with Justin, who's out of town visiting family. And as you and Joel spend the rest of the night locked in each other's embrace, you realize you don't care if he walks in on you, kicks you out, breaks off the engagement. You're with Joel and nothing else matters.
By dawn you wake up to find that he's gone, leaving only the scent of him on the pillow next to you. No note, no explanation, no goodbye. And once again you're sure you only dreamed up Joel Miller, used him as a mental escape for the life you were tying yourself down to.
It's very atypical for you to forgo a period, even at your most stressed, you can count on seeing that bright red stain on the toilet paper around the middle of every month. And when, by mid-July, you haven't even spotted, the first thing you do is take a pregnancy test.
All the men before have been careful, or you've been fortunate enough not to have a scare. But when you finally force yourself to look at the the little blue plus sign developing on the test strip, you realize this is no scare.
You're pregnant with Joel's baby.
The wedding takes place as expected, and your heart sinks when you walk down the aisle, seeing the joy on Justin's face. You've told him the baby is his, and he doesn't doubt it for a moment, that's how much he loves you. But for a fleeting moment you want so bad for it to be Joel at the altar instead.
The ceremony goes by in a blur, as everyone warned you it would. Group pictures are taken, the videographer is capturing the moments that photos alone can't encapsulate.
"Over here, honey!" photographer gets your attention. You barely hear him as you watch a figure walking out, one of the last guests to leave the church. From behind he looks like Joel, but you can't quite tell, and when your eyes fully focus, he's gone, and your own vision can't be trusted.
Tommy gave his regrets that he couldn't attend, and Joel simply never RSVP'd. But in your heart you know it was him, you know he had to come and see for himself that you're moving on, growing up and growing away from him. The only tether you have to him is the baby growing in your belly.
"Front and center, Mrs. Williams," Justin smirks, giving your cheek a soft kiss. "One more picture then we're onto the reception."
March 2009
Your daughter is born in the springtime, a loud and howling child from the moment she leaves you. The only time she's quiet is when she's in your arms.
"We need to decide on a name," Justin says, a little miffed that his daughter cries when he holds her despite his best efforts to soothe her.
"I told you, I like Ophelia," you say, gathering her into your arms to feed her.
"It's such a prissy name. And I can already tell she's not gonna be prissy."
"Then what do you suggest?" you ask tiredly. He doesn't seem to understand you've gone through labor for twenty four hours, only thinking of himself.
"Eleanor, after my mother."
You groan. "I always hated that name."
"Please, babe. It'll make her so happy to have her granddaughter as her namesake."
"Fine. Fine. But her middle name is Ophelia."
"Deal." Justin smiles as he fills out the paperwork.
"Eleanor.." you tell your baby. "But I'm going to call you Ellie."
Your mother once told you that when you become a parent, your life is not your own anymore. She said it as a kind of warning, a prophecy yet to be fulfilled when you were just a pre-teen, rolling your eyes at her warning you away from all kinds of danger.
You never expected she'd be right. Every waking moment holds more weight than ever before. Ellie is completely dependent on you, even as she grows and becomes more independent. It's you she looks to for validation when she does something right, and you she looks to when she knows she's in trouble.
She's smart as a whip, quick with a comeback and well versed in anything she can get her hands on. She excels in sports too-- individually, at first. As she gets older you notice a little bit of a mean streak in her. While she craves friends and wants to be part of a team, she has trouble making connections sometimes.
You have to wonder if part of that comes from Joel, his stubbornness and his lone wolf tendencies. Has he unknowingly passed down the most insecure parts of himself to his daughter? Sorry, his secondborn daughter?
Now there's literal proof of Joel Miller as a person, in human form, and she's trudging upstairs with her field hockey equipment and slamming her bedroom door.
Between the years of 2004 and 2008 you could almost convince yourself that he didn't exist, that he was a figment of your runaway imagination, born of a father complex and attachment issues. You work on yourself in therapy, feeling small as you divulge the innermost secrets of your heart and the intrusive thoughts, even going so far as to reveal that you've looked for Joel on social media, now that everyone has a profile.
Born of an intrusive thought, you type his name into the search bar on Facebook. Getting quite a few findings of those with the same name, you narrow the search. Joel Miller, Austin Texas His company logo comes up as its own page, and you notice it's changed, probably Tommy's idea as Joel never liked change.
Searching further you find his picture. There it is: Joel Miller, Boston Massachusetts
Huh?
You click on his profile while your heart thumps strongly within your ribcage. You wish you could let it out, set it free.
There he is, looking older than the last time you saw him, the grey more prominent in his hair, looking serious in his selfie. Even though it's just a selfie, a random moment in time, you can't help blushing, as if he's looking at you through the screen, appraising your own measure of aging. You wonder what you were doing that exact moment he took the picture.
But your hunger for knowledge needs to be fed, and scrolling down you swear you misread it at first.
Relationship status: Married
There's a roaring in your ears as your mouse hovers over the name next to those words: Tess Servopoulos
From there you check out her profile, see that she's from Detroit, five years younger than Joel. While his profile pic is only of himself, hers shows them together, on a hiking trail somewhere, Joel's arms around her from behind.
You slam the laptop shut, your blood buzzing in your veins. You feel distractingly alive, the heartache spreading through every muscle and nerve ending. Your past is brought to full fucking focus.
Against your better judgment you open the screen again and search through Tess's photos, specifically the ones of Joel. Most of the comments are from a couple of guys named Bill and Frank, who after some digging you come to find are married, and friends with Joel and Tess. You hit the jackpot when you find a video she uploaded, a fifteen-second clip of Joel holding a baby. Your heart stops when you realize the baby isn't his but Sarah's, and he's now a grandfather.
It feels like you're spying on them. You know so much about them by now, and the one glaring omission is children. They don't seem to have any.
Going back to Joel's profile, you hover the mouse dangerously over the Add Friend button. When you click it, it's the strongest rush you've felt in ages.
Weeks later, he hasn't accepted it. The sparkle of your anticipation is dulled, and with a heavy heart you click to cancel the request.
A couple years down the road you get a notification from Facebook Messenger while you're watching Narcos.
Message Request. Sarah Miller Hey! It's been forever! How are you?
