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kingfakey · 1 month ago

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finished the last of my dental appointments to fix my teeth... YIPPEEE!!!! dental phobia conquered, at least for now.

#its not irrational either #the dentist hearing i was strapped to a chair as a child and also had a failed root canal #and he's like yeah no wonder you're scared #THANK YOU!!!!#huge twist of events i'm actually looking forward to the routine stuff in june #bertie will be sooo proud of me :3 #anyway now i'm gonna get stoned and play infinity nikki and submit another job app later #i will have a job for the state by the end of the year i will i will it #/b

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meowuff · 3 months ago

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I have the weird feeling that I have a specific pattern in picking my fav character from any given show...

I wonder what that says about me...

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saturnniidae · 1 year ago

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"I should've seen the signs" I feel like Stoick was basically reliving the way he lost Valka.

To him, after a lifetime of wanting nothing but to kill a dragon, Hiccup's suddenly and inexplicably changed his mind. To him, Hiccup saying he can't kill them is just like when Valka refused to and tried convincing others as well, then as a result was 'killed' by one herself.

To him, way Hiccup tossed his weapon and shield to the side then approached Hookfang while speaking about how dragons aren't what people think they are probably bares an uncomfortable resemblance to the way Valka put down her weapon and stared a dragon in the eyes and as a result was taken.

To him, attempting to do anything but preemptively defend yourself against a dragon will only end in tragedy, so he has to do anything he can to stop Hiccup before it's too late.

(And just like with Valka, he unintentionally escalated the situation by trying to protect Hiccup but only agitated the dragon, causing it to panic and react, inadvertently putting someone he loves in danger. again)

Stoick of course, wasn't acting rationally, but it makes sense when you think about how traumatizing Valka's 'death' must've been for him (and how much Hiccup reminss him of her); he watched her get taken, presumably killed, and couldn't do anything about it.

#THE PARALLEL GHSSHRBFK THE PARALLELS #'so everything in the ring was a trick? a lie?' he was so elated when he though hiccup was finally taking after him #he convinced himself so hard that This was the real hiccup he's finnaly going to be a proper viking a real member of the tribe #and he was so proud and glad he finally had something he could connect with his son over #but again he'd convinced himself of all that. he completely ignored everything hiccup had to say #in his eagerness to actually be a Family to actually bond with his child #he was so stuck with this fake image of Hiccup the Dragon Slayer he'd convinced himself of to the point #when it all fell through he felt almost betrayed #betrayed and scared #scared he made a horrible irrational and emotionally charged decision of essentially disowning his son #im not saying stoicks a good parent. hes not. but hes trying and alone and taking care of an entire village as well as hiccup #and all the unprocessed trauma and emotional repression #hes not great but hes not bad either. hes trying.#hes trying and its not enough but at least it got better #i love stoick #parents of autistic kids they dont understand moment #httyd #stoick the vast #stoick haddock #hiccup haddock #valka haddock #httyd analysis #maybe?#hiccup horrendous haddock iii #haddock family #moth.txt #also pls dont tell me abt how valka and the 2nd movie wasnt planned yet. ik that but i like expanding on things #and pondering a characters reasoning for certain decisions bc its fun and makes them all the more fascinating #post rewatch 1am thoughts go crazy (sorry if any of this is like redundant or confusing. im tired) if u read the tags ily

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goldenguillotines · 21 days ago

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Anyone else feel bad because they see everyone's opens and have to fight the demons of: dude once I reply/rb to this I'm just gonna embarrass myself and everyone's gonna kill me

#its very irrational but im like //scratches the back of my neck and looks into camera #I LIKE PLAYING DOLLS AND HAVING FUN BUT IDK WHY MY BRAIN IS JUST HORRIBLE ABOUT IT LMAO #this is also an apology to rps that ive stopped replying to #either i wanted to crawl in a hole or i forgor (this happens a lot)

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bunnyboy-juice · 5 months ago

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thank gd for those giant rabbits and giant grocery store teddy bears

#this sounds like a shitpost but i am having the Weirdest type of dysphoria i experience #which is Body Too Big (not weight like. i literally want to be this proportions but the size of a stuffed animal/a rabbit)#(also this is dysphoria bc its heavily related to the other dysphoria ive been experiencing recently but im not gonna get into that in tags)#but anyway yeah. thinking of those two things is somehow helping. I don't get it. i don't really care to unpack it either cause it's stoppin #me from having an irrational sobbing fit. i need clothes that are daily use and cute that make me feel like more of a rabbit so i can #get dressed easier in these times. yes the rabbit thing going on with me is a soothing gender thing that's why i prefer being called bunny #over literally everything else (best gender rabbit gender)#anyway. this is nonsense in the tags i feel like. my brains a little salady today too. i can't wait for her to wake up so i can play errands #we gunna go to the store and get stuff for my labs potluck on Monday an im gunna get alcohol c: hehehehehe #(im making coquito for my coworkers and need rum for it aghajfkajskdlsk)

