#its my blog and it MY turn to talk about my mental illness

[punk-octo]

Mental illness is so funny because ill be like "wow I really want to die" and turns out I just needed water and it to rain

[kkoct-ik]

is there anyone who has recovered from dissociative / cptsd who follows me i need to get some thoughts straight

[succubi-tch]

Thinking about the last roommate I had and how I wasn't allowed to use any sort of cleaning chemical in our dorm because she had some fuckass pet bird that if it inhaled a micron of Human Created Product it would fucking die

And evidently our counters were always dirty (and/or she was a fucking slob, cause her fat ass was) because a few times after I'd put ice in my tumbler for the day. The water would start to fucking taste like onions?? And I thought I was tripping for the first few days

Until I saw her nasty ass cutting up scallions, leaving them on the counter, and realizing one must've gotten stuck to the bottom of my fucking ice tray that I then stacked on top of another ice tray to save space in the freezer for her. 💀

I fished a scallion chunk out of my water tumbler that day. She thought it was hilarious and lost it and I also kind of laughed just so it wouldn't drive me insane, but hindsight? I should have just killed her to avoid literally everything (instigated by her) that precipitated the onion water incident.

[meanbossart]

i just need to take a second to gush about how much i love durge drow and astarion, they feel so fleshed out and perfectly written together in their fucked up wretched ways. They really inspire me to write more for my own tavs, hopefully one day ill be able to say im as happy with my own work as i get when seeing yours. I have to ask though, do you have any tips on drawing head shapes and faces? or maybe about wrinkles? i find i really struggle with that stuff when drawing and i adore how expressive and grungey all your art looks!

First of all thank you so much, I love hearing what people think of the two of them together 😭

Honestly you've hit on something that's quite near and dear to my heart, I love developing and figuring how to draw and stylize different faces to get the most unique, interesting looking results - everything about the details is highly rewarding to me. What does x type of nose look like from this angle? In this style? How can this eyeshape best translate to my art? How different does a face look when its making this expression? What does that MOUTH DO? etc etc.

In fact you kind of inspired me to put a little tutorial/guide together the last hour lmao and what a blessing it is that the two current subjects of this blog serve as great models here, being that their faces are basically polar opposites!

When it comes to heads, you've probably heard it a dozen times before that you want to think of them in terms of geometry and facets; my process to drawing them is pretty conventional so I won't spend too much time on it, but it goes something like this:

Obviously I don't do every single one of these steps most of the time, which is just something that comes from practice/developing muscle memory, but it is helpful to start off this way for two main reasons:

By making these guide lines and splitting a head into pieces like this, you'll have an easier time seeing and understanding it as a multidimensional object, and in turn, facilitate It for you when you venture out into doing wacky angles and lighting.

Making different headshapes starts HERE. notice how Astarion's "face" slate is narrower and longer, how my durge's jaw pieces sit lower on the head, how all of the same pieces came together in the same way but we ended up with one real pointy elf and a real brick of a drow - making characters look different successfully begins very early in the sketching process.

The next thing you want to do branches out into every day life: start noticing yours and other people's facial features. How does an upturned nose look from a high angle? How does the size of someone's cheekbones affect what they look like when they smile? How about when the light hits them a certain way? Does someone's lip shape changes when they pout? When they laugh? How does a person's hairline change the shape of their face? You do NOT need to creepily sketch every stranger you see on the bus, but get into the habit of actually noticing what people look like when you talk to them - when you look at pictures, when you watch movies - make a mental list of interesting ways mouths, noses, and eyes can come together in a variety of different proportions to make completely distinct looking mugs, and how they change depending on how you are looking at them.

Light and shadow play a HUGE role in how faces look, too, basically as crucial as actual bone structure does. As you see up there I tried to rough out how natural, head on, and underhead light would look on these two very different looking guys, and while we can see definite patterns, there are small differences that come to be because of the sizes and shapes of their features.

Here is a very, very basic look at how some of these features come to look the way they do, how they interact with one another, and how they compare between a blocky, rather conventionally "masculine" head and one that's much softer and slimmer.

Note please that it is not one or two characteristics that give a chaarcter their "look"; you can reduce a face to eyes, mouth, and nose through stylization and still have them be recognizable, but if you want to do more than that, you have to consider the whole package! Chin, cheeks, brows, direction of the jaw, slope and size of the forehead, depth of eyes, ridge of the nose, etc - I know this is probably far more than you bargained for, but if you start making note of a FEW of these things now and slowly add on, this will eventually become second nature to you.

Similarly, understanding how these characteristics come together will help you with rendering light and shadow in a realistic way, and predicting what their facial expressions may look like - if no two people are alike, neither are their smiles. :)

Lastly, remember that I'm no expert - I have developed my own methods and semiotics and yours may look slightly (or vastly) different, and that's fine! I hope only that by sharing this it has given you a base to work off of.

Anyways, I HOPE this has been helpful and not just the unsolicited ramblings of a face pervert.