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One part that makes me really sad is that arcane used to explore and be centered around Zaun and Pilltover issues but then at the end of season 2 it's totally wiped out, okay everybody is fighting together but what will happen after ? The relationship between both parts of the city (as well as inside of them with the Concilors' deceptions, the rivality of the gangs, and different "eras of leaders" (Vander/Silco/after) etc) has been so complex and confrontational for decades, with pilltover system crushing the undercity without a care, it was really explored in season 1 and at the beggining of season 2 (even episode 7 showed us a different dynamics btwn the two) but then I feel like it was forgotten... like okay they had a common enemy and fought and had losses together but is this really enough to resolve the issues between the two?? Like in practice what will change so they can both be equal after decades of oppression ? Like pilltover system was flipped out by the killing of the council and the undercity at war with itself after Silco's death managed to rally by the imagery of Jinx and revolution, and now after the whole war/hextech thing they can reach a point of change but I need to see it in practice!! Don't we forget that a few episode ago, the "Main Concillor" and her tag team went on a rampage, gassing Zaun, reversing a system put in place by a councillor so they could breathe.... And then she became even more authoritarian, and is she going to face any repercussions for this ? No (I mean none of the characters really do but.. they were all up in arms trying to locate Jinx for what she has done, but for cait well absolutely nothing..)
Like even the hextech was created at first by Jayce and Viktor to improve lives but in the end was first used only by pilltover, and they lost their minds when the undercity got a hold of it (okay they were attacking but you see my point..), then weaponised against zaunites, and then we know what happened... and Viktor got sick in the first place because of this gas in the fissure and that what started the whole transmutation thing....
Anyway, sorry, I'm rambling and totally losing the plot... but what I'm trying to say is that Arcane really used to explore in details the dynamics inside and between the cities and now we don't get any sort of proper closure about it, it's only left to our imagination. Like it was a center storyline and underlying others... And even the end of season 1 left us on a cliffhanger about that, it was also the original dream of Vander, Silco and the sisters' mom... And even tho they gave us an inkling of what might happen, I think they could really explore this further, because it feels like loose ties...
PS: I'm so sorry, I'm so incoherent and my English is bad, I'm just tired so I can't properly explain what I mean but I hope you still got it...
I totally understood what you mean, no worries! One non-English tumblr user to another~
It was such a fairy tale solution. I don't think a few Zaunites joining Enforcers had the power to totally flip the way Piltover looks at them. Remember how they treated Vi at the beginning of the season? Well that doesn't matter anymore. They have a seat at the table now yay. System fixed. No one will be punished for the crimes against the people, because it isn't even established what the crimes are. All we know is that fighting Viktor and Ambessa convinced Zaunites to give up on their revolution. S1 set up the conflict so carefully and explained why it can't be solved easily SO WELL, only for s2 to go and say "skill issue"
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did you think act 2 had a dip in quality when in comes to writing? i've seen so many people complaining and i can't, for the life of me, understand why, apart from people having these really personal expectations that weren't met (vi's pitfighter era being just the montage, caitlyn not spelling out her inner turmoils, isha's entire existence, jinx being family oriented instead of a freedom fighter, sky is also pissing people off lol), and I'm just so confused bc idk if I'm just easier to please, or if my lack of expectations just allowed me to enjoy the story plain and simple
I think there's a fair chance that many of the people complaining didn't watch season 1 until all three acts were released and aren't used to watching Arcane as a week to week experience; a huge percentage of the people in this fandom only joined it around the time they saw an "oil and water" gif set. No shade, of course. I can understand why people weren't jumping to watch women written by Riot, but that does color how you're going to view the pacing of a season.
This very well might be the first time a lot of those complaining built up expectations of where the story would head next, how they'd watch the struggle play out between Zaun and Piltover, only to see things they wanted to watch in depth get covered in a montage.
The fact that a single montage tells us everything we need to know about where Vi is at and what she's been up to is actually good, economical storytelling, but that's not the kind of thing people are used to in most shows. If you go back and watch the pilot of Arcane, so many things happen in that one episode. You get almost a full season of TV in a single 42 minutes of Arcane. A lot of other shows are just filling time, running in place until one of the two or three big moments for the whole season can happen a few episodes later.
That's not how Arcane works now or ever.
I imagine if some people had watched season 1 week to week — with lots of time to imagine what came next while at the edge of their seat — they would have been upset that we never saw the three youngest girls growing up. Act 1 ends with this huge cliffhanger and then we jump an unspecified amount of time into the future. We don't spend time with Vi in jail, we don't actually see any of the trauma alluded to. We don't see the tension in Caitlyn's relationship with her mom and how that plays out over time, which is a pretty huge part of season 2. We don't see Jinx's transformation into the damaged girl she becomes. All of that happens off screen and is only implied.
The techniques people are complaining about this season are exactly the same as last time, when they loved the show. But if you watched everything all at once before — no time to build up an imagined result that didn't pan out — and were reassured by how much you liked the payoff, then maybe you didn't even notice these things that you can hyper analyze while you wait 7 days for the next drop.
Hell, I saw multiple people surprised that introducing tension into Vi and Caitlyn's relationship has already paid off so well because it led to, you know... tension. Some people are so used to shows not doing anything that they are surprised when actually doing things can turn out to be interesting.
I think a lot of the things you say people are complaining about are probably going to be covered in act 3. Jinx has always been family oriented. She only cared for the found family she had with Vander, and then Silco took that place. She didn't give a shit about anyone else working with him, and actively made their lives harder just for fun. It's going to take some effort and time to move her from that pretty self-interested place she's always occupied to being some kind of freedom fighter risking herself for strangers, and Isha was a vital part of getting her there.
I also think there's a really strong chance that isn't even Sky, but rather a manifestation of her created by the Hextech/Void/Whatever that consumed her using her as a puppet to manipulate Viktor into spreading its influence further and faster. But who knows! There's an entire three episodes left and, again, a single episode of Arcane covers so much and always has. None of us can actually know where the stories will be one episode later, let alone three.
Look, for all I know, this might not pan out. We never know if a show is going to stick the landing one season to the next. But they're not really doing anything differently from last time, so I don't see a reason to panic or complain yet.
#arcane spoilers#arcane s2 spoilers#arcane#i know so much of fandom now is also meta#predicting things based on trends#and there ARE things you can predict with this show#but arcane will also just skip far into the future and ignore all the things you were pretty sure you were right about#and i think that's a thing that bothers people too tbh#how can you prove you love the show most if it won't even let you be right about things!#and hey when i write fic i want to think i get to understand the characters enough#that i could theoretically predict their actions#we all get like this#but arcane changes up the circumstances so much so QUICKLY#that suddenly the characters are doing things you never predicted#anonymous#answers
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Arcane s2 Act 2 spoilers below the cut:
Okay so ngl irking seeing Cait with Maddie, but it does fit not only with where Cait is mentally at the time but also flows into Maddie is totally going to die or be revealed as a spy. Also the bootycall nature of it is fully showcased later with Cait's reunion with Vi that clearly shows that her heart is there. That being said, I am glad it was a femme and not a guy
Was not expecting to align with Viktor, especially given that I usually run against religious figures; but he actually seemed to be doing good work and his focus on healing Warwick/Vander definitely helped.
