#january entry

[innqufocus]

YOTP subject: Raytello January - Historical AU

my entry for the yotp challenge for the month of january featuring an au in which Donnie and his brothers are members of the Hamato ninja clan in feudal-era Japan. they train and live in secret, having been nearly wiped out by their rival clan. one day, Donatello was ambushed by several ninjas of the Oroku clan and just managed to escape with only minor injuries. he’s discovered, separated from his siblings, by a strange forest creature with bioluminescent markings and a soft telepathic voice. to Donatello’s surprise, the entity immediately tends to his wound without regard for its own safety. the gentle creature intrigues Donatello, who’s hesitant to flee after the selflessness the creature showed him. the being introduces itself as Erkleid, a member of an elf-like spirit race that’s been living hidden among humans and mutants for centuries, and whose impulsivity and intellect seems to compliment Donatello’s personality perfectly...

[asuuul]

20230113

I almost cried after seeing my weight. I keep gaining even though I tried restricting. I keep thinking about food and eating. How to stop? How to focus in school instead of foods? I see a point in my course. I adore it but people feel that it's not worth it. I like learning but I don't know if I know how to critical think? I've been up since midnight. My girlfriend is asleep and I missed her. We almost fight again, she's very sweet but I want to talk about problems seriously. If there's nothing to talk about then what's the point. So we are truce.

I am trying to memorize korean words because we have foreign language class in the morning. I have to keep up. I'll write my reflection on WL later. I am so lazy. I am not. I am smart, and top of our class. I study before class so I'll understand it.

I am a great girlfriend who is sweet and deserve of loved. I am a high achiever student that is on fire for learning. Learning is fun and I am smart and I can do anything. I am in control of my thoughts and my mouth. I am loved and I am beautiful. Today is another great day. 

Woke up at almost 11 am. My tita went out with her baby para sunduin si ninong. I’m in class right now and I bought my kkopi and brownies. My cousin made me buy milktea cookies and cream.

Even if I didn’t really focus on my class, I did understand something. I learned about that we have the right to fight back when our human rights are being step on. My Fola class, again I didn’t focus as much because I know its recorded. 

My ninong and tita arrived. I greeted and said I missed him. He brought some pizza! I ate pepporni pizza very yummy. Rather than listening to class I was out of my room playing with my baby cousin. SO cute. 

After class, I exercised for 40 minutes!! I am not complaining. It is hard but it didn’t made me feel lay or tiring after doing it. I will try Le sserafim exercise more.

I’ll read our WL reads then make analysis for it so I can participate. 

I will take a bath after and then clean my room. Exercise again, then do schoolworks. 

exercise

maybe wash bed sheets or tomorrow instead

SOE

ARGu and debate

FOLA

ES

WL

[lonestarflight]

"GEMINI-2 REENTRY-This photograph is an enlargement of a frame from a 16 motion plature ausora swhich was mounted within the GT-2 spaoscraft to take film through the hatch dndow. The spacecraft at this point is in the reantry phase of its return through the earth's atmosphere.

Peak hosting exists on the spacecraft heat shield. The white glow is produced by ionised gases. The groanish tinge to the white glow is probably the contribution of the ablative products (of the heat shield) as they are known to have strong spectral lines in the green region. The bright streaks are probably hot fragments from the dre and tubing fairings located near the heat shield. The altitude is 173,000 feet. The Mach number is 19.0. The inertial velocity is 22,150 feet per second"

Real time video of the re-entry: link

Date: January 19, 1965

NASA ID: S65-13165, S65-13167

[edwardian-girl-next-door]

"I want to taste and glory in each day, and never be afraid to experience pain; and never shut myself up in a numb core of non-feeling, or stop questioning and criticising life and take the easy way out. To learn and think; to think and live; to live and learn; this always, with new insight, new understanding, new love."

~ Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath (6th Jan. 1953)

[rowanisawriter]

10 years, 10 stories

2024 is my 10th year on ao3. i’ve been writing for a lot longer than that and have had some years where i didn’t write anything at all. in a way ao3 is like a timeline for me or a diary, i can track my adult life with it. i wanted to pull like 10 stories that i’ve written over the course of these past 10 years that i think kinda define me

1. fantasy and fallacy (young justice/dc)

this isn’t my most popular young justice fic but it is my favorite. i wrote it a long long time ago and copied it into ao3 when i first got my account. looking back on it now it’s when i started developing what i think is now my true writing voice, focus on emotions and atmosphere rather than dialogue or plot strictly speaking

2. runner (assassin’s creed)

this is the first thing i wrote that felt experimental, free form before i understood what that really meant. i write like this all the time now and love it, but it felt really novel to me at the time

3. lucky one (avatar/legend of korra)

i’m still proud of this fic, i always remember the feeling i had writing it, how i was exploring something really emotional and strange. it’s about the relationship between siblings, jealousy, maybe even hatred. i have a complicated relationship with my own siblings and this story helped me untangle some of the feelings back when i was in the middle of it

4. heretic (bg3)

this story connects a lot of my favorite things about my writing—religious themes, selfish and power hungry characters, flowing and rhythmic prose, it feels like one of The stories for me tbh

5. self aware (mass effect)

i think this is my most important story because i wrote it after a 6 year writing break, when i had completely given up on ever writing anything again. i had just had my baby, i was fighting for my life with post partum depression, covid etc, it felt like the world was ending. so i wrote this and in some ways it fixed me, it fixed everything

6. butterflies (dragon age)

i’ve written so many dragon age fics but this one is important because it was my first multichap ever! i realize now i like these short multichaps where each chapter has its own theme (usually the chapter title) and now i do this all the time but butterflies was the first

7. real world (stardew valley)

not sure where this one came from lol i have a lot of feelings about being a parent, about the life i chose when i became a parent, how tiring it is, how unprepared i was even though i wanted it, all of that is distilled into this fic that i very much wrote for myself

8. starry-eyed (bg3)

i like to read poetry but haven’t written any before, so i try to infuse my writing with the rhythmic style i like to see in poetry. starry-eyed feels like it hit that rhythm i look for while still holding onto some semblance of plot lol i’m very proud of it

9. the fall (hades)

weird writing, allegory, symbolism, mythology, these are my favorite things to read and it just so happens the bible is full of that lol so i rewrote lucifer’s fall as a short thanzag fic and rereading it now feels so natural, i feel like i was born to write like this

10. glass slipper (classics)

i usually prewrite an entire story before posting it. for this one, i had about half down and a vague outline for the rest and it was an experiment kind of, to post and just go with the flow, and it worked, i didn’t abandon it, i felt connected to it the whole time while people read and liked it, and now i feel like i trust myself more as a writer tbh

[toyastales]

Coral, pink, and green are a fascinating color trio.

[faerie-pteri]

sleeping rainbow 💕

[flowercrowncrip]

I just submitted all my evidence for my youth work qualification! Fingers crossed they don’t want me to change anything

[remembertheplunge]

Truly one of the more unique days in my life.

1/9/1990 Tuesday

Truly one of the more unique days in my life. I dunno. Amazing. I wish this pen  could just write and write and write until the whole day was somehow laid out for preservation.  I’d like to take it piece by piece and study it.

1/10/1990

It all revolved around the trial of John Jones and the expertise of my Eye Witness Identification expert. John Jones was found not guilty both counts! Wow! I feel numb, nothing and a tiny inkling of joy. I sat there and started crying (at home, not at work) I felt that my closing argument went well. I feel loss as the characters from this play (the trial) are gone forever, never to be seen again.. I feel a falling feeling. Why? I won. I feel almost guilt, exhaustion. Why am I representing and getting offf bad guys? On the other hand, proud to be involved in a system of trial by fire. You want him (convicted), you work for him. In this case, they didn’t get him. And, it’s nice to think that John Jones is not going to jail. He is not possibly awaiting prison tonight. He’s not in agony or in limbo. I guess that the past few days have been really hard on him. As beautiful as he is physically, he is a  strikingly pathetic figure.. He seemed to own two sweaters, a pair of pants and white high top tennis shoes. He lived in this car for awhile. He lives from woman to woman. He wanted so much for me to believe in him. To accept him. I couldn’t. And, maybe that’s what rips me up the most. To the end, I remained invisible. An extension of him that vanished when its useful purpose was at an end. Like the large claw that fell off there crab in my fish tank. I feel like I did when a play ended. Removed from family and friend.  But, the result is a good result. Worth the brutal fight. A Stanislaus State class watch the whole thing. So, we learned together. 