[patricia-taxxon]

the discussion of "good representation" kind of falls apart when talking about media made by and for the group being represented. like, echo has a bunch of evil horrible gay people that (deliberately?) play on homophobic tropes and archetypes, but its for gay men. asking whether its "good queer representation" or not just doesn't make any sense, representation for who?

i am not the first person to say this (i am paraphrasing thoughts ive seen elsewhere) but i wanna apply this lens to the idea of "glamorizing" mental illness/disability/trauma or whatever. like, on this blog ive been known to make it seem a little cute to be an autistic child who was treated like a dog growing up, and i haven't felt the need to tack on disclaimers about how much my disability & the resulting abuse has ruined my fucking life lest i accidentally glorify or commodify my own mental illnesses. but like, glorifying to who? judging from the engagement i get, statistically, you're all autistic puppies as well.

i do kinda get it, i receive comments from autistic people who specifically hate that i make autism cute, that i made my abuse cute. like its disrespectful, i'm making light of it, i'm turning it into a vibe, an aesthetic. i disagree. i don't want to make autism appealing to neurotypical people, i want to make it appealing to myself.

[vvh0adie]

watching my friends leave tumblr is really sad

you literally can't win

at this point the writer's strike should just be a cultural movement

like ppl are writing for FREE and you're complaining about turn out rate and shit

we have lives and some of us (HELL ALL OF US) have some form of mental illness, so we can't be fucking cogs all day and churn out fics.

writing is suppose to be therapeutic and writers want to share that with you to ease the tension of this hellscape we live in

but some of these readers and even fellow writers are taking it too far with the bullying

like its mean and nasty. you don't know what someone is going thru.

instead of asking for updates how about check and see if your writer is mentally stable to do so. that right there is a booster, to have someone say "are you okay?"

and then the whole accusations of favoring a certain member/character. if that person is my muse or safe space then of course imma write for them. most solo writers i see don't even talk bad about other people. its a SOLO account. think of it as a shrine blog of writing if that helps. they're not there to trash, just share their writing for other's who might also share the same muse.

then you have readers who can't separate fiction from reality. just because someone writes a character with irl people faceclaimed onto them doesnt mean they actually think that person would be or do those things irl. i'll be the first to say that i only gave my characters bts faces cuz thats who im attracted to and they're who i imagine would be casted to play my characters.

then IN THE YEAR OF 2023 we still have ppl making fun of their peers writing and also THE FACT THAT ENGLISH MIGHT NOT BE THEIR FIRST LANGUAGE? that's nasty asf. majority of us dont even speak 'proper' english as our first language no way. you only shooting yourself in the foot. don't act like you dont have beta readers... like what are yall on?

and anybody who gets on THAT BLOG behind anon is an opp. not just to the writing community but in how you interact with the world all together. yall don't know how to talk to people anymore? it may have started as a place for critique and accountability but no one is bringing receipts or critical thinking anymore. its mainly for drama and not rehabilitation. yall serious scare me in how we'd see the reality of social change applied to the real world. like i'd be more scared to let yall around the prisoners with minor offenses cuz yall act like its the end of the world and that change cant happen. yall give nobody room to change ignorant stances but ignore the real egregious shit because you honestly dont have the bandwidth to take on actual fascist views.

also the plagiarism has got to stop too. if you need writing resources just ask. but practice makes perfect. so you're gonna have to write yourself. you may not like your writers voice but you will feel shitty in the long run when you don't feel like its you putting those words on the paper. it literally just prolongs your inferiority. make something you're proud of and don't hurt your fellow writers. we went thru the process just like you. we earned it. and most of us aren't gatekeepers, we will help you.

like its really tuff being on here sometimes. cuz if you not being hounded by readers its your own community praying on your down fall.

we have to do better.

[bleep-bloop-boo]

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hihihihihihhihihi WELCOME TO MY VERY AMAZING AND TOTALY NOT CHAOTIC MESS OF A BLOG :DD IM PRETTY FRIENDLY, COME SAY HI!!! OPEN TO ALL appropriate ASKS AND DMS!!! This is a big mess of all my interests hehe Reblog heavyyy i love making friends so plss flood my DMs, i love meeting ppl (i will act weird tho, this is a warning) esp to give me recs for books/shows/media in general I thrive on chaos. PLEASE GIVE ME RANDOM ASKS PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEEE spam me MY DMS ARE ALWAYS OPEN IF ANYONE WANTS TO VENT!!! (i may not be the best at comforting but I can listen <33)

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follow @evilforestcult for my chaotic ADHD with @fairyycoffin godly mysteries AND @i-eat-so-much-grass gremlin vibes

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☁︎ You can call me Honey! Or any other nicknames! I LOVE NAMES THAT MAKE NO SENSE <333 ☁︎ Pronouns: she/her ☁︎ Age: I'm a minor (no being weird okay?) and heading to 10th grade! ☁︎ Time Zone: PST (im a california gurl, yes, i am ✨magical✨)

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✰ Percy Jackson (Books) ✰ School Bus Graveyard (Webtoon) ✰ Owl House (Show) ✰ Your Turn to Die (Video Game) ✰ Gravity Falls (Show) ✰ Avatar the Last Airbender (Show) ✰ Hunger Games (Books) ✰ Miraculous Ladybug (Show) ✰ Homesick (Webtoon) ✰ Doki-Doki Literature Club (Video Game) ✰Jackson's Diary (Webtoon) IF YOU KNOW/LIKE ANY OF THEM SCREAM AT ME PLEASE, ILL SCREAM BACK PROLLY!!! WE CAN BE A BUNCH OF SQUAWKING CROWS TOGETHER!!!