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pcktknife · 1 year ago

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I don't wanna be scared anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#kae.txt #its crazy cause my last neighborhood had maybe not the greatest reputation but i hear one (1) circling helicopter and i start freaking #tf out now #what if theres a guy.what if the police think im the guy.what if the guy goes to my sisters school.what if...its neverending my god. enough #im more scared about break ins now cause im in the house by myself for like 7hrs and then with baby for another 2-3 and what if something #happens i cant defend myself !?! as i recently explained im dying first or second in a horror scenario 😐#its not even like an irrational fear either #well anyways. morning

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skunkes · 1 year ago

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IT IS NEVER TOO LATE TO TRANSITION. THERE ARE PEOPLE IN THEIR 80S TRANSITIONING NOWADAYS, TAKE YOUR TIME <3 <3

thank u, i understand this its just a little hard to continue to cope sumtimes... Like ohh okay i didnt get to grow up a boy... ohhh okay i dont get to be a guy in my 20's either.....ok..........👍.......ok.......

#anonymous #skunk mail #and its irrational bc i usually dont even get sad about this kind of thing #like growing up a guy wouldn't have been any different i still wouldve been alone and friendless #and Getting to Transition Right Now wouldnt be all that different either #bc im still alone and at home all day not talking to anyone anyway #but still. theres a pang. i wish i could do it Now i want my life Now

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morganpdf · 1 year ago

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not 2 be cringe or whatever but i think i may actually have to start blocking/asking mutuals to trigger tag pregnancy in a fetish sense

#morgan.pdf #its always been a weird squick that borders on irrational fear in relation to myself due to (religion) and (transgender)#and like im not kinkshaming or anything like i get the appeal of [redacted] but the minute pregnancy is mentioned . well. the anxiety #ive sort of been like nah it doesnt really matter but now that 'get [x] pregnant' is essentially just a meme at this point #im just like ACK ACK ACK noo. nope.#not me being a hater or anything either i get it & am also h*rny on the internet all the time #this is just a Thing for me </3

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gingaswag · 4 months ago

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a stupid irrational thing i also dont really like/am afraid of is people somehow archiving my really old writing and art and giving it fandom treatment where stuff I might have said like 7 years ago is 'secret lore' of the characters and it isn't

#its always kind of annoyed me when people try to find “hidden lore” for characters #and its either stuff that's obviously no longer considered canon/outdated stuff or an easter egg that also isn't really “canon”#idk whenever i update my characters I get scared solmeone's gonna be like “erm I thought X never did Y!” or be like #“omg X's REAL NAME is Y!!! This is so Hilarious and we will only refer to them as such now”#its an irrational fear for myself but it annoys me to see people do it with other media i guess too.

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dailyoyo · 1 year ago

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i need to think more abouyt roboy. i need to think more anout roboy. i keep forgetting him i dont want to forget him i like him.

#mod noname #not yoyo #its too late at night for me to start rambleposting bc i have work tomorrow #but like. i reread task failed successfully and bluescreen and roboy is barely mentioned in tfs and i tjink Not at all in bs #just realized bluescreen abbreviates to bs. Yeah seems abt right. anyway #and anyway the reason is definitely because me and pseud wrote those early in our hypfix and had not thought much abt roboy #(least of all what his dynamic with yoyo would be)#but still. WE FORGOT ROBOY AUUUURGH.#its not helped that we kind of jokingly hc'd that roboy doesnt get out of the garage much til postgame bc of like. battery lifespan issues #(a decision we made bc roboy is only playable postgame..... Well technically its a second roboy whos playable but we're ignoring that)#so hes kind of getting excluded both in and out of universe?!?!?#irt tfs and bs forgetting roboy you probably could read into it given theyre both yoyo pov and assume YOYO forgot roboy most of the time #or even more uncharitably simply Tends Not To Think About Roboy #which. i may dedicate more thought to that at some point bc it is a fascinating concept to ponder #(EVEN IF IT MAKES YOYO SUPER EXTRA ASSHOLISH LMAO)#but either way the truth of the matter is We Just Forgot........#i guess we could retroactively edit in Acknowledging Roboy More at some point if we felt like it #though i have an irrational aversion to editing my fics after theyre published XD #anyway the point is i need to think more about roboy. i like him and do not want to always forget him.

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trans-yllz · 2 years ago

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so many people have like bad and evil opinions on jiang cheng in one direction or the other its very important to revisit the source material so you don't accidentally get infected with braintot without noticing

#like when I rewatched and realized I had at some point been convinced that he like hated the wen remnants from the beginning #but he's civil to them in the burial mounds and on some level realizes whats happening isn't right #and feels bad that the wen siblings saved him and he's doing nothing in return #he's still being selfish and a coward but the irrational hatred doesn't actually come until jzx is killed #or how ppl often soften his postres anger and grief as if he isn't either always being physically violent or crying. or both.#anyway its very important that you brush up on your jc knowledge every once and awhile. lest you say some stupid ass shit #ghost posts #text #jc

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lateseptemberdawn · 1 year ago