Kinda wish Vi had grabbed the old mining jacket instead of her leather jacket, cause it'd have fit her better imo
Why is everyone getting a hot make-over wtf. Viktor in his Jesus era, Silco in his long-hair ponytail rogue era, Vi & Jinx's mom in her girlboss era, Jayce in his "just went through some shit" era, Mel in her well just her always hot af era, etc.
LOVE that Cait and Vi just can't help but flow into each other, like all of Ambessa's attempted programming gone in the blink of an eye cause the love of Cait's life stumbled into her again xD That's love bitch! Also love how Vi comments that Cait wasn't distracted, cause she definitely isn't. Before I was on the fence about either a Caitvi/Violyn sex scene; now I'm in the "gimme" either it or a morning after one to make up for the Cait and Maddie one
Also can I just say I LOVE Jinx's fighting style/abilities this season, so speedy and also a bit of Devil May Cry trickster vibe to it xD
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jm caitlyn mj jinx body type wise
yepppp also we know mj can serve ex-heroin addict bpd girlie realness from spicy era so she should get dressed as jinx for once i think.
if we talk about personality wise, i think they can still give cait and jinx respectively also mj can give cait too because she, too, would turn to facism if someone killed her mom😭😭also dont jump me but personality wise jm fits jayce too like she tries to be a good leader but theres so many expectations on her shoulders, she is charming enough to be a good front like i can see sm calling jm "woman of the progress" if they were in the arcane universe does this makes sense😭😭
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Double Savage, episode 11 (penultimate episode) thoughts:
1) Jumping to the preview for the finale next week (ha) (I can’t help myself) -- I’m not technically seeing redemption for Dad Beng yet. His trying to give the money for his treatment back to Korn screams of asshole to me. BUT, I’m not gonna put it past New Siwaj to do something dumb LIKE redeem Dad Beng, because of the relative messiness of this episode 11.
2) Ohm and Perth.
Damn. I don’t need to ship them, I don’t need to see them in a BL (but I’m never saying no outright, heh). I want to see them work together again in a stronger, fuller, more honest, more well-developed drama -- maybe like a 10 Years Ticket, or something else with Fon Kanittha directing.
Ohm and Perth saved the first half of this episode. Korn fully owning everything he knew about Win (which we’ll get to in a second) and spitting it back out to Win from last week to now -- I think at least that part was paced well, and the control they both had over their rage against each other was acted out beautifully.
Perth came into his own fully in this episode. He played Win gorgeously, which is to say: he absolutely demonstrated how PATHETIC Win ended up being (Win in his George Constanza moment: “you never loved me?!?!?!” Come awn.)
At the same time. That conversation about how Win suffered vis à vis how Korn was kept close to the family via the mother and Li. That’s not linear. That would have been complicated for a young Win to understand vis à vis the messaging he (Win) was getting from his father. His father saying, Win, you’re the best, and Korn’s a jinx. Mom and Li staying close to Korn, keeping Korn in the family system. I didn’t have enough empathy for that complicated mindset that Win must have suffered under. And then in adulthood, as Li and the mother continued to long for Korn to rejoin the family, while all the pressure was put on Win’s shoulders to be the golden child -- and then Win spitting out “golden child” right back to Korn.
BRILLIANT. That’s my kind of family trauma that I like to see illuminated in the complicated relationships and boundaries that shows like this explore.
We REALLY need to see Perth more outside of BL. He was FANTASTIC. (Yes, I’m excited for Dangerous Romance, but he clearly does family dramas VERY well, and should do more of them.) (I don’t have Never Let Me Go to compare it to, but I heard he was weaker in it.)
3) Film/Rung in her revenge era.
I still do think that the writing of Rung is against her misogynistically. I’m not ENTIRELY sure she needed to sweep in and do all this damage against the ENTIRE family. But: I think Film/Rung played the revenge bit VERY well until the end anyway, and I do think Rung had her own karma come to her, as Korn noted at the memorial hall. I didn’t expect to see her witness Li’s heartbreak over Ah, and how the boys were fighting up until the moment that Li was contemplating the gun, and I think Rung got, at that moment, how much the weight of her entire life, and what had happened in it via Korn’s family, hit her -- I thought that was acted wonderfully by Film.
All three of these actors -- Ohm, Perth, Film -- I’m glad they had this vehicle in Double Savage to go outside their usual GMMTV boundaries to do action/revenge/crime, because they completely killed their roles.
4a) AWL the flashbacks, good lord. As a filmmaking mechanism, I thought they were overused in this episode.
So we find out that Ah and Li had been together, and that they both intended to never tell the brothers. We find out that Win was the one who caused the car accident that killed Rung’s parents (MORE. ON. THIS. IN. A. SECOND.) We find out that Korn and Rung BOTH KNEW ABOUT THAT ACCIDENT, and that’s likely when Korn himself stopped pining for Win as a brother and started to suspect him as a bad cop.
4b) Before I complain about the flashbacks, lemme just say this (ha) as a literal driver of a car who drives everyday (ha) -- Win, BRO, WHAT were you doing passing like that?! HA. I mean. THERE NEEDS TO BE MORE ABOUT THAT ACCIDENT -- at least, I beg of New Siwaj, PLEASE, because -- that was terrible driving, bro! I mean! Swerving your car like that, come awn! Just honk, dude, or like, roll down your window and say something or like, toss a Diet Coke at them, if you want them to go faster! UNLESS you thought you were chasing another car with like, criminals inside or whatever. Bad driving in shows, I would have never expected it! Pleeze, y’all.
ANYWAY. (Thank you for allowing me that moment, ha.) (I swear I don’t do road rage, I SWEAR.) I say there needs to be something about the way Win was driving (WHICH WAS BAD) because that was a big chain of events for Win to lead Rung’s parents down.
4c) In any case, back to the flashbacks -- I honestly don’t think it does us great to leave the rest of the reveals to next week. We need to know HOW Korn and Rung KNEW about Win causing the accident that killed Rung’s parents. As I type that out, I really wonder -- it could NOT have been just by way of Win’s bad driving, but I’m not sure I trust New Siwaj to wrap that up nicely like that, just with bad driving as an excuse and everyone accepting it.
Next week, we’ll clearly learn from Pea/Satang to Rung/Film how Korn helped her during her time on the lam.