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I'm an ENFP (mbti nerd hehe)

Hufflepuff <33

Can't spell... Good luck figuring out what im saying!

very deranged when prompted

MENTAL HEALTH ADVOCATE (abelists, pls DNI)

GIANT ALLY (homophobes/transphobes, pls DNI)

Hyperactive and very random! (lemme know if you're overwhelmed by that sorta stuff, ill try to tone it down :) )

Chatterbox! Love talking, just can't start conversations! DM or send me asks though!

very very curious, love talking to ppl about studies and fun facts

Character my friends associate me with and I relate to the most: Luz Noceda from the Owl House

My vibes are all over the place- (im emo, cutesy, and chaotic)

I MISS TONS OF SOCIAL CUESS!!! I'm trying to work on it but if i ever overstep my boundaries or make you uncomfy, pleasee let me know <33 im just a bit oblivious sometimes

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My amazing moots! You all make me so happy :DD (pleaseee remind me to add you or take you off <33 ) @ashthenerdtheythem @y0urnewstepp4r3nt @whyamionthisgodforsakensite @queen-of-weird-girl-nation @boredcoldandhungry @nosanehumanallowed @roselandsrl @apollocabinrep @mybedroomceilingsbored @gay--gh0st @catinasink @redmegarex @chaoticgremlin-1 @totalcharliespringsimp @cabin-7-bitch @lunarcat982 @chriscrosswallflower-blog @obsessingoverl @pretentious-media @small-giggle @rose-bug-bear @aheartstopperfan @dandelionsarenotweeds @rookhuntt @i-eat-so-much-grass @justafrogghost @fairyycoffin @th3-st4r-gur1 @brains-out-rn @arsenic-laced-tums @dracosleftarsecheek @boba-pearl @tarantulaluv @rainydaywithcats @touslin @gay-little-isopod @ali-da-demon @kairos-in-space

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Okieeee I THINK THATS IT :OO i am done aesthicifyingfjhjjendndjfgh my into post!! I have no tagging system so uhhhhh my blog is pretty much the equivalent of screaming into the void :)) Have fun in my little corner of chaos and pleaseeeeeeee say hi, i love talking with ppl and making friends!!!

Thanks for reading! (its a lot, ik, i blabber, i tried to bold key parts) Boop! Bye <33

[evil-mcytblrconfessions]

honestly i just wanted to make a confessions blog. i have no clue if this is an original or even acceptable idea (im sorry if its not. thats why im not linking this to my main haha)

AHEM. do you love @mcytblrconfessions (unaffiliated)? do you get sad when they turn their asks off because theyve got a fucktonne of them (which is very valid, this is not me being upset at them for doing so)? do you wish that said blog was run by one (1) unstable dsmp fan who definitely doesnt write hermitcraft rpf? well too bad for you about that last one.

THIS IS THE BLOG WHERE ALL OF THAT IS REAL! why is this evil? i dont fucking know; it just is. send in all of your confessions (vaguely) related to mcyt! honestly if you send in something completely unrelated but i find it funny ill still post it bcs idk why not

i am fully expecting to just fucking die within a week. tumblrs already ruined my mental health; lets go for round 2 WOOOO

im your host cedar (pronounced like cheddar) and welcome to making bad decisions with me !

actually important stuff (im gonna pin this post):

- we do polls now apparently. add the 🗳️ emoji to your ask and yeah a poll will appear

- i will be stealing parts of mcytblrconfessions tagging system. PARTS.

- this blogs asks will be open WHENEVER mcytblrconfessions asks are closed. no matter how many asks i have in the inbox. theyll be thrown in queue and answered whenever.

- this blog is only evil because its funny ! please do not be a deplorable person! do not send in things such as: discourse-related, nsfw, drama/ragebaiting, being a fucking weirdo. just. yeah, use common sense please <3 there is non-zero chance that i will just block you <3

- PLEASE mention at least once the thing/person youre talking abt so i can tag it correctly! this doesnt rly apply to duo names or ships, youre fine just mentioning their names and ill tag the proper group or ship. this applies to ccs and series. i dont know which blorbo or series youre talking abt unless you SPECIFY! even if ive demonstrably shown that i know what the thing is, SPECIFY! i am not telepathic yet. (does not apply to being intentionally ominous/vague.)

- yes thats a squishmallow in the pfp; hir name is éloïse.

[dark-type-appreciator]

Intro post! :3

Hello! Like my description says, I'm Liam! I'm 16 and I found this website a while back and decided to finally make an account!!! I really like dark type pokemon (bet you could guess that XD), and I'm always open to talk about them! I also really like other catmons ^w^ curse of being a warrior skitties fan I guess...

I also like drawing, warrior skitties, and roleplaying! I have other interests but those are my main ones! I play games sometimes, but I'm not very good at them x_x

I'm not really a pokemon trainer… I only have one pokemon haha! His name is Goldie, and he's a purrloin! He's kind of a cranky old man but he loves me!

umm, what else? I get confused sometimes, please be patient, I'm autistic (and other things). Same goes the other way around!! If u need me to rephrase something, please tell me! Also i misspell things a lot, auto correct is my best friend. Hopefully its not too bad!

Oh! Also I am a furry! :3 I almost forgot to mention that asjhdjahs

Here's my pokesona!

not the best reference, it's kinda old... Maybe I'll redo it someday!

