#ive re read so many

[avocado62524]

[lbhslefttiddie]

youve heard of sex flowers get ready for the flower that makes you into a celestial shoujo herione complete with particle effects you cannot turn the fuck off and creates a wifebeam so powerful it can incapacitate and maim and keeps making you burst into tears and fall on your ass which makes the wifebeam More Powerful and you also cannot turn this off either. and is also still, sort of, a sex flower

from one of my favorite fanfictions, Celestial Afterglow by elanor_pam, a fic that defies description in the best possible way

[orangechickenpillow]

Howl Pendragon as a character prepared me for Astarion Ancunin and I feel like I can't really explain that to anyone who doesn't just get it like you have to have been there when Howl turned himself into literal goop because his hair was dyed one (1) shade redder than usual

[tonydaddingham]

woahwoahwoah why am i only noticing this now

[m1zisua]

what do i do when everything i write is ass

[oh-to-be-a-bagel]

Dungeon Reset is my favorite comfort manhwa <3 I love these 2 especially. Reading season 3 inspired me 🤩

[faunandfloraas]

Aren't you supposed to bias seungmin? so why do you make gifs of other members

me if it was illegal to make gifs of other members ^^

[intelligentshawties]

halloween slasher x final girl sydcarmy fics pls…

[sainzinnorris]

when @7msc 's carlewis has such an impact on you that you'll take any 4455 interaction as a sign 😮‍💨

[s--strawberry]

its them.

"Let go," Andrew said. "I am not doing this with you right now."

[...]

Neil should let it go, but he needed to understand. "Why not?"

"Because you're too stupid to tell me no," Andrew said.

"And you don't want me to tell you yes?"

[berryblu-soda]

Anyways update i just didnt bother to post earlier:

fr God is good and the whole car crash my parents got into last week was so incredibly mild in terms of injuries!!!! worst was a bruised knee im pretty sure

ALSO-

*taps mic* HUG YOUR FREAKING LOVED ONES OR SO HELP ME!!!!!!!

[pokeybananas]

Please note; This post is not meant to make anyone mad.or offend anyone. At one point I realized I would get offended for the church, which isn't very healthy to be honest. This post is just a reflection of how I view myself and the whole church situation since I left. Feel free to think of me as the aunt you can ask anything to. Whatever you're going through, you're not alone (whether it's because God is with you or no human experience is new) (but seriously, ask for help).

It's really weird looking at the culture of a faith you once sunk so much time and energy into (I'm talking literal YEARS of my life), especially as the leaders start to heavily hint that it's the end times' or that the second coming of Christ is getting close (but mostly it's near end times for the leaders, because they average around 80 years old in age).

I have grown so far beyond them and what I was taught growing up. I've learned that I don't need a man to emotionally or spiritually fulfil me or save me from my sins. That my worth as a woman is not predicated solely on bearing and teaching children. I've known greater peace outside the church than I ever did in (I'm talking my anxiety levels have gone waaaaay down, turns out when you're not super worried about your eternal salvation and sin percentage you need to get into the highest level of the celestial kingdom, you can just focus on being a good person, not to mention not having to have such a handle on your natural man). I see a bunch of the double standards that have been used to confuse people for generations (eg people who call out the leaders getting excommunicated, how nearly all the leaders are related to each other in some way down to the founder, and their careers were all very high paying jobs, never like the manager of a grocery store, and many more). And when you try and step back into that space you feel like you're in a zoo, looking at one of the enclosures, busy with little friends. (Note: I don't mean to call the church a zoo or the members animals, it just best fit the vibe of how I feel so distant from it all now. I'm realizing going back to your old house or hometown might be a better fit but this is the best bit of writing I've done in a long time and I ain't changing it)

You see some members huddled in the corner, whispering amongst each other about The End. Some hunched over, a side effect of a well worn life, and some straighter, not having Father Time beaten them as badly. Their huddle is impenetrable, unless they see the same anxious duty in your eyes.

You see another younger group wearing rainbow and full of hope and enthusiasm, as well as high levels of anxiety, poking and nudging some of the Elders, who sit in a big white building on a hill, waving their hands around excitedly, telling them about all the wonderful things happening outside of the enclosure (the youths, not the elderly). The youth are trying to climb, desperately trying to capture their attention, however The Elderly groan and wave them off. The only changes The Elderly ever make don't seem to be that popular, or are very superficial.

They pay you no mind as they go about their busy lives, but you can't figure out why they're so busy. You're not affected by what's happening (except the DESTRUCTION OF THE SALT LAKE CITY TEMPLE INTERIOR WHICH I WILL NEVER GET OVER THAT'S MY HERITAGE!!!) but it all feels so distant, and so much less loving than the enclosure you were raised in. You wish for the youth to see what's going on and not fall into unhealthy patterns that they were taught. You have a lot of feelings about a lot of things. But mostly just feel peace (AND A BURNING RAGE ABOUT THE SALT LAKE CITY TEMPLE INTERIOR). These, have been your people for as long as the Church has been around.

I will continue to ooz peace and love from the outside, because the Elders and their doctrine never truly accepted me for who I was at my core. I never accepted me for who I was at my core until 2024 (the core of me is gay, apparently pretty gay. Having that awakening is 29 is something, let me tell ya).

I always want to be a beacon of love and hope and peace for others. A listening ear for those who have doubts or need help or a hand for those who need resources. My asks are always open (but my anonymous isn't, I've had someone bully me for my spelling -Jane Austen was also an awful speller, and I'm MUCH better then when I was 14-, or you can DM me directly, I won't make it public) (if you wanna insult me you have to do it publicly)

[ratatatastic]

you can tell who actually came here to fish and knows the horrors of the sun and who is just here for fun silly pr and have no intentions to deep sea fish

[lovekenney]

i have yet to find that fic for gallavich. like i have one for my other fav ship but like i havent found a gallavich fic that left me starstruck like everyone talks abt. i do have a favorite one that i love but it hasnt like affected me to a level people talk abt when talking abt their favs. i think i might of found the one but i still need to finish it lmao

[ronkeyroo]

I know it can be hard to see ourselves and our work through the eyes of another, but if you could, you would be able to see how much we cherish your presence and everything you do. Your value goes of course beyond just what work you put out in the world, but who you are and the energy you share with us. I wish you could see yourself the way we see you. You breath so much life into the work you create and it makes me so happy to see when you're thriving and my heart goes out to see when you struggle. Please always follow your passions and do what makes you the happiest, that will be gift enough for rest of us <3

P.S sending 1000 "<3"s for our favourite wolfy bois, you make me fall in love with them all over again everything your art pops up on my dash ^.^

[cardboard-queen]

i’ve realized that i have a very strong ‘gimme positive stimulation’ response to stress.

i may not even consciously know i’m stressed. but my body will call out to me:

“hey. i need something. i wanna smoke something. drink something. bite something. someone. feel someone. something. anything. now.”

and like. it’s a constant uphill battle, finding ways to re-direct that stress response into healthy coping mechanisms, yknow?

i’ve found exercise is by far the most helpful thing for me. but that’s just like. not practical all the time. i can’t workout at 1 am lol.

neither is removing the source of the stress. sometimes you have some control over it. other times u don’t.

anyway. art kinda helps. journaling helps. stretching and breathing exercises often help. reading is nice but doesn’t make it go away.

i think it’s about re-directing the stress. sitting with it, and putting that energy into something tangible. i think that’s really important for me.