End of this part of the entry

Notes:  6/11/2024

I had forgotten about every aspect of this trial except for the Eye Witness Identification expert. He flew in for the trial. I think that he stayed in my guest room at my house in Modesto. I know that he went to the gym with me.

I have changed a lot in my approach to practicing criminal law since 1990. I never would say now that I feel guilty for representing bad guys. I represent the individual who has been accused by the state of committing a crime. The state has to prove to a certainty that a crime was committed and my client committed it. The state’s case is on trial. If the state can’t meet the burden of certainty, my client can say and do nothing in defense and prevail. John Jones was not my client’s real name.

Stanislaus State was a college located in Turlock which is about 15 miles south of Modesto, California where the trial was held.

[organised-disaster]

"Professor Sylvia Maxis, one-one oh-one two-six-oh-nine. [Inhale]. It seems I'm not the world's greatest artist, based on yesterday's attempts to draw... [heavy sigh]. I'll be burning my attempts in the newly-discovered fireplace. The chimney is, unfortunately, too narrow to climb. I can't even feel the air from outside. I got a lot of use out of that fireplace before I found it, though, based on all the soot that I'm never getting out of my hair. I've also managed to unlock the bathroom, although some good showering will do me to get this gunk out. I'm finding more and more parts of this bunker lately, and they make me think it's mine. Which is a relief, because I'd hate to come across the body of the chump who was here before me or something! Haha! Haha. Hm. I'm still getting those odd number dreams, but I'll only start writing the numbers down if they keep happening.

...

What's really strange is that my drawings aren't... bad? Like, this isn't what bad art looks like. This is what you'd see if something had never seen another person in its life and tried to mimic one. This is what a person gone wrong looks like. It's like the Uncanny Valley effect. I'd do well as a horror artist, but this...

He's all wrong."

[curioushabitforarivergod]

my history extension major work is like my english extension 2 major work in the fact that my logbook is a complete narrative

[savvyjournaling]

[asuuul]

20230112

Today I woke up at 8:30 and get annoyed because I was suppose to wake up at 6:30. Called my gf with scrowny face, she was getting ready for school. my bad. Ended the call with kisses and goodbye. I hope she’ll have a great like I do. I exercised lol then I did the laundry. Still no breakfast. I cleaned my study table and trying to study for the next class. I dont know what time my class will be. Had class at 10:30 till 12:30. My launch was mac and cheese. It was not good. The dessert was panucha. I don’t think I’m gonna do omad. Something spicy is calling for me. If may tira pa later I’ll eat it for dinner. Next class is LLT and after class I’ll take a bath. I rested for 25 minutes. Still sleepy. Next time I should try to exercise to keep me awake instead. Class was boring as hell because we had to watch the recorded video live but the ice breaker was fun. I took a bath after 2 days. I folded my laundry while watching ginny and georgia. When I finished with the folding, I grab my dinner which was jollibee and rice. So yeah, I was eating and watching. I should not be doing that but I can not stop. I don’t know why I feel like time have been wasted for nonsense because I can’t remember doing anything productive. I remember sleeping so I will be staying up late for sure. I think slept for 1 hour and 30 minutes. It was long and I feel rested. 

I was thinking of buying kkopi so I asked my girlfriend for second opinion, she said no and called my phone. That really made me not buy anything. It is true, a waste of money. I didn’t do any exercise because it’s reakky hard to do one when I am not wearing any bra!!! I did read our lessons before class, that’s productive. Schoolworks? I didn’t do anything unfortunately. 

[heroinerunning]

It's one of the cooler days of January…

January 17th 2023

[toyastales]

A beautiful entry foyer

[cahootings]

I got a five-year journal to try to keep up with and I was just filling in the days and already managed to fuck it up. We love consistency here