Also- if we're friends, pls tag any bug types!… I have a really bad phobia of them, and I don't wanna see them at all. Thank you!!!

also- look look look!!

They're friends.. :3

[OOC under the cut]

Hello! Actias/moth (@act11as) here with a new blog! On a different account! Wowie! Follows will come from here, of course! Once again, general unreality warning! Out of character posts will be green, and tagged as #ooc and #Moth's yapping to avoid confusion.

‼ This blog will have heavy themes including mental illness, gaslighting, (witnessed) domestic abuse, emotional abuse, child neglect, Past physical abuse, and generally dysfunctional and unhealthy family and friend dynamics ‼

Everything will be tagged (and please tell me if I missed something!) But please be safe when interacting!

This blog is heavily connected to @sound-type-advocate, highly recommend following if you want the full story.

Boundaries, and so on!

No NSFW or suggestive things! Both the muse and mod are minors. Don't be a fuckin' weirdo. *Almost any kind of blog is allowed to interact! Sentient Pokemon, Eeby Deebies, Evil teams, fallers, etc! *Self-Insert fallers, please do not interact. I personally cannot handle these kinds of blogs. Self-insert ocs are fine, but the idea of a real person on rotomblr being isekaid into Pokémon is not. (Liam will likely not believe you for a while- unless he has significant reason to. He'll think it's a roleplayer, otherkin, or something like that. He will be willing to play along though!) In-Character Anon hate is allowed! Feel free to bully him, but remember that I'm not obligated to answer everything! Pelipper Mail, un-mail, and Malice are off currently! You may be able to convince him to turn it on! Mystery Gifts are closed! Though if this and Pelipper mail were to open, this one is preferred! Musharna mail, and Musharna malice are always on! Magic anons are off.

Organizational Tags! (HOW DID I FORGET FOR SO LONG)

Liam Chatters - General post tag! As long as he's saying something in the text portion, it'll be tagged. Reblog! ^w^ - Reblog tag. Pretty self explanatory Future Sight (queue) - Queued posts tag! Again pretty self explanatory. Liam used Doodle! - Art tag! Liam's art will be tagged as this, for those who want to see it. Foresight - Out of character tag. It marks posts that will potentially be important in the future. This can range from his opinions on things to heavy lore posts! Good tag to read through if you think you're missing something!

Friend Tags! (Tags for friends!)

#Tari mention - tag for Tari from @/pokemoncryptids #faith is friending - tag for Faith from @/faithispokemoning #rare sprig appearance - Tag for Sprig... Who does not have a public account! they're Liam's friend however.

ONGOING ARCS:

Nothing named!

PAST ARCS/EVENTS:

#Lucy Strikes! - One of Liam's friends stole his phone while they were supposed to be visiting. General warnings for bullying. #Mask Off Arc - Shorter arc involving the aftermath of the previous event. Liam started to open up a little more, and hey! Mask reveal! (subject to be renamed, could be used for something more important currently)

Blocklist:

These are blogs Liam has blocked in-character! usually for lore reasons! these are not blogs that have personally been blocked, feel free to interact on anon if you're on this list!

@/tinkatinktrain

@/sound-type-advocate

[puppy-earz]

Welcome to my age/pet regression blog!

Welcome to my new age/pet regression blog! This blog is strictly made for posts about age/pet regression, with the occasional announcement as needed.

On this account, I post both requests and my own ideas! (moodboards, stimboards, outfit inspo, little/cg scenarios, userboxes, paci icons, headcanons, conversation cards, and many other things). If you want to send me a request, please read my request rules (click) and DNI!

Get to know me!

My name is Hildri, or as some of you have known me as Rory! I've turned 19 as of July 30th, and I'm both a pet and age regressor! However, I don't regress very often anymore unless it is involuntary. I use it/its pronouns along with some neopronouns that can be found on my pronouns page (click). I am also an artist and disabled! At some point, I'd like to start taking emoji requests and make my own!

I have a very loving boyfriend, whom I appreciate and love with all my heart. I'm very open to making friends, as well! However, if you do wish to become friends, please message me with a good conversation starter (I'm awful at small talk, I'm sorry)!

Once I have finished my carrd, I will add it to this post. Until then, you can refer to my main account's carrd (click). cw: possible bright imagery

Before you follow...

This account is a side-blog! Meaning I will not be incredibly active on this account. If you need to get in contact with me, please refer to my carrd or message me on my main blog (click).

I will not be placing content warnings (cw) or trigger warnings (tw) on posts that contain talk or imagery of food, drinks, periods (no imagery), mental health, chronic illness, or miniscule cussing.

Any venting will not be on this account!

Do not interact...

Do not interact or follow this account if you fall under the following: basic DNI criteria (click), NSFW, gore, DDLG/ageplay/CGL/ABDL & their variants, pro-eating disorders/self-harm & thinspo, bodily younger than 13 or over 30, minor in kink & their supporters, anti-agere/petre/furry/kemonomimi/therian/otherkin, and proship.

This account is 100% safe for work! If you wouldn't show a child the content on your account, then this account isn't for you!

This DNI is subject to change.

Hashtag Key

#puppz guidelines - DNI, BYF, request rules, etc.