And I’m hoping, HOPING, as I thought at the start of the post, that we don’t see a redemption for/from Dad Beng. That’s certainly my inner Asian child crying out for that conclusion.
Because...
5) These flashbacks are taking away the ability for us to see some real emotional growth from the characters. We’re getting hints by, say, the change of colors they’re wearing (thanks to @shortpplfedup for pointing that out to me), and in next week’s preview, we see Rung cleaned up (where did the eyeliner go, gurl). We need to know how things have unspooled, for sure, but -- shit. A LOT HAS HAPPENED TO KORN AND RUNG. We need enough time to know how they’ll end up, and I’m not sure New Siwaj will give us enough time to process it all.
Anyway. Complaints here, and praises there. Ohm/Perth/Film, again, SAVED this episode.
So, eff, omg, next week. Monday: end of Double Savage. Wednesday and Thursday: Our Skyy 2 x Bad Buddy. I’m effed. My heart can’t take much more!
@miscellar -- this one’s for you!
#double savage#double savage the series#double savage meta#ohm pawat#perth tanapon#film rachanun#it'll be a crime if ohm and perth don't act together again
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Through The Eras
It had been three weeks since the… incident at Swan Tower in Eternyx. Wanderlust had somehow managed to keep the whole thing away from his parents, and was planning on keeping it that way.
But at least he had new friends! Brezziana and Mihlay were really cool and fun to be with. Sara was still in her world…
But… he hadn’t seen the one other person that he met that day, and it worried him.
Until he finally found him in the last place he expected
…
Wanderlust sighed as he woke up, Discoball nudging him to sit up.
“Yeah, yeah… I know…” He said, sitting up and rubbing his face, “Right… meeting is today.” He stood, yawning as he went to his vanity and brushed out his hair.
“I still need to call Brezziana… And I need to go to Dancecity tonight… The day is packed.” He said to himself.
Discoball beeped softly, setting themselves on his vanity and looking up at him.
He smiled softly at them, “Yeah… Could be worse! But I really can’t be left to my own devices anymore after that, can I?” He said, going to get his clothes.
They were going to Sun Horizon today. He really didn’t know what it was about, but his father was always going to one Danceverse or another. It was kind of why he preferred staying with his mom, she was able to relax more and didn’t have to go around as much.
He really didn’t know why his parents didn’t live together. His working theory was that their magic combined could destroy a universe if used. But they were able to see each other once in a while, mostly around holidays and whenever there was some type of event… Speaking of, The Showdown was soon and he still didn’t know what he was going to open it with.
Well, either way, no more stalling. He needed to get to the lobby, his father was probably waiting for him.
He quickly braided his hair after he got dressed, weaving his crown into it and running down to the lobby with Discoball.
“Wanderlust! Come on, we need to go!” His father called out.
“Coming!” He yelled back, running down the stairs with Discoball.
“There you are. Come on, we have a meeting in ten minutes.”
“Yes, father.”
That was another reason he preferred his mom’s palace… His father was great, just… emotionally distant from him a lot of his life. He didn't think his father was really capable of strong emotions anyway, but it was a little difficult, especially growing up…
He didn't think his father necessarily understood being burnt out. Or understood being mentally tired, which he was a lot lately from… what happened.
Now wasn't the time to think about it, just go through the meeting, meet up with Brezziana and then Dancecity. Easy!
Hopefully… maybe he just jinxed it.
…
So maybe he ended up jinxing it just a little. Estrella got into a heated discussion with another dancer, from another Danceverse, and he had tried to calm them down… tried. After that, he really just let them talk it out. But Showdown rehearsals were starting soon so he needed to pick up the pace. He opened up with his own performance every year, and every time he tried to make it more interesting than the last… even if it wasn't his own songs a lot of the time.
He didn't put out a lot of music, only recently, and that was Can't Stop The Feeling. Just something he wrote when he was bored, but in a good mood.
The songs He didn't put out were the ones with true meaning. Granted, a lot of them were written when he wasn't feeling great. When he would go through breakups, or family struggles, or so on. He did a few times, but his father warned him that he shouldn't change his public image too much. So he didn't. He stuck with his “feel good” music or love songs. Which he enjoyed writing, but wished he could do more… and that he'd have enough music that it wasn't a shock when he actually sang something original at award events.
Anyway, mixed feelings and slight panic to think of songs aside, he had to go to Brezziana's place.
“When will you be back?” His father asked when they got back to the SpaceTime Hotel.
“Uh… maybe nine? Nine-thirty at the latest.” He said.
“Alright, I'll have dinner for you. Stay safe, okay?”
“I will!” He said, smiling as he opened up a portal, “love you, father!”
“Love you too. Have fun, Wander.”
He quickly went through the portal, sighing. He was already tired.
Discoball beeped as they flew around his head, looking a little worried.
He smiled softly, “It’s fine. I’ll be fine, buddy.” He said, “It’s just whatever she needs and then the city…”
He walked to the beach, where Brezziana told him to meet her at, and he found her almost immediately.
“Hey!” She called out, running up to him. She was still in her Lifeguard uniform, just got off duty.
“Hey, Brezz!” He chuckled, hugging her as she ran up to him, “What’s up?”
“I honestly just… wanted to check up on you.” She said, “I doubt being turned into some type of bird-monster felt good… at all.”
He sighed. He never wanted to talk about it. It messed him up more than he wanted to admit.
“I’m… fine, Brezz, don’t worry-”
“Lies.” She said, “I know it.”
He looked down, “Yeah. Yeah, it wasn’t great. I still think about it… It honestly hurt.” He said, sighing, “But I can’t really think about it. If I do, then it’ll be obvious and I’ll have to tell my parents what really happened, and how I ended up getting someone from a different world here, that we had to jump around Danceverse’s to save coaches, and that I met with Jack Rose… Father won’t be… the most thrilled about that.”
She nodded, “But… it’s nice to be able to talk about it, right? Just… be able to get it out of your system?”
“Well… Yeah, a little, I honestly just don’t often… talk about things that are bothering me.” He said, shrugging, “I'll be fine.”
“Are you sure?”
“I promise!” He smiled, “I'm fine. Don't worry about me.”
She nodded, smiling softly, “if you say so.”
Well… at least he could lie.
“Anyway, what about you?” He asked, “how are you holding up after that?”
…
He spent a little longer with Brezziana than he was expecting, but it was fine. At least he was finally in the city, after this he could curl up and sleep, and hopefully relax tomorrow.
He decided to go up on the paths that people had made on the rooftops. Stay a little more out of sight. He hardly wanted to deal with much more today.
The city was always filled with life, and music, and people always dancing. It was a beautiful place… Just loud. And he didn’t have any more energy for it.