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being mad at my friends is starting to become part of my life again and really idek how to go about that T_T

#but not you echo could never be mad at you #like its not irrational either #i mean /i/ don't think it is #and like it do be exhausting #but i will be taking up these issues w them #in person

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luminarrow · 1 year ago

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nobody understands what its like to live with constant crippling paranoia and fear like "its not real nothings going to happen ur being overdramatic" Damn i know that boss!!! can you make my brain believe that for me

#ive live like this my entire life but it never gets easier #i wish somebody understood me i mean really knows exactly how i feel #but i see it so much just being brushed off as irrational but its liek i know its irrational i just cant help it!!!#i cant control it. i dont know how to make myself better boss #but anyway.. i think thats why i dont get a lot done. if im busy in the day i cant. i spend all night praying i dont die #i cant do anything then either. i wish somebody understood me #sometimes i cant even open the door. or look up. sometimes i cant go outside because im so scared #but nobody understands how terrifying it is for me. im not being silly i cant just get over it. i cant control it.#so i wish people understood #THATS MY POST FOR NOVEMBER !! GUARDS!!! SEND IT!!!!!

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mousegirlheart · 2 years ago

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is there an off switch for emotions? i dont want these

#its either bpd or my emotions are just doing a shit ton of cocaine cos goddamn they go hard and fast #i keep feeling ridiculously irrational feelings about people and its not fair on them or me and i need these feelings GONE

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horrorwebs · 2 years ago

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i hate my best friend earlier i was like "im scared that this guy likes me bc he said something that i would only say to people who i like, but i recognize thats its a normal ass thing to say anyway and i rationally know he does not like me, but still, my brain decided to play with that concept and made me have a terrible nightmare the other night about it and now im subconsciously scared that he will like me ( with the underlying concept of "i am scared of men")" and shell go ohohioo what if youre projecting and its actually YOU that likes him. ????? bitch did you not hear the part about having a dream where he abused me or ...?sometimes being asexual is a nightmare nobody gets it

#and i have actually considered that btw.! and no i dont like him. if i like anyone its someone else entirely.and i dont like them either so #but she did not get it for the most part which i understand my feelings are unconventional and irrational and hard to follow. but i am #quite literally scared of the concept. of a man liking me. of this guy specifically bc we are good friends why ruin it!but just guys in gen #and i dreamt he abused me.....#literal nightmare i woke up scared and confused all bc my brain hates ne #anyway. she wants to have a gotcha moment so bad #like i said before. no its not about projecting and being scared of liking him #its about being scared that someone who i care about sees me in a way i dont and demands things from me i am not willing to give #+ someone being intimidating by having more experience compared to my 0 amount #+ feeling a bit intimiddated that my new friend group will find me immature as i am the youngest one #theres a lot of complicated feelings and a lot of confusing things bc of my asexuality but she sometimes doesnt get it #its not rly about liking him. also if i do in the future i wont really give myself a headache about it ive decided to stop worrying #about things like that it never helps.#anyway this is the friend i was hopelessly in love with and i can safely say i am over her now [tangent]#anyway. idk. sometimes i feel so stupid but this fear was idk a bit more than justa silly highschool 'what if i like them'and more #'what if the people i meet want to take advantage of me and i cant learn to say no' + 'what if i have a way of self sabotaging perfectly #good friendships by implanting irrational fears into them via dream' ?#you know. a bit more heavy #idk if anyone reads my rants id you doo cool thanks but whatever this is my diary maybe i should go nack to the psychologist idk #spikeposting

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tigercomplex · 6 days ago

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#out of the blue spiral ahead #my desire to give benefit of the doubt to everyone and be friendly with people gets seriously strained every time i think of an old coworke #(early 40s with a child. does not look past mid 30s)#who i still want to like #asking me out over the phone after i had already been let go from the job (presumably so he could avoid the possibility of going through hr #and coincidentally on the day i did my first t shot #and later when i returned to that job for a season. a newer coworker i got along with made an offhand comment about the guy #i convinced him to gossip a bit and apparently when it was just them two the guy would make in his words 'gross' comments towards girls #then this guy would talk about an upcoming trip to japan. he seemed to be a bit fixated on japan. could be innocuous.#and one day he was talking about something and asked my age but he guessed like 19.#if i take that seriously it means he thought i was 16/17 the first time i worked there.#he's friends with the current manager outside of work and apparently goes to her house and they drink together. which is fine she's grown #but its also like does she know #wow typing all that out makes my goodwill become even more strained #i keep thinking 'is my level of suspicion and discomfort reasonable or is this the irrational hate of anyone who looks at me again'#it's... weird maybe i should put it behind me but it's like #that is my local mall. that i shop at sometimes.#and the newer coworker seemed like he wanted to be continued acquaintances with me but never asked for contact information and like #a co-op game is coming out soon that i genuinely want to play. but its either 3 or 1 players only. and he was excited to play #wanted us to be a 3-stack #and you know. i want to play games with people. i'm open to making friends. but i'd rather this situation not be like this

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