#little puppz - Content relating to age regression/dreaming

#little animalz - Content relating to pet regression/dreaming

#educated pup - Content related to age/pet regression or other education

#puppz asks - Answers to non-request related asks

Hashtags are subject to change.

[kerubimcrepin]

Live-Read: The Remington Comic [PART 1]

(but only the bits with Joris)

While I usually try to go about this blog in an in-universe chronological way, I have to jump forward to Wakfu era here — because the next stop in this blog's plan is the actual, released games of the franchise. Which will take around... a million years, I assume?

TOME 10

Worlds most mentally stable demigod. This excerpt from Otakia is included for my Ush-loving readers, and also to give some context: this guy is keeping some of Remington's besties captive, besides turning his brother into a cat.

"Wait… you're taking me to a… bazaar? am I dreaming?" "Pff… wait till you see what's inside."

In the past tome of this comic, Remington and Grany received a tip, that there exists a magical item that can help them, and an address to a shop, as well as the name "Beating Heart".

ALSO. The store has door chimes. Cute.

"Anyone?" "Yeah, I've seen enough." "They have potions, at least." "Grrr..." "What is that thing?" "??"

They don't seem to really like the place, lol.

"Let's see… "The Treasures of Kerubim"… O.K… We're looking for someone called "Beating Heart."" "Is he the owner of this store?" "Anyone home?" "If we can't find this clown, we could compensate ourselves for the trip." "Hello, sir."

SDGJSAHGUISREHGVDSFHGHHAFGSDFKJGDKSFGSDFGSFDHJS

If you think this is awkward, don't worry. It gets worse from here. Also — apparently, the name of the series is officially the name of the store. The more you know!

Well done little fella… You managed to surprise us.

AND YES. They use tu/toi for the., the 600yo ambassador of Bonta. who is also the owner of the store. who also just overheard them discussing shoplifting.

We're looking for a guy named… sir Beating Heart. Y'know him? Maybe that's your father? It is not my father… It is an object. And… the owner of this store, then? Where is he? In front of you. ... So… uh… you say "beating heart" is an object. Sure. And... could we perhaps see it, that beating heart?

HE'S SO FUCKING DONE ALREADY. he HATES them. also him saying he is the owner is so funny, even if it ISN'T a lie. Like. The store is named and themed after a whole different guy.

Insane.

Beating heart... beating heart... Listen to the rhythm of the heart, replace the rhythm of the body. Beating heart, beating heart... Out of sight… Out of mind… Will you give your soul the time?

Very cool poetry, Joris. I do wonder if this is him talking to himself to remember where it is, him liking this rhythm, or him fucking with Remington for his own amusement.

Please wait here. Careful, Mr. Curious. Small chests can contain big trouble Let's have a closer look. Yeah, bring it quick. Here it is, Beating Heart.

He's so used to shitty rude customers. The fact that he keeps vous/vous'ing them is funny. The fact he only calls Remi "mr. curious" is pretty emblematic of his saintly patience.

Say hello to Beating Heart first. Huh? Say hello to a watch? You have to be kind to objects… each one has its own story to tell. Say hello to Beating Heart… you too, funny talking bow meow. Hello? Hello, Beating Heart… delighted to meet your needle. And how does it work? No idea… Objects do whatever they want. I already have a hard time putting them away. One day, a set of table knives wouldn't stand next to an old sword… a real headache, those two.

I refuse to believe that this scene is not Joris deciding to simply fuck with Remington and Grany, by saying insane things for his own amusement, and making them talk to a clock.

That or he's more mentally ill than I thought. Oh well.

You talk to objects and they talk back! better and better… I know how to listen to them, but that doesn't mean they talk to me. But how can this watch help me? Listen, little guy, my brother suffered a kind of curse. An ecaflip named Ush cast a spell on him that turned him into a bow meow. Ush? The bontarian nobleman?

Either Joris sensed he was being taken way too seriously and backed down, or he decided to go "nah they don't talk to me i just listen to them" route because he knew it'd be a way to confuse the two further and he finds that amusing, or he didn't want to come across as crazy.

But in the end, his reign of making them confused as fuck ends with their mention of Ush — with whom Joris has history, and yet, all Joris says is "bontarian nobleman"... He's hiding that history. Because now he's interested.

And it seems that this Beating Heart could help me become a rogue again. Beating Heart has the ability to give its wearer what they desire most. But to use Beating heart, you need the proficiency in magic that you don't have. It's not for sale, sorry. But for your time, I've got a magic hat that curls your hair. Do you know where you can stick that hat? You little piece of…. brat! Come on, come on… excuse him… he's having a bit of a bad hair day right now.

Notice how fast Joris switches gears: he brought these two this amulet, and was showing it off, before, immediately after Ush's mention, rapidly going "you won't be able to use it, I will not sell it, also your hair sucks ass".

As we will see later, you don't need deep magical skill to use it — you need some self-control, so I really doubt Joris was genuine here.

I have multiple theories:

Joris doesn't want beating heart, a powerful magic item, anywhere near Ush's schemes.

Joris wants them to steal it so that he has an excuse to involve himself in Ush's schemes like the noisy curtain twitcher he is. If this transaction is legitimate, he has no excuse like "UMMM YOUR VICTIMS BROKE INTO MY STORE REPLY TO ME IMMEDIATELY ABOUT WHAT YOU'RE DOING???"