But this was it. He just needed to check on something and he could go and relax. Maybe he’d spend tomorrow writing things.
Until Discoball started beeping like crazy.
“You okay, buddy?” He asked, and watched as they looked over to a roof across from them.
“What is-”
And that’s when he saw Jack Rose for the first time in three weeks.
“What…?”
He was just sitting on a rooftop, a notebook in his hands and looked like he was singing to himself. He looked… peaceful. He actually looked comfortable.
“He’s here…” He said to himself, shaking his head, “What time is it?” He asked, turning to Discoball.
It was 8:30.
This might be his only chance… He needed to take it.
He decided to go to him.
Jack didn’t notice him at first, he was being really quiet, listening to him…
“... I’ve spent forever, wondering if you knew, I was enchanted to meet you~”
It was quiet. Hell, it was barely audible, but… it was really pretty.
“Please don’t be in love with someone else, please don’t have somebody waiting on you…”
It… really didn’t sound like something Jack would write.
So he wondered how much of his own career was Night Swan.
Discoball nudged him slightly, looking at him in annoyance, trying to tell him to hurry up.
He sighed, stepping around the corner…
“Jack?”
He quickly turned around, face softening at realizing who it was.
“Prince Wanderlust…?”
“When did you… get here?” He asked, walking up to him and smiling
“I… managed to leave through one of the portals that you opened.” Jack said, relaxing slightly, “Went with Mihaly. They got me here. So I got my own apartment, and I’ve been staying here since.”
He nodded, “I… I’m sorry I couldn’t find you sooner.” He said, sitting with him.
“I assume you had things to do. You are a Prince, after all.”
“But… I could have at least tried… I kinda thought you were still in Eternyx.”
“At least you did find me, right?”
Wanderlust looked over to him, seeing a soft smile on Jack’s face.
“Yeah… I did.” He said, sighing, “What are you up to, then?”
“Writing some thoughts out.” Jack said, “Might not ever be published, depending on… well… Mother, but it’s nice to just think about these.”
“You don’t want to put them out because of her?”
“I put them out, she finds out, finds where I live. Then what?”
He nodded softly, “I’m sorry that she’s stopping you from it…”
“One day, she won’t be able to… hopefully.” He sighed, “And you? What have you been doing?”
“Uh… Father has been in a lot of meetings, so I’ve been in those…”
“And your mother?”
“I haven’t gotten to stay with her in a while… I think she was also dealing with another part of Night Swan’s mess.”
“Makes sense. Her bullshit probably spreads into every little corner of every Danceverse…” He groaned, “What are the meetings about?”
He shrugged, “Showdown, mostly. Which I still don’t know what I’m going to open with…”
Jack chuckled, “Doubt you could do any of mine and get away with it.”
Wait… that’s not a bad idea!
“I don’t know, what were you humming to yourself when I walked up?” He asked
Jack smiled softly, “It was called ‘Enchanted’. Wrote it when I was about seventeen, one of my favorites from that album…”
“What was it?”
“Speak Now. I got to write it almost entirely on my own…”
He was getting somewhere. He could work with that.
“You have music, don’t you?” Jack asked, “I feel like you do.”
He sighed, “Not as much as I want to… Things I write that can’t be put out.”
“By choice?”
“... Half my choice, half my parents.”
Jack nodded, “I know the feeling.” He sighed, “What do you have, then?”
He lit up slightly. He could… talk about his songs.
He had his notebook on him too! He was able to show him!
The last time he really put out music that was about his life, he was fifteen, when-... he shouldn’t talk about it, or think about it.
He didn’t need to. Jack kept reading through all the words that were in his book, and he would briefly add to each of them…
Until it was finally 9:30.
“Oh- Oh, no, I have to go.” He said, “I can come back tomorrow.”
Jack smiled, “I’d love that. Why not?”
He lit up, standing, “Then I’ll be back.” He said, opening a portal.
“Goodnight, Wanderlust.” Jack said as he turned back to look at the city.
“Night, Jack!” He ran through his portal, going to the lobby of the hotel.
He sighed, and tried to go up to his room…
But once he got upstairs, Discoball beeped disapprovingly, shaking themselves in a way of saying “No” as they redirected him to the kitchen.
“Alright, fine…” He said as he walked to the kitchen, “I honestly forgot, okay?”
Discoball rolled their eyes, and he chuckled, “I’m going to eat, okay?”
He saw a plate sitting on the counter, still semi-warm. He just took it and sat down, thinking.
“Jack liked what I wrote…” He said, half talking to Discoball, half himself, “Maybe he could use it. I doubt most of them will ever be made by me…”
Discoball sat themselves on the table, looking up at him confused.
“It was only once. And I had to lie about it. Both of them thought it was another cover… You don’t know how much I was threatened with being grounded after that show…”
Discoball looked even more confused.
“Talking about how I felt, fifteen years old, about my parents having fights and being sick of it? In public and then getting an award for it? Yeah, they weren’t happy… did feel really good though.” He sighed, “So I probably can’t do what I want to. I’ll let him have it and I’m sure he can do it better than I would…”
“There you are.” His father said, making him jump slightly as he saw him walk into the kitchen, “How was your day? You must’ve been in the city for a while.”
“It was fine. I’m just tired, Brezz decided that I was a good text subject for a class she’s working on.” He said, chuckling, “City was fine… ran into someone I didn’t expect, talked with him for a while.”
“Who was it?”
“Believe it or not, Jack Rose! He’s finally out of Eternyx.”
His father looked stunned, “Seriously?”
“Yeah. I went there a few weeks ago, I got to meet him. He’s honestly really kind, just wanted to write his own music.”
“You… went to Eternyx?”
“Yeah, I heard about something and I wanted to see if it was true. It was just outside of Cygnus. Ran into him. Found him tonight in the city, and he was just happy to be there.”
That was something that only really he knew… He was a good liar.
And his father had no clue that he just told one.
“Wow… Okay then…” He said, “Do you have any idea of what you're going to do for Showdown? That wasn’t touched on today.”
“I have an idea. I’ll go to the rehearsals once they start up.”
Alright. Anyone you want to invite?”
“Mihaly and Brezz, mainly…”
He would have said Jack, but he knew it wouldn’t have ended well.
“Alright. I’ll see what I can do. Your mother will be here in about two weeks.”
He nodded, “Anything going on tomorrow?”
“Not that you have to be involved in. I’ll probably be out before you wake up, if you need anything, the guards and staff will be here.”
Perfect.
“Alright… I’m just going to finish eating and go to sleep.” He said, sighing.
“Sounds good. Goodnight, son.” His father said, turning to go up to his own room.
He sighed, looking back down at Discoball.
“Wouldn’t you be scared of that, too?” He said, chuckling slightly as he finished his food, going to wash his dishes and finally go back to his bed.
He unbraided his hair, sighing in relief as he took out his crown, setting it on his vanity as he went to change clothes.
So… Jack’s songs were an option- a very nice option at that. A peaceful rebellion!
He decided that he’d listen to Enchanted in the morning, while he was making breakfast maybe… Maybe he’d listen to more while he was at it.
So he went to bed, just glad that he had a full day of nothing.
He’d meet with Jack in the afternoon. Give both of them some time.
The next morning…
He found himself still in the kitchen, on his laptop, looking into Jack’s things.
First off, the album covers were really pretty. It seemed all of his tours were in Eternyx until his latest, “1996”. But that was nearly three years ago.
There was one that was different from the others. Lose Yourself, was the title. The imagery was different, the titles were different. It looked like something he fully wrote and made himself, with no input from Night Swan.
Was he listening to Speak Now all morning, though?... Yeah, he was. And after he finished listening to it, did he listen to Enchanted over and over?... yeah.
So it was settled what he was doing for Showdown.
But now, he was going to actually look decent and go to that rooftop to find Jack…
#jack rose jd#wanderlust jd#the traveler#si'ha nova jd#jd brezziana#wanderrose#jack rose x wanderlust#just dance 2024#just dance 2023#Through The Eras JD
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arcane spoilers ! so excited for tomorrow 😩
sometimes i forget sevika watched jinx grow up LMAOOO
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Love and Legacy, Chapter Three!
“I just…I’m sorry. I wanted to come to the lab last night. We need to talk about…”
Jayce trailed off with an unclear gesture. It was hard not to pity him at that moment, but then again there was barely anything to pity him for.
“Don’t forget our work, Jayce. That is all I ask,” Viktor said quietly.
His hand was on Jayce’s arm before he quite realized it. Jayce stared at it a moment before Viktor felt him relax. When he looked up, his eyes were soft.
“V, I won’t. But I’m on the Council now and—”
“What?” Viktor said, cutting off whatever soft thing Jayce was going to say.
“You’re mad, aren’t you?” Jayce said, deflating. “I told you, my mom—”
“It’s not about the lab, Jayce.”
“Then what are you—”
“You ended my life’s—our lives’ work without a thought,” Viktor said.
“I already—”
“Without consulting me,” Viktor continued over Jayce, several hours of stewing on the true problem had only increased his bitterness. “Am I your assistant now?”
“No, V, I don’t think that. I never thought that. You—”
“Then act like it.”
“I…okay. I’m sorry. I just…we need to keep the city safe. Both cities,” Jayce said with a sigh.
Act IV of my Viktor Quartet Series
Fandom: Arcane: League of Legends
Rating: Mature
Chapters: 2/?
Characters: Viktor, Singed, Silco, Jinx, Ekko, Jayce, Mel, Heimerdinger, Caitlyn, Vi
Relationships: Jayce/Viktor, Jayce/Mel, Jayce/Mel/Viktor, Singed & Viktor, Silco & Viktor, Jinx & Viktor, Ekko & Viktor, Jayce & Caitlyn, Silco & Jinx, Minor Cait/Vi
Additional Tags: Angst, Viktor-centric, Author knows a little about League lore, Divorce Era (but short)
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If you had to direct a Scooby Doo movie (or series), what would it be like and what would you include? Which series/era would you take the most inspiration from? Would the mystery/locale be inspired by real events/locations or something totally different?
Ooooh!!! Fun question!!
For both a show and movie I'd take the most inspiration from the renaissance era movies! I'd probably be a bit more mature in audience since i think there's a lot of fun horror potential w Scooby doo, while also keeping the goofier aspects. Also hopefully take inspiration from the renaissance era art too, cause it's seriously so good i wanna eat it.
For a movie specifically I'd have it focus on Mothman! I think that would be really fun and atmospheric! I'm honestly surprised Mothman HASN'T been used yet, cryptids work so well for sd (like ik they technicallyyyy did chupacabra, but it's not like either predominant descriptions of chupacabra, so i don't count it)
Not entirely sure of the plot, but definitely a fun spooky woodsy vibe.
For a series, I've actually thought about it a bit before. I'd have monsters be real, and a well known thing. Common enough to realistically have someone pretend to be one to scare ppl off, but uncommon enough not everyone would be able to spot signs of a fake.
I'd have the gang go around researching monsters, or at least taking an intrest in them, and recording any findings. Some episodes would have people in costumes where the gang is able to recognize fakes based on their monster knowledge, real monsters that they have to deal with in some way, or sometimes monsters they think are fake, but are actually just new or rare ones. Maybe a variation on a common one.
I'd really like at least one scooby snack factory episode, cause I'm a sucker for those, but also to add a personal hc/au of mine. I like to think Scooby is a family name on his mom's side, and that that side of the family founded the scooby snsck company. That episode would be helping out Scoob's mom! There'd also be a moment where the gang is like "wait, does this mean Scooby and his mom have the same name??" And his mom would reveal that his original name was Spooky Doo (ignoring that one comic character, or maybe having Scoob named after him lol), but he changed his name to Scoobert Doo after the Scooby snacks founder. Party cause it suited him better, partly cause he thought the name "Spooky" would jinx him and he'd end up in scary situations lmao.
This fits less, but I'd also like to squeeze in my Scrappy headcanon of him being half alien, and being a magnet to the supernatural. Little revival for him, as a treat. He wouldn't be a main character, but would appear for a few episodes. Always episodes that have real monsters hkvkcjc
I'd also like to squeeze in poly mystery gang if possible, but if not, probably just not feature any romance in the series. It's just never my thing when it comes to sd media tbh. Definitely lots of slice of life moments regardless tho. I'd like to emphasize their familiarity and closeness y'know?
#scooby doo#do u see my vision? hkgjf#thank youu for the ask tho!#definitely been needing an excuse to ramble about my thoughts
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"live" blogging arcane spoilers in a single post but i post it after im done watching
i just started the episode and ALREADY vi is replaced by maddie HELP so obvious shes still not over vi anyways like damn. cope
miss isha is so cute he he i love you isha. reddit could never make me hate you
lest content lets goooo. OMG VIKTOR MENTION YAYYYYY
this is so hype. jail breakkk.
jinx feeling validation for the first time in forever 😭 guys they love her GUYS SHE LOVES ISHA!!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭
this blood thing is awesome. omg like emotions? OH MY GOD?