Considering the fact that he puts it away under a glass dome, as Remington and Grany, rogues, watch (and they HAVE talked about robbing him) — I am leaning more strongly towards theory #2.

Thank you for everything, dear friend. No, no, you're not going to tip him on top of it! Hey bro? what's not for sale is up for grabs… As we rogues say. That's right… tonight, beating heart will be mine… he he he.

If my theory of this being a honeypot by Joris is right — then hook, line, and sinker.

On one hand, he doesn't exactly look like he's scheming, on other — he doesn't look too worried.

I think at this moment, his main concern is Ush.

(side note, he's drawn really well in this panel...)

[twitchmattentusiast]

hiii i don’t have a big enough blog but im sure you’ll be able to get ppl to help if you blog this??

https://www.tumblr.com/jasmiedhillon4/767017822600773632/i-never-imagined-id-be-in-a-position-where-id

stop thank you so much for sharing this!!!!!

i’ve read the description of the fundraiser and to try and convince you guys to donate im going to share some reasons why this kinda hits home and why im sharing this.

i don’t tell many people about this and honestly? i only started telling people four years ago and that was because 14 year old me broke down and revealed everything by accident.

i’ve lived in an abusive household. if you couldn’t tell by my nickname already i have ethnic backgrounds and abuse is unfortunately normal for people of my culture. but the lengths of abuse i dealt with were not normal.

there’s double standards in my religion. and that’s half the reason why personally i step back from it. the only time i do religious activities it to accompany my grandparents (mostly my grandma) who usually goes by herself but since im visiting ill go with her just to keep her company.

im sikh and in my religion it is very common for men to drink alcohol. its shameful for women to drink alcohol. now listen, i do drink alcohol and the females in my family do too but we’ve always drank in moderation never to a high extent. though my mum was a raging alcoholic.

my mum always had problems with alcohol. according to my uncles when she was my age she used to drink so much she’d frequently end up in the hospital. when she had me though she stopped and for years she’d have one drink every once in a while until she met my step dad.

now my step dad was an abusive alcohol asshole. he physically and mentally abused my mother and mentally abused me. when my mum kicked him out she fell into depression, and she had to blame someone so she blamed me.

i didn’t mind i used to be close to her so i let her do it. at first it was only mentally and i had already been dealing with that since i was 5 so it didn’t affect me but it quickly turned physically.

lockdown was the worst time of my life. i would hide in my room. i was so scared to go downstairs that i wouldn’t eat. i fell into depression, distanced myself from my friends i closed myself off completely. and when we restrictions were lifted my uncle came to visit and i broke down and told him everything.

since then my relationship with my mother has been non-existent. she blames me for having to marry my step dad, ruining her relationship with her family all those kinds of things.

i thought that i’d be stuck in that house forever. that id never get out. but i have. it was she’d, not easy and there’s still days that are really hard. im estranged from my mother now.

i still talk to my little sisters and my mums side of the family but not her.

all i ever wanted to do was leave. to escape the abuse and be able to live a life with no fear.

so please, please, please help this girl and her little brother. even donating a little can help so much and it can make her realise she is NOT alone.

this was very personal to share but i’m starting to tell myself that it’s okay to share things because there’s people around you who could be suffering too and you have no idea.

so if there’s anyone who’s dealing with similar situations please know that you are not alone. my inbox is always open or if you just want to talk one on one you can dm me.

i love all of you and i really hope this girl gets the help she needs.

love nim.

[kreeative-error]

“Nothing would be better/Than a mark on me, a bullet to attest”

Welcome to my blog! This is where i scream into the void or just talk to my moots. If you’re here, welcome!

Current Theme: I Lose To You by Madds Buckley

About me:

My online name is Atlas/Kree! Kree if its just an easy nickname, but Atlas works as a moots kinda deal!

I’m a minor, so please be sfw and not weird.

I am also hella queer!!

If you’re straight/dont know much about the community - Biromantic Asexual Trans Man.

If you get more complex queer terms - Genderqueer Trans Guy, Aroflux Asexual Omniromantic.

Definitely mentally ill of various flavours which i will not elaborate on for person reasons, and also the lack of diagnosis.

Definitely weird, probably cringe, and slightly crazy.

Also i swear a lot so if you dont like that, this is not the blog for you.

Current song fixation:

Hayloft || - Mother Mother

Interests:

Artists:

Madds Buckley

Conan Gray

The Crane Wives

Sparkbird

Fish in a Birdcage

IDKHowButTheyFoundMe

Specific Songs (I will totally forget to update this):

River Rushing (TCW)

Scars (TCW)

Mad Dog (TCW)

The Wolf (TCW)

Nobody (TCW)

Wine and Wheat (Madds)

I Lose to You (Madds)

Brother (Madds)

Dogbird (Madds)

The Exit (Conan)

Alley Rose (Conan)

Miss you (Conan)

Comfort Crowd (Conan)

Arboretum (Sparkbird)

#4 Fish in a birdcage (FIAB)

Absinthe (IDKhow)

Choke (IDKhow)

Games:

Totk/Botw

Pressure

Doors

Hollow Knight (in spirit)

There is definitely more I just cannot think rn.

Shows/Movies:

Arcane

The Dragon Prince

Heartstopper

The Owl House

Helluva/Hazbin

again. there is more. but the second people ask I forget.