OH MY GOD ITS VANDER GUYS! IN THE FLESH! THATS YOUR DAD!
next episode. emo lesbian win hell yea. black hair on vi is so good LOL love it. oh no emo lesbian lose :( sadge
sisterly love is when you choke her out <3
caitlyn looks so good with that middle part wow. alucard ass fit (ive never watched castlevania)
omg get mel out of thereuhhh.. omg kino! i dont remember any mention of this guy. to be fair i didnt rewatch all of season 1 before watching any of season 2 :p
boy why you so bubble. you should probably not eat that. the girls are fightingggg
for love? omg his something. daughter? idk.
how did kino never figure out the puzzle shit. hasnt he been down there for years. oh hes like not alive lol. oh hes not kino
yes omg beat their ass mel!
big fan of this bubble shit. me when pearlescent
?????????? OK? who is felicia. shes pregnert. THEYRE SWEET!!! THATS THEIR MOM AWW THEY KNEW EACHOTHER
THEY LOVE EACHOTHER 😭😭😭😭 family reunionnnnn
where is jayce omfg im going to freak out. oh there he is YES YES BEARD JAYCE LETS GO
BAH!!!!!! dont even get me started. ooohh my god dude
AND ME LMFAO. WOW HES SO SEXY LIKE WOW. LIKE WOW. the switch up is so funny. omg hextech saved you! no im fucking sucks this is bad. omg hextech is saving everyone! no it fucking curse this is bad
you seem different HI? GO TO HIM. oh my god dude. where has he even been. i feel batshit btw like im so obsessed with them
sorry. laughed
he looks so stupid sorry. is that his gf wait i forgot what she looks like. yes it is. clouded by emotion until u realized u can like conjure ur dead gf like ok
i wont lie and say that every second something else is on screen im waiting for my viktor content sorry. i like him a lot. thats not to say im not enjoying the rest i just have priorities LMFAO
wrong. not a beast thats a father.
omg theyre going to viktors church cult place yayyyy. THE HERALD WHAT LMFAO could he have chosen a better name for himself
place of peace yeah of course. ugh the building design goes so insane hnnngh. YES ARCANE JESUS I LOVE YOU i was conflicted abt his long hair in the teaser posters or whatver but as soon as he pulled up YUPPPP im in love with him. sorry to the og viktor lovers btw i didnt fw him that crazy in season 1 i was a jayce stan day 1
love the ombre going on here. his outfit goes hard mmm yummers. COOKIE? new slur just dropped. hes so sweetness STOP BRINGING BACK THAT FUCKASS HAIRCUT IN THESE DREAM TYPE SEQUENCES ITS SO BAD
lets gooo vi and jinx cultists era!!! oh no.
viktor based for ever btw
ohhh girl fight. ANGRY OIL SLICK. unreal. ohhh the nickname got her. world is fucked btw.
JAYCEEE JAYCEEE YES YEAY HAHAA YES! YES! itd be cool if they were gay idk lol. just saying
omg girl eat the whole thing dont be wasteful thats just rude.
YAYYY GIRL BOSS beat her ass. OMG JAYCE YAY! can you be kind to that child be gentle go see your bffstie pls YAY YAY YAY!!!!! guys im so hype im so hype
im abt to pass out sorry hes just so everything to me. uh oh YES JINX this is awesome guyz. YAY VANDER hes so awesome i love you vander. uh oh
thats not good. EVERYONE DROPPING DEAD? OR SOMETHING? holy shit dude. holy shit. holy shit. boy why you so lava
FUCK THIS ENDING im killing myself YOU BUILD ME UP JUST TO KNOCK ME DOWN LIKE THIS. something needs to happen ISHA SAVE THE WORLD. wait im scared IM SCARED NOT LIKE THAT NO WAIT WHAT THE FUCK
WHAT THE FUCK
ITS OVER ITS SO OVER. ILL NEVER MAKE IT THIS TIME THIS IS THE END
i take it back.
final thoughts im ending it all they could never make me hate you jayce but this is your fault and im never going to recover
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homage ding 3x
Dragadagdag para sa lahat! LOL.
2009 or 2010 --- the first year I watched RPDR. I don't know where I came across it, but it was on Twitter or Plurk, perhaps. And as the niche comes more alive with a super thickening plot, let's try to curate the scenes in my book, shall we? Side Note: I am fully aware that there are so many controversies about this sub cult, however, it's but another art form on its experimental x postmodern era. Also, I don't like beaucons, pero, eto, pakkkakk. Sumasapak.
Why do I love drag race? The tuck is just so pivotal. And I see the kweens as babylans. Ganern. The duality of these creatures are soooooooo lovely to watch especially when they share their crazy stories that can go south, north, east, and west.
1 Ongina x HIV x Mac Viva Glam Campaign Challenge: This is where RPDR got me. Uwian na.
2 Reveal Violet Chacki: I had an era where plaid and jumpsuits are divine. Actually, until now, I love both! Seeing Violet made me believe there's more to the typical drag race cult.
3 Trixie Mattel and Katya: Super duper loooveee these girls because they don't look typical. And they look good even outside drag. Very butch. Also, they proved that they don't need a title to be on top. Trixie won All Stars naman din, but she remains relevant even now. Ang galing. Katya naman, super culture queen and again, super strong personality.
4 Pearl's nonchalance: Pearl is easily one of the prettiest faces. I think she was the first one who irked RP on air, or is it just me? LOL. What I love best about her is ang gwapo niya and ang chixxx niya talaga kahit walang effort. HOHOHOHOHO.
5 Kandy Muse and Monet X Change: The plus-sized ladies with unapologetic personalities. Periooodddtzzz. As punggok and a towering girl, galing nila magdala tapos very vulnerable and vocal din nila. Very kanal with a twist.
Living vicariously through them because my new body shape as I am fucking aging is like me getting to know me again. JUSQ. Apparently, from pear-shaped na punggok, NASA hourglass body type era na ako. Shemay. Gusto ko ng pabawasan 'tong dibdib kasi mhie, nakaka-ugh siya tignan. Though sabi naman ng tatay kong pakitong-kitong and mga purple people ko, it looks fine. Sabi pa ng tatay ko kung laser sa mukha na basic, anxiety levels ko 1000000x, paano pa pag may turok saka hiwa na. LUH. Hahahahahah. Hassle lang kasi I need to adjust my drips din because alam mo naman. Dati kasi in denial pa ako pero no. Andito na tayo. My body shape now is much like my mom and sa nanay ng nanay ko. For the past three decades, sa side ng dad ko kasi kaya naman, haynakoooow. :((((( 'Di ako insecure sa body shape ko, pero kasi alam mo 'yung naiba na siya tapos sa side pa ng nanay kong dragon. LELS.