Moots <33 (Narrowed down to the ones I actually talk to):

@theboredasexual - borace/fruit/smamon/salmon, my beloved queezy pipi (qpp) (forever seperated by a squishy wall)

@atellidoesart - telli/dermatitis, another beloved queezy pipi (forever seperated by PHYSICAL DISTANCE COME HERE I MISS YOU)

@bassguitarinablackt-shirt - fellow madds enjoyer, pjo nerd (i have never read it but he sure posts about it a lot)

@catinasink - we barely talk but theyre pretty chill

@aayeroace - the og moot. literally. my first moot that i didnt know irl.

@streetcatalex - i dont think we've spoken but i send ur rbs to the qpps every 2 seconds u have immaculate taste

(if any of yall want off this list, dm/ask me and i will take it off)

Alt Accs:

@meanwhile-in-aevynfall - worldbuilding with borace

@omg-im-obessed-with-madds - I JUST REALISED THERES A TYPO FUCK- madds buckley fan acc i barely use

@leo-is-a-trainwreck - secret account that turned into a bit with borace, but has been revealed. basically a conan gray shrine.

@frank-and-the-eggs - the forever neglected hazbin account. why am i even tagging it.

my tags:

#kree speaks - my random rambles

#kree is lyricposting once more - music related rambles. also lyricposting.

#kree is maddsposting - the dedicated madds tag

#lucky flickerman'd with kree - sad shit. hopefully wont be a lot of this.

#THATS ENOUGH OCS KREE - oc posting my beloved <333

#mootiful moots with kree - my moots <33

#the queasy pipis - borace/telli posting

(Will be added to as needed)

credits:

dividers: https://www.tumblr.com/strangergraphics/754093179264008192/vintage-floral-dividers-part-2-please-like-and?source=share

[anothd]

Tw. Vent post, talking about the war in Palestine, sa mentions, sh mentions

I got an ask about the situation in gaza and Palestine asking for donations. I'm already suspicious of all these asks, as some of these before turned out to be scam using the situation and I rather donate to well known and trusted charities and people than someone i don't even know is saying truth.

Also I'm broke 18 yo saving to move out to collage as fast as possible. Also current situation makes me unable to find work, so I'm living on very limited amount of money until I'll find it. And i need most of it to move out safely and don't end up homeless, which would probably result in dropping out.

Situation in Ukraine and news already made me scared and overwhelmed, especially cause our country shares border with Ukraine. I'm not gonna lie, I want to help, really. But I'm not able to do it and keep myself safe. I know it may be egoistic and all. But also answering i know I'll post it. And most my followers are fellow vent blogs, young mentally ill people. And i know it may trigger some or make them very uncomfortable.

Fuck it. I feel useless cause i can't do much. I can't donate to everyone in need, i cant fight I'm way to weak and coward. I don't want to rebloge posts with images of the war or anything which may trigger someone. Jirai community and vent blogs aren't maybe safe spaces, but i want to handle it as gently and safely as possible. And i know it will trigger someone, especially in my environment.

Hell it even sometimes trigger me, sometimes i cut myself cause of sa mentions in these posts and all. I know people should see it. It will help with getting help and reaction, but for some it may be way to much. Even tho i blocked these tags sometimes i see still info and news about it on other platforms, news, by friends or even still on tumblr. It was the whole fucking reason i couldn't stop cutting myself for two weeks straight. The strangest thing was when they used #matura2024 hastag on twitter. Its litteraly exam on the end of hs, why use it to send photos of dead children without even any warning? Many people who wrote mature still were mostly 17-19. Not really a good portion of group to help.

I don't really know what to do already. I really want to life in peaceful world without wars, suffering and evil but it's not possible. I can't stand thinking about suffering of others and whenever i try to cut this topic off it comes with double impact. I just don't want to get triggered or flashbacks from traumatic situations from my life. Neither I don't want to feel egoistic and useless for it all.

Medical aid for palestine

Anyway, if you can please donate for palestine and don't feel bad if you can't:

Palestine children relief fund

[sophieinwonderland]

When you’ve reached the point in syscourse where you’re sending screenshots of yourself to a cringe blog in order to be able to respond to it, that. That doesn’t seem at all healthy.

I really hope you’re taking care of yourself.

Thanks for the concern but I'm actually good.

I want to be totally upfront about the tactics I'm using. Someone once affectionately described viewing my blog as the morning news. But it's also true in a more negative way.

There's a great video by CGP Grey discussing how loud arguments will attract more bystanders and cause both sides to grow.

This is a great illustration of a big part of why I tend to argue with anti-endos so much.

If you watched what happened with "The Future is Plural," anti-endos took a slogan that only a handful of people were actually using, manufactured a controversy around it with loud and ridiculous accusations of this phrase being a call to traumatize children, then pro-endos pushed back in large swathes and the phrase became a rallying cry for our community. The more anti-endos attacked it, the stronger our resolve became to defend it.

It was amazing and we couldn't have gotten to the point where so many pro-endos adopted it if not for the anti-endos creating this opposition.

Other people view anti-endos as enemies. And I do too to an extent. They hurt so many of us and cause so much harm to innocent people.

But in the grand scheme of things, I also see them as the butterflies to our garden of flowers.