6 Symone's Win: One of the ugggh-esst bit of the franchise is no person of color is winning. Ang tagal ko na napapansin neto to the point na parang gusto na lang ni RP na siya lang ba ang POC na may spotlight? There have been rumors na baka kaya nanalo si Symone is pressure and shift din ng power dynamics, socially speaking. All her outfits are soooooo well thought of. Nakakabilib pati her acting skills and everything else.
7 The Vivienne: An ode to Europa, iba ang kweens ng UK. As in. Hahahahahaha. She is such a vibe and very good din siya in representing her breed. Baka need ng deep dive neto kaso 'di naman masyado nage-gets cult nila din.
8 Jinx Monsoon: My baliw-baliw babyyyy. She is soooooo crazy na feeling ko 'may ka-wavelength ako. Pero syempre, living vicariously through her kasi 'di naman ako marunong ng sing, dance atbp. LOL. Everything about her is just magical to the point that I watch content outside the franchise na mga interviews and podcasts niya. LELS.
9 Sasha Velour: Super looooooveee her because her vision and execution are always spot-on. Superlative talaga. And she's known to have no wigs pero pakkkkakkkk na pakkkakk. She's a walking art talaga.
10 Utica: Isa pa 'tong super duper atypical na napaka evident sa Snatch Game na kadire na as Bob Ross. But her sleeping bag runway look is just sooooooo elevated.
11 Gottmik: Isa sa pinaka crush ko kasi naman her story is just sooooo divine. She's also this tiny babe na ang ganda ng voice and sarap pakinggan ng podcast nila ni Violet. Bagay sila pero parehas pasuyo kaya naman, baka naman or baka naman hindi. Hahahahaha. I love her looks pero obvious na ginastusan talaga. My fave looks niya is 'yung runway na 'di umano, USD 8,000-ish dripping in watches, 'yung dalmatian, 'yung parang santo na may sapi, atbp. LOL. 12 Raja: Super crush din because I loveeee that she embraces age and she ages gracefully. HUHUHUHUHU. Gwapo pa in all levels! Very Asian pero poppin'!!! LOL. LUL. Hahahaha. For the PH franchise, I think that it deserves another post because kakatamad mag-isip and watching all sesons para naman mas pakkkkkk. So what? LELS. This is a reminder that the queer life is the best life. Salamat sa lahat ng seasons dahil more than the kanal, kabaklaan, atbp na kadire side, this is a statement. I can't imagine a world where queers are literally crucified, died, and buried. And even when PH is still very tolerant lang rather than acceptant, andyan naman Taiwan or HK e for you know... making things legally binding, just in case. LELS. Hahahahaha. LUH. Let's not go there because alam mo naman. LOL.
And just in case I see my inaanaks and junak-junakans get on the queer game, jusq, ako mismo sasama sa bawat ganaps nila. LOL. Taruhhhh!
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Dance Moms: A New Era: Thoughts (Episode 7)
As usual, spoilers under the cut :)
* Every time Domenica talks it gives me whiplash…love her curls tho
* Oh they’re talking shit about a kid how cute
* Well, Ashlan is spoiled but I still don’t think that was her mistake 😐
* Girl Gina NEEDS to be there sorry not sorry
* Not episode related but my god does this website I’m watching this on SUCK. Guess we’re moving to music free youtube 😔
* Aww happy tears from Bellatrix! :)
* Yay Bellatrix finally got a solo! Also I did not know that name meant “female warrior”
* THE MENU MENTIONED!!
* Girl I would’ve been that head in a heartbeat but good for her
* “I’m a dance mom of course—“ STOP ITTTTT 😭 at least they’re having fun
* “Yes chef!” Ohhh my god lol
* Ashlan absolutely needs a break maybe Domenica ate for once
* Omg of course it’s this fuck ass music
* Ashlan didn’t get in trouble bc of Gina…Gina didn’t fuck up the circle
* “Good for you, Roxce” eat her ass up Gina actually
* Can you not two take your issues with each other on your fucking kids please. Let them fucking talk to each other or this dance is gonna fall apart
* This “cut off their breast” line reminds me of when Abby told the s8 kids what happens to an injured horse and Brady was just “ 🫢 “
* “I’d rather have my butt than my boobs cut off” oh Leilah I can’t with you lol
* Omg Roxce the least you can do is apologize to the kid for being nasty right in front of her 😐 idk if she messed you up or not
* She took her shoes off she means business. Also THANK YOU for not doing this in front of her kid
* *literally not even a minute later* Well…nevermind I guess! :D poor kid
* Lily taking yet another L :(
* “This isn’t a fair team” girl…your kid wasn’t holding her weight I wouldn’t say this is why the team is unfair
* Aww bellatrix and her short hair I love it
* GIRL NOT GINA GETTING A LAST MINUTE SOLO WHERE HAVE I SEEN THIS PLOT BEFORE
* “Cinnamon Paradiso” that is…okay subtitles
* Ugh Gina’s technique is SO GOOD
* Bellatrix’s jacket in her interview is so cute
* Leilah is doing ALL the dangerous stuff I see lol
* You know it’s bad when even Domenica is over it
* Well Jing and Roxce just jinxed the next 7 years of their lives 😭 also damn the producers bought those cute little mirrors for y’all and you’re just gonna throw em 😔
* “Go out there and kick some ass” abby is in the corner having a stroke at that whole interaction
* OMG THE MUSIC ISN’T CUT FROM THIS VIDEO WE’RE SO BACK BABY
* Gina is such a good technical dancer
* It took me way too long to realize what MD stood for
* Oh nope Bellatrix’s music was muted 😔 but the cheers weren’t so this is so awkward!
* Oh no bellatrix fell :/ she did some cool stuff too
* “Yes chef!” 💃 “yes chef!” 🕺
* No one: Lilly: 👁️u👁️
* THE STREAM JUST…CUT THE GROUP DANCE?? IJBOL…GUESS IM GONNA PAUSE AND WATCH THAT RQ
* Ok so update the dance was literally amazing. This was Audrey’s best lead performance + everything that initially went wrong went off without a hitch 👏 this is probably one of my favorite groups so far alongside medium
* Uh oh Bellatrix got 5th
* gina got first slayyy (no one is surprised)
* HELL YEAH 1ST PLACE GROUP
* Holy shit is this the first episode Ashlan didn’t cry??
* Gina deserves a solo at nationals idc
#dance moms#dance moms a new era#dance moms spoilers#dance moms a new era spoilers#gloria hampton#glo hampton
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