If I'm sending anti-endos images of upsetting posts from my blog to intentionally make anti-endos angry at me personally, it's because I think making them angry is the best way to propagate and spread my ideology.

(And more selfishly, advertise my own blog. But like, I wouldn't send sysmeds images of anyone else's blog out of fear of another pro-endo getting harassment they might not be able to handle. But if I'm sent harassment personally... that's just more pollination.)

Our actual biggest struggle as plurals right now is awareness. The reason so many plural children grow up without knowing what's happening to them is because the general population doesn't know much about plurality. They don't even know the sides to this argument.

Anti-endos are an enemy in a sense... but I also view them as a tool. A means to an end. Our toxic relationship with its constant fighting is one that, when utilized properly, can be of symbiosis that I think will result in greater awareness of plurality and will ultimately benefit all plurals in the future.

But to achieve this, I need them mad. I need them angry at me.

I need them to see my posts bragging about teaching people to dissociate and hallucinate because when they do, it turns me into a threat in their eyes. They view me, personally, as someone who is dangerous. And then they can't ignore me, because if they believe I'm hurting people and they do nothing, they'll be allowing me to hurt people.

When a pro-endo sees me talking about teaching people to dissociate and hallucinate, they're familiar with our practices and know these things are harmless. It has no affect on them.

When an anti-endos does, they see these scary words and see dangerous evil cult indoctrination inducing mental illness in innocent people and I'm the monster that they need to destroy.

And finally, I wouldn't say that I sent that ask because I wanted to respond to it. I sent the ask because I wanted that post I made to be visible in anti-endo tags by a blog the hardcore anti-endos follow and will see. I responded to that post to help it get more notes and appear higher up in the anti-endo tags.

And I'll confess... maybe I find it funny too. I enjoy seeing their absurdly over-the-top reactions to scary descriptions of basic tulpamancy practices. It's comic relief for me.

[crguang]

ahajsksbywpqp sat guess who has 2 tests in the same week in the same class next week. Not very fun for me. anyway I was think abt Kafka (honestly when am I not is the real question). See if it wasn’t Kafka in ur au and I was r I would definitely turn her in for the money, but I unfortunately think I might like Kafka just like a little bit ig so I don’t think k would be able to do that .

Reread part 3 today is her fingers twitching bc she wants to shoot something or is it just bc Kafka and her fingers. Ok thats not what I meant but also…what I meant was that she works with her fingers a lot I wish she used them on me instrument, guns, etc. we still haven’t gotten an in game Kafka appearance w an actual violin, it probably won’t happen but I’m still holding out. And she’s the highest threat level possible for a criminal but she STILL commits petty theft. She is so I saw someone say that the stellaron hunters were all siblings, Kafka and blade are like the older siblings that have to drive/pay for everything, silver wolf is the gamer (so original) and firefly is the youngest. Wish they had more in game interactions, or like they had synergy, meta wise, since canonically they’re one of the most tight knit groups.

oh also your inbox must be full as fuck so it’s fine if you don’t reply to everything, esp bc you answer a lot of stuff, and even tho someone already said this ur rlly great to talk to ur thoughts are always more coherent than mine. And we all get to simp over hot fictional women together.

ngl I might start playing ptn, like I’ve been seeing screenshots and…wow, I don’t think I have enough storage tho. I think the two types of characters I usually like are tiny mentally ill ones and hot evil women, so…

im so sorry my messages are always so long btw, I keep rambling 😭

-🌠

aaaa study well and good luck for your tests!!! hope you get a good grade and if u dint i will hack i to your prof’s computer and change it for you

im with you entirely, if it was anyone else in that story i wouldve already called the cops LMFAOOO kafka gets privileges because shes hot and my fav unfortunately… for the finger thing, i think its just one of her quirks! in her idle she mimics playing the violin and like you said she has very dexterous hands (even mentions it in a voice line) so i think she’d absentmindedly move them around when her mind is elsewhere. this is the kind of overthinking i was talking about, when i map out a character in my head i think about the most irrelevant stuff that dont matter😭 but imo they add to her charm a little and make her a rounder character, idk. AND YES i love that her crimes go from suicide inducement to petty theft shes so ridiculous hfjfhdhfj that time in her character story where she just walked in a store and took clothes off the rack then left in front of everyone… shes funny as hell😭

i see the SH as family too! silver wolf and firefly are sisters to me, and both of them are def kafka’s little sisters. i think silver wolf is the youngest though, she even gives off sassy youngest child vibes. i wish they could work together too, having them all in one team would be so nice. but it’s also cool that each of them has a speciality, it makes sense for the work they do

my inbox is full i think i have around 70 asks rn…😭 but to be fair a lot of them are veryyy old i just havent gotten around to cleaning up my blog yet, i’ll do it at the same time i change my masterlist and actually make it pretty to look at. i usually try to click on notifs as soon as i see them but like i said, i just forget to type my answers </3

and omg. anon. if your type is mentally ill and hot evil women ptn is literally the game for you. there is an abundance of mentally ill women in there, trust me… like there’s every kind of character you could want in that game— you could give me a specific type and i could find you a character that matches it, you should definitely play. and if you do, do it before the second anniversary ends (starts around mid/late-october) bc trust me you are gonna be upset if you miss shalom :/

dont worry abt ramblingggg i love talking to u and answering every point it’s really